Chapter 27 salute the ants

Liu Hanxiang was awakened by Lao Qiao's plum blossom needle. When the first needle was inserted, there was no response; when the second needle was inserted, there was still no response; when the third plum-blossom needle was inserted, Liu Hanxiang grunted and spit out a mouthful of blood slowly... Old Qiao said , woke up, woke up. In Shangliang, Lao Qiao was considered a single householder, his legs were not good, and he swayed when he walked.But no one in the village laughed at him, because the old Joe knew how to prick needles, so he was nicknamed "Joe Three Needles", which won the respect of the villagers.For ordinary minor illnesses and minor disasters, Lao Qiao will be cured with one injection. If there is no response after three consecutive injections, Lao Qiao will not be cured.Therefore, in the village, Old Qiao is very "god".It is said that there were some "problems" in the history of what Old Qiao had done in the team when he was young, but he knew how to needle, so the villagers didn't care too much.Old Qiao is also very self-aware, no matter whoever in the village invites him, he will go, and he will not take any money.

When Lao Qiao gave Liu Hanxiang an injection, all the villagers crowded in, and there were people standing inside and outside the house... Now the matter of Liu Hanxiang has become the matter of the whole village!Speaking of the behavior of the old uncle's family, people would say "Bah!" Amidst people's spittle, the old uncle squatted in the corner, blindfolded all the time, he didn't say a word, what else could he say? Party secretary Liu Guodou has been squatting on a big stone roller opposite the village street, smoking one mouthful after another.In case there is something wrong with the daughter, then...there is a tree above the head, and there is a clock on the tree!

In the room, seeing Liu Hanxiang's reaction, Old Qiao raised his eyelids and whispered to everyone, "Go out for a while, all of you. I have something to say to Hanxiang alone." After everyone heard this, they also exited the door tactfully, but they still refused to leave. They all stood in the village street outside the courtyard... After everyone withdrew one by one, Old Qiao closed the door and said, "Hanxiang, You've already died once, how?" Liu Hanxiang remained silent.She first stared blankly at the roof, and after a long, long time, she uttered a word: "Light."

Old Joe said, "What did you see?" Liu Hanxiang said: "...light." Old Joe said, "What did you hear?" Liu Hanxiang said: "...light." Then, Old Qiao suddenly said: "Just leave, why come back?" Liu Hanxiang remained silent, and gradually, tears appeared in the corners of his eyes. Old Qiao said: "Han Xiang, you are exhausted, full of worry and anger, stagnated in your heart, and you have held on for too long...Cry, let's cry, just cry." Liu Hanxiang didn't cry.Although there were tears in the corners of her eyes, she just didn't cry.

Old Qiao said: "Hanxiang, it doesn't matter if you go or not, but a person is just a breath. If you can't get the breath, you will go. In the early years, I also 'walked' once.'Go 'At that moment, the person is very comfortable, it is light, like a feather, floating in the eyes of the clouds, unrestrained. If the person puts it down, it is really light! Later, I felt A gust of black wind blew over, and I fell all of a sudden, and I saw that I was falling, falling into a black hole, a deep abyss... There was a 'buzz', and I woke up like in a dream. Is that so?"

Liu Hanxiang said, "Yes." Old Qiao sighed and said, "Actually, if you leave, you will leave." Liu Hanxiang said silently: "If you leave, you will leave." Old Qiao said: "Hanxiang, girl. To tell you the truth, I killed someone in the early years. I have never said this to anyone in the village. I will tell you today. Back then, I was indeed I worked in the team of Ma Bufang in Northwest China. At that time, I was a horse doctor and treated horses. Ma has a human nature. He is in the army and has been in the army all year round. Just like people, horses are also sad and angry. Back then, I saw with my own eyes a tall horse that was healthy and died suddenly. It died standing up. Similarly, if it accumulates for too long, it will fall down one day...Speaking of which, I still learned my acupuncture from my master. Back then, my master had a nickname that was famous in the Northwest Majiajun, called "Yizhenhan" '. In the business of treating horses, my master can be said to be the top expert, known as Master Ma. At that time, Master Ma would sweat profusely and tremble with every injection, no matter how fierce or stubborn the horse was. Not only that... But Mr. Ma has a bad habit. To put it bluntly, he is a flower picker. My master, no matter where he goes, he picks up wherever he goes. He often wears a sweat towel in his waist, Generally, he snatched a girl from another family, got on the horse, took her to the field, put the needle in, and the girl stopped moving, and then spread the sweat towel under the girl's body... He told me that this is called "Caimei". ', said it was used for moistening acupuncture. At that time, I didn't know much about this aspect. Since the master said it was used for moistening acupuncture, I thought it was for moistening acupuncture. Later, I gradually learned Some things, finally one day, I fell out with my master—it was because of a woman. That woman was with me for three years, and suddenly one day, she ran away with my master. At that time, my master was six years old. In my teens, it can be said that my heart and eyesight are not as good as mine, but he actually abducted my woman! This made me extremely hateful. So I chased them in Qilian Mountains for seven days, and finally caught up with them. Then For a moment, when I pointed the gun at the master, what I never expected was that the woman suddenly stood in front of the master! At this moment, I looked at the woman, with mixed feelings for a while, and I couldn’t tell what was in my heart It tastes good... So, I asked her: Why?! The woman said a word, which is something I will never forget, and the woman said, good work! At this time, the gun rang out, and it was the master. I fired the shot, and I fired the shot after, and I shot through both of them! The master's marksmanship is very good, but he is old after all, and his hands are shaking, but he still hit... I don't know how long it will take, wait for me When I woke up, both the master and the woman were dead, and they were still hugging each other tightly when they died. At that time, all my thoughts were lost, my body was covered in blood, and I was lying on the ground. One of my hearts was empty, and the other was light... I just feel that this person’s life is really meaningless, so let’s die. You think, what does it feel like when a person is waiting to die? As long as a person relaxes, he is lighter than a fart. But at this moment, you guess I What did I see?—Ant, it was a red ant. The ant was lying on my sleeve. I don’t know why. When I saw this ant, I burst into tears. I was Cry out loud wow. At that time, the antsLook at me, I look at the ants, we just stared at each other, I don't know how long we looked at each other... the blue sky and white clouds, and there was no sound around.In the desert, how could there be ants in such a depression where not even grass grows?Besides, there is only such an ant?I feel like this is an ant given to me by God.The ancients said, even ants, let alone humans?So, I took this ant to climb outside.I was seriously injured, and the bullet hit very close to the heart... I put the ant in a small pill box covered with sand, and every time I climbed a section, I let it out to have a look , and then climb again.Every time the ant is released, it starts to crawl forward desperately and never stops.When I climbed to the third day, I really didn't want to climb anymore, I felt that I couldn't climb anymore, so I let the ant out and said in my heart, Ant, ant, you are dead, I don't want to climb anymore up.Then, I stretched out my hand, trying to crush the ant to death. You think, for a person who has lost all hope, crushing an ant is nothing.However, when the hand was stretched out, the ant was not afraid at all, it was still crawling, slowly and bit by bit... At this time, my hand shook, it was my only companion!I know that sooner or later I will die, but with this ant, I am not so lonely.So, I suddenly decided to take a bet with this ant. If the ant died, I would stop climbing. If the ant was alive, I would keep climbing.In this way, one after another, I climbed up to the seventh day, and I finally met a camel team... Later, I broke up with that ant.When we parted, I saluted the ant. I was still a soldier at that time, and I did the military salute.I was lucky enough to survive because of this ant!In this life, there are two things that I don't know. One is where did the ants come from?The second is the woman's words, what the woman said is 'good work' or 'good work'..."

Then, Old Qiao said: "Hanxiang, in the village, when I walk, do I often make people laugh? I know, they all say that I walk like a 'jumping god' behind my back. Some people call me 'Jiao Shuzi' , I know this. But no one knows that it is because I am afraid of stepping on ants. In this life, the only thing I dare not step on is ants. Ants are my benefactors, and it is the ants who enlighten me. Speaking of which, I am also the woman She shouldn't have been killed. Just left, why kill her? As the saying goes, people don't know the seriousness. In fact, only those who have died once know what is light and what is heavy..."

Everyone has a history, and everyone has their own history, and the history is hidden in their hearts. If he doesn't tell you, you will never know what kind of life he has experienced... Live, what a life!How many mysteries are hidden in that word? ! That being said, Liu Hanxiang's heart still hurts.Eight years of waiting, eight years of hard work, and eight years of hard work are like pouring blood on dog dung!Those days of waiting, year after year, day by day, are vivid in my mind...Suddenly, that word was broken, broken so completely!The pain, pulse by pulse, awn by awn, pierced to the extreme, but also subtle to the extreme.You can't think, no matter whether you open your eyes or close them, they are broken piece by piece, and the shattering becomes cracks of memory, and the cracks are filled with salt grains and crushed pepper; the pain, It is mixed with pepper and then salted.In the locust forest, in the straw stacks, in the sorghum field, in the corn field, it was so easy... Why are people so stupid when they are good?Why do you believe so?Thinking over and over, thinking over and over again, can't you think that there will be today's ending? !

Liu Hanxiang looked at herself with wide eyes.She saw that she had come to today step by step, the ending was waiting here, the ending was waiting for her like this!Year after year, she believed in him so much, and her heart never left him for a moment.She came by herself.She is also quietly buying a dowry for herself.It was accumulated bit by bit based on my mind. I saved a small piece of cloth today, left a small strand of silk thread tomorrow, and found a new pattern the day after tomorrow. Even a pillowcase embroidered with mandarin ducks had to be accumulated for a long time... At first, In the five years, how many paths she drew on the wall, how many tears she shed secretly, and sometimes she couldn't bear it, but she just stood up little by little, day by day. Boil day by day.With her, can she be a woman who can't get married?How high is her heart, how much she wants people to see her happiness in the future, and live with an enviable pride and pride!In those five years, if he had said earlier that he didn't want to, she wouldn't just wait like this.He wrote it!In the past five years, every year, he wrote those three words on the back of the certificate: wait for me.wait for me.wait for me.wait for me.Wait for me—he's a man, are men so untrustworthy? !But... everything has become a fleeting cloud of smoke, a dream made of shit!Alas, she has been weaving mats for so many years, weaving her dreams day by day, but in the end, she has become a broken mat that no one wants.This is all done by myself!The reeds you cut, the mills you pushed, the sticks you broke, the painstaking efforts you made... This is called self-grinding, this is called self-breaking, and who can you blame? !

Ants, I really should ask ants, the distance is so short and the life is so hard, why do you still live?Do ants want face?Should the ants be ashamed?The throat is always very fishy, ​​the blood rushes up one after another, presses down, comes up again, presses down again, the head swells like a fight, the strength is really exhausted!When a person reaches this level, whether he is dead or alive, it is a shame, and you will not be able to wash away this shame!Just outside the gate, the whole village is watching you.There are so many people looking at you, and a village of spittle, how can you be sure that it won't splash on you? !

Long time, long time... Liu Hanxiang opened his eyes, and said dumbly, "Job, you can go. I'm fine." Old Qiao said: "Girl, there is a saying, and I still want to say that it is better to see the world." Liu Hanxiang said: "The world?" Old Qiao said: "When you go out, you will know that the pot is made of iron." Liu Hanxiang was silent for a while, and said, "Job, you go. I want to lie alone for a while." Old Qiao sighed and left.The room suddenly fell silent, it was a very lonely silence, and there was a kind of emptiness in that silence, the emptiness of the soul.Nakong is like a bug, nibbling away at people's consciousness bit by bit... After a while, the door creaked softly, and someone came in again, it was the old uncle.The old uncle walked in and walked in. Without saying a word, he knelt down on the ground and said in a trembling voice, "Han Xiang, you can't die. No matter what, you can't die. You must never have That kind of thought, no matter how bad the day is, you can’t go that way. Girl, benefactor, listen to me, you have pity on me...” Just saying that, his head hit the ground heavily On the ground, there was a "dong dong" sound! Knocking and knocking, the old uncle suddenly raised his head, and was startled!At some point, Liu Hanxiang sat up.Liu Hanxiang with a pale face sat against the wall and said softly, "Father, what are you doing? Did I say I was going to die?" The old uncle was stunned for a moment, and quickly said: "That's good, that's good. I've already sent them into the city, and I'm going to tie them back." Liu Hanxiang laughed, Liu Hanxiang gave a miserable laugh, and said softly, "So what if you come back?" The old uncle hesitated for a moment, and said: "Come back, let him... consummate the house. If he, if he dares to refuse, he will take off his military uniform!" Liu Hanxiang murmured, "So what if you pick it up?" The old uncle gaped and said, "Then, then, according to your mind...how should I do it?" Liu Hanxiang was silent for a moment, then suddenly said: "Father, I'm hungry. Go and beat me a bowl of eggs." The old uncle kept saying: "That's good, that's good. You wait, wait..." As he said that, he walked out the door and looked back at Liu Hanxiang uneasy. Liu Hanxiang said: "Go. Really, I'm hungry." After the bowl of egg tea was served, Liu Hanxiang didn't take a bite, she couldn't take it anymore, she felt like throwing up when she smelled that smell, she just wanted to be alone. In the middle of the night, when people were fast asleep, there was some movement in the yard.The sound was broken and mixed, intermittent, as if some pig hairs were stuffed in the throat, and he couldn't spit it out, swallow it but couldn't swallow it, the breath was squeezed out in a thread.Next, the rattling, rattling sound was like mice fighting, it sounded like chirping... At this time, Liu Hanxiang in the room spoke, and Liu Hanxiang said, "Come in." Four eggs, one by one, bowed their heads and entered the room.Then, one by one, they knelt down in front of Liu Hanxiang... In fact, they came back a long time ago, and they had already arrived at the county seat in the middle of the morning.It's just that they dare not enter the village, they are afraid of the sea of ​​spittle!They wandered outside for a long time, until the dogs stopped barking, and then quietly came back to the village.But what should I say? Liu Hanxiang looked at them and said sharply, "Are your knees that weak? Stand up." So, the four eggs stood up obediently, but their heads were still hooked. At this moment, Liu Hanxiang said softly, "Did you see your brother?" The four eggs, seeing the "sister-in-law" haggard like this, burst into tears, no one dared to speak. Liu Hanxiang asked again: "Fifth, have you met?" Lao Wu said with tears, "See you." Liu Hanxiang laughed suddenly, she laughed out loud!Laughing and laughing, she coughed violently, her face was flushed with coughing, and another mouthful of blood spewed out of her mouth... Several eggs surrounded her in a panic, shouting one by one: "Sister-in-law!" Ah, sister-in-law..." Liu Hanxiang took a breath and murmured, "Your brother is really worthless, isn't he just a registered permanent residence?" At this moment, the old uncle said anxiously, "I'll go! I'll go overnight. If he doesn't come back, I'll hang myself on his gate!" The four eggs looked at their father one by one in panic, not knowing what to do...Liu Hanxiang shook his head and said, "No need, no need to go. I know what he's thinking... just do it."