Chapter 7 The first part - the provocative spring night in the near future

After watching old movies and drinking, I stood on the street waiting for the bus in the early morning of early spring, and my sleepiness disappeared.I called a friend and went to her place.We knew each other more than ten years ago when she was working at the Heaven and Earth Nightclub. I am a peaceful person, but sometimes I need her, so I would go to her.Counting it, I haven't looked for it for two years, and I haven't even thought about it, until recently, until today. Unexpectedly, I still couldn't fall asleep when I got home, what a mind-blowing spring night.In the past few days, one thing has been on my mind, should I send an email to Xiaoxi?

Sister Song said that Xiaoxi often changed emails, and she didn’t write, because she was afraid that she would change again, and she would not be able to contact her if she wanted to. Writing, I thought, would cause trouble for myself.She's always been my type of woman, and I've had a crush on her since she opened a restaurant and a lot of customers were coming to her.Although we have known each other for twenty years, we can be said to be old friends, but we have never been close in terms of men and women, not even flirting. One is that she is always surrounded by a group of men, some seem to be buddies, and some are Suitors, some of whom failed to pursue became buddies.She is the kind of woman who has only male friends and no female friends around her, but at the same time, she is the kind of person who is not conscious of her own charm, thinking that male friends are really just buddies.I never made up my mind to be close to her, nor did she express it in particular, she only regarded me as a friend from beginning to end.Later I thought she was going to marry a foreigner and go to England, but it looked like she didn't get married, but I haven't contacted her for seven or eight years since then.

One concern I already had at the time was that she was a troublemaker.She is not the kind of intellectual dissident, but in the past thirty years, political troubles have always followed her, entirely because her character is too straightforward, too stubborn, and she is simply jealous and easy to offend people.In the past, many people were willing to help her, including some foreigners. Now, such foreigners are gone. No one wants to offend the CCP. Those who are willing to offend probably cannot get a visa to enter China. The people around her, Life is going well, I don't want to make a fuss, I guess I avoid her a little bit, that's why she said that the people around her have changed in the small park last time.

After meeting Sister Song and Wei Guo, I felt that Xiaoxi must have gotten into trouble again recently, and now I am even more sure that she was followed last time in the small park next to the art museum. If I'm nice to her, won't her troubles become my troubles?I am living a good life now, everything is predictable, full of happiness, what stupid am I?But if I meet her, as long as she shows a little interest in me, I can't help but want to be nice to her.She is much older, with more wrinkles on her face, and more gray hair on her head, but I still like her, and she is very attractive to me sexually.That's what scares me. I haven't thought about a woman like this for a long time.However, even if we get along on the spur of the moment, we will definitely not be able to get along with her. She imagined me to be the same as her ten years ago. In fact, I am the person she said has changed around me. We are in a different state of mind now, and our judgments on the current situation are also different. She and I must not be speculative, and we cannot talk together.I recalled when Chen Shui-bian came out to run for re-election as president in Taiwan. Many friends and families had men who supported the KMT and women who supported the DPP.

Facing the computer, I stared blankly at the note that Sister Song gave me.Suddenly, an idea came into my mind: Isn’t the thing I haven’t done in my life just to write a novel?What is more important to me than writing a good novel?But why can't I write a word for so long?It is because life is too stable, the mood is too happy, and life is too stress-free, in other words, too happy.Who can pull me out of bliss?Obviously, it was Xiaoxi. The small note says [email protected], which I can understand, and the pinyin in front of the little mouse: If You Are the One OK.