Chapter 13 She laughed, rocking her head back and forth -1

Like a great river breaking its embankment, they cannot help themselves The sound of the piano stopped abruptly.It was very quiet all around, no one approached, and there was no voice of speaking, it was extraordinarily quiet, a kind of breath-holding silence, which made people feel that there were hidden eyes and ears everywhere.However, now I can't care much about it.He was so nervous that he almost stopped breathing, only his heart was beating violently.He actually thought she had heard his own heartbeat, his face turned pale with shame and embarrassment, he didn't dare to look at her, but felt it was wrong, he still had to look at her, his eyes couldn't hold on halfway, he compromised, and lowered his eyes.

She just knits the wool quickly, then pinches the needle point with her left hand, frees her right hand to pluck the wool, and after a few strands, she says, "What a puller is there for a broken violin!" He breathed a sigh of relief, forced a smile and said, "I didn't play the accordion, I learned the cello." "Why don't you buy a cello yourself?" she asked, going on knitting again. "What's the point of buying it?" "Isn't it interesting not to buy it?" She said angrily. He just smiled: "The cello needs a band, and I find it interesting to sit in the band and play the cello."

"Then buy a band!" she said.After all, both of them laughed.When they laughed, they glanced at each other, and they both felt their hearts light up, as if there was some communication, and some tacit understanding had been established. "I'm such an unlucky ghost." He relaxed, and talked a little too much, "After all kinds of difficulties, I was transferred here just to join the song and dance troupe, but the song and dance troupe disbanded again, and in the end, it seemed that I came here just for the Cultural Palace. " "What's wrong with you?" She glanced at him.

The blood in his whole body froze, and he had a premonition of what was going to happen, and he was afraid and a little bit looking forward to it. She just didn't speak, knitting one stitch at a time.After a while, she slowly said: "The Cultural Palace is nice and quiet. If you want to go to the factory, you can try it. I used to work in a fruit company, and I had to stand for eight hours a day, and I had to deal with some bastards. That was my bad luck." Woolen cloth." "Why are there still bums?" He asked puzzled. She glanced at him and smiled again: "A bum is a bum."

He was embarrassed to ask again, but he was still puzzled. Only then did she explain slowly: "I was standing there, and many stinky men came to buy dried fruits on purpose, but they didn't really want to buy dried fruits, understand?" "Understood." He said, but he was a little embarrassed and didn't dare to look at her. "I'm not ugly, am I?" she asked suddenly. He murmured unable to answer. She laughed, rocking back and forth.After laughing, he said, "Is my sweater well knitted?" She unfolded the half-knitted sweater, held it up, covered her face, and told him to look.He had to look back.

The sun was behind her, illuminating the sweater brightly, and her outline was clearly reflected.It turns out that the pattern of the sweater is thin, and the mesh overlaps, giving people a thick feeling.However, after all, there is a cover, he calmed down and looked at the beautiful silhouette reflected behind the sweater.But she was behind the sweater, but she could see him clearly.She saw his eyes at last, felt sure, and was very happy.He suddenly noticed that the eyes behind the sweater flickered mysteriously.Like stars twinkling in the night sky.In a panic, he turned his head and murmured:

"nice." Then she put down the sweater and continued knitting. At this moment, none of them spoke. After a moment of silence, she suddenly asked again: "Did you just say that I look good, or that the sweater looks good?" He was a little annoyed when he saw that she was pretending to be naive on purpose to embarrass him.But he really thought she was cute, so he had no choice but to answer: "They all look good." After answering, his face was blushing and his heart was pounding, almost wanting to run away. She naturally sensed this, so she let him go, chatted casually, and left.He walked out straight away, without even looking at him, which made him feel melancholy.

After this time, their relationship seemed to have been thawed out, and they started dating again.Although what he said was gossip, it had an unusual meaning.And have a very close relationship.She sat in his office almost every day, and the colleagues in the same room always tactfully avoided her to give them convenience.Although they were uneasy in their hearts, they were so dizzy that they no longer cared about that.One day, he came to her typing room.Next door is the office of the leader. The leader is not on duty, and the entertainment room is not open during the day. The whole small building is almost empty.The two of them were sitting in that small room in the empty building, suddenly a little speechless.The vast emptiness and the narrow distance are forcing them, forcing them to say something meaningful.Those usual gossips here seem boring and contrived, and no one can utter them.After being silent for a long time, she stood up from the high stool in front of the typewriter, his heart shrank suddenly, and he was almost breathless.He felt that she was walking towards him, there was only one step between them, but he didn't understand how she could walk for so long.He was dizzy and spinning.She stood in front of him, he couldn't take it anymore, he really couldn't take it anymore, and he stretched out his hand to her for help, and she was also stretching out her hand to him.They just hug each other, if they don't hug each other, they will all collapse.When they hugged each other, they felt relieved all of a sudden, as if they were relieved from something.He hugged her hot body, and she hugged his cold body, unable to speak a word.Outside the window is a piece of blue sky, with a few faint clouds drifting slowly.His slender fingers groped gently on her neck, like cold dewdrops rolling gently.She had never experienced such a cold caress, and this cold caress aroused her fiery passion.He seemed to be enveloped in a flame, almost suffocating.It was a suffocation of joy, and oh how happy they were!Oh dear, how sinful they are!

From then on, it was like a great river broke its embankment, and they couldn't help themselves.The desire for each other gradually increased, and the meeting in the typing room during the day was far from enough to meet the needs.They start dating again and again and again.After dinner, I found an excuse to go out and meet up in a remote place far away.Then he rode her little wheeled buggy, while she sat behind the frame, and together they went further afield, often out of town.They forgot everything, regardless of shame, regardless of humiliation, curled up in the bushes, huddled together in a frenzy.In addition to all the excitement and joy of love, there is also the joy of adventure, the noble joy of tragedy, the great joy of rebellion... Almost unconsciously, the three stars have sunk, and I have to go back.The moment of breaking up is the most worrying moment, my heart is full of tenderness, but I have to pretend to be strangers, and go my separate ways like I don’t know each other, and go back to my own home.

Women are always waiting for him and don't ask much.He thanked her for her silence from the bottom of his heart.But he also hoped that if she asked her thoroughly, he could explain.Now she didn't ask any questions like this, as if everything was clear, but she didn't give him a chance to explain.He even felt the contempt in her eyes, and felt very guilty in his heart.Women don't know anything, but they seem to know everything.In the evening, it is not common for a man to go out by himself, not to mention that he always looks a little panicked, and he is also panicked when he comes home. He falls headfirst on the bed and stops moving, as if he has fallen asleep, as if he has not even breathed.But when he was really asleep, he became restless, turned over a lot, and his posture became strange, completely different from usual.In the past, no matter how tired he was, he would inevitably spend some time with her, and then like a cat, he curled up obediently and fell asleep, as quiet as a fetus.She looked at his sleeping appearance, always loving and pitiful in her heart.Where is that tranquility now?When he held his breath and pretended to sleep, she also closed her eyes motionless.Both parties must convince each other that they have fallen asleep, slept peacefully, felt at ease, and nothing happened.When he really fell asleep and the bed was tossed, she opened her eyes, looked at the darkness in front of her, and her heart was full of worry.She is a very intelligent woman, and she can be said to be a pool of clear water in her heart.If she had been braver and bowed down a little more, she could have concluded that the man had encountered entanglements between men and women.Her wisdom is enough to make her see everything.But she wasn't brave enough, and she was too self-loving. She thought of all the reasons, but she didn't think of this.However, since she is extremely intelligent, all reasons can not convince her.She is still full of doubts.But because she wasn't brave enough, and because she loved him so much, she never thought of asking him.If he did that, with her firmness and intelligence, he, who is weak, would tell the whole story without asking a question or two.But she didn't ask, she just looked worriedly at the man struggling and twisting in his sleep, unable to fall asleep night after night.

He courted her as atonement.For some extremely unnecessary housework, he has to fight for it with a hundredfold enthusiasm and persistence.She has washed the laundry to the last pot of water, and it will be finished in a few minutes, and he has to fight for it; she has a stack of bowls, and he has to grab it and let him take it; When his daughter came home, he had to take a detour to take up this responsibility.The cement floor was mopped three times a day.The youngest daughter will go to school in autumn, and she is no longer young, but he still wants to hold her on his lap, hug her tightly and keep kissing until she cries and scolds "Stinky Daddy".The eldest daughter watched quietly, neither smiling nor angry, but there was a look of scrutiny in his eyes, so he tried his best to please the eldest daughter and asked questions.The school needed to buy crayons, but he even bought twenty-four colors of watercolor paints.But no matter how hard he tried, he couldn't relieve a trace of guilt, and he fell into great pain. She also felt the pain.She met the man's suspicious gaze with defiance.The man asked her what she was doing so late.She then replied impulsively: I went to find a wild man.Because what he said was the truth, when he hit a critical point, he shuddered first.But he was angry at this trembling, laughed at himself for being cowardly, and said some bold words, but he became more and more heavy.Heaviness is an extremely strange feeling to her. She has never known that there is a heavy side and a responsible side in life.Because of this strangeness and unfamiliarity, this heavy feeling oppressed her more than anyone else.为了摆脱这压迫而又摆脱不掉，她变得非常狂躁，甚至对虽不算深爱却也喜欢的儿子，也常常发火，为了一些小事就揍得他鼻青脸肿。Feeling distressed and annoyed afterwards, I could only hold my son and cry bitterly.Her son wiped her tears with his little hands, and her heart was almost broken.When there is still compromise with her son, she will never compromise with a man.She was always rude to him, she didn't give him a good face during the day, but only gave him a back at night, but her heart was soft as hell.The man just doesn't understand, because of his extreme pride, he doesn't want to understand, he can smoke a lot of cigarette butts overnight.However, after all, he is a man with extremely strong body and nerves, and he is finally about to take action. On a dark and stormy night, two minutes after she went out, he followed her out on a bicycle.Because of the humiliation, he even shed tears.If she could see the tears of this proud man, there might be a glimmer of hope for a change of heart.But he will never let her see it, so she is also doomed to go forward.He followed from a distance.The back of her wearing a big red sweater was so eye-catching in the night, like a lively flame, he hated her so much that his heart was broken.Just as they met, she handed the bicycle to him, and let him get on the bike, while she jumped onto the rear frame, his tears dried up suddenly, and he kicked the bike and jumped up.The squeaking sound of the wheel chain is particularly harsh in the remote suburbs.She turned around cleverly, jumped out of the car immediately, and said softly: "Go quickly." Pushing him out of the car, he almost fell off.At this time, the man came to her, and she turned sideways proudly, looking at him provocatively.Seeing that the man was gone, he turned his head and slapped her, and then slapped her again, but she didn't move, and she didn't even block her hand.The pain washed away her humiliation, and she was almost happy in her heart.The ears are buzzing, like singing a song.In this slap, she paid off all her debts to the man, so she relaxed. The next day, like a gust of wind, the news spread all over the Cultural Palace, and she would never confess him even if she died, so there was no need to guess that it was him.She took everything on her body, saying that she seduced him, she fell in love with him, she asked him out for a tryst, everything was her, so come to her.However, the responsibility is always on the man's side, not to mention, he is older than her.He didn't give any explanation, just muttered, punish him, let him go.So, she remained in the typing room, while he was transferred out of the office and transferred to the theater to do chores in the theater, control the sound amplification during the conference, pull the curtain during the performance, check the tickets when the movie opened, and sweep the floor when the show ended. . No one told him about the woman, but how could such a big event happen in such a small place, how could it be kept hidden.The film company union had booked a movie at the Cultural Palace Theater, and she took her daughter to watch it.Seeing him standing in front of the theater gate checking tickets from a distance, I suddenly understood everything in my heart.She told her daughter that she forgot the movie ticket.Go home and get it.I couldn't find it when I got home, so I had to forget it.After the daughter complained, she sat down and started to do her homework.She was still calm at first, replaced the briquettes on the stove, sat on the water, and collected the clothes on the balcony. When the water on the stove hissed, she suddenly felt weak and dragged a small bench to sit down. , holding the knees.Fascinated.He went around a long way to pick up his little daughter and returned home. The daughter had already finished her homework and went downstairs to play rubber bands with her companions. The water on the stove was silent, and the lid chugs, and the woman sat with her back on the stove in a daze.He hurriedly filled the bottle with water, but after filling more than half of the bottle, it ran out of water.He said timidly, "The water is boiling." She shivered for a while, turned to look at him, forced a smile, and stood up on her knees: "It's time to wash the rice." "I'll come." He said, and began to measure rice, wash rice, and sit on the stove.Cutting meat and vegetables, I was too busy to touch the ground. She retreated to the kitchen door, leaned against the door frame and watched him busy, she was so bitter that she couldn't hold back her tears. He didn't dare to raise his head, his hands trembled, and the knife saw back and forth on the flesh, but he couldn't cut through.Tears trickled down, and before I could wipe them off, they fell on the chopping board one by one.