Chapter 12 Amy: Until Death (6) -1

Huang Hai stopped calling, Shi Yan felt empty, the only consolation was "this is good for everyone".She tried her best not to think about her interactions with Huang Hai over the years, because the more she thought about it, the more uncomfortable she felt. It could really be considered anticlimactic, even worse than anticlimactic, like eating a whole plate of peanuts, and it was fine until the last meal One was moldy peanuts, which covered up the aroma in front of it, and I ate a plate for nothing. I really feel sorry for those peanuts that are not moldy in front. Now she sticks to three things to comfort herself. One is that Huang Hai had a first love, which shows that he didn't always pretend to be her in his heart, but only thought of her after his first love failed; Her contacts show that he has a very temper. Now she just said "mean", and he lost his temper. What if she called him "ugly"?Don't you want to lose your temper even more?Although the third point was the fuse that caused their breakup, it seems that it is not so important now, that is, Huang Hai is always throwing great shit.

She arranged these reasons from high to low according to the severity of the plot, and slowly, the third one was crossed out, as if she didn't lose her temper that time because of the yellow sea dung splashing on Zhuoyou, but because he said she didn't It was her own responsibility to get into a good school, that's why she lost her temper.But she also remembered that Huang Hai didn't say that, she just said that she herself was also responsible. "Certain responsibility" doesn't seem to be too much, because she was really flustered during the college entrance examination.

Then, the second point didn't seem to be a big mistake, she called him mean, of course he was angry.Vile! What a serious word! And she remembered that after she said "vile", he didn't get angry, but said very sadly, "I can't do anything", which means that he didn't run away because of anger, but because of despair , a man desperate for love, can you blame him for running away? Now there is only the first one left, it is useless for her to excuse him no matter what, because it is a fact.She now feels that the reason why she has not been able to fall into Huang Hai's arms is because of his girlfriend. If he loved her in the first place instead of that female classmate, then she would definitely not care about his appearance.

With this reason to stay there, she felt much better.She thought, I don't ask for anything in love, I only ask that he has never loved anyone else, is this too much?She herself replied: Not at all too much.But she also knew in her heart that although this requirement was not too much, there were not many boys who could meet this requirement, and there would only be fewer and fewer boys in the future. She doesn't understand what's wrong with boys, why they love to find a girlfriend early, but they don't follow through with the love after finding it, and then they blow it off to find another girlfriend, which makes the girl in the back angry Yu Huai, he himself didn't have a good life, and in the end, he couldn't carry out his love to the end, so he had to blow it off and find a new girlfriend, a vicious circle.Can't boys spot one at a glance and avoid more trouble?

She originally wanted to say that girls are not like this, but she immediately thought of Yao Xiaoping, and found that not all girls are like this.But she is very confident in herself and feels that she will not be like this.She thought, I'll look carefully beforehand, and if I'm sure, I won't fall in love if I don't look right;If everyone was like me, there would be a lot less unfortunate people in this world. She mentioned this to Yao Xiaoping with the pride of a role model in love. Yao Xiaoping warned her: "You don't like boys who have had girlfriends? Then you'd better find one quickly, because the older you meet, the older you will be." Bigger, the greater the possibility of having a girlfriend before---"

She thought to herself that I have the final say on this matter?I want to quickly find one can quickly find one?But she didn't say it out, for fear that Yao Xiaoping would think she was in a hurry to find a boyfriend. Yao Xiaoping asked curiously, "Why hasn't Zhuoyou contacted you yet?" "how could I know?" "Is there any news about your staying in school?" She felt that Yao Xiaoping asked the question knowingly, if there was news, how could Yao Xiaoping not know?She expressed her dissatisfaction by keeping silent, and Yao Xiaoping suggested: "I think Zhuoyou is forcing you to find him, so you can go to him, anyway, it's for staying in school, and it's not shameful, as long as you don't let him Just take the opportunity to take advantage of you--"

She felt that Yao Xiaoping and Yao Xiaoping were getting more and more speechless. It was really like two cars running on the road, and there was no possibility of handover.But Yao Xiaoping didn't seem to think so, and said enthusiastically, "Shall I ask for you?" She lazily said: "Forget it, I'm ready to go back to 'Dongdongguai', at worst, I'll take the postgraduate entrance examination in two years--" "You made Huang Hai go away in anger, how can you still take the postgraduate entrance examination?" She didn't like the saying "drove Huang Haiqi away", as if she was responsible, but she had nothing to say, because she was indeed the one who made him go away.She said angrily: "Without him, I wouldn't be able to take the postgraduate entrance examination? I don't believe in this evil--"

"You don't know about this. The postgraduate entrance examination is not like the undergraduate examination. There is no national unified examination for professional courses. The tutors themselves write the questions. Whoever the tutor likes will recruit. If you don't have inside information, how do you know what the tutor likes? Such a student? I'm afraid it will be very difficult to get into the exam--" Yao Xiaoping said a lesson, "I told you not to blow the Yellow Sea away, if you don't believe it--" She said sincerely, "I wouldn't do something so mean—"

Yao Xiaoping smiled: "Now you have a 'despicable' on the left and a 'despicable' on the right. In fact, you have never seen the real despicable people. You scold people who are not despicable, and you can’t see the real despicable people at all. Their despicableness. Forget it, let's not talk to you about this, let's go to our graduation assignment." When Yao Xiaoping said she was busy, she was really busy. Before the formalities for staying in the attached high school were completed, the attached high school came to ask Yao Xiaoping to take over the class, because a teacher leading the senior year fell ill, and the school was in a hurry, afraid of the impact. The school's college entrance examination results.Yao Xiaoping has been there for a few days, and she is very well received by the school. She has arranged for Yao's classes for the next semester. She is teaching senior three, and she will start working during the summer vacation to make up lessons for students, and she will be paid.

Yao Xiaoping happily reported the good news to Shi Yan every day, and said today: "That's it, I have to make up classes during the summer vacation, so I can stay in City D." Two days later, he said: "The school said that the teachers of our attached high school are treated the same as the teachers and staff of the teacher's college. Young teachers can be divided into half dormitories. Shi, you should finish the matter of staying in school quickly. Two people can share a bedroom together---" These news made Shi Yan more and more anxious. Although she was ready to go back to "Dongdongguai", she had to wait until the matter of staying in school was completely in vain, right?There was no news from Zhuoyue at all, and the department never informed her to go to the school to go through any formalities, while the others had received the recruitment notice one after another and started to go through the formalities.Everyone in the class seems to be very busy, but she is alone and bored.

Finally one day, when she was so anxious that she wanted to commit suicide, the department gave her a notice telling her to go to the school administration building.She felt that she must have gone through the procedures at "Dongdongguai". Although she felt a little melancholy, after waiting anxiously for a period of time, she finally had a result, and she felt that it was better than continuing to wait. She turned to the school administration building with her mind full of "turning holes". She remembered that although she often passed by this building, she had never entered it. It gave her the feeling that the door of this building was not opened for students. Brainy people come and go here.But as soon as she entered the building, she found that her previous thinking was wrong. There were many students in the building, each with some forms in their hands, rushing here and there like headless flies. She also joined the team of headless flies, and compared the notice in her hand, she found the "Political Works Office" in a roundabout way.She saw a lot of students queuing up in front of some offices along the way, but there was no one queuing up in the room she went to. Only then did she realize that the "Political Work Office" was looking for her, not the "Graduation Office". She was so frightened that she thought she had violated the rules of heaven, and the school called her to lecture her. When she timidly entered the office, a young man on the phone gestured to her, telling her to sit there and wait.She ran out quickly and stood outside in the corridor waiting, as if entering the political work office was equivalent to being punished.After a while, the young man finished his phone call and came out to call her, "Is that Shi Yan?" "yes." "Please come in." She went into the Political Work Office and waited for the young cadre to speak, but the man said, "Sit at the table and fill out these forms." She moved the chair to the table, sat on the edge of the chair with her buttocks pointed, and glanced at the forms in a daze. It was like reading a bible, but she didn't understand a single sentence. It felt like a death sentence, waiting for She signs.Her hands were shaking, not knowing where to start. Seeing that she didn't write, the man asked curiously, "Are you---reserved?" These words are as difficult to decipher as a secret code. Could it be that the right to appeal is reserved?She asked anxiously: "Reservation? What reservation?" The man laughed, and said irrelevantly: "My surname is Chen, you can call me Xiao Chen, we will meet often in the future. Now you fill out the form first, and if you have any unclear points, you can ask me---" She felt that Xiao Chen's attitude was very kind, not as if he was trying to scold others, and she also felt that the form had become kinder, not like a death sentence.She nodded gratefully, and began to look at the form carefully, and found that one was the "Basic Information Survey Form for the Faculty and Staff of Provincial Teachers College in C Province", and there were some other forms, and one even swore to keep state secrets.She somewhat understood what Xiao Chen meant by "we will meet often in the future", that is to say, she will become a staff member of C Provincial Teachers College, and will work in this building in the future. She didn't expect to stay in school like this. Although she didn't know how to stay in school, it was definitely not like this in her imagination.She stood there in a daze, thinking of Zhuo Zhuo, of eating with a few officials in the restaurant that day, and of the series of events that happened during this period of time because of staying in school, she just felt like a dream: Is this how you stay in school? Seeing her standing there in a daze, Xiao Chen urged, "Hurry up and fill out the form, I have a meeting later---" She asked, "Do I -- do I have to fill out this form?" Xiao Chen was amused, and he chuckled: "How can we transfer the file to you if you don't fill out the form?" She thought, this has to be transferred to the file?Isn't her file in this administrative building?She asked her questions, and Xiao Chen laughed again: "Although they are all in this building, the student files belong to the student files, and the cadre files belong to the cadre files. There are strict procedures for transferring---" " When she heard the word "cadre", she suddenly asked without thinking: "Then what if I don't want to stay in school?" Xiao Chen looked at her in surprise: "You don't want to stay in school? Well---I really don't know what to do. I don't do this either. Principal Zhang asked me to bring you the form to fill out. Wait I'm going to ask--" She panicked, fearing that it would be a disaster for Xiao Chen to ask, so she quickly stopped and said, "I'm talking nonsense, you don't need to ask---" Xiao Chen said: "I seem to have heard that if you do not accept the allocation from the state, you have to fill out a form and state the reasons why you do not accept the allocation, such as your parents are old and frail and need care, the husband and wife are separated, etc. .If you do have practical difficulties, I can help you get a form--" She quickly stated: "No, no, I don't have any practical difficulties, I will fill out the form and give it to you right away---" She filled out the form, and Xiao Chen said in an official tone: "Now you go to the school hospital to have a new employee physical examination. If you fail the physical examination, we will not be able to hire you, but the school will assign you another job---" " She asked fearfully: "I'm just like this --- I went to the hospital for a physical examination? People --- will you give me a physical examination?" "You have a student ID, don't you? Just show them your ID-" She was still worried: "I have a student ID card, but how do they know that I am staying in school?" "There's a list at the hospital, you'll know when you go--" Only then did she leave the administration building with peace of mind and went to the hospital for a physical examination. She felt so amazing in her heart that the school had already listed her as one of her own, and the list had already gone to the hospital, but she didn't know it at all, and was still there anxious Had to commit suicide.The question popped up in her mind again: Is this how to stay in school? When Yao Xiaoping returned to the dormitory at night, she told Yao Xiaoping everything that happened today.Yao Xiaoping made a fuss and said, "Huh? You came from behind? I haven't been notified to go for a physical examination yet, the form has already been filled out---" She said in a trance: "I still can't believe this is true. Is this how you stay in school?" "What else can I do? Zhuo Zhuo really has a way, he said he got you into the principal's office, so he will get you into the principal's office---" She corrected: "It's not the principal's office, it's the scientific research office---" "Does that make any difference? Anyway, it's a vase for the principal---" She said seriously: "Is it a vase for the principal? Then I quit---" "Stop talking about it, why don't you do it now? If you don't do it, don't fill out the form first---" Yao Xiaoping punched her and said, "You are just lucky, and you just fascinated him. You got this great job--" "Did he conspire?" "Who else could it be if it wasn't him? Does the principal still know that you are such a grass-roots person?" "Then why does he -- always ignore -- talk to me?" "If I tell you what I think, you will definitely be unhappy. Forget it, I'll stop talking. I'll keep my head down and see him from now on. It's no fun to ruin the relationship---" Shi Yan was about to ask Yao Xiaoping what she was thinking when she heard the concierge call her to answer the phone.Yao Xiaoping said: "Haha, say Cao Cao, and Cao Cao will be there." Shi Yan didn't expect Huang Hai to call at this time, and she felt that the call was a bit late, because she had already filled out the form for staying in school.If Huang Hai had called earlier, maybe she would have regretted it, but now that the form has been filled out, it's probably useless for Huang Hai to say anything.But she remembered that Huang Hai didn't actually object to her staying in school, he just kept saying bad things about Zhuoyou, but never said: "Since Zhuangyou is such a villain, don't ask him to help you." She felt that Huang Hai was really like Yao Xiaoping in this regard. He obviously didn't like Excellence, and he always spoke ill of Excellence in front of her, but let her use Excellence to get him to stay in school. It seemed that both of them were a bit despicable.Although she opened the back door herself, at least she didn't speak ill of Excellence, so it shouldn't be considered despicable, because she didn't use Excellence, at most it was a help among friends. She found that she felt a little grateful for Excellence in her heart. If Huang Hai spoke ill of Excellence again today, I'm afraid she would be even more unhappy.She has already forgotten the melancholy that Huang Hai didn't call these days. She doesn't know if it's because Huang Hai finally called, so she doesn't worry about him running away, or she is falling for Excellence now and doesn't care that he ran away . Before she could decide what to say to Huang Hai, she had already arrived at the concierge downstairs. She picked up the phone, gave a hello, and heard a thick male voice say, "Shi Yan?" This wasn't Huang Hai, but it was a voice she was familiar with, and she was confused for a moment, not knowing what to say.The other side asked again: "Shi Yan? Is it Shi Yan?" As if waking up from a dream, she whispered, "It's me." "I am excellence." She said mechanically, "It's you." The other side laughed loudly: "Did it wake you up to sleep? Why is it like a dream?" She also laughed a few times, and asked, "Where are you---?" At first, she wanted to say, "Why didn't you just come to me and call?", but she was so good at learning that she swallowed the half sentence up. "I'm having a meeting in Qingdao, and I want to see if your stay in school has been settled---" "It's done -- oh -- it's not done yet -- oh -- I mean -- it depends on the results of the physical -- if the physical -- it's all right -- " He said confidently: "Don't worry, the physical examination is just a formality, and generally nothing will happen. Xiao Chen said that you are extremely nervous? What's so nervous about it? I have explained it to them--- " She thought, it turned out that he was really helpful, and she wanted to say "thank you", but he didn't give her a chance, and said: "When the school assigns you a dormitory, remember not to ask for the house at Dongsanshe, Dongsanshe The house is terrible---” Her mind was full of confusion, and she only heard the words "Three Eastern Provinces", and the chicken head part of China's territory appeared in the confusion, but she couldn't figure out why the three eastern provinces were so bad. Could it be that there was an earthquake recently?Now that China is so powerful, it is impossible for Japan to forcibly occupy the three northeastern provinces. Then I heard him say: "If you want to divide, you can divide the house over there in Nanyishe. The house over there is new and quiet---you haven't gone to the housing management department yet, have you?" Her thinking worked a little bit, at least she knew that there was no "Southern Province", and she heard the words "House Management Division", but she felt as if she was still running around like headless chickens in the administrative building just now, why suddenly He was immediately thrown into the housing management department. He said: "Also, don't ask for a north-facing room. The north-facing room cannot get the sun in winter, and it's so cold---" Now she finally understood what he was talking about. He asked, "Have you decided to live with someone?" She even just heard about the room allocation, so where did she ever think about who to live with?But she remembered that Yao Xiaoping said that she wanted to live with her, so she replied: "I haven't made up my mind yet, but Yao Xiaoping--- wants to live with me---. If you don't object, I will live with her- -- " She didn't know how she became like this, and she said something "if you don't object". Is it because he helped her find this job, so she wanted to please him, or because she already regarded him as her boyfriend? Friends see it?She was afraid that Zhuoliang would laugh at her when he heard the flaws, but he didn't seem to have any, but said straightforwardly: "I have no objection, it's better for you to live with her than with someone else---" She didn't know what he meant by that, but she was happy that he approved her.She was just about to say something thankful, when she heard him say, "Don't panic before moving, I'll find someone to find a car for you when I come back---" She understood every word of this sentence, a warm current flowed into her heart, and her whole heart was sweet.Like a favored little lover, she obediently replied: "Yes." He added: "Our meeting will go to Laoshan Mountain tomorrow, do you want me to bring you something back?" The amount of information in this sentence is too much, and her little head couldn't process it for a while, so she froze there again. The "meeting" went to Laoshan to play?In her mind, a "conference" is a meeting place with a big table in the middle and chairs on the side. How can a "meeting place" go to Laoshan to play?And "Laoshan", isn't that a cartoon?Immediately, she pictured a group of gray-bearded pedants acting exaggeratedly like cartoon characters.After thinking about it, she felt that none of this was important. What was important was that he asked her if he would bring her something back. He probably waited for a while, but he didn't hear an answer, so he introduced himself and said, "I heard that the pearl necklace over there is very cheap. Let me bring you back a string. What color do you like?" This seemed to be the first time in her life that she heard a boy ask her what kind of gift she liked. She was so obsessed with it, her mind was full of red, orange, yellow, green, blue, blue and purple. There were all kinds of colors, but she couldn't name them. All I know is: "Whatever, whatever, no need, no need---" Then she heard someone calling "Old Zhuo, are you ready?" and he replied loudly: "Come on, come on!" The voice was so loud that it almost made her ears numb, he seemed to notice it, and said sorry: " I'm sorry, it's too loud. I have something to do, I'm going to hang up, remember to wait until I get back before moving---" She still wanted to say a few words, at least ask when he would be back, but he had already hung up the phone in a hurry. She was completely stunned by what happened today, as if she had entered a time tunnel twice in one day.That time in the morning, she was a student when she was in the political building, and she became a cadre of the scientific research office of the C Provincial Teachers College when she came out.She is still very unfamiliar with the word "cadre". In her mind, a "cadre" is a person with a half-job, that is, those who speak bureaucrats, but she doesn't look like a "cadre".Does she have to use those bureaucratic accents in the future? This time just now was also very mysterious. She didn't even know where Excellence was before the call. After making a call, he became her boyfriend. At least that's how she understood it, because he asked her to wait for him to come back. When he moved again, he also said that he would bring her a gift back.It seemed that too many procedures were omitted, which made her a little reconciled, and kept asking herself: Is this how love is discussed? She doesn't know how to stay in school, but she still has a little idea about how to talk about love.At least there must be a process of pursuit, right?At first it was a hazy love, and then began to test, of course it was the boy who came to test the girl, so could it be possible for a girl to test a boy?never heard of that. How to test it?She actually doesn't know, because she hasn't experienced it before, but she thinks it should be some admiring eyes at the beginning, and then she can write a letter, ask out to watch a movie, etc., when the girl agrees to date, the two people start dating , Flowers before the moon or something.Then say that sacred "I love you" at an appropriate time, and then you have established a relationship, and then you can talk about buying a pearl necklace. But even then, it seems a bit too hasty to ask someone what gift they want. You should take the initiative to buy a small gift and give it to her shyly, to see if she likes it and accepts it.It's almost time to talk about marriage, or if you're already married, the old couple will ask: "Do you want me to bring you something back?" Isn't this nonsense?I just want you to bring it, so I'm too embarrassed to say it. But why does Zhuo Zhuo always go through the time tunnel when doing business?As if he was worried that she would have a heart attack, he directly connected the time tunnel to her door, regardless of whether she agreed or not, dragged her up, and tied a seat belt so that she could not move.Just like today, in the morning, it was a "Reason Form for Disobedience to Assignment" that scared her into obeying the assignment quickly, and now it was another person who interrupted at an inappropriate time, calling Zhuo Liang away, so that she had no chance to tell him not to buy anything pearl necklace.If he bought it, he must have a way to get her to accept it, and once she accepts it, wouldn't that be equivalent to agreeing to enter his time tunnel?Maybe the next step will "tunnel" her into the marriage. She went back to the dormitory and told Yao Xiaoping about it. Yao Xiaoping also felt the same about the "time tunnel", but Yao Xiaoping said: "A string of pearl necklaces can tie you up? You didn't listen to him, the pearl necklace is very Cheap? If he buys cheap stuff to fool you, what are you afraid of? If he wants to give it away, you just accept it, and if you accept it, just don’t listen to him---" She had the feeling of a car running on two separate roads again, and felt that Yao Xiaoping was completely different from her, which made her even more puzzled why Zhuo Liang would agree to her living with Yao Xiaoping, and said that it was better than living with someone else, isn't it? Did he himself tell her not to associate with Yao Xiaoping, was he afraid that she would learn vulgarity from Yao Xiaoping?She insisted: "I'm not going to take his necklace, we're not in that relationship at all now---" Yao Xiaoping said disapprovingly: "It's useless if you don't accept his necklace, because you accepted his gift after all---" "When did I accept his gift?" "Staying in school doesn't count as accepting his gift? That's why I said, don't think about the word 'noble'. You have already done something that is not noble, so just don't be noble to the end, otherwise, you will live a very tiring life-- - " When she saw Yao Xiaoping say that she was not noble, she was very angry, but because she was indeed not noble in the matter of staying in school, she had nothing to refute, so she suppressed her anger and asked, "Do you think he is a little-- - It's too arranged? I don't discuss anything with you, I just do it--" "That's the kind of person he is. As I said a long time ago, don't expect him to discuss things with you. You can only find a way to lead him by the nose---" "Then you talk about things like pearl necklaces, how can I lead him by the nose?" "Just tell her that you don't like cheap things, and he won't dare to fool you with cheap things---" She felt that Yao Xiaoping had completely misunderstood what she said, which made her feel like a pearl being cast in the dark, at least the feeling of being treated as a real pearl."I'm not saying he bought me a cheap gift, I'm saying I -- don't want him to give me a present at all --" she said in a statement. "Is there any girl who doesn't like her boyfriend to give her gifts?" Seeing that Yao Xiaoping also regarded Zhuozhuo as her boyfriend, she felt very upset, and explained: "Why do you also treat him as my boyfriend? I just don't like this, I feel that love is not like this---" She described the "flow chart of love" in her mind, and Yao Xiaoping laughed loudly: "Isn't the previous one all for the latter one? You attract him, seduce him, and make him fascinated by you. Isn’t pursuing you and loving you all for the purpose of becoming an old married couple in the future? If he asked you what gift you want him to bring you from the beginning like an old married couple, wouldn’t that save a lot of trouble? If Sihua Construction like this has already been done.” She only knew that what Yao Xiaoping said was wrong, but she couldn't tell what was wrong, and she knew she couldn't argue with Yao Xiaoping, so she stopped dwelling on this topic and asked instead: "Then how do you explain this: I told him I want to share a dormitory with you, he didn't object, and said it's better than living with someone else---" Yao Xiaoping boasted, "That means he is smart and knows my value. If you live with me, you will become a down-to-earth, good woman, not a silly little girl. If you live with someone else, It will only make you more stupid as you live, and he will spend a lot of time reforming you. Don't worry, he won't do business that loses money---" Shi Yan doesn't believe this is the real reason, but it's okay, since Yao Xiaoping and Zhuoyue have no conflicts about living together, it's best, lest she be caught in the middle and have a hard time being a human being. Yao Xiaoping said: "When he calls you again, tell him to buy five strings of pearl necklaces for me over there. Don't buy too expensive ones. Just buy them within five yuan. You can buy them in various colors. I can give it away--" She didn't want to help this, because it made it look more and more like they were boyfriend and girlfriend, not only she admitted it, but even her friends admitted it.She hesitated and said, "It doesn't seem so good, does it?" Although she didn't say why it wasn't good, Yao Xiaoping saw through it at a glance, and said with a smile: "Don't worry about it, this is the way it is, you want him to test you and chase you like a little kid, Please, I’m afraid of you, it’s impossible, he’s already gone through that, and now he’s thinking about getting straight to the point—” What she said made her feel cold. She kept avoiding thinking about Zhuo Liang's girlfriend who was already talking about getting married, but it was a fact after all, and it was useless not to think about it.She thought that he had already given the "front one" to his girlfriend, and now she could only get the "back one", and she thought it was too boring.She sighed and said, "I really regret filling out that detention form today—" Yao Xiaoping saw everything again, and said comfortingly: "Don't regret it, it's useless to make yourself troubled in vain. Only when you think about the best in everything can you live a happy life, just like the matter of your stay in school, why do you have to carry it so hard?" What about the ideological burden? He wants to help you, and if you need his help, let him help you. If he helps, you stay in school, and that’s fine. You don’t need to carry this as a burden, as if you have to accept him Be like your boyfriend." "But--- I know he meant that to help me---I accepted his help---and didn't accept his meaning---that's not too---" "You want to be noble too much, so you live a heavy life. This society is not a noble society at all. How can you be a noble person? If the graduation assignment does not open the back door, everyone can find a job based on their ability, and we don't have to." It’s a trick. I believe that if you rely on your ability, you are eligible to stay in school, and I am also eligible to stay in school, or I have long been qualified to study in universities and teach universities. But this society does not work like this. What do you have? Solution? I want to be a noble person just like you, but my approach is different from yours. If you want to be noble, you just try to stay away from the mud, thinking that you can escape by hiding. But it’s useless, if you don’t approach Mud, mud will come to you. You can only be like me, treat noble people with nobility; if you don't respect noble people, you can't deal with noble people. Soldiers come to block you, water comes to cover you---" Shi Yan felt that Yao Xiaoping had gone too far, talking about "nobleness", but she was only talking about love.She said: "I'm not saying I'm noble, I'm talking about love---" Yao Xiaoping said stubbornly: "Isn't love the same thing? Boys are like that. He does the first thing for the sake of the second, because girls like the former. If he doesn't do it, girls won't let him do the latter." That one, so he had to do it. But if the girl can save him the first one, he must go straight to the second one.” Shi Yan felt that Yao Xiaoping was really "down-to-earth", like the earth itself, with a strong attraction to the center of the earth, always pulling everyone around her to the ground.Although it is safer to fall on the ground, sometimes people just want to fly in the air, and they like that kind of insecurity, because people don’t just live with a sense of security, people also need appropriate adventures, appropriate mistyness, and life is rich and colorful . But Yao Xiaoping's "attraction to the center of the earth" was obviously strong enough, and Shi Yan was pulled to the ground with a single pull.Yao Xiaoping's comments on the boys' "the one in the front" and the "the one in the back" really chilled her.The reason for her disappointment is not that Yao Xiaoping sees boys too badly, but because she sees boys too accurately.She thought of the girls' boyfriends and husbands in the dormitory, it was really like this, and all she could think about was how to find a place to do "the next thing". Needless to say, those husbands came to D city to see their wives for that purpose, so they took their wives to the school's simple guest house as soon as they came, even if they had an exam tomorrow. .The few wives seemed to complain less, but there were also those who shouted long live after their husbands left: "ah, I finally left, I am so annoying, the exam is about to come, and he just came here at such a time ---" What about those who are not yet married?Nine out of ten have complained about their boyfriends.There is a person named Qinglian who often complains to Yao Xiaoping: "If I don't agree to him, he will say that I don't love him at all; if I agree to him, he will always think about it. When we met before, we would talk, hold hands and so on. , now that’s what I’ve come up with, and I want to leave when I’m done—” Yao Xiaoping always pointed Qinglian: "You have to learn how to exchange what he wants for what you want. Isn't he thinking about that all the time? Then you let him do what you want him to do first, and he If you don't meet your requirements, you won't give him what he wants---" Judging from Qinglian’s story, Yao Xiaoping’s tongue-twisters were more effective than tongue-twisters at first, but the last time Qinglian came back crying because her boyfriend broke up with her and said that she always used “that thing.” "Come to bargain, Qinglian regretted so much, she said that she should not have listened to Yao Xiaoping's words if she knew this was the case. Yao Xiaoping, as always, never criticized herself, and only comforted Qinglian, saying: "If you run away, you will run away. This kind of man should run away early. He obviously uses you as a tool to vent his desire. Why do you still miss him?" " Qinglian said: "But I, I gave him everything---" Yao Xiaoping came to the front, and covered it up: "I don't want my child to be a wolf. If you don't get to this point, how can you know that he is such a person? Don't worry that the next boyfriend will find a flaw. I will teach you a way." ---" Shi Yan wondered why all the girls in the dormitory listened to Yao Xiaoping's words. In her opinion, Yao Xiaoping was talking nonsense, and it was irresponsible to say the wrong thing.But maybe people are like this, there are always times when they can’t make up their minds, and there are always times when they want others to help them make up their minds, because other people’s ideas are wrong, and it’s the responsibility of others, even if they can’t be held criminally or administratively. responsibility, but the psychological responsibility can be pushed to others.Since Yao Xiaoping is not afraid of death and is willing to help others make up their minds, there must be someone willing to let Yao be the dead ghost. Shi Yan has no better ideas than Yao Xiaoping about this kind of thing, but if her boyfriend makes such a request and threatens her with breaking up, she will definitely not be afraid, because it means that he is not worthy of love, so why still To try to keep him?If he wants to break up, break up with him, and would rather break up than be coerced by him.The problem is that the girls can't do that, they want to keep the guy, so they give in. 她相信并不是所有男生都象姚小萍说的那样不堪的，总有一些男生也跟女生一样，是很享受“前面那一通”的，她觉得无论是黄海还是卓越都不是那种不堪的男生，因为他们并没有急匆匆地想做“后面那一通”。黄海还可以说是因为离得远，但卓越一直都在跟前，如果他心里想的就是“后面那一通”，那他早就应该找上门来了。但他没有，说明他不是只想着“后面那一通”的人。 至于他现在为什么会找上门来，她也为他找到了理由：以前他在帮她的忙，他怕她思想上有压力，怕她为了感恩就讨好他，所以他不来找她。但现在她留校的事已经办好了，她就不用讨好他了，所以他就可以来找她了。而且他这次也只是在问礼物的事，没有说“后面那一通”，说明他还是在进行“前面那一通”。 她想，也许他心里一直就是爱她的，所以才会一开始就像老夫老妻一样自然亲切，前段时间只不过是因为留校这样一个特殊事件，使他不好天天跑来找她，但他心里还是在进行“前面那一通”的。再说他也挺忙的，又要写稿，又要开会，还要教学，他能在百忙之中帮助她，关心她，应该说已经很浪漫的了，你不能要求他打一个十分钟的电话还先绕一个大弯，当然只好单刀直入了。 第二天一大早，就有人叫石燕去听电话，她知道是卓越，很可能是去崂山之前打个电话来，她也正好要告诉他姚小萍请他买珍珠项链的事，便喜匆匆地跑下楼去，接了电话。 果然是卓越，而且果然是去崂山的事。他一听是她，就说：“马上要去崂山了，想问问你喜欢不喜欢海螺，听说海边能捡到海螺--- ” 她为自己能算计得出他的行动而沾沾自喜，现在他已经不再是那个她捉摸不定的人了，而是她的囊中之物了，他的一举一动都在她掌握之中。她很喜欢他亲手捡海螺这个主意，觉得比便宜的珍珠项链浪漫多了，连忙说：“我喜欢海螺，你就捡个海螺带回来给我就行了，别买珍珠项链了吧--- ” 对这一点，他没置可否，她估计这次没牵住他的牛鼻子，他还会自作主张买珍珠项链的，但她既然已经说了不要项链了，那他买回来她也可以不收。她有点不好意思地说：“姚小萍她--- 问你能不能帮她买五串珍珠项链，五块钱以内的，各种颜色的，她想买来送人--- ”