Chapter 17 161-170

161 As soon as I got home, I was warmly hugged by Yuan Xiaochen, my eyes were red and swollen from crying, and I looked as if I couldn't do it without me, as if she had made some mistake, which made me very uncomfortable. Next, we did not bring up the old matter again, and worked hard to restore our life to the original state, and I did not contact Wang Yun again. The love seemed to pass like this, Yuan Xiaochen seemed to be pricked by a needle, and a blood bead oozes out, but the blood bead is wiped off in an instant. 162 Yuan Xiaochen went to work the next morning and came back on time at night. I restrained myself a little and stopped going out so often at night. If I went out, I would bring her with me and avoid running into Wang Yun. The question about going to bed with Wang Yun , Yuan Xiaochen asked me several times, but she couldn't get an answer from me. The last time, I even answered her with "unreasonable trouble", which satisfied her luck. I remember the worried expression on her face swept away. And Kong, turned into an elated expression, "I really can't figure it out. With you like this, there are still people chasing you. It's really a broken pot with a broken pot cover."

163 But things have changed, I mean, Yuan Xiaochen has become more vigilant towards me, I can no longer talk nonsense to her freely, and I have to take Yuan Xiaochen into account when I manage my daily time, in short, for me, Life is no longer leisurely and leisurely, an invisible tension seeps into our relationship, Yuan Xiaochen's phone calls to me are no longer casual and blind, but seem to have a certain purpose, even the tone of voice is cautious, as if afraid of being aggressive. It reminds me of my rebellious psychology, especially when she is on a business trip. Seeing her defying hardships all day long and guarding me clumsily, gave me an indescribable complacency, even a little complacency, a feeling of being needed grabbed me, I feel that I am very important, not to myself, but to her, she has tried to die for me time and time again, which makes me unspeakably satisfied, I believe that we are both safe, I believe that she can't live without me, I believe that my poor life , how should I put it - it's kind of useful!

164 Complacency is not good, as I said earlier, complacency is just arrogance and stupidity, watching her busy around me, I fell into arrogance and stupidity, it is true. 165 Originally, I wanted to write a romance novel, but when I wrote it, it was full of stupidity. Few writers take stupidity as the theme to create, but I tried it unintentionally. It really humiliated me to write it out so hastily. 166 What makes me feel gratified is that, in my opinion, the stupidity in my writing will never be cut off lightly, it will continue as a damned little tradition of human beings from generation to generation, so I have to sneer helplessly, I sneer incompletely It is because I have been deeply hurt by it, but because this hurt will continue, selfishness and ruthlessness add malice to the dark and boring world, and I sneer because all this is still happening between people .

167 When talking about emotions, people generally like to use a word called "hurt". Since Yuan Xiaochen made a hurt look, I noticed her more than usual. I think I am a careless and self-centered person , seldom pay attention to other people's affairs, as long as it has nothing to do with me, I can do anything, but I just think that everything about others has nothing to do with me. When I am middle-aged, a kind of indifference to the outside world is deep in my heart. It grows in the dark, and its momentum is getting stronger and stronger. I don’t read newspapers or news. When people see words such as "the charm of life", they always want to add the word "rolling" after them.Once, sending Daqing home, in the car, he sighed to me, saying that his girlfriend walked away and said he was selfish and indifferent, and I said Yuan Xiaochen said the same about me. "Are we right?" I asked Daqing.

"Maybe." I remember Daqing's answer. 168 Life is often like this. When you look at it from a distance, you often feel that it is just a gray area, and everything is very ambiguous. But if you change to a telescope and look at everything carefully, sometimes it can make people scream. I myself have never been very concerned about girls, always thinking that if one goes, the other will come. In addition, I don’t have any possessive desires. I think it’s girls’ freedom to come and go, and I gave them this freedom. In contrast, I also Having obtained this kind of freedom, freedom is nothing but a loose and lazy way of life. If you don’t think about gaining anything, you don’t have any thoughts of giving. As long as you don’t buy a house or change a car with the money at hand, you don’t have to worry about it. The living expenses for the next year and the next year are always by my side and can never be spent, and earning money is also unconsciously. I have three bank cards, and I don’t even know how much money is in each card. I only have a rough idea. The total, and, to my surprise, is always more than I estimated, I really can't tell how the money was earned in a daze, in short, the manuscript fee is a lot, royalties, Script fees, consulting fees, and even some appearance fees for participating in certain TV programs. These money are put together in a chaotic way. With my consumption level, I can't spend it all.The money is like this, not to mention the girl, there are always some new faces appearing on the scene, like Wang Yun, who knows each other somehow, and then, when one day catches up with a state, they get mixed together. Just broke up, and everything seemed to be circulating around me automatically, dizzyingly, with no beginning and no end.

169 However, after I paid special attention to Yuan Xiaochen, I made a new discovery about her. I thought this little cutie was a little orphan, but later I found out that she has boyfriends all over the world. Maybe she did it for me all of a sudden, maybe before. That's it, I just didn't notice it, I found that she would receive some sneaky and tentative calls every day, she used her sexual charm to keep them around, of course, sometimes it didn't work, at this time, She acted very headstrong, and her tone was straightforward and firm: "Don't have any contact within ten years!"

I never paid attention to the content of her phone calls before. I always felt that they were just aunts talking over and over again, or they were pestering calls from boring male colleagues. I never asked Yuan Xiaochen when she was out, and it was the same when she came back. Whatever, whatever, our public life is based on the four things of eating, shopping, watching DVDs, and going to bed, and with my friends, Yuan Xiaochen probably behaved very decently, that is to say, she Have nothing to say to others. In my memory, Yuan Xiaochen said something like "I don't care about her", and I just nodded my head in agreement, thinking that you take good care of yourself, so there is no need for me to care, let alone care so what?She encountered a difficult client on a business trip, how can I help?

170 It was not until one night that I went downstairs for a walk and found a high-end car parked downstairs, and when I came back, I found Yuan Xiaochen, who had returned from a business trip, was opening the anti-theft door. What to say, one of them looks like Yuan Xiaochen, and the other looks like her ex-boyfriend. I think I walked for nearly an hour. Could it be that they just talked for an hour? I stood behind Yuan Xiaochen, helped her hold her suitcase, and asked her, "Did someone drive you downstairs just now?" "Yeah, it's my ex-boyfriend. He keeps dropping me off, saving a lot of taxi fare." She replied lightly.

"This man is really infatuated, and he can't forget it even now." "What, he is my boss now, didn't I tell you? I changed a company, and I switched to the company he started." "How is his business doing?" "It's okay, now my salary is twice as much as when I first came here." "No wonder you speak so boldly that you want to buy a big house." "I guess it will be ready by the end of next year. Now I have taken a fancy to an off-plan house, which is more than 8,000 per square meter. I hope it won't increase too much when the house is ready. Let me tell you, the decoration is up to you, don't try to run away."

I didn't dare to continue. I don't know if she said that the decoration cost depends on me, or I rely on my efforts. In fact, I am not interested in either.