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flower of pessimism 廖一梅 1945Words 2018-03-20
92 A classmate who runs an advertising company was shooting commercials in the studio of Beijing Film Studios. I went to the literature department to hand in the script outline, and went to wander around.During lighting, the actor and the British representative of Salad Dressing were there talking and dancing in English, and he was a big guy who stood out in the middle of the set.They called him the key, and they said what TV series he had filmed, and I rarely watched TV so I had no way of knowing. Later, we went to eat supper together, and he sat next to me. I can see that his excessive talk is trying to get my attention, which he would have done if his story were not so long.But his expressive ability is not strong, he doesn’t know where to say more, where to say less, and he is also incapable of controlling the transition. I reluctantly yawned out of politeness, but his goal was achieved. We are getting acquainted.

In the following weekends he called several times asking me out for coffee, but I refused. At that time, I was disheartened and lacked interest in men, let alone a man who gave me the feeling of being irrelevant.But I'm an educated, hypocritical intellectual, and my refusal was sweetly put.I don't know if this is what kept him from giving up, we lacked understanding from the beginning. The point is that I have seen the most chattering person on the phone. It is not uncommon to spend two or three hours on the phone. I think this is a habit developed by the crew for a long time.During the time I was with him, my ears always hurt from listening to the phone, and he was so good at dealing with boredom that I even wondered if he would be bored.Speaking of which, he is a person with a passion for life. The spaghetti bolognese he makes is as delicious as Chinese vinegared cabbage. The messy education and experience make him maintain that he must drink espresso when he wakes up and eat garlic every meal. The habit of expressing in Chinese is full of mistakes, but he speaks English very fluently. (He went to the United States for five years, hoping to make a living in Hollywood, and the result can be imagined.) He is a big man from Shandong, tall and strong, and he is a handsome boy by usual standards, but that is a kind of beauty that has nothing to do with me. To be honest, he was totally out of tune with me, and I never took his affairs seriously.

Why he was infatuated with me was a puzzle to me for a while; the girls he had dated before were all young actresses, and his warm nature seemed to please them very well.I later chalked up his enthusiasm for me to a reaction to my distance from him, I was always elusive to him during our time together, I never let him do that in our relationship Overlord.In the final analysis, it is just a desire to conquer, because he is full of wildness, this desire is particularly uncontrollable. Speaking of which, the key point is that he is kind by nature, and he is also very generous to others. He is a person who lives by instinct, and the boundary between evil and good becomes very blurred.From time to time he put on an air of refinement, but that was just a fake.If he's nice to you, you can be sure it's from the heart, not from politeness and breeding, which he doesn't understand.That's what initially interested me about him—he was a wild man in a suit.

He has many legendary experiences that I have never heard of. He has been in prison twice, successfully escaped once, reversed a car, stole an ancient painting, and even robbed things abroad. His criminal experience is a kind of survival instinct, and there is no moral limit. Make him timid.The key is luck, his criminal experience did not send him to a prison cell, and he was in prison only to cause trouble for women's favor.He is always very infatuated with women, but based on my own experience, his kindness to women has a taste of arbitrariness, which is not the way women like.Generally speaking, he doesn't understand women, and he doesn't care what they think or want, that is to say, he wants to be the master of everything.

"You're a superficial person." I told him that once to his face, and he just laughed.I don't know if he really doesn't care, or is he just trying to hide his embarrassment, it's very possible that he doesn't care, he's blindly confident, and since I've already slept with him at that time, he probably doesn't think it's necessary to bother with such talk . But it's not the same for me - I can sleep with a shallow guy but can't stand him being shallow.Every time he uttered a stupid word in front of everyone, I immediately felt ashamed and hid far away, pretending that I didn't know him at all.Therefore, the few times we travel, we always end up unhappy.

I am not going to continue this nonsense and ask to break up with him. He was supposed to be a man who was passed over in my life. In order not to be able to bear this insult, he tried his best to impress me at all costs and by all means, and he really did—— When it was time to break up, he hired someone to come and cut off one of my hands.Because I told him that I just want to write with my hands now, and I don't want to associate with men. That morning, a strange man called and said that he had received a sum of money and wanted to collect a debt from me.I immediately recognized the man's Shandong accent, and it was unbelievable that he would do such a boring thing for the key point.

"This is a matter between the two of us. You tell the key that I have not done anything to blame. I helped him when he was in trouble, and lent him money when he had no money! He has no right to treat me like this!" The strange man didn't sound very good at words, and he didn't know how to respond for a while: "The key, I don't know the key, I only recognize money." "You don't know, aren't you from Shandong?" The man murmured, not knowing whether to answer yes or no. Later, a key friend confirmed to me that it was a long-distance call from Shandong, and he did hire someone.If he wanted someone who could knock people off for a few thousand dollars he could easily find it.It is said that my righteousness made that guy retreat.

Three days later, I refused to beg for mercy because I ignored the threatening phone calls.The point was that he smashed up an office of an advertising agency after drinking, so that his friend had to call me. A scene of ugly drama, embarrassing and shameless, made me deeply feel the failure of being a human being.If I could never see him again, I would rather live a few years less.The boss is not young anymore, I should really check my behavior, otherwise there will be more and more people I don’t want to see, and because of this, each person will lose a few years of my life, and I will die at a young age.

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