Chapter 44 44

44 Let's talk about my writing career. In the days when I was attacked by love, I insisted on finishing the unlucky TV series. I once slapped myself when I was thinking wildly and losing my mind. I wrote this lengthy TV series about how urban white-collar workers overcome many difficulties to achieve success. I was very painful. Every time I got up and sat down again, I had to make a lot of determination to start phrasing and arranging those boring scenes.This is a kind of mechanical labor. It has nothing to do with my feelings about the world, nor does it express any of my opinions. What I say is not what I want to say at all. It is really painful to write something like 300,000 words .I can only carve out a little bit of myself in some small places, but those are insignificant things, of no importance in this huge, boring story.

This is not a writing career, this is just a drudgery career. I said to myself I can't do this for the rest of my life!