Chapter 42 42

42 I have a habit when I eat in restaurants, anyone who knows me well knows that I never eat the food that has just been served, and I never stick my chopsticks with everyone to fish or meat that has just been served, anything.I say it's upbringing, they don't say it's eccentricity.Whatever it is, it says a lot about how I approach things—in the beginning, I always hold back. Strange as this habit was, it did not trouble me as much as another habit—that of expressing myself differently from others when I received a gift or accepted a favor. When I was under 20 years old, Xu Chen once bought a bouquet of flowers in winter in order to see my ecstatic appearance.At that time, there were not many flower shops in the whole city, and buying flowers was unheard of in school.But what could have been a sensational romance didn't get the expected reaction, and I accepted the flowers with uncanny equanimity.Xu Chen has always been brooding over this matter, and even brought it up when we broke up to prove my indifference.It's not that I'm ecstatic, but I'm ashamed to express it. I think it's unseemly to be ecstatic because I received a gift from others, and it's even less advisable to show it in public, so usually the more ecstatic the more indifferent.I later learned that other people didn't think so, and I must be ecstatic in return for other people's gifts, so I imitated others, and imitated the woman in the movie and started screaming: "It's so beautiful! This is the most beautiful thing I've ever received." Great gift!" After that, no one complained.

I know that many people are in the habit of exaggerating their true love or affection, and I am in the habit of hiding it. So, you should understand why "restraint" is the most respectable quality for me. Restraint is the expression of dignity and education, and must rely on the strength of personality.Those who are inferior always take every opportunity to express their desires, while the weak always give in to their desires, and they do not know how to restrain them. In such an era of publicizing individuality, no one regards restraint as a virtue. For Chen Tian's love, I am ready to give up resistance, stop struggling, and let it go. Because of his restraint, he should be rewarded and get everything he wants.