Chapter 42 Chapter Forty-Two

After leaving Geng Lin, Lou Hong never went to work again.This one day seemed to drain all her courage and strength.She called Wu Wei, begged for forgiveness, and said she would never go to work again.Wu Wei didn't expect Lou Hong to be like this, let his fantasies be wrapped up in his infancy, so he asked Lou Hong very harshly: "Then do you think we should fire you, or should you resign yourself?" "It doesn't matter." When Lou Hong replied, she showed great contempt for Wu Wei's yin and yang. "It doesn't matter to us, people with two legs are so easy to find now." Wu Wei hung up the phone after finishing speaking.

"Is this also called a man?" Lou Hong said to herself into the receiver in her hand, she was not particularly angry or excited, as if she no longer expected men to behave better. Lou Hong told her parents about her current situation. She said that she broke off her relationship with Geng Lin and lost her job, as if the latter was the price of the former.Once again, she begged her parents to forgive her. She didn't want to find a job right away, but wanted to stay at home for a while. Lou Hong's mother not only didn't blame her, but was very happy. They suggested that Lou Hong should study abroad after resting for a while. They have already contacted a language school in California, USA.Lou Hong didn't want to go abroad, but couldn't find a better option, so she agreed.

It seems that few people can understand Wu Wei. He is capable, smart and successful in his career.It stands to reason that life treats him well, and he doesn't need to have a lot of despicable mentality, but he always reminds people who deal with him in various ways: Pay attention, I am a villain.He immediately told Geng Lin the news of Lou Hong's resignation.But Geng Lin didn't surprise Wu Wei, he just thanked Wu Wei for telling him.This once again made Wu Wei feel frustrated, as if what he had just planted was just a dumb thunder, even though Geng Lin had already stepped on it.

"You guys can't do it anymore?" He asked Geng Lin. "Who knows what's going on with women." Geng Lin was confused, shocked by what Wu Wei said.He thought that Lou Hong would definitely leave him, but he didn't expect that Lou Hong would resign immediately.This meant that he would never see her again, even as a regular colleague.But he absolutely didn't want to talk about it with Wu Wei. When Wu Wei told him about it, he even wondered if he quit.Doing things for a villain is also disrespecting himself, but he can't care so much now. After Geng Lin found an excuse to leave Wu Wei, he immediately went to a public phone booth on the street to call Lou Hong.

"Wu Wei told me that you resigned." As soon as the call was connected, Geng Lin spoke immediately. He knew that it was working hours and Lou Hong could only be at home alone. "Yes, I was going to call you about this, but I didn't expect that disgusting person to rush to the front." "You really don't want to see me anymore?" Geng Lin didn't have the heart to condemn Wu Wei at this moment. "There's no need for us to meet again, don't you think?" "I don't think so." Geng Lin shouted angrily, "Lou Hong, you've done a great job." Having said that, Geng Lin's tone softened again, "Do you really want to say goodbye to me?"

"We have already said goodbye." Lou Hong said coldly. "Give me another chance to explain. Lou Hong, I know you are leaving me, and I can't stop you, but I can't break up with you like this. Give me a chance to explain." "Geng Lin, I don't have a chance for you, you should ask yourself a chance. Goodbye." "Lou Hong, Lou Hong, listen to me..." Geng Lin's last cry did not bring any special pain to Lou Hong. The only thing that is clearly imprinted in her mind now is the feeling of sitting in a taxi after leaving Geng Lin's residence that day.The driver asked her where she was going, and she gave her home address.The driver knew what she was talking about, so he didn't say anything more.At this moment, Lou Hong realized that she was calmer than the driver who had been driving all day.She looked at the lights passing by outside through the car window, and her heart was as calm as water, as if the squabble just happened on another evening a hundred years ago. She neither regretted coming to Geng Lin nor regretted her out-of-control behavior Feeling guilty, many things that must happen have happened or are happening, she is still a participant, but her feelings have slipped away, sometimes even absent.

Thinking of this, Lou Hong sat up.She went to the window to look out at the clear sky and the quiet street.An old man in his seventies walked slowly past with his dog, which seemed to never grow up. Lou Hong knew this old man, but he always walked the dog after dinner every day.Lou Hong looked at this serene old man, a dog as serene as him, and felt a little revelation of time: one day she and Geng Lin will both be so old, maybe they will meet each other while walking their respective dogs; She should have turned into another alley in a hurry because something in the past was not settled well... Thinking of this, Lou Hong's heart was filled with tender sadness and sincere kindness. She wanted to sit down and write a letter to Geng Lin "Everyone needs a better breakup, doesn't it?" When she thought this way, she had already sat at the table, every nerve was active, and she was about to devote herself to the breakup letter to Geng Lin.She wholeheartedly wanted to write this breakup letter well, thinking of the possible harm to Geng Lin and the possible impact on their future without such a breakup letter, but she didn't think about what would happen if the breakup happened.

If Lou Hong and Geng Lin really have a generation gap, then the deepest part of the gap should be here. Lou Hong to Geng Linxin: Dear Geng Lin: Hi! When I write this letter to you, I should admit that half an hour When you called me some time ago, I didn't have this mood and this Courage, quietness and honesty to write to you. Geng Lin, I'm sorry for treating you badly on the phone, and that What happened last night.I don't know what to say, I think I'm crazy up.But on the other hand, maybe you can understand me, I'm scared so That's why I treated you like that and refused to meet on the phone.if you are with me

Come on, if you look at me so tenderly again, if you hold me Hold on tight, I will lose the strength to leave you now.perhaps you You're right, you see signs of a breakup in my face, don't I Shouldn't we respect it and control our last feelings? Geng Lin, I think you asked for an explanation because you still have a question about me. Certain feelings, but you must have doubted your own feelings.don't know I don't know how far this emotional legacy can accompany us.we used to have Everything in me is still fresh and has a strong vitality, such as If you suggested to me now, let's start over, I think I would.But at the same time, I also knew that we would break up again, and in a very short time.

None of us can avoid the end that is already visible, so if we are destined to break up, it is better to let it all go now.You might say that I'm cruel, that I broke everything.I can't deny that I am not like this, because what I write is also what I feel.I want to be faithful to my feelings, I don't have enough feelings for you for me to start with you again, let alone get married.The temptations I get from you, other men can bring me, and I'm lucid as a rock at times like this.I'm sorry that this sobriety of mine may bother you, but I must say that people who are sober don't love anymore, so I hope we can be strong for each other.Especially you, Geng Lin, if you are strong, you will live better and even find a better woman than me.

I might have a little more to explain.I told you that night, you are nothing more than a repetition to me.Maybe that makes you sad, but it's not like I said it.I did have an affair with another married man before you that was ninety percent platonic.He's out of town, so the only benefit of this lesson-like relationship is: I can write letters. I say again that I should admit, as much as I hate to admit it, that you were the first man I ever threw myself into, that drove me crazy, that drove me to the brink of destruction (I once seriously I thought about killing you and then committing suicide, let us be together forever).But I have woken up from this addiction, maybe I am not worthy of such a love life, maybe I have another destiny, in short, it doesn’t matter, the future life will only bring me such passion, or never again If it brings me passion, I will be calm, because the current path is my own choice, and my motto is: neither fear nor regret. If the woman you mentioned is right for you, I wish you all the best and hope that you will live the life you want in the future, and that you will graciously forget me in that life.I may be a heartless woman to you, and I don't like to give that impression to others, but there is nothing I can do, and I have to respect my own life. Bless you, always! Lou Hong a woman who disappeared In the evening, the effect of Luoyang's anesthesia gradually passed, and he began to show signs of awakening.Liu Yun stayed in the intensive care unit all the time. For a period of time, she watched the sleeping Luoyang silently for a long time, praying in her heart that Luoyang would pass through safely.Now she was relieved, the nurse called her dinner, and she went back to the office to eat. Hou Bo called to inquire about the situation, and Liu Yun told him that it was okay so far, and she wanted to stay tonight.Liu Yun spent most of her time guarding Luoyang in the intensive care unit. The nurse asked her to go back to the doctor's office to rest several times, but she always found some excuse to stay.She couldn't explain to the nurse why she wanted to stay here, why she was in the ICU with so many thoughts?Facing these patients who are living on the verge of life at this moment, Liu Yun feels that life is so uncertain for the first time.She has been a surgeon for so long and has seen many patients die, but she has never felt such a strong feeling.This person is alive today, and may not be there tomorrow. Accidents, there are always so many accidents that come quietly without saying hello.She thought of Wang Shu again... Since life is so uncertain, why do people waste their lives on so many meaningless things? !Liu Yun looked at Luoyang's sleeping face, as if looking at a mirror.In the mirror, she saw her own vulgarity and mediocrity. At this moment, she felt that Luoyang was taller in front of her eyes. "God, bless him, let such a good person live." Liu Yun prayed loudly in his heart.