Chapter 5 chapter Five

Liu Yunmu gently pulled Geng Lin up and walked into the bedroom. "You sleep for a while, I'll get you some tea." Liu Yun made Geng Lin's bed. Geng Lin felt heavy all over, got into the bed, thanked him, and fell asleep like a baby being cared for by his mother. Liu Yun was preparing hot water for Geng Lin to make tea in the kitchen, and suddenly remembered that Geng Lin prefers warm rice wine, always after such a nap.She decided to bring both drinks to Geng Lin. When Liu Yun returned to the bedroom again, Geng Lin was still awake.She put the tea and warm wine on the bedside table, and then stared intently at Geng Lin who was sleeping soundly.She knew he was going to wake up suddenly, just like before.Her eyes greedily swept every corner of Geng Lin's face, she didn't feel the slightest strangeness.She regretted that she had begun to pay attention to her husband so late, the way a woman pays attention to a man instead of a friend or a neighbor.She decided to wait for Geng Lin to wake up and have a heart-to-heart talk with him, no matter what he thinks, she is willing to understand.She didn't want to lose her husband in vain.Tonight, she felt that she and Geng Lin had started a new life through his little affair.

At this time, Liu Yun forgot that there is another possibility in the world, which is not a misunderstanding, but incomprehension, incomprehension, no matter what preparations you have made subjectively in advance. Geng Lin seemed to smell the aroma of warm rice wine, exactly as Liu Yun thought, and suddenly woke up. He saw Liu Yun who was sitting by the bed watching him, and smiled embarrassedly. Liu Yun first handed him rice wine: "Drink it quickly, it will be cold in a while." Geng Lin sat up flattered, and took the rice wine that Liu Yun handed over with both hands, feeling very warm in his heart.He hasn't experienced this kind of happiness for a long time, even Liu Yun forgot to do it.

"Thank you." After he finished speaking, he took a sip of wine, and the hot wine passed through his stomach, which even gave him the illusion that this extra happiness was obtained because he had two women right now. "Here is the tea." Liu Yun pointed to the tea on the bedside table to Geng Lin, "I'm going to take a shower." Liu Yun left, and she wanted to give Geng Lin some time to take a good look at their special bedroom. After drinking the rice wine, Geng Lin picked up the hot tea again, and looked at everything in the bedroom without any changes, as if he had forgotten that he had just said "no" to the life here.When they first moved into this house, the bedroom looked different, and Liu Yun insisted on redecorating it.He still remembered Liu Yun's theory that they were all office workers and spent most of their time at home in the bedroom, so the bedroom must be particularly comfortable, so the walls of the bedroom were covered with wooden boards, except for the TV and a huge There is a single sofa, and this bed is the only thing in the bedroom.The bedroom always exudes a pleasant woody smell, which reminds him of his past life.At that time, he had a strong desire for Liu Yun. Liu Yun even joked that his desire came from this bedroom.But Liu Yun has never let go like tonight.For Geng Lin, Liu Yun became a new woman tonight.However, Geng Lin is still full of nostalgia for the time when they first moved into their new home. It was a harmonious and happy time until the miscarriage happened.

Liu Yun returned to the bedroom, obviously wearing light makeup, which added a bit of charm.She stood in front of the bed in some embarrassment, and Geng Lin stretched out his hand to lift her quilt and motioned her to go to bed.Liu Yun got under the covers in a bathrobe and sat against the head of the bed.She suddenly remembered something, went down to the ground, opened the closet, and took out his bathrobe for Geng Lin. After putting it on, Geng Lin shook Liu Yun's hand to express his gratitude. "Can we talk?" Liu Yun's tone was very light, a bit pleading. "What are you talking about?" Geng Lin was very careful.

"I think I must be responsible for you leaving." Liu Yun said it sincerely, because he also thought so in his heart.She wants to solve the problem, so she tries to get to the root of the problem first. "I want to talk to you, not to drag you back. Of course I don't want to lose you, but if you really fall in love with someone else, I can't help it. Fate. But I hope you can help me bring us back together." If the personal issues are clarified, even if we separate in the future, my heart will be brighter." Geng Lin turned his head to look at Liu Yun, regretting that before he found another woman, he never gave Liu Yun such a chance to let the two of them think about what was wrong with their past life alone.Now that another woman has come in, he feels it's too late.He smiled helplessly and shook his head:

"I'm not sure, it seems like we're fine." Liu Yun became angry again when she heard such words, she wanted to ask him immediately, then why do you have another woman?But she remembered that this would make her stiff, so she said: "Actually, if you think about it carefully, there are quite a few problems." "Which aspect are you referring to?" Geng Lin asked with interest. "For example, about the miscarriage." Liu Yun's mention of this incident hit Geng Lin, because he had always vaguely felt that the consequences of the miscarriage had built a wall between him and Liu Yun.

"What do you think of this?" Geng Lin asked. Liu Yun didn't answer right away. She thought of that "relaxed" night and the newlyweds who wanted to show their love to the whole world.The young wife kept making intimate moves towards her husband in front of Geng Lin.At that time, Liu Yun was four months pregnant.The dinner that day made Liu Yun feel extremely long, because she was extremely tired.But Geng Lin wanted to sleep with her, he tried his best to be gentle, Liu Yun had no choice.But none of them expected that Liu Yun would start to bleed when the matter was not over. Geng Lin called the 120 ambulance and watched Liu Yun moaning and crying.

In Liu Yun's hospital, Liu Yun's colleagues performed an operation on Liu Yun. After the operation, they told Liu Yun that she could no longer have children.Liu Yun still remembers her feeling when she heard the news, not sad, but bewildered.Losing her child left her feeling empty.This feeling of emptiness overwhelmed the sadness.Geng Lin cried so much that the doctors who wanted to blame him couldn't open their mouths. "This matter may have left a shadow in your heart." Liu Yun thought of this and said. "Maybe." Geng Lin muttered noncommittally. "Sometimes when you're sleeping with me, I see a weird look on your face, as if asking me if you've done something wrong again. I don't quite understand why you have that look?"

"Sometimes I can't do it while I'm doing it." Geng Lin added, as if they were recalling a good thing. "Why? I didn't blame you for this. I don't seem to have said a word to you." "You're right, you never blamed me, you just put your cold hands on my head and hinted like a god that you forgive me, but at the same time you made it clear to me that I'm a sinner , is the murderer. Maybe this is the way you blame me, a scary way, a way I can't avoid, you are everywhere, I'm afraid of you." Geng Lin seemed to be talking about it, so many years of not Clear thinking straightened out.

"It's terrible." Liu Yun said. "Yeah, to me it's scarier than loud because it's invisible." "I'm sorry, I can't argue with you about this anymore. If I..." "Don't say that, Liu Yun, no matter what, it's not your turn to say sorry. I don't mean to blame you at all when I say this, it's just that your way gave me a lot of psychological pressure." "Now can you forget about this with me?" Liu Yun suggested. Geng Lin looked at Liu Yun and nodded seriously. It can be seen that the world belongs to men.They are above even when they are forgiven.Is this the world's fault, or the woman's fault?

Liu Yun threw himself into Geng Lin's arms, thinking that their new life could start here.Seeing that Geng Lin did not hint at Liu Yun in this way, she brought up another topic: "Tell me about your girlfriend, please?" Geng Lin immediately became alert. He didn't know what Liu Yun's real intention was, so he decided not to say anything.Because at the same time, he also seriously thought about Liu Yun: If another woman becomes clear in Liu Yun's imagination, it will only increase the harm to Liu Yun.He doesn't want to do this.He looked at Liu Yun, didn't speak, and there was no expression on his face. "Are you worried that I won't be able to bear it?" Liu Yun asked. Geng Lin smiled noncommittally. "I think you underestimate me. A woman my age is not so fragile." Liu Yun paused and continued, "I'm not asking you out of curiosity. I'm serious. If that woman It's very suitable for you, so I shouldn't tie you hard to me, it's not fair." When Liu Yun said this, he didn't realize at all that what he said was just a sincere wish, not a possibility.There must be such a rational and generous woman in the world. Liu Yun is not yet, but she thinks she is, because although she is forty years old, she has never had a chance to understand herself. "How do you know if she is suitable for me?" Geng Lin was also moved by Liu Yun's words. "We have been together for so many years, if I don't know you and what kind of woman is suitable for you, who can know?!" Geng Lin had an affair, but he was still a very traditional man, and mentally he couldn't be calm about the fact that he had another woman.Therefore, he couldn't talk about Lou Hong freely with anyone, but in his heart, he was very eager to talk about this very modern woman with a trustworthy friend, without avoiding her shortcomings.So, he entered the situation that he and Liu Yun built with true feelings. "I've never told anyone about her." Geng Lin lifted his last hesitation. "But so far, I'm not someone else, am I? Besides, if you talk about her, it might help us solve some problems." "She is not a perfect woman." Geng Lin completely relieved his guard. "No one." Liu Yun was still calm in her heart at this time, and she was almost happy for herself, because she found that when she started listening, she hardly had any prejudice. "She is the kind of girl who looks very proud at first, but after getting in touch, everyone will find that she is very kind to others, not the kind of cool girl who rejects people thousands of miles away." "Very young?" Liu Yun noticed that Geng Lin had said "girl" twice. "Yes, she is twenty-five years old." Geng Lin glanced away, as if he didn't want to talk about age anymore.Realizing the change in Geng Lin, Liu Yun decided not to intervene anymore, and listened to what he wanted to say. "She is a new transfer, and many men like her, but she is not very proud of it, and she is very hot with any man. I never thought that there would be anything between us, although I also like her , but she is the kind of girl who dares to love and hate, and she has to say what she thinks in her heart after a while." Geng Lin stopped here and looked at Liu Yun embarrassedly. Liu Yun was immersed in listening intently and calmly. "I mean you are annoying, right?" Geng Lin asked. Liu Yun shook his head, and Geng Lin was very happy, so he continued talking. "She is the kind of tall and thin girl who dresses very fashionable but has a kind heart. Of course, the times and environments they live in are different from ours. When she came to me one day, the first thing she said was when did you tell me I do you love me? I felt like I couldn't believe she said that, and I thought, no one in the world would say that." "I said I didn't understand her, and she immediately yelled at me, and she said, are you saying I'm blackmailing you? She said that, and I had nothing to say, and then she said a lot of things, except being coquettish and willful ingredients, and she spoke the truth." "What did she say?" Liu Yun asked, she was afraid that Geng Lin would omit these words. "She said she liked me a lot, and even fell in love with me. But she is not a woman who can make love because there is no need for it. She believes that the man she likes will always react before her. Of course, she put me also belonged to this category of men. She said that I had fully shown her my affection for her through certain conversations, through glances, through many specific concerns. She gave some examples, which I do not want to deny. But I am She said, I'm married and have a very nice wife. I thought, I'm so stupid..." Geng Lin interrupted himself. "Why?" Liu Yun asked. "Telling this to you, I'm getting dizzy." "Perhaps it will be clearer if you say it, and it may be good for both of us." Geng Lin looked at Liu Yun in amazement again, and Liu Yun's encouraging gaze made Geng Lin continue talking. "She said she could understand my feelings. For a man who has been married for so many years and has never had another woman, it is very humane to fall in love again." Liu Yun couldn't help laughing. "Yes, she used the word humane, and I laughed too. She also said that your wife has long been unable to attract you. The reason why you can't leave her is because you haven't found a suitable external force. There is no first Three, most men cannot divorce." Having said that, Geng Lin looked at Liu Yun again.He has been controlled by this kind of enthusiasm for confiding, but he also vaguely feels in his heart that he should not be too selfish, and should not base such confiding on Liu Yun's sadness or pain.But Liu Yun's expression was calm, and his eyes were only somewhat encouraging. "Actually, when she said this, I was quite disgusted, but she immediately changed the way. She asked me to face my heart. Whether a husband is loyal or not, the most important thing is the heart. She said, you can't hold the right Another woman's love, to love one's own wife." "She said, I am not asking you to divorce your wife. Maybe I am not a woman worthy of your divorce at all, but you have to face up to the relationship between us now. She said that she also fell in love with me, and she has worked hard. Not to reveal this layer of paper, but she can't do it." "I accepted her last suggestion, she said, maybe the beginning between you and me is not the end between you and your wife, maybe on the contrary, after a while, it is us who need to end, in that case, isn't it just right ? Through this extramarital relationship, you found that what you really love is your wife, not other women." When Geng Lin said this, some doubts flashed in Liu Yun's mind, is this woman too rational?If a person is so rational, can he still love?But she didn't say it. "That's pretty much it, that's how we started." When Geng Lin mentioned this, he was suddenly worried that Liu Yun would ask him specific things, such as how they dated, where they slept, and so on.But Liu Yun didn't ask, she wanted to know more about their spiritual world. "Do you think you can understand her well?" Liu Yun asked. "Well, there must be an age difference. She has some strange theories that are not very easy for me to understand, but I can still understand. She is very frank and can express everything. I think this is very attractive to me. She may never have psychological problems, for example, she said, she likes men very much, not women, most women are narrow-minded, she is right, most women are like this." "She hinted to me that she has had several men, but her attitude is very natural. She said that many women like or desire to be raped, but she does not, her desire is to sleep with the man she likes, Completely relax yourself, you can even turn yourself into a prostitute at that moment." Speaking of this, Geng Lin blushed, "She always likes to talk about these weird theories, so I mostly listen, she said. But I love how natural she is with the flesh, how she can admit without blushing that she's addicted to carnal pleasures." "But she may not really understand prostitutes." Liu Yun said. "For sure, she is still too young. Although she has had several boyfriends, her heart is still very pure." "Isn't she sexy?" Geng Lin nodded embarrassedly. "Are you in love with her?" Liu Yun finally pointed at Geng Lin's deadly spot. After Geng Lin's panic was covered up by him, he was suddenly glad that he had a chance, especially in front of Liu Yun, to see his true self.He didn't answer right away, but he went through the following psychological process: Do I love Lou Hong or Liu Yun?Or love both? Ai Louhong loses Liu Yun because of this, will I be unbearable? Do I really have the courage to leave Liu Yun and Lou Hong and start over? Can I then throw away what else I already have in life?Such as a house, property, etc.? When he thought of this, he couldn't give himself a definite answer.So he asked another question: In order to take care of these things, losing Lou Hong, can I bear it? No.Geng Lin immediately gave a decisive answer in his heart.He loves Lou Hong, so he made many false comforts to Liu Yun.