Chapter 3 third chapter

As a man, he would spend hours in bed with his girlfriend on Saturday mornings until the palms of his hands touching her youthful body were numb and his stomach was hungry.At noon, he and his girlfriend, who was putting on makeup again, went to a well-bred restaurant that only played music softly for lunch, and then the two of them went shopping near the hotel, and then squeezed his girlfriend into a secluded place and kissed wildly. So much so that I brought the taste of chocolate from my girlfriend's mouth into my own.Then they parted as agreed, and the man had to go to his wife, to whom he had been skillfully taught how to explain and make terms.

Such a man, in such a situation, on the way to see his wife, even if he is not arrogant, at least he should have enough strength, right? Just as there are exceptions to everything, Geng Lin, as one of these men, hadn't broken up with Lou Hong for a minute, and his courage to see his wife disappeared without a trace.He seems to be such a man, as long as he doesn't do it face to face, he has the courage to do certain things that are not allowed morally, so he can't try to be a professional killer, how can he kill people without seeing each other. But he had to go see Liu Yun, because Lou Hong not only gave him a detailed description of what happened in the bar, but also repeatedly warned him that the situation was serious, "Your wife is crazy", that's what she said.Although Geng Lin didn't believe that Liu Yun was crazy.Going to the bar to stalk once may be out of jealousy, maybe out of curiosity, in short, it is not serious enough to be crazy.But Geng Lin was still under pressure. He felt that he had to meet Liu Yun today, because another sentence Lou Hong said to him disturbed him. She said, "You have to think about me too. My parents don't know me and You have such a relationship, if they find out, they will kill me and send you to prison." Geng Lin didn't know Lou Hong's parents, but he had heard of them.They will not kill their daughter and send their daughter's lover to prison, but they will not keep quiet when they find out about their daughter. They will create a consequence that Geng Lin cannot bear.It is said that they were a pair of officials who were neither big nor young. Geng Lin confirmed to Lou Hong several times, but Lou Hong jokingly refused to tell him the truth.

There is always a special family atmosphere on the streets on weekends, and couples with children are the most common street scenes.They held hands, or surrounded each other, discussing what they had seen and heard, with an extremely relaxed expression, as if they were at home.Geng Lin is a little jealous of this kind of happiness, because it is a kind of happiness under the sun, it is the happiness that has been allowed by everything, and it does not need to feel guilty because of happiness.Geng Lin quickly walked a few steps away from the downtown area. He vaguely felt that he would never be able to have such happiness, even if he stayed with Liu Yun, because she would no longer be able to conceive, and without a child, this bright happiness would be bleak.

Thinking of the child, Geng Lin's mood became even worse. He decided to find a place nearby to sit for a while and go home later. He saw a teahouse on the side of the road and went in.There is almost no decoration inside the teahouse, but it looks simple and natural.It is a bit like the big classroom when he was in middle school, with benches and tables, and a few past awards hanging on the wall.Geng Lin couldn't help laughing when he thought of those bars that pursued this style.There were no other customers in the teahouse. "What would you like to drink?" An old man in his sixties sitting behind the glass counter greeted him.

"What kind of tea do you have?" Geng Lin decided to stay. "Scented tea, ten yuan a pot; black tea, five yuan a pot; green tea, fifteen yuan a pot." Geng Lin thought about it. "A rich man like you, drink green tea." said the old man. "I'm not rich." Geng Lin said shyly. "That's not laid off." "Yes, not laid off." "How about some green tea?" "Row." "Sit down, I'll send it to you right away." The old man was busy making tea, and Geng Lin went to look at the certificates. "Most of the people here are not so rich, so it's useless to buy expensive tea." The old man seemed to be talking to himself, "We are not like some teahouses, where two people drink a pot of tea for more than a hundred yuan .More than one hundred is enough for five people to have a meal."

Geng Lin was attracted by the certificates on the wall, and the same person's name was written on the certificates: Wu Yanan.He almost walked up to the counter: "Master, may I ask, is this award from your family?" "My daughter got it." "Wu Yanan is your daughter?" "Yeah, you know her?" "She is my classmate in middle school, and we have been at the same table." The old man's expression darkened. "She died the year before last, otherwise, she opened this teahouse." "What's going on?" Geng Lin regretted asking when he asked.

"ill." Geng Lin chose a corner to sit down. He felt that he entered this teahouse as if he was guided by some kind of fate. The old man brought him tea and said to him: "No one will come at this moment, you can watch for me for a while, sit and drink tea slowly, I have to pick up my grandson, he is going to make up lessons. Are you in?" "middle." Geng Lin pulled another stool and put his feet on it, leaning one arm on the table and began to drink tea.He thought of his best friend Wang Shu. On the second day after his forty-second birthday, he drove to meet a client. He owned a stationery store and never came back.Car accident never greets people in advance.Geng Lin hoped that no one would come in here, let him put his feet in the sun alone, let him not face anyone, only face himself and think about it.

What does Wang Shu's death mean to me? This is a question Geng Lin often asks himself recently, because it doesn't just mean that he has lost his best friend, but death makes him suddenly understand that the people crowded on the earth Although they are all tied to different positions by a fixed life, it happens all the time that they stumble and fall off the earth.And those who leave early are likely to have unfulfilled wishes.He remembered that Wang Shu called him once before his death and asked him to have a drink.After drinking, Wang Shu said a lot to him, and he understood those words as jokes after drinking.He still remembered Wang Shu's expression when he spoke.While talking loudly, he kept waving his hands, but once he stopped talking, he looked at Geng Lin very sadly, with tears shining.

"I'm bored," Wang Shu said, "boring." "If you don't have much interest in living, others don't. If you earn two or three hundred thousand yuan a year, what do you want?" "What do I want?" Wang Shu repeated Geng Lin's question in a low voice, and suddenly shouted, "I don't want anything, I want to live for myself!" Wang Shu continued, "I'm too greedy, I To go to college, to get married, to have kids, to have a house, to have a car, I've worked my ass off for almost twenty years. Where have I been for twenty years? I'm a whole fucking slave!"

"Then what do you want?" Geng Lin remembered that when he asked Wang Shu, he also asked himself in his heart. "I don't want much, and it's not hard to get. I want a quiet place. I can work in a small town, earn some money, and live with the woman I love the most. There is no competition, no pressure, and peace. , even if there is no hope." Thinking of this, Geng Lin's eyes became moist. Wang Shu's favorite woman is not his wife, and now his dream has become a regret.Geng Lin was not sure what role Wang Shu's death played in his life, but he knew that the role was huge, and he saw himself through Wang Shu.

It has been almost a year since Lou Hong was transferred to Geng Lin's unit. Of course, Geng Lin was attracted from the very beginning.But he didn't try anything, even if he found out that Lou Hong also liked him, he kept his last sanity.He always felt that he had no reason to leave Liu Yun, she was not such a bad wife.On the second day after attending Wang Shu's funeral, he didn't even discuss it with himself, and asked Lou Hong to have dinner with him after get off work without any hesitation.Now sitting alone in this dilapidated teahouse and thinking about all this, he was also surprised. He still remembers that Lou Hong took him to the "behind" bar after dinner, and they sat in front of the bar and drank Lou Hong's favorite tequila.He looked at Lou Hong's slender white fingers pinching the wine glass, her slender neck when she raised her head slightly, her shirt was never buttoned up with a second button, as if allowing you to imagine what her undulating chest has. the mystery of... It was almost midnight when they left the bar, and the door of Labor Park had been locked. Lou Hong proposed to jump over the wall to enter the park, and she jumped over quickly after speaking. Geng Lin still remembered that there was bright moonlight in the park that night, and the moonlight seemed to be distributed evenly everywhere.Geng Lin also felt that his heart was full of courage and desire in this moonlit night.He wanted to reach out and grab Lou Hong who was walking beside him several times, but he was always interrupted by the topic that Lou Hong suddenly thought of.He thought of Wang Shu several times, and every time he dismissed Wang Shu from his mind, he became more calm, as if he had to get this woman, otherwise death would catch up with him. Lou Hong suddenly took two quick steps, then stopped and waited for Geng Lin to approach. Geng Lin saw that her lipstick was a bit seductive under the moonlight, and was about to reach out to pull her, but Lou Hong waved his hand to stop him. Lou Hong faced the moonlight, and Geng Lin stared at her pretty face.Moonlight casts shadows around her eye sockets.Lou Hong gently hugged Geng Lin's head and began to kiss him. Her kiss was so long and smooth, her tongue seemed like a cloud full of rainwater, hanging Geng Lin's heart to a high place, making him feel a deep throbbing feeling for the first time in his life.He forgot himself and his surroundings, he seemed to become the kiss itself, he felt himself shrunk into a dot in the kiss.Before that, he didn't know that he could have such a strong impulse in a calm and skilled kiss. "Why did you keep me waiting for so long?" Lou Hong asked him softly after the kiss, her voice seemed to be the aftertaste of the kiss just now, together with the trees that were falling leaves, the large bushes, and the stars in the sky up. "When did you tell me you love me?" Geng Lin was too excited to say a word. Lou Hong started to undress, and she threw the undressed clothes on the grass.Every time she took off a piece of clothing, she gave Geng Lin a sideways glance, until she only had underwear left, and Geng Lin woke up like a dream.He hugged Lou Hong into his arms. "No, no, not here, you'll be freezing." "I'm not afraid. If you are afraid of my cold, give me your body." Geng Lin was reminded by Lou Hong's words, he took off his coat and shirt, and then put Lou Hong in his arms again. "We can't find such a big bed anywhere." Lou Hong said. "No, no, not here." "Then where else can we be?" Lou Hong spoke bitterly, making Geng Lin only feel provocative, but could not hear the complaint. "I'm going to rent a house." "Okay, I'll wait." After Lou Hong finished speaking, she left Geng Lin's body, took off her last clothes, and lay down on the grass... Perhaps it was at this moment that Geng Lin fell in love with Lou Hong. She used her body to show Geng Lin a kind of extreme beauty, a kind of beauty that makes you willing to pay the price.Geng Lin also asked himself if he only loved Lou Hong's body, but he immediately responded in the negative.He never compares other women's bodies with his wife Liu Yun's body, whether Liu Yun is better or worse than them.But a body that is more plump and more feminine than Lou Hong's has never been such a huge attraction to Geng Lin, so that when he took off his clothes and walked towards Lou Hong's naked body, he felt responsible. He can't have sex with Lou Hong in this open night like Adam and Eve did in the Garden of Eden at first, because he is not Adam, he is an ordinary man who lives in taboos and is occasionally a little impulsive.He lay on Lou Hong's body, and kissed her very tenderly, soothing the passion that Lou Hong had just pushed to the extreme with his body. "Why are you always like lukewarm water?" Lou Hong asked, hugging him tightly. "what would you like?" "Hot water or ice water." Lou Hong spoke from her heart. Her personality is so extreme that she can't stand anything in between. It was such a night that in Geng Lin's mind, it became a picture that constantly emerged, forcing him to move forward step by step.He moved forward in such a hurry that he even doubted himself whether he had figured out why Lou Hong loved him. "Do you love me?" He asked Lou Hong. "Love." "why?" "Because you never spit anywhere."