The heroine, Sun Yue, is the general branch secretary of the Chinese Department of C City University. She is beautiful, kind, and upright, and her calmness contains enthusiasm.But her life course is not smooth sailing, happy and peaceful, on the contrary, it is full of pain and misfortune, whether it is personal emotion or spiritual pursuit. In the 1950s, when she entered C City University together with her childhood friend Zhao Zhenhuan, she was still an extremely innocent girl.In less than one semester, she has shown many talents: excellent academic performance, constantly publishing prose and poetry in the school magazine, an active member at the weekend dance party (except for Zhao Zhenhuan, who does not accept invitations from others), a member of the school gymnastics team, Department of drama troupe.Male students of all grades pay attention to her.He Jingfu met Sun Yue for the first time when he welcomed the new students, and he was deeply attracted by her at that time.From then on, he kept following Sun Yue and guided her to study, and they became friends.Once in the school drama "Put Down Your Whip", Jing Fu and Sun Yue played a pair of father and daughter.On stage, Jing Fu couldn't restrain his love for Sun Yue, and suddenly lost his composure.Only then did Sun Yue realize his true feelings for him.However, she can't accept Jing Da's love, she doesn't want to break her past oath to Zhao Zhenhuan, and bear the name of being ungrateful and courting Qin Muchu, although she clearly knows that she loves Jing husband more.She announced her love relationship with Zhao Zhenhuan to everyone, and comforted herself with Zhao's outstanding beauty and tenderness.Jing Fu respected her choice, but couldn't give up his love, and poured out his heart to her in his diary every day.

In 1957, Xi Liu, secretary of the school’s party committee, refused to allow Xiao Xie, an overseas Chinese student, to go abroad to visit his sick mother on the grounds that releasing music was an overriding political task.Jing Fu posted a big-character poster criticizing Xi Liu for his lack of human touch, and complained for Xiao Xie, which aroused great repercussions on campus, and Sun Yue also signed the big-character poster.Soon, Sun Yue was criticized by the organization and made a review of the signature.Jing Fu was labeled as a rightist, expelled from school, and his diary was excerpted and published.This shocked Sun Yue greatly.

In 1962, the school notified Jing Fu to return to school.But he has gotten used to life in the countryside, and secretly studied philosophy, and learned that Sun Yue had married Zhao Zhenhuan, and the hope hidden in his heart was shattered. In addition, his parents passed away, and his younger sister got married. the life of theAfter graduating from university, Sun Yue stayed at the university, but Zhao Zhenhuan was assigned to be a reporter for A Provincial Daily. In order to avoid Zhao's worries, Sun Yue married him as soon as he graduated.They live apart. At the beginning of the Cultural Revolution, Sun Yue was regarded as a "hardcore old security guard". Later, the hat became bigger and dirtier, until he became "the concubine of the party secretary of C City University".Zhao Zhenhuan complained that she should not be so active in politics, thinking that she did not fulfill her duties as a wife when she was not around, and felt that living alone was unbearable.At this time, he was drawn into the circle of activities of the romantic figure Feng Lanxiang by Fatty Wang. Soon he lost his mind, abandoned Sun Yue and his daughter, and married Feng.However, he found that Feng was just a vulgar and contemptible "woman", and that Sun Yue was his veritable "lover".He was condemned by conscience.After the Cultural Revolution, he insisted on divorcing Feng, hoping to get Sun Yue's forgiveness. After the "Gang of Four" collapsed, Sun Yue was transferred from middle school to university by Xi Liu.Then Jing Fu was also recalled.When he learned that Sun Yue divorced Zhao early and lived alone with his daughter regretfully, the hope of love was rekindled in his heart.At this time, Xu Hengzhong, who lost his wife in middle age, was also pursuing Sun Yue hard, but Sun Yue had only sympathy for Xu, but no love.Jing Fu's return disturbed her peaceful life.After more than ten years of wandering life, Jing Fu has become deeper and more sensitive than before.

His profound philosophical thoughts and incisive insights on Marxism and humanitarianism brought a enlightening star to Sun Yue, who was lost in thought.She feels Jingfu's strong attraction to her all the time. She longs to combine with him, but she also feels guilty towards him, and her self-esteem is difficult to balance.Regretfully, her daughter likes Jing Fu very much, but when she learned that her biological father, Zhao Zhenhuan, wanted to repent and change, she couldn't bear to part with her biological father.All this makes Sun Yue full of contradictions. Since the publication of He Jingfu's "Marxism and Humanism" was suppressed and obstructed by Xi Liu and others, Sun Yue became more and more aware of Xi Liu's true face.In the past, she regarded him as the incarnation of the party and a model of morality, but now she finally realizes that he is just a person with rigid thinking and narrow-mindedness, and Xi Liu's thinking can no longer dominate her thinking.At the same time, Sun Yue's contact with Jing Fu also increased.The more she understands him, the more she feels that she can no longer lose Jing Fu, and she can't let him fight alone in the wind and waves, she should stand shoulder to shoulder with him against the turbid current.Finally, the dam between them burst.Regret also expressed sensiblely that she did not want her mother to sacrifice love for herself.Zhao Zhenhuan also fully understood that he had lost what he should have lost, and he could no longer regain Sun Yue's love.But he got what he should get back, and he finally got his daughter's love and Sun Yue's forgiveness.