Chapter 8 Chapter 5: Love in the White House
Sheng's father and Sheng's mother had only seen their daughter for a few months, but they felt that she seemed to have grown up and looked more beautiful. Seeing her come back obediently, they forgot everything they had to say about her.
The next night when Fa Song came to dinner, Shi Hua was surprisingly kind. Mr. Sheng and Mrs. Sheng just thought they were exhausted, and their relationship moved forward.
"Shihua, I'm sorry I lost your temper that time." Fa Song apologized to her.
Shi Hua is not a stingy person, at this moment he is only concerned about Li Qi, so he just smiled at Fa Song and let it go.
She searched for Fang Yi all day but couldn't find him. Fang Yi was studying at the University of Hong Kong, and he didn't have a holiday as early as in the United States.
Gao Yingying and Pang Pang are in Canada, and the other is studying in the UK, and they don't plan to come back.
Shui Wenjun hadn’t been admitted to any university yet, Shihua called her, Aunt Shui only said that she had gone to participate in some church activities, and complained a round of bitterness that Shui Wenjun was crying and fussing and wanted to study abroad, but she couldn’t bear her go.
At night, after her parents were asleep, she quietly shook the phone and went to the newspaper office where Li Qi worked to look for him.
She tossed and turned all night, and the next day she had to deal with the many programs her mother had arranged for her.
At around five o'clock in the afternoon, I finally got in touch with Fang Yi, and Shihua hurried to Fang Yi's house.
"Fang Yi, you wrote to me about Shui Wenjun and Li Qi, is it your prank or is it true?" Shihua knew that Fang Yi was embarrassed and wanted to ask her.
"Do you think I have time to play pranks on you?" Fang Yi said in his usual tone.
"You never liked Mr. Shui Wen." Shi Hua said.
"If you don't like it, you don't like it. Do you need to explain this? Am I supposed to drive a wedge between you?" Fang Yi said.
"Who told you?" Se-hwa asked.
"Of course it's Shui Wenjun's big mouth." Fang Yi said, "But don't think I believe her, I have met her and Li Qi several times on the street."
"That's nothing, right?" Shihua said.
"It's up to you." Fang Yi said, "It's not for you to send a letter to tell you, don't think that I'm so great because of you."
"Then for whom?"
"For Li Qi. I said long ago that it's not him who will hurt you, but you who will hurt him." Fang Yi said, "You are so overwhelmed on campus, what are you asking him to wait for? You always don't let go."
"I really regret that I wrote to you and mentioned my campus life!" Said Shihua.
"Xiao Sheng, if you don't tell me, I can guess it. Will you be pursued? Will you not be tempted?" Fang Yi's words often hit Shihua's vitals.
"Fang Yi, you just don't want me to be happy."
"Why don't you want to be happy? You are happy in the United States, leaving Li Qi in Hong Kong to be moldy."
"Then what does it matter to you?"
"I tell you to end it as soon as possible. If you want him, you want it. If you don't want it, you don't. Li Qi is a good man. When Shui Wenjun entangled him, Aunt Shui quarreled. Isn't it the history repeating between you and him? How much hurt did Li Qi suffer?" ? How much insult?"
"Fang Yi, where can I find him?"
"When the technical school is over, you go to the neighborhood."
"Will you go with me?"
"I don't do the job of the neighborhood security chief," Fang Yi said.
"What's the meaning?"
"Go and see for yourself, don't go if you don't have the guts."
"You mean I'll run into them together?" Se-hwa asked.
"You have never been stupid." Fang Yi smiled, the two of them were used to guessing riddles since they were young.
After finally surviving until four or five o'clock the next day, Shihua asked the driver to go around in circles near the technical college. After driving for a while, he saw Shui Wenjun and Li Qi laughing and walking together.
"Stop!" Shi Hua took a breath, walked out of the car deliberately and calmly, and faced Shui Wenjun and Li Qi.
Li Qi was stunned for a moment, with surprises mixed on his face.
Shui Wenjun, as if nothing had happened, took a step forward and embraced Shihua passionately:
"Ah, Xiao Sheng, you're back! My mother told me you called."
Shihua looked at Li Qi who was still stunned, and asked coldly:
"Did you tell him?"
"I'm going to tell him!" Shui Wenjun still smiled.
"Xiao Sheng..." Li Qi obviously didn't know that she was back.
"Let's go have a cup of coffee." Shihua tried to suppress his emotions.
The three entered a small coffee room, and Shihua chose a quiet corner.
The three of them were relatively silent for a while, Shihua lowered his head, Li Qi stared at her, and Shui Wenjun tried to find a topic.
"Are you guys dating?" Shi Hua took a sip of the coffee he didn't usually drink, looking at the dark brown coffee and talking.
"Ah, how do you know?" Shui Wenjun heaved a sigh of relief, as if Shihua was congratulating them.
"Is it...? Isn't it...?" Shihua's throat was choked, and he still looked down at the coffee.
"Don't tell my mom! She thought I went to the choir class to practice singing hymns every day." Shui Wenjun said.
"That is to say, you come to accompany him after class every day?" Shihua nodded to the coffee, "Of course I won't tell your mother."
Shihua's heart seems to weigh a thousand pounds, and she carefully guards her loyalty to Li Qi and trust in Shui Wenjun; however, both of them betrayed her.
At school, she felt guilty about dating more.
In order to help Azu rebuild his self-confidence, she sympathized with him and accompanied him, and finally he betrayed her again.
The simmering affection for Johnny and Joseph has been exercised with great restraint in order not to spoil other people's pairings.
She thought she was self-willed, but now she doubts whether she is too stupid and too pure.
"Xiao Sheng..." Seeing her drooping head, Li Qi burst into tears.
"Li Qi, you're right, I'm too reserved." Shihua remembered what he said.
"What are you talking about?" Mr. Shui Wen didn't understand.
"Ah Shui, you go first, let me say a few words to Shihua." Li Qi said.
"Why should I go first?" Shui Wenjun held Li Qi's arm with both hands.
"No one needs to go first." Shihua decided to face the reality, "I don't intend to listen to one side's opinion."
"Xiao Sheng, I can't do without Li Qi." Shui Wenjun said.
"This is your problem, not mine." Shi Hua was not polite.
"You can't blame me, you went abroad by yourself, and you still want to occupy him?" Shui Wenjun said.
"When will you go abroad again? Your mother said that you are crying day and night to go abroad." Shihua said sharply.
Li Qi couldn't help changing color.
"Do you have contraception?" Shihua asked Shui Wenjun.
"I didn't, but he will." Shui Wenjun was open-minded.
"Xiao Sheng," Li Qi asked in surprise, "When did you learn this?"
Shihua lowered his head shyly and looked at the coffee again:
"I wouldn't, but you know, the American girls in the dorm say everything."
Then she raised her head and said to Li Qi:
"I haven't been touched. I'm too reserved, aren't I? I don't know men too well, do I?"
"I mean you..." Shui Wenjun was about to speak.
Li Qi stopped her:
"Ah Shui, don't talk too much."
"Don't think that since you can't touch her, she is more precious than me." Shui Wenjun cast a wink.
"Ah Shui, don't be nervous," Shihua said disdainfully, "I didn't come here to fight with you, who wants to fight with you?"
"So I said you don't blame me, you don't want him." Shui Wenjun still held Li Qi's arm, "No one needs to be nervous, Li Qi and you don't need to be nervous, feelings develop naturally, Shihua doesn't date , none of our business."
"Ah Shui, I don't blame you, and I didn't come here for you." Shihua said.
"That's fine, the three of us are still friends." Shui Wenjun patted his chest lightly, "You scared me to death with your serious face when you first sat down."
"I came here for him." Shihua said, "It should be said that it was originally, but since you are acting on occasion, it's none of my business."
"Shihua, don't misunderstand that I regard you as a joke just like everyone else." Li Qi couldn't bear to say.
"I haven't learned how to act on the spot, so of course I'm not among you. Ah Shui can go, you just know." Shihua said.
"What about you?" Li Qi almost wanted to grab her little hand.
With tears in his eyes, Shihua said:
"I'm in the future, and I haven't left. I don't know how to play."
"Xiao Sheng, I'm not playing with you." Li Qi was speechless.
"She ran away by herself, what else can I say?" Shui Wenjun said to Li Qi confidently, "It's not that I snatched you away from her, don't talk nonsense to make us misunderstand, Xiao Sheng and I are six Classmate Nian, I introduced you to each other!"
Shihua felt that everyone's world was far away, and he didn't want to say anything, so he stood up and said:
"I'm leaving first, bye."
"I'll come to chat with you another day." Shui Wenjun said.
Shihua got into the car in a daze, and went home in a daze, she was not annoyed with Shui Wenjun, she was always like this, she was not annoyed with Li Qi, she was only annoyed with herself.
Back in the room, I was in a daze for a long time.
She really wants to let go, want to be lewd, like Shivia, like Shui Wenjun, she doesn't want to be a saint.
She was very distressed and wrote a letter to Pangpang to express her concern.
Fatty wrote back and said:
"You can't be lewd, your personality is like this, people are full of affection, you are the most affectionate, who understands you?"
Pang Pang, who is usually sluggish with words, is equally fluent in sensibility and rationality when writing letters.
Shihua also thought, who knows Pangpang?People only think of her as a fat and clumsy person, but who knows that she has a heart full of enthusiasm?
She also laughed at herself. Although she can speak well, she is actually not much better than Pang Pang, and she is her own prisoner.
She suddenly realized that although she often complained about her parents controlling her, the freedom her parents gave her was much greater than what she gave herself.
She became silent and easy-going, and she would go wherever Faxon asked her to go, but she couldn't have that kind of passion, let alone being lecherous, she didn't even want to hug her.
Shui Wenjun said to come to find her, but he didn't come.
One Sunday morning, it was only after six o'clock, before even the servants got up, when the phone rang suddenly. Shi Hua was always easy to wake up, so he ran to answer the phone.
"Xiao Sheng, it's me." Li Qi's voice said, "I just got off work, come up to pick you up, and I'll be there in fifteen minutes."
"Where are you?" Shihua held the corner of his nightgown in his hand, thinking about how messy his long hair was.
"It's a phone booth in Central, get dressed quickly!" Li Qi hung up the line.
Shihua hurriedly put on a skirt, combed her hair and washed her face, and slipped to the gate, when a taxi arrived, Li Qi jumped out of the taxi and pulled her into the taxi.
"Where are you going?" Shihua asked.
"Let's have breakfast at the top of the mountain." Li Qi said.
The two sat down in the dining room on the top of the mountain that had just opened. Shihua's plain face was as crystal clear as the morning dewdrops.
"Xiao Sheng, you look a little prettier again."
Li Qi smiled as if admiring a small white flower.
He was also a little stronger, not so thin and sickly.
"You look good too, but I didn't see clearly that day." Shihua didn't look like he was too tired, "Why did you go to school during the day and work all night at night, but you got fat instead?"
"The more you work nights, the hungrier you will be, and you will eat more." Li Qi said, "You should relax your money."
"Is your body okay?" Shihua asked earnestly.
"It's okay." Li Qi was very moved, "You really still care about me."
"I'm useless, I can't change myself. Why did I come here as soon as I heard your call? I really don't understand."
"Xiao Sheng, you love me."
"I never said that."
"It's just not said."
"What do you want me for? Everything is not the same as before."
"Xiao Sheng, you said you were in the future, but you didn't leave. My world has always been so chaotic. You came, and everything changed a little. After you left, everything went back to how it was before. Now you are back..."
"You can't change your prodigal character, what you want."
"No, I'm not a prodigal."
"Then you're just a wandering scavenger, picking up what's on the ground."
"Then what are you? You are a star picker, and you will always pick stars in the sky. Xiao Sheng, I am not a star in the sky. I know you don't want to pick me now, so I said, I will not disappoint you."
"Are you going to be a star in the sky while being a scavenger?"
"Are you still angry with Mr. Shui Wen?"
"I'm not angry. She's gone. Don't be sad. I'm just afraid that you will be sad."
"He Shui is full of emotion and sex, she is not lethal."
"Li Qi, you really disappointed me, I thought you would be sad."
"She won't, and neither will I. I can only grieve for one person."
"Who?"
"you."
"So sad that you want to get involved with Mr. Shui Wen?"
"She comes to me often, and I long to hear from her."
"When she meets a man, will she still remember me? When she sees you, will she still talk about me?"
"But seeing her is like seeing your shadow. She is the only one who stays in Hong Kong among the people who are close to you."
"If the only person staying in Hong Kong is Pangpang, you will be with her...with her..." Shihua couldn't say it.
"Of course Pangpang won't get into bed with me, will she? But I will always look for her and talk about you."
"Then you mean that Mr. Shui Wen sent it to your door?"
Li Qi didn't answer her.
Shihua laughed instead:
"If you don't answer, it doesn't make me feel disgusted with you. I know Ah Shui's character very well. If you don't tell me, you are a gentleman, a wild gentleman."
"Do you mind?" Li Qi asked.
"Do you think I mind? You have defiled me." Said Shihua.
"Okay, you're a fairy, we're mortals."
"What I am is none of your business."
"At least you're still willing to see me."
"Seeing is one thing, but it doesn't mean continuing the past. If you want to chase me, you have to start from the beginning, after Shui Wenjun, after picking up waste." Sheng Shihua said, "By then, I don't know what I will become look."
"You won't change, Xiao Sheng."
"Do you think I won't change after death?"
"Xiao Sheng, did I ask you if you did anything in America? I doubted you?"
"You trust me too much."
"Don't be angry, if I don't respect you, I'm already... I'm a man, do you understand?"
After thinking about it, Shi Hua nodded.
"I've worked so hard to control myself. I wouldn't do it to other girls, and I don't know how long you'll have to carry the burden of being a virgin!" Li Qi blurted out.
Shihua's face turned red and white, ashamed and annoyed.
"Xiao Sheng, I'm sorry, I couldn't help but say it."
Li Qi stretched out his big hand and held Shi Hua's small hand tightly in his palm.
"Xiao Sheng, I told you everything." Li Qi sighed, "Why did I tell you?"
"Let's stop here, Li Qi."
"You don't want to see me again?"
"You and Shui Wenjun make my stomach sick."
"Xiao Sheng, do you think that the men you meet in the future will never meet women? Then go to the monastery to find a boyfriend!"
When Sheng Shihua heard these words, Azu, Johnny, Joseph, Lonnie... all the men she was grateful for and loved her were spinning in her mind, and even Cheng Anxiong, didn't he even meet him? woman?
All I could hear was Li Qi saying:
"You don't blame anyone but me?"
Shihua felt that everything was paradoxical, paradoxical, and his heart was in a mess.
"Forget it, don't settle anyone's account." Shihua said.
"But it's not a write-off, I love you." Li Qi said.
"Then what do you think of me? I will go back to the United States to continue my studies. Who knows what will happen in the future?" Shihua said, "Maybe you will become a star, and I won't be able to pick it up."
"Xiao Sheng, I will always be a mortal. No matter how outstanding I am, I am still a mortal. I just wait for the day when you become a mortal." Li Qi said sincerely.
"Even if I have had ten or eight men?" Shihua asked.
"Yes, love is nothing more than this." Li Qi said.
On the way Li Qi sent her home, Sheng Shihua was silent.
Li Qi Yiyi watched her walk into the gate of Sheng's house.
The holiday passed lively in the Christmas ball, but Shihua's heart was lonely.
She only thought of Fazon as a Christmas tree, tall and grand, very appropriate for the occasion.
The colorful lights just hide her girlish sadness.
Faxon accompanied her to fly back to the United States, and he changed planes in San Francisco to the East Coast, just in time for Cheng Anxiong to run into him.
An Xiong picked her up with a healthy complexion.
"Why is it dark?" Shihua asked.
"Skiing can be dark. The snow reflects ultraviolet light very badly. Do you think Eskimos are black?" An Xiong said.
"Skiing all Christmas?"
"It took me a while to find a house for you, too."
"Find a house? I finally have my own house!" Shi Hua was elated, "What's it like?"
"Well, it's dilapidated and old, the toilet doesn't have a board, and the bed is crooked, so let's just forget about it. It's hard to find a house near the school!" An Xiong said with a frown, "Now we will drive back to San Luis Obispo Let's see."
"Really that old?" Shihua has been dreaming of a fairytale-like beautiful little house.
"I'm really sorry, I couldn't find a better one." An Xiong drove all the way, apologetic all the way.
After driving for several hours, Anxiong chose Highway 1 along the Pacific coast, which is picturesque.
"We can go to one of these places in a week in the future." An Xiong said.
An Xiong always has a lot of plans for traveling in the mountains and rivers, it seems that she doesn't have to think about anything, he has arranged them for her.
"Have you ever had a girlfriend before?" Shihua asked.
"Yes." An Xiong simply replied.
"Who is it?" Shihua asked.
"American." An Xiong replied.
"Are you pretty?" Shihua asked frightenedly, although she was not unconfident about her looks.
"Very beautiful." An Xiong replied generously, and took out a photo from his pocket.
"what!"
Shihua couldn't help but be amazed, with delicate features, the outline of an ancient Roman plaster statue, the line of the eye sockets is also very similar to that of a Roman beauty, a straight Greek nose bridge, a smiling mouth with two pointed corners in the center of the upper lip, and an oval face with no A little make-up, very beautiful.
"She is just like the peerless beauty in "The Trojan Horse Slaughtering the City", Helen of Troy!" Shi Hua admired.
"People who have seen her say so." An Xiong said, "That is a picture of her when she was eighteen."
"Now?" Shihua asked.
"As old as me, twenty-four years old." An Xiong said.
"Are you twenty-four?"
"I entered school late when I was young. Besides, I have finished my master's degree."
Shihua still cares more about his ex-girlfriend:
"Why aren't you together anymore?"
"It's nothing, everyone changed schools, and the relationship faded. She's married."
"Have you met?"
"Yes, once." An Xiong replied.
"How does it feel?"
"She gained a lot of weight, I think, she's probably very fat now, friends told me."
"Then you just pretend to be the most beautiful picture of her?"
"I only have this frame."
"Don't miss her?"
"I don't have anything to think about, I just remember that there was such a beautiful girl back then."
An Xiong said calmly, without any sympathy to make Shihua jealous, as if it was over and it was over.
"What about you?" An Xiong asked her.
"What about me?" Shihua stalled for time, thinking about how to answer him.
"Have you ever fallen in love with any boy?"
"No." Shihua didn't know if this was a lie.
She thought so, she had always regarded Li Qi as her first love, now, she didn't know whether he was or not, this was a question that could be decided in the future.
"There are many boys chasing you." An Xiong said with a smile.
"It's just a date." Shihua said.
An Xiong smiled again.
Shihua recalled that An Xiong had been watching those boys dating her with cold eyes, but he started slowly, and when he came, he treated the other boys as nothing.
However, that's good too, if it was him she met on the first day, at least she would lose the chance to take a look around and make a date.
"Your appointment with me is like fighting a sword, you only strike when you see it?" Shihua teased him.
"Yes, firstly, I'm not thick-skinned enough, and secondly, I don't think girls who are not good enough are worth spending time on."
"I'm not as beautiful as your last girlfriend." For the first time, Shihua felt inferior.
"It's incomparable. She has a western face and you have an oriental face. You are the most beautiful oriental face I've ever seen."
"You're not interested in girls who aren't pretty?"
"I'm not interested at all. I'm not interested in anything that's a little bit prettier, I'm only interested in something that's very pretty." An Xiong said without pretentiousness.
Shi Hua was very happy to hear that, at least he thought she was very beautiful.
Unlike Li Qi, who wants one, two, three, four, and five, even though his girlfriends are not ugly.
The car turned into the road leading into the small town of Saint-Louis Obispo, Shihua couldn't help asking frequently:
"Where is my house, where is it?"
Cheng Anxiong turned left and right on the street for a while, and said apologetically:
"That street is very desolate and dilapidated. I can't find it for a while. Let me think about it."
He parked the car on a street full of flowers and green grass, and took out a map to find it.
Shihua looked to the right, there happened to be a small white house where the car was parked, it was very small, but it was bright white, surrounded by a circle of small yellow flowers and green grass, he couldn't help being fascinated.
"What are you looking at?" An Xiong raised his head, which was looking hard at the map.
"Look how cute that little white house is."
"Go in and have a look." An Xiong said.
"Someone lives there."
"The people in Xiaocheng are very friendly. If you compliment his house on its beauty, he will probably be sincerely proud of it and take you in to see it." An Xiong said.
"Can we knock on the door?" Se-hwa asked.
"Try it, you knock on the door, pretty girls are welcome when knocking on the door."
"You go with me."
"certainly."
An Xiong held Shihua's hand, and Shihua knocked on the door lightly a few times.
"No one answered the door." Shihua said.
"Maybe I'm out, there's nothing I can do." An Xiong took Shi Hua's hand and prepared to turn around and go back to the car.
Shihua looked disappointed, and looked at the little white house reluctantly.
An Xiong leaned against the door and said with a troubled face:
"You're not sure when you see this one, how dare I show you the one I rented for you?"
Shihua was afraid that he would be sad, so he could only say:
"It doesn't matter, let's stay in the room you found for me for a while, I don't worry about the dilapidated one at all."
"Ok!"
An Xiong slammed open the door of the little white house with his backhand.
"An Xiong, what are you doing? Open someone's door casually!" Shihua seemed to have violated the law.
"Not only opening the door without authorization, but also looking at it. If you want to see it so much, I have no choice but to let you see it at the risk of trespassing."
An Xiong pulled her in, but Shihua still half-pushed her.
Once inside, on the left is a small living room with bright and clean windows, hung with white gauze curtains.
On the right is the tidy kitchen.
Going in again, it is a room that is a little smaller than the other side of the guest room. Looking out from the back window of the room, it is still a field of small yellow flowers and green grass.
Although the room is small, it has a double bed covered with a quilt covered with green leaves and small yellow flowers on a white background.
Shihua couldn't help lying on the bed, looking to the upper left, there was a row of flat and wide windows, white gauze curtains against the blue sky and white clouds.
"It's good to lie down for a while."
Shihua looked at the long white clouds intoxicated.
"It's not where students live, and they don't even have desks." Shihua got up, "We'd better leave quickly, otherwise people will think we came in to steal things."
"Well, let me see, what's there to steal."
An Xiong dragged Shihua's hand and walked back to the front half of the room where the kitchen and living room are connected.
In the three-foot-high and six-foot-long white cabinet between the kitchen and the living room, An Xiong yelled:
"Yes!"
Pulled and flipped to the cabinet, turned over a small folding table and came out:
"Your desk!"
Push the sliding door of the white cabinet open, revealing a row of textbooks:
"your book!"
Reaching out to the bookcase again, he took out the fencing champion silver shield he gave to Shihua:
"My shield!"
Shihua was full of surprises, half believing and doubting.
"This is the dilapidated house I found for you!" An Xiong said, spreading his hands.
"I'll kill you! I'll kill you!" Shihua's pink fist hit his strong chest.
An Xiong let her beat a drum like a drum, but it didn't hurt anyway.
Then he crossed her armpits with both hands, threw her up, and took her back into his arms.
Shihua's feet were hanging in the air, and he hugged him straight in front of his chest, like an adult holding a doll. He looked at him with big eyes pretending to be angry, and his small pink mouth pouted. beat him like:
"I thought you were very serious and serious, but you turned out to be so naughty. You acted like you were distressed for hours, just joking with me. I won't believe you anymore!"
"Am I guessing right? This is really what you want?" An Xiong hoped that the soft little hand would hit him a few more times.
"Anxiong, that's great. It's such a small and independent cabin, isn't it hard to find?"
"I got someone to fix the whole house for you. The sheets and curtains were all changed."
"You are really capable of getting everything done so quickly."
Shihua has never seen such a reliable man.
"But the bathroom is very small, only the shower head." An Xiong opened the small door that looks like a straight cabinet, "but it is brand new, the owner has replaced it, this shower head bathroom is basically a big box made out of the whole mold."
"It's very convenient." Shihua felt very fresh.
Her family's mansion is huge and magnificent, but this quiet little white house and the small yellow flowers and green grass surrounding the house are truly her own.
An Xiong carried the luggage in for her.Both of them were reluctant to leave the room, happily sitting next to each other on the grass-green sofa.
An Xiong's stomach growled.
"You're hungry, ah, I didn't expect you to get up early in the morning. What should I eat now?"
"Quick battle, let's eat hamburgers!" An Xiong pulled Shihua into the car.
After finishing the hamburger, Shihua asked again:
"What should I do now?"
"Go to the supermarket, there's nothing in your fridge."
"Oh, didn't remember."
"You never lived alone, of course you don't think about it." An Xiong smiled, "When were you eighteen years old?"
"During summer vacation." Shihua said, "That's when I say goodbye to my youth."
"You will regret this sentence when you are twenty-eight years old." An Xiong said.
"Twenty-eight? It seems like a hundred years later." She was waiting for eighteen. Twenty-eight was so far away that it was unimaginable.
The two of them were pushing the cart in the supermarket, Shihua felt like a married couple, and felt an inexplicable joy in his heart.
"An Xiong, what should I buy?"
"Buy what you like to eat."
Shihua just threw chocolates, biscuits, soft drinks, and fruits into the car blindly.
"You don't eat human fireworks?" An Xiong looked at her car full of snacks: "There is nothing to cook."
"I don't know how to cook." Shihua didn't seem to think he needed anything else.
"Eating these alone won't do it."
An Xiong brought her a dozen eggs:
"Is there always an omelette?"
Shihua nodded.
An Xiong took another bag of white rice for her:
"Can you cook?"
Shihua shook his head.
An Xiong also shook his head, and brought her some steaks, pork chops, chicken, vegetables, oil, salt, sugar, and tea.
Se-hwa is completely clueless.
"I'll teach you how to cook tonight, frying steak, this is the first lesson." An Xiong said, "I'm not good at cooking, but I didn't expect that you can't even cook."
Shihua caught a glimpse of stacks of "TV box meal", each box contains soup, meat and dessert, put it in the oven and bake it, and brought back a large pile of all kinds.
"Every box tastes the same." An Xiong shook his head.
"It's better than having nothing to eat." Shihua has no interest in cooking.
An Xiong sent her back to the little white room, and taught her to store things in the refrigerator one by one.
"Can you boil water?" An Xiong asked her.
"When the kettle emits smoke, the water boils. I understand this." Shihua said.
"If I had known this earlier, I would have bought you a kettle that would rattle when the water boiled." An Xiong said, "You are hopeless, how can you live alone? Are you afraid you will starve to death?"
"What are you afraid of? I have a ready-made TV meal." Said Shihua.
"I'm leaving." An Xiong said, "Come back tomorrow."
Seeing the darkness outside the window, Shihua was all alone, and panicked a little:
"Chat with me for a while."
"Afraid of the dark?" An Xiong said, "But I'm leaving now."
"It's not that I'm afraid of the dark, it's just that I'm not used to being alone at home in the dark." Shihua said.
"Also, didn't you teach me how to fry steak?" Shihua tried his best to keep Anxiong.
"You say you want a TV box meal, then I don't need my help." An Xiong said.
"How about this, you cook your TV meal, and I fry my steak." An Xiong opened the refrigerator to prepare for his cooking work.
Shihua's TV lunch boxes need to be baked for forty minutes.
An Xiong's steak was only fried for five minutes.
"Chat with me until twelve o'clock in the middle of the night, then I'll be too tired to worry about anything, and just fall asleep." Shihua said.
An Xiong put his arms around her and talked, but he seldom talked about his family.
It was late at night, and Shihua's ladylike background felt that Anxiong should leave, but deep down, she wanted him to stay.
An Xiong left naturally, without showing any intention of spending the night in the little white house.
Shihua is reminiscing about the life of the young couple on this day.
She also appreciates Anxiong's gentlemanly demeanor.He didn't hold back, didn't have any plans, just cherished her.
Shihua is in class as usual, and somehow all the Chinese boys seem to think that Shihua has become Cheng Anxiong's possession, and no one dares to date her alone anymore.
Shihua thought:
An Xiong was really a bit intimidating, he didn't say anything, and everyone automatically backed away.
Contrary to Azu, he is so nervous about his girlfriend, but everyone treats him as nothing, and anyone who wants to ask Shivia will go on a date anyway.
Azu seemed to be used to it, and Shihua no longer sympathized with him.
This semester, Shi Weiya found a short Chinese boy named Aka to pay her tuition for her.
Aka is thin and thin like a woman, with thinning hair, like a hypoplastic middle child, but that face is not young, it belongs to the type that Shihua will never date.
Shihua didn't know what kind of reward Shiwea would give to A-Ka, but seeing A-Ka's complacent look, he thought there must be something in return.
Shihua has always looked down on Shi Weiya, she is beautiful, and she is not stupid, but why does she accept Zhang, San, Li and Si according to the order, a good flower, but any cow dung can be inserted into her.
One day, Shihua was walking around the campus with a book in his hand, and just met Shi Weiya, who also had black eyeliner, white face, and frizzy hair.
"Hi!"
Sylvia greeted lazily.
Shihua felt that she was haggard.
"Going to the school hall for a cup of coffee?"
Sylvia said proactively.
"it is good."
We have been classmates for half a year, and we haven't talked a few words.
Shi Weiya ordered a cup of black coffee, and Shihua ordered a glass of soda.
"I graduated in the summer vacation, and several graduate schools accept me, and I don't want to go."
Shihua knew she was lying, but she let her say it.
"I'm twenty and I don't want to be in school anymore," Sylvia said.
Shihua clearly remembered that Azu said that she was twenty-two years old, this woman could not tell a lie.
"Then what are you going to do? Go back to Hong Kong?" Shihua asked.
"I'm not going back to Hong Kong! I want to act and be a singer." Shi Weiya said.
"Going to Hollywood?" Shihua asked.
"Or go to Broadway to play a stage play." Shi Weiya suddenly spoke Mandarin.
"Then why don't you go back to Hong Kong to make movies?" Shi Hua asked.
Sylvia dismissed him and said:
"Hong Kong is so small, how much money does a star singer earn?"
The income of Hong Kong star singers is of course incomparable with that of Hollywood.
Shihua looked at Sylvia's appearance, and it seemed like someone else's mistress. If there was any character style, she didn't have any, maybe she could play a young Chinatown madam.
"What's the use of reading books? Like we read pure mathematics, we can spend our whole life like this with a little salary." Shi Weiya said.
"Why don't you just marry Azu?" Shihua asked.
"Him? I'm bored. He is willing to pay for my tuition, but I don't want it. Anyway, I can find someone to pay for me."
Sylvia was right.
Shihua wondered when she thought that tuition fees could be asked to be paid at any time, and at most she would sleep with someone else. Really, she was born with a prostitute personality.
"Chinese actors have no future in Hollywood," Shi Hua said.
"You think I'm going to play a Chinatown restaurant waitress? I'm thinking of Hollywood. Know a bunch of producers and maybe not even have to act at all."
Sylvia stretched lazily.
This woman is just lazy, Shihua only realized today.
"How did you know the producer?" Shihua didn't know where she started.
"All along, I know whoever I want to know. What's the difficulty?"
"I find it very difficult. A stranger came, where did the topic start?" Shihua really didn't know what she did.
"Bed, what man can escape a bed?"
Shi Weiya said with experience that he didn't feel embarrassed at all, but rather complacent.
"Then you have to like those men to succeed!" Shihua didn't understand at all.
"You don't have to like them, I just think of them as bricks on the ground, waiting for me to step on them one by one to pave my intersection." Shi Weiya said.
"You don't respect your body?" Se-hwa asked.
"Body? Body? What's that? It takes three to five minutes to do something. It's not a big sacrifice. There are twenty-four hours in a day. Don't listen to those men's bragging, it's just a matter of three to five minutes."
Shi Weiya said indifferently, but Shihua's face turned red to the neck.
Sylvia glanced at her with winking eyes:
"Haven't you tried it yet?"
Shihua shook his head.
"It's no big deal if you're a virgin or not." Shi Weiya said, "My virginity was given to Azu, so he thought it was a marriage contract and got in the way."
"Azu people are also good, and they are also pretty!"
Shihua has always had some affection for Azu.
"Yes, he is nice and good-looking, but he gets tired of seeing too much." Shi Weiya said.
"Isn't it better than your current Aka?" Shihua said.
"When playing puppets, there must be good-looking ones and ugly ones. I'm a human being, not a puppet. I just play with puppets, and I don't want to be paired with them." Shi Weiya said.
"Sylvia, didn't you think that one day you would be old?" Seeing her talking freely, Shihua thought she would not mind this question.
Shi Weiya really didn't mind, but his eyes were a little sentimental, but it was still Jia Yuyong who said:
"Old? There are old people when you are old, aren't you? I'm only twenty years old. There will always be men in the world."
"Sylvia, what exactly do you want?" Shi Hua asked her.
"I don't know, I want a lot of men, a lot of convenience, a lot of money."
"But that's not the purpose of life!"
"The goal of life? What do you want to do with the goal? It's another day when you wake up, and another night when you sleep." Shi Weiya said.
Shihua felt that her temperament was not human, but a bit like a wild beast, aimless, lazy and lazy, ready to eat, only to see when she was hungry.
Perhaps her bestiality is her special charm.
After school went back to the little white room, An Xiong came to accompany her to have dinner.
Shi Hua said what Shi Weiya said, but she didn't mention her opinion on virgins.
Cheng Anxiong said:
"Then she too will disappear like a beast."
"Do you find her attractive to you?"
"No, I'm afraid of such a woman."
"She said she graduated this semester."
"Graduated? She failed a lot of subjects. It's true that she was asked to go out by the school."
"I don't know her well, why did she tell me? I don't know anyway."
"Sylvia is smart, she just knows that you are pure, you will believe what people say." An Xiong said, "Farewell glances, she will give you some bad influence."
"I'm not that stupid, am I?" Shihua was not convinced.
"In her eyes, you are stupid." An Xiong said.
"It's just that she doesn't have wisdom." Shihua retorted.
"Don't refute me, it's not me who thinks you stupid, it's her, don't annoy the wrong person." An Xiong waved his hands hurriedly.
"Strange, I don't hate her." Shihua said.
"Although you are pure, you are high-spirited. You are pitying her."
"也不完全是，我觉得她有几分可爱，她放任，扯谎，甚至肮脏，但是她不是邪恶的。"世华边说边在捉摸自己对施维亚的感觉。
"她自暴自弃而已，她是我所见过最懒的女人，每天除了在脸上涂白粉画黑眼圈，连头发也懒得梳。"
"所以我觉得她像野兽。"世华说。
"她的家境不差的，起码是小康之家吧，但她喜欢堕落。我想她家里都不知她在美国搞成这样，还以为她真的念什么硕士博士去了。"
"阿祖又怎样？"
"他是喜欢这一类女人的。"
"但施维亚没打算嫁给他。"
"我们走着瞧，阿祖一定不会要个女学生，不是我看死他，他终于会落在些三流小明星的手里，因为他有钱。"
"为什么不是大明星、名门闺秀？"
"他本身的条件其实很好，但我想他有被虐狂，喜欢伤心。有些人爱上爱情，有些人爱上伤心。"安雄说。
世华凛然一惊，自己似乎两个倾向都有。
安雄见她忽地不言不语了，便问她：
"你在想什么？"
"噢，我正想问，你呢？"
"我只会爱上人，不会爱上爱情。我很怕伤心，受不了。"安雄说。
世华料不到，雄赳赳气昂昂的程安雄，居然是受不起伤心。
"如果你伤心了会怎样？"世华问。
"一辈子，我会伤心一辈子！"安雄说。
"你大概没试过伤心吧？不然怎能预测自己一定会伤心一辈子呢？"世华凝视着他那张顶天立地的英挺脸孔。
"有过。"安雄说。
"是你的女朋友？"世华有点醋意。
"不，我不随便付出真感情的。"
"那什么令你伤心过？"世华问。
"我的母亲。"安雄脸上升起一阵忿怨。
一生被母亲爱宠的世华，不大明白。
"我也不晓得我干错了些什么，我一直很乖的。但是，母亲分饼干，只抽两片给我，却整盒给了弟弟。"
"小时考试少了一科甲，妈妈便要打我一顿，弟弟考个满堂红，一样赏钱给他去看电影。"
"爷爷最疼我，我们跟爷爷住的，唯一夸奖我念书念得好的便是他。"
"爷爷是唯一爱我的人。很可惜他没法看到我毕业。"
"爷爷老了，生了重病，妈妈也不告诉我。"
"反而是有一次挂长途电话回家，家里的佣人说：为什么你不回来看爷爷啊？为什么你不挂电话给爷爷啊？我最疼爱的是安雄，怎么他不记得爷爷了？"
"我忙找爷爷听电话，料不到接电话的却是妈妈，我说我要跟爷爷说话，她却说爷爷睡了。"
"每次打电话，都给妈妈截着说爷爷睡了。"
"我不禁狐疑起来，打电话去给柏克莱的弟弟，他说爷爷病了很久了，你不知道吗？"
"我问他有跟爷爷通过电话没有？他说有啊，都是妈妈扶他起来听的。"
"你妈妈为什么这样？"世华问。
"我也不明白。她不喜欢我便算了，但怎可以让个老人家日夜盼望我的电话而盼望不到呢？我想爷爷一定很难过，到死都埋怨我不孝。"
"你爷爷逝世了？"
安雄冷笑了一下：
"逝世了还不通知我呢。原来是妈妈叫弟弟先回去了，连最后一面也不让我见。"
"她居心何在？"世华也不忿起来。
"分家产吧。爷爷是古老人，没有遗嘱的。他在家里放了个保险箱。小时常见他拿出玉石珍玩来给我看。"
"到我得知爷爷死讯，赶忙回香港时，我问妈妈，爷爷的东西呢？"
"她说他有什么东西？不信，开保险箱给你看看。"
"保险箱一开，空空如也，果然什么也没有。我想是她和弟弟分了。"
"那么你爸爸呢？"
"我爸爸身体也不好，亦是个百事不理的，什么都是妈妈做主。"
"遗产当然是你爸爸的了？"世华问。
"妈妈说什么遗产也没有。那倒不是我关心的，最令我伤心的是，爷爷以为我忘记了他，伤心失望地死去。"
"我无辜地令我最敬爱的人误会我，令他伤心失望。这种伤心，会伤我一辈子，我并不要什么，为什么他们要串谋瞒我、害我？"
"你那弟弟也该死，他不会打电话给你的吗？"世华比安雄更动气，"其他姐妹不会打电话给你的吗？"
"人都是自私的，个个忙着讨好妈妈。"安雄说。
"想不到你有这样的伤心事。"世华怜惜他说。
"现在也是爸爸给我汇钱来，妈妈却汇很多给弟弟。"
"他在柏克莱念书吗？"世华问。
"不清楚。"安雄好像不愿意说。
"他长得像你吗？"
世华想，要是他兄弟相像，他弟弟也应是满好看的。
"你们有来往吗？"
"很少。"安雄答，"话不投机。"
"你们兄弟不和？"
"不是不和，我们没什么不和，只是少见面而已。"安雄说。
世华想，这个铁甲武士的背后，有颗脆弱的心。
然而他是那么的能干，什么事都难不倒他。
起初安雄天天来教她做功课，文科理科，经安雄一指点，她每一科都考全班最高的，世华不禁对他五体投地。
渐渐，安雄搬进世华的小白屋的东西愈来愈多，后来干脆不回去跟男同学住了。
那是个蓝天一片万里无云的星期天，安雄和世华两个睡醒了，从左边一列玻璃窗看出去，更是懒洋洋，两个人都滚在床上不愿意起来。
不久，门外有敲门声。敲了很久。
世华说：
"别理他！"
门还继续敲下去，有个熟悉的声音叫着：
"开门呀，我知道你们两个在里头。"
那是朗尼的声音。
"怎么门敲得那么急？让我去看看。"安雄忙跑出去。
安雄下边只穿着运动裤，赤裸着他肌肉结实秀美的上身。
世华还爬在床上，穿着套白纱镶厘士双层打褶边、长仅及内裤下面的娃娃装睡衣。
朗尼高大的个子这回没笑出他那排整齐的小白牙，看着穿了娃娃睡衣更似娃娃的世华，定了定神说：
"世华不能哭，宝莲死了！"
世华定了眼，感觉不像是真的。
"你说什么？宝莲死了？宝莲死了？"安雄也不能相信那是真的。
"死了，一群同学开车去玩，她和约瑟两个坐辆敞篷车，不知怎的翻了，两个人都翻了出来，起初宝莲还在哈哈地笑，笑了一阵便觉得不舒服，要吐。"
"我们还以为她是受了点震荡，一时反胃而已，便把她送去附近的诊所，她躺在诊所床上不清醒，频问：约瑟，你没事吧？"
"怎知过了不久，她又吐了，她外表一点伤痕也没有，我们还不怎么紧张，可是，她的脸色愈来愈青，医生给她氧气，不久，她便停止了呼吸，我是说，再不呼吸了，气绝了！"朗尼像在说个刚做完的噩梦，还不可以置信。
世华一时麻木了，平日最大快活，什么都笑上一顿，时刻照顾她的宝莲，这样就去了，这样就没有了她那一串串银铃似的快乐笑声了？
"那么约瑟怎样？"安雄问。
"现正在睡着。"朗尼说。
"睡着？怎睡得着？"世华嚷道。
"他见宝莲去了，整个人也疯了，他骂自己不小心，因为车是他开的。"朗尼说。
"那真不幸。他自己却没事？"安雄说。
"他受伤了还罢了，断那三五根骨头还罢了，偏是丝毫无损，他便怪自己。我们说不关你事啊，我们一列车都是那样的开。他又怪自己把车开了篷，不然不会把宝莲抛了出去。"朗尼说。
"那怎么了？"安雄问。
"他拥着宝莲的遗体大哭，简直进入了歇斯底里状态。医生只好替他注射镇静剂，令他睡去了。"朗尼说。
"那我们有什么可以帮忙的？"安雄问。
"我们通知了他们在洛杉矶的家人，约瑟家在洛杉矶的。宝莲的弟弟也在洛杉矶，想他通知了在香港的父母。"朗尼说。
朗尼走时，回头望望世华的透明睡衣里还有胸围，有点奇怪地望望安雄。
安雄半日无语，约瑟和宝莲是他在校园最好的朋友，特别是宝莲，这个梨形脸孔，毫无心计的快活女孩，事事帮人，他在他俩家不晓得吃过多少顿晚饭，一块儿看过多少部电影。
宝莲处处替他想得周全，虽然比他小一些，却像他的至亲姐姐，安雄心里一痛。
世华不知如何是好，连哭也不会哭，只坐在安雄身边，双手紧紧地捉着他的臂，把头埋在他胸膛上。
过了几天，一些同学开车南下洛杉矶，参加宝莲的葬礼。
宝莲安详地躺在鲜花环绕的棺材里，样子跟平时没大分别，世华真希望她忽然会笑起来，跟平日一般吱吱咯咯地笑，告诉同学们这只不过是一场恶作剧。
然而，宝莲父母的凄凄哭声，令世华知道这一切都是真的，爱友去了。
本来大家都在担心约瑟，他已经够憔悴了，再加上宝莲的父母在哭，不跟他说话也无友善之意，同学们不知道他如何承受这个压力，每个人在心情沉重之余，肩上都像负上了千斤担。
约瑟倒是出奇地平静，瘦病了的脸孔令他的眼镜好像大上了一个圈。
他默默走到宝莲的遗体旁边，掏出只钻戒，套在宝莲左手无名指上，低声地说：
"这是她一直盼望的。"
同学们不禁抽泣了起来。
灵堂上的三生约。
众位同学无精打采地开车回圣路易·奥比士甫，世华用小手帕按着嘴巴，不敢呜咽得太大声。
把着方向盘的安雄不时用手拭拭泪。
回到学校，一切如常。
世华和安雄主要活在二人世界里，她很满足，也觉得很安全。
她和李颀已断绝了通信，法松写过几封信来，她只简单地应酬了说反正暑假回港见面，不用写那么多信了。
有一天安雄去练剑，晚上只余下世华在家里。
朗尼来了。
"嗨，你好！"世华倒是欢迎他的。
朗尼见她在家仍穿得密密实实。
"你两个怎么搞的！算是同居了？"朗尼问。
"没说过同不同居，他常住在这儿就是了。"世华说。
"你还戴着胸围睡觉？"朗尼好奇地问。
世华的脸红了一红。
"yes."
"连他也没见过你？"朗尼觉得不可思议。
"我不习惯不穿衣服。"世华觉得还很正常。
朗尼笑了起来。
"你还是，嗯，还是和从前一样？"朗尼问。
"我又没有结婚。"世华说。
"哈，那倒好，要是别人先得到你，我总是，总是好像心里有点不大自在。"朗尼说。
"你不是有了女朋友了吗？"世华说。
"她是这儿长大的华侨，开放得很。"朗尼说。
"每个人都说我不开放。"世华说，"但我觉得很好，两个人住在这小白屋里，有点像童话故事。"
"安雄碰也不碰你？"朗尼问。
"我们没做那回事。"世华明白他的弦外之音，"一定要做的吗？"
"安雄太疼你了，我就按捺不住。"朗尼说，"那也好，没有人碰过你。那我也安乐点。"
"你既不是我爸爸，又不是我哥哥，那么紧张干什么？"世华说。
"总之不想有人碰你。"朗尼说，"我也不会解释。我爱