Chapter 7 Chapter 4 The Dream of Sword and Shield

Back in the dorm, Yardley vomited into the waste paper bin as soon as she stepped through the door. "Yardley, are you drunk?" Shihua couldn't see her downcast face. Yeardley raised her head and wiped her mouth with a towel: "He made me puke!" "What happened?" "He wants me to blowjob." Yeardley looked disgusted. "What is blowjob?" Shihua didn't know what she was talking about. "Just put that thing in my mouth, oh I'm dying, I don't like him!" Shihua's eyes widened when she heard this, she had never even tried sexual intercourse, and the trick of oral sex made her sick.

"Why do you let him do it if you don't like him?" Shihua didn't understand at all. "I'd better get married, and I can't study, and the date is like this!" Yardley said bitterly. "You don't have to go on dates you don't like!" Shi Hua said. "Look who's staying in the dorm on Friday night? I can't live without a date," Yeardley said. Shihua knew that Yardley was a good-natured person, but he really hoped that she would meet a good boy and marry her off. "How's your date?" Yeardley asked her. "Great." Shihua was still a little flustered.

"You guys just talking?" Yeardley asked. "Yes. Mom told me not to be touched casually." "Don't be so nervous, having sex doesn't mean he owns you," Yeardley said. "We Chinese don't think that way." "Many of you Chinese students also live together." "I know, but they are a couple, very fixed." "It seems you're a little more open than when you first came here," Yeardley said. "I don't know, maybe sex isn't such a scary thing," Shihua said. "I dream of trying it, but I'm scared."

"Relax, sex is not a marriage contract," Yeardley said. "But it can't be as bad as you." Shihua said. "Stop talking about tonight, I'm going to throw up again!" Yardley returned the soiled white rabbit fur coat to Shihua: "Sorry for making it like this." "It doesn't matter, just wash it." Shihua said so, but he planned to throw away the white rabbit fur coat in his heart. Azu made an appointment with her on Saturday. Azu was very considerate to her, knowing that she danced ballet, he even drew a ballet girl in the drawing homework, and was laughed at by his classmates.

Shihua doesn't understand why her classmates always make fun of Azu. Azu is full of emotion and she likes him. Azu didn't date girls indiscriminately, he was quite picky, Shihua was the only one who made appointments. On Saturday, Southern California was blue and cloudless as usual. Azu drove his brand new Cutler car with Shihua to the nearby Bismuth Beach. There was a house full of little flowers, and a garden surrounded by old caravan wheels. There was a more interesting one, made of an upside-down galleon. "That's the room of Lewis, the professor of literature," Azu said.

"Is it him? Professor Lewis is so funny. Sometimes he sits cross-legged on the table by the window, reading poems while pulling the cord of the venetian blind around his neck." Shihua said. "How is your English class?" Azu asked. "It's passable. I'm not familiar with American literature, so I read one and remember one." Shihua said. "Come and read the poem of Zikala: Behold, my dear, On the pale yellow sand..." Azu recited a few sentences. "What's next?" Shihua asked. "I don't remember, I read it in the first grade." Azu said.

"The novel you wrote for me is also very good." Shihua said. "It's just random writing, it's nothing." "It's nothing but show me again?" Azu avoided the topic, his novels were full of emotions, which made Shihua a little embarrassed to read, not to mention, those texts that were clearly sent out of feelings were written on ulterior motives, and they were all written before Shihua entered school. Maybe, that's all Sylvia. And Shi Weiya is a name he never wants to mention. Shihua knows that he will never forget this woman who betrayed him ten times.

"I would like to see you dance ballet." Azu said. "When I left Hong Kong, I didn't bring my ballet shoes with me." "I'll be in San Francisco next weekend and get you a pair. What size do you want?" "Gabicio's, size five and a half." "I don't know what Gabisio is, and I don't know where to buy it, but I will find a pair for you." Azu said. "Thank you very much. The shop may not be open on Sunday. I'm afraid you won't be able to find it if you only look for a Saturday." Shihua said. "I will drive there after class on Friday, and I will definitely find it." Azu was careful with girls.

With him, Shihua responds to every request. Everyone thinks that Azu is fascinated by Shihua, but Shihua feels that although Azu is always by her side, his mind is always a little distant. Forget it, everyone talked speculatively, Azu's sad thing is Shi Weiya, and Shi Hua's sad thing is Li Qi. Although she didn't mention a word about Li Qi, in her immature heart, she and Azu always had a feeling of intimacy that they were both degenerate people, why should they have known each other before. "Where are you going tomorrow?" Azu asked. "Johnny and Xinxin invited me to their home for dinner." Shihua said.

"They came to study together from Hong Kong and have been living together for several years. They are like husband and wife at all," Azu said. "Like Joseph and Pauline?" Shihua asked. "It's not very similar. Joseph and Pauline often hang out with other classmates, so we can't say that they are 100% determined to be a couple." Azu said. "Baolian is very lively." Shihua said, "She often takes care of me." "She is a girl that everyone likes. Even Cheng Anxiong, who is invisible to everyone, is very close to her old friend." Azu said.

Hearing Cheng Anxiong's name, Shihua's heart skipped a beat. "Do you know him?" Azu asked. Obviously he didn't know that Cheng Anxiong just dated Shihua last night. "Are you familiar with him?" Shihua wanted to change the subject. "I'm not familiar with you," Azu said. "He only goes to Pauline and Joseph's house." "Is Joseph married to Baolian?" Shihua inquired. "Baolian thought he was destined to marry him, but Joseph didn't know, I think he has a crush on you." Azu laughed. "Where are they, they just take care of me," Shihua said hastily, "Why do you say that Johnny and Xinxin are different from them?" "Johnny and Xinxin are their own country. They are both from Shanghai. They speak Shanghainese all day long. They stay at home after class and don't have much contact with anyone. I wonder why they would invite you to their place for dinner." What!" Azu said. "Maybe it's because I'm new here." Shihua didn't think it was surprising. "There are newcomers every semester, and I don't see them invite me." Azu still felt strange. "Sometimes I meet Johnny in the math class, so what's so special about inviting me to dinner?" Shihua said. At dusk the next day, Johnny went to the dormitory to pick her up.Tall and delicate, he doesn't talk much. When they met on weekdays, it was just to say hello. Xinxin was already busy cooking Shanghai dishes, and greeted Shihua warmly. "Do you speak Shanghainese?" Xinxin asked Shihua. "A little bit, my mother is from Shanghai, but I only speak Cantonese at home, and my father doesn't understand it." Shihua said. "That's half a fellow countryman." Xinxin said. "It's more convenient to speak Cantonese and English." Shihua said with a smile. "It's not that Xinxin can't speak Cantonese, it's just that she likes to speak her hometown dialect." Johnny said, "Like Cheng Anxiong, he can speak English almost as well, but his Chinese is terrible." "Cheng Anxiong?" Hearing this name again, Shihua thought that there are many places to take him in to eat. "Yeah, he's in the same family as Johnny, and he really likes my cooking." Xinxin is quite proud of his good cooking skills. "Look at his handsome parents, he should work harder in cooking." Johnny teased his girlfriend. "Where is it! Tonight I will also cook hard for this little sister." Xinxin served plate after plate of dishes. "Johnny is also very good-looking, you just don't think so after getting used to it." Shihua said sincerely. Johnny looked a little like Li Qi, tall and thin, with a melancholy look, but his skin was yellower than Li Qi's. Johnny listened to the two girls in silence all night, rarely intimidating. Sometimes Shihua couldn't help staring at him blankly, for no reason, just because his appearance had a little bit of Li Qi's shadow. On Monday morning, Shihua was walking up the stairs to the math class, and Johnny was walking down the stairs. Johnny paused for a while, then continued to go down the stairs, then raised his head under the stairs and called Shihua to stop. "What's the matter, Johnny?" Shihua felt that his face was pale and haggard today. "I didn't sleep well last night, I missed you all night." Johnny whispered. "Sleep well tonight, Johnny." Shihua was in a hurry to get to class, and didn't want to say anything more. Troubles came again, all so inexplicable. She didn't want to get involved between Joseph and Pauline, let alone between Johnny and Xin Xin. He is so nice, and I have dated a lot, so there is really no need for it. After the trance lesson, Johnny seems to be Li Qi's incarnation. How does Shihua feel about Johnny?What confused her was why she missed Li Qi so much and at the same time enjoyed dating in all directions. In particular, thinking of going to the gymnasium to try swords with Cheng Anxiong in the afternoon, I feel so overjoyed. Is she loyal to Li Qi?She knew that he was waiting for her, far away, the suffering Li Qi was waiting for her to go back. In the afternoon, as soon as he entered the gymnasium, Cheng Anxiong was already there, wearing a mask and practicing sword with the sword team members in white clothes and trousers. Covering her face, every swordsman was equally good-looking, but she recognized Cheng Anxiong at a glance, the one who advances and retreats quickly, and draws the sword swiftly and fiercely is him. Seeing that Sheng Shihua had arrived, Cheng Anxiong immediately pulled off the mask with one hand, revealing his handsome face, and told his teammates to stop. The teammates seemed to listen to him very much, and immediately cleared the field with knowledge and interest. Cheng Anxiong asked: "Do you think it looks good?" Shihua sideways head: "It's not as good as a movie. You guys are playing so fast that I can't tell who stabbed whom." Cheng Anxiong smiled: "The real sword fight needs to be so fast. When making a movie, of course you have to slow down to fight, otherwise, as you said, you can't see who stabbed whom." Cheng Anxiong picked up a sword and threw it to her: "Here, hold." "Where are you holding?" Shihua held the hilt of his sword, not knowing where to start. "Oh, so." Cheng Anxiong put her fingers where they should be. "Oh, it's so long and so heavy!" Shihua shouted, "Watching a movie, that sword seems thin and light." Cheng Anxiong just laughed: "Just hold it like this, don't worry too much." "Don't you need to wear a face mask?" Se-hwa asked. "You can pierce me?" Cheng Anxiong said calmly. "Why not, I will stab randomly!" Shihua raised the sword with his right hand, imitating a swordsman and raised his left hand crookedly. "I'll just stand still and let you stab me." An Xiong said. Shi Hua desperately stabbed at him with his sword, An Xiong raised his sword once, Shi Hua's sword seemed to be stuck by his sword. An Xiong's sword was entangled with hers and twisted a few times, and he shouted: "Let's go!" Shihua's right hand was so painful that his mouth was about to burst, and a sword flew out of his hand. "Yeah, it hurts me to death!" Shihua stroked the tiger's mouth with his hand. "A sword is like a bird. If you hold it too tightly, it will suffocate. If you hold it too loosely, it will fly away." An Xiong said. "When did you start learning the sword?" "In middle school, my teachers were French-Swiss." "When is the game?" "Before Christmas." "Can I go and see?" "No, your presence makes me nervous." An Xiong said. "I've never even seen a real fencing match," Shihua said. "We practiced just now, and you still said it didn't look good." An Xiong said. "Because I don't know how to play a sword. If I don't know how to fight, I don't know how to watch it. If I don't know how to watch it, I don't think it looks good. If you teach me, then I can watch it." Shihua subconsciously wanted to find an opportunity to get closer to him. "I don't have time to teach you seriously, it's fine to play with you." "If you make my tiger's mouth so painful again, I won't play with you anymore." Shihua squeezed the reddened tiger's mouth with his left hand. "You're so afraid of pain, don't learn how to fight a sword." "Then just listen, you explain it to me, at least I will see the clue." Shihua said, "I really want to see you compete with the left-handed Excalibur from Stanford University." An Xiong frowned, he had never lost in California. What's more, he will graduate next year, and he will probably transfer to the East Coast for further studies. He doesn't want to lose this last battle in California. "You won't lose." Shihua wishful thinking. "I hope not." An Xiong handed over the sword to his left hand, imagining the opponent's attack and defense. "I'm not good at doing some calculus homework, can you teach me?" Shihua asked. "Okay, I'll take you back to the dormitory now, and I promise you will understand within fifteen minutes." Sure enough, when the teacher explained something that was unclear, An Xiong pointed out the trick in a few words. Afterwards, Shihua went to ask Anxiong whenever he had homework in mathematics, physics, chemistry, and English. As for studying, An Xiong can do everything easily. Dates are not frequent, the day of the decisive battle is approaching, An Xiong is busy practicing sword.Bored, Shihua accepted six male classmates to ask her out on a date on Saturday, and having six boys courteous and courteous together could relieve Shihua's momentary boredom. She also learned to drink a little alcohol, but only the innocuous Gambari and soda. Facing the six boys, none of whom are attractive but interesting together, Sehwa feels proud, but he doesn't feel in love. It's not that interesting after all. The campus is not too big, and there are not so many Chinese boys. Except for the ones that are too ugly for her to bear, she has dated them all, and she is starting to feel a little bored. Maybe she should change schools. After thinking about it, I became in a trance, and poured some on the skirt from the side of the cup. With a whoosh, six clean white handkerchiefs were taken out from the arms of the six boys, and they just formed a circle of white handkerchiefs facing her. She really felt that she was spoiled. She didn't plan to go out on Sunday. She was lying on the bed listening to music and flipping through her mother's letter. At first, Mrs. Sheng of course blamed her for going to Caltech without permission. Later, when she saw that the school sent home the mid-term test report card, Shihua got A in every subject, so she didn't say anything, just told her to study hard. However, Mrs. Sheng also put forward a condition: you can date American boys, but you cannot marry foreigners. Shihua didn't think about getting married at all, so he wrote back and agreed casually. Azu went to San Francisco to buy ballet shoes for her, but he hasn't returned yet. It's only afternoon, it's still early. Unexpectedly, the receptionist of the dormitory called the room, saying that Wang Fasong had arrived. Fazon!Why did he fly from the east coast without saying a word?It's not a holiday. It was a little embarrassing to think of leaving a book at Fazon's house, but she still liked seeing this big brother, although Fazon's obvious possessiveness towards her made her uncomfortable. Fazon was pacing up and down in the living room. Seeing Shihua, his slightly serious face without smiling made Shihua uneasy, why did he come? Fazon took out a stack of letters: "Sending it to you from my apartment in New York," Faxon said dryly. Shihua glanced at it, and it seemed to be Li Qi's handwriting, and he couldn't help feeling mixed feelings of sadness and joy flooding his face, and he couldn't wait to reach out to pick it up. But Shihua just stretched out his hand, and Fa Song loosened his hand, let the letter fall on the ground, and stood there without moving. Holding back his breath, Shihua squatted on the ground and picked up the letters one by one. Shihua held the letter in his arms and stood up. The two faced each other, both a little angry. "I gave you the pink evening dress, handbag, and shoes, but you didn't take any of them away, treating them like trash. My thoughts are unexpected..." Fazon couldn't continue. "Fasong, I didn't think those were trash, but I was too embarrassed to take them away." Shihua was telling the truth. "It turns out that the blow of a broken relationship is so hard." Fazon didn't want to say it, but couldn't help it. "Fazon, we have never been in love at all, how do you say you fell out of love?" "Shihua, you are avoiding me in a planned way. It is really hard to tell anyone about the torment I have suffered in the past four months." Shihua didn't expect Fasong to be so serious, she just thought it was a naughty slip away. She didn't expect that that incident hurt Fazon so badly, and she was even a little annoyed that he was so serious. Didn't he need to ask her permission to love her? "You came here suddenly this time just to lose your temper with me? Do you want me to admit my mistake? I'm not trying to hurt you, I just don't want to stay in New York." "Shihua, don't think I'm a fool. If you don't plan to stay in New York, you won't use my home as a mailing address for your friends. Why did you change your mind after getting along with me for a while? I have been talking to you for four months. Ask yourself, am I that annoying?" Fazon's self-esteem was shattered. "Then you flew here especially to scatter my letter on the ground?" Shihua couldn't help losing his temper too. She would not have been so angry if Fazon hadn't pushed the stack of letters to the floor. He purposely let go of her hand when she reached out to receive the letter, letting the letter drop on the ground and letting her squat on the ground to pick it up. The two couldn't breathe, and broke up very unhappy. It is extremely uncomfortable for someone to make a special trip to blame yourself. She went to the room sullenly, and before she opened the letter, someone called her again. It's Johnny. Johnny, Li Qi, just as Li Qi's letter arrived, his shadow, Johnny, arrived again. Johnny's complexion was greener than before a week ago, his beauty was still there, but his melancholy was even heavier. "Johnny, are you uncomfortable?" Shihua felt a little pity for him. "Shihua, I don't know how to say it. I have been with Xinxin for so many years. When I saw you, there seemed to be a voice in my heart saying: Why didn't I meet you a few years ago?" "Johnny, don't say it, I dare not listen." "I'm wrong, Xinxin treats me so well, and... and in fact, I never read other words, why when I see you, I think about you every day, and I meet in the mathematics building once a day, Say hello, and my heart is also happy." Shihua can't figure out how to deal with it, Johnny is vulnerable. "Every time you look at me, you seem to have known each other, but you never say anything, Shihua, I don't understand." Johnny was very distressed. "I...I have no other meaning." Shihua never consciously looked at Johnny with that expression. "Then why were you at my house that day and often looked at me in ecstasy?" Johnny held his head, "Tell me, are you afraid of hurting Xinxin, that's why you didn't talk to me?" That was really a big misunderstanding. Thinking of Fasong and Johnny in front of him, it was all caused by me accidentally. "Johnny, you and Xinxin are friends. My eyes are not good. I don't know how to look at you. I'm sorry." Shihua said incoherently. "Is that just my unilateral fantasy?" Johnny's haggard face made Shi Hua dare not speak harshly. "Johnny, I like you, shall we be friends like usual?" "Then I won't see you again, I can't be myself, let alone hurt Xinxin." Johnny said. "You didn't hurt me either, Johnny, you don't have to worry, I look at you like that just because...just because..." Shihua swallowed the words back to his stomach, and didn't say anything because he was a bit like Li Qi. She knew that Cheng Anxiong would visit Xinxin and Johnny occasionally, and she didn't want to reveal the story to Cheng Anxiong who overheard it. If Cheng Anxiong heard about it, he might not look for her anymore. "Just because of what?" Johnny asked with a hint of hope. "Just because! I don't know, please don't misunderstand Xinxin, you are a very good couple." "That's the sentence?" Johnny's face flashed an undreamed-of bleakness. The shadows of Li Qi and Johnny overlap in front of Shihua's eyes, she is conflicted and sad, she doesn't know what she is doing, Johnny is not Johnny at all, but an extension of Li Qi, she is in the chaos of her head, tender Said to Johnny: "Thank you for letting me see you on campus, but let's call it a day." Johnny blankly watched Shihua go up the stairs to the dormitory room. Shihua went to the room, but didn't open Li Qi's letters according to the day, she started with the most recent one. Li Qi said that he took classes at the technical college during the day and worked part-time at the newspaper at night, almost all night long. "Xiao Sheng, I will not disappoint you." That was the last sentence in the letter. Looking back at the earlier letters, Shihua knew that Pangpang and Shui Wenjun had both given him her mailing address. These two old classmates really have nothing to say. Looking at Li Qi's mailing address on the airmail letter, it was entrusted to the newspaper office for forwarding. He probably won't have any good place, or even a fixed place to live, he didn't say in detail. Shihua read several short letters over and over, there were not many lines, but he told her to study hard, saying "Xiaosheng", "Xiaosheng", "Xiaosheng", which was so close to her heart. Between the lines, Li Qi never doubted, even thought that she would have a large group of boys to date in turn, what he had was just waiting unswervingly. Shihua thought of Li Qi and said: "I'm not a complicated person." He really isn't. The unforgettable relationship between her and Li Qi, she will never forget in this lifetime. He thought she was as determined as he was. Se-hwa burst into tears. However, the two of them are now living in two completely different worlds. Li Qi's world is still the small, sad and beautiful world of the past. He is waiting for her to come back to mend the other side of the incomplete world, then his life will be perfect. However, what is displayed in front of Shihua's eyes is only a small part of a huge new world, and it is still endlessly colorful. Although she has Li Qi in her heart every day, is it not the same that there are vacancies for other boys to break in one by one? Is she faithful?She loves Li Qi, but can she return to their little world? She didn't know why so many boys pursued her. She asked herself to be honest, she was real, but why did she feel guilty? Why does she have a heart for Li Qi, but she wants to have a duel with Azu, and at the same time she adores Cheng Anxiong? Fazon and Johnny's accusations made her feel innocent and troubled a lot. Cheng Anxiong was busy and didn't call. Originally, Shihua thought he should be free to make a call no matter how busy he was. I fell asleep for half the night in a disturbed mood, attended class in a daze in the morning, and entered the dining hall in a daze. Azu was already waiting for her, and gave her a pair of Gabisio ballet shoes, size five and a half, and bought her pink satin laces. "Thank you so much, Zu." At this time, Sylvia sat down with a burning buttocks, with a pearl brooch on his chest, and kissed Azu's cheek as if nothing had happened: "The brooch is very beautiful!" After finishing speaking, he left proudly He glanced at the ballet shoes that Shi Huaxi was holding diligently. "Azu, did you buy that brooch for her when you went to San Francisco?" Shihua's self-esteem felt like an arrow shot. "Yes." Azu said naturally. Shihua was furious: "How much did the ballet shoes cost?" "Only forty-five dollars." Shihua took out forty-five yuan and stuffed it into Azu's hand: "Return you!" "Shihua...that's what I gave you." "don't want." "I've been looking for it for a long time..." "I don't want a gift for every girl!" Shihua said, "Who cares so much." "Besides, he was the one who drove to San Francisco with me." Sylvia walked over with some desserts, "I also learned ballet, otherwise how would he know where to find Gaccibio cards." Shihua was so angry that he put the gift in front of Azu with a shoelace box: "No more shoes." "Why are you so serious?" Azu said. "I don't want the shoes anymore, you give the forty-five yuan back to them." Shi Weiya's darkly drawn winking eyes made Azu very obedient. Azu took out the forty-five yuan, and handed it back to Sheng Shihua with a face of obedience. "No!" Shihua stomped his feet. "Why don't you? Otherwise, we'll swallow your forty-five yuan." Shi Weiya said "we", and Shihua was even more annoyed. Together, they tore the forty-five yuan into pieces. Lonnie, who was frying chicken in the dining hall, was busy peeking and listening. The fried chicken was burnt, making a pot of smoke. "This pair of shoes may be useful to me." Shi Weiya still refused to let Shihua go, "You haven't seen me dance ballet for a long time, have you, Azu?" "You're so short, why are your feet so big?" Shihua couldn't bear Shi Weiya's anger that she didn't think of her as the same thing, so he blurted out that she was short. Sylvia is very beautiful, very petite, curvy, the only drawback is that she is short, only five feet one inch. Sandwiched between the two women, Azu didn't necessarily feel at a loss, on the contrary, he felt complacent just like when he was serving two girls at the same time last time. Shihua couldn't even eat anymore, so he grabbed his books and ran to the grass to chat with some American boys. "Shall we go to the movies tomorrow night?" A zoology classmate named Keeley Puth asked her out. "Okay." It was the first time that Shihua accepted an appointment from an American boy. "I'll meet you in the dormitory at seven o'clock tomorrow night," Keeley said. "Well, see you then." Keeley is good-looking, a bit like Paul Newman, with blue eyes. He had asked her out several times during the experiment, but Shihua didn't agree. American men and women are straightforward, they don’t go if they don’t want to go, they don’t do three-hour experiments like Chinese boys for three hours. After class, I went back to the dormitory, and there was no homework to do. Lonny came to her. Shihua still pouted slightly. "Have you lost your temper yet?" Lonnie showed his lovely smile with those white teeth. "Did you see it all?" "Fried chicken is so stuffy, I can't help my eyes wandering around." "I will ignore Azu from now on." "You little girl, throw yourself into a trap." "Travel yourself?" "When did Azu feel sad about Sylvia? You were so naive to think that he was chasing you." "Isn't he pestering me every day?" "For Sylvia, the prettiest freshman in the school is with him all day long. To us, he is extremely powerful." "When I first came here, I saw him so pitiful, and I wanted to avenge him and make him look good." "You have a good heart," said Lonnie. "Who would have expected that they still have contacts." Shihua said. "They are like this. Once Shi Weiya finds another boyfriend, he ignores Azu, so Azu looks lost. Recently, Shi Weiya was kicked out by that Chilean boy. She wants to find a place to live. If you want money to spend, go back to Azu." "Why are her cohabiting boyfriends overseas students from South America?" Shihua was puzzled. "Where can American boys have the money to support her? South American students are mostly rich and playboys, and they won't let go of girls after they go after them." Lonnie said, "They will start with you sooner or later." "I'm not in the mood to talk about this." Shihua said. "Do you think you were used by Azu?" Lonnie asked. "I consider him a good friend, not a boyfriend, but it's a lie not to be annoyed." "Your young lady loses her temper very badly. Shoes and banknotes are thrown all over the table. She has no manners." "You still make fun of me, beat you to death!" Shihua's white powder fists rained down on Lonnie's tall body. "Have you beaten enough? Don't you get angry?" Lonnie held her fists and still showed his straight white teeth. "Thank you for coming to comfort me." Shihua is a girl with a tutor after all. "No, it's just taking advantage of the situation, and I don't have any good intentions." "Fuck you!" Shihua thumped him lightly again. "I'm really going, it's fried chicken time again." "I'm not going to eat." Lonnie's tall figure turned around: "Shihua, you are self-willed and pure. Don't worry about Azu's affairs. Once Shiwei jumped on his bed, he will not remember anything." "No wonder you often laugh at him, that's why." "There are a lot of boys and girls living together here, do you think they really live in the same room? Don't be stupid." "An American boy asked me out tomorrow." Shihua said. "They are very straightforward. If you don't want to do it, just tell him that you don't want to do it. They are open people and they don't mind. At most, they won't ask you out next time." "Do you date American girls too?" Se-hwa asked. "Sometimes there is poor entertainment. American girls think differently. They don't think they are at a disadvantage like Chinese girls. They think they enjoy each other." "Don't scare me, I can't figure it out." "Tomorrow, you'd better drink soda, eat popcorn, and watch a movie." Lonnie said a little like a guardian. The next night, Leakey Puth showed up in his normal school clothes. The theater is not far from the campus, they walked there. Shihua seemed silent. "Hey, don't be so antisocial!" Keeley said. Shihua thought about it for a long time, but he still didn't know what to talk to him about, only about zoology. "Your homework is very handsome, you know it at a glance." Keely said. "In Hong Kong, we must take biology in middle school, and the foundation is naturally good. Unlike you, you don't need to take it, and you only start from the beginning when you are in university." "Have you already chosen a husband and are going to marry him when you get back from school?" Keeley asked. "That was decades ago, it doesn't happen now." "Then you are free, I can date you more without offending your family?" "Kiely, you're in a mess, you must have seen some old Japanese movies, I'm not Japanese, I'm Chinese." "where is your home?" "Hongkong." "Isn't Hong Kong in Japan?" "You Americans are too happy, but also too ignorant. You don't know what the world outside the United States is." Shihua couldn't help but laugh, "Hong Kong is on the sea in southern China." After drinking the soda, chewing the popcorn, and watching the movie, it was around ten o'clock. Shihua was so hungry that his stomach was growling, but Keeley had no intention of going to dinner at all. Shihua suddenly remembered Cheng Anxiong's address, he lived outside the campus. Firstly, she was hungry, and secondly, she was afraid that Keely would ask her to make love, and the safe island she thought of was Cheng Anxiong, but she couldn't recognize the way. "Kiely, I want to find a friend. I have a calculus class. Here is his address. Can you take me there?" "You don't want me tonight?" Keeley said helplessly. "Anyway, I'll see you again in class tomorrow." Shi Hua said. "I mean outside of the classroom, when will I see you next?" Keeley asked. Shihua said, "Let's talk about it later, I don't know." Shihua found Cheng Anxiong's apartment, she didn't want Keili to follow her, so she said: "You don't need to accompany me, I will go up by myself." "It's up to you." Kiri spread his hands and kissed her partingly. She would be able to kiss her, after Li Qi, she has never kissed a second man.Keely knew how to kiss, and Shihua couldn't deny that she enjoyed it for a while, but she didn't want to go any further. He walked up to the second floor alone and rang the doorbell, but no one answered after ringing for a long time, probably An Xiong went to the street. After standing at the door and waiting for half an hour, no one came back, Shihua was a little scared, she didn't know where to go, she didn't know how to go back to the campus. After looking through her small handbag for a while, only a piece of paper was found, not even a pen. She had no choice but to use the nail of her little finger as the holder of the pen, and carved a few words on the paper: "An Xiong: I have been here, but there is no one, so I have to walk back to the dormitory. Shihua. Eleven o'clock." On the dark avenue, Shihua almost wanted to cry, turned around, but couldn't go back to school, so he turned back to Cheng Anxiong's apartment, thinking that he would sit at the door until dawn at most. As soon as she went up the stairs, she met Cheng Anxiong holding the piece of paper she left a message on, and came down in a panic. Shihua was already in panic, his big eyes were covered with a thin layer of tears that he didn't know what to do. When An Xiong saw it, his heart ached, he hurriedly put his arms around her, and even said sorry: "I never knew you'd come to me." "I've been waiting at your door for an entire hour." Shihua said aggrieved him, "I couldn't find my way home." "Why did you run to the city center in the middle of the night?" An Xiong asked. "Watching a movie with my classmates, I wanted to visit you on a whim, and let the classmates go first, but I didn't expect to have nowhere to go." "I'll take you back." An Xiong drove, reading her note while driving. "The note carved with nails was confiscated." An Xiong was quite touched. "I don't have a pen, so I really don't know what to do." Shihua said. "You still need someone to take care of you." An Xiong put his arms around her thin and soft shoulders with his right hand, while driving the steering wheel with his left hand. "The final next week?" Shihua asked. Anxiong nodded: "You won't see me next week, come back and give you a Christmas present." Suddenly An Xiong remembered: "Where are you going for Christmas? The dorms are closed." "My relatives told me to fly to New York, but I didn't want to go." "Then let's go skiing." An Xiong suggested. "I won't." "It's easy, just learn it." An Xiong put Shihua down in the dormitory: "See you in a week!" Although Zhou Shihua didn't accept anyone's date that day, his heart was full. When An Xiong came back, it turned out to be such a happy thing. A week later, a box was delivered to the dormitory.The girls watched curiously. It was the silver shield of the champion of the California Intercollegiate Western Fencing Competition. An Xiong beat Stanford's Excalibur in his left hand. Inscribed on the shield: "To Shihua." "Anxiong" is engraved below. "Why are you so shy!" Roommate Yardley said, "At least it should be engraved: I love you, Anxiong." Julie also got into the room to look at the proud shield, and even the proud she admired and said: "An Xiong is really calm in times of crisis. The left-handed one in Stanford is not only weird, but he is indeed a top-notch player. It is not easy for An Xiong to win." "Is it a tough match?" Shihua asked Julie of the women's fencing team. "An Xiong was so concentrated that he didn't even talk to us. I think he has played too many games. This time, he really seemed to be invincible. I think it was his determination to win that made the Stanford swordsman frustrated." If it wasn't for An Xiong's raging fight, he might not have lost to him." Julie said. "He not only won the sword competition, he also won Shihua's heart!" Yardley was as happy as Shihua. Only the American girls in the dormitory knew that Cheng Anxiong engraved the shield of the fencing champion to Shihua. Except for her, there were no Chinese girls in the dormitory, and Shihua didn't tell the other Chinese students. Cheng Anxiong apparently didn't say either, Shihua likes this the most, she doesn't know why, but she has never had the habit of mentioning a second man in front of another man. Almost all the international students in the school have dated all over the place. She doesn't know what others say, but she doesn't mention it herself. Bao Lian was very happy that An Xiong won the championship again, she and Joseph invited An Xiong and Shi Hua to celebrate. Joseph was slightly worried, Shihua just pretended not to notice, and she herself had just received two very unhappy news. Pauline said happily: "Joseph and I are going to Los Angeles next semester. I really miss you, but we will invite you to come when we get engaged." "Shihua, take good care of yourself and call me if you need anything." Joseph was still a little worried about this little girl who was standing on the street waiting for a taxi more than three months ago with two suitcases in her arms. "Yes, call us if you have anything to do." Pauline said enthusiastically. "放假时没处去，便来跟我们一块住。"对约瑟的依依不舍之情，世华很感动，他对她遥遥的爱，她不晓得怎么回报他，可惜她不爱他。 短短的三个多月，世华已走了一段长长的心路历程，她并不是众人眼中的小女孩。 她对各种约会已经厌倦，惟一她未厌倦的，只有程安雄一个人。 在回家路上，世华对安雄说： "下学期我不想住宿舍了，你替我找间房子好吗？" "你想一个人住？"安雄问。 "yes." "你独个儿住过吗？" "No." "你不怕？" "没试过，怎知怕不怕？"世华说，"我向往独个儿住很久了" "你父母不反对吗？"安雄自己也是跟另外两个男生同住的。 "他们管不着。"世华说。 "你今年多大了？"安雄问。 "十七岁零四个月，很老了。" "很老？" "这儿的人，每个都像小孩子一样，我觉得有点闷了。"世华觉得此处没可能让她尝尽人间烟火。 "我倒没想过闷不闷的问题。" "你这么忙，当然不闷。"世华说，"念书、打剑，暑期又去美国太空署进修，哪儿有空闲？" "不是很多人陪你玩吗？" "有什么好玩，我又不是小孩子。" "我是说，不是很多人追求你吗？" "起初被人追求真有点兴奋，见得三次，又不外如是。" "我约你多过三次了。"安雄说。 "不是说你，说你便不告诉你了。" "你真怪，一方面你很纯，另一方面却什么都管不住你。" "安雄，你有没有想过，人一生这么长，几时闷得到老？" "我从没想过这问题。" "安雄，不如我们结婚。"世华没头没脑地说。 安雄倒没被她吓了一跳，只是拿起她的手，轻轻地打了她的手心一下： "你完全不成熟，不是我不想娶你，而是我不相信你知道婚姻是什么。" "要知道的吗？知道了试来干什么？"世华说。 "真糟糕。起初我想，十六岁零四个月还不算太小，原来是真的这么小，看来我要等你长大了。"安雄说。 "我已经很大了。"世华很沧桑地说。 "为什么忽然这么感慨？"安雄觉得她有点反常。 "妈妈要我圣诞节回香港，不能跟你去滑雪了。" "那也用不着马上要嫁我。"安雄完全莫名其妙。 "不说了，不说了！"世华烦恼地拨着头发。 "世华，我真的会等你一生一世，但是我不明白你为什么今晚忽然说这些话。"安雄说得很诚恳。 世华呜的一声哭了起来，转过头去倚在车子的窗上。 她收到信，盛太太要亲自来押她回去香港度假，还不是强逼她与法松在一起？ 她又收到方逸的信，说水文君和李颀在拍拖。 方逸是专门报忧不报喜的，但她从不说谎。 以水文君的每个男人都要媚上一媚的性格，跟李颀混上了也不出奇。 但是李颀，李颀怎么会呢？难道妈妈是对的，他什么女人也睡上一睡？ 她还以为李颀在等候她，她还为自己的约会频频而内疚，原来她只不过是李颀生命中的过客，一个太认真的过客。 然而怎可能呢？水文君的妈妈把她管得那么紧，要是她和李颀厮混，她妈妈会宰了她。 不过方逸是不会骗她的，虽然方逸常常不同意她，但方逸对她有种奇怪的忠诚，她永远将最不动听却是最真实的话告诉她。 这一堆故事，怎么向程安雄说？ 她再不愿意，还是要回香港走一趟的，没亲眼看过便不能相信。 程安雄哪里猜得到她在心乱些什么，只觉得她好小好小，好需要他的守护。 "世华，你恼我？" 世华还在抽噎。 "可惜我不够钱买机票回香港，不然我陪你回去。"安雄把她扳过来解释着。 世华拭了拭泪，强忍着不再哭。 "世华，我在这儿念书，是拿奖学金的，家里不是没寄钱给我，只是不多，我的家环境过得去，但我不是最得宠的一个，你明白吗？" 相交多月，安雄第一次跟她谈起家庭。 世华望着那张剑眉星目的脸，这样的人材，怎会不得父母宠爱？ "你很多兄弟姐妹吗？"世华问。 "六个，也不算少，也许，我和父母没缘分吧。"安雄叹了口气。 "他们不以你为荣？"自幼被宠惯的盛世华觉得难以置信。 "奖学金、优异生、剑击冠军、美国太空署训练生，这一切，对他们来说都似乎没有什么意思。"程安雄说。 世华做梦也想不到，在校园内处处直上云霄的程安雄，在家里竟然是个如此不受重视的人物。 "所以你打剑这么狠？"世华问。 "也许是一种发泄吧，我总不能打我的爸妈。"安雄洒然一笑。 "但你很自信呢。"世华说。 "对我能做得到的当然自信。你也很自信啊。" 世华自嘲地说： "我对能做到的和不能做到的都太自信。所以，碰了很多壁，所以，我觉得自己很老。" "你只是未长大而已。"安雄强壮的双臂搂她进怀。 世华在他怀里仰头吻了吻他的下颔。 刹那间两人好像亲近了很多。 世华回到宿舍，思潮起伏。 翌日她拍了个电报回家，叫盛太太不必来加州了，圣诞假期一到她便会回香港。 安雄送她机，并且约好了回来时上三藩市接她。