Chapter 31 Twenty-five, the soul of Beijing (2)

Finally one day he came to me again and told me that he, too, had been thinking about the conversation he had with me, and felt that he didn't understand politics or women.I said, 'How can you compare politics to women?' He said, 'Complicated politics and complicated women are both stimulating, so my brother has double the share. ’ I said: ‘I am not complicated. ’ He said: ‘At least I understand why my brother broke off the engagement for you, but why should I marry a wife for my brother? The truth complicates her too.After finishing talking, I felt it was useless, so I had to talk about the book opening the corpse.It was another night, he came home very late, and I lost sleep after he left.I never thought I'd be able to say that to this young man.

Much, trust him so much, like an old friend.He is young and beautiful, with sparkling eyes, and when I get closer to me, I can smell the fragrance of the forest from his lips. A few days later, I invited the owner of the book to my house for dinner, and we continued to talk about his distress in life and the book's open body.Later, the book owner came often and asked me if I needed help in my life. After we sat down, we talked about his brother's corpse again.Afterwards we saw each other every day, and although we didn’t talk so much about Shukai’s corpse anymore, we still had to talk about Shukai, as if we were both experiencing Shukai in each other and experiencing each other through Shukai.Later, when it came to Shukai, I said, 'You are more delicate than Shukai', and when it came to his life's depression, he said, 'Only you tell me what a woman is'.We were all intimidated by the dialogue, but nothing was out of the ordinary.We just go back and forth every day, like siblings.But the book master's daughter-in-law quit, she is not that simple, she actually has all the complexities that a woman should have.The book owner's daughter-in-law went to Jihe's place to cry, and then went to her mother's house to cry again. She felt wronged, and the book owner was not wanted for me, and now I want to take the book owner away.Why was she abandoned left and right? How could I be wanted anyway? When she made such a fuss, everyone knew it.All of a sudden, the book owner thought of her: "I married you because of my elder brother. I didn't even have the chance to choose a woman because of this marriage. Now I just take care of my sister-in-law. You just marry me." I made a fuss?" In a fit of rage, he simply didn't go home and moved to live in his office.

I was also disturbed by what happened. Thinking that I was just getting along with the book owner's siblings, this kind of thing happened. It seems that women just can't talk too much with men, or have a man as a friend. No, the relationship between a man and a woman requires sleep. If you don’t sleep, people don’t believe it. If you don’t sleep, why are you two always together? One day I fell asleep thinking about it, and I had a dream. The book came back and said to me: "You and the book owner are fine, he is my favorite brother, and I am relieved to marry him." 'I asked:'Why are you worried about me?' Shu laughed:'I'm worried that you will marry off your step-family and forget about me. 'I cried: "Why are you so selfish? I've been with you for so many years and you still don't trust me? I won't marry anyone. Besides, even if I want to marry, it's my freedom. I want to marry whoever I want." Shukai said: "You are my wife. Even if you marry again, you must have rules. You can't marry everyone. For example, the kind of nondescript intellectuals you knew before, you can't marry. If you marry, I will be ashamed." Shouted: "You still want to save face after you are gone? Besides, how can I still look up to that little face from the past after I married you? Why do you still remember those things about me after you die? Even I forgot." Shukai said: 'I know that you have that instinct, you like a pretty boy when you see him. So I think if you marry, marry the owner of the book. He is my younger brother and will not betray me. I’m a hero like me, I’m relieved to have him take care of you.” I said, “First, why do I have to marry my step-family again? Is only the step-family a hero? Time is also talking about you, so I have to marry him? Three, you have a good idea. If I marry someone again, I still have to talk about you all the time.Four, you have already made the owner of the book marry your arranged wife, and you still let him marry your widow, are you worthy of him? Five..." Before I finished speaking, Shu Kai hugged me and held me down On the bed, my legs were suddenly soft and wet, but they were still strong and hadn't changed at all.The two of us moved a lot, and when we moved, we saw the man on my body turned into the owner of the book. I hugged the owner of the book and kissed him, and he returned the favor.That is really the owner of the book. His lips are different from those of the book. Isn’t this a dream? I hold the owner of the book tightly.His lips are more sensitive than a book, as if trying to suck all my blood out.I feel that I have completely become as soft, bright and clean as water, and I am so happy that I can't breathe.I thought, why can a man marry a sister, but a woman cannot marry a brother? I wanted to hold on tighter to the book owner, but when I stretched out my hand, I accidentally slipped out of the dream.When I woke up, I hoped that what happened just now was true. If it was true, they just left me.I reached out and touched my lower body.

"Of course the living people don't know these things. The living people only know suspicion. I know I'm in love with the book owner, otherwise I wouldn't have that dream, but I must not show it during the day. I saw the book owner. The Lord felt that it was not as natural as it used to be, so it would be better not to see him after much deliberation. I closed myself up again, except to do unified work during the day and accompany my two children at night, and did not interact with others. The owner of the book did not know why I no longer Wanting to see him, he had no choice but to respect my request. Until a year later, the bombs from foreigners blew up on the island and killed me. My soul immediately flew into his mind upon hearing the call of the book owner, Found him very depressed because of my passing, but he couldn't figure out whether he thought of me because I represented his brother's half or because of me. He said to himself, thinking of me is thinking of his brother, If he really has love for me, it is because of his brother. He used to want to see me every day because he could think of his brother through me every day. Now my disappearance is equal to the disappearance of his brother. His life is suddenly empty, and he wants to see him again every day I just found out that the dead will never come back. I knew that I should be desperate to see me more, but he can’t imagine how desperate. Hold me? Untie my clothes? Own me ?Shukai's only experience with women is that the wife that his elder brother should marry and then give back to him was so confused that he let his wife have a child. He never thought much about how to make a woman happy, because that woman was not what he wanted. Now that I am dead, he realizes that I am the kind of woman he wants, but he never dared to want me back then, and now he dare not tell himself that what he wants is me, but a woman like me. But he thinks again , If I hadn't married my brother, would he like me? The reason why I am me, so extraordinary, is because I am his brother's woman. He can't understand his feelings for me, but he can't forget. He doesn't I don’t go home anymore, and my son Hongjun doesn’t see his father anymore. When he is free, he goes to see the two children I left behind, my Hongnu and your Ningzi. These two are his brother and me. Loved person. The owner of the book was with the children every day, and later he simply moved in to live with the children. He couldn't let the children suffer, he forgot about his own son.