Chapter 21 Honey: 6-9

Dear Tingsheng: This is your fated ordeal.Just like an old saying: After going through the wind and rain, you will see the rainbow. I'm glad you were able to face it calmly.I read you right. The Bible says: People, are you just to keep silent? Shall judgment be done with justice? Otherwise, you work evil in your hearts, and you weigh out on the earth the violence of your hands. ("Psalm 58:1-2") The greatest evil is the evil of the heart.Those with evil hearts, they pretend to judge others, but they themselves cannot escape the final judgment. Dear Tingsheng, I have talked about the death of Jesus in my letter.When Jesus died, all the faithful believers left, but Mary the prostitute of Magdana stayed by his side.

Until the moment of being nailed to the cross, few people in the world could understand what Jesus did.But that doesn't detract from the greatness of Jesus.The story of Jesus teaches us that we don't have to spend our precious time begging for understanding. In my opinion, not being understood by others is not necessarily a pain.With my understanding and my love, you should be satisfied.As for whether other people understand you, let them be.You just need to be "worthy of my heart". Those who insult, finally insult their own dignity; those who pour dirty water, finally pour out their own conscience.

Those who hide behind the dark scenes and shoot dark arrows will one day be blinded by the bright sunshine; those who step on other people's bodies to climb high buildings will one day be reduced to ashes with the collapse of the high buildings. I believe that no matter what kind of harm or even persecution you encounter, you will not give up your pursuit of truth and your belief in justice.The truth will never be buried in the yellowed pages forever, and justice will never hang in the distant sky forever.I think what you have done clearly shows that you are fighting for the rights of children, the right of children to "speak with my heart".That is the right of the child in Andersen's book: the right of the holy emperor to wear nothing and be free from any sanctions.It has been a long time since we lost this precious right.

I believe even more that you don't fall at the first blow, that the battle we have fought together, the battle that will last us all our lives, is just beginning. Gibran told a story in "How I Became a Madman".Almost the same meaning as you told me about "The Astrologer"-- You ask how I became mad.It so happened that one day, long before many gods were born, I awoke from my deep sleep to find that all my masks had been stolen—the ones I had cast and worn in seven lifetimes. mask. --without a mask, I ran through the streets with my face naked, crying, "Thief! Thief! Damned thief!"

Men and women laughed at me, and some people hid in the house because they were afraid of me. When I ran to the market, a young man stood on the roof and shouted: "This is a madman!" I looked up at him, and the sun kissed my naked face for the first time.For the first time ever, the sun kissed my bare cheeks, and my heart ignited with love for the sun. I don't need those masks anymore.As if in a trance, I shouted: "Blessed! Blessed! Blessed are the thieves who stole my mask!" In this way, I became a madman. In madness I found liberty and tranquility: liberty in solitude, tranquility in not being understood; for those who understand us enslave us in some way.

However, let me not be too proud of my own peace, because even the robbers in the prison enjoy peace, and have no need to beware of other robbers. This story illustrates exactly where you are today.Suffering is the blessing that God bestows on you. Don't be afraid to be called crazy.The difference between a madman and a normal person is often transformable.Some people think they are normal, but they don’t know that it is him who is abnormal; some people are called crazy by the common people, but he speaks the words of the prophet.This situation has happened countless times in history.

There are beautiful women with bright eyes and bright teeth, but no soul or the door of the soul is rusted; there are blind men with ragged clothes, but they see the kingdom of heaven with their hearts.In my opinion, the ultimate beauty is the beauty of personality, spirit and soul.If you use this standard to measure, then the most beautiful women in the world are Mother Teresa, Aung San Suu Kyi, these weakest and strongest women. These days, I am reading an English biography of Aung San Suu Kyi, the Nobel Peace Prize winner in 1991.I think you must be familiar with her deeds, but I am still willing to provide you with some first-hand information here, and at the same time encourage you not to be afraid or panic when you encounter evil on a narrow road.

Aung San Suu Kyi, "awarded for her non-violent struggle for democracy and human rights," was an indomitable Burmese woman.I saw her picture in the book, she is so thin, weak, gentle, just like an ordinary housewife. However, the Norwegian Nobel Committee gave her a high evaluation in the awards communiqué.According to the committee, "Aung San Suu Kyi's struggle is one of the most outstanding examples of public courage displayed in Asia in recent decades, and she has become an important symbol in the struggle against oppression".Francis Seyersted, chairman of the Nobel Committee, praised in her speech: "She links deep responsibility with distant vision. It is a vision that obsessively integrates means and ends. In her thinking, the most important factors are: democracy, respect for human rights, reconciliation between different groups, non-violence and individual and collective observance of law".

Aung San Suu Kyi's father, General Aung San, a leader of the Burmese independence movement, was assassinated when she was just two years old.After Myanmar's independence, Aung San Suu Kyi went to the West to receive education and became an outstanding scholar. In 1988, Aung San Suu Kyi returned to the motherland, she was going back to take care of her elderly mother.It was also during this year that large-scale political unrest broke out in Myanmar.The military government that has seized power in Myanmar and implemented totalitarian rule for more than two decades has left the country riddled with holes.The people couldn't bear it anymore and rose up to resist.

In the riots, more than two hundred ordinary people were killed.At this moment, Aung San Suu Kyi realized that she had to speak. The ghost of her father was calling to her, and the voice of Gandhi she revered also rang in her ears. That summer, at a time of great uncertainty, Aung San Suu Kyi sent an open letter to the military government.In the letter, she expressed her disgust and contempt for violence, as well as her desire and persistence for democracy. Since then, she bid farewell to her quiet desk and embarked on a glorious thorny road. Instead of accepting Aung San Suu Kyi's call, the junta established the so-called "National Law and Order Restoration Commission", banned political gatherings of more than four people, and imposed arrests and sentences without trial.

In contrast, Aung San Suu Kyi established the "National League for Democracy", which formulated a policy of non-violence and non-cooperation.Facing enormous pressure from the military government, she still insisted on giving speeches throughout the country. On April 5, 1989, when Aung San Suu Kyi and her companions were walking on the streets of a town, soldiers lined up stood in front of them.The leading officer threatened to shoot them if they went any further. Aung San Suu Kyi has asked her supporters to step aside and go on her own.At the last moment, the major in command ordered the soldiers not to fire.The soldiers slowly let go of the finger that was about to pull the trigger. Later, Aung San Suu Kyi flatly explained: "Give them a single goal, it is much simpler than dragging everyone into it." What was going on in the major's mind when he gave the last-minute order not to shoot?Maybe he was moved by Aung San Suu Kyi's bravery, maybe he realized that nothing can be achieved by relying on savage violence. The moment when Aung San Suu Kyi faced the gun, in the words of the Austrian writer S. Zweig, it can be called "the moment when the noble spirit of mankind shines like stars."I admire Aung San Suu Kyi's courage, and I am willing to praise the major whose conscience has not yet died out. I pictured the major, his dark face, his broad forehead, his bushy eyebrows and big eyes.He may also be the son of a farmer, coming from a distant village.His parents, hungry parents, groaned in the hut. He hesitated, sweat seeping from the brim of his hat. At that critical moment, in the depths of the major's heart, light overcame darkness, and justice overcame evil.As Francis Seyersted, chairman of the Nobel Committee, said: "I believe that we ordinary people feel that Aung San Suu Kyi, with her courage and her lofty ideals, has evoked some of the best in us." things; we feel that we need someone like her to sustain our belief in the future. This is what makes her such a symbol, and why any mistreatment of her makes us feel as if There is a cause deep within us. This tiny woman under house arrest represents a clear hope, and knowing she exists gives us faith and faith in the power of justice." The major was one of those millions who were infected.He may be removed from office and tried, but he refuses to shoot Aung San Suu Kyi.His mind has not weathered into a desert on which a seed can germinate. Later, Aung San Suu Kyi was placed under house arrest.So far, she has been under house arrest for twelve years.However, her voice continues to spread to the world. Aung San Suu Kyi said she drew great inspiration from Gandhi and her father.Human rights were at the center of her thinking.Man has the right not only to live in a free society, but also to be respected.On this theoretical basis, she established a policy characterized by a perfect combination of austere realism and broad-minded idealism.For her, leadership is a responsibility.Humility to the task before one and respect for the people one leads are fundamental to the discharge of this responsibility. Aung San Suu Kyi revised the famous words of Sir Acton, a British political scientist, in her article "Fear No More".Acton said: "Power tends to corrupt, and absolute power corrupts absolutely." She believes that it is not power that corrupts, but fear that corrupts.This kind of comment is aimed at the totalitarian regime in her own country, and it is also aimed at all dictatorships with strong foreign powers.She told her people: Fear will rule us if we do not overcome it. Aung San Suu Kyi has set a shining example for us, what about us? Tingsheng, my favorite person, your letter came by such a coincidence. When I was about to finish Aung San Suu Kyi's biography, I read the bad news in your letter.This is bad news, but also good news.Without this news, it would be difficult for me to make up my mind about my future. Tingsheng, the person I love the most, I realize that the opportunity I have been waiting for for a year has finally arrived.Now, when you first encountered hardships and difficulties, I decided to set off to Beijing to face the bigger storm that will come with you. Today, after I received your letter, without consulting my parents or any of my friends, I walked straight into my boss's office and offered him my resignation.The boss was so surprised that he couldn't speak for a long time.Yesterday we were still discussing a new business plan together, but today I suddenly want to resign, he is really not mentally prepared at all. The boss asked me if I had any trouble at work, and he would definitely come forward to help me solve it.I shake my head. The boss pondered for a moment and said, "So, is there someone who will pay you more? I'll give you a raise." This is their usual thinking.They always think that money can solve all problems.I smiled slightly and said, "It's not about money. Even if you give me ten times my salary, I won't stay. My resignation is purely for a personal reason. I want to leave Yangzhou and go to Beijing." I promised him to complete the work handover within a week.I will let my assistant understand the progress of each job, so that the work on my hand will not come to a standstill as soon as I leave. Seeing my resolute attitude, the boss had no choice but to sigh and agreed to my resignation.He also said that before I left, he would hold a banquet to bid farewell to me and thank me for the work I have done for the company over the past few years.This capitalist, who is usually extremely smart and hides his secrets, rarely has such a moment to show his true feelings to his employees. The week ahead will be a busy one.In addition to handing over the work, I will also tell my parents about this "shocking" decision, and strive for their understanding and understanding.Anyway, it's done, they have to agree if they don't agree. I have worked in this company for two years, and generally speaking, it is quite pleasant, and I have also met many good colleagues.Thinking of leaving all of a sudden, I still feel a little sour in my heart.This feeling is similar to what you felt when you left Peking University. Dear Tingsheng, please persevere for another week.A week later, I will be by your side. This time, I will never leave you. love you forever xiao xuaner July 11, 2000 Xiao Xuaner, my lifelong companion: After I read your letter, I happily circled the room.You are coming at last, and the days of "Yingying in the water, unable to speak" are finally coming to an end. So, do I have to thank those who shot me in the back?They probably never dreamed that they were self-defeating, did they?Should we invite them to attend our wedding and be our witnesses? Who can believe it: the moment of bad luck is the moment of mature love.No one will be able to separate us anymore, even to Siberia we will go together. We shall live forever in the sunshine and away from the darkness.I finally realized this truth: instead of cursing the darkness, it is better to let yourself shine. If we can shine our own light, love will come into our lives, and we can also spread love to others.My own life experience is like this.As I write this, I suddenly think of a sentence that Shen Congwen said: "I have walked bridges in many places, seen clouds many times, drank many kinds of wine, but only loved one person at his best age. "Me too, in love with someone at the perfect age - he made it, and I made it. Shen Congwen is famous for his shyness. It is said that when he first boarded the university lecture hall, he looked at a classroom full of people, was nervous and speechless, and stood there blankly. minutes of silence.Fortunately, most of the students below have read his works and are his admirers, so no one made a fuss.Everyone waited for him quietly, looking at him expectantly and encouragingly. When he settled down and began to give lectures, he started to talk incessantly, and he finished the one-hour lecture in just ten minutes.He has been preparing this handout for several days.For the rest of the time, he didn't know what to say.He picked up the chalk, turned around, and wrote a line on the blackboard: "It's my first class, and I'm scared when I see so many of you." Shen Congwen fell in love with Zhang Zhaohe, who was still his student at the time.Those who are taciturn, once they fall in love, they are often passionate and out of control.Shen Congwen wrote fiery love letters to Zhang Zhaohe one after another, but was stubbornly rejected.After writing a monologue-style love letter for a year, Shen Congwen did not get any answer.He was heartbroken, "Because of loving her, I've ruined my life for the past six months, and I can't do a single thing. I just plan to go far away, so that she can feel at ease, and on the other hand, I won't be troubled." Shen Congwen went to bid farewell to the principal Hu Shi, and Hu Shi asked what happened.Hu Shi is a scholar who loves talent as much as his life. He persuaded Shen Congwen to stay and promised to help him facilitate this matter. At this time, Zhang Zhaohe came to sue Hu Shi, saying that Shen Congwen's confession had disturbed her studies.Zhang Zhaohe deliberately picked out a sentence in the love letter: "I not only love your soul, I also love your body" - this has greatly violated the dignity of the teacher.Hu Shi didn't say how to deal with Shen Congwen as a teacher, but he took the initiative to act as a "matchmaker" between teachers and students.The well-known university president kept praising Shen Congwen as a "genius" to Zhang Zhaohe, and believed that "everyone should help him if there is such a genius in society." I can't help but sigh: what an interesting principal, what an interesting teacher, what an interesting student, what an interesting era! Faith will move mountains to open.Zhang Zhaohe's attitude gradually changed.After four years of correspondence, they finally got results.Shen Congwen, who was teaching at Qingdao University at the time, traveled all the way to Zhang Zhaohe's home in Suzhou and formally proposed to her. After returning to Qingdao, Shen Congwen wrote in a letter to his lover: "If dad agrees, let me know earlier, and let me, a countryman, have a cup of sweet bar." Zhang Zhaohe sent Shen Congwen a letter after obtaining his father's consent. A telegram, read: "Country man, drink a sweet bar." Ning Xuan, I am also a countryman, and I would like to drink a glass of sweet wine too. Your letter today is such a telegram. On the phone, I told my parents everything about you.However, I didn't tell them that I lost my job. In the eyes of their generation, things like work and household registration are still very important.In our view, those are external things.I tell them how much we love each other. They are very happy, although they have not seen you, but they believe in my vision.They said, let's go home for the Spring Festival and hold a wedding.I have no interest in the ancient ceremony of wedding, but I am willing to obey the wishes of my parents and let them share our happiness.Dear Ning Xuan, do you think it's okay? Love you, hug you Tingsheng July 15, 2000 Dear Tingsheng, I am so proud of you Tingsheng: That mulled wine of yours was too easy to drink.Shen Congwen wrote a love letter for four years back then. You only wrote it for one year before you waited for this cup of sweet wine.You're lucky, impatient little fool--even the villains have come to help you and make our love work. The painter Huang Yongyu described the love and marriage between his cousin Shen Congwen and his aunt Zhang Zhaohe in "Scenery Under the Sun" in this way. He said: "Auntie is like a skilled driver. She can drive such a machine with a special structure at any time. On the normal track, it's amazing. Two people are almost two people from two planets, but they came together. Without aunt, it's hard to imagine what life would be like, strict and tolerant In addition to being responsible for the fate of the whole family, she also has to gently and patiently guide this old mountain artist who has been rebellious for many years to follow the path of ordinary people. Because Uncle Wen Biao has always believed that she is more ordinary than any ordinary person. "I I think that the relationship between us will be more harmonious and full of fun, because the "same" side of us is far greater than the "different" side.And I am also willing to share with you the responsibilities and even the hardships that God has asked you to bear. Of course I would like to go back to my hometown with you to hold a wedding.Like you, I don't like red tape.Instead of having a wedding, go on a trip.You have described everything about your hometown to me countless times in your letters, the "uncoverable green hills are hidden, and the green water is flowing continuously", I really want to look around. However, if my parents want us to hold a wedding, I am also willing to go back to make my parents happy-my presence must be a joy to them.They can pass the baton of caring for their sons to their daughter-in-law, and they can breathe a sigh of relief.However, while I was happy, I was still a little nervous -- isn't it, "ugly daughter-in-law" is always afraid of seeing her parents-in-law. Since I decided to come to Beijing, to use an inappropriate analogy - I started to count my "relics" like a person who is about to pass away.For the first time, I was surprised to find out how vulnerable the material world that I thought I was nostalgic for was so fragile that I couldn't even find the things I couldn't let go of and wanted to take away.A large cabinet of expensive and elegant "professional suits", a large box of ladylike pointed-toed leather shoes, and even jewelry, mobile phones, leather bags, laptops, etc., I am no longer willing to list them as "property".I shall be the happiest and poorest bride in the world in my pure and simple pullover. Will you laugh at my childishness? Dear Tingsheng, I want to be by your side and be your gentle and strong wife. This sentence is so common and easy, but it is the heaviest promise I have made to you with my whole life and all my strength.For the first time in my life, I let go of my reserve and believed that I could love someone deeply, humblely, without asking, and with all my heart. It turns out that love is so beautiful, love to the depths so beautiful.Now I want to praise love as soon as I open my mouth, I want to write to you as soon as I pick up a pen, I think of you as soon as I open my eyes, and you appear in my dreams as soon as I close my eyes. I never thought that there would be someone so possessive My whole body and mind, let alone the body and mind occupied by love, would be so sweet! What is the meaning of life? It is truth, kindness, beauty, love, light, warmth, laughter, song, and friendship.Reading your book, in the pages full of words that are either angry or sad, I suddenly saw a word between the lines - love.I seem to see a heart of a child, a sincere, defenseless and wounded heart, but still loves the world, life, motherland, land, fellow countrymen, and humble people so deeply and painfully. Trivial and suffering life, and loved ones. Remember what I said in my first letter to you? I quote Russell: "The strength that sustains my life is the longing for love, the search for knowledge, and the heartfelt compassion for human suffering." Now, I say to you, let us be together, with love As strength, use all the great hearts and noble thoughts in ancient and modern China and abroad as weapons, go to the suffering people with sincerity, sympathy, and whole body and mind, love them deeply, help them, and give them us All the meager warmth and gifts, for the suffering of human beings, I will suffer all my life without changing my heart, I will dedicate my whole life to the world of truth, goodness and beauty without complaint or regret, hold my hand bravely, and walk on the road with my love fearlessly go ahead. Tingsheng, my love, I am so proud of you, and I want to say that old saying to every one of your readers: "Life is worth suffering for as long as there are eyes that cry with you. "All those who sincerely seek the meaning of life have such eyes. Tingsheng, my dearest person, I am your eyes, weeping with you, rejoicing together, hurt by suffering and evil together, nourished and bright by love and beauty together.So come on, life of misery, we are such lovers, and we love you so bravely! I send this letter to you, wanting to send my heart and my people together.I am willing to give up the hustle and bustle and colorfulness of the world for you, and pursue a peaceful heart and warm friendship. The Bible says: We do not lose heart.Although the outer body is destroyed, the inner body is being renewed day by day.This momentary and light suffering of ours will accomplish for us an incomparable weight of glory.It turns out that we don't care about what we see, but what we don't see. What we see is temporary, but what we don't see is eternal. ("2 Corinthians 4:16") Strong Tingsheng, this is nothing.This is only "momentary and light suffering", but what awaits us will be "heavy and incomparable glory". I'll book a plane ticket tomorrow, and I'll be by your side the day after tomorrow. Love you forever, loyal little Xuaner July 20, 2000 July 25, 2000 My work contract was illegally torn up, and I will not accept this result in humiliation.I am going to seek labor arbitration from the Ministry of Personnel this morning.Whether there is a result is one thing. I must do what I should do in accordance with my natural human rights. Yesterday, Ning Xuan called and told me that she flew to Beijing in the afternoon. So, today I made such an arrangement: I will go to the Ministry of Personnel in the morning to check whether the fairness of the legal provisions really exists, and I will go directly to the airport to pick up Ning Xuan in the afternoon--today will be of great significance in my life. day. The result of going to the personnel department was just as I had imagined before I went. The Hou family is as deep as the sea, and it takes a lot of effort to enter the gate of the ministry.After calling for a long time in the reception room at the door, a young staff member came out to pick me up. This staff member is a college student who has just graduated from the China University of Political Science and Law. He has not yet acquired too much bureaucratic air and "unit air", just like "Xiao Lin" in Liu Zhenyun's novel, which is still in the first two chapters.He carefully read my complaint materials, and then told me that what I encountered was a legal gray area-a certain association that violated the contract, although it was a huge "ministerial unit", it was a "people's organization" in name ", does not belong to the State Council sequence in terms of affiliation.Therefore, the arbitration statute of the personnel department cannot bind it. I asked, "So, does that mean they can break the contract at will without any penalty?" Shrugging and resigned, the college graduate, younger than me, told me, "It is. So far, it's a gray area. There's nothing we can do about it." I felt like the protagonist in Kafka's novel wandering outside the castle, I fell into the "array of nothing", the ubiquitous absurdity. I got a notice of "No Arbitration", and I took a taxi to the airport to pick up Ning Xuan. Thinking that Ning Xuan would be by my side soon, my heart was filled with sunshine—love is the only magic weapon to defeat absurdity and the "array of nothing".Starting today, I will have a pure and faithful love until the end of my life.What else do I have to worry about, worry about? The taxi was speeding on the airport expressway, I opened the window and threw the red-stamped notice out of the window. This white paper flipped a few times in mid-air, and flew down into the bushes by the roadside in an instant. This is my second time to pick up Ning Xuan at the airport. This time, I only waited for half an hour. I found her among the crowd, struggling to drag two large boxes, breaking through the ice like an icebreaker. I heard the sound of ice cracking. I heard the sound of flowers opening. I waved to her, ran to her, and opened my arms to her. Ning Xuan also saw me, and her eyes shone like diamonds. She threw herself into my arms. We hugged and kissed like nobody else. She pressed close to my ear and whispered a sentence from the Bible: The Beloved belongs to me, and I belong to him. He herds his flock among the lilies. ("Bible Song of Solomon 2:16") Lilies grow on vanilla hills, and sheep grow on vanilla hills. Ning Xuan and I also live on Vanilla Hill. On the Vanilla Mountain, there are blue sky and white clouds, and abundant water and grass.