Chapter 9 Chapter nine

You immediately smelled a smell of soybean powder, which is the spicy smell that diffuses out of the bed every time you have sex.You understand what you should have understood.Her position is familiar to you, it is her habit when making love, why not let her repeat it over and over again with another man?Maybe she was looking forward to another orgasm with horror-filled eyes after answering the phone, and now it was really a foreign truck that ran over her.What is the difference to her between having sex with you and having sex with another man?You curled your lips and thought viciously.But you immediately forgave her, even thinking that you are not qualified to forgive her at all, so it doesn't matter whether you forgive or not.

The world was supposed to be like this. Once, you were walking on the streets of Beijing, and the polluted sunlight poured from her round neck into the peak and valley between her breasts.You suddenly realize that the so-called ivory color is just the paleness of the city.But she pointed to a newly built public toilet and said that even if the leader allocated her such a house, she would not leave.There is a kind of sourness in her voice, which makes your eyes moist. You look sideways at her face.This beautiful face is familiar to you in the labor camp.The screen hung between two tall pillars temporarily obscured the black slogan "Change from evil to good and have a bright future."In a short while, her face will appear on the screen in front of "Change from Evil to Good and Bright Future", providing enough raw materials for the hunched and stretched-necked labor prisoners to brew a dream. (You once showed her the posture of the labor camps sitting on the bricks and adobe watching movies, and she laughed and said that no actor could reproduce this posture.) Now the heroic female guerrilla leader or class front is abnormal Crow's feet appeared in the corners of the eyes of the distinct female doctor.Dreams must also travel through time.

You kissed those crow's feet eyes lightly.When kissing her, you only need to close your eyes to find her lost crystal; when kissing her, you only need to close your eyes and you will lose yourself in two dreams: After all, in the cell where a dozen reform-through-labor prisoners sleep together, you are alone Is it real to sleep with a female guerrilla leader or a female doctor under the covers, or is it real to have sex on this one bed? Later you see a few lines of covered writing on the wall of a university in Paris, the writing still showing itself stubbornly under the yellow paint: "Make love not war!" "Agreed! Where?" What follows One line said, "Advance along Mao's revolutionary line!" But you clearly saw "the future is bright to change from evil to good."And her face was superimposed on "Change from Evil to Good and Bright Future".You thought she was unattainable when you stared at her face on screen.Do you think that she will not live in a smelly room with a dozen people like you, but live alone in several rooms full of powder fragrance; do you think she is really the one who will point the gun at you The female guerrilla leader of this class enemy or the female doctor who will not save people like you.You hugged her not only because of sexual demands, not only her image reminded you of the appearance of long-forgotten women, (what do women look like? Those long-haired people in movies!) you hug And also because of an eerie pleasure in revenge.

But then when you see her floating down the screen and leaning over you, when you open your eyes and feel her full lips softly pressed against the corner of your mouth, although there are already crow's feet at the corner of the eye, you Don't you think that fate treats you kindly after all, and at the same time feel that you have become kind? You took that kiss as real vindication. You thought at the time that no matter what she did, there was a reason for it.Then you understand why you were so calm when you heard the man's voice on the phone.She once looked at the hotels and office buildings rising from the ground on the streets of Beijing and sighed, but none of them was her habitat, but she felt that there were walls on all sides all the time.

So she went and she went.She never looked back to remind you of "Don't Shoot White Swans".