Chapter 28 Thirteen

"The lonely city looks back at Cang Yanhe. Remember the time of singing, but not the season of return." —Su Dongpo "Poor! Yanmei!" Lin Yanmei thought to herself: "Why can't I remember this sentence anymore? Why is the score turned upside down? Good boy, don't miss it, it's a pity to think about it! Look at you who are so neat A neat and tidy girl, she sat in the grass for half a day and forgot? She was so dazed, just sitting and watching the spring, the wild flowers and grass seeds should be all over her shoes and socks!" She thought and stood up hurriedly. Get up, don't you!When did this body have such a white gauze dance dress, it was covered with fragrant and prickly grass seeds!

"Forget it!" She thought again: "This grass seed can't be shaken off, let it stick to your body, it's so exquisite, clean and beautiful!" Suddenly she thought that she was out of her mind here, and said something alone Babbling, picking grass seeds, and shaking clothes, I don't know if someone is peeking behind the scenes!Thinking about it, I blushed.Looking back to see where there are people, I saw that the hills are covered with fragrant grass, which is endless.The white clouds drifted gently across the sky, reflecting the faint shadows in a clear lake at the foot of the mountain intentionally or unintentionally.Spring is like washing, and spring is about to drip.

She took a look and fortunately no one was peeping or overhearing, but she still couldn't let it go.She sat on the grass again and thought about it carefully: "What kind of nonsense did you just say? How could you accidentally remember that you are afraid of being overheard, and your heart is beating like this?" She thought about it, her thoughts fluttered and she couldn't concentrate, but her eyes only lingered on the parts of her well-proportioned and beautiful body, and she couldn't bear to move them away.She hated that there was no one here, and how many joyful and melancholy feelings filled her heart, but no one could tell them!No one can enjoy such a beautiful and picturesque spring scene together, and no one is blessed to enjoy such a sweet affection.Every second of beautiful time is wasted!

"If someone is here, if he hides there, or here, behind the clumps of flowers and plants, if he likes to peek at me, he likes to eavesdrop on these little things, he can't bear to come out in front of me and wake me up What if he has overheard what he whispered to himself just now?" She was so frightened that she put her hands on her chest and thought. "Bah!" She spat lightly: "Just listen to it! What can he do? This is what I said for fun, so I'm not afraid that he will listen! I didn't say it to him! Who told him Overhear? "Who can he tell? There is no evidence!" She thought and smiled slyly. "If he is unreasonable, I will blame him! Yes! I will blame him!

"I'm unreasonable? I'm unreasonable! I'm only allowed to be unreasonable, but he doesn't allow it. I've never seen anyone come here to reason with me. "It's such a beautiful spring, if I play with him, he will reason with me? It's really unreasonable! Why am I sitting here messing with him? I'll go over there to the lakeside mountain. No one here with him What a waste of time! "But if you sit here without moving, you've got your whole body covered in grass, and if you walk across such a wide patch of grass, wouldn't your dress be dragged all over?

"If I could fly over gently, wouldn't it be clean and refreshing to touch the tip of the grass with my toes? How good would it be if I flew over like the shadow of a white cloud? "Then it's good that there are no shoes and socks on the feet." She thought about looking down, her feet were not naked! "It's funny, I didn't realize it was barefoot all day long! "If you can't fly, it's okay to walk over. Since you are a person, you can't fly. If you fly by, you won't taste the grass. I will walk through this piece of flowers and plants. Let them hook my clothes with concern , rubbing my shins. These tickling little things!

"The mountains over there are so beautiful, and the scenery behind them is also beautiful! The surroundings are beautiful. Where should I go? "Wherever I go, there is warm and soft grass everywhere. The mountains are beautiful, and they look even better when reflected in the lake. I also go to the water's edge to take my own reflection! "Hey! Don't hide there, do you want to come out and go with me? If you don't come out now and wait a while, I will ignore you! Don't come out suddenly to scare me. I will run, I run so light and fast, I can run without making a sound! I'm running now!

"Who is that naughty shadow on the mountain? He runs so fast? You naughty boy, what are you doing on the mountain alone? Where have they all gone? You are naughty on the mountain alone? The place? "He likes small animals. I see. Did you come here to provoke those little squirrels and sparrows? Do you still play with hares or bees? You are a little wild animal too!" "Listen! Listen! He sings too! He sings so melodiously! "It's not he who sings, here! It's in the clouds! Smaller than a swallow, faster than a swallow! The sound of the song fell on the lake! It must be a skylark! What kind of skylark is it? It flies so high! Look!" Can't see! I'll sing you many songs! 'Listen! Listen! Lark' 'Listen! That beautiful lark song!' But I haven't seen you! When will you come down? I'll let you fall into my hands , your little paws must be very thin? Would you turn your head to look at me? Let's be friends!

"There is someone chasing me! Why can't I see him? I have to run, I think someone is chasing me! I run so fast! Can you catch me? You see, I'm almost flying on the top of the grass! The wind blows again Send me gently! "What is the name of the goddess of the mountain? What is the name of the goddess of the hunt? How beautiful are they, and are they also dressed in white? They are fast enough to catch the golden shadow of the sun. My ankles are as fast as a wild deer! "He must be far behind! But I can't wait for him! He's so bad that he might jump out of nowhere and catch me. I can't stop, I'm going to run faster.

"Look at the weird look of that kid on the mountain! He keeps his hands behind his back and keeps his head down! I'm here, but he doesn't look back! Is he secretly laughing at me for daydreaming? "You just leave me bored? Won't you come and play with me? Then fuck you, I'll sit by the lake by myself. I'll sing, blow the song into the water bubbles, and then blow the water into the bubbles." Go to the middle of the lake. "I'll just sit down by the lake. I won't get tired of running, but I'm tired of running. Why can't I just sit? I don't want to play with you, you are a child, and the hare and the bee are enough .What a good boy!

"What? Where did you go? Why is there a church here? Didn't you see it just now? Where did your heart go? Maybe it's not a church. It's built in such a beautiful place without people? Maybe it is A blockhouse in which an ancient king was imprisoned, poor king! "Maybe it's about an infatuated princess who waits steadfastly for the prince to come to fetch her on a white horse! Look at the long window, where she leans all day long, looking through the gray stone with her tear-filled eyes. See this fine meadow on the wall come up! Poor princess! "What song was that line I was thinking of? Right now, I seem to be thinking a little bit: 'I should read my eyes all day long...'? No! How could it be this memory blowing Xiao on the Phoenix Stage! "I reckon it'd be better if it was a church. If it's a church, I'll go in. I won't come out if I go in. I'll go in now! "I'm dying! Ouch! Why are you hiding here, grab me!" "You don't care where I'm going! Let go! We're not friends and I won't talk to you! I haven't recognized you since I walked out of the ambulance station at West Station that day! "I never thought you would have such an air! You don't need to ask me. Don't make me look down on you! I won't play with you, and you can't play. You are a poor man, and your blood has been sucked dry by those dead books. You have spent your whole life working hard, and you have come to such an end! "You're a good man, and you're smart. But you're not smart, you're far worse than my sister! Really, a school can produce such two different kinds of people! "Ah! Don't make me cry too. How can you cry! Are you sick today? Why do you have such a pitiful look? Don't worry, I didn't scold you, why would I scold you? You come! You Sit down right next to me! Let me wipe your tears with my gauze dress, look how soft it is! Do you like it? Don’t you cry? Really, seeing such a decent person with thick eyebrows and big eyes Land, hot teardrops rolled out, really screaming My heart is also sour! "I'll take a break when you get close! I won't speak. You really should take a break. I'm afraid you haven't had a good rest for a minute in your whole life, even counting your sleep time! "Don't be sad, you are a good boy! You are a big boy! Don't be brave! You cry just like your younger brother! Fortunately, you arrived quickly! You were one step late. After I entered that church, you were crying hoarsely outside. Throat, I also heard you disappeared! "Ah! Blame me for not being good enough to scare you again! Aren't I here right here? Why don't we go into the hall? I didn't go, I didn't go, I won't go, I won't go. Call You have a good rest, you are disobedient again! "Just rest like this. I won't go, I won't go anywhere. I'll sit with you, watch you, and guard you! "I'll tell you what you want to hear. Ask me to say: You're a good man, I understand you. They don't understand you? Don't they? They don't understand you! Ignore them. I understand you, I'm with you You, you are next to me, in my arms, on my heart. You are on my heart. I have a little nest in my heart, and you just grow a little bit bigger, squatting there, sleeping there , It’s comfortable not to move at all! The eyes are still closed like this. "Me? I'm comfortable too. I want you to live as a good person in my heart. You live in my heart, and I'm outside! I'm not afraid of the wind, I'm not afraid of the rain, I'm not afraid of wolves, and I'm not afraid of ghosts." Don't be afraid. Just rest. I will deal with them! "Yes. That's it! You rested well, and I felt like I was resting. Slowly, I recovered. It's so good. We'll play happily again later. There's no one else in this area, It's all ours! "You can play, I know you can play. I will play with you. How can you say that you can't play? Such a smart person can't play? Who can believe it? I don't believe it. "Why are you so anxious again? How could I love him? Did I tell you that I loved him? Good boy, I have never loved anyone. I only love you, and no one else has touched my heart Yes! They are just like the grass on the ground, you are the sun in the sky. I have never even thought about them! They can only look up to see me, how dare they have anything to do? But I looked up to see And you! "Stupid boy! Why are you so confused? I was nice to him, but who did I have a hard time with? I must push you away and make you understand! If you can't think about it, it will become a disease if it accumulates in your heart! I How is being nice to him different from how I am being nice to grass, bugs, and ants! Look at how tired you are! If you want to cuddle in your arms, stop saying such stupid things! I listen I really ignore you when I'm angry! "You don't even think about it, is that called being able to play? That's a movie star, a hero in a movie, how far is it from a buffoon in life? What's the value of him being on stage with me? Blame me? Didn’t you still write poems to praise? He sang and I danced. playful. "He is a star, you are a saint, and you are my master. I respect you and worship you. I burn incense and sing praises to you. I want to present flowers to you, but if you are willing to pay attention, I will replace myself Flowers are presented. How dare I accept a word of thanks from you? I am willing to let Ken take me in. I like it so much that I turn into ashes. I feel that the whole body is full of glory, and I am all yours! "Tell me! Are you willing to accept it? Are you accepting it? Do you want me or not? "What about him? He's not a bad guy. You're very smart, of course you understand. He's gifted with good looks and a good personality. Could it be that he's hurting him? He's just inferior to you. He's upright and noble. Just now I blamed me for my poor use of words. On the stage His art should not be underestimated! Your poems are so much better than mine, I don't need to say more. I wish him a bright future and good results. "He misses me, that's a natural thing. Anyone misses me. But I'm under your throne now. No one can get close to me. You didn't find me, I begged you to take me in. I will never Will go. Seriously, what kind of panic did you become just now! If you say an adult, you are really an adult, and if you say a child, you are really a child! Don’t be ashamed, and you will be jealous! When you are jealous, you will become jealous! "It's no wonder you are over-hearted. He is very affectionate to me. He seems to have always been on me, but he is unpredictable. It was after I played with him that day, he came to beg me to love him. It's really messed up. I don't know what to say. Where can I be so rash? It's not a drama, and it's not a novel! Besides, I was told that he has no true love, but how many girls really love him. If you must say that he has true love Love, then it comes in a hurry and goes quickly. It seems true, but it is false when you think about it! "Think about it, how can he hold my heart? Why can't I see your true affection! If you don't like a word, you will die! "I hate to explain it to you; I've never compared you to anyone, I've never measured you with a scale or a ruler. You are unique, you are absolute, you are eternal. "My dearest, it's all right now. Let me go. Look at the twigs and grass leaves. They are all entangled in my hair. Can you be a more obedient child, quietly and slowly for me? Pick it! I want to do this. I love to mess up my green hair in the grass. You pick it and I rub it. Can you say you don’t want to pick it? Can you bear to take your hands away from my hair? ! "You've never been so gentle. Fortunately, I never believed that you were really not gentle. "If you do another good thing, you allow me to talk like a child, don't scold me? You don't want to be tricky! What do you mean you never dare to make me happy? You don't want to force me? "I not only want you to allow me to speak, I also want you to listen. It's not so tame like a lamb. Because you are not a sheep, but a colorful tiger. I want you to refuse to listen I have to listen carefully. I want you to listen to me in order to please me! I want you, a tiger, to lie in front of me and let me snuggle up to keep me warm. Because I know that you are really happy when I am happy, don’t you think? "Okay! Listen. What a happy character you are! What my mirror says is never false. Who can say that my face is not as good as spring flowers? How many people's hearts are rippling for me, but I prefer Can you come and sit next to me? "But I'm not a flower. I have a heart, and I have a melancholy. I think life is like a prose poem, or a lyric. It's here, in my heart. It doesn't have to be some great work that can touch people's hearts through the ages." , but it must be reconciled. "I'm afraid that my song is a bit rough and a bit tortured. Maybe it's because this topic is so difficult and I always feel that it's not appropriate. I can't think of its words, and I can't get its rhyme right. It just sticks in my throat, half a sentence , Three beats and two beats, I can't be comfortable and relaxed, and my temperament is like this, I can't be easy-going, rarely satisfied, and often unhappy. "But although I can't say it, I clearly feel that sooner or later I will meet an opportunity and sing it out. The rhythm must be fluent, but it must be singing my soul, my only life, Vomiting my blood, because it came out of my heart. I can't help but feel the weight of emptiness, the endless loneliness. "Although I couldn't compose this song today, after talking about these tasks, I was suddenly excited, and my heart was exhausted, and my breath was so short that I swallowed my breath! "When I mention fatigue, I will suddenly feel depressed and haggard. Now it's time for you to lean on me and let me close my eyes and rest. Your body should be as strong and strong as my heart, enough to hold me Such a little dove comes to perch. Let me perch on your breast, shelter from the storm, and cross the river. "I remember when I was young, my mother was often afraid that I would be shaken out of my body by a sudden passion. She always hoped that I would grow up quickly, but I felt that the more I grew up, the more I grew up. The more I want to go back to that sensitive childhood. When I was a little girl, I could see the sorrow and joy in my mother's heart from the color of her clothes, and I could hear her blessings to me from the sound of the stream. I believe that in the world They are all happy, and I think the villains are all deliberately pretending to be bad. "I think I'm probably a little fairy, and slowly I'll grow a pair of little wings." "Once my mother was sitting in front of the piano and composing a piece of music. I used to hide behind the piano. I got out and threw myself into her arms when she was composing it carefully. She was surprised, put her arms around me and said: 'I I thought it was an elf of music!' I thought it was an elf of music." "But now I've grown up. I'm a grown girl. I don't want to be an elf or a fairy anymore. I not only want to be an ordinary person, have the happiness of an ordinary person, but also have the happiness of an ordinary person." Grief. I don't want to spread my wings and go alone. Instead, I want to curl up in a pair of strong arms. My music is no longer a melody of the heavenly palace. My soul is the music, and my body is the words. I sing to those who can A person who knows how to listen, if he understands, I will not be empty or lonely. "I don't want to proudly hide the hunger and thirst in my heart, but I hope to be soft, complain, and cry in front of my good friend." "My good man, my good friend, my teacher, my elder brother, I am not afraid that you will despise me, I want you to take pity on me, listen to me, and I want you to love me." "I don't care if you look down on me or not, I've laid it all out before your eyes! I've spoken out my weaknesses that I've never revealed to anyone, and I've expressed my deepest desires. Let me Look at you, can you not be tempted? Can you not feel pity? Can your heart be soft? You have listened to my most precious words, how will you repay me! "I'll allow you to put your arms around me. But don't move any more. I can see your eyes! Is your heart hurting from loving me? As if on fire? Oh! Really! I can't bear it, why did you pretend to be a tough guy in the first place! "I just sat alone on the grass, neither happy nor depressed. I just want to talk to someone, where were you then? I watched this beautiful spring alone, thinking about beauty I am a little excited and a little apprehensive about my life, I want to find someone to ask, where were you hiding at that time? "Later you came, and you suffered like that again. Why didn't you put on airs at first? I'm in your arms now, and I think this is my place, where I can rest. So you don't allow me to look at me like this, It makes me ashamed, and makes me want to run away. "Just now I hated you for being stupid, hating you for not loving me. Now I hate you for being bold. "You dare to move! Pity me, let me rest. I will not allow you to move any more. Even though you are a saint, I don't worry about you, I think you are unreliable! "Ah! You are a small tree that lacks sunlight, thin and timid. I shouldn't have reprimanded you with too strong a word, making you cringe. But how can I allow you to salivate at me like that? See me Heartbeat, dry mouth, flushed face, hot ears? "You don't! You dare! You completely misunderstand me! How can you not listen to me? You killed someone! You tiger, you really want to eat me! My good man! My good friend! Teacher! My lover ? Are you real or fake? Is this a real dream? Tell me, you are not bullying me! "I once made a wish for you. I prayed reverently that God would leave you with these rosy lips. I protect her more than my life. I only do it for you. I hate you for not knowing it! "Look at me carefully; can such a girl satisfy you? Satisfy you who are fastidious and blameful? My only hope is to make you happy, tell me if I can? Here are my arms, let me Use them to hold you tightly to my chest, and let them form a white halo on your forehead. Because you, a saint, are not complete without this circle of clear light. "My lover, is it true? I am so happy? Thank God for giving me such a blissful time. Say it again: You are true! You are not a dream!"