Chapter 17 Eight (below)

She thinks of Qiao Qianyin most often, and she thinks of her convalescing in the Western Hills of Kunming alone. On the one hand, she feels miserable and pitiful, but on the other hand, she also thinks that she has good fortune to enjoy, and she often feels that her illness must make her treat her like she has entered a monastery. Good thing, she must have a clearer view of life.From Qiao Qianyin's body, she only dared to think about this point and dared not think about it any further.Because she is healthy and happy after all.She also has fantasies, and many illusory things to look forward to.She is not willing to be born, and does not intend to hide her name and become a cold-eyed outsider.She herself wants to be lucky enough to be assigned a lucky role on this stage.Once she is dispatched, she hopes that the good times will last forever and that time will not change.

She is a wise person, and this illusory infatuation will not last long.So the cold wind and rain woke her up immediately.She was depressed again.She exchanged joy and sorrow like this. Recently, in the summer camp, the girls often saw the newly married Shen Jian accompanied by Mr. Jin, who is obedient and considerate in every way, like a master and a father.In order to be my classmate and teacher, I often talk freely in the dormitory.Of course, the whereabouts of Shen Jian should be considered very good.But Lin Yanmei thought differently.She felt that it was strange and reconciled; if she married a good husband, she would be envied by others, but if she married a bad husband, she should be pitied by others. Where did the girl's own identity go?Enrich yourself, cultivate yourself, work hard and be careful all these years, just for this one thing?Just for this one thing?

On the day of Shen Jian's wedding, many of them went to help and had wedding wine.She felt as if we were going to a picnic together, or to some party together.Although we may not go together when we go, we must come back together when we come back.And as usual, everyone must talk and laugh without scruples on the way back.But this time is different.When he came back, Shen Jian was gone.Even Shen Jia can't stay in the new house!Shen Jian was sent to another world alone.They can't talk or laugh when they come back.Because it was not someone else who was talking about but one of my own sisters.They couldn't bear to talk, couldn't bear to laugh, because they were too concerned about the impact of this transition on their sisters.Is it a curse or a blessing?Not yet known!

Even if it is a blessing, it can't make up for this arrogance, this girl's arrogance. "Mrs. So-and-so!" This name, which I love and choose by myself, often unavoidably arouses a little bit of aggrieved feeling because it has replaced my girl's first and last name.When it comes time to learn to love his friends and tolerate his relatives, he can't help but think of his own flesh and blood who are getting farther and farther away.Then I found out that the value paid was too great. Shen Jian's whereabouts are not good either.Qiao Qianyin's whereabouts are not good either.The two of them didn't show off their status so much among their classmates, so maybe everyone was content.However, she has made her unwilling for them.What should happen to her herself?

Where there is an entry, there must be an end.How about not playing at all?Descartes said: "I think, therefore I am!" Once you are there, you can't think about it, and it is too late.Where there is a meeting, there is a dispersion.Only then did I feel that it was too late to avoid the pain of being scattered during the joyous gathering.Today is the "Cultural Secret Envoy", protected by a military officer, what about tomorrow?Today is my younger sister, Lin Yanmei, who is hurt by her older sister.What about tomorrow?What an illusion life is! She is not careless.She is not only willing to study carefully, but also accepts other people's opinions with an open mind.She also knows how to enrich life and what is the meaning of life from the thoughts of sages and the lectures of teachers.However, she is too young and precocious.Before such a sound mind was developed, and before she could understand the true value of these dogmas, the melancholy, sentimental, intoxicating, and beautiful mood of the world took possession of her.Life itself is meaningless.And what a person accomplishes in his life gives life meaning.Life itself is empty and insignificant.The exploits he has done enrich him and give him identity.A life with goals is a tree with roots, and a life without goals is duckweed without roots.A life with merit is like water power that generates electricity.A life without rewards is like a flooding torrent.When a person with a mission dies, he feels that it is a relief and a vacation.Only those who are drunk and dreaming of death think it is a dream.When the selfish man dies, he realizes that he can take nothing away from this world.Lin Yanmei can fully understand these.She once advised Qiao Qianyin: "We all should live well until we die." However, this bit of philosophical cultivation could not cure her own depression.Never was able to hold her life firmly!

This may be an unavoidable problem and a difficulty for young people in turbulent times.Whether you can pass it or not is a matter of Jixi, but its impact is so serious that it is as close as a hair in the nick of time!After this level, they parted ways.In the future, we will go farther and farther apart! An era like now is too unusual, everything is in turmoil.Things in the world are changing too quickly and too strangely, without giving young people a time to think, analyze, and understand, the scene has changed again.Looking at this ever-changing phenomenon before my eyes, what eternal creed can I keep in my heart?

This psychological uneasiness is very unfavorable to the young in education, and it is equally unfavorable to any sentient being.Some people get good luck by doing things recklessly, while others get disaster by being cautious and following the rules.These personal interests are not cared for by noble and ambitious people, so we can ignore them.When it comes to passionate and ambitious people, they are shocked by this great change, and suddenly feel their own insignificance. A grain of fine sand that was washed faintly.I was just about to start something, but a simple change of things might turn the whole thing over!

There is a difference between an idiot and a madman.Idiots are still water.Mad Men are torrents.There is heat in the heart of the lunatic.Smart people, anxious people, and brave people are qualified to be lunatics.This kind of passionate young people have this kind of depression that can't be shouted or beaten. How much difference is there between their sadness and idiots who have no one to comfort them? It is not that there is no way before them.However, the rosy clouds in the far high places are very attractive and gorgeous.Their eyes are far away, but their feet are near.Shouting indiscriminately, fingering indiscriminately.Yunxia still couldn't reach it, and she was hurt all over by tripping over the rocks on the ground.

I saw a natural disaster somewhere in the newspaper.Immediately draw a picture of the scene of mourning in the mind.I also thought that there was still war there, and I thought that the society around me was not healthy, and I thought that there was nothing good in the whole world.Immediately become an assassin?Become a soldier now?Can't finish killing all kinds of enemies!Immediately go to disaster relief?Donate all your money at once?The disaster reported in tomorrow's report is still serious. The books are lost!Eight years after graduating from medical school, the patient is already dead; leave school!What is the use of studying when our fellow human beings are in dire straits?Our young people have tears on their cheeks and worry in their hearts.When he was still in his twenties, he would not speak or smile, his nerves were weakened, and he was prematurely aging.

Do not laugh!A face that does not smile cannot retain youth.Do not laugh!A person who doesn't smile cannot stay healthy. It is easy for young people to jump off rocks, but it is too difficult for them to bury their heads in a tortuous and unavoidable detour.This truth is not easy for them to understand.When they really understand, life has already paid half the price.So we still have to watch these smart, passionate children, first running without knowing where to go, and then watching them wailing and being hit, and then!Then, maybe die young! What a pity life! Tell him: How about doing a little thing instead of dying like this?Pick up a gun to defend justice; stretch out a hand to rescue the weak, or just consider yourself dead and dedicate yourself to the research of an unpopular academic.It's better than dying for nothing.Yet such dissuasion can only be understood by the dispassionate bystander.Depressed parties are unacceptable.

So he died young.His early death was a sin, a liability.But how can we bear to blame! People who are too smart are extremely distressed.Worldly happiness cannot feed him.Worldly fame cannot confuse him.At the same time, like no big fish in clear water, he is naturally close to the religious thoughts of liberation, and it is not easy for him to walk into the path of prudence, slowness, slow fire, experience, hard work, and activeness.They tend to ask: "Why do people live?" The smarter the child, the greater the danger. "Live to enjoy," "Live to live." Of course, this is not an answer. "To live is to have a great mission!...for the whole world and for all mankind!" "Then why should all mankind live? Why should the whole world exist?" Such a turbulent world, such a longing for dryness and relief, makes many gifted children feel that life is really like a play.True or false. Now that the playful life is on the stage, don't be complacent, and find an end early.If you can really invite God to favor you, you end up early, but you can't help but feel that life is like a dream, full of fiction and reality. I don't know how many students in the school have thoughts like Lin Yanmei's.When you are usually in good spirits, you can not be harassed by it for a while.But after working extremely intensely, when you are tired and drowsy, you will think: "Why am I here?" Sometimes they also think of letting go and dying, which is really the most worry-free thing!What is there to miss?emotion?It ended up being nothing.Fame, merit?It's better to let Gao Ming!Is there anything you can't let go of?Is there anything that must be done?What's more, someone said: "Suicide is a negative expression of great ambition!" As long as this kind of thought rushes into one's health line once, then there will always be a struggle between the haze and the sunshine in the heart.The old happiness, the old tranquility can never be restored. It is really difficult to run education in such a period, not to mention leading students to deepen their basic knowledge training, but it is not easy to detain this group of little thugs in the campus.I remember when the school was preparing to build a school in Kunming in Changsha, a group of students with eager faces ran to the school authorities and shouted: "We don't want to build any more universities! We want education in extraordinary times!" "Yes! Education in extraordinary times!" They were finally quieted down.The school replied to them: "We don't know what education is in the extraordinary period. The reason why we are here today, and we have this extraordinary period to torture us, is because our 'regular education' has not been done well!" How can such words fall into the hearts of people at that time and at that age?The school authorities had no choice but to ignore these, and only followed the government's established national policy to continue running regular education.Over the past four to five years, more than 60 state-run colleges and universities have been established across the country.Lost students are reabsorbed back.Of course, regular education also fulfills many selfish purposes.But it is not enough to be a disease of education.No one knows that education is bound to survive and survive the country.Only the enemy comes to destroy our education. Often education is like digging for gold and jade, there should be no chaos and no rush.It is more difficult for those who do it than before.Students are not appeased, impatient and impatient.The society has published irresponsible criticism out of context.Who remembers this painstaking effort on the day of success in cultivating people for a hundred years? This is actually a good example in front of us. This is a mission called life enrichment.However, young people are so irritating, either they understand it too early, or they understand it too late.I really want to catch them and beat them up. Just pick them up slowly, pick them up slowly, they are not stupid, and they are kind-hearted.The day of becoming an unyielding, unyielding, not fragile, and not coquettish talent will eventually come, but how grueling the day is! Consciously or unconsciously, students grow up slowly in classrooms, in games, in group life, and in solitary contemplation.It was slowly built up.A small sapling always needs to be raised in the nursery for a period of time.The saplings have to go through wind and frost.This wind and frost is as important as rain and snow.They will eventually become big trees that can rest and reassure people. We have seen people drop out of school due to economic oppression.Some gave up because of health problems, and some were weak and couldn't support it to the end.However, this is only after doing everything possible, let him take it easy.Thinking of it this way, a little bit of sentimentality and a little bit of worry really shouldn't be a problem, maybe it can help this journey.Such feelings are inevitable.Since ancient times, heroes and any one who has extraordinary qualities must also have his extraordinary loneliness. Lin Yanmei didn't want to infect the sadness in her heart to these happy and noisy girls, so she changed their smiling faces into gloom.She really couldn't think of suitable words to make a noise together.I can't think about the eternal mystery of her joys and sorrows.At this time, someone came up and said, "Yanmei! Someone downstairs asked Dayu; Dayu went out for a walk, so he must look for Mrs. Yu! Do you think it's strange!" The people who listened were all stunned, and she thought that if she didn't go down quickly, she might make a fuss all over the city by him.Angry and anxious, she blushed and ran down in a hurry, and saw a villager with a big bag in one hand and a letter in the other.His face turned purple and he was arguing with someone.He held the letter tightly in his hand and held on tightly.He shouted: "Mr. Yu, I met him. We remember his wife clearly. I'll sit here and wait for him!" "Stop arguing." Lin Yanmei walked up helplessly and said, "What's the matter?" This sentence really worked.Immediately he didn't dare to make any more trouble, and called out politely: "Mrs. Yu." He put the cloth bag on the ground and handed over the letter with both hands.Lin Yanmei frowned, reached out to take the letter, read it, folded it up, and said, "Is this the package?" "Yes!" He picked up the bag again: "Where is it delivered? Ma'am!" "I just can't stop shouting!" Lin Yanmei said, "I'll lift it myself!" She reached out to catch it, but it was too heavy, and she couldn't help but put it on the ground again: "Come with me." The young farmer agreed and called his wife to follow her.The classmates who were watching were puzzled and did not dare to interrupt.Seeing that Lin Yanmei didn't look at anyone, it was difficult for anyone to ask questions.Go to the stairs.Lin Yanmei took the bag and said, "Just wait here!" It happened that Wu Baosheng and the others saw that Lin Yanmei hadn't come back for a long time, so they went downstairs to take a look, and helped her carry it upstairs.She didn't have time to explain to others, so she asked Shen Jia to go downstairs to get the clothes from the exhibition.Wu Baosheng helped her retrieve yesterday's bundle, wrapped her clothes, and unwrapped the bundle.drink!Two more beautiful loose folk clothes, one set of men's clothes and one set of women's clothes.The clothes inside and out are all new.Pack the furoshiki with this pack.I wrote a receipt, took out some money, went downstairs and handed over the bag of clothes I used yesterday to bring back with a letter.As soon as the reward was about to be given, he ran away.Can't even catch up. He just ran out the door, and after a while, Yu Mengqin came to meet him.Lin Yanmei was so angry that she scolded him: "You won't come back sooner! Director Zhuang gave each of us a set of casual clothes. The letter is with me, show it to you!" Yu Mengqin didn't think it was strange when he heard this, but read it She looked as if she was angry with someone.It's not easy to ask, just listen.At this time, everyone has almost guessed.They were asked to exhibit the newly delivered clothes. The materials and workmanship were much more refined than the borrowed ones.The chieftain's letter was also made public.There are not many words in it. During lunch, everyone was talking about the extraordinary experience of the "Cultural Secret Envoy" and the "Military Officer" with relish, waiting for the official meeting in the afternoon to listen to their reports, and then to watch the imitation of folk songs and dances.This report is known to be necessary.Lin Yanmei also probably drew up a draft in her mind.Of course she wanted to omit the section about using the couple's identity.Unexpectedly, before he had time to discuss with Dayu, he was exposed. After dinner, after a break, she and Dayu wrote the score.There are three in total.First, what the band played, this is just a few of them.Second, everyone sang together with the snare drum, which was an episode in the four-person dance.The third is a small folk song imitating the main movement in the four-person dance.This one will be performed by Lin Yanmei.The remaining two chapters and the report are entirely in the charge of Yu Mengqin. Mr. Gu acted as the chairman and announced the opening of the meeting.He only said a few words to tell everyone the process of going to the fire worship meeting this time, and the reason why he could not make it public in advance.After finishing speaking, Yu Mengqin will speak.Yu Mengqin got on the stage, opened his mouth, and his energy surged up.He talked and laughed happily, and he was both solemn and harmonious.After introducing the general situation of the place under the jurisdiction of the boss, he first pointed to the scattered clothes hanging on the wall and explained in detail.For example, the source of the pattern, the way of wearing, and the difference in identities expressed by the clothing, and the Han people never had the opportunity to participate secretly, they even had to use the name of husband and wife, etc.For a long time, I haven't talked about worshiping fire. "He really said it!" said the little boy.He was sitting next to Lin Yanmei and Wu Baosheng in the first row. Yu Mengqin's eloquence is so good.It was just one night. Based on his own observations and bits and pieces of knowledge he got from Mr. Li's explanation, he organized it, arranged it in categories, added some vivid descriptions, and it became a special speech.It sounds kind and delicious. The chieftain's house, history, and the environment of the fire festival have all been mentioned.The performance started, and each song had a long, very detailed introduction.A harmonica is like a band, and with the help of his oral description, everyone seemed to accept his explanation unconditionally. Lin Yanmei went to the back to change clothes.Wu Baosheng took the explained clothes to her from the stage.Dayu is as usual, he doesn't need to change clothes.He is a musician again. Lin Yanmei changed her clothes and came out, her face radiant.Wu Baosheng deliberately put a little rouge on her, which made it more suitable for the rich colors of the embroidery.This time she sang and danced.The lyrics are made up by them: "Growing highland barley on Liangyu Mountain, There are many scattered people at the foot of Liangyu Mountain, There are beauties in Sanmin village, There are as many people asking for help as ants. Someone brought a gold necklace to practice, Someone sent a hundred-acre field, Good land, gold and silk are empty, How can love be given by money? " Repeat these two sections twice.The tune is the same, and Lin Yanmei is really like that girl from scattered people. When she sang: "Love can't be given by money", she still rolled her eyes and turned her mouth away! "The east wind blows through the flowers, Summer clouds are like snowdrifts in front of the mountains, Seeing his car rushing like a tide, Good water also needs to irrigate the fields well. People say he is stupid but he is not stupid, The red sun is hot and sweaty, Snowflakes and silver accumulate after autumn, I bought green pine and tiles. Green pine pillars can endure for a long time, The tile house is repaired without worrying about the rain, Working hard every year in the city, There are pieces of utensils in the house. Who cares about the poor? Once the tall buildings rise from the ground! Who knows if you are full of mental arithmetic? The Cowherd also lied to the Weaver Girl! " The tone of these four measures is first raised and then lowered.Like a dark cloud, covering the summer! "Growing highland barley in front of Liangwang Mountain, After Liangwang Mountain, there are many good dreams. Think she should be in her teens this year? Don't delay marrying her this autumn! Highland barley is planted in front of Liangwang Mountain, After Liangwang Mountain, there are many good dreams. No matter how many suitors he has, She thinks of me when she looks in the mirror! " Then the tempo suddenly changes: "Girls should marry without delay Someone in my heart can't force and don't back the words Don't say I have a contract Don't come this year and wait for next year, Wait until the river is dry, Don't wait until you die! Believe it or not, your heart will change! " The following piece of music was originally joined by many people at the fire worship meeting.Suddenly a person jumped onto the stage.Everyone saw that it was Xiao Tong, and he also jumped in time. Lin Yanmei was directly opposite him, and when she stopped with her left foot, he also stopped with his left foot.He raised his head and smiled: "Ha! Ha!" He slammed his right foot again, and Lin Yanmei slammed his right foot, and they both lowered their heads and smiled: "Ha! Ha!" They joined hands and turned around twice. .Dance together and join a man, this folk song is very realistic, the steps are simple, the lyrics are simple, it is really only suitable for clear narration, and it is impossible to show these aliens from symbols to know the legends of their scattered people. However, Xiaotong jumped onto the stage.Lin Yanmei was startled at first, and then recovered.Dayu, who was playing the harmonica next to him, almost forgot the tune!It's like a play, and it's like a play within a play.Lin Yanmei sang again: "Love is gold, gold is earth, Youth is a flower, and the flower has an owner, Separating the crowd and going with him, Joy is worth three years of suffering. " When the singing is over, the dancing stops.They bowed down. Yu Mengqin took his time and described the true feelings of the fire worship meeting at that time.It is only then that the dance is supposed to end like this; at the same time, the audience can rush onto the stage as a rejected suitor.They laughed together, feeling that the scattered people's attitude was very happy. Lin Yanmei came down and asked the boy, "Did Yu ask you to come up?" "I found the Fire Worship Society by myself." He said, "This little journey is really nothing to me!" These two sentences aroused everyone's surprise.Dayu also came down to listen.Everyone gathered around.Xiaotong asked everyone to be anxious for a long time before he said it. After he heard Dayu's words last night, he went to the village to borrow a short suit after dinner.After changing there, I followed the path up the mountain and searched for it.It was getting dark, and it was already here.He not only saw the scene where Lin Yanmei and Dayu were present, but also watched the beginning and end of the fire worship meeting.He told everyone.He also talked about a scene performed by Yu Mengqin and Lin Yanmei. Shang Yanmei stared at him with wide eyes.The small mouth was opened roundly, and the face was full of surprise and eagerness to listen.Xiaotong also said that he walked back slowly by himself, and he was still reviewing the songs he learned at the meeting along the way, for fear of forgetting.Went to the lake and swam for a while.It's cold and I don't want to sleep.It was dawn at that time, and he thought that everyone in the village must have woken up, so he simply changed his clothes, slept there for a while, and came back when he couldn't sleep, and it was only when the wake-up call had just blown. "It was only later that I heard everyone talking about the wake-up call not blowing in order to let you, the 'Cultural Secret Envoy', sleep peacefully," he said to Lin Yanmei. This long passage is amazing!Everyone was already full of questions, and now they have more talking materials, and they can't talk clearly at night.They also called Xiaotong a "cultural spy." Some people objected that he was not an enemy, and the word "spy" was not a good word.So someone said: "Look at how easy he is flying around, let's call him "communication pigeon". I like this name because he likes pigeons. Some people think that there was a famous French communication pigeon in the first European war." The story of this pigeon, named Cher Ami, who once flew high into the air, escaped the bullets that were fired at him, brought the news to the friendly army, and rescued a serious siege.The person who proposed this name said: "We and the scattered people are of flesh and blood. The disparity in force is often an obstacle to friendship. The boy flew over and brought back the news of safety. The obstacle did not hurt him, so this name is most suitable. " "Cher Ami" is French.The translation is: "lovely friend" or "kind friend".They often call the little boy: "Hi! Dear friend!" or: "Hi! My lovely friend!" "Lovely Friends" are for everyone.He makes friends with enthusiasm and sincerity, but also with carelessness and negligence, and even more with mischief and ridicule.He has many friends.And one is one. Xiaotong's friends love him, and they love him for no reason.When they became friends with him, they never thought: "He will be promising in the future." They also never thought: "After making a friend like Xiao Tong, they will rely on him in the future." In the future, they would only think: "Xiao Tong has been gone for many years. I don’t know how he’s doing now?” Or: “It’s so much more fun when we have kids at our parties now.” Or when you meet an obnoxious person and think, “Such a person can’t even dream of knowing how cute kids are.” I’ve been away from Xiaotong for a long time, and I haven’t met anyone like him again!” So ​​it’s already an achievement in friendship just to make people understand and appreciate the cuteness of this character and style.Summer camp is also a great time for socializing.A man's reputation at camp is his reputation at school.His reputation in school can almost be said to be his reputation as a man.In a group, let's say a summer camp, everyone should try to do well for themselves and should also try to help others, or at least give others a chance to do well.Putting yourself first, or even obstructing or slandering others, is a kind of inferiority complex. As a result, there will be no eggs under the table, and there will be no group life. Their life in this summer camp turned out to be very satisfactory, as if none of them paid attention to the friendship, and the friendship grew without knowing it.Everyone just enjoyed the friendship ignorantly, taking it for granted, until the end of the camp period, they realized that the two weeks of living together were golden. I'm going back to school tomorrow afternoon, so I'm going to come up with a game today, and all of them have to participate. Propose everything, throw an informal funfair.Picnic, swimming, boating, imitating a gathering of scattered people...  Everything is played well.As a result, a perfect solution was found.Go to the village and borrow a few boats from the villagers, prepare western food in Wan'an Temple, load the boat, sail across the lake, have a picnic and play on the sandy shore in the canyon over there.In the evening, a fire party-style entertainment will be held, and when the last quarter moon appears in the sky, they will cross Yangzonghai and come back. As soon as it is agreed, we will split up to do it; prepare things and borrow a boat.By noon, everything was done.Everyone carried their things to the lake to board the boat.Food, utensils, picnic sheets, bathing suits, musical instruments.It's like ants moving.There is an endless stream of people along the way.When people are gone, things are also moved.The empty house is entrusted to the monks in the temple to take care of it. Six boats were found for crossing the lake.Two of them are a little broken.The smaller one was removed, and only five were used.There are many people, and there must be no fewer boats.After getting on the boat, the boys who can sail the boat are evenly distributed among the five boats.At this time, a few students with good physical strength were very proud.Cai Zhongmian, Fan Kuanhu, Yu Mengqin, and Zhou Tiyu each jumped into a boat.Cai Zhongmian picked the broken one.Also had a good one empty.The banquet dragged Sang Yin's house for a while, and the two of them managed it together.Da Yan said: "Wait a minute when we get on board, we will all be able to get on the boat. The two of us can't take care of it." Everyone started to board the boat.The Liang sisters boarded their boat.Zhou Tiyu asked Fan Kuanyi, "Kuan Yi, which one do you want? Your brother's? Mine?" Everyone looked at her after hearing this.She felt that everyone noticed her, so she deliberately turned her head and thought for a while.Then he stepped onto Zhou Tiyu's boat like a famous actor on stage.Everyone smiled and boarded the boat casually. Lin Yanmei walked behind, it was time for her to board the boat.She asked, "Where's Cai Zhongmian? I'll get on his boat." Cai Zhongmian responded, "My boat is a dilapidated boat. The ground is rough and the wood is full of thorns, so it's not easy to sit on." "I'll change the boat with you," Fan Kuanhu said, "My boat is the newest." "I'm on the broken boat." The boy said, "I'm working with Fan Kuanhu." He was not good at using the pole and wanted to practice.So Fan Kuanhu jumped into Cai Zhongmian's boat, and Cai Zhongmian jumped into Fan Kuanhu's boat.Lin Yanmei followed Cai Zhongmian on board.The little boy followed Fan Kuan on the boat.The boats are white wooden boats.It won't sink even if turned over.Everyone got on the boat, put the poles off the shore, and propped up to the deep water so that they could pull up the mat tent and let the wind blow.At the same time, they also paddled and rowed with punt poles, doing all kinds of nonsense.There are even hands-on ones.However, although the five boats wanted to be the first, none of them could be faster.The noise made everyone hungry before walking to the center of the lake. There are also those who changed their clothes and went into the water to swim with the boat.There are also those who push the boat.There are also those who swim to the other side first.The lake is only four to five hundred meters wide.Many people have swum there.There are also people with good ability to play with the boat.Drilling around under the boat. The girls were the first to swim to the water by the sisters of the Liang family.Lin Yanmei wanted to change clothes and go into the water.Cai Zhongmian said, "Then why take my boat?" She didn't jump. Xiao Tong and Fan Kuanhu got impatient and jumped into the water to push.Their boat and Cai Zhongmian's arrived last.At that time, there was no one on the boy boat except the things it carried. "I have fully refunded the boat ticket and left!" The boy said from the water, "Boss Cai, your business is doing well!" "It's not too strong! Boss Tong! There are too many people and the water is heavy!" Cai Zhongmian said.He also pretended to ask Lin Yanmei and the others for the boat money.Each of them gave him a light slap on the palm, and it was considered payment. Everyone take things off the boat.Then drag each boat to the sandy shore until it is shallow.Then he went ashore, ate his meal first, and went to play separately.Some people sleep on the beach.Dayu climbed up the mountain by himself.Someone is logging there.He borrowed an ax to cut.Wu Baosheng accompanied Lin Yanmei to see him. The trees he felled were not as uniform as others.Those trees are green pines as thick as thighs.People only need to chop with an ax for a week.Then it fell over the other end of the axe and knocked, and the tree fell down with a "click!"There is a small pointed cone in the center of the cut trunk.The roots of the trees on the ground soon gave out rosin.The aroma is very strong, the color is light wood yellow, and there are circles of red annual rings.Then the twigs were pruned without a few axes. No matter how carefully Dayu felled the tree, sawdust would fly around, and the tip of the ax was covered with rosin.He didn't know the direction to cut down the trees, and sometimes only a little bit of wood remained.People still stand upright.Just add another axe, and you have to dodge in a hurry.Maybe it was falling on his own head! "I don't know if the tree hurts or not?" Lin Yanmei said, "The rosin coming out is really like blood! Thinking about it, it's very scary! Dayu, your ax is full of blood!" "It is said that in the past, executioners were very particular about executioners." Dayu said in an embarrassing way: "Some people will be guilty if they can't cut off their head with one knife. Because the prisoner can only be punished with one knife. So he dare not cut off the second head." Knife. Only sawing back and forth like this with a knife. I think the edge of the knife is like the edge of my ax!" "This kind of person doesn't pick and choose words!" Wu Baosheng said, "What good does it do you to scare my sister out of her mind?" "I won't cut it down," Dayu said.He returned the ax and thanked the woodcutter. "In fact, a tree is only useful if it is cut down. No matter who it is, it will be a little painful to be separated from the environment in which it grew up. However, it can only be useful if it is separated from the upbringing!" "It's a big topic again!" Lin Yanmei said, "Why do you give lectures and write books every day? At the same time, I don't agree with your statement. I think that if you have to do something, you can do it happily. You don't have to frown like you're taking bitter medicine!" "It's not such a simple thing!" Dayu said, "It's hard work, and it's hard to see the real kung fu in the joy! Some people are like leaves and branches. In winter, they still stay here and there. On the tree! Many people are like this. It’s not necessarily that they are greedy for ease and missed the journey of life, but that happy days are easy to live, "Laugh this year and next year, spring flowers and autumn moons will be leisurely!" When looking back on the years, they will cry bitterly Yes. Yanmei! Is this wrong? Essays on big topics are often readily available in daily life. If you don’t believe me, just pay attention to it at any time!” A little bit of loneliness that Lin Yanmei often felt in the bustling times was aroused by his words again.She had thought of these earlier.Although the lively scene will be bleak in the end, but how many young people can wake up alone in the laughter, and go on the road wearing the stars and the moon? "Laughing is easy," she knew, too.She just woke up from a dream, and the dream came again, unknowingly, she was always praying for the good times to last and the feast to last.She doesn't want to be a leaf on a branch of love, a seed that is rushed to fall, and after it has sprouted in early spring and wind and rain, she raises her face and laughs at her. "Let's go back!" She said sadly, then turned and walked down the mountain. "The following is a happy party!" Yu Mengqin added: "Actually, there are differences in these views. Some people regard their life as such a party. Some people regard summer camp as such a party. Some people regard silence as a relative understanding." Smile, it's a party. I'm not opposed to the party, but I want to wake up often, and at the same time, I can hold back my tears and just abandon Liang Yuan." "Yu Mengqin really doesn't know how to be considerate!" Wu Baosheng listened, thinking to himself: "Lin Yanmei is already too easy to find trouble. Why bother to ask her to say such things to her. Does she not understand anything? "Maybe Yu Mengqin has other ideas. Maybe this idea is common among male classmates. They only see her singing and dancing. At the same time, they are dazzled by her beauty, thinking that she is just a beautiful flower, an ignorant flower. How could they From knowing her inner life! How can they know the eternal loneliness that such a wise person feels in a moment! Therefore, they may even have pity in their love for her, and contempt in their envy! "Even they regard her outstanding achievements as the product of her cleverness. Or as her beautiful ornaments! Poor Yanmei! But they are even more pitiful!" "At this time, what can I say? Who knows if Yanmei's future will be chosen by them! It's up to people to plan things, and God to make things happen!" "The leaves of Lianzhi must be sick leaves!" Lin Yanmei suddenly said forcefully: "Leaf falling is the same as other natural phenomena. In spring, flowers bloom, flowers fall and bear fruit. The leaves will naturally fall off their stems when they are ripe. Only picking too early is painful. It hurts. The autumn leaves swayed with the wind, and the mood must be happy. I am still happy. A green leaf should desperately grow to the way a green leaf should grow, and press a green leaf子该做的事做。如果他在年青时是一个好年青人，中年时也必能是个好中年人。迟延固然是不对的，夭亡也不应该！” “你没有错，燕梅！”伍宝笙听了感动地说：“神明常住在你心上！你慢慢地已经长成为一棵健康的树了！” “然而孟勤的话常常是很有理的！”她也恢复了平静说：“姐姐，我由你这里得到了好春天，我必会从他那里得到好秋天的！我不害怕了。我安分的生长，安分地等着。”他们三个说着下了山来。晚饭后，天黑了，大家便在沙岸生起一个火来。 各样游戏在笑声中进行着。伍宝笙在参加游戏中心上想自己的心事。她想：“蔺燕梅对余孟勤会有这么大的信赖？这是真信赖，还是一种幻觉？以她小小年纪，一年级刚读完的学识，加上余孟勤的口才同名气，说是幻觉是很可能的。不过听她的说话，想想她平日的聪明过人之处，她这又不像是幻觉而该是真认识。 “我这个妹妹样样儿好，就是心理上早熟了一点。我辛辛苦苦培植她心上那点活泼生气，这才驱走了她那无边的寂寞，才肯跟了我，或是顽皮的小童有玩，有笑。这才肯先参加我们几个短途旅行，才能应邀来到这夏令营。怎能把她这么早早地就交到余孟勤这个凄厉的秋风手里？亏来有这一年历练，她才有那么一套明澈的理论。否则一下子被大余那寒霜似的思想所冻伤，那使该怎么好呢？好险！好险！ “余孟勤这个人也怪。从前学校在北方时，在那种皇宫似的大学校里，人人都似伊甸园里的亚当和夏娃那样无忧无虑地过着那天国的日子时，他便如诺亚预见了洪水似的，埋头准备他的方舟。今天他的思想启示了蔺燕梅，明天也许要领导了千万人的心智罢！你这个奇异的哲学家，你的使命是谁给你的？你的工作是什么性质的？你的生命应该走一条什么样的路？ “还是把蔺燕梅交给你罢？她太聪明，也许只有你会看视她，只要等你认清了她之后，你必是最能看视她的人。姐姐把位子让出来了。妹妹，你自己走过去罢！” “我心上好凄凉呵！”她想不下去了。 伍宝笙想心事时，耳边大家的歌声，笑声全远了。她那秀美的眼睛便也凝视在极远的地方。她素雅温柔的容貌，便呈现一种极慈悲，极容忍的气象。她如天使，如观世音菩萨，如任何一个受过温情的人心上所可能想像得出的最可爱慕最可依赖的姐姐。 隔了火堆那面，和她对脸坐着的是桑荫宅。藉了熊熊的火光，一闪一闪的火焰的亮，看了伍宝笙沉思时的容貌，他心上起了空中楼阁。他凭了他特强的幻想力，加上一点文艺阅读来的故事，自己构了一个美丽的故事。这故事也许是一个圣女得道经过的素描，也许是一个淑女对自己心上一段不可能的爱情勉自抑郁的刻画。总之是一种带点浪漫气息的忧伤，那正是适合在他这样年纪一个爱好文艺者的心境的。伍宝笙端丽的身材，眉目，是很宜于做他幻想中的故事的主角。她无心中流露出的这种神情，将永久留在他心上，并且很可能影响了这多幻想的文人一生的笔调，又给了他一个永远是活生生的灵感。那种带了淡淡地哀愁的。 桑荫宅便退出了火堆所照耀的圈子，独自依了山脚一块岩石，看了水，默默地思想起来，这心情不会被伍宝笙发现的，正如伍宝笙为蔺燕梅想的心事也不会为她所发现一样。这种感觉上的传染现象，正是感受力强的青春时期人的特色。 天色不知道什么时候已经很晚了。谁也都有了倦意，那一堆在傍晚烧起的火焰，也积下了一大片死灰了。有人觉得冷，有人打了呵欠。天上云层正厚，月光暗淡得很，已近午夜了。 这些冒牌的散民，也在火堆前乱跳乱唱，玩得腻了。那些临时胡编的民歌也变不出什么新花样儿来了。看看等候月亮是没有什么希望了，湖上又起了风回程正好使篷，有人提议回去，马上便通过了。 大家又按原来排法上了船。小童，范宽湖的船这次要抢先，扯满了篷，先走。周体予、蔡仲勉后追。余孟勤和大宴，桑荫宅的两条船稳当得很，只扯了半篷，在后面走。看看将到湖心。 风向不很正的。他们要走“之”字形的路线。一个弯儿尚未拐回来，顺了山口吹下一阵大风。天上立刻黑了半边，擦了湖面卷起多高的白浪来，当前三只船，全拼命收篷。小童他们这只船太破，蓬等不及收，索子先被风吹断了。手中只有半截绳子，那半截吹在空中飘。草篷直从桅竿顶上斜挂到水上。篷子沾了水，风便吹它不起来。一根绳子尚连了桅顶，把船身硬给拖歪了。风更大了，加了豆大的急骤的雨点。船身更加倾斜很厉害。船底本来是稍稍渗进得水来的，此刻不知怎么哗哗啦啦全是水，坐在舱板上的人衣服都湿了。加上这阵暴雨，便弄得舱板滑油油地。倾斜的船上，谁也站不住。大家拼命镇定。不敢乱动，怕把船闹翻。湖面上黑得很，也看不见别的船。这时一切需要决断来救自己。 “别叫这半截破篷把我们的船拖倒了！”小童赶忙扯下自己的衣服，说：“现在既然不能上桅竿，只有下水去割绳子！范宽湖，把你的刀子给我，你管舵！” “小心点！”范宽湖把刀子递给他。自己忙接过舵来，用全力向一边压住。小童也不答话把刀衔在口里，便跳下水去了。漆黑的湖面上，只看见一个白浪花。风雨交鸣里听不见一点声音。大家屏息等了许久。 忽然，“绷！”的一声，像是扯紧了的弓弦断了那样。船身又像是被射出去的箭，猛地被弹得站了起来又差点倒向那边去。大家才知道是小童已经割断了蓬上的索子了。这船是不能航行了，但是也安全了。然而还等不及大家招呼小童上船，后而忽然出现一个高大的黑影子，突然逼近了他们，把船猛烈地一撞。一声可怕的惊叫里，把好几个人震下水去。这里水是极深的。 原来是后面蔡仲勉的船到了。漆黑一片里谁也看不见谁，就把他们碰了这么一下！ “船上的人谁也别乱动！船不会再震了！”范宽湖用了气力这么喊。他忙放开舵，用自己的双腿夹住了舵柱，两手拼命向蔡仲勉船上一措，给他捞到了船舷，他便死死抓住。用他的肉体作为一个铁链把两只船联住以抵抗这风暴。 “你们船上掉下人去啦？”那边蔡仲勉的声音隔了风雨传过来！“坐在前边的人快把小童他们的船拉住！坐在船舷上靠边的人注意水里若是见了人影子，快伸手拉！”这时范宽湖已经把两只船绑在一起。他们告诉了自己船上坐在船边的人。他便也脱下衣服跳下水去。那边船上蔡仲勉也收了篷，把舵交了人。自己下水去船后找人。因为风大，水中游泳的人难得追得上船。他又带了一根索子，那一头由船上的人牵着。 范宽湖的本领这时看出来了。风浪一点也阻不了他。那打小鼓似的拍水声又听见了。他冲开了浪向来路游去。蔡仲勉跳下水去不久，抓到一个人。问他话，他满口是水已说不成了。忙把绳子交给他，喊船上人拉起来。 这时大宴的船到了。余孟勤的船也到了。风小了些。大家把船拢在一起，看见范宽湖捞到沈葭送到大宴船上，由梁崇榕梁崇槐照料。蔡仲勉先前用绳子救起的一个不算，他送了另外一个女生到了余孟勤船上。此外还有三个男学生都自己游到船边由人把他拉起来。雨住了。湖上明亮起来，照见水上没有挣扎的人了。这种来去倏忽的风雨正是云南气候的特色。 “这才是掉下去五个人。”大宴埋怨他们说：“若是船被篷赘翻了，你们救人救得过来吗？” 一句话提醒了范宽湖：“唉呀，小童呢？” “小童！”蔡仲勉喊；“喂！你们用绳子拉起来的是不是他？” “就是他！”那边人喊：“是小童，他伤了！”范宽湖，蔡仲勉听见忙跑去看，范宽湖心上想：“是我放他下去的！”蔡仲勉想：“是我和他调换的船！”两个人过去看见小童躺在舱板上偏了头吐水。手中紧紧抓了那截拖他上来的绳子，肩上破了一个大口子，涔涔地出血。 小童闭了眼，也不说话，也不用手去摸自己的伤，脸上什么表情也没有。倒像是一场好睡。大家莫名其妙。救伤的药也没有带，问他是什么地方难过他也不答。行人工呼吸罢，他不要。看样子也不像是吃多了水。他呼吸还是有的。而且自己会吐水。扶他起来罢，他坐不住，马上又倒下。 他们看了难过得很。范宽湖和蔡仲勉更是心如刀绞。余孟勤也过来了。他看了说：“这只有加快把船驶到家，再想办法。请大家不要围着。各人坐好。用三只船的帆篷尽快带了四只船走。闲着的人，赶紧帮忙用被单竹篙做一个担架！到了地方，先抬小童！”于是大家静下来驶船。他又叫伍宝笙同蔺燕梅，过去看护他。 快到岸的时候，周体予一船的人，正在灼急地等他们。并为他们在岸上烧起一个引路的火，看见四只船来了，大家围上去。范宽怡四处找她的哥哥。忽然看见她的哥哥同蔡仲勉光了上身。下面衣服也是水淋淋地，肩上抬了一个担架，担架上睡了一个人身上蒙了些衣服，又见蔺燕梅，伍宝笙在担架后面紧跟着走。把她惊得呆了。 大余，大宴，桑荫宅，周体予招呼着把船缆好。大家仍旧不许乱，把什物一次又搬回店里。那时，先到的人已经把小童安顿好，浑身衣服换好。先前在船上时伍宝竺同商燕梅已经把他身上擦干了的，此刻又替他包扎好了肩上的伤口。他不吐水了。又取酒来叫他喝下去。 慢慢地他神色好了一点。问他，他才说两句话：“叫船碰了！叫钉子刮破了！”大家才想起碰船时的一声惨叫是他发出的。想起那一声来，心上还是恐怖的。看了他被碰昏成这个样子心上不觉更难过起来。大家便只沉默地围着。女孩子们便再也忍不住下泪了。 小童过了一下，又睁开眼说：“差点没把头挤扁！” “这孩子！”伍宝笙看他那样子，心上又难过，听他说这样顽皮的话，又生气。 “会不会从此成了个傻瓜？”小童又睁开眼问。他满脸疑惧地问。 “大家散开罢！”余孟勤说：“他现在思想乱得很，叫他休息一下罢！”他又对小童说：“别再乱说了。好好睡罢！我们在这儿看着你！” 大家被余孟勤赶去睡了。只留下范宽湖，蔡仲勉和他自己看守着。小童说了许多呓语，直到天明才沉沉睡去。脑后坟起一个大包。慢慢地体温增高了。蔺燕梅一早来，看他成了这样，不觉守着直哭。大余和伍宝笙也没办法。 回校仍按原定计划实行。负责的同学去还了船及竹篙，又赔了篷子，谢了和尚大家上车回昆明。小童在车上一直睡着，火车头颠踬时他现出十分痛苦的样子。“我们亲爱的朋友！”大家想想他，便都不说笑了。 车子到了昆明，仍是这几个人把他送进医院。其余的人，直接回校。 秋季开学了一个星期小童才好。病中，伍宝笙来看他时，蔺燕梅便一起来。余孟勤来时，蔺燕梅也一起来。 小童病中诙谐如故。医院中的大夫，护士，工友全和他熟了。大家来接他出院时，他简直招呼不过来这些上来告别的医院中人。 他肩头的伤因为在水中浸坏了，在院中动过手术。出院时尚未全好。又过两个星期，才合口。 人家问起他来时，他便说：“我现在完全和跳下水前一样了。下水和上来的时候，我本来没有损失什么，人还是囫囵个儿的，除了弄丢掉范宽湖的刀子。” “小童像一匹小兽似的！”伍宝笙说：“他伤了就不吃，不喝，闷着头去睡。长好了的时候，舐舐伤处的毛，连自己也找不出什么地方是伤口来了。” 也只有藉了小童那又是健康常笑的脸，大家才能在回忆那生死一发间的情景时，心智上添了力量，可以抵抗得住“死亡”，这“无常”的阴影。