Chapter 18 In the third article, Ye Xiuzhu said: Is it my fault?blame you(1)

After I developed a hobby of dancing, Bian Jinwu made dinner at home every day when I came back from get off work.Ye Xiuzhu also changed her previous picky taste. What Bian Jinwu did, whether it tasted good or not, she didn't care about talking about it, and she used all her energy to go to the dance floor.When Bian Jinwu was cooking, she stayed in the main room, washing her face, putting on makeup, and changing clothes in front of the mirror. Clothes had to be changed from the inside out.Before changing clothes, bring a basin of warm water, and after taking off her clothes, she will wipe her body with a towel.Working in the unit is more or less done. Even if she has not done any work, she feels that the dust has been sucked into her body in the environment where the dust flows around the unit, so she has to wipe the surface anyway.After changing her clothes and putting on her make-up, she waited for her husband to prepare the meal and casually ate a few bites, and she set off to the dance floor full of energy.

When Ye Xiuzhu went to the dance hall, she was brought up by a young woman who lived in a courtyard and worked as a temporary worker.The young woman's husband had a workshop with Ye Xiuzhu.The young woman is not pretty, but she is very easy to dress and dress up. She always wears bright and eye-catching clothes, and her face is heavily made up.It is said that half of the money they earn is used by the young women to buy clothes, buy clothes and use them, and they will do nothing to eat.Although the dress of the young women seems a bit vulgar to Ye Xiuzhu, they also like to clean up, and there is a consensus. The experience of dressing up, two people can even chat.One day, when I met a young woman again, the young woman was going to the dance floor. Speaking of which, the young woman urged Ye Xiuzhu to go back and go too. Ye Xiuzhu said "OK", and next time she went with the young woman.Slow three and slow four, she knew how to dance when she was in technical school in Shanghai, and she occasionally danced at the party of the unit in the past few years, so she is no stranger to the dance hall when she first went to the dance hall.After being taken to dance a few times, the dance steps will become more skillful.On the dance floor, her demeanor is eye-catching, many people like to dance with her, both men and women, surrounded by people, will always get a sense of glory and pleasure.After going to dance for more than half a month, she became addicted, and she didn't want to drop it for a day.Going to the dance hall to dance is the most fulfilling thing for her.Unconsciously, she became an old dancer on the dance floor, and also a regular dancer who could not be shaken; she jumped from the bungalow to the building they moved into, from when her daughter Bian Yinyu went to high school to when Bian Yinyu went to college.

After Bian Yinyu went to college, only Ye Xiuzhu and her husband Bian Jinwu were left at home. They stayed alone with their boring husband. Ye Xiuzhu felt very bored, and going to the dance hall was her best and only interest.The dance hall is not far from home, and it takes ten minutes to ride a bicycle, so it is very convenient to go.Every time on the way to the dance hall, Ye Xiuzhu's spirit is very uplifted, and the fatigue of going to work during the day is swept away.As soon as she left, Bian Jinwu was left alone at home. After cleaning up and washing the dishes, Bian Jinwu turned on the 18-inch TV and sat on the sofa. Just find some programs that he can watch, and watch them with relish.He was watching and waiting for Ye Xiuzhu.The dance hall is open for two hours, starting at 19:00 and ending at 21:00.Usually, Ye Xiuzhu will come back around half past twenty.If Ye Xiuzhu hadn't come back at twenty-two o'clock, he would pack up and fall asleep by himself.He didn't have to worry about anything, because Ye Xiuzhu came back late and said that she went to sit at the house of a certain "dancing friend" for a while.Ye Xiuzhu met many "dancing friends" during dancing, both men and women.She and these dancers accompany each other during the dance and become friends outside of the dance.With the increase in familiarity, we can communicate with each other with mutual trust; it is more and more common for her to go to this house today and visit another house tomorrow.Besides Ye Xiuzhu going to other people's homes, she would sometimes bring people to her home, and the people who came were all lesbians. There were two times when the lesbians brought by Ye Xiuzhu had a lively chat with her, and the chat was late. Simply live in her home.For this reason, Bian Jinwu went to sleep in the house of his daughter Bian Yinyu, and gave up the double bed to his wife and the lesbian.

On this day, Ye Xiuzhu hadn't come back at 22:00, and Bian Jinwu went to bed first.In the middle of the night, he woke up and wanted to get up at night. When he got up, he found that the side next to him was empty, and Ye Xiuzhu hadn't come back yet!Shocked, he immediately turned on the bedside lamp, took out his watch from under the pillow, and saw that it was almost one o'clock in the morning.My wife has never come back so late.Every time my wife came back late, the next day, when he asked her, she never came back past twenty-three o'clock.He would wake up at around midnight every day, and his wife did not come back before going to bed, and when he woke up at night, he saw her lying beside him.Now, he is worried and anxious.After going to the bathroom, he quickly put on his clothes, grabbed the flashlight, and went out.He wondered anxiously, did something happen to his wife, was she hit by a car, or was she met by a bad guy, beaten or robbed?Or did something else happen?On the way, his heart beat violently.His mind was in a mess, and he didn't have an organized way of thinking, so he went to the dance floor numbly.Along the way, he looked left and right, hoping to see his wife.When I arrived at the dance floor, I didn't see my wife either.The dance hall is a cultural activity room in the district movie theater. The movie theater is on a clothing street. There are no street lights here, and it is pitch black.A yellow beam of light from the flashlight danced like a will-o'-the-wisp following the others.Bian Jinwu shivered a little, but the importance of his wife gave him the courage to take photos with his flashlight wherever he went, imagining that he could find his wife.He went to the door of the cultural activity room, but did not find his wife.His heart was cold and fearful, silently shouting in his heart: Wife, where are you!After being stupefied for a while, he turned his head, and suddenly thought that his wife might be going to someone's house, and she stayed there after talking late; if someone came to live in their house, his wife would also live in his house.Thinking about it this way, he felt a little relieved, and walked back. The "result" gave him emotions, and he thought humorously: he came out to sleepwalk.

In the early morning of the next day, before six o'clock, Ye Xiuzhu came back.Sure enough, it was said that he was staying at the house of a female dancer.While getting up and getting dressed, Bian Jinwu said with a smile: I guessed it, if it’s later in the future, I’ll stay at someone else’s house, so as not to be unsafe on the road and have any problems.As he spoke, he pulled out his wild thoughts and "ridiculous" actions last night.Ye Xiuzhu was changing her work clothes, and said indifferently: You are thinking so much, you are trying to curse me to death.Bian Jinwu hurriedly said: How can I, I am worried.As he spoke, he smiled flatteringly, and went on to say: Next time, I will never dream about it; you are so kind, and God will bless you.Ye Xiuzhu looked at her husband's innocence, a complex expression flashed across her face, and said: Get up quickly, I'll make breakfast.After that, he turned around and left.Ye Xiuzhu seldom took the initiative to make breakfast, and Bian Jinwu said "Ai, Ai" two times flattered, and quickened his movements of getting up.He is in a better mood.

It was the weekend, after dinner, Ye Xiuzhu was going to the dance hall as usual.When she got to the door, she didn't look at Bian Jinwu, but looked at the door and said that she might not come back at night, tomorrow is Sunday, she might stay longer at someone's house, and told Bian Jinwu not to take her share of lunch .Bian Jinwu said "Oh", and then said, come back if you can.There was something pleading in his tone.Of course he hoped that his wife could spend the weekend with him at home.Ye Xiuzhu hesitated and said "um", and said in a low voice: I will try my best.In the end, Ye Xiuzhu spent this weekend at someone else's house.This night, after twenty-two o'clock, seeing that his wife hadn't come back, Bian Jinwu got up to go to bed unlike before, he turned off the TV, sat on the sofa, his eyes were a little dull; the room was peaceful, and he felt extremely loneliness.How he longed to hear his wife's footsteps upstairs, and then the knock on the door.He thought, if his wife came back, he must let go of himself and hug her hard. How long has it been since he hugged her?This night, his thoughts were mixed, as if the world was coming to an end, which made it difficult for him to control his imagination.He thought again, his wife must be having a good time chatting with her dancing partner at this time.He sighed heavily, thinking desolately: a family lives two lives.

Not only did Ye Xiuzhu not come back for lunch, she didn't even come back for dinner. When she came back, she had already finished dancing.After I came back, I explained that I was at the dancer’s house on Sunday, and the dancer invited a few more dancers, and everyone gathered together, eating, drinking, playing and learning about dancing skills, the time passed quickly unknowingly, so we went directly together dance floor.When she was talking, her eyes never looked at Bian Jinwu, and her eyes wandered around.Bian Jinwu said "Oh" as he listened, looking clear and understanding, without any intention of complaining.Bian Jinwu thought, after dancing for three years before, my wife has never lived in the house of any dancer. Now, my wife has not been at home for two consecutive nights and one day, which is unprecedented. Went to someone's house for the night.The more he thought about it, the more the situation turned the other way. Ye Xiuzhu didn't come back the next day. One day she said she was going to Zhang San's house, and another day she said she was going to Li Si's house.On weekends, I didn’t come back even more, and said that I would go to a party at a dancer’s house on Sunday, and I wouldn’t come back in the middle. They went to dance together and came back after dancing.During this period, of course Bian Jinwu also had doubts, saying that it was nothing important, and he would come back after chatting for a while, so he didn't have to live with others all the time.Ye Xiuzhu still didn't look at him, but her tone was patient, and she said: "I'm going to sleep when I go home, and I can't do anything. It's the same wherever I sleep. When I sleep at a dancer's house, I always have something to talk about, and I want to talk." , How can I finish it.Go home and sleep on the bed. I want to talk to you for a while, but you can't hear a few words, and you fall asleep.It is also superfluous for me to lie beside you.The fact is that Bian Jinwu can hardly have any other interests when lying on the bed, his nerves always go into hibernation involuntarily, and he will soon fall asleep.Bian Jinwu couldn't speak, thinking that his wife's words should be interpreted backwards. She said that because his wife thought he was redundant.He is such a person, and his wife has such a different temperament from him, no one can blame the other, and no one can control the other.He whispered: I just said, don't care about you.

Bian Jinwu didn't care about it anymore, and after a few days, Ye Xiuzhu went back to sleep every day like before.Moreover, when she comes back from get off work every day, she is courteous and will take the initiative to help her husband cook.Bian Jinwu thought that his wife had returned to the past, and he was very happy.One day, Ye Xiuzhu brought back a lesbian.Bian Jinwu gave them the space and went to sleep in his daughter Bian Yinyu's room.Waking up in the middle of the night, he heard the happy laughter of his wife and female guests in the big house.He was curious, the door was beside the bed, so he opened it casually.The big house is right next to it, and the voices talking in the house can be heard clearly.

The female guest said with a smile: You think of me as the head of the regular section, right? Ye Xiuzhu said: No. The female guest still laughed and said: No, why did you hug me? Go to sleep, go to sleep.Ye Xiuzhu said in a deliberately evasive tone. The female guest laughed and said: You said just now that you can't fall asleep because of the thought of Chief Chang. Now you don't want to? Ye Xiuzhu sighed and said: He won't come back until a month later, I don't know how to endure it! Hearing this, Bian Jinwu's mind buzzed, and he knew what was going on.He sat there blankly, holding back his urine.He closed the door, opened his eyes and stared at the dark room, feeling completely at ease.He wanted to think about something, but his mind was completely blank.That night, for the first time in his life, he suffered from insomnia.

The next day, Bian Jinwu wanted to find an opportunity to ask his wife some questions, but when he saw that his wife seemed to be fine, he didn't have the courage to break that state.He reminded himself in his heart, if you can't do it today, you can ask tomorrow, and you have to ask clearly no matter what.However, after a few days passed, he still didn't have the guts to ask. Day by day, the momentum of his question became weaker and weaker, but his heart became more and more panicked. He knew that after a month, the man named "Section Chief Chang "The man came back, and when he came back, his wife's heart and heart were about to fly away.Ye Xiuzhu has performed extremely well these days. Apart from being diligent, she is also attentive, and her attitude towards Bian Jinwu is unprecedented. Basically, no matter whether he doesn't talk about him, she is always gentle and amiable to him.Bian Jinwu thought, my wife feels ashamed.Thinking of it, he was depressed, helpless, and depressed every day.Ye Xiuzhu saw his emotions and asked him what's wrong with concern?He always shook his head limply, waved his hands, and said "it's all right", as if he was sick.

After a while, one day, before going out, Ye Xiuzhu said, "I won't be coming back tonight."Bian Jinwu's head buzzed again, and he knew that the "Section Chief Chang" had returned.Seeing his wife's graceful figure walking down the stairs step by step, he really wanted to shout: "Stop!"And rushed in front of his wife, blocking her way.However, at this moment, his lips and teeth are numb, his legs and feet are weak, and he can't do anything.In the days that followed, the wife was still taking the initiative, and if she didn't want to come back at night, she wouldn't come back.Bian Jinwu's depression had accumulated so much that it could no longer be accumulated, and he thought there must be a solution.He was calm, and spent two nights thinking about it carefully, thinking about how to uncover this matter.After much deliberation, he thought he couldn't ask directly. Without evidence, his wife would definitely not admit it.He decided to follow up, which is the best way; if the evidence is caught, his wife can't deny it even if she wants to.No matter how to solve it, we will talk about it at that time. Another weekend came, and after Ye Xiuzhu said she would not come back at night, Bian Jinwu followed her.As expected, his wife did not rush to the dance floor.He followed him very successfully, and saw his wife enter a family building, which unit, which floor and which door she entered.He thought, that family must be the family of Section Chief Chang.After that, ask people, it is exactly.While he was sad, he was also determined, he must get something!He memorized the address and went home. He wanted to sleep well and come back to "pick up" his wife the next morning.But he couldn't get a good night's sleep at all, and the thought of his wife having fun with another man broke his heart.He has lost sleep again.Before dawn the next day, Bian Jinwu set off for Chief Chang's house.He waited downstairs until dawn, and then went upstairs to wait. He sat on the stairs in front of Chief Chang's house and waited until the end; he waited for his wife to come out!There were more and more people going up and down the stairs. They avoided him, walked past him, and looked at him strangely.When he was drowsy with his head in his arms, the door of Chief Chang's house rang, and he stood up with a "bao".Ye Xiuzhu stepped out from inside in neat clothes, and behind him stood a sturdy middle-aged man.Seeing Bian Jinwu, Ye Xiuzhu was stunned and at a loss for what to do. Bian Jinwu suppressed his nervousness and said flatly: I already knew what was going on, let's go home and talk about it.Ye Xiuzhu looked at Section Chief Chang behind her and said, "Go in."Section Chief Chang also understood, and boldly said to Bian Jinwu: Come into my house and talk.Bian Jinwu showed a disdainful attitude, ignored Section Chief Chang, said "go" to Ye Xiuzhu, turned around and went downstairs. Ye Xiuzhu winked at Section Chief Chang, told him to enter the room, shook her head and said in a low voice: It's okay, don't worry. Section Chief Chang put his hips on his hips, supporting Ye Xiuzhu, and said, "If you have something to do, let me know."Ye Xiuzhu nodded, turned around and went downstairs. When she got home, Ye Xiuzhu admitted everything she had to admit.Section Chief Chang's unit is in the bearing factory. Ye Xiuzhu met him half a year ago while dancing.After getting to know each other, they got along and couldn't help but get better.Section Chief Chang is one year older than Ye Xiuzhu. He got divorced last year. He has a son who was awarded to him. The son is going to college in other places, and he lives at home by himself. So after getting married with Ye Xiuzhu, Ye Xiuzhu went to him. It is very convenient to live. Bian Jinwu listened, pondered for a moment, and said: Do you want to get married?Ye Xiuzhu said that Section Chief Chang meant that, but she didn't.Bian Jinwu asked why?Ye Xiuzhu said that Section Chief Chang is a person with a temper, and she doesn't like to live with people with such a personality. Bian Jinwu asked: If you don't like it, why do you still keep dating? Ye Xiuzhu pondered for a moment and said: Is it my fault?blame you!You can't do that, he can, I like it. Bian Jinwu was stunned for a long time, and he said with all his strength: You, you are so low! Ye Xiuzhu also became angry, and said excitedly: "I, why am I so mean?"People have seven emotions and six desires. I am a human being, not a fairy. When you were doing this, did I ever follow a human being?Besides, when you have that matter with you, you can't be regarded as good, and I will make up for it; if you can't do it, you have to let me accompany you, it's not fair!At my age, I still have a few more years to enjoy the scenery! Bian Jinwu was dumbfounded again.The fact is, he felt that he was somewhat sorry for his wife in that regard. It has been more than two years since Bian Jinwu said "No".Before, it was "good", but it was not too good.He seems to be born clumsy in this respect, he is not old or fat, when he acts in this respect, he is dull and slow, just like a person who is born without a sense of rhythm, stretching his arms and legs to dance around, without any spirituality of.Every time, Ye Xiuzhu had to lead him.The energy driven has exhausted the feeling of enjoyment. Over the years, when I think about it, I have hardly enjoyed myself.In the first two years, Bian Jinwu simply couldn't do it anymore. No matter how much he pushed, his key parts couldn't stand up.Bian Jinwu wanted to see a doctor, but Ye Xiuzhu said angrily: You are born weak in this area, and it is useless to see it, because the disease has already occurred.Bian Jinwu thought about it too, and never thought about going to see it.He was only forty years old then.When he is dying, his desires are even smaller, and later on, there are almost no desires.Whenever he lay down with Ye Xiuzhu, he felt weak physically and mentally, and went straight to sleep. Although Section Chief Chang is three years older than Bian Jinwu, he is physically strong, energetic, and has a natural understanding of sex.It was easy for him to seduce Ye Xiuzhu.Once, after a dance party, he invited Ye Xiuzhu to sit at his house for a while, and Ye Xiuzhu went without thinking too much.In his house, within a few minutes of sitting, he started to play tricks on Ye Xiuzhu.Ye Xiuzhu refused sternly at first, but Section Chief Chang knew what to do and dared to pester her. He caressed Ye Xiuzhu in every possible way, and Ye Xiuzhu's defense immediately collapsed.Entering the deep layer, Ye Xiuzhu was so excited that she could only scream.In this way, she was captured by Chief Chang. After a long silence, Bian Jinwu asked his wife, "What are you going to do?" Ye Xiuzhu asked back: What are your plans? Bian Jinwu sighed and said, "It's up to you!"If you say divorce, you will get divorced.After saying that, he hooked his head, as if he felt ashamed. Seeing her husband's honest and wronged appearance, Ye Xiuzhu couldn't bear it, and said softly: You are fine with everything else, I will not divorce you.Bian Jinwu heard his wife praised him, raised his head, and said with a more honest look: Then, are you still in contact with Section Chief Chang? Ye Xiuzhu lowered her head and fell silent. Bian Jinwu felt that his wife was pitiful again. He really wanted to hug her, but his hands and feet were so stiff that it was difficult for him to move.He thought that if his wife didn't speak, she might have admitted her mistake, and he should give her a step down and make up his mind not to mention this matter again. For more than a week, Ye Xiuzhu didn't go to the dance hall again. She came home after get off work, cooking, washing clothes, mopping the floor, and doing her work actively.Bian Jinwu was also vying to do it, and he was as obedient as ever in front of Ye Xiuzhu, who did what Ye Xiuzhu said.The two cooperated harmoniously.One day, Ye Xiuzhu said that she wanted to go dancing again, Bian Jinwu quickly responded and said: If you want to go, go, it's time to dance, if you don't dance, your feet will be born.Ye Xiuzhu said gratefully: I will be back on time.Bian Jinwu said again: If you want to go to someone's house to sit for a while, just sit for a while, don't be too late, or it will be unsafe.Ye Xiuzhu nodded obediently. After that, Ye Xiuzhu regained her enthusiasm for dancing, but she didn't go every day, but once every other day. One day, after Ye Xiuzhu went to the dance, Bian Jinwu cleaned up the dishes and heard a quarrel downstairs, so he turned off the TV and went downstairs to watch the excitement.Among the spectators, I ran into a middle-aged woman who often went to dance with Ye Xiuzhu. When she heard that Ye Xiuzhu had gone to dance, she was surprised and said that the dance hall was notified yesterday, and today there was a power outage and it would not be open.Bian Jinwu's mind immediately "hummed", and he suddenly had a premonition, left to watch the excitement, got on his bicycle and went out.He came to the subsidiary courtyard of the bearing manufacturer and came to the building where Section Chief Chang lived. At the door of the unit where Section Chief Chang lived, he saw the bicycle Ye Xiuzhu was riding.Everything will be understood.He was stunned for a long time, and finally turned and left.He thought, let's be my wife and come to Section Chief Chang to "dance". She has already "danced" and let her "dance".In front of Ye Xiuzhu, he remained calm on the surface, but he seemed to be entangled with something in his heart, and it was extremely uncomfortable.He thought he had to get his wife back. In order to regain his wife, he must revive his "heroic style".Privately, he went to the hospital, only to be surprised and disappointed by the results.It turned out that the "weakness" in his key parts was caused by ligation more than ten years ago. The doctor said that after ligation, that part will gradually shrink after ten years.Not only can't it recover, it can only become more "weak".Bian Jinwu couldn't figure out this matter, he was so wronged and complained that he wanted to vent to others completely.That day, he didn't go home, but went to the home of the retired master who took him back then.After sitting down for a while, he burst into tears and said everything to the master.The master was silent for a long time, smoking a cigarette, and revealed a secret that Bian Jinwu didn't know.It is not accidental that people do things. Before Ye Xiuzhu got married, people said that she had an abnormal relationship with the monitor of the fitter class. Otherwise, how could she work less.He also said that he originally wanted to persuade him not to marry Ye Xiuzhu, but who knew that they got engaged immediately, and they couldn't break it up.After finishing speaking, the master patted his mouth and said regretfully: "Look at what I said!"You have been married for more than 20 years, don't mention anything.Bian Jinwu suddenly realized, but he wasn't surprised at all, calling himself a fool in his heart.The master smoked and meditated.After a while, he said: Everyone has their own personality, and we can't blame Xiaoye all the time.Now that it's here, it's useless to say anything.She is not a sage, you are useless, and it is reasonable for her to be tempted. Since she did not abandon her family, she has the right to assume that there is no such thing.It stands to reason that she can still live with you, which is not bad.Bian Jinwu was expressionless and silent.After thinking about it for a long time, according to what the master said, I figured it out. After wanting to "get through", Bian Jinwu became accustomed to his wife going to "dance".When his wife acted as if nothing happened, he cooperated well and looked completely normal.Their life is normal, even warmer than before, because his wife is attentive and gentle. Gradually, he feels that everything is normal psychologically.The days passed peacefully.After a while, his daughter Bian Yinyu graduated from college.The father was worried that his daughter would not know about her mother, so he reminded his wife to try not to take Bian Yinyu with her for what she was going out for. The daughter who graduated from university is not what it used to be. She has her own circle of life and has no interest in following her mother in the past.When she became more energetic and crazily active day by day, her mother gradually restrained her actions, and she went to "dance" less and less.Bian Jinwu asked her why?She said a little listlessly that she felt bored and didn't like dancing anymore.Later, she stopped dancing; all day long, she was a little depressed and disturbed.Bian Jinwu said sympathetically: Do you want to "dance" again?The wife shook her head boringly and said: I am not interested.Bian Jinwu thought happily: There is enough for everything. It seems that my wife has completely "jumped" enough. In fact, it's not that Ye Xiuzhu has "jumped" enough, it's because she has no interest in "jumping" anymore.She went through menopause three months ago, and she's entering menopause.Her energy could not help but "cold" down.She was quiet during menopause, so quiet that she didn't have the slightest desire for the flesh.Sometimes, when she was alone, thinking of her desire not long ago, it seemed like a long time ago, and it was a bit plausible, very trance.She was disappointed and thought: no matter how life is, it is just a drama, if you enjoy it in the past, it will feel empty when you look back.