Chapter 5 The first article Bian Jinsuo: I only prepared to have two daughters (1)

Bian Jinsuo not only looks like his father Bian Deren, but also has a similar heart.Looking at him, sometimes I feel that he is the shadow of his father.In fact, the flow of his life seemed to follow his father's shadow.Not necessarily, but enough to be a coincidence. Since Bian Deren is the only one earning money outside, the burden of life at home is heavy.Bian Jinsuo dropped out of elementary school in the fourth grade, and started working outside to earn money at the age of thirteen.He has polished shoes for people on the street, sold leggings, sold newspapers, worked as a waiter in restaurants, and so on.Less than eighteen years old, he has already done more than a dozen kinds of jobs.He and his father, Bian Deren, seem to be two generations, but reincarnated with the same hard work as his father.It's just that when my father was that age, he didn't have parents, brothers and sisters, and he was running for himself; he had parents and brothers, and it was for his family.

After the completion of the Longhai Railway, people were recruited on the railway. At the age of 19, Bian Jinsuo joined the Railway Bureau and worked as a road patrol worker.A year later, one day he came back from his tour and found a young woman. That day, after Bian Jinsuo patrolled his section of the track, he started to walk back.Except for the rails and weeds, there were no people around. He carried his tools and hummed "Dongfanghong" to cheer himself up.A figure appeared in the distance, he stopped humming, and waited to get closer to the figure.In this kind of desolate place, when you see a figure, boredom turns into instant chat and fun.Approaching, the figure is a thin young woman with two long braids.Seeing Bian Jinsuo on the opposite side, she lowered her head and immediately jumped to the other side of the track, as if she was afraid of him.Bian Jinsuo was amazed and thought: What is a woman like to do in such a place?He turned his head instinctively and glanced at the woman again.The woman's lonely back made him feel even more strange. He knew that if she walked down, she would have to be more than twenty miles away from the nearest inhabited place.There are several caves in the middle.It's a bit panicky in the cave, why is she so courageous?Then, he thought again: In order to save money, she could take the main road, why did she choose to go by this remote railway?He was thinking about it, and suddenly had a clever idea, thinking: This woman can't help but be a Taiwanese spy, and she wants to put explosives on the railway.Thinking of this, he gained strength all over his body, and followed the woman backwards.If he doesn't disturb her, he will catch her when she makes a move.

The woman walked alone wholeheartedly, never looking back.Bian Jinsuo laughed at her, thinking: She is still a spy, not as vigilant as me.Based on his experience, Bian Jinsuo knew that a train was coming. He kept his eyes on the woman and watched her every move. Although she was empty-handed, he thought she might have hidden the explosives on her body.In the distance, the long sound of the train was heard, and the locomotive seemed to protrude from the fog.I saw that the woman stepped into the railroad tracks, with her head held high, motionless.The locomotive became more and more clear, but the woman's posture did not change.Bian Jinsuo suddenly understood that this was killing someone!He dropped the tool, ran towards the woman vigorously, stepped forward, grabbed the woman's arm, and pulled it out. The woman was unprepared and was easily dragged out of the railroad track.Out of the track, the woman understood, struggled in vain, and shouted: Let me go, I am going to die!I want to die!Bian Jinsuo didn't say a word, but grabbed her tightly like a pliers, unable to let her go.The train came whizzing by, and the woman was about to "catch" the train, so she struggled even harder; Bian Jinsuo pulled even tighter.The train left.The woman sat down on the ground in disappointment and burst into tears.

The woman's name is Wang Xiangping, she is nineteen years old.The reason for committing suicide was being cheated by someone. The mention of this cheating is not only sad, but more importantly, shameless. Wang Xiangping used to work as a waiter in a hotel as a temporary worker.She was expelled from the hotel half a month ago on the grounds that her life style was problematic.This matter is said to be related to a young man from Xi'an who lived in the hotel before.The young man's surname is Fu, and the people in the hotel call him Comrade Fu.Comrade Fu stayed in the hotel for five days.He did not have a registered unit, saying that he had just graduated from university and had not yet arranged a unit. He came to Lanzhou to find a relative whom he had not contacted for many years at the behest of his parents.He leaves early and returns late every day.Comrade Fu lived in a single room, and every day he came back, he had to ask the waiter to open the door for him with a key.At that time, Wang Xiangping happened to be on the night shift, and she opened the door for Comrade Fu every day.Comrade Fu is not handsome, but he has an elegant temperament and is polite to others.Comrade Fu is talkative, and he chats with Wang Xiangping every time.In this way, Wang Xiangping is familiar with him.

When he came back for the fourth time, Comrade Fu generously invited Wang Xiangping to sit in his room for a while. During the sitting, he hugged Wang Xiangping. Wang Xiangping had a good impression of him and did not refuse. I like him, and I am happy in my heart; after that, Comrade Fu wants her.The first loss made her feel an indescribable grievance, sobbed softly, and her shyness was gone.She said confidently: I am yours now, you take me away! Comrade Fu put his arms around her and said: Don't worry, after finishing the work, you can follow me and go back to Xi'an to meet my parents.

Wang Xiangping believed Comrade Fu.She thought she had relatives.Because in Lanzhou, she was alone and had no relatives.Speaking of it, it is necessary to talk about her background.She was originally from Henan, and her parents were actors in a small troupe in Zhengzhou. She was born and grew up in a troupe.When she was four years old, in order to prevent the Japanese army from going south, the Kuomintang blew up the Yellow River embankment at the entrance of Huayuan.In this flood, she lost her father, and her mother took her with her, and moved westward in a daze along with the crowd of drifting victims.In the end, their mother and daughter begged all the way to Lanzhou.Compared with those who died of illness and starvation on the way, they are lucky.Her mother often said that people who survived disasters can live longer.However, my mother died.Two years ago, my mother, who was only forty years old, died of illness.The mother did not remarry, so she left seventeen-year-old Wang Xiangping behind.Before her mother died, she said: Fortunately, you are going to be married.If there is a good man, marry him, if you know how to look after a good man!Wang Xiangping nodded, cried and said, "Mother, don't worry, I'm not young anymore, I can judge people."However, she looked away.

On the second day after Comrade Fu left, when Wang Xiangping took over, the waiter who changed the shift told her that Comrade Fu had checked out of the room in the morning and left.Wang Xiangping was stunned, and a chill came over her head.After calming down, she sent Comrade Fu a letter to the address he had registered.While waiting to hear from Comrade Fu, she was expelled from the hotel because someone saw her go to Comrade Fu's room late at night.She didn't quibble, thinking that misfortunes never come singly.At this time, what she cared more about was being able to wait for Comrade Fu's reply.

She didn't work in the hotel, but came to the door of the hotel every morning and afternoon, waiting for the mail to be delivered.After more than a week, the letter arrived, but it was returned, with the stamp on it saying "No such person found".She thought desperately, she was helpless and shameless to live on.She retired the rented house and decided to die. Hearing about Wang Xiangping, Bian Jinsuo's heart skipped a beat. When she felt that this woman was unlucky, he secretly worried for her sincerely and thought: What will she do in the future, how can she get married!He was afraid that Wang Xiangping would see his thoughts and hurt her, so he pretended to be normal about what happened, saying: You were deceived, and no one can guarantee that you will not be fooled by bad people in your life.Eat a fall, gain a wisdom, and you won't encounter it in the future.

Wang Xiangping didn't speak, she lowered her head and rubbed her hands at a loss, a tear fell on her hand. Bian Jinsuo knew that she had to avoid talking about that matter, otherwise her heart would always rest on that scar.He smiled and said, "Go to my house. My mother likes girls, but she doesn't have any. If you go, my mother will definitely recognize you as a girl." Wang Xiangping lowered her head even lower, and said in a low voice: How shameful it is to recognize a girl like me! Bian Jinsuo said, "Look at you, you have misunderstood my mother."You were fooled, and you didn't do it yourself, why would my mother look down on you?My mother is also a person who has suffered and understands the morals of the world. She is sensible and will not try to mislead you.

Wang Xiangping still lowered her head and made no statement. Bian Jinsuo said: Let's go.As he spoke, he took a step forward and waited expectantly for her. Wang Xiangping raised her head, hesitated, and took a slow step. The arrival of Wang Xiangping brought housing difficulties to the Bian family.Bian Deren and his wife collected materials locally, and carried two wooden boxes stacked together to store clothes, quilts and clothes from the house where they lived to the house where the children lived, along the bedside of the big bed where five children slept. , against the wall, they laid a layer of bricks on top of each other, and then spread a layer of newspapers on the bricks, and then put two wooden boxes side by side and put them together as a bed.Bian Deren said: I'm thin, so I just sleep there.The men's room was overcrowded, and it was difficult to move an inch; while Hou Cuicui and Wang Xiangping's room was just the opposite, walking, using, and sleeping were all relaxed.Bian Deren joked: This is the Bian family's respect for women.

When Wang Xiangping lived in Bian's house, she was always haunted by the shadow of being "deceived". She didn't like to talk or smile, and there was a heavy look on her tender face, as if she was angry with someone all day long. of.Even the four-year-old Bian Jinguo kept pestering and playing with her, but she couldn't get up.Hou Cuicui has her own way.She never enlightened Wang Xiangping, but asked her to get involved in everything, and asked her about everything when cooking, as if she knew nothing by herself; She could see it clearly, but she asked Wang Xiangping like a child to tell me whether the egg was big or small; when cutting clothes, she had already made up her mind, and asked Wang Xiangping to help refer to the pattern, just waiting for her Like a decision.In short, you should "ask" her about what to eat, what to use, what to wear, and what to do.Before I knew it, Wang Xiangping was brought into "life", and she gradually came alive.Sometimes, when Wang Xiangping was working alone, she would hum the Henan opera, looking happy.The talent for singing Henan opera was given by her parents in the opera troupe.After half a year, Wang Xiangping's mood completely came back, and she wanted to go to work to earn money for the family.She has made this place her home.Bian Deren and his wife thought that she should be registered as a registered permanent residence, and then go to find a job, so that she can be a regular worker.Bian Deren said that he and Wang Xiangping are cousins; Wang Xiangping's parents are both dead, and he has no sisters or brothers, but he is the only relative.Wang Xiangping's household registration fell into Bian's family.They really became a family.Wang Xiangping called Bian Deren and his wife godfather and mother.After that, he entered the spinning workshop of the wool spinning factory as an apprentice. Bian Jinsuo never thought of marrying Wang Xiangping, and Bian Deren and his wife never thought of making Xiangping their daughter-in-law.However, things come when you don't want them to, and everything should be like this. Wang Xiangping is not beautiful. Although her eyes have double eyelids, they are not big eyes. She looks ordinary, but she is dignified and delicate. Coupled with her natural upright figure, the whole person looks eye-catching.In particular, at a gala in the factory, she represented the workshop and sang the Henan opera "Mulan" on stage, and her singing with perfect accent surprised people.She immediately became a celebrity in the factory.Knowing that she is not married or in a relationship, the enthusiastic matchmakers started worrying about her.Every once in a while, someone would introduce someone to her, and all the introduced partners said they had good conditions.These are either technicians who graduated from college, or they are cadres in the unit, and their family conditions are also upper-middle-class. At that time, the family conditions were good, which generally meant that the family background was good, there were few children in the family, and the parents were dual-career, and there was nothing at home. Burdened. Wang Xiangping doesn't care how good the person's conditions are, what she cares about is that the person must be good, and the goodness is mainly due to the "eternal hatred" that Yi Jian has experienced.She thought that a good person would forgive her "misstep", just like the Bian family.Every matchmaker naturally said that the character they introduced was fine.However, when she got there, there were all problems. Everyone she met hated her past "missteps". Wang Xiangping was disheartened, so she resolutely never saw her again.Gradually, she became as quiet as when she first came to Bian's house. In private, Hou Cuicui and Bian Deren were very worried about Wang Xiangping's personal problems. They also felt that her "special" situation was a big obstacle. Speaking of it, they didn't blame those people for being picky, saying that a man doesn't care about a woman's body.They were silent for a while, and suddenly thought, if their son Bian Jinsuo didn't dislike her, he should ask Bian Jinsuo to marry her.With this in mind, they talked to their son in private.They thought that their son would be a little hesitant, but they didn't expect their son to nod and say yes, saying that he had always liked Wang Xiangping in his heart, and he was afraid that Wang Xiangping would look down on him.He also said that if he can marry Wang Xiangping, he must treat her a hundred times better.Seeing that their son was so open-minded and willing, the parents decided to "talk matchmaking" to Wang Xiangping. Wang Xiangping shed tears and said: This is the second time you have saved me!In her heart at this time, there is no pursuit of love, but a kind of obedience to the world. This commitment is the root of life and the leaf of life; she is firm. For the wedding room of Bian Jinsuo and Wang Xiangping, they built a hut in the yard.After the house was built, Bian Deren and his wife built a wooden bed for the house, asked a carpenter to make two wooden boxes, and put on two new quilts, which was regarded as a home for Bian Jinsuo and Wang Xiangping.Then, the wedding day was chosen on a Sunday at the end of May. Several neighbors, teachers and workers of Bian Jinsuo and Wang Xiangping were invited to distribute some wedding candies, melon seeds, and peanuts. Bow, then bow three times to the guests, laugh and make a fuss for a while, and the guests disperse, the marriage will be considered as a marriage.Entering the bridal chamber is their own business. Bian Jinsuo and Wang Xiangping washed their faces one after another and entered the house one after another as they did when they were a family.It's just that the room they entered has changed this time. They didn't enter the same room before, they entered their own rooms. This time, they will enter the same room and sleep in the same bed.They were all a little uncomfortable. After washing their faces, they all walked to the original room first, and only realized that they had gone to the wrong room when they reached the door. Wang Xiangping washed her face first and went back to the house first.She took off her coat and trousers, hesitating whether she should take it off again. At that time, women did not wear bras, and her nipples were clearly printed through the vest.She has experienced the relationship between men and women, so she should take off her clothes logically, but she is afraid that Bian Jinsuo will think that she is too liberal and look down on her.After thinking about it, she lay down wearing a vest and underpants, thinking: Look at the golden lock, he told you to take it off and then take it off.After Bian Jinsuo came in, he was a little at a loss. He froze for a while, then turned off the light. In the misty moonlight, Wang Xiangping stared at the figure of Bian Jinsuo, watching him take off his coat and trousers, and then went to bed in his underpants and vest. .Wang Xiangping spread out a quilt consciously, and a quilt filled the bed.Bian Jinsuo lifted off the quilt and lay down.When he came in, Wang Xiangping consciously pressed close to him.Bian Jinsuo touched her body and instinctively hugged her.He didn't speak, as if he was holding his breath, he touched Wang Xiangping up and down with trembling hands through his clothes, his movements were somewhat mechanical, but he didn't touch her key parts, as if he didn't know what to do next.He just touched it back and forth.When he did this, Wang Xiangping's desire was rubbed against her. She grabbed his hand, stuffed it into her vest, and asked him to touch her skin.Bian Jinsuo couldn't help it, and hugged her hard, then, let go of his hand, like sweeping, "swipe" on her body in a wide arc, "swipe" to her breasts, his hand stopped, he was attracted here, Thrill was found.At the same time, Wang Xiangping was also stimulated.After that, there is nothing that cannot be crossed. That night, the excited Bian Jinsuo, like his father, sowed the seeds outside.He reminded himself to talk about it later, but he was as exhausted as his father, and soon fell asleep, sleeping until dawn.Wang Xiangping next to her was not like Hou Cuicui back then. She knew nothing about it. She knew that he hadn't completed the task. Bian Jinsuo was more conditionally adjusted than his father.The work unit gave him three days of marriage leave. He was tired the first night, but he became energetic the second night. The "forbearance" was supported by the energy and turned into strength. Once the strength sank to the bottom, he was relieved of the task. It is also Wang Xiangping's; happiness is for themselves, and it is not.Bian Jinsuo was even more improved than his father. Three months after their marriage, Wang Xiangping's stomach stood up.Like their parents, they are full of longing for the children in their womb.In the spare time, the topic is surrounded by "children" in a few words.Wang Xiangping asked Bian Jinsuo if he liked boys or girls?Bian Jinsuo said: Boys and girls like it. He hopes they will have four children in the future, two boys and two girls, which is a perfect balance.Wang Xiangping said: It will not be so clever.Ask again, does he want the first child to be a boy or a girl?Bian Jinsuo said "female" without hesitation.Wang Xiangping asked him why?He said: "His parents have always wanted to have a baby girl, and they said that as soon as the first child gave birth to a baby girl, their hearts would be relieved, and they would not care if there were all boys behind."Wang Xiangping said with a smile: No insurance, the first one is a son, and the rest are all girls.Bian Jinsuo said with a smile: That's fine, it just makes people anxious for a year or two. When it came to the child's name, Bian Jinsuo said that the middle of the girl's name would naturally use the word "Yin" passed down by her parents. He thought about it, and if it was a girl, he would call it "Bian Yinhua".Wang Xiangping said happily, "Hua" sounds good. She thought of many words, but none of them were good.Ask him how he thought of it?Bian Jinsuo proudly said that he patrolled the road every day, looked at the various flowers beside the road, and thought that girls should be as simple, generous, fragrant and beautiful as these flowers.It is also said that there is a second baby girl, who will be called "Bian Yinduo".Wang Xiangping teased him: What is the name of the third girl? Bian Jinsuo straightened his face, shook his head, and said: I have seen the old doctor of Jianghu in private, and he said that my father and I are similar in every way, and our blood is similar, and I am also a rare girl.My father had two daughters, and I have at most two daughters.I only made preparations for having two daughters, and I only thought of two names: Hua and Duo. Wang Xiangping nodded and said: Sooner or later a woman will get married, and sooner or later it will be water thrown out. If there is too much, it will be useless.Then asked if it was a boy, what would it be called? Bian Jinsuo said: "Iron" is used in the middle.What's the name behind it, it's not very good, I haven't figured it out yet, I'll call my parents and think about it together. Wang Xiangping thought about it and said: The word "铁" looks like a boy, but it doesn't sound very nice. Let's change the word. Bian Jinsuo shook his head and said: It is meaningful to use the word "iron". "Iron" represents the railway and railway he works on, and it follows the name of his parents in "gold, silver, copper, iron". the way. Hearing what he said, Wang Xiangping made sense, so she nodded and said nothing. The child was born in the summer of the following year.It's a girl.This made Bian Jinsuo and his parents very happy. The child's name was "Bian Yinhua", and it happened to be born in the summer of flowering. It was God's will. They felt that God was really kind to them.Hou Cuicui said: Well, the word "silver" is used again.Although Yinhua does not look like Yincui, and does not have Yincui's big eyes, but grandma hugged Yincui as if she was holding Yincui more than 20 years ago, and regarded this girl as her own. I don't have a baby girl, so I don't regret it now. However, a year and a half later, a strange phenomenon occurred in Bian's family. Four months after Wang Xiangping was pregnant, Hou Cuicui also unexpectedly became pregnant.The neighbors said that it is not good for a woman to give birth to a child at an older age, and if she does not give birth, she will give birth to a half-fool child, so kindly persuade Hou Cuicui to give up.Hou Cuicui didn't want to do it, because she was afraid that she would conceive a girl, a girl, and a fool, so she wanted it too.Bian Deren thought the same as her, and also hoped to have their own baby girl, saying: stay and give birth.As time went by, in March of the next year, Wang Xiangping was going to give birth, and Hou Cuicui's belly had already stood upright. In this way, the three women in the Bian family, two older women and a little girl, Bian Yinhua, who was nearly two years old, all It's up to the man to take care of it. In the year 1958, in the small courtyard of Bian's family, the moans of women and the cries of baby Bian Yinhua kept coming and going, and the men were busy. Wang Xiangping gave birth in April and gave birth to another daughter, "Bian Yinduo". However, Bian Deren and his wife still haven't expected their own baby girl. In July, they had their fifth child, "Bian Jinrong".In the future, sisters Bian Yinhua and Bian Yinduo will be called Uncle Bian Jinrong who is younger than them. Bian Jinsuo felt that he was happier than his father, and said that he wanted to have two daughters, so he had two daughters.After fulfilling his wish to have two daughters, Bian Jinsuo began to look forward to a son.After giving birth to Yinduo, confinement, and taking care of her body, Wang Xiangping resumed her sex life with Bian Jinsuo. Like his fathers, Bian Jinsuo and Wang Xiangping's sexual life is instinctive and monotonous. Every time they take a mechanical and programmed path, they are all the same. They have not opened up any gaps in other experiences and situations, let alone They will patrol and expand along the gaps; they cannot imagine how far and deep the fun inside is; without any external medium to open their eyes, their imagination can only be limited to the current state and level.They are real workers and don't have the time and energy to focus on it.They are ignorant of it, but they are content with it; they don't enjoy the fun, but they are very satisfied.Because, for life, for life, they have completed the necessary procedures, there is no alternative.In fact, their experience is not only monotonous, but also poor.After they were pregnant with a child, they were willing to ban the experience for the sake of the child, and the ban lasted for more than a year. Like their parents, they did not use contraception, did not talk about contraception, and for the sake of their son, they did not use contraception. They couldn't do it again after a few times, and Wang Xiangping started to vomit. Naturally, they all expected to be a son this time, but no, it was still a girl.A little unexpected.The child's name should be connected with the flower, and it is said that the flower grows on the grass, so it is called "Bian Yincao".Bian Jinsuo was not depressed, saying that there are plenty of opportunities, let's see the next one.Six months after Bian Yincao was born, Bian Jinsuo's work unit gave him a house, which was also a bungalow in the railway family area next to the railway.The house and courtyard are about the same size as their parents' home, and they feel how big their home is from the crowd.Bian Jinsuo said happily: This house is enough to support seven or eight children.Wang Xiangping said: How can it be, if you have a son, then you have to sleep in the box like a father.Bian Jinsuo said: Instead of sleeping in a box, build a small room for my son in the yard.As he said so, he prepared to do so.They still don't use contraception, hoping to get pregnant again soon. Trying to get pregnant is sometimes difficult.Their time was wrong, and they were always wrong. It took two years for Wang Xiangping to conceive.After his wife became pregnant, Bian Jinsuo picked up some unused bricks and tiles from various construction sites every day, and piled them up at the door bit by bit.Just waiting for the birth of the son to start work.I thought: This time it must be my son.Wang Xiangping also thought that if she changed the place, her energy would be different, and the life in her belly would also change.At this time, it was a time of famine, and Wang Xiangping often felt that the child in her stomach lacked the strength to live. She often sighed and said: No matter what, it is a girl, no matter what, it will not be able to reproduce, it is difficult to raise!Bian Jinsuo nodded along and said: Good. In November 1961, Wang Xiangping gave birth to her fourth child, a girl.But this girl is beautiful, with round eyes, double eyelids, and a small dimple. She looks neither like her father nor her mother, which is beyond their expectations.Girls are like grandmas.Grandma Hou Cuicui hugged the baby girl, she was so excited that she couldn't help crying, with tears in her eyes and a smile on her face. Grandpa Bian Deren also had an excited face, and said loudly to the girl: You are the reincarnation of Yincui! Mother Wang Xiangping said: Well, let's call it Yincui. But grandma shook her head and said: Yincui has gone, she is here, and if she walks on the same road, she can't be called by a name.Come up with another name. They still named their children around the categories of flowers, flowers, and grass. After thinking for a long time, they couldn't come up with a suitable one.We had to invite a college-educated railway engineer from our neighbors.The engineer pondered for a while, and said: The flowers and plants are about to grow luxuriantly. Let's call them Bian Yinxie, "薿" means lush.They all said yes. Although Xiao Yinbai's arrival made Bian Jinsuo and his wife happy, after they were overjoyed, they calmed down and put aside their daughter's cuteness. They were a little funny only with regard to gender, but with regard to their four daughters, it was as if they hadn't guessed the riddle correctly.They were more serious with themselves, and decided to continue guessing riddles without mentioning the words they no longer wanted to have.Life is hard and difficult, but it is impossible to bear it without a son who will carry on the family line. As the saying goes, when a woman gives birth to a son, yin and yang complement each other to support others, and when a woman gives birth to a woman, yin superimposes yin and hurts others.After giving birth to the fourth child, Bian Yinkai, this was fulfilled.It seems that Wang Xiangping has accumulated the erosive power of giving birth to four daughters. Not long after her body was confinement, various gynecological inflammations appeared one after another. The air of traditional Chinese medicine steamed from their home diffused and floated into the courtyards of the neighbors on the left and right.She vomited when she drank it, and the neighbors vomited when they smelled it.It took more than a year for the disease to be cured. Even though the disease was cured, the spirit of the person seemed to have not recovered. He was dizzy, backache, and weak all day long, and his body was soft and light. When he was off work, he didn't have any extra strength, and his life depended entirely on Bian Jinsuo.As long as he is healthy, Bian Jinsuo will have to carry it no matter how tired he is.In this situation, it is impossible for them to have intercourse.This situation is somewhat similar to Hou Cuicui's miscarriage of a girl in 1937. The incident is not a cause, but a condition. Bian Jinsuo loves his wife very much, and made up his mind to say to her: I can no longer bear a baby in this body, or I will suffer and kill you.