How Obstinate Our Hearts Are - Chapter 1 The incident happened on the way to jump the queue and settle down.At that time, it was at Caochangmen Wharf. At that time, it was still the place to board the boat. A small wharf surrounded by a large group of people.Those days, the train station, bus station, and ship dock were always crowded with people, and there were farewell cries everywhere.Batches of educated youths are about to go to the countryside to go to the countryside, and spread to the vast world like dandelion seeds.It was my father who sent me to the boat. My sister and mother wanted to send me off tearfully, but my father stopped them, saying that there are so many things that you women can't handle, so I will go.My sister and mother hugged each other and cried, and they also came to hug me, and the snot and tears got on my clothes.

Father said: "There's nothing to cry about. The fourth child will leave as soon as he says so. Everyone is happy, okay?" My sister said: "Who will help the fourth child wash clothes in the future?" I didn't care and said: "It's not easy, wash it yourself." My father said: "Let him exercise too. He is already in his early twenties. When has he ever washed his own clothes?" They were still crying, and my father got a little impatient, so we set off.After walking a long distance, I remembered that I hadn’t said goodbye yet, so I turned around and waved to my mother and my sister.They stopped crying and looked at me blankly.I waved to them and they waved to me.

My father said: "Your mother always hoped that you would grow up. When you really grew up, you were reluctant to go to the countryside. In fact, it's no big deal to go to the countryside." At that time, when the educated youth went to the countryside, there was a swarm of bees, and no one could escape.Naturally, there are all kinds of scenes and moods. Some are crying and reluctant to leave, and they regard going to the countryside as the end of the world;As for me, I was neither sad nor happy at the time.Seeing that we were about to break up, there was never much to say between father and son, and we didn't know what to say along the way.It turned out that we were going to take the bus. We had too many things and the bus was too crowded, so my father said we should go on foot.Fortunately, I brought a shoulder pole as a spare in advance. Along the way, my father rushed to pick up the luggage. I said I would pick it up, but he said that there is a day for you to pick it up, and I can save it for later use. Don’t be polite to me now.I don't want to argue with him. I am bigger and stronger than my father. It is meaningless for two big men to fight on the street.Anyway, there is plenty of time to walk around and rest, and it is time to board the boat at the Caochangmen Wharf.

An old lady was sitting on the ground crying, unable to hear what she was shouting, several people surrounded her, trying to help her up.There were a lot of people and it was very chaotic. I squeezed through the crowd with two big packages and got on the boat with great difficulty. I stood on the side of the boat and wanted to wave goodbye to my father, but he had already turned around with the bag in his hand. A pole was walking slowly outside the crowd.I felt an indescribable feeling and looked at my father's back silently.He walked up to the embankment, looked back at our boat, and I waved him again, but he didn't respond.I know he is nearsighted and can't see very clearly.He just stood there, looking straight at our boat.Finally sailed, he still stood there refusing to leave, suddenly raised his hand and waved wildly at our boat.

Next, the boat went along the Outer Qinhuai River and entered the Yangtze River. Facing the wide river, our mood immediately improved.At that time, we educated youths didn't know what our future would be like. It was dusk, and no one cared about the sunset. Everyone was attracted by the majestic appearance of the Yangtze River Bridge.That was the first time we had the opportunity to see the bridge. At that time, the steel dragon had just been built and had just held a celebration meeting.We didn't expect to see the bridge in this way for the first time, from a boat and under the bridge.Everyone on the boat was very excited, some cheered, some sang.Our boat steamed past, getting closer and closer.I looked up and looked at the huge steel beam and the rivets on the steel beam. A train was coming from a distance, rumbling past.

The bridge is getting farther and farther away, and we are getting farther and farther away from our hometown.It was at this time that I saw Ah Yan.Before that, everyone's attention was on the bridge that "one bridge spans the north and the south, and the natural moat becomes a thoroughfare".The bridge gradually disappeared, and people returned to the cabin. I suddenly found a girl standing on the stern not far away. She was wearing a cotton-padded jacket and a blue scarf around her neck, standing there alone, It seems to be still looking at the Yangtze River Bridge that has disappeared.She finally turned her head slowly, as if she had realized that someone was watching her, and glanced at me inadvertently.Our eyes met unexpectedly, I looked at her, and she looked at me.Ah Yan just turned her head inadvertently at that time, glanced at me, and quickly moved her eyes away.But I stared at her tightly, my eyeballs were like two loaded bullets, as long as I pulled the trigger, they would be fired immediately.

We had just bid farewell to our hometown, and none of us showed any signs of sadness.At that time, there was no time to be sad, and everyone was immersed in the excitement of being independent.I think the girl in front of me seems familiar, but I can't remember who she is.My approach was obviously too much, my eyes were like flies biting Ah Yan's face, and I refused to leave for a long time.Probably confused by my presumptuous gaze, Ah Yan quickly looked back at me again, and found that I was still staring at her, and quickly moved her eyes away again.She didn't get angry because of my insolence, but she was a little embarrassed and wondered why I was so insolent.It seems that we are destined to have fate, who did not think of this in advance, and can't tell what is going on.This short moment is destined for eternity.Even I couldn't explain why I had such an exaggerated behavior at that time. Before that, I had never been so devoted to a girl, and I had never even looked at a girl carefully.Ah Yan walked past me slowly, and looked back at me before getting off the cabin.

There were educated youths everywhere on that boat, and Ah Yan quickly disappeared into the crowd.Say it disappears, it disappears, it comes suddenly, and it goes away suddenly.Our boat is very slow, as slow as you want, it is an outdated old car, compared with the new hovercraft seen in today's movies, it is like a snail crawling, but at that time I felt Soon, it felt like riding the wind and breaking the waves.The noise on the boat was very loud, as if a wild beast was roaring non-stop, and the river wind was also very strong, there was nowhere to hide, and it made people tremble all over.But no matter how cold it is, I don't want to enter the cabin.For the rest of the time, I walked up and down the deck, involuntarily looking for A-yeon.The cabin was so crowded that I couldn't move at all. I could only look in from the outside.I knew Ah Yan was on this boat, and I felt that I must find her.It was getting dark, the lights in the cabin came on, and I finally saw Ah Yan again.I finally saw Ah Yan sitting in a corner of the cabin, through the windshield glass, she also noticed me outside the cabin, and smiled inadvertently.She noticed that I had been watching her outside, turning her head from time to time, giving me a look, and continuing to talk to the people around her.

At this time, Feng Rui came to me, he had already noticed my abnormal behavior, and asked me quietly: "What's the matter with you, fourth, you're sneaky, who are you looking for?" Feng Rui lowered his head, lying presumptuously on the glass window, looking at the group of talking girls in the cabin, and the group of girls also looked at him. That night, I couldn't sleep no matter what, because I couldn't sleep well.The narrow space in the cabin made people feel suffocated. Everyone sat on the narrow wooden benches, letting the sound of the machine gallop like wild horses.My mind is full of the image of Ah Yan, reminiscing about her casual smile over and over again.There was a faint cry of a girl, one after another, like the chirping of a bird in a tree.The sadness of being away from our parents was flowing in the air, we sat there, boys sat in a pile, girls sat in a pile.Someone was gently comforting the crying girl.The girl's sobs seemed to get louder and louder as she cried more and more.Finally, someone on our side couldn't bear it anymore, and said in a vicious voice:

"Cry, what's there to cry about!" The sound of scolding flashed through the night like lightning, and the cabin was suddenly quiet, and the sound of the small steamer's machine became louder again. Before this, everyone seemed to have gotten used to the noise and had forgotten the existence of the noise.The girl stopped crying, because she was overwhelmed by the sudden scolding, and she was holding back her tears.At this time, she could vaguely hear someone persuading and comforting her.Although it was late at night, everyone was not asleep and did not want to sleep.That feeling of being suppressed is more unbearable and suffocating than crying.

A girl's voice suddenly rang out, aimed at the boy who yelled just now: "Cry if you want to cry, why not let me cry!" Immediately there was a girl's echoing voice: "Cry, just cry, so what!" So the girl who was crying earlier let out another howl.This sound, dragged on for a long time, with a strange tone, immediately caused a burst of laughter from the boy's side.We all couldn't help laughing.But the laughter soon disappeared, because the girls over there were already crying a lot. It's been a long night.All night, I kept thinking, could this girl who cried first be Ah Yan.I kept wondering if this girl chirping like a bird might be the girl I was thinking about.Before I saw Ah Yan, I was very at a loss.Since meeting her, I can no longer find peace in my heart.This night, I have been thinking about the girl who made my heart flutter.This night, I have been thinking about Ah Yan.Just by intuition, I feel that it shouldn't be her, Ah Yan shouldn't be so fragile, Ah Yan can't be so fragile.I searched and pondered in vain in my mind, trying to figure out who A-Yan really was, or to put it another way, I wanted to figure out who that girl who looked very familiar to me was. There is only one shared toilet for men and women on board.It is a very simple small iron door, and the latch is broken. People inside have to pull the door with their hands to go to the toilet.At dawn the next day, everyone went to the toilet to do big and small things, and Ah Yan and I met again when we were queuing.We met again unexpectedly, looked at each other, and smiled knowingly.This smile is enough to make me swoon, enough to keep me from sleeping well for several nights.I can't wait to meet her, I didn't expect such a good opportunity arranged by God.I deliberately slowed down so that Ah Yan would be right next to me when we lined up.The boat was already driving in the canal at that time, and it is not as wide as the river, but because it is close to the shore, the scenery on both sides of the river can be seen more clearly.At that time, there were no houses on both sides of the canal. The low embankments, tall trees, large patches of reeds, and a few magpies were flying around. The scenery was like a painting.We didn't say anything, just watched the scenery on both sides of the strait absently.I'm glad we happened to line up together, she was right behind me, and the line for the toilet was long, and for me, the longer the line, the better.We had to wait patiently, for a long, long time, and finally it was our turn.I let Ah Yan go in first, she hesitated for a moment, then went in with a smile. Ah Yan's time in the toilet was not very long, and certainly not short.Because the latch was broken, she fiddled in the toilet in vain, rattling and rattling.I really want to go forward to help her, hold the door for her, and be her guard, but men and women are different, so I can only think so in my heart.Behind me was a long queue waiting to go to the toilet. Everyone was joking and chatting. I stood there very patiently, blocking the crowd behind me.I waited there, feeling overwhelmed, and after many years, I still have this wonderful feeling. For many years, I have never forgotten that scene.I can't forget the good times I spent on the boat, that was the first time I was really attracted to the opposite sex, and I fell unbelievably in love with Ah Yeon ever since.That was the most vivid scene in my memory, the day my life began, from this day, suddenly took on a completely new meaning.Ah Yan was like a beautiful swan, she was flying on the river, soaring in the blue sky, she plunged down, flew into my heart, and never let her go.From then on, everything I did, every step I took, was inseparable from her.For many years, Ah Yan always felt that I exaggerated my unrequited love.She felt that I repeatedly said these things just to please her, because in fact, my performance on the boat that day left her with not the best feeling, not only not the best, but also not very good.Boys are too shameless, they will give others a false impression of frivolity, Ah Yan thinks that I am just a man who likes to chase girls, and this impression has not changed in her life. In fact, I quickly figured out Ah Yeon's identity.Before I got off the boat, I had already passed Feng Rui and knew what Ayan's name was.I took care of Feng Rui and would introduce me to her no matter what.In fact, we may have met, but we didn't take each other seriously at the time.What surprised me was that Ah Yan was in the same school as me, one class lower than me, and was in the same class as Feng Rui.No wonder you feel that the other person looks familiar. The relationship between people is so strange. When you don’t feel it, you don’t feel it. If you feel it, you suddenly feel it. When I got off the boat, I squeezed in front of Ah Yan, my eyes rolled around, waiting for Feng Rui to introduce us. Feng Rui stopped Ah Yan carelessly, and said seriously: "Xue Liyan, this is Cai Xuemin, we all call him 'Old Four'." Ah Yan was taken aback for a moment, and gave me a half-smile. Feng Rui said to me again solemnly: "Fourth brother, this is Xue Liyan from our class." I salivated and said, "Hello." Ah Yan didn't say anything, but the girl beside her giggled.I then nodded indiscriminately at the girl next to Ah Yan.In order not to make this seem too abrupt, Feng Rui introduced me to the girl next to her.Some of those girls obviously knew who I was, so they smacked their lips undisguisedly, saying that you are the famous fourth child.At that time, I already had a notorious reputation for being fond of fighting. I couldn't help but feel a little proud when I heard people say that. Sometimes it's a good feeling to have a notorious reputation.We left each other's addresses, and we agreed that we would take care of each other in the future. I'm glad that I and Ah Yan are in the same commune. Ayan is a member of the girls' basketball team in the school. The middle school I was in had only the girls' basketball team. In order to train them, the physical education teacher often let the boys compete with them.I remember that I also played once, and I got off after a short time.At that time, I felt that when boys and girls played games, it was embarrassing to lose, and it was shameful to win.Our school used to be a very good brand-name middle school. Before the Cultural Revolution, many students were admitted to Peking University and Tsinghua University every year.In school, I hardly had any impression of Ah Yeon.We are neither in the same class nor in the same class. I was not even sure whether she was on the court or not during that game.In Ayan's class, I was only familiar with Feng Rui, and Ayan had the same impression of me. She only remembered playing games with boys, sometimes losing and sometimes winning.It wasn't until Feng Rui introduced me to her that she matched me with the fourth child who had a notorious reputation for fighting for the first time. Feng Rui's father was a big official, and later he became a bigger official.When I met Feng Rui, he was thin and small, as if he would fall if the wind blows, and he was very nearsighted.At first, because he was the son of a high-ranking cadre, everyone in the school knew who his father was and looked at him with admiration.However, his grades have always been poor. At that time, everyone was thinking, how can he get into a prestigious university with his grades.At the beginning of the Cultural Revolution, Feng Rui's father was the first to be defeated and fought to the death.To be honest, if it wasn't for the Cultural Revolution, I would never have been able to get along with children of cadres like Feng Rui.There is a big gap between our family backgrounds. My father is a historical counter-revolutionary, I am a born son of a bitch, and belong to the five black categories, but he is a son in trouble. He has gone through a process from good to bad.He used to live in heaven, but as soon as he played sports, he suddenly went to hell. At that time, various Red Guard organizations were established in the school. Feng Rui desperately wanted to get involved in these revolutionary organizations, but no one wanted him, and it was fine if he didn't want him, and there were often people who would bully him.There is a group of people who block the school gate every day, specifically bullying those students whose family background is not good.These people bully the weak and fear the strong. They have never dared to trouble me. First, I am too old. Second, I know martial arts and am a good fighter. If they mess with me, they will definitely not take advantage of it.Feng Rui suffered a lot and suffered a lot. Those people always spread their legs and let him crawl through their crotches. Not only boys like this, even those fierce girls also used this method to humiliate him.At the end, Feng Rui couldn't bear the humiliation of his crotch, so he came to beg me in a fit of anger , want to worship me as a teacher, want to learn boxing from me, let me teach him a few moves. I said that you, Feng Rui, are not worthy of being my apprentice at all, and I told him that the fourth child would never accept that kind of softie who sneaks around in other people's crotches. I said, "You look like a bear, and you're no match for others after learning boxing." Feng Rui said, "Am I going to be bullied forever?" "What does it mean to be bullied by others forever?" "Now it's a human or a ghost, and they're all shitting and peeing on my head." I said you deserve to be shit and piss on your head. Feng Rui was very disappointed, he obviously didn't expect that I would reject him. Feng Rui suddenly fell to the ground, ready to slip through my crotch.I was surprised and said that there is something wrong with you, maybe you have an addiction to drilling people's crotch.Feng Rui said, I was so blind that I wanted to take someone like you as my teacher.I don't understand why he suddenly became so angry.Feng Rui said aggressively, "Fourth, do you know the story of Han Xin's humiliation? Let me tell you, I am Han Xin. It is not too late for a gentleman to take revenge. One day, I will let you know how powerful I am." You just wait.He said, crying, crawling towards me, trying to get through my crotch.I was in a hurry, backed up again and again, and almost fell a big somersault. Feng Rui said, "Why don't you let me go through?" I said, "Forget it, you are ruthless, you are fucking ruthless, get up quickly." Feng Rui continued to cry with snot and tears, crying very sadly and desperately. I said, "Don't cry, I'll take you as an apprentice." I was going to accept him as an apprentice, but he put up an airs, lying on the ground and refusing to get up. Feng Rui said: "Since you don't like me, I won't follow your example." In this way, Feng Rui and I became friends.We became best buddies, and I gave him an ancestral copper nine-section whip from my family.To be honest, I am not very good at playing the nine-section whip myself, so I can only pass on those basic moves to Feng Rui.Because of this, Feng Rui has always regarded me as a master. Because of his thin body, he had to use some weapons when fighting.With the nine-section whip, Feng Rui was unstoppable.The nine-section whip really danced, and three or five people couldn't lean on their upper bodies, and no one could bear it when they swung it.From then on, Feng Rui studied hard and practiced hard, and he became more courageous and angry. Sure enough, he was no longer bullied by others, and he quickly learned to bully others.At that time, fighting was something that happened every day. If Feng Rui had any grievances, he would come to me for help.The problem with him is that he likes to cause trouble, and he invites people to set up a scene every now and then.Feng Rui likes to meet heroes from all over the world, and he meets buddies everywhere.At that time, we all had the feeling of breaking the can, especially after we became educated youths. When we fight, we all belong to the kind of desperate people. If we want to fight, we will fight to the death.Feng Rui has always been proud of having a master like me, and others know that he is my fourth brother's brother, so they dare not mess with him easily. I have learned martial arts from my father since I was a child. I first learned Chen-style Tai Chi, and then changed to Push Hands and Yang-style Tai Chi.In a provincial competition, I once won the ranking of the junior group, which was the second place in East China.People who have learned martial arts are fast in hands and feet, and they always have the upper hand in fights.To say this is really thanks to my father. When I was young, I fought countless times, and I basically didn't suffer any big losses.Our family has been fond of martial arts for several generations. Famous teachers produce outstanding students. My grandfather was quite famous at that time. My father was a martial arts instructor at the Kuomintang Military Academy. In the past, the Kuomintang Military Academy attached great importance to this. My father was already a major at a young age. title.However, this title seems to be quite arrogant now, but it was miserable at that time. Long before the Cultural Revolution, my father's major title was a historical issue and a historical counter-revolution.My father also has a temper that would rather bend than bend. Although he wears the hat of the four types of molecules on his head, he is only my son. He does not want his son to be bullied by others, so he taught me to box at a young age.He felt that a man must know a little bit of kung fu, so that he would not be bullied. He only hoped that I would not be bullied, and he didn't expect that I would learn to be bad because of it. Because I was notorious at the time, people often asked me to fight injustices, and I wanted to show off the limelight.As long as someone calls me, I always go there in a daze.I became a full-fledged thug. Among the eight model plays at that time, there was one called "Red Detachment of Women", in which there was a big villain named Nan Batian, and Nan Batian had a thug also called the fourth child, who was always on the waist. Holding a gun, wearing a black silk dress.Ah Yan said that when she first started calling me the fourth child, she always felt awkward and always thought of that villain in black with a gun in his waist.She felt that everyone calling me the fourth child was related to the villain in "Red Detachment of Women", and it was useless for me to explain it to her. When jumping in line, I got a pretty infamous reputation for fighting.Ayan and I live in the same county and a commune, so we often take the opportunity to visit boys from their production team.In the beginning, we treated the boys over there as targets of abuse, and beat them up every now and then, beating up those useless little boys until they saw us and ran away.The production team that Feng Rui was in was very close to A Yan's production team. Every time I went to Feng Rui first, and then went to A Yan's production team to make trouble.We not only clean up those boys, but also the farmers in the production team.There is nothing better than fighting to show our abilities. As long as there is a fight, my fourth child can show off. As long as there is a fight, my fourth child will be an eye-catching hero.At that time, because of my young age, I didn't know how to be restrained in doing things, and I didn't think about the consequences at all. In fact, sometimes I just deliberately pretended to be fierce.We played too much at that time. We bullied people all day long, just like Japanese devils entering the village. We beat one person today and punished that person the next day. It basically became a local disaster. Hearing the news, he immediately hid in fear. Soon, we made friends with the boys from Ayan's production team.If you don't fight, you can't make a deal, and if you want to fight, they are not opponents.They started to curry favor with us, so Feng Rui and I started working hard for them again, beating others up for them.At that time, there was really nothing else to do except fight.If you don't fight, it seems that there is no point in living.All kinds of reasons can be used as an excuse to fight, fight if you don’t like it, fight if you offend our brother, fight because of a girl, fight if you don’t want to borrow money, fight if you can’t borrow money.Often they fight just for the sake of fighting, sometimes there is no reason at all, and they still want to fight for no reason.For us, the years when we were educated youths were the years when our personal qualities deteriorated rapidly. We became more and more shameless. There is also the supervision of the aunt of the neighborhood committee. Now that we are in the countryside, in this vast world, the sky is high and the emperor is far away, and no one cares about us. In addition to fighting, we also started chasing girls in a hurry.At that time, chasing girls was nothing more than talking to girls with a cheeky face, talking nonsense with girls without saying anything.We're just pretending to be brave, flirting with a bunch of girls and whistling after their backs.The illusion we left for people is that girls are going to chase after them blindly. Maybe because of this, I left a bad impression on Ah Yan at first.In particular, my vicious face of fighting to death left a deep impression on her and frightened her a lot.In Ah Yan's memory, the fourth child is always fighting with others, and getting into trouble at every turn.She saw and heard countless things about me fighting. After we fell in love, including getting married later, what she worried most about was that I would fight with others.She was always worried that I would injure others and kill someone.Hearing people quarreling, seeing someone fighting, chasing and killing them on the street, the first thing she thought of was whether this could be the fourth child again. To be honest, from the very beginning, my purpose was very clear.The fourth child was by no means the kind of half-hearted man at that time, I always had only one Ah Yan in my mind.Ah Yan is my sun, my moon, the woman I yearn for and dream about, whether I fight or mess around with her production team, anyone with a discerning eye will know that it is all for her attention .She must feel that way too.Everything I do is related to her, and after almost a year, I finally let Ah Yan know that I only have feelings for her, and told her clearly that I only love her.One day, I told Feng Rui bluntly that I had fallen in love with Ah Yan, and hoped that he could help convey this meaning and send her a message for me. Feng Rui said: "Fourth brother, I'm afraid it's best for you to tell her directly." At that time, I didn't know that Feng Rui also liked Ah Yan a little bit. I thought in my heart that if you don't help with this kind of thing, then what kind of buddy is that. Feng Rui said: "I'm really embarrassed to say this." "What's the matter, aren't you in the same class?" "If you are in the same class, you can't just say this casually. What is this reckless? What should I say, just say that the fourth child has already taken a fancy to you, as if telling her to go to the commune for a meeting?" "That's all." I don't know what Feng Rui told Ah Yan at the time, anyway, he hit a big snag.A Yan blushed and scolded Feng Rui for being shameless, and asked him to bring me a letter saying that I was a rogue.Feng Rui replied to me with this news, saying that you are really serious, fourth child, it is a fucking embarrassment for me to be scolded with you.I said, Feng Rui, what exactly did you say to her, and what he said, didn't you say everything according to your words. I couldn't help asking: "What did she say?" "She called me a hooligan." "anything else?" "She said you were a hooligan too." "anything else?" "Also, what good things do you expect from her?" Xie Jingwen, who lives in the same collective household as Ah Yan, expressed deep sympathy for my infatuation. She sympathized with me because I always failed to pursue Ah Yan.Xie Jingwen knew that Ayan was the only one in my heart, and she even said to me in a joking tone once: "Fourth, I think you have no hope of chasing Ayan, why don't you change to another girl?" Later, Xie Jingwen simply said to me nakedly in front of Ah Yan: "Fourth, don't you think I'm more suitable for you? You see, you are the son of a historical counter-revolutionary. As for me, my father is a reactionary military officer. Everyone is a stinky shit. We are just a couple, and we just share the same taste. Yan's family is a revolutionary intellectual, how could they fall in love with you, why don't you hurry up and die." Xie Jingwen is a straightforward girl.She was the first female educated youth to openly talk about her boyfriend.To be honest, I was able to catch up with Ah Yan in the end, and she had a lot of credit for it.From the very beginning, she helped me chase Ah Yeon, when I suffered setbacks, she kept encouraging me, and kept saying good things for me in front of Ah Yeon.I was very desperate at the time, but once Ah Yan ruthlessly rejected me, I found myself liking her even more, even more than before.I fell deeply in love and couldn't extricate myself, and suddenly felt that if I couldn't marry Ah Yan as my wife in my life, if I didn't have Ah Yan, there would be no happiness at all.Because of the breakup, I began to feel truly unhappy for the first time, and my heart was heavy, as if a pile of stones had been mixed in it.I fell in love with Ah Yan with all my heart, but I was rejected mercilessly. This feeling is really uncomfortable.Fortunately, I am not the kind of man who gives up easily.The fourth child is not a shameless person, but he is really thick-skinned when it comes to chasing Ah Yan.I showed an unusual tenacity, even though Ayan has made it clear that she doesn't like me and doesn't want to be friends with me, as for me, I still fool around in front of her like I used to, as if nothing happened . Since Ah Yan doesn't want to talk to me, I can only talk to Xie Jingwen who is beside her.Xie Jingwen soon flirted with her first boyfriend, and became close with a Shanghai educated youth from a neighboring village. Looking at him, she always talked about him.At that time, no matter what delicious food I had, the first thing I thought of was to send it to them as soon as possible.Once, an educated youth friend gave me a large bag of crispy Shandong jujube. I only tasted one, and when my friend left, I immediately gave it away without stopping.When I arrived at their place, it happened to be meal time. Xie Jingwen held up chopsticks and asked me if I had eaten. I lied and said that I had already eaten.So they continued to eat, and when they were done, they came over to taste the crispy dates. Xie Jingwen bit the crispy jujube until it sounded loud, and said with a smile as she ate it: "Fourth brother, you really know how to flatter, but it's a pity that you didn't target me. Even if I ate it, I didn't remember it. It's useless to eat it." eat." Ah Yan didn't speak, just smirked lightly.Every time I send something, she always has this attitude, neither rejecting nor expressing gratitude.Everyone knows that I am going for Ah Yan, and they all see it as a joke.At that time, the relationship between us, it should be said, was already a little inseparable.Ah Yan knew that I was chasing her, so she deliberately didn't pay attention to me, always showing that she didn't accept me.I asked her if the jujubes were delicious, and she smiled, neither saying they were delicious nor bad.At that time, I could already feel that Ah Yan actually liked me chasing her like this. She felt that I pursued her so foolishly to please her. I feel good in front of my girlfriend.For me, that's fine, as long as she doesn't put on a straight face and drive me away. Xie Jingwen sighed and said: "I really hope that you can't catch up with Ah Yan. In this case, if there is any delicious food, I will have a share anyway." Xie Jingwen added: "I just like this kind of man, who looks like a wolf when he is fierce, and a sheep when he is good. It would be great if Wang Zhejun had half of you. Man, it would be great if they were all as crazy as you." Wang Zhejun is the educated youth from Shanghai. He is handsome and fair. He usually likes to hang a scarf around his neck. Every move he makes, he looks like a new youth during the May Fourth Movement.Coincidentally, Xie Jingwen also looks like a character from that era, and especially like the actress who played Lin Daojing in the movie "Song of Youth", but she is a little smaller.More and more educated youth started to fall in love, but at that time, they were not as public as they are now.Xie Jingwen and Wang Zhejun are together, the kind of intimacy is enough to make others dumbfounded.People at that time would never dare to cuddle in public, and Xie Jingwen dared to let Wang Zhejun walk her on a country path in his arms.At that time, this was definitely a very outrageous thing, Xie Jingwen put her arms around Wang Zhejun's neck, and walked all the way, giggling all the way. Before the Chinese New Year, the educated youth returned to the city to visit their relatives one after another. I went to their village and wanted to go with them.There are three people in their group households. One named Li Huijuan has left first. Xie Jingwen originally wanted to go to Shanghai with Wang Zhejun, but Wang Zhejun suddenly changed his mind and said that he would go to Nanjing after clearing his parents' ideological work. Pick her up.Obviously, Wang Zhejun's parents could not accept Xie Jingwen.When I went, Xie Jingwen was upset about this matter, and when I asked her about it, she ignored it.So I asked Ah Yan again, when they were leaving, Ah Yan still didn't want to pay attention to me, she gave me a blank look, and seeing that she refused to answer, I salivated and asked again.Seeing that there was no way not to answer, Ah Yan asked me in turn and calmly when I would leave. I said I wanted to leave in a few days. She heard what I said and told me that they would leave tomorrow.I quickly changed my words and said that I will go with you tomorrow, how about I help you with your things. Ah Yan immediately acted as if she didn't care, and said why should they go together, it would be nice if they went their separate ways.She said they didn't have much, so they didn't need my help.I was very disappointed, Xie Jingwen added fuel to the fire, and said sourly: “听见没有，人家这是不愿意与你一起走！” 我傻傻地怔在那，觉得有些难堪。 “老四，你真没用，”谢静文看我沮丧的样子，又看看阿妍，突然气鼓鼓地说，“没出息的东西，你脸皮怎么这么厚，为什么总是死不了这条心呢？” 我不知道说什么好。 谢静文又说：“老四，你怎么一点骨气也没有，何苦死皮赖脸呢？” 阿妍觉得谢静文与王哲军闹别扭，犯不着拿我老四煞气，被她这么一激，倒有结同情我起来，说：“人家又没惹你，你糟践他干什么？” “我高兴糟践谁就糟践，难道你心疼了，你还心疼他？” 阿妍于是就说： “好吧，一起走就一起走，一起走又怎么样？” 谢静文说：“谁说怎么样了，是你不肯与人家一起走的。” 阿妍说：“那好，就一起走。” 于是我们就一起回城。我觉得阿妍肯与我一起走，已经是天大的恩赐。一路上，谢静文喜怒无常，阿妍不停地安慰她，可是怎么安慰也没用，越安慰越来劲。她说什么话都是酸溜溜的，动不动就讥笑我，说我像一条狗一样老钉着阿妍，说我越是这样，女人越不会喜欢的。说我在阿妍面前，连男人基本的尊严都没有了。有几次我差点要翻脸，可是碍着阿妍的面，我还是都忍了。我知道谢静文是在借题发挥，是在生王哲军的气，而且也觉得自己还真像条狗似的，上车下车，上船下船，常常都是我一个人，讨好地拿着三个人的东西。到了南京，阿妍说，我们先送谢静文回家。谢静文心里仍然不痛快，到了自家门口，连声简单的谢谢都没有，扭头就走了。然后再接着送阿妍，将她送到她住的铁道宿舍大院，这之前，我已经习惯了三个人在一起，谢静文在的时候，我做什么说什么都很自然，现在就剩下我们两个人，倒不知道怎么办才好。 分别的时候，阿妍从我手里拿过行李，红着脸说： "Thank you." 我怔在那里，印象中，好像这是她第一次对我说谢谢。我不知道说什么好。阿妍以为我要说什么，等了一会，没有下文，又说： “那我们就再见吧。” 我这时才想到要说话，慌慌忙忙地说一声： "OK, bye." 在接下来的日子里，我天天都去阿妍家门口打转，希望能在那再遇上了她。这举动今天说起来真有些傻，铁道宿舍大院里有好多栋楼，我根本不知道她住在哪栋。结果我只能在大院门前走来走去，像电影上盯梢的国民党特务一样。一连多少天都是这样，到年初五那天，功夫不负有心人，阿妍穿着一件新棉袄，竟然出现在我面前。阿妍红着脸，悠悠地说，喂，你怎么会在这儿。我因为有些激动，立刻语无伦次，结巴着说自己正好路过。她便说怎么这么巧，竟然会路过这。我就假装也有些奇怪，其实她早注意到我了，她早就知道我是有意的，不忍心我再这么徒劳地瞎折腾下去。