Chapter 44 Chapter 44: Give me back my freedom (2)

Chapter 44: Give me back my freedom (2) I feel like I have nothing to say. In fact, it's not that I don't know that the pain of modern professional women is double, but there is also a chance to get married.A person who gets along with others often gets along everywhere; a person who doesn't get along seems to be out of tune everywhere.Look, Miss Wang has nothing in Dou's mansion?But she seems to live a very low life, eating when she can, wearing clothes when she can, and playing cards when she can. An unpleasant moment, and then everything is business as usual.and I?Now he is a family teacher, and he states that he provides board and lodging, pays his salary, and does not use his family for nothing, but he always feels uneasy in his heart, as if an animal in the water was suddenly put on land, and he is not used to everything. .

What was worse was that my uneasiness was immediately discovered, and some thought I was incompetent, others that I was a proud eccentric, and still others that I was putting on a show in the hope of getting something more.Since Shi Yalun didn't come to Dou's mansion, and Mr. Dou had chatted with me a few times, everyone's attitude towards me seemed to be even more uneasy.The eyes look a little strange, even if I sit among them with my eyes closed, I can still feel the tension and discomfort of the air here. Ms. Wang said to me coldly: "You shouldn't be lonely now, Mr. Dou and you talked very speculatively. Originally, we are all ignorant people..."

After she finished speaking, a young woman in colorful clothes dragged her to listen to the opera and said, "Stop talking too much, let's go to the opera. Fortunately, people without education can still live. Mr. Dou and Dou Your wife is waiting for you there." Miss Dou also left, but they didn't take me there.I don't like listening to operas, but I have an indescribable sadness of being left out in my heart. Since I can't live with them well, why not just leave them, wild flowers will only bloom in the wasteland.Where can it grow with the delicate peonies in the rich and noble bushes on the railings?

Walk!I have to get out of here!But what about life issues? They seemed to come back very late after going out to watch the theater, and they seemed to talk for a long time after they came back. For some reason, I always felt that their voices seemed not as happy as before, and the conversation was very low, as if they were discussing something that was not good. like things. On the first day, Miss Wang came to see me. I reluctantly greeted her and asked her to sit down. She glanced at me maliciously, and said with a smile: "You are wearing a black cheongsam today, how beautiful you are."

I bowed my head in embarrassment. She coughed and said, "Let's not make fun of it, tell the truth, Mr. Dou invites you to go." I didn't believe her words, so I just sat still. She smiled and said, "Don't you believe it? They really asked me to invite you over, and Mrs. Dou is also there." So I followed her. Mrs. Dou seemed to be very polite, and she kindly invited me to sit down, then touched my hand and asked me if I was well dressed. Mr. Dou sat beside him in silence. After a while, Mrs. Dou asked Fang to go away.I was confused and wanted to leave, but Mr. Dou stopped me.

What is he going to talk to me about?I am afraid. He frowned and said: "Our young lady is going to board at the school. The environment here is too bad to study quietly. We think...it's a pity for a talent like you to hang around. Do you like it?" What occupation, I can introduce it for you." I suddenly felt my face turn red. It was him who had actually resigned from me.No wonder Ms. Wang looked proud just now, and Mrs. Dou also had an unusual expression. Did I do something wrong?Did you say something wrong?I felt embarrassing for a while. He also seemed to know what I meant, and comforted me softly: "Don't worry too much, it's good that you are here. In fact, even if we don't teach our young lady to read, we would like you to live here as long as one of our own. But...but..." He couldn't continue, and after a while, he finally spoke the truth: "I'll tell you the truth, these women are always affectionate, they are all vulgar fans, they can't understand you Yes. Miss Jiang...Xiaomei! I know what you are...here..." He took out a check, put it in my hand lightly, and said: "Take this and use it first. For example, you can buy this house first, and my wife may give you something else later, you don’t need to mention this to her.”

I find it even more insulting.Why should I take his money?Unemployment is unemployment, look I'm going to starve to death?But I don't know why they misunderstood me. Could it be that I shouldn't have talked to Mr. Dou a few times?This is because he came to talk to me, and I didn't talk to him first, let alone talk about Shi Yalun and how a person should be, and other irrelevant things? " Thinking of this, I saw that Mr. Dou had stood up, and he seemed a little sorry for me, he just looked away and said, "Don't think too much, do as I say, arrange your life first, and I will take care of you." ...I will always take care of you."

I'm leaving.Like a wounded bird suddenly leaving its cage, although it is free, it still feels more melancholy and bewildered.