Chapter 31 secret diary

★Xican's diary - September 2001 ×× day In order to resolve the depression and troubles in my heart for the past few days, Chiho and I made an appointment to come to the karaoke hall today, and we are going to sing a special song, so that the cheerful music can wash away the troubles in our hearts.Unexpectedly, the private room we entered happened to be the private room that Zhen Ning and I had been to before, and there were scribbles left by Zhening and me on the wall. —— "Zhening and Xican are here to sing, may our love last forever." Why are the traces that I thought should have faded away so clear.

Phew... Chiho and I were in no mood to sing after that, and we broke up after singing dozens of sad and lingering love songs.Although the matter between me and Zhe Ning has become a thing of the past, this incident has always left a shadow in my heart. I wanted to comfort Chiho, but I didn't expect it to make her even more depressed. I'm sorry for Chiho... ...I'm sorry Zhening... ★Zhening's Diary——September 2001 ×× It has been a week since I officially broke up with Xican.Today I went to sing karaoke with my friends, and I sang especially ecstasy, because I wanted to forget the pain that Xican brought me.The moment I went out to breathe, I suddenly saw a private room that Xican and I had entered when we sang. I didn’t want to go in, and I didn’t want to touch my past scars again, but in the end I went in because I couldn’t forget the time when I was with Xican. Everything that ever was.In the private room, there are still remains of the scribbles that Xican and I used to scribble on the wall.

——"Zhening and Xican come here to sing, may our love last forever." The writing had become very faded, and I immediately took out a pen from my schoolbag and refilled them. I don't want the memories we both shared to disappear.If Xican sees these handwritings, will he come back to me again?  ★Xican's diary - October 2001 ×× day In order to change the skirt of the school uniform, Chiho and I went to the laundry in the city center today, and it happened that Zhening's pants were also there. there.Worried that Zhe Ning would come back to pick up his pants at some point, I hurriedly fled to the game hall next to the laundry.In the end Zhe Ning took Qiansui to find Xiancheng, but Qiansui only left me a text message asking me to wait for her, it was really miserable, leaving me alone.

After returning home, I was still confused, so I called Zhengmin, but it still didn't make me forget Zhe Ning.why?I'm such a bad girl, I'm sorry for Zhe Ning.  ★Zhening's Diary——October XX, 2001 Today I went to the downtown laundromat to pick up the pants I had previously delivered.Hyunseong was too lazy to go down and waited for me in the game hall on the ground level, so I went to the laundry shop on the ground floor alone to pick up my pants.As soon as I went down to the ground, I suddenly heard a familiar voice from a distance. "Aren't you afraid of meeting Zhening? The last time you saw him, nothing happened?" This was Qiansui's voice.

Then another voice said: "Even if nothing happened, I still don't want to see him, especially in this kind of place." It was Xican who spoke. Not long after, I saw Xican walking past me quickly, she didn't seem to see me. Xican said she doesn't want to see me, is it because she hates me?The girl I once loved so much now hates me so much, I have to say it is my failure in life.I pretended that nothing happened in front of Chiho, I didn't hear her conversation with Xican, and I kept talking and laughing with Chiho, with a very natural look.In the end, Qiansui wrapped my neck and asked me to take her to Xiancheng, so I had no choice but to obey.

Although I was able to pretend that nothing had happened in front of Chiho, but later when I was playing games alone, my tears kept falling down, I was such a fool.  ★Xican's diary - October 2001 ×× day When I was at school with Chiho today, her cell phone rang suddenly.Qian Sui thought it was Senior Jin Hancheng, so she asked me to answer the phone for her, but unexpectedly it was Zhening.I subconsciously lied to Zhening that my name was "Virtue", and I didn't want him to know that it was me who answered the phone.Zhening may have already forgotten my voice, so he didn't get suspicious.

Hearing that Yinsheng was being beaten up by the seniors, Chiho and I hurried to Shanggao.Unexpectedly, he saw Chiho's brother smoking those third grade students with a sack in the warehouse.After I came out of the warehouse, I ran into a group of third-year senior students who looked like menacing ghosts. When they saw me, they gathered around me with a playful smile and asked me if I wanted to go drinking with them.Of course I refused, but they ignored my refusal at all, grabbed my wrist and asked me to force me to accompany them to drink.Just when I was panicked and didn't know what to do, a man's voice suddenly came from behind me, and he yelled for those guys to let me go.Taking advantage of the moment when those villains were stunned, I shook off their hands and ran away.Although I don't know who the person who yelled was, he was really my savior.I thought I would meet Zhening in Shanggao, but I didn't see him. I should have breathed a sigh of relief, but for some reason, I felt a sense of loss in my heart. Am I still nostalgic for Zhening?call……

Jeongmin feels bad recently, and I feel sad too.Tomorrow is Chiho's birthday, what gift should I give her?  ★Zhening's Diary——October XX, 2001 Today, our seniors in the third grade came to our classroom suddenly, and took Yincheng and Yinsheng away.Why did senior Kim Han-sung appear in our second grade classroom?This is something that has never happened before, and I suddenly have a bad feeling.What should I do, I was suddenly anxious like ants on a hot pan.It suddenly occurred to me that Han Zhening, the former senior of our school, was Qianho's older brother, so I hurriedly called Qianho and asked her to ask her brother for help.Unexpectedly, it was Xican who answered the phone.

Know her voice. "Hey?" This is the voice I've wanted to hear for a long time - Xi Chan's voice.But Xican said that she was Chiho's classmate named "Virtue". Does she really hate me so much?Does she know that every time she calls her mobile phone, it's me who hangs up without saying a word?Huh... I once recorded the conversation between myself and Xican, and then put it in my ear and listened to it repeatedly every day. I am such a fool. Not long after, Brother Zhening came to our school and everything was settled smoothly.Just as I was sitting on the grass behind the school, listening to the recording of the conversation between Xican and me, I suddenly saw my senior, Shang Yi, grab Xican by force, and I don’t know where to drag her.At that time, I didn't know where the courage came from, and I ran forward to challenge Senior Shang Yi without even thinking about it.Fortunately, Xican escaped while Senior Shang Yi and I were getting entangled.

I was severely beaten up by my seniors. My body hurts, but my heart hurts even more.Xican's voice, what Xican said to me not long ago, seemed to remind me again.Wanting to see Xican but not seeing Xican, this is the most sad thing for me.  ★Xican's diary - October 2001 ×× day Today is Chiho's birthday.She is such a happy girl, she received a necklace and a handwritten love letter from Yinsheng as birthday presents.I really can't see that Yinsheng still has this skill, he is so handsome.I suddenly envied Chiho to receive such a precious love letter.Zhe Ning also came to Chiho's birthday party, and when I was hesitating about how to face him, he first greeted me with a smile... Why did this happen? The moment I saw him, I felt very sad. Sad, and I felt even sadder after saying hello to him, what a fool I was.Just as I was sitting down to chat with Zhening, Zhengmin's phone call came suddenly.I also felt that I was sorry for Zhengmin, and I was afraid that if I stayed with Zhening for a while longer, my already vacillating feelings would be shaken even more, so I hurriedly left Chiho's birthday party.Zhe Ning looks good, he should be doing well without me.Has he completely erased my shadow in his heart?I'm such a bad girl, and it makes me even sadder to think about it... I'm such a bad girl.

★Zhening's Diary——October XX, 2001 Today is a five-star day!Hehehe!Today is Chiho's birthday. Yinsheng used the wallet he earned during this time to go to a coffee shop to hold a birthday party for Chiho, and I naturally had to go there to join in.The birthday present that Yinsheng gave Chiho was a love letter. I tried my best to read the contents, but unfortunately I was unsuccessful.Love is so great that it can change a person so much.Hehe~!Silver Saint is so nasty. Also... I also saw Xican at the party, I pretended to be nonchalant, and greeted her brilliantly, She smiled back at me too. Later, Xican and I talked a lot like old friends we haven’t seen for a long time. Xican said that she was doing well recently, and I also said that I was doing well.I feel very happy to be able to chat with Xican face to face like this.But I was secretly worried, whether Xican would find it boring to talk to me, or if she didn't want to talk to me at all, she just couldn't save face and refused me, and just dealt with me casually.What a fool I am.But being able to talk to Xican is already a very happy thing for me.Xican's cell phone rang suddenly, as if it was called by Li Zhengmin, so she took the cell phone and hurried out to answer the call.I drank the rest of the wine on the table by myself and came out of the cafe. Huh... I was so upset that I picked up the recording with Xican's voice and started listening again.Although I just met Xican, now I want to see her even more.What should I do to forget Xican?Do you still have a little nostalgia for me, Xican!  one year later…… ★Xi Can's Diary——July 8, 2002 This morning I drank the most alcohol of my life.After calling Jungmin and asking him to pick me up, I sat down on the ground at the entrance of the alley.At this time, a few nasty guys came from nowhere and surrounded me, and they had bad intentions towards me.Zhengmin appeared at my most critical moment... It may have been a few minutes, or it may have been several hours, and finally I lay on Zhengmin's back, and he carried me all the way to my door. Zhengmin knew Did I get drunk because of Zhening?Thinking of this, I really feel sorry for Jungmin.I also thought about the concern and care Jungmin had given me during this period of time, so I naturally thanked him.Zhengmin didn't say anything, turned around and was about to leave, when I suddenly said like a fool: "I can't forget Zhe Ning. I still like him in my heart. I'm sorry, Zhengmin, I'm sorry, I'm really sorry." Fortunately, Zhengmin didn't seem to hear what I said. After he rang the doorbell of my house for me, he turned around and left in a hurry.At this time, I hope that he has heard what I just said. After today, I don’t know if I still have the courage to tell him. It's strange, just now Zhengmin called and said that he didn't recite me at all today.Is that guy drunk too?How could I forget everything I did.If he heard what I said to him today, if he heard what I said... I dare not think about it.No, I can't do this, otherwise it will hurt both of them at the same time, I am not qualified to do so. I should forget Zhening, really want to forget him, this is the last thing I can do for the two of them. But why do I really want to see Zhening today.I have a hunch that my days will be harder in the future, starting tomorrow, my days will be harder...  ★Zhening's Diary——July 8, 2002 This morning I met Xican, and I met Xican who I have been thinking about day and night this year.She might have been drunk. When I saw her, she was slumped down at the entrance of the alley, surrounded by a few tall bastards.Seeing this scene, I immediately became furious, and without thinking about it, I killed those bastards... I fought with them for almost two hours, and I have rarely fought like this since I was in the third grade.But compared to the anger when fighting with them, seeing Xican's slumped appearance makes me more angry.Xican was already so drunk that I had to go home with her on my back.Thinking that Xican was on my back, my heart throbbed, and I forgot the injury from the fight just now... Just when I was about to go to her house with Xican on my back, she suddenly hoarse on my back Speaking in a low voice: "Thank you, thank you for always helping me like this." Hearing this sentence, I was so moved that I didn't know what to do, and the tears that I never shed easily also flowed down.Just when I mustered up the courage to confess my love to Xican again and begged her to come back to me, Xican spoke again, as if a nail had been pierced into my chest. "Thank you, Zhengmin, it looks like I'm really drunk today, is this the first time you've seen me drunk?" It turned out to be like this, so she took me for that bastard Zhengmin.I put Xican gently at the door of her house, rang the doorbell for her, then turned around and fled this sad place.I didn't have the courage to look at Xican one more time, and I was determined not to look at her again.From today, no, from now on, I will cleanly erase all the memories Xican left me from my mind, and delete Xican's voice recording that has been left in my mobile phone for this year.I'm tired of being like a fool this year, and still having fantasies about Xican.I won't do such stupid things again, I won't shed a tear for her... Goodbye!Xican.