Chapter 21 Chapter 08

Borrowing books from Wu Renmin on behalf of Li Peizhu has almost become Zhou Rushui's regular job.Through his hands, many of Chen Zhen's books were transferred to Li Peizhu's hands. Li Peizhu read every book enthusiastically, taking them as a source of spiritual nourishment for her.This kind of enthusiastic reading has helped her personality grow gradually.So one day she felt that just reading like this could no longer satisfy her desire.She also wants to do other practical things besides reading, or participate in some useful activities to release her energy. Zhou Rushui didn't understand this situation.He was also happy to see her busy reading, but also unhappy.The happy thing is that these books are beneficial to Li Peizhu, and he also has the opportunity to "serve" her (Wu Renmin used these two words); the unhappy thing is that Li Peizhu has less time to talk to him if he reads more. Her heart was taken up by those books.For example, every time he took a few books from Wu Renmin to visit her, she would smile at him gently and say, "Thank you."

So she took the book into her own room.If he followed her in, she would let him stand by and just turn the pages of the book by herself. Zhou Rushui knew that the more she read that kind of books, the further away she would be from him.He would like her to change her mind and stop reading those books, but he didn't want to stop her either.And he is an honest man, and he won't play tricks secretly.So every time Li Peizhu asked him to borrow books from Wu Renmin, he always eagerly did so.He has always been so loyal and attentive to Li Peizhu. Many people outside talked about his relationship with her. Although this was unfounded, rumors about love were easily spread, even if the authorities did not know about it.

The news had reached Wu Renmin's ears, so when Zhou Rushui came to borrow books, Wu Renmin often laughed at him.Of course he knew what it was all about, and he was glad that someone else would spread the word for him, that her name would be mentioned alongside his, so that one day the rumor would finally reach her, and then Touch her heart. But the rumors have been spreading for a long time, and Li Peizhu's psychology is still hard to guess.Let's say she didn't mean anything to him, but she never treated anyone better.She has secretly expressed her dissatisfaction with Zhang Xiaochuan many times, and Zhang Xiaochuan also has another lover.She talked more with Fang Yadan, but Fang Yadan might not love her, and Fang Yadan didn't often visit her recently.That young student was obviously doing secret work, and he didn't come to Li Jianhong's house very often.Although her father had many young friends, none of them seemed prepared to compete with him.He seems to be in a good position.

However, let's say that she is interested in him, but apart from smiling at him often and thanking him for all the things he has done for her, she has never expressed any more intimate expressions, and she has not expressed any special concern or hinted. with words of love. He himself knew that he was asking for more than that.It is not good for him to continue this relationship for a long time.The fire burned in his heart, burning his heart achingly.His passion, his love for her, made it impossible for him to suffer in silence any longer.He thought of the painful experience in the past, and what Wu Renmin and Gao Zhiyuan said to him, "Don't ask Li Peizhu to be Zhang Ruolan's second", he felt that this time he should summon up the courage to work harder.

But how did he try?Ideals are often inconsistent with reality.Every time he saw her charming oval face with two braids hanging behind her head was covered by a light that he couldn't see through, at that time, even if he was fully prepared, he didn't have the courage to tell her clearly Speak up.Sometimes he boldly said two or three words suggesting love, but she listened as if she didn't understand.Maybe she really didn't understand the deeper meaning, because she hadn't experienced love yet, and her attention was already focused on other things. Although Zhou Rushui was often by Li Peizhu's side, his depression finally increased day by day.So one day he went to Wu Renmin, intending to tell Wu Renmin the situation honestly, asking Wu Renmin to give him some advice, or to come up with a better solution for him.

Wu Renmin was writing on the desk.He wrote so intently that he didn't even notice Zhou Rushui coming in. Zhou Rushui walked to the desk and found a strange thing: Wu Renmin was writing two notes and pasted them on two handkerchiefs. Handkerchiefs are for the ladies.The words are the two lines below, and one line on each note: "Use this to dry your tears from the past." "Cry for our pure love." "Who are you giving it to?" Zhou Rushui exclaimed in surprise.He could hardly believe his eyes anymore. "A woman," he looked up at him, slightly embarrassed, but calmed down immediately.He bent his head again to fold the handkerchiefs and tied them with a pink ribbon.

"A woman? Of course I know it's a woman. Who is that? When did you have a lover? What kind of person are you?... No wonder I heard Zhiyuan mocking you that day. I thought he was joking with you, "Zhou Rushui asked happily with a smile.He usually cares about and is interested in other people's love affairs.He seems to have a big wish, hoping that lovers all over the world will get married. Wu Renmin didn't answer, but just smiled lightly, then took out the diary and handed it to him, saying, "Take it and read it." "Your diary is so thick. I don't have time to read it. You tell me which days I should read it," Zhou Rushui said as he flipped through the diary in his hand.

Sure enough, Wu Renmin came over and pointed out to him the pages he should read, and stood beside him watching him read on, with a smug smile on his face. "That's right. Such a nice girl. Such a joy. . . . She said these things? . . . Give me a chance . . . I don't grieve at all . . . My love for you will never change . . . Well, put it this way Beautiful....Are you pretty?...A woman's gratitude lasts until death...You are so lucky....As long as you can believe that your heart is pure...That's right....Xiong Zhijun, this I don't want to borrow the name. You must take me to see her... When are you going to treat me?" Zhou Rushui read the diary, talking to himself, the smile never leaving his face.He completely forgot about his affairs, but Wu Renmin's words reminded him.

"A treat? The time hasn't come yet. You'd better wait for Zhang Xiaochuan's treat, it won't be long," Wu Renmin said with a smile. "But what about your own business? When are you entertaining again?" "My treat?" Zhou Rushui seemed to be pricked by a needle, and immediately frowned slightly. "I don't know if I have this blessing yet. Peizhu didn't express it at all. It's really worrying. So I came to discuss with you today and ask for your opinion." Wu Renmin hesitated for a moment, and then solemnly replied: "Your question is indeed a little difficult. To be honest, you may not be sure of your idea of ​​Peizhu. But it's hard to say. Why don't you work hard as soon as possible? It’s not okay to be hesitant like the last time. Courage is what is needed on the battlefield of love. If you love her passionately, you may be able to get her. Otherwise, you will let her be Zhang Ruolan’s second again. No I'm being mean on purpose, none of the women who come and go in Li Jianhong's house is worthy of love." When he said this, a smug smile appeared on his face again.

"But what do you think I should do now? Don't talk about other empty words. In short, you are biased," Zhou Rushui said anxiously with a blushing face. "What kind of strategy should I adopt now? I feel like I'm about to go back to what I was before. Peizhu is amazing, and she's different from Ruolan. She makes people flustered and crazy, but she pretends not to know." look." "Didn't I tell you that you need courage and enthusiasm? What you lack now is this. What else is there to do better?" Wu Renmin said with emphasis. "Enthusiasm and courage, I also know this level," Zhou Rushui said thoughtfully. "But I'm afraid she can't stand it. She doesn't seem to understand love at all, though she's twenty-one. She seems very naive about it. I never heard her say a word about love. She's just warm-hearted." I was reading those books left by Chen Zhen. I was afraid that my confession of love would arouse her disgust. I wanted to make it fast, but I would give up all hope. Really, I am a little scared. You should understand me. I am afraid that this I got the result of failure again and again. I also understand that if I fail like the previous one this time, my life will be over, so I have to proceed carefully. To be honest, I haven’t written a single article this month. I have written it. I can’t even read the book. I am very worried.” His words were full of trust, and he told Wu Renmin his thoughts without any concealment.

"Your thinking may not be right," Wu Renmin comforted with sympathy. "I don't believe that Li Peizhu will be a female revolutionary. She is not too young, and she is a typical petty bourgeois woman. She doesn't understand the truth of love. Be careful, don't be deceived by women. Women You have a lot of heart and mind. You should try it with all your enthusiasm. If you don’t succeed, there’s nothing wrong with simply pulling it down. Otherwise, living in the cracks of the plywood like you are will only drive you crazy. And Li Jianhong, he doesn’t Will you help me? You can talk to him." "It's no use looking for Jianhong," Zhou Rushui replied distressedly. "I saw his sanctimonious appearance, how can I express my painful heart? And he often said that he advocated that the matter of love should be resolved by his daughter himself. According to his usual remarks, he seems to disapprove of others talking about love .Only this time is an exception for Ogawa, so others attacked him for protecting Ogawa. But his relationship with Ogawa is different. I am not as good as Ogawa." "Then in the final analysis, what should we do according to your opinion?" Wu Renmin asked suddenly.He began to feel that Zhou Rushui was still the same as before, the Zhou Rushui beside him was still the same Zhou Rushui who loved Zhang Ruolan. "What should I do?" Zhou Rushui said irritably twice.Then he said loudly, "If I knew what to do, I wouldn't have come to ask you." Wu Renmin didn't speak, but just looked at him silently. "You should be more experienced than me. Seeing that you have succeeded so quickly, I know you must have a wonderful way to deal with women. Can you tell me? It will always help me. I have no idea now." Zhou Rushui There was another pleading look on his face.This shows that he really has no idea at this time. Wu Renmin sneered angrily, took out his watch from his suit trousers pocket, and said to him emphatically, "I'll tell you two ways: one is to tell her everything you feel, ask her Whether she loves you, whether she can love you, whether she is willing to love you, if she resolutely answers no, then she will simply give up, so as not to be wishful thinking for a long time, but it will be happy; Destroy life in an instant, so as not to live without pain and embarrass human beings." "You really have no reason for that." Zhou Rushui cursed with a pale face. Wu Renmin said with a smile while wearing a suit and jacket: "There is a third way, which is to go back to Province Y to find a job, find a woman to marry, and write a few fairy tales and books. It's true, it's up to you to listen to it or not. I'm going out now." He dressed, picked up the two handkerchiefs and wrapped them in white paper. The two of them walked out together.