Chapter 10 ten

I set off quickly.Da Xu wrote a letter and handed it to me.I left by car.When breaking up, take care of Daxu and write letters frequently. I encountered some difficulties on the road: I waited for two days in Baoshan for the train, and I couldn't buy a direct train ticket in Kunming.As a result, it took half a month to arrive in Beijing.Beijing was bitingly cold at the time.I got out of the car and went straight to Xiaohong's house: his father, mother, and elder brother were all there.Their family seems to be a family of high-level intellectuals, with a lot of books at home. Her father is a bald little old man who is very open-minded, and her mother is also very good.Her brother was quite like her, and I liked it the moment I saw him.When I broke in, they were all taken aback and asked, "Who are you? Who are you looking for?"

I said, "I'm Xing Hong's classmate. My surname is Wang. I'm from Yunnan... Where is she now?" They knew right away: "Oh! You are Xiao Wang. She always talks about you. Xiaohong is in the hospital, she just had the operation. The operation went well, the tumor is being sliced. Please sit down! We are going to see her .” I didn't sit down either, and immediately went to the hospital with them to see Xiaohong.She was pale and much thinner, but when she saw me, she sat up suddenly and shouted happily: "Xiao Wang, you are here! I have been waiting for you. I have received a letter from Da Xu, and I have been waiting You. I had an operation, and I'm going to be fine!"

Afterwards, I stayed with her every day. At that time, the hospital was in chaos, and there were no visits. I came early every day and left very late.Her health gradually improved, and she often asked me to accompany her to walk around the yard.When I first came here, I was very pedantic, and I was too embarrassed to even cut her toenails, but I am not afraid anymore.I often wrap her in my coat and take her to the yard by my arm.The nurses sometimes talked nonsense, saying how nice the young couple were, but we ignored them. When I left, the weather started to warm up, and Xiaohong's body was getting better.But I found that her father and mother looked abnormal.But I didn't take it to heart.I don't know much about things, and I don't know the importance of slices at all. I just see her.Da Xu secretly sent a letter urging me to go back, he wanted to come.So I went back.Xiaohong's brother sent me to the train, he was in a bad mood.I asked him what was the matter, and he said it was his own business.I didn't suspect it at first, but when the train was leaving, he suddenly supported the pillar and burst into tears.I can't help but doubt it.

Sure enough, after I returned to Yunnan, Da Xu was about to leave when we suddenly received a letter from Xiao Hong.She said she was seriously ill.Very ill and probably won't get better.She said that she felt that something had changed. It is likely that the tumor is malignant and it is still in the brain.This is really a bucket of cold water!We were all dumbfounded.Xiaohong told Daxu to hurry up.We took out all our savings and borrowed some money, and begged the group to issue a flight certificate and let Da Xu fly to her.I asked Da Xu to send a telegram immediately when he arrived in Beijing.Da Xu left in a panic.

After Da Xu left, there was no news for seven or eight days!I was so anxious that I had nowhere to go.I couldn't sleep at night, and scratched the wall skin with my hands, tearing a large piece of the wall.On the eighth day, Daxu sent a telegram: Xiaohong has arrived in Beijing, and Shang Haoxin will arrive later.I feel a little more at ease. Later, Da Xu wrote a letter, saying that Xiaohong started to have frequent headaches, and the pain was frightening.She can no longer eat and relies on drips for maintenance.Sometimes the eyes cannot see.Da Xu sadly described how she smiled as usual when she saw him, and happily hugged his neck.She asked Da Xu to tell me that she missed me terribly.She said she could hear me when she was asleep.She said that she really wanted the three of us to be together, and she was not afraid of death when the three of us were together.She also said that although she could laugh and talk, she was a little confused deep in her consciousness.She said she was afraid of this kind of death, which would strangle her from within.I almost went crazy when I read this letter.I wrote to her, to beg her, to order her to be strong, to hold on and not give in at all.I begged her to fight the disease desperately, fight for the three of us, and must keep something.I said, "Don't be disappointed, there is still hope. You are still young, and you have more energy than ten people. You can win, and I know you can. Think about how we can live together forever! "

I don't remember how those days were.Later, Da Xu sent another letter, saying that the doctor had tried a new medicine, and Xiao Hong was much better, and her eyes could see clearly.She read my letter and was very happy.She talked to Da Xu all day long, saying that her headache was better than before, and her mind was clearer.He also said that the two of them talked about me all day long, and Xiaohong said that I was the best person.Xiaohong couldn't stop talking about my details, how I laughed, she said that I have a very funny kind of smile: first I want to get angry, the corners of my mouth droop, and then I laugh slowly.She also said that I have two kinds of gloomy temperament and another kind of romantic temperament. It would be great to combine them. She likes it very much.She said I could be an artist.

At the end of the letter, Xiaohong wrote a few words: "Wang, I love you. I like your letter very much. I will fight for the three of us. Until a long, long time later, you will still call me a little girl." She I can write a letter!Although the handwriting is crooked, it is very clear. I was very happy to read the letter. Then came another letter.Da Xu said: Xiaohong's condition took a turn for the worse, and she suddenly fell into a coma and needed oxygen.He was with her day and night.He said that he was going to be stupid, his handwriting was not legible, and I couldn't understand a few places.Finally he said: There is still hope, as long as she is alive, there is hope, the hope is very weak, but it will grow.The doctors said there was no hope, but they were lying.

A day later, another letter came from Da Xu. He said: "Yesterday she was awake for a while, but she couldn't see anything, and her eyes were dark. I told her your beliefs, and she took the letter and stuck it to her chest. She said, I am going. I am only worried about you. Those who are going are only worried about those who stay, and she is not afraid of anything. I begged her not to continue, and her voice dropped. Last night she It's very bad, but she survived. Xiao Wang, is there any hope? Is there any hope?" I was just frantic, and then I got a letter.A telegram was enclosed in the letter, and Da Xu wrote: "Xiaohong has passed away. Her last words are to let us mourn. I will come back to be with you. Xu."

I let out a long howl when I read these words, and scratched my hands for a while.I felt a chill in the back of my head.I sat for a long time, and it got dark and lighted up again.I went to eat mechanically, went to work mechanically, and came home mechanically.I was lonely, closed off from real grief, and I couldn't think of anything.Until one afternoon, Da Xu pushed open the door of our house and cast the setting sun and his long figure in. I stood up, and I saw that Da Xu's hair had turned gray a lot, and his black hair seemed to be covered with a layer of hoarfrost.I rushed over and hugged him.A valve opens.Everything comes up.We cried, and then we sat side by side and wept, sobbing quietly.Da Xu is wearing a black gauze, he has lost weight.He got up and took a small black lacquered box from his bag and put it on my bed.I asked him with my eyes, and he said with difficulty: "Xiaohong left her last words, she left the ashes to the family and us. This is her."

I felt like I had been hit hard on the back of the neck.I dropped to my knees, grasped the box with cramped fingers, and stroked the box.am i cryingThere was no sound or tears, only endless misery exhaled from the heavy panting, endless. Later, Daxu and I were together for two years, and then we separated.We divided Xiaohong's last few letters.He wants to take Xiaohong's remains and leave her box and clothes to me.We separated the books left by Xiaohong, each of us took half of them, then we packed our bags and locked the door behind us.We get out of there and move on to a new life.