Chapter 9 Nine

She said: "It's not that bad, maybe it's a small problem. Why do you mobilize people? I'm going to see a doctor and you have to accompany me. I won't go." We said we had to go, otherwise we were worried.Later she agreed, but said she didn't want us to go with her.The next day we went to the field, and when we came back at noon, she hadn't gone to the hospital, but she got up and made us a meal, which was delicious.She clapped her hands and asked us to taste it.But we came to the kitchen with a stern face, and instead of talking to her, we lowered our heads and ate.She was upset and said, "You don't want to eat the food I cook?"

I gave her a blank look and said, "Who asked you to cook when I told you to see a doctor? You don't do what you agreed to do." She was stunned for a while, and then cried: "What's wrong with you? Treat me like this? Can't people go to the doctor in the afternoon? I'm younger than you, and I'm a girl. You just treat me like this..." We quickly put down the rice bowl to coax her, and then she stopped crying, and then laughed again.With tears in her eyes, she said: "I must go to the doctor, but you must eat the food I cook. I am so proud of it! If you don't eat, I won't go to the doctor, and I won't go!"

So we sat down and ate the meal she cooked together, and she said again: "I won't bring this kind of food in the future. Two people work together to show one person's face." I said, "Isn't it okay for your own good?" "If it doesn't work, it won't work. Don't you know? No matter what you ask someone to do, it is not only for his own good, but also to make him happy. This is the art of love. To make people happy in doing things, you can only let them Happiness is love, you know?" We both nodded.We praised her cooking greatly, and we praised her from the bottom of my heart. She was very happy.We sent her to the bridge before work in the afternoon.When work was over, she had already returned, sitting in the corridor, having just washed her hair, looking very happy.

We asked her, "Did you find out what's wrong?" She said: "It can be said that it was found out. Dr. Yu showed it to me, and she said it was probably glaucoma, and she told me to go to the ophthalmology department. Dr. Zhang of the ophthalmology department was away on a business trip, and there was only one doctor at home. Veterinarian. He looked at me for a long time, but he didn’t find anything wrong, and gave me a lot of medicines for glaucoma. I’ll just use these medicines first.” We thought this was the correct diagnosis, so we were relieved. The doctor gave her a leave of absence, and she rested at home.We go to work and she does chores for us at home.But her headaches were not cured by glaucoma medicine at all, and she often suffered from them. Gradually, she was not too afraid.When Dr. Zhang came back from a business trip, we accompanied her to see her again. Dr. Zhang immediately denied her glaucoma and returned to internal medicine.The internal medicine department couldn't see anything wrong, so they sent her to the hospital for observation, but she absolutely didn't think about it.We said that we broke our lips, and we couldn't convince her with a thousand arguments.In the end we threatened: If she goes back, none of us will talk to her; and made a big wish: If she stays, we will visit her every day.After threats and lures, she finally couldn't stand it anymore and agreed to be hospitalized, but asked us to "visit her often, but not every day."We left her and went back.After work every day, we cleaned up and went to the hospital to see her.It takes about 40 minutes to walk from our place to the hospital.She was glad to see us, and sometimes came to meet us on the road.Sometimes in the afternoon she would sneak back and wait for us at home, make a meal, and read a book in my bed.She kept saying that she didn't want to be hospitalized, and she wouldn't leave if she wanted to come back, but we escorted her back that night.She was sure to sneak back on Sunday.But her illness was getting worse, her headaches were becoming more frequent, her face was becoming paler and thinner.She was still alive and kicking, but her physical strength was much weaker.We were so anxious that we both suffered from neurasthenia and couldn't sleep for several hours a night.We didn't read any books, only medical books.The doctor at the hospital still couldn't tell what was wrong with her.

One day I saw her throwing up, and I immediately thought she had a brain tumor.I asked her how long she had vomited, and she said: two or three times.I immediately took her to Dr. Yu and said, "She started vomiting recently, could it be a brain tumor?" Dr. Yu said, "No way, she is so young." I said, "Doctor, she is old, I can't find it here, so why don't you go to Kunming to have a look?" Doctor Yu pretended to be serious and said, "I'm thinking about it too." Xiaohong didn't lose her temper this time, she obeyed her reason.Perhaps she also felt that she was seriously ill.Daxu and I went around urging people to go through the transfer procedures for her, and it was done very quickly.Daxu went to the county to buy a bus ticket for her, and she and I went back to the team to pack our things.She opened the box and took out the changed clothes and put them in her handbag, and said a little sadly, "Will my trip be long this time?"

I said, "Maybe it will grow. Xiaohong, try to transfer to Beijing after you recover from your illness! Your health will not be as good as before. You should go home." She grabbed my hand, looked at me nervously and said, "Don't you like me anymore? Why do you say that? Why do you want me to leave?" Tears welled up in her eyes.I patted her on the shoulder lightly and said, "Don't be nervous, don't be nervous. We will go back too, and we will find you. The three of us will live together forever." She thought for a while, and said to herself: "Really, I am sick, and I miss home. There is a mother and a brother at home. They will miss me when they know. You are here. I can leave home, but I can't leave home." Leave you alone. You should go back to my house with me. I won’t go without you!” Suddenly she fell on my shoulder and cried bitterly: “I feel very sick! Maybe it won’t get better, maybe I will become a big fool. I was very sad, but I tried my best to restrain myself and said: "No, no. Xiaohong is thinking nonsense, little girl is thinking nonsense, I beg her to stop thinking, I beg her not to cry!" But she crouched On my shoulders, she uttered a lot of terrible thoughts: "What I have is probably a brain tumor. They are going to operate on me and open my skull. I am afraid!" She curled up in my arms and whispered: " They want to use my brain, but I'm just thinking, and they want to touch my brain. If I don't do it, I'm going to be a fool! Never love again, and I can't speak coherently, maybe , I can't even recognize you. I'm really afraid..." I was terrified when I heard it, as if I had seen everything.I told her to stop, I said it was impossible, but the tears rolled down my face and dripped into her ears.She noticed it and jumped away to see me.She took out a handkerchief to wipe away her tears, and then came to wipe my tears again. She smiled slowly, first reluctantly, then sincerely.She said, "I'm happy! You should be happy too. Nothing will happen. I have a hunch that nothing will happen. I'll be fine. Be happy!" Then he said cheerfully: "I was acting stupid just now, I was acting stupid. Don't tell Da Xu anything."

When Da Xu came back, she was always very happy.We took her on the road the next day.She jumped into the car happily, smiled and waved to us inside, and even improvised a lie, telling us: "Brother, brother, I will be back soon!" I said, "Come back after being cured." She said: "Of course, of course, come back after being cured." The car started, and she poked her head out again and shouted: "I'm cured, let's go play!" We waved our hands and ran after the car, shouting: "Goodbye, Xiaohong!" She also shouted: "Goodbye! Goodbye!"

We are at home waiting for her letter.We awaited her letter with anxiety.Da Xu and I talked less.Every day when we go to work, we feel very unnatural, as if we lost a hand, or lost half of our brain.Every time I go home, I have an urge to go to the ward to greet Xiaohong, or to pack up my things in a daze and want to go there to see her.Sitting in the house at night, we don't read books, and we don't even light the lamp.We sat upright in the dark, thinking of Xiaohong.Then she wrote a letter, she—— wrote the letter when she arrived in Kunming, but the letter was on the road for five days.She said that she was admitted to the hospital as soon as she arrived in Kunming, and the conditions in the hospital were very good.She happily described the doctors and nurses one by one, and then said that an angiography will be performed on her soon, and she will know if she has a brain tumor.Later her handwriting became scribbled.She said: "I am very lonely by myself. I miss you very much, I miss you very much. Sometimes I want to sneak back, and I am afraid that you will scold me. If possible, come and see me. Brothers, come on!" She cried until the letter paper was stained with tears.In the end, she became happy again, but it could be seen that she was pretending. She said that Kunming is a very interesting place, and the hospital is also very interesting. Let us not worry about her. She is very happy and will come back when she recovers.She happily wrote "Goodbye" at the end.

We read the letter again and again, and suddenly it occurred to me that we hadn't visited relatives for two years, so we could ask for family leave.By the way, great!This time the trainer can't play tricks either. There are regulations on family leave.The two of us rushed to the company headquarters to ask for leave, and the captain immediately approved us both.We immediately went to the battalion headquarters to go through the formalities, only to meet the instructor.He took the captain's note and said in a sly way: "You are all strong labor force in the company. Isn't it too much to go two at a time? Let's go one by one! Come back and go one by one." How wicked this guy is!Cough, fuck your trainer!We go one by one.It is important to have someone to comfort our little red.I'll go first, come back in a month, Daxu will go again.None of us planned to go home, so we wanted to go to Kunming to be with her.I was about to leave when I received another letter from her.She complained: Angiography is so uncomfortable, and then said that the brain tumor has been diagnosed, but the location of the tumor is not good, and the hospital in Kunming dare not move, so she was transferred to the hospital in Beijing. She has already bought a ticket and is leaving .She asked us to find a way to come to Beijing, and she also thought that we could ask for family leave.She said: "I remember, you can take family leave! I feel much calmer when I think about it. Let's go home together."