Chapter 7 seven

Juexin walked in, and just turned around the rocks and plantains, when he heard Shuhua talking in the room: "Others hate me, scold me, and say what about me, I don't care. What does my business have to do with them? I don't care." Brother Xiang. He's a nice guy, he's so nice that no one can do anything about him..." He felt that the last two sentences were a bit harsh, and he couldn't bear to listen, so he deliberately coughed and walked up the steps with heavy steps. "Big cousin," Qin called out.Juexin agreed and walked into the house.All eyes were on his face.He tried his best to look calm, as if he didn't hear Shuhua's words.

"Brother, what a coincidence, when we mentioned you, you came right here," Shuhua looked at Juexin calmly and smiled.Her face was flushed, and she seemed to be drinking. "About me? What do you say about me?" Juexin asked deliberately, and he forced a smile. "We said you were too kind," Jean interjected softly.There was an expression of pleading in her eyes, which Juexin did not understand.But Juexin found kind concern from her voice and expression. Juexin smiled wryly at her, and said in a low voice, "In my conscience, I'm not worthy of being considered a good person. I've been sorry to others, and I've been sorry to myself..." He lowered his voice as he spoke, and only he could hear the last sentence.

"Big cousin, is Brother Mei gone?" Yun asked from the side, it was a superfluous question, but she used it to interrupt his melancholy. Juexin raised his head and saw Yun's bright smiling face and a pair of lovely dimples.The innocent expression showed him the beauty of youth.Even his withered heart was a little alive.He answered her gently: "Let's go." "Brother Mei finally spent a happy day at your house today, and he even said a few words today." Yun said gratefully. "You still said how many words he said?" Shuhua laughed and pointed at Yun, "I don't think Cousin Mei has spoken at all. Fourth Sister doesn't talk much either. Today I am the only one talking. "

"That's right, you were the one who talked the most, who can compare with you?" Juemin sarcastically said beside him. "Naturally, I'm famous for my Chiliguala. I can say whatever I have to say, and it's much quicker to get a headache than being bored in my heart. Second brother, do you think I'm right?" Shuhua looked at Jue smugly. Min said. "Third sister, you got drunk tonight," Juexin said softly, frowning slightly. "Where is the word? I've never been drunk before. If you don't believe me, we'll have a drink again," Shuhua stood up, smiling, and said loudly. "Sister Qin, shall we have a few more drinks?" She walked over and grabbed Qin's sleeve, leaning on Qin's body.

"You're already drunk, who wants to drink with you?" Qin smiled and broke away from Shuhua's hand.She stood up and supported Shuhua and said, "You should stop so that you don't fall down. I'll ask Qixia to take you back first, okay?" Shuhua hastily summoned up her energy to stand upright.Arguing vigorously: "Which one is drunk? I am clearly more sober than us. You are all drunk." Taking advantage of Qin's unguardedness, she grabbed Qin's braid and took it to her nose to smell it, and deliberately praised: " It smells so good!" Qin turned around, and Shuhua let go of her hand.Qin stretched out her hand to Shuhua's head and tapped lightly, while scolding: "You naughty girl should be beaten."

Everyone laughed, and Shuhua laughed even harder. "You played well. Sister Qin, please teach her a lesson," Juemin said jokingly. When Shuhua heard this sentence, she hugged Qin with a playful smile and said, "Please teach me a lesson, please teach me a lesson." "You stand up, you stand up," Qin said, pushing Shuhua's body away. "I don't know the rules and should be beaten, please teach me a lesson," Shuhua begged deliberately. "Third sister, stop properly and stop making trouble," Qin told with a smile. "Your second cousin wants you to teach me a lesson, you have to teach me a lesson," Shuhua still refused to let go of the piano.

"Who is my second cousin of yours? Why only say my second cousin? He is not mine alone," Qin retorted grabbing Shuhua's words.When she said the last sentence, she felt that she had made a mistake, so she shut up. "Why isn't it yours alone? Do we still call him the second cousin?" Shuhua grasped the topic and said triumphantly. "I also call my second cousin," Yun pursed her lips and smiled. "Cousin Yun, you are different from Sister Qin," Shuhua replied with a smile. "How is it different? Tell me," Qin asked with a forced smile.

Now Juemin came to rescue Qin.He didn't wait for Shuhua to speak, he said to Shuhua first: "Sister, look at you, you only want to make trouble and make big brother go away." Everyone quickly looked for Juexin with their eyes, but he was no longer in the room. "Where did big cousin go? He was here just now," Qin said in surprise. Cuihuan walked in from the outside, and when she heard Qin's words, she replied, "Young master is watching the moon in the back patio by himself." "What's on his mind?" Juemin said to himself with doubts. "Let's go look for him. We said we were here to watch the moon. Sister Qin, cousin Yun, let's go!" Shuhua said, encouraging them to go to the back patio.She was the first to go out the door.

Everyone followed.Cuihuan and Qixia stay in the room to clean up the teacups on the table. Shuhua went to the back patio and saw Juexin standing quietly by the pool with his back to her.She couldn't help asking loudly, "Brother, what are you doing here alone?" Juexin turned his head to look at her, and replied flatly, "It's very quiet here, let me take a look at the moon." Pretending to hear Juexin's words, the spring water trickled down.The moonlight illuminates the stone wall and paints the pool with a clear glow.Juexin's upper body was also bathed in moonlight, with his back slightly bent, motionless, like a shadow in a painting.At this time, even Shuhua understood what memories were tormenting her elder brother.She went down the stone steps.Juemin also came.

Shuhua raised her head and looked at the sky, she felt that bursts of clear light sprinkled on her face, absorbed all her unpleasant thoughts, and at the same time soothed her burning heart. Qin and Yun also walked to Juexin's side, while the taciturn Shuzhen still followed behind Qin.Juexin heard footsteps and turned around to meet them.He said kindly, "You are all here." "Let's look at the moon," Jean replied. “This place hasn’t changed at all,” Juexin whispered. "You vomited here once last year," Qin said. "I feel like it was just yesterday," Yun said wistfully.

"I also feel like it was just yesterday, or even today. We are all here at the moment. It's just that the second sister, Tonghui, and cousin are missing," Juexin said in a low voice, as if he had all his feelings buried in his heart.He paused for a moment, and then said, "Second Sister has finally achieved her goal, she has found freedom. Only Cousin Hui is so pitiful." He replaced his unspeakable words with a smile.Yet one cannot tell whether he is laughing or crying. They remained silent.They struggled to hold back their tears.Yun struggled harder than Qin, and she didn't dare to answer a word, for fear of drawing her tears out. Shuhua and Juemin take a walk in the courtyard.At this time, they also walked to Juexin's side.They also heard what Juexin said later. "Brother, why mention the past?" Shuhua persuaded sympathetically.Her grief and indignation gradually rose.She added: "Bringing it up will only make everyone sad." "Of course they are things of the past, but they will not be completely past," Juexin said in a bitter voice, "everything today is the same as last year. Cousin Mei just mentioned his sister to me. What did he say?" It's all empty. Now it's his turn to go that way again." "It's not up to you to decide what happened to cousin Mei. It's not your fault. Why should you be sad?" Shuhua persuaded. "Oh, how did you know?" Juexin sighed, "Cousin Hui once entrusted me to take care of him, but I couldn't even do such a small thing." "Big cousin, it's not your fault. You know uncle's temper. How can he listen to other people's words? Sister Izumi knows, and she won't blame you," Yun heard Juexin mentioning her death. Cousin, she felt a burst of sadness in her heart, but she still managed to suppress her painful memories, and comforted Juexin softly. "Cousin Mei is also strange. Others worry about him, but he doesn't seem to care at all. If it were me, I would definitely not agree," Shuhua said angrily. "If you don't agree, what will you do?" Juemin interjected coldly. "How?" Shuhua said courageously.She didn't think about what to do, she couldn't answer for a while, and felt a little embarrassed, but she immediately covered it up with another word: "I will definitely not agree, let's see what uncle does to me?" In fact, she hadn't thought of a Method.But she has courage.She thought that was enough. "After all, you are a stubborn child," Juemin said simply, and stopped asking.His hand patted her shoulder twice. "You are all good, you are all more useful than me," Juexin suddenly said enviously, a gleam appeared on his face, but the light immediately faded again.He added, "I'm finished." "It's over? How can you say such a thing? Cousin, aren't you very young? You are only twenty-six years old this year, and you are a promising young man," Qin said in surprise, she wanted to remind him , encourage him. "Promising young man? Sister Qin, are you mocking me?" Juexin said with a wry smile.He didn't wait for Qin to open his mouth, and continued by himself: "I know you won't ridicule me. But I really don't deserve to be called a promising young man. Like the second brother. The third brother is the one." "Brother, what's the difference between you and the second and third brothers?" Shuhua interrupted.This is something she cannot understand. "I'm a great-grandson, the eldest grandson of the Changfang. The Gao family needs me to support the situation. How can they let me go?" Juexin replied as if holding infinite grievances. "They always come to me for anything, and they won't come to you. It's my fault that you offend them; it's my fault that you look down on ethics. I'm the only one responsible." Qin and Yun were speechless for a moment, they were deeply moved by this unexpected confession.Juemin was about to speak, but Shuhua preemptively said: "I really don't understand. Can't you deal with them like us? If you ignore them, what will they do to you?" Juexin hit a snag.He couldn't find the right words to answer Shuhua.After a while, he said slowly: "They will never let me go for nothing." At this time, it was Juemin's turn to speak: "Why are you so afraid of them? Do they still dare to use family law in this day and age?" "They dare not use family law. But they will use insidious means, they will use conspiracy," Juexin's voice is mixed with three emotions: fear, hatred, and distress. "Brother, you have been hurt enough by them in the past, that's why you are so afraid of them," Juemin said pitifully. "I don't believe they have anything insidious about them. I see them as paper lanterns." "It doesn't matter if you don't believe it. One day, after I die, you will understand," Juexin said angrily. "Big cousin!" Qin asked with concern.Called out sadly.Juexin turned around."You can't think like that," she said, almost whimpering. Juexin saw Qin's tears.Tears rolled down from her big beautiful eyes like pearls.He could not forget such a few teardrops.There was another who was weeping for his misfortune.He thought that his insignificant existence could not be moistened by a single tear!His heart was full of despair and darkness.But these few pure tears of a girl fell on my heart, like sowing a spring seed.He dared not hope to see it sprout.But he felt a glimmer of life.His mood of a condemned prisoner was now disturbed.He seemed to be disarmed by someone, and he spit out the words hidden in his heart: "Sister Qin, don't I want to live? Don't I imagine you to be a good person like this? I am right. You have witnessed what I have experienced in the past few years. I am not willing to submit to fate. But what kind of result did I get? You should understand me. I won’t lie to you, one day I walked there alone Go up (pointing to the rock wall), I really wanted to jump into the lake to die. But I seemed to hear your voices, and I immediately gave up that idea. You held me back. I really miss you." He also shed tears. "Why are we willing to part with you?" Qin said tearfully.Others looked at them moved.Shuhua wanted to cry very much. "Let's go up there and have a look," Juexin said, pointing to the stone wall again. "It's late now, don't go," Qin hurriedly stopped. Juexin smiled sadly, and said, "I won't do that kind of thing now, don't worry. If you want to see the moon, it's better to go up there. I've talked a lot tonight, and I feel refreshed." He said After that, the first one set foot on the stone steps. Qin glanced at Juemin suspiciously, and Juemin immediately answered her with words: "It's good to go up there. We should also listen to what Big Brother has to say." Shuhua walked faster, she followed Juexin up.The rest followed suit. They went up against the moonlight and climbed the stone steps step by step.When they reached the top, they felt that their eyes were full of light, without any obstruction.The ground of sanhetu was covered with pure white moonlight, only their shadows left some black marks. A small stone square table stands on the ground as if it were standing there, surrounded by four round stone benches.There are iron railings on both sides of the lakeside and the Tingyuxuan.On the other two sides, the soil sticks in.That is not a land made of triadic soil.There are grape trellises, rockeries, gazebos, and flower beds.Looking from here, it seems that an old painter painted some flowers and rocks on the moonlight background with a bald pen. "It's really a quiet world here," Yun Bujue praised. "It's fine to sit here," Qin said, telling Yun to sit down.Shuzhen was the first to feel tired, and she also sat down. "It would be great if we could play 'Mahjong' four times here during the day," Juexin also sat down, touched the tabletop, and said carelessly.This sentence was indeed said without thinking. "Brother, do you still want to play 'Mahjong'?..." Juemin asked strangely. "Ah... I just said it casually," Juexin quickly explained, "I'm not addicted. I hate playing cards... But they always drag me to play cards. I play too many cards, and I always shuffle them in my mind. Voice." He shook his head, people didn't know whether he was expressing his despair at himself, or wanting to get rid of the heavy pressure on his shoulders. "Big cousin, it's too painful for you to perfunctory like this. You should think of something else," Qin advised sympathetically. "Any other way?" Juexin said in pain.He didn't seem to understand the meaning of the sentence.Then he said: "Sister Qin, you should understand my situation. What do you think I can do?" Qin understands the new situation, and she also knows that there are many things he can do.She was about to speak, no, she had already said a few words, but someone came up from below, and someone called: "Miss Fourth," which attracted her attention, and she fell silent. It was Chunlan and Cuihuan who came.As soon as Chunlan came up, she called Shuzhen, and she said that sentence countless times: "Miss Si, my wife is calling you." This is a very common thing: when Shuzhen is with her brothers and sisters, , her mother would often send her maid or maid to call her away.The little girl was still talking to herself: "It was so hard to walk around in a big circle this time, and I almost tripped over." "Fourth sister is really unlucky. She played well here, and if she is called back again, it must be that fifth aunt and fifth father had quarreled again." Before Shuzhen could speak, Shuhua complained first. "Third sister, be careful what you say, so as not to cause trouble again," Juexin glanced at Shuhua and reminded her. "I'm not afraid, and it doesn't matter if I offend someone. The fourth sister is so pitiful. The fifth aunt tortures her all day like this, and no one comes out to say a word of justice!" Shuhua retorted angrily. Shuzhen sat without making a sound or moving.She stared blankly at Qin's face, and she begged: give me some help.Qin caressed Shuzhen's face with soft eyes. She seemed to be saying to the unfortunate girl: I will help you. She turned her head to look at Chunlan. Chunlan was walking to the iron railing and looked down at the scene below.The emerald ring is also standing there. "Chunlan, what is your wife calling Miss Fourth to go back?" Qin asked. "Our wife quarreled with the master just now, she threw things on the floor, and she even cried. My wife told Miss Fourth to go," Chunlan quickly turned around and replied excitedly. "I must take my fourth sister out again! There is such a mother in the world!" Shuhua scolded beside her. "Not only are there, but there are many," Juemin interrupted coldly, replying to Shuhua's words. "Where's your master?" Qin continued to ask Chunlan. "Master is in Miss Xi's room," Chunlan replied. "Sister Qin, I don't want to go!" Shuzhen suddenly stood up, walked to Qin's side, grabbed Qin's arm, leaned against Qin, and sobbed. "Then, don't go. It's your bad luck if you go, Fifth Aunt will scold you all night," Shuhua suggested righteously. "Well, Chunlan, go back and tell me, I'll leave Fourth Miss here to play for a while, please don't worry your wives," Qin told Chunlan.Even if she uses this method, she herself doesn't know if it will be effective. "Yes, Miss Qin," Chunlan replied obediently.Still standing by the railing, she turned around to look at the lake view below.She is only a few months older than Shuzhen, so she is more playful than Cuihuan, but she rarely has the chance to play. "Fifth Aunt wanted to use Xi'er to hold Fifth Dad down, but she didn't know that she would cause trouble for herself instead? Unexpectedly, after Xi'er gave birth to her ninth brother, she would become more famous!" Juexin said, frowning. "We can't blame Xi'er. Fifth father and fifth aunt should be responsible. Fifth aunt forced her, and fifth father backed her up. That's enough," Juemin continued.He said to Chunlan again: "Chunlan, are you still going back?" "Second young master, I'll go back," Chunlan quickly turned around and replied, she added to herself: "It's late to go back, our wife is going to scold someone again." She then walked towards the stone steps. "Chunlan, wait a moment," Juexin ordered suddenly.Then he said to Qin: "Sister Qin, I think it's better to let the fourth sister go back. You know the temper of the fifth aunt. The fourth sister can't stay out of the house all night. If you want to disobey the fifth aunt, she will I vented my anger on Simei." "It's really unreasonable! I don't believe that children are parents' outlets. As children, parents can beat and scold them at will!" Shuhua said angrily. "Fourth sister, you'd better go back with Chunlan, I want Cuihuan to accompany you too. Fifth Aunt's temper is like that, so I have no choice but to give in to her, she won't make things difficult for you," Juexin said to Shuzhen gently Say. Shuzhen heard Qin say to keep her here, and Chunlan said she wanted to go back, she thought it was okay for me to leave, A little relieved.Later, when she heard Juexin's words and saw that Qin was silent, she also understood that Juexin was telling the truth. She knew her mother's temper, and she was even more afraid to see her mother at this time, but she had no way to escape. .She saw hope disappear completely.She also held Qin by the arm, hoping that Qin could save her. "Fourth cousin, it's good for you to go back, don't be sad. We will find a way for you in the future," Qin grabbed Shuzhen's hand, squeezed it gently, and comforted her softly. Shuzhen didn't speak, didn't move, just buried her head. "Fourth cousin, it doesn't matter if you go back. We'll visit you in your room later," Yun encouraged Shuzhen with sympathy. "I'm afraid, I know Mom has no good things to say to me," Shuzhen still buried her head and sobbed softly. "Fourth cousin, please bear with me, sister, we will always find a way for you in the future," Qin comforted her. "Sister Qin, you always talk about the future, what day is the future? I'm afraid I won't be able to bear it!" Shuzhen raised her head, squeezed her mouth, and cried. "We really should think of a way," Juemin nodded with a painful expression, then turned around and walked away. "It's a pity that I wasn't born in ancient times, so I can't learn some skills. Otherwise, I must have a way!" Shuhua said angrily, complaining to herself. Qin bit her lip in pain, she couldn't give this lonely girl a definite answer. "The future" is not a dream, she really believes so.That day will surely come.But can she really rescue this girl from suffering and bring her to the light?Hope is faint.She couldn't lie to herself, and she couldn't lie to this fifteen-year-old girl.Words are easy to say, but it is difficult to wipe away a girl's painful memories and heal the wounds in her heart. "Fourth cousin, don't think so, you are still very young," Qin reluctantly spat out these two sentences.She should have continued, but Chunlan came over and interrupted her thoughts. "Miss Si, we should go," Chunlan urged. "Miss Si, let's go," Cuihuan also came over and said sympathetically, "I'll take you there." Shuzhen knew that there was no hope left.She had no choice but to take out her handkerchief and wipe her eyes, and said desolately: "I will follow your orders, and I will go. Don't forget to come and see me later." Everyone agreed to her small request.With a reluctant expression, she followed Cuihuan and the others down. Jean stood up.She saw Shuhua and Juemin leaning on the railing to look at the lake view below, so she went there too. The lake lay silently below.A blue sky and a bright moon appeared at the bottom of the water.The sky is inlaid with white clouds like fish scales.A moonlight floated on the surface of the water, and the moonlight kept flowing.On the opposite side are dense green trees, and rockery and roof ridges loom behind the trees.It all went to sleep quietly.Only a few star-like lights appeared in the bushes.The lake carried the moonlight forward.But Qin's gaze was blocked: the high rocks on both sides covered the lake, as if that was the limit of the lake. "Whoa, whoa, whoa," these rustling sighs from behind added to the annoyance. "Why is the old crow still screaming at this time," Shuhua said in surprise.She heard the sound of crows flapping their wings again. "Maybe something disturbed it. Third sister, are you afraid of ghosts?" Juemin said quietly. "Second brother, don't scare me. I'm not afraid! I don't believe in ghosts!" Shuhua replied proudly. "Listen, there are footsteps," Juemin whispered deliberately. Shuhua listen up.She saw Yun approaching.But there were other footsteps.She hurriedly looked towards the stone steps. "Second cousin, what the hell are you talking about?" Yun asked with a smile. Shuhua burst out laughing, she saw Qixia's head.She smiled and said, "It's obviously Qixia's footsteps." Qixia came up and said loudly, "Third Miss, Eldest Young Master, I brought you tea. It's freshly brewed spring tea." She was holding a tea tray with a teapot and cups on it. "We're about to come down, it doesn't matter if you don't take it down," Juexin said listlessly, feeling that he was about to be overwhelmed by so many unsatisfactory things. "Brother, why are you in such a hurry, let's play for a while longer," Shuhua said, "Could it be that everyone is interested in being together tonight?" "Okay," Juexin replied briefly, and then took a teacup from Qixia's hand. The scale-like white clouds gradually dissipated, and the blue sky became a little lighter.Only the bright moon like a silver plate continues its voyage steadily.