Chapter 18 i'm corrupted

There is a saying that nails are iron, and blood is seen when slaughtering a sheep. When Jiang Yuanlan solemnly told Teacher Xiao Cheng that he was married, Teacher Xiao Cheng couldn't believe that the heartbroken man in front of him was a groom.  Teacher Xiao Cheng got the news within half an hour after I sent Aqi to our village and returned to the county.At that time, Teacher Xiao Cheng had just finished a bowl of sheep oil fried noodles, and his mouth was full of batter: "Where is your bride? Did you get married back during the holiday? What does she do? Why didn't there be any news in advance?" Teacher Cheng asked in surprise. "You have to keep it secret, promise me." Jiang Yuanlan almost used a threatening tone. "Why? Why exactly?" Teacher Xiao Cheng, who was about to clean the car, threw away the rag and the ointment pot. He wondered why Jiang Yuanlan's clothes were also wet with dew. Could it be that he was sleepwalking all night? 

Teacher Jiang sneezed, blew his nose, and said in a hoarse voice: "Please don't look at me like this, don't." A bicycle with a red plastic sheet wrapped around the girder, and a green plastic sheet also wrapped the girder were placed under the moonlight. Who would think that the moonlight is bitter?  Teacher Xiao Cheng, Aqi, and I left the "Cheng'an Gate" built in the 26th year of Hongwu in the early Ming Dynasty, and then went out to the "Weng City" outside the city gate. When we went all the way south, Aqi was sitting in Teacher Xiao Cheng's car, Staring closely at the gradually blurred city gate, I had the idea that she would nail the city gate to death with her eyes. 

The copper-green avenue is shining, leading to Baideng Highway, passing through the dirt roads of Sunrenbao, Zhangguantun, and Zhujiayaotou Commune, and you will arrive at our commune.Further south, beyond the Yaguan, the plum trees in the neighboring villages stretch as far as the eye can see, and the purple and green coral forests, a few plump owls are singing, with two golden eyes curling around a black body and gliding. "Why do the aromas of millet fields, millet fields, and sorghum fields differ?" Aqi asked. "Because you have a dog's nose," when Teacher Xiaocheng answered, Aqi looked up at the star-studded, unfathomable sky and said, "Why is the ground moving?" I said, "The land in the city is Dead, the land in the village is alive, even though I used to be a city mouse." Aqi laughed, so I ran to a millet field and picked a branch of millet mold for Aqi to eat. The "freak" with thick gray fingers asked me: "Can tumors be eaten?" I ate it myself, and Aqi said that my mouth was as black as a coal mine, so I simply burrowed into the millet field and pulled out a few more. Branch "Mould" and eat your mouth into a mouthful of "excellent coal mines". 

Waiting to go to our village, the mountain road is steep, and the car cannot be ridden, so we have to push it.Along the way, insects, dogs, roosters, roosters, and wolves were all companions. They waited to arrange the children to Grandma Fu'er, and to stifle the burgeoning sorrow of parting, and then set out on the road.  Going back to the county seat, I went downhill all the way, escorted by Qiulu, and then entered the "Cheng'anmen", my clothes were all wet, especially the front lapel could be wrung out.Teacher Xiao Cheng complained that the woman thought of coming out again and again, and sighed. The beauties I met were all in the back alleys, and the grasses I met were all in the desolate courtyard. The omen is not good.I was disturbed by hearing this, and hurriedly pedaled, leaving Teacher Xiaocheng behind. When entering the school gate, Jiang Yuanlan appeared like a gatekeeper. He looked at me with gloomy and angry eyes; his clothes were also wet with dew. Obviously, he I have been waiting for a long time. 

"I've been waiting for you! I've been waiting for you!" When Mr. Jiang said these words calmly, her clear face turned red, and the thin skin on her bony cheeks also flushed. A pair of big, bloodshot eyes made the originally blue-gray face glow with a sickly vividness, and gave his words the texture of a blade.  The problem is that Aqi was crying all the way, which made Teacher Xiaocheng very irritable: "I am engaged to you, what do you want? Besides, I am not a lover, and no one insists that I find love for love." Ling, and you are not a little foreign girl anymore." What they said made me dizzy.At this moment, I got off the bicycle by cheating my leg, and faced Teacher Jiang's accusation, I was at a loss for words. I thought to myself: Why are you waiting for me, I don't know why!But he said: "There is no need to make the remedial lessons unshakable. I am a dead dog and cannot support the wall." "You! You..." Teacher Jiang was very angry and frustrated. I took advantage of him being speechless. , Without a word, I got on the bike and left. I was tired, hungry and cold, and I couldn't care about anything. 

In the first class in the morning, Homer Wei came in and said that Teacher Jiang was ill.I can't let me think too much, Teacher Wei said that the first class of the day is the most important thing to learn from the old and learn the new. Next, I will read to all the students an IOU that swallowed raw, did not understand, abused words, and pretended to be romantic. ——Unfortunately, the father-in-law died, —— Teacher Wei just said, except for me, all the girls in the class turned their heads towards the boys, and when Teacher Wei finished reading, the whole class was quarreling very happily. 

"Xiaoya Tang, what do son-in-laws call their daughter's parents in your village?" Teacher Wei asked me.I said: "Our village is called Grandpa and Grandmother." Teacher Wei pondered for a while, and asked Wei Fengyan to answer what were the names of her husband's parents? "Death to father-in-law, death to mother-in-law," Wei Fengyan opened his mouth, causing all the boys to bark their black jujube teeth and gnaw their teeth, asking Wei Fengyan where did he come from? "Don't you understand the reason why the price of sheep manure is so high?" Then, Wei Fengyan accused her mother-in-law of only giving her a can of mush and ten yam eggs in the morning. 

Teacher Wei said: "One tendency always conceals another tendency. Which one has higher intentions and is more harmful than a sheep in wolf's clothing?" When he got up, Teacher Wei announced that the reason why the little boy was let go was because the little boy's jingle was not bad, and then he announced that the class sentence composition will now start... ..., I'd rather...not..., in fact...why...in fact...——Sentence fighting, girls lose, sweep the classroom for a month, boys lose, sweep the classroom for half a month. Why? Girls Dissatisfied, Teacher Wei said that it is only because I want to tell you that fairness is a relative truth.”

Kant said: the best is a man, the worst is a woman.But the idea of ​​not marrying a daughter-in-law and not compromising is actually wrong. Why take it seriously? In fact, it is necessary to carry on the family line.Wang Youfu said: I am most afraid of being newlywed and losing my wife, and I am most fond of women being widowed on honeymoon. I would rather show sympathy than accept sympathy.In fact, why should we care about being considerate or not? In fact, our food and clothing are still a problem.  Chen Pishi said: The most beautiful women are fleshy, while the ugliest women are muscular.It is better not to hold a woman like a bear than to read a woman like a book.In fact, what do you pay attention to when you are poor? In fact, it is not bad to be able to marry a daughter-in-law. 

As soon as the boys finished their sentences, Teacher Wei put his face down: "Boundary, realm, where is your realm?" Then, Teacher Wei said: "On the surface, Xicheng Middle School looks like an ancient Chinese academy. Moderate but not interfering with teaching, teachers are free to teach, in fact, there are no textbooks, teaching and research have been abandoned for a long time, a group of teachers are gathered temporarily, each with their own concerns, each worrying about their own situation, maybe one day there will be chaos, the fate of the teacher Like a flock of sheep in the wind and snow, I ask the students to be considerate and don’t leave excuses. As teachers, our responsibility is to teach well, train students well, reward hard work and punish laziness, and become talents. The students are all from good backgrounds. Since you are here to study, try not to bring the habits of farmers into the classroom, and try to learn from sheep, and you can find grass to eat anywhere.” Then, Teacher Wei said, “Vigorous ", explained "Gaogu", said "beautiful", said "elegant", and explained the artistic conception of these words in ancient Chinese literature one by one. The students who received criticism in disguise were ashamed and attentive. A good term is the pursuit and yearning of a good person. When the students all understood Teacher Wei's hard work, the classroom was so quiet that only Teacher Wei's teaching voice: "All ordinary things are extraordinary sacrifices. For example, vigorous: possessing everything, Across the space, desolate and cloudy, with only a few long winds..."

... After two Chinese lessons, it's physical education.Teacher Xiao Cheng first told me that Jiang Yuanlan was married, "Really?" I expressed doubts. "He said it himself this morning, and he asked me to keep it a secret." Teacher Xiao Cheng said. "Then why did you tell me?" When I asked, Teacher Xiao Cheng also wondered: "Yeah, why should I tell you. When are you going to see Aqi again?" Teacher Xiao Cheng asked something wrong He answered and said to me: "The situation doesn't look good. The person who will replace Xiang Ming has arrived. I heard that he is a rebel. Mr. Hao whispered to me that the person is a smiling tiger who once lived in the Luo Wenzao Commune. His reputation is not good." .”  I really wanted to ask Teacher Xiao Cheng why he was so talkative. The reason why he held back was that Wei Fengyan hurriedly pulled me aside and handed me a note. I opened it and saw that there were only five words on it: You are out of luck!  There was only such a line of words, and the signature was not yet signed, and the handwriting was not recognizable. I didn't think too much, so I went to the school-run factory to participate in the student labor of dismantling and cleaning old motors.Wei Fengyan chased after me and asked me why I didn't take part in physical education. I looked at her round image of an oil barrel and said, "Physical exercise and labor exercise require sweating and exertion. How can it be worse?" Wei Fengyan said: "It's far worse , One is sweating for others, and the other is sweating for oneself." I thought this principle could be true, so I praised her for sweating her brain.  That afternoon, the school's loudspeaker suddenly announced an emergency meeting: all teams, including trade union cadres, must attend. When I arrived at the meeting place, Teacher Shi was waiting for me at the door. Killed your Teacher Shi!" I was stunned, and she said with a richer cry as if she had some kind of confirmation: "Why did you hide the situation in your family? What did I hide?" I also panicked. "Do you dare to say that you didn't hide it? Your parents are locked!" Teacher Shi's words caught up with the turbulence of the Huangpu River. Everyone present expressed their love and hatred with hostile or contemptuous eyes, and some even turned their heads away. Me, just let my heart feel comfortable and at ease all of a sudden, the exhaustion after unloading is full of relaxation and comfort, not to mention a green indigo flitting past in the sky, and a black ant the size of a grain of wheat on the ground with its head bowed and hurrying, Accidentally strayed into the pale yellow grass.I looked at Principal Jia on the rostrum, and felt that his ability and obscurity were both impressive. Since I watched him face to face in the mold workshop next to the corpse of Mr. Yu Zhuo, and heard his confession to the corpse, I have been waiting for him to lay hands on me.The reason why wolves do not attack sheep is unworkable. What is terrible and frightening is never immediate, but has been established and cannot be seen.I took off the Red Guards armbands, originally intending to return them directly to Principal Jia, but considering that I sandwiched a layer of plastic inside the armbands, so as not to waste their imagination, I put the Red Guards armbands in my trouser pocket. I beg them to expel my membership on Earth as well.  As a stuffed bun, I walked to Mr. Jiang's house with heavy steps.  The day after I returned to school from Beijing, I received a letter from Yin Xiaohu.Generally speaking, it takes seven days for a letter to travel on the road. I suspect that the letter was sent by the black cloud forcing the white cloud to carry it.The letter said that our home was searched again. In addition to taking away more than ten photo albums, miscellaneous notebooks, letters, zero-note cards, and excerpt cards, two boxes of books from all over the world jointly collected by my brothers were also taken away. Scenery postcards and a few calligraphy and paintings.My elder brother loves to express his deep affection for poisonous plants and his longing for archeology on scenic postcards. I guess my elder brother's life is bad enough this time.Yin Xiaohu said that she was hunting grass and rabbits and took a gold silk nanmu inkstone box from my house and two pieces of Tsinghua Lujiuguan Shenlong ink.Yin Xiaohu also said that she drove away the group of people who ransacked the house. When she mentioned that her father is now the health care doctor of the head of the central government, so and so, those people were dumbfounded.Yin Xiaohu finally said that my parents' problems were gradually escalating, and the door keys of our house had been transferred from the neighborhood committee to the task force, and it was inconvenient for her to use anything she wanted.Yin Xiaohu's signature is still Yin Wuyuan. I don't know what to do if a woman who pretends to be a dog and sees the world will be the top of the mountain. I don't know if Yin Xiaohu has secretly arranged a door key for my house.  I took out Yin Xiaohu's letter and showed it to Mr. Jiang. Mr. Jiang shook his head and refused to read it. I stubbornly handed the letter to him with both hands... Mr. Jiang said, "Your movements are more exaggerated than Bernard Shaw!" After that, he pushed my hand aside, first asked me to sit down, and then poured me a cup of tea: "Try Fenghuang Dancong, it tastes like fir." I said, "I'm not thirsty, I'm here to confess." Teacher Jiang was taken aback, and I quickly said with courage: "My parents are in prison and have been in prison for more than three years." "Where are the rest of the family?" "The two older brothers were driven back to their hometowns, and the other two brothers died."  "Do you still have contact with your family?"  "Basically none." "Why?" I was at a loss for words.I am alive, and the scene of my two elder brothers walking into Dianzi is also alive. I can close my tear-filled eyes, but I cannot close my two elder brothers.The third brother sleeps and sucks the quilt, the fourth brother loses his shoelaces every day, the third brother hates brushing his teeth and loves to take a bath, the fourth brother gives all his pocket money to the villain's bookstall, the third brother and the fourth brother have wheat-colored hair as thin and soft as lanugo ... At that time, if I hadn't thrown handfuls of "mace sticks" on the heads of the third and fourth brothers, they would not have gone to Dianzi, and they would not have taken me with them. Before I entered Dianzi for the last time... I took a deep breath, the two elder brothers came to heaven with the sheep's burden that had not been picked, even though the fourth elder brother used to stuff the cracked pine nut shells into my neck before leaving During the day, the third brother also put cool oil on my eyelids, and shouted in a high-spirited manner: "The second master is very skilled. He doesn't need a knife to shave his beard and head. He shaves down one by one until his head is swollen. Go home and wipe it off." Toothpaste, if you say it’s bad, it’s not bad... After the two elder brothers played with cats and dogs, and walked into Dadianzi in annoyance, I didn’t think about the appearance of withered flowers, withered grass, withered vines and withered trees, but I kept thinking about the death of my third brother and fourth brother. What I will look like in the future... But now, I want to tell Jiang Yuanlan that the living are more guilty than the dead, and my brothers can't treat me too much. When the third brother and the fourth brother were carried out of the freezer to be buried, their faces were blue. After crying for too long, the corpse moored in the boat-shaped corpse box began to sweat. The faces of the two elder brothers were like oil, sweat beads covered the entire forehead, and even the chin had small drops of water, "live Alive! Alive!" I yelled loudly, and my voice faltered, and the white plastic sheet covering the mortuary box was also sweating, and it was as fine as a sieve—the distressed eyes of my family members were worse than those in the morgue. It was cold, and my mother pushed me aside, and she asked me how long I was going to bluff!How long are you going to mess around!Do I really want to tell Jiang Yuanlan this?I can only say that I rolled the calluses on my hands and popped out the blisters on my feet.It's the Usang fruit they ate themselves, can they blame others?Words can be said in this way, but if you really have the heart to say such words, are you still human?So, I ask to jump in the queue, earn my own living, ask to never get in touch with each other, and to enjoy solitude and great wine. No one cares about anyone, and no one thinks that they are alive, at least don't let their hearts live.My thoughts were so confused that Mr. Jiang looked serious. I don't know if he would think of me as a gaudy skeleton, or as a bad boy full of bad luck. He was always tied up by a rope. Sitting there unable to move, for a moment I thought he was meditating, and he didn't care whether the room was quiet or not, silent or not. "When I saw you for the first time in the cinema, I didn't think you were like a local, even though you spoke Xicheng very well." When Mr. Jiang said these words in a memory, I remembered my school days with guilt. "Photograph for Jiang Yuanlan" written on the third day, the little boy:  The sharp-faced monkey is as thin as a gun, Hunger and cold for half a life and death.  Take a broken book and have a lot of ambitions,  Can't teach and can pretend.  At that time, I scattered this note like a flyer, presumably Teacher Jiang must have seen it.At this moment, more and more timidity swirls in my heart, and his preoccupation - just as his painful feelings are showing.Jiang Yuanlan said: "Your Red Guard captain has been dismissed, and the deputy secretary of the school youth league committee has also been dismissed. It is useless for you to go to the cultural and sports classes. Also, your quota for participating in the Yanbei District Youth Advanced Elements Congress is invalid. Including your registration form for joining the party, it will also be rejected and will not be considered. In short, if you go all the way to the end, you can keep your membership and not be expelled.” “It would be better to expel my student status. I didn’t bring these things with me when I came to the village, and I won’t need them when I go back to the village.” I couldn’t help interrupting Teacher Jiang, and interjected. "You don't have to give up on yourself," Teacher Jiang said, "The strangers who come here are all blamed. It doesn't matter who comes here?" "Then what's your problem?" I asked. "My father...he," said Teacher Jiang, pondered for a moment: "He is actually Boss Lin, who was identified as an illegal capitalist. He committed suicide during the eradication of counter-revolutionaries, and my mother passed away soon." Do you have brothers and sisters?" Jiang Yuanlan shook his head, after that, the room fell into silence again.As long as I stay with him, silence can always find silence, the quiet room becomes an empty warehouse, as if whoever speaks a word first will be destroyed, will be shattered, will fly like a hydrogen balloon When I got up, it exploded with a bang, and Teacher Jiang and I competed in silence.Teacher Jiang half leaned against the bed, took out a yellowed book from the top of the cabinet, opened it, and took out a pencil from under the pillow to read the book.  Jiang Yuanlan frowned while reading, I sat there in vain and had almost nothing to do with him.He also took out a few scraps of paper from the other side of the pillow, and after writing and drawing, he sandwiched them among the pages he had read. He read the book in a simple way, and he was too focused to regard everything other than the book as nothing.First of all, I was grateful to Mr. Jiang for not consuming and torturing me with questions like in the past, and then I felt that sitting around doing nothing was also an experience, a kind of make-up lesson.After waiting for several hours, when the dinner bell rang loudly, I couldn't help but shed tears...  Finally, Teacher Jiang found out that I was crying, "What's wrong with you?" His expression and voice showed great surprise, "Why are you crying!" He put down the book, stood up abruptly, and walked around the room impatiently. He hurriedly added coal to the stove, and foolishly filled in the half-dustpan burnt coal ash: "Oops!" After he finished filling it, he realized that I was crying out of my imagination, looking for the sound, I burst out laughing, Teacher Jiang seemed to see me smile for the first time, and asked happily: "Why are you laughing while crying? Are you fake crying? Has your wound healed?" I nodded. "Can I see what your wound looks like?" I shook my head, firmly.Jiang Yuanlan begged: "Look at it, just look at it." I subconsciously and vigilantly covered the wound.  "Why don't you let me take a look?" Jiang Yuanlan's voice was begging and extremely calm. I'm too lazy to say that the scar is extremely ugly. I'm too lazy to say that the scar is lying on my belly like a leech. What I want to say I was taken aback by myself: "Aren't you married!"  "Who did you listen to?" Jiang Yuanlan asked me angrily. "Are you tied or not? Are you tied or not? There is nothing you dare not admit. If it were me, I would never hide it!" I was louder than the newsboy, and I even added: "What is there?" It’s so sneaky, huh! Get married as soon as you get married! Don’t you just get married?”  Although Jiang Yuanlan was still one step away from losing his soul, it seemed that whether the marriage was a fait accompli or not, he couldn't get away from it. Jiang Yuanlan asked me: "Do you really think I'm married? You...you know it clearly, you know it clearly, but Why do you... well, it is more perishable than goat's milk!" "Whether you're done or not, why can't you just say it happily?"  "I told Mr. Cheng...that was after you fooled around with him all night!" "A fool? Damn it!" I cried out as if I had been wronged by the world.  "You went out with Teacher Xiao Cheng at 9:51 last night, and you returned to school this morning at 7:08, right?" Jiang Yuanlan seemed angrier than me. "Since I'm fooling around with Teacher Xiao Cheng, why do you still look at my wound? Do you want to fool around with me too? I..." I said bitterly with tears in my eyes.  "Why are you acting like a shrew?" "I'm not a little foreign girl anymore?" "How can you pronounce it as Xiaoyangtuantuan (囡囡), you are already so fleshy."  "It has nothing to do with you whether my flesh is lumpy or not."  "It's a big relationship. Of course, no matter what you and Teacher Xiao Cheng have done, I can let it go." "Can I forget about your marriage?" "Can you be blamed?" "You are married, can you control me?" "I don't care why you and Mr. Cheng didn't come back all night. I just want to say, please go. There is rice in the cafeteria tonight. I want to eat rice." Jiang Yuanlan said angrily, pouring rice from the pot. Put some hot water in the lunch box and wash it carefully. Except for his freshly shaved chin and cheeks, which are livid, his forehead, which is as gray as the lunch box, is severely wrinkled, and his gray eyelids are blue In contrast, the hollow eyes were sunken even deeper, and his expression was frighteningly serious.  I took a deep breath and straightened my stiff back.  Jiang Yuanlan went to eat rice before me. When I came to the student cafeteria with a heavy head and a heavy head, there were only a few thin Shiba dogs that were as thin as a brick and the width of a brick. , becoming a thin moving shadow in the dark night.  It is said that in October of the thirteenth year of Emperor Kangxi of the Qing Dynasty (1674), the apricot, plum, and bingo flowers in Xicheng reopened in full bloom.Three hundred years later, on October 21, 1974 (the ancient calendar), the apricot, plum, and bingo flowers in Xicheng were in full bloom. Hao Laibao, a biology teacher, brought the whole class to Chengguan Brocade Village to enjoy the flowers.Going east from the east hall gate, there are stalls selling small farm tools, soil and daily necessities, and then there are rabbit sellers, who are killed alive and skinned for sale.It was a boy not as tall as a sheep, at most eleven or twelve years old, the knife in his hand was longer than his body, and it was shining silver, so frightened the girls that they broke up the team.Hao Laibao didn't know what kind of vitamin was lacking, and his oral ulcers could not be cured for a long time, so it was inconvenient for him to yell, so he asked his classmates to move forward in a flock, forming a flexible formation.Teacher Hao said that since there is the word "abnormal" in the dictionary, it means that all things that we regard as abnormal phenomena have their normality - the beauty of rebellion once again warns us that flowers are the product of blooming, not concepts - seasons, The product of spring.Teacher Hao also said: Since there are no earth-shattering major events to be done in this life, you should let yourself know the truth about small things.  Teacher Hao’s words were difficult to understand. Instead of making the students feel disgusted, they liked him more, because after all, he made us distance from knowledge, not like Jiang Yuanlan who asked us girls to pay the soles of their shoes in math class. Contacts. "Do you know about Dou E's injustice and the heavy snowfall in June?" When Chen Pishi asked Mr. Hao, Mr. Hao could only get interested in talking about the "El Niño" climate anomaly. The changes in the atmosphere and ocean are the most weird and unpredictable, but when mentioning the relationship between Dou E and Liu Yuexue, Teacher Hao said in an envious tone: "Dou E has Liu Yuexue, what do we have? It's three months a month. Is it the treatment of non-farmers with two oil and three catties of fine grain? Is it a house of less than six square meters? Is it giving up the profession, drinking water by force by the head of the cow, and teaching a group of dead dogs who cannot support the wall?" In fact, Mr. Hao's ability to call students dead dogs not only shows that he has a reckless personality, but also shows how close his relationship with the students is.Yesterday Wei Homer gave us only ten minutes of class, suddenly announced that the get out of class was over, and asked the students to watch the white butterflies outside the west gate.Teacher Wei said that at about 8 o'clock in the morning, thousands of white butterflies formed a white belt and floated across the county from north to south. Stop and admire this spectacular sight. "Students, go and see it. It's not for nothing. It's not for nothing." After Teacher Wei finished speaking, none of the students left their seats. "Why is this?" Teacher Wei asked inexplicably.The students looked at each other and communicated with each other with eyes, as if they had just returned from the scene of looking up at the white butterflies.Teacher Wei said: "Visions are not easy, students who are so difficult to learn can just go home!" Teacher Wei was so anxious that he was still stomping on the wet podium that had just been sprinkled with water. The students seemed to know that he used cold yam eggs As an appetizer, he let him blow his beard and stare at us as idiots, but Mr. Wei was generally sober. He looked at the Hongmei brand watch that he wound three or four times a day, and said hoarsely: "Oh , it's afternoon."  The whole class laughed coquettishly. After laughing, Teacher Wei taunted and said that he was the one who gave the command to tell White Butterfly to rest on the spot, but it was too late.When Teacher Wei said that the white butterflies were flying white banners and mourned for his empty love, the students all suggested that Teacher Wei and his wife go to Horseshoe Mountain to see crows, which can be regarded as an autumn outing.Homer Wei was originally a top student in the Classical Literature Department of the Chinese Department of Shanghai East China Normal University. He came to Shanghai to study from a small mountain village at the foot of Meihua Mountain in Yongding County, northern Fujian. From living in Tulou to living in Western-style buildings, he said to Chairman Mao: " The bleak autumn wind is here again, and the feeling of changing the world" is extraordinary. After finishing his master's degree, Wei Homer's father, who originally wanted to be a doctoral student of Mr. You Guoen at Peking University, died of illness, and he had to stay in school to teach.At that time, Peng Zhen, who was the secretary of the Beijing Municipal Party Committee, and the president of East China Normal University at the time were fellow villagers from Shanxi. When they were assigned to work as teachers in impoverished counties, they did not know what their future fate would be.Teacher Wei said that in metaphysics, he is an ideal warrior who lives on the surface of the sky and resists the heart for thousands of years. In the metaphysics, he is a victim of political relations.Teacher Wei did not say that when he first came to Xicheng, he lived in an earthen kiln with no windows and no doors in the north of the city. He used a piece of plastic cloth to block the window and a raincoat to cover the door. After a month, someone introduced him to two partners on the same day and at the same time. He jokingly said that he would either starve to death or suffer from exhaustion.In fact, a hungry donkey can hardly decide which pile to eat when faced with two equally attractive piles of hay, and the end result is that it can only continue to starve.Wei Homer was just such a donkey, and he said to the matchmaker, "It's me too, fish and bear's paw." The next day, the matchmaker brought another woman, and Wei Homer closed his eyes and said, "It's her." Mr. Wei always described his marriage as the product of the death of all thoughts.On the day of his wedding, he cried very clearly, first there were tears without sound, then there were tears with sound, and finally there were tears with sound and howling.Teacher Wei began to feel sad after he came out of the Civil Affairs Bureau. He first took off the red flower on his chest, then drooped his head, and started brewing. When he walked into the alley, he turned his back to the sky, begging for nowhere. Deeply stabbed the newlywed wife.His wife is from the countryside, and she married him entirely for his status as a non-farmer. The newly married husband was so distraught that he shared food and sleep with her for more than half a month, and his face was darker than the sky. Mrs. Wei has no confidence but has no choice but to get off her horse and start her married life. Her savagery and fierceness are all disheartened. Teacher Wei understands this, so he uses humility and tolerance to express his discouragement. , Gained the reputation of "afraid of his wife" in the outside world.Of course, Teacher Wei has always spoken freely.  It is unknown what kind of psychology Mr. Wei desires others to explain his marital status, but he has a soft spot for crows, especially bald-nosed crows.He told Wu Weimin, the study committee member, that the bald-nosed crow opened the curtain of spring. Please think about it carefully: "Where the ice and snow melt and the land is exposed, isn't the crow pacing around in a big way, digging the soil with its strong beak? Isn’t the crow the first to lay eggs, and the male crow is responsible for delivering the food?” Mr. Wei’s words made Wu Weimin realize that the forest is indeed too big, and he must have all kinds of birds.  In fact, it is not known whether Mr. Wei took his wife to see crows on Horseshoe Mountain, but everyone knows that Mr. Wei has been married for several years and has no heirs.I don’t know if people have overlooked a fact, or people have never discovered such a fact: the teachers who came to Xicheng to teach are generally ashamed of having children, and they are either empty-minded or not even married. Out of the "unprecedented" posture, Shi Leilei, Ye Ruimin, Zhang Hongmei and other teachers also called themselves "peerless beauties".  This morning, Wei Homer was filled with despair after hearing the news on the radio about the discussion of criticizing "intellectual education first" and Zhang Chunqiao's speeches in Shanghai's "Wen Wei Po", "Liberation Daily" and Fudan University. He insisted on listening to the radio, letting despair continue.Whenever Wei Homer's wife sees her husband in such pain, she always wants to turn off the radio, but Wei Homer is determined not to give in. He wants to listen, and he can't sleep at night because he stubbornly conceited that : He was able to hear these reports, no doubt sharing the pain and sorrow of the entire nation in another special form.Teacher Wei Homer kept the radio by his side every day and listened to the big articles criticizing "Intellectual Education First", and went to Jiang Yuanlan's house to scold his mother every day. He told Jiang Yuanlan how unbearable he was, turning the switch back and forth , when he was most frustrated, he turned the volume of the radio up to the max, making it a veritable noise.  Jiang Yuanlan said: "It's normal to go to the gold to reduce the price, and it's normal to be stubborn. Who can I and you do? The only thing we can do is to be kind to ourselves-such as teaching and educating people." On that day, Jiang Yuanlan and Wei Homer's discussion failed. I know, but as soon as the class started the next day, the students immediately noticed obvious changes: Mr. Wei brought out the linguist Mr. Wang Li, and when he said that he used words incorrectly, he used Zhang San Li Si who misused allusions, did not understand the meaning of the words, and changed idioms without authorization. Wang Er Mazi was called to the front of the podium and gave a warning.Chen Pishi used "keep improving" in a sentence and said: My wife takes that thing more seriously than anything else, and always pursues excellence.Teacher Wei said: "What a mess, as the term "excellence", it can only be used in work, study, and business. How can it be used in couples?" After class, Wei Homer called Wang Li again. Another article by Mr. "On Language" let the students copy it again.While copying, the students scolded Chen Pishi for marrying his wife so that they got burned and dragged the things on the kang to school. There was something wrong with their brains. Then some students suggested to visit Chen Pishi’s wife after the holiday. The students raised their hands unanimously. passed.  Relatively speaking, Jiang Yuanlan's mood has been quite slack for a while, in his words, everything is in chaos.Teacher Wei came to his house every day with a disgusting semiconductor radio, which made Teacher Jiang's mouth froth with anxiety, but he didn't dare to say what was in his heart: Can you not come to my house to cause trouble?let me be quiet for a while?That night, Wei Homer came to harass him again, talking about the relationship between 5,000 years of Chinese culture and intelligence, and even put forward the theory that where there is wisdom, there is virtue, and if there is no wisdom, there is no virtue. Jiang Yuanlan finally couldn't help it, and said: What I hate the most is that you people who engage in liberal arts talk about it!Back then, Gauss accused Hegel and other philosophers of being busy with scientific issues that they did not understand at all. He pointed out that those philosophers who lacked a mathematical foundation should not dictate matters of mathematics and science at all.Gauss also wrote in a letter on November 1, 1844: "Look at those modern philosophers who have no mathematical training, Schelling, Hegel. Ness Von Essenbeck, and their followers, how do their theories Can it not make your hair stand on end. Gauss not only found out some wrong theories of Plato, he even thought that even Kant was not very good! He said: Kant’s distinction between analytic propositions and synthetic propositions is just some outdated things , or even some wrong things. It can be seen that Gauss was able to show great contempt for Kant, which was based on the recognition of his non-Euclidean geometry. Mathematics is not higher than philosophy because the "norms" of the two studies are different, and some problems have surpassed our time and are completely beyond the scope of science. How much do you Chinese people know? Adding confusion!" Wei Homer was very不高兴江远澜用如此态度对待他：“我看高斯、黑格尔、康德倒是没给你添乱，尽管你求之不得，滑稽的是小侉子来补课就不是添乱么？小侉子她到哪儿让人清静过？噢，就因为她是女的，漂亮年轻？” 本来韦荷马说的是句玩笑话，没想到正戳在了江远澜的心窝子上。昨天晚上，他梦见自己从喜城逃出来，沿着京包铁路线，也就是清末宣统三年（1911年）修筑的平绥铁路一直向东走，他一边走一边觉得自己像犹太人，一生总是无休止地迁徙。走着走着，发现队伍中的许多人会一边走路一边打盹，他讨教秘诀，困呗！对方答得如此简单，噎得他一句话也说不出来。他气哼哼地走到一个光秃秃的、顶部宽平、布满了黄沙的土岗上，决定在这里过夜。一片乌云从西边涌来，它的黑翼似乎载着零星的雨，像鲍鱼那样翻卷着灰黑的边唇。他仰望乌云：我的头发是否和乌云一样灰白？他没注意到月光照在他溜肩上，又移走，照到土岗北面凹处的沙棘林和红柳。江远澜平躺，看到了夜空，繁星如珠母、贝壳，洒遍闪烁的银河，小侉子穿着短衫、短裤在银河中水，她的两条白皙、萝卜粗的光腿上溅满了像新鲜乳汁似的露水珠，她的身后留下了一串枫叶形状的红脚印，那些脚印会漂，还会招来一些细小的漩涡。他想喊她，只觉得嘴巴发干，脑袋像空瓮，被夜风吹得嗡嗡作响，惟能依稀听到天各一方，如在湖边呜咽的水鸟的叫声——激情已去的心跳。  ……江远澜不敢睁眼，……繁星迅速变成锐利的五爪海星游到小侉子身边，他想喊叫时，嘴变成了墙，他眼见小侉子一脚踩了上去，如同踩在一排排刀刃上，顿时，鲜血汩汩，小侉子用变了调的水鸟的叫声呻吟，呼救，瞬间，小侉子的血便流尽了，人死了。  江远澜打着激灵醒来，他听到自己吁吁喘声，感到自己像浸在冰水里，他想坐起来，但他像裹着浸水的老羊皮袄，沉重地拔不起来自己。耳边有北风，他不知道寒流来了，沙尘暴也来了。麻纸窗发出怪异的吱吱声，烟筒一个劲儿地在倒烟，烟团卷着烟团，说汹涌也汹涌，说轻柔也轻柔地拥着他，呛得他要窒息了。  ...  江远澜噔地坐起来，才发现不知何时把放在衣柜上的水壶打翻了，水壶中的水一滴不剩地流经桌面，洒到床上，难怪床湿成这样，闹明白这个问题的同时，江远澜也闹明白了他与小侉子之间的关系实际上就和这烟一样。你只要开窗透风，就会消失得无影无踪。再等江远澜打开窗子，心想一个噩梦源于一种心境，小侉子已经有一周没来了，昨夜的梦让他有了乏透了的感觉，江远澜把这个梦记在了小侉子的作业本上，他很狡猾地不说这个梦是他的，他让小侉子谈谈对这个梦的感想，小侉子说屁感想。这样的结果，江远澜始料不及，他没想到感情需要痛惜，需要挣扎，需要沮丧，需要犹如类似英国数学家G.Hardy曾有的所谓“忧郁的经历”，暨能够漫谈数学却不能，抑或说只证明定理！能够知晓希腊数学、欧氏几何，甚至圆锥曲线理论，代数基本原理或解析几何，却不知晓这些东西与自己开展的数学研究的目的有没有什么关系。数学家可以从自己多少是熟知的领地出发，进而发展出某些越来越抽象的理论，哪怕只是从一个抽象等级向下一个更抽象等级的过渡，尽管非常困难，但是终究可以找到一个极其大胆的步骤。可感情呢，说它只不过是个概念并不为过，它太不精确了，它就像约等于符号≈。你能说≈年轻漂亮？你能说≈是女的？absurd!  当江远澜合上窗子，坐在书桌前的时候，感到从心里往外一阵冷，整个背又硬又紧，四肢冰凉，他开始哆嗦起来。他发现韦老师不知何时早已离开了他的屋子。  我病了。他对屋子说，但屋子没有睬他。  So sad.他痛苦地又说了一遍：我病了，我得上床躺一会儿。屋子还是没有睬他，连它身上的那点霉潮味及炉子燃烧不好的一氧化硫味也嗅不到了。江远澜拉开椅子，站起来后，听到了闹钟幸灾乐祸的滴答声。他伸手把钟拿过来，把电池抠了出来。他习惯地双手捂在了烟筒上，烟筒冰凉，炉子早灭了。那一瞬间，他的头一阵眩晕，头后部出现钝痛，浑身一点力气都没有，骨头也好像散了架一般，江远澜靠在衣柜边不让自己倒下，等眩晕过去后，他倒在了床上。  在这期间，他迷迷糊糊地起来，把门上的插销拨开了。  江远澜以为自己一旦昏睡病倒，小侉子必定会赶来，给他熬一锅热乎乎的大米粥。他是抱着这样的期待去病、去发烧、去昏睡的。可是，小侉子没来，江远澜几次听见屋子外边一阵阵说笑声，其中有小侉子和小程老师的争辩声，小侉子舌尖上全是喜悦、温柔的话……是吗……噢，真的……她甚至还细声细气地在唱： 河那边草原呈白色一片 好像是白云从天空飘临 她竟然高兴成这样！这个……这个……江远澜不熟悉能用什么话来骂女人，嘴巴卡了壳，恼怒多得像团乱麻，堵塞得胸膛又扎又痒：她来我这儿，怎么就判若两人呢，头总像羊一样低着，一副苦大仇深的模样，既没有来言去语，又没有话短话长，好像她是犯人，是来受审的。  一只麻雀迟疑不决地接近着麻纸苍黄的窗棂，它朝屋内瞥了一眼，只看到一个暮气十足、又病恹恹的男人那焦灼发红的眼睛，失去兴趣离开时，它放在窗棂上一朵金灰色的粪便。麻雀的行径激怒了江远澜，他哪里知道小程老师与小侉子此刻正忧心如焚地商量着阿琪的问题：阿琪醉酒，爬到窑顶不下来，把村支书惊动了，要撵她走呢！他哪里知道，阿琪给小程老师写来绝命书，说让自己的生命飘零而去，吓得小程老师九魂剩一魂，也写了绝命书回寄过去。寄走之后，顿觉清醒，赶紧找小侉子……江远澜拎起空的铁皮水壶“咣”扔出门外，他扔的劲儿够大的，水壶先是撞到前排房的后墙后反弹回来，不倚不斜“叮咣”，打在小程老师门上。  抢先开门的小侉子先看了一眼歪倒着的水壶，之后才看到江远澜眼睛下面的深窝像壶底一样黑，她知道他的挑衅之所以如此可笑，实在是他黔驴技穷，没别的招了。她拎起水壶，跑到水房给江远澜打来了开水，当她推门时，与半靠在床头的江老师的目光遭遇上了：由于夜夜难眠，江老师那高高的颧骨更突出了，脸上的皮肤发灰，两只干枯的黑眼睛从深陷的眼眶里忧郁地向外望去，额发蓬乱，厚厚的嘴唇烧得通红。  “你发烧了？”小侉子把水壶里的开水往暖壶边灌边问，江远澜没有回答。小侉子灌完水放好暖壶，便去摸江远澜的额头，她先把手心摸上去，觉得烫得有些不真实，便抽回手来摸自己的脑门。她摸完自己的脑门，又把手背放在江远澜的额头上试了试，她发现江远澜的目光一下子瘫软了，他还想说点什么，但他只是让嘴角抽动了几下，倒是他的两只手像按着一块热敷的毛巾一样按住了小侉子的手。  “我病了。”他对小侉子说。  “好难受。”他痛苦地又说了一遍：“我病了。”他的声音像小孩一样可怜、无助。  小侉子把脸转了过去，手也借势抽了回来，她掩饰地拎起暖壶给江老师倒了一杯开水：“药在哪儿？”她问话的同时，眼睛满处搜寻。  “我想喝粥。”江老师的喉咙有一种哽咽感，他轻轻说时，一丝凄婉又喜悦的目光从中流了出来。  小侉子用炉钩挑起炉盖，正欲坐锅，发现锅底剩着黑煳的粥嘎巴估计放了至少两三天，干硬得像油苫布。懒鬼，连锅也不洗！小侉子心里骂道，嘴上说：“那个该死的魏丰燕也不来帮帮我。”江远澜从小侉子的神情中发现对方和自己一样都在掩饰着什么，他的心中升出少有的喜悦，他马上做出病得更重了的样子，发出克制不住的一两声幸福而且娇气的呻吟。  小侉子手脚麻利地先把炉灰掏净，然后从煤堆旁找来几根做燃料的玉米轴，她见玉米轴又粗又长，便拿到门口，找来一块青石狠劲儿砸了砸，被砸劈了的玉米轴有一块儿还溅到了江远澜的床上，小侉子转身取时，不好意思地朝江远澜一笑，让江远澜心里顿时感到有潺潺流水，无比清凉，他甚至想抓住玉米轴逗逗小侉子，不给她，让她抢……但是否能把握时机的担心让他为这个念头后怕，他一动不动地呆在床上，看着小侉子出来进去，一会儿倒炉灰，一会儿打烟筒，一会儿扫地擦窗台，一会儿洗盆刷锅打水，忙得不闲。  淘好米，坐上锅后，小侉子一边捋着袖子一边对江老师说：“你要是同意我不补课，我天天来帮你干活！我天天给你做好吃的。我会喂鸡，喂猪和养狗，养兔，我还会给你洗衣服，只要你不让我补课。”小侉子的脸蛋红扑扑的，她在跟江老师讲条件时还说：“我情愿当农民也不愿意当学生，榆木疙瘩不成材，在村里挖的是二垄，修理的是地球，不用脑袋瓜子，对吧？你要是同意我不补课，我还可以出街给你买斤鸡蛋，买点儿别的好吃的，你同意吗？” 江远澜笑而不答，小侉子以为同意了，她两手像打手鼓似的舞动着，一闪身出门了。  —— 小侉子上了街，发现蒙着一层薄雾的太阳在喜城的上空移动着。远处，一堆羊毛般的白云下，北面的阴山余脉透着碧蓝的凉意，可是在街道的上空，在晒得温温乎乎的灰瓦房顶的上空，在尘土飞扬、被干风卷起的草屑碎叶枯柴破纸等活泼地飘舞。小侉子匆匆地穿过西街，她先到医药公司给江老师买了阿斯匹林，然后跑到戏院右侧的副食店买了一瓶梨罐头、一瓶黄桃罐头和一斤酒枣。副食店的货架空得可以让猫狗散步，龟兔赛跑。售货员说鸡蛋卖光了，小侉子的眼睛溜过来溜过去，竟然发现了一瓶豆腐乳，她付了账，才发现罐头盖上的马口铁锈迹斑斑，她觉得自己就是这马口铁，江老师就是那铁锈，他把她腐蚀啦。