Chapter 17 Xiao Cheng's story

Along the way, the willow branches, which are as emerald as plumes, are gently pushed by the wind, touching my cheeks, itching and refreshing.Waiting for me to shout: "Teacher Xiao Cheng, Teacher Xiao Cheng," I opened the door and went in, only to see Teacher Xiao Cheng's face showing a pawn shop's bitter look, and he was a completely different person from the one I saw at Teacher Jiang's house just now. "What happened?" I asked, Teacher Xiao Cheng was taken aback, and hurriedly said: "No, no." When I asked again, Teacher Xiao Cheng said with a dark face: "I regret coming to Xicheng." When I pursued it, he said: "I've memorized it! I've memorized it! My bad luck is about to come." 

The former site of Xicheng Middle School was Zhang Zuolin's training ground. With the city wall as the enclosure, a lot of bunker holes were dug, but these bunker holes were built with bricks, paved with stone slabs and linoleum, and hung with sheepskin curtains. The interest of the hole.In the bitter and scorched terrain of the Yanbei Plateau, women are the most expensive, and prostitutes are even more expensive. Warlord Zhang regards prostitutes as special guests, invites prostitutes to sit in the cave, and selects the talents they like. One by one, handsome young men were pulled into the cave.The adjutant to the staff and the old bustard in the army, including dragging out the brothers who were dying of happiness one by one, let them continue to linger in the big playground mesmerized.Although the kings who got on horses and the soldiers who got off their horses didn't know the characteristics of the soft body of the southern prostitutes and the soft voices of the northern prostitutes, they knew that the passion in the future really didn't know where it was going, and the wishes in the future were really uncomfortable to think about day and night. They all wrote a letter of guarantee and handed it to Warlord Zhang, and resigned to enter Pansi Cave again, promising to take the lead in fighting for the wind.Who knows where Mr. Cheng heard this joke made up by our second aunt. At this moment, the good Chinese soldier Shuike asked me depressedly if I could go back in time?Said that his bud-like soul could no longer withstand the blow. 

"Only women can make the idea of ​​turning back time come true, and what men fear most is turning back time." I said.Teacher Xiao Cheng also said that it was right, the more afraid of what will come, the more he will come.Teacher Xiao Cheng laughed and said that he wanted to be a prostitute.His laughter and tone were astringent, bitter and forced, which made me a little dazed.Teacher Xiao Cheng waved me to sit down, and he pointed to the next door and said, "Jiang Yuanlan has been pacing around the room all night and all night for the past few days. When I pour a basin of water, he immediately opens the door to take a look. It seems At the same time as he was running "Forward", he was also running an imported version of "Iskra" (founded by Lenin abroad in December 1900, and secretly sent to Russia from abroad.). Do you think Mr. Jiang's actions are abnormal? Do you feel that Mr. Jiang has ulterior motives? Is he trying to surprise love?"

Is there any evidence?My heart sank.  "Although it's hard to say whether I really have the German's sensitivity to Macedonia, Jiang Yuanlan and Wei Homer had a very strange quarrel in the cafeteria at noon today. Everyone knows that Wei Homer has always used the cafeteria as the main venue for accusing his wife. When Wei Homer said: "I really can't bear her control over me!" "In fact, what is unbearable is the restraint of love!" Jiang Yuanlan suddenly interjected, shocking everyone. Wei Homer asked Jiang Yuanlan: "Where is your truth?" ?''Everywhere!' After Jiang Yuanlan said that, Wei Homer was very angry: "You are a fake and temporary lover, where did you steal the experience?" Jiang Yuanlan covered the unfinished lunch box, half-closed his eyes Standing up, lamenting that the Chinese people are always staggering on the words, and going to the door to retaliate Wei Homer, saying that there are long-dreamed lines of poetry everywhere around him! Not to mention that Jiang Yuanlan walked out of the cafeteria like General Patton, suddenly The ceremony of launching an attack was also carried out with meticulous skill; he went to Xiangfang Ming's cemetery on time at 2 o'clock in the afternoon. The priest was also buried here. He presented flowers and sacrificed wine, and sat like a barrel for an hour. When he returned to the campus wearing sunglasses, he went to Shi Leilei to borrow a piece of sandalwood soap, and cut half of it for me. He Said, he can’t give me a whole number. He said that some things cannot be multiplied and divided. Before that, Jiang Yuanlan had been using alkali powder to wash his hands and medicated soap to take a bath. Why did he get a piece of sandalwood soap? What do you mean?"

Hearing this, I said: "The country is going to be defeated, and there will be monsters. If Albania is not inexplicable, Mr. Cheng, you must feel uncomfortable." "I am uncomfortable," Mr. Cheng said, "My fiancée is here , insist on getting married right away... I just placed her in the county guest house, can I be at ease? Do I dare to be at ease? What else can I do besides being uncomfortable?" "Then Teacher Jiang, he..." I was surprised.  "He's watching me!" Teacher Xiao Cheng further said: "People who love to cause trouble generally have the ability of chameleons. Mathematicians have always been better than writers. To tell you the truth: you ran away from Mr. Jiang's house just now, I jokingly said Asked him if he wanted to bring the little boy back, unexpectedly, Jiang Yuanlan stared at me hostilely for a moment, and then there was something in his words: "You should arrest whoever you are!" Hey, by the way, why did you suddenly run away just now? What did Teacher Jiang tell you?"

I wrote down the words "Xiaoyangnannan".  Teacher Xiao Cheng's face turned pale!God!He covered his mouth in shock, then frantically searched for the keys all over the house, saying, "It's over."I still couldn't figure out what happened, so I was dragged to the street by Teacher Xiao Cheng.The loudspeakers in the county broadcast Shi Lun's article "On Respecting Confucianism and Anti-Fa" in the first issue of "Learning and Criticism" sponsored by Luo Siding, the writing group of the Shanghai Municipal Party Committee. gone.  Twenty minutes later, I met Teacher Xiao Cheng's fiancee.That woman's shyness is innate, just to make a footnote for the word shy.She first handed Teacher Xiao Cheng a glass of water, looked for slippers, and communicated with Teacher Xiao Cheng with admiring eyes when she took the jacket of Teacher Xiao Cheng, and then when she looked at me firmly, she said softly: "There is fate."

So, I was destined to get the following story:  A rainy and snowy early winter.He went to see someone off.  The dead leaves on the platform are crowded and bumped against each other. Those who are positive and wandering walk away, and those who are disdainful and wandering watch the rain and snow drifting away, and continue to lie tightly on the cold and dirty terrazzo ground. Look at the lead cloud drifting away.She came to his side and whispered: Can you lend me five cents?At that time, he was standing under the big clock with Roman letters and wanted to open a new pack of cigarettes. He occupied both hands, so he asked her to wait and asked her why she wanted to borrow five cents. 

She could hear that he was biting the sound of the word "borrowing" very hard.So, she took out her work card, library card, canteen meal card, swimming card, and staff bathing card, explaining that she was working as a clerk in a unit under Hongkou District and came to give it away, but for some reason she forgot to bring her wallet.  He felt absurd, since he came to give someone away, couldn't the other party buy a platform ticket for her for five cents?Who are you sending, he asked casually.Of course, he had already pulled out his wallet and generously pulled out a twenty-cent note. 

Her outstretched hand stopped in mid-air, as if she had fallen into an involuntary trance.He noticed that her thin woolen coat was wet, and the fine wool check scarf was even more wet. It seemed that the rain and snow and she had been lingering for a long time to plan the five cents.He didn't know whether it was the inexplicable sadness brought by the dark and deep winter, or her porcelain blue face made him feel that the long and bleak winter had come... After he bought the platform ticket, he caught up with her and handed it to her with a smile.She held the platform ticket, silently and desolately.He suddenly thought: early winter is drifting away, Guanyin Buddha is drifting away... 

After walking a long way, he couldn't help turning his head to look at her: the gray-brown thin woolen coat was on the ground wanting to be concealed, like a group of lingering clouds, her whole body was in a daze, her face was full of emotion. Like snow and cold flowers, soft like willows.He thought: Most of the people she sent were a new boyfriend or a respectful venerable, but the person he wanted to send himself was his cousin. Of course, he was also an electrician expert and his tennis coach.Of course, his luck has been wandering.  Just when he was in a bad mood, she hurried over, thanked him softly, and asked him to leave an address so that she could return the five cents she lent him.Without thinking about it, he tore a piece of paper from the address book and wrote the address. He noticed a cuckoo with gray and blue feathers jumping strangely on the railroad tracks, nodding and bowing to him constantly. Cuckoo. 

A few minutes before he left the car, he was almost intoxicated with dizzy excitement. Perhaps the falling rain and snow contained a more elegant and soft color than azure and silver gray, covering the entire platform silently like a dream.He hoped that someone would share with him, when the rain and snow gliding obliquely like mist, it was like the balls of colorful cashmere in a dream, so he happily narrated the whole process to his cousin.  You gave her the address?  gave.  Hey, why are you so confused, why don't you even have the minimum vigilance, enough lessons have been learned.He argued that she showed me all the certificates, and he was embarrassed to say that she showed him all the bathing certificates.  Does she have a party card and a group card?Why doesn't she pull out a testimonial of her political affiliation?The cousin quickly asked back: at least she should take out her trade union membership card!The cousin asked again sadly: "What does she look like?"Didn't pay much attention, but tall and thin.young?good.very beautiful?he laughed.He smiled sheepishly.not sure.He felt moxibustion in the palm of his hand.Her fragrance floats slowly, but her voice and smile also floats gently without drifting.Did she ask you anything else?No.Remember carefully.no.How is she dressed, smart or sloppy?It's okay, she's wearing a gray-brown thin woolen coat.This is even more strange, this is really strange.  ... You think, she kept saying to borrow five cents from you, yes, you are generous, this matter should be over, right?To pay you back five cents, I went to the post office again, not counting envelopes, letter paper, and stamps cost four cents!With such twists and turns, the intention is obvious, and the next step is to take action.  action?Last night the news also broadcast that two spies from the United States, Chiang Kai-shek or the Soviet revisionists were captured respectively in Xiamen and Shantou.  Cousin's face was stern, and his vigilance undoubtedly affected him, and he had to judge the matter from a suspicious standpoint, although he preferred the word subtle.He remembered her inherently melancholy eyes, the inherent avoidance of any gaze in her gaze.Her fragrance has a long history.Her charm is here, in another country, in a place farther than far away.He just watched the movie "Railway Guard" last night, she really looks like her!After speaking, he was terrified by his great discovery.  Cousin decided to cancel this business trip, even though it was a very important fourth "Five-Year Plan" development plan meeting hosted by the Ministry of Water and Power.I want to report to the Public Security Bureau immediately.While the cousin was speaking, he had already put on his hat and put on his collar hook.I think it's fine, no, it's probably not appropriate for him to say to his cousin that he doubts a person, especially a girl.Taking a step back, even if she is a female spy, our Public Security Bureau is not vegetarian.Besides, there is still the vast ocean of the people.  Don't talk too much, just get out of the car.The cousin had already left the soft sleeper box, so he had no choice but to take the items from the luggage rack, followed behind, and walked out of the car.  It never occurred to her that she was blocked at the door of the car.  At that time, she took two steps forward indifferently like a surrendered prisoner.She didn't notice him, but just stared straight at his cousin.The headscarf slipped off, and she fastened it again casually... He noticed that her hair was black and shiny, with a boat-shaped hairpin pinned to one side of her forehead, and her hair was as vivid as black gold of wool.  He often feels his own cowardice, including the students who bite the bullet and be a cousin.Before this incident, in front of the subject of electromagnetism, he was like a power grid blocked by inductance, unable to transfer and distribute new thinking results into electrical energy.At this moment, this cowardice disappeared, it was her!That's her!he shouted.  ...  Encounter night.  When she stood under the street lamp again like a frozen figure, his stomach regurgitated acid water.Suddenly, he thought of a piece of emotionally lost land that he hadn't regained yet: What's your relationship with my cousin?  relation?  Then why are you looking straight at him?  He is exactly like my first lover.  ...  At that time, my cousin's expression was proud of "see where you are going".The cousin was afraid that she would become a drop of rain and snow in the rain and snow, so he firmly grasped the waist of her coat.  She had just woken up halfway from contemplation, and she watched quietly with eyes that were as confusing as a lake in early summer.Soon, her inquisitive gaze turned away from his cousin and back to him with a bewildered softness.The other half who was still in deep thought hadn't woken up yet, and she was completely subconsciously pulling the big yellow-haired hands that were holding on to the back of her coat, his cousin.  The heavy rain and snow made the entire platform dim, and the steel-framed platform roof was even colder.The foul smell that clogged the platform got into her nostrils.She almost cried in fright. She was trembling in the station police station, half of fear and half of anger.female spy.The sudden bad luck made her dizzy, and she couldn't figure out where they came from for their bravery, but when they randomly arrested people, they had a refined expression like planting flowers and bamboos.In the end, of course, in the end, as Ye Mu came, Xi Xing was cold, and she said slowly and sadly that she was here to bid farewell to her first love.Her boyfriend left her.She tried to dilute her feelings, although it took three years, but the memories were endless and the ripples were hard to calm down.She said that she also knows that feelings are not static things, the problem is that his feelings for her are more perishable than goat's milk, and her feelings are still immobile.He left her on this platform, but his longing is longer than the railroad tracks, longer than the years, longer than the years, and the missing will never drift away.She hoped that she could bury her thoughts, and it was easy to believe that the platform was the execution ground, but she couldn't help herself.Now, there is only one way to bury the missing in a real and concrete way like sending away a lover: to use various methods and forms to ravage and squander the missing.She also said she was useless.  The situation at that time was that the "Shanghai People's Commune" planned by Zhang Chunqiao was officially established (the incident happened in January 1967.), and Chen Boda was busy drafting the constitution for the "Shanghai People's Commune", which meant that the upper-level politics and even the national system had to be changed. At the critical moment, her words were so harsh and dissonant.The people present even thought that she was not even worthy of being a female spy!The people present were even surprised: It's been so old, how can there still be such a petty bourgeois sentiment, treating Qingqingwowo as a monster to pursue.  There is an iron stove in the center of the hut where the prisoners are temporarily detained. When it is red hot, the wall of the stove will shake the sky blue flames.Through the transparent furnace wall, one can see the movement of the coal block stretching to the whole body during the burning process, but no one believes her confession.  Everyone believes that where there is vegetation, there should be sheep, and where there are sheep, there should be wolves; with the appearance of a female spy, she should have a criminal attitude, and promptly called the security department of her unit and sent an official letter .  Her desolation and melancholy seized his heart the moment she was locked in the dark, musty isolation room.What pierced his heart was that her eyes would change, she would be so calm in the depression that her eyes would be shattered and her expression would remain the same, yearning, this is the most terrible thing.He understood her innocence and her grievances. He was just eighteen years old that year.  Just after he put her in the detention center, and when he returned home in the early morning, shivering like a dog, lying in the steamy hot tub, his uncle who had already woken up warned him: wool comes from sheep. In her body, the class enemy looks just like her!Just then he slammed the door and left, realizing that from now on he would never get the favor of life for him again, and the old life would never return.He has to be prepared to act as a sacrifice of love anytime and anywhere, and be sent to the altar of marriage.He didn't fight because he was going with the flow, but because he realized that all of this was manipulated by an invisible big hand, and all kinds of "cousins" would come one after another, as long as he was alive.Necessity in chance or chance in necessity must choose him.It's all the fault of this damn woman, it's fine to borrow five cents for whimsical ideas, why bother to pay back the five cents for whimsical ideas!He felt that he was more innocent and wronged than her, even more innocent and wronged, innocent and wronged to death!  A shared innocence and a shared grievance bound him to her.For the first time, he crossed the gap between him and the woman, and ran to the Licha Hotel adjacent to the Waibaidu Bridge.In a hurry, he came to the church-like splendid and solemn Licha restaurant to buy steamed mutton dumplings.Let's eat, this is the steamed dumpling of "Recognized Yili" from Zongdelou, Taiyuan, Shanxi.  During the several months when she was detained at the railway station police station, he went to Licha restaurant to buy steamed mutton dumplings for her every day.He also told her that "recognize one force" is derived from the famous Muslim teaching "recognize the Lord is one, and the main force is infinite".Every evening, he would show up at the station police station, with a vast yellow mist reflected outside the small window pane.She won't melt away like fog, will she?Will she drift like a fog?When he thought this way, his cousin had already been separated from him for many years, and the cold wind that filled his ears earlier had drifted away, and he still felt a bloody sunset watching him meet her, his chest was like a boat With her head raised high, she rides the wind and waves, making Sunset follow her endlessly.  She greeted him with peaceful but unhappy eyes, and her figure has a bamboo shape.Her two hands are always firmly grasping the rusty iron railings, and she seems to be supported by these iron railings-he noticed that she was eating less and less, and eating more slowly, so he said to her that the mutton The steamed dumplings are filled with sesame oil, soy sauce, grains, salt, sweet sauce, black noodle sauce, fresh ginger, green onion, monosodium glutamate, fennel, pepper, cinnamon, clove, angelica, and other ingredients... Before she finished speaking, she vomited, almost black bile, and her face was covered with snot and tears I begged him eagerly: Can you give me something else to eat?In fact, what he brought her that day was stir-fried rice cakes with crab roe.  ... At the end of spring, when he came back from a business trip, he got off the train and went straight to the police station at the railway station.A guard with a square face handed him a necklace.The pendant is a piece of suet jade the size of a nickel.On one side of the suet jade, there is a small and slightly bulging sheep.On the other side is a goat with a big beard. The decorations and shapes around the pendant are exquisite and rich. Although the inscriptions are blurred, he wiped them with the cuff of the woolen sweater and gradually saw two disciples of God. The big characters: auspicious.  The guard told him: She was released, and she left the necklace and entrusted it to him. He also said that he would not return the five cents he borrowed.  He was listening to a broken microphone.He simply didn't know why she was so naive, and he even considered her naivety an unforgivable crime.So far, he often recalls the inscrutable eyes of the guards when they handed him the necklace: like sheep lice biting his skin—may I not?He was wronged again, and she said that it must be handed over to you.said the guard.When he took the necklace dejectedly, he muttered: Let the storm come more violently!  Soon, he was sent to install electric fences in the pastoral areas bordering Inner Mongolia and Yanbei.The cousin talked to him again, and told him solemnly: Although the woman was released, she is a sheep shit playing chess, and it is by no means a good idea.Advise him to stop throwing dice with sheep dung balls and do nothing.He suggested to his cousin that the best way to prevent problems before they happen is to lock him in too.  He went to her unit, and the unit told him that she had been fired, and that it was inappropriate for a person who looked like a female spy to work in a subordinate department of the party and state organs.So, he went to the platform again—it was an ambiguous place, a place of sadness with lingering warmth. Although her trace was so ambiguous that it was hard to find, she influenced him with her ambiguity. Xue Feifei's early winter was so ambiguous that he could never get rid of the hallucinations and auditory hallucinations that he could hear the rumbling and whimpering of the wind even on the platform in the scorching summer. On a sunny afternoon, he came to a power equipment accessories factory under the ministerial level to explain "the promotion and application of electric fences".After the lecture, he was cycling along the shantytowns on the Suzhou Creek in western Huxi when he suddenly saw her.  She was holding a small wool bag in her arms, a pile of dirty yellow and dirty raw wool was exposed from the mouth of the bag.At this moment, she is tearing the wool with her head down, carefully picking the ashes, grass mustard, thorns, dung, dander, firewood, etc. in the wool.In desperation, he rang the bell vigorously.  She raised her head slowly, and the strands of the past as fine as wool fibers slowly rotated... It seemed that the meaning of the encounter was only to be able to think hard about an age-old thing together, an unspeakable thing.  Your necklace is worse than a lanyard.These were the first words he said to her.They confiscated your address, and as soon as I entered, I... Her agitation gradually subsided, and her voice was still innocent, wronged, and even wandering.  It rained heavily last night.The petals that died suddenly gave off a rotten smell.Next to her house was a simple public toilet, overflowing with excrement and urine, and bursts of pungent stench came over her face.She said: Sorry, this job has to be handed in the day after tomorrow.He raised his head in embarrassment, the sky was covered by dark clouds, he really wanted to leave silently like a sheep.  She was tearing the wool again.He just couldn't bear this embarrassing situation.The thought of whether to go or not made him restless. He gritted his teeth and endured it for a while, then suddenly said loudly, do you know what an electric fence is?The electric fence is referred to as "electric fence".It is a relatively modern sheep herding tool that uses high-voltage pulse current to raise sheep in captivity.It consists of two parts, a high-voltage pulse generator and a metal wire. Two metal wires are erected around the pasture or the sheep sports field, and the high-voltage pulse current is passed through.When the sheep touched the wire absent-mindedly, they would be stunned by the electric shock. After a few times, the sheep would no longer dare to approach the wire easily.This method can save effort to control the sheep to feed and exercise within the specified range, and it is a relatively advanced means of managing sheep.She interrupted: What can be used as a means is advanced and terrifying.  For some reason, he immediately became angry: why did you give me the necklace?He stabilized the car, squatted down, and angrily threw the ball of dirty wool in her hand on the ground.  ...  He and she came to the Bund before the lights came on.The Bund is littered with confetti, popsicle sticks, empty cigarette packs and litter.Keeping the backlight, it is almost impossible to see the buildings of all nations opposite the Bund—the historical mosaic of solidified music created by the years for a city.At dusk, seagulls arrive unexpectedly, swarming and chasing and flying along the banks of the Huangpu River.  He questioned her: Why do you give such an expensive necklace to anyone?  Did she say it was true?  you forgot?He's in a hurry, don't pretend to be a little foreign girl, okay?  So what if I remember?She had a noncommittal look on her face, what's wrong with Xiaoyang Nannan?She questioned him for the first time.He said that he wrote a total of 37 self-criticisms in order to lend her five cents and send her steamed mutton dumplings.It was originally planned to go to Beijing for further studies, but it turned out to be a waste of time because of this matter. He couldn't even stay in Shanghai anymore. He wanted to go back to his hometown of Guangxi, and the organization had already discussed with him.  Let's get married.He said almost aggrieved again.  I had a miscarriage.She said I must tell you.  At that moment, his heart suddenly seemed to be looking for fleas in the wool, and he had nowhere to go.He understood that he had failed to turn feelings into love, and love was invulnerable.  Let's get engaged first.He went on murmuring: I still have to do some family work.She nodded, like a fattened lamb in June in midsummer, shy but delighted, she twisted her hips and held his arm.Suddenly, he felt uncomfortable. He knew that she had a burgeoning sensitivity and persistent sadness about parting.So, he said to her with ulterior motives: I'm leaving, and we will have a real parting practice in the future.  Let's go, men live on the road, she said.  —— When she came to Xicheng, she had the normal state of mind that she was just grazing the sheep and moving the pasture.He looked at her, but he didn't dare to tell her: his determination to marry her had long since vanished.At this moment, Teacher Xiao Cheng extended his eyes to me for help: "Little scorpion, please persuade her, if this matter is publicized, I will not be able to return to Beijing."I said I could let her stay in our village for a while, and she opened her mouth and said, "Please call me Aqi." I said, "Grandma Fu'er can live there." She immediately turned to Teacher Xiaocheng: "You and I will work together. Are you going?" Teacher Xiao Cheng said: "How is it possible?" At that moment, I had a very bad premonition.