Chapter 30 despair

In this city, Ma Bo is her only lifeline.Ma Bo has a new love again, but she has become an old man.Can you imagine how many new and old lovers he had before her?She knew that her life was hanging by a thread, and if she gave up, she would have nothing in this city.Her relationship with Ma Bo was known to everyone, including her parents in the mountains.Everyone who knew her thought that she had already lived the life of a city person, but the facts in front of her shattered her dream.After calming down, Liu Sisi decided to make a difference. She was not willing to be an old person, she was only twenty years old, and she wanted to try her best to bring Ma Bo back to her side.

She began to spend her time learning how to cook according to the recipes, making some of Marbo's favorite foods in different ways.As long as the man's stomach is tied, he won't run away and won't come back.Ma Bo sometimes ate and sometimes didn't eat what she made.No matter how late Ma Bo came back, a basin of warm footwashing water would be brought to Ma Bo's feet in time.She held Ma Bo's feet and cared for them carefully.Living together for more than a year has taught her to be charming and to please men.So, she pampered Ma Po as much as she could on the bed. Sometimes Ma Po was very obedient, but sometimes he shouted impatiently, "What are you bothering about? Is there an end?"She calmed down, looked at the night in front of her, and listened to Marble's high and low snoring, tears streaming down her face for a moment.In front of Ma Bo, she lost her self-esteem and lost herself. She cried out in her heart: God, why did you let me be born in a big valley——

Ma Bo saw her less and less in his eyes, and even when he brought girls home, he no longer shy away from her, and simply said to her: You go out and come back later. After hearing this, she wept and walked out.Walking on the street but not knowing where I am.It is often from dusk to late night, from noisy to few people.When she reappeared at the door of Ma Bo's house, she didn't even have the courage to step over the threshold.She didn't know, when would such a day be the end? One afternoon, she was sitting by the window in a daze.During this time, she often sat there numbly.The beautiful, vivid face before had become numb and sluggish. Now that Ma Bo no longer admired her, what did she need those beauties for?It was at this time that Ma Bo came back.It's been a long time since Ma Bo came back now.She looked at him with some joy and some trepidation. Marble sat on the sofa with his eyelids drooping, took out a cigarette, and smoked it enthusiastically.After a while, Ma Bo raised his head and said: I rented a house for you, you can move there.

What she was most worried about still came.She looked at him helplessly, and said sadly: I won't go, I want to be with you. Ma Bo didn't look at her, but looked at the wall in front of him and said: I have paid the rent, you just need to live there, and you can come to me if you need something later. No, I'm not going anywhere, I'm going to be with you.She was already begging. He seemed a little angry, and said in a blunt tone: How can this be, this is my home, and I will get married in the future. She almost choked on her breath, looked at him for a while, and said: I want to marry you.

This is what she wants to say most in the bottom of her heart. He glanced at her, then looked again, and then lowered his eyelids and said: We are not suitable, I can't marry you, how is this possible? Then why did you seek me in the first place?She was puzzled and surprised. He sighed and said: At the beginning, I gave you money every time.I know you are short of money, but we are clear. She could think of such an ending, but she was still surprised by what he said. He also said: When you moved to live with me, you wanted to move here yourself.I've raised you for such a long time, and it's quite interesting, don't you still want me to raise you for a lifetime.

Looking at Ma Bo's delicate and tender face, she wished she could slap her face twice.This is Teacher Ma to whom she entrusts her true love, and Ma Bo, whom she entrusts for the rest of her life, unexpectedly said such words.She was dumbfounded, not knowing what to do. I have prepared the house for you, you can go and see for yourself.Anyway, you can't rely on me anymore.With that said, Marble put a key on the table. At that moment, she thought a lot.She knew that she couldn't stay here in Marbo no matter what.Go to the house that Ma Bo rented for her, she knew he was throwing away the burden.At this moment, she thought of her parents in the mountains.At her most helpless moment, she realized that in this world, only her parents' feelings for her are the most real; but how can she meet her relatives when she is covered in bruises?Besides, since she came out of the mountains, she never wanted to go back to the mountains, even if she was in the city to beg for food.

The only choice in front of her was to accept the arrangement Ma Bo made for her. Liu Sisi took all her belongings and went to the rented house.Ma Bo saw her go in, stood at the door, breathed a sigh of relief, and said: I have paid the rent for half a year, you can live in peace. Then, after thinking about it, he took out another two hundred yuan from his pocket and handed it to her.She didn't pick it up and looked at her toes.At this time, she wished that Ma Bo would change his mind and say: Come back with me. Even though she knew it was impossible, she still hoped so. Finally, Ma Bo threw the two hundred yuan lightly on the window sill, clapped his hands, as if to shake off the trouble, turned and left.

She listened to his footsteps from near to far, and her heart felt empty.She held her head, squatted down little by little, and began to cry. From then on, she and Marble had nothing to do with each other.He gave her money, and they made an exchange.In living together with Ma Bo for more than a year, she originally carried her huge dreams and ideals, but everything in front of her was broken and could not be cleaned up.In this city, who can make her rely on each other?She felt alone and helpless like never before. Finally, she stopped crying and stared blankly out the window.When she looked back, she saw two hundred dollars on the windowsill.She remembered that she still had more than one hundred yuan to spend, which was also the money Ma Bo gave her to buy vegetables.Now, all her assets are these three hundred yuan, and how long can this keep her in this city?Next, what should she do?After calming down, she began to face the reality in front of her. If she wanted to gain a foothold in this city, she must save herself by herself, and she must not rely on anyone.Until now, she didn't hate Ma Bo, she was willing to do it from the beginning.Without Ma Bo, maybe she would have returned to the mountains long ago.Those of her classmates, who came from the mountains, returned to the mountains without exception.

Those students in the city naturally still live in this city.Unaccompanied Liu Sisi thought of those classmates in the city.She thought: maybe only they can help themselves.