Chapter 46 Part III.5.1

1 This is a story that started in the snowy world. For a beautiful silver world, one shouldn't have the extravagant hope of not being able to melt. 2 If Wu Wei hadn't turned into a daughter halfway, he wouldn't have fallen in love with the hero Hu Bingchen in the future; even if he turned into a daughter, if he didn't get out of her original place, it's still a chaotic life, and it's unknown if he will marry a gangster in the end. After all, Hu Bingchen grew up in the delicacy of small bridges and flowing water, and Wu Wei grew up in the chaos of elephants in the plateau. How could two people who are so irrelevant be able to blend together?It has been fate for several generations to be able to cross at one point, so why try to merge these two lines into one?

Just like a novel, if the beginning is reluctant, no matter how hard you try in the future, the text will not be fundamentally improved. Readers will not turn it again after turning three pages: the marriage of Hu Bingchen and Wu Wei is exactly what readers will find after turning three pages. A novel I don't want to read again. Ye Lianzi, who kept her voice and held her breath, resigned herself to everything, and depended on Wu Wei for life, and couldn't leave Wu Wei even more when she was old, said categorically at this time: "I will never live under the same roof as Hu Bingchen."

So irreconcilable, so desperate.Wu Wei couldn't persuade her mother to give up, not even a word of electricity, Ye Lianzi had every reason to make such a decision. The confrontation between Ye Lianzi and Hu Bingchen ended in a complete defeat.Wu Wei completely betrayed Ye Lianzi, who had struggled in misery all her life and brought her up through all kinds of hardships.Wu Wei entered this state of mind the moment he took the household registration book from Ye Lianzi and was about to go to register for marriage. In the future, Hu Bingchen can still confess to Fu Rong and Bai Fan by divorcing Wu Wei and remarrying Bai Fan, but Ye Lianzi did not see this day.Even though he and Hu Bingchen came back from divorce procedures, Wu Wei poured a glass of wine in front of Ye Lianzi's ashes, lit three sticks of incense, and looked up at her portrait and said, "Mom, I'm sorry for not letting you see this day." .But you can rest easy now."

Thinking about how selfish I am, in order to prevent Hu Bingchen from succeeding in his plan to make her bear the responsibility for the divorce, Ye Lianzi refused to let go of the ties. After all, Ye Lianzi didn't know Wu Wei's return, and Wu Wei could only carry the mentality of betraying her until his death.Bai Fan also refused to move out of Hu Bingchen's house.Who let Wu Wei take her husband away!For any woman, this is an unforgettable hatred that is not unreported but not yet due.They had to borrow two rooms from their relatives, find a nest, and make do with it. Hu Bingchen packed a few Chinese tunic suits in an artificial leather bag popular in the 1960s, and came to the rented house.

"Everything is left to Bai Fan." "Stuff doesn't matter." Even if Hu Bingchen brought some things over, a neurotic person like Wu Wei would still refuse to use things that others have used. Unlike Hu Bingchen, who divorced Wu Wei and took away everything she bought, and didn't care about sharing Wu Wei's supplies with another woman. I just think of Hu Bingchen's humor back then, "I want to toast when I get married. The first cup, I wish all the women happiness; , stop seducing my wife..." No, of course there is nothing, not to mention the toast, not to mention the wedding dress that Wu Wei longs for.

Wu Wei has many regrets, and never wearing a wedding dress is one of them.Seeing some elderly couples wearing wedding dresses and taking wedding photos again, she always shakes her head——even if they look the same, the state of mind of youth cannot be replicated anyway. How many good promises did Hu Bingchen make that were never fulfilled? But whether it's the wedding dress or the toast, it doesn't matter. The important thing is to be happy with each other. But they each have two homes. At the beginning, Wu Wei didn't know what role she would play in these two families, nor did she know how these two families were different from the two families faced by many people.

If they weren't married, Wu Wei wouldn't necessarily think that her and Ye Lianzi's home is anything special, it's just a "home".Now she realizes that only Ye Lianzi's home is her real home. This kind of situation, of course, also has "extraordinary" reasons, but she never talked about this "extraordinary" with Hu Bingchen, and she always hesitated to speak.In the eyes of others, Wu Wei seems to be audacious (in the eyes of Bai Fans, he is even more brazen), and he dares to say and do everything. In fact, Wu Wei is often in a state of hesitant to speak.She is too timid, too shy, so timid and shy that she has to use boldness—including the brazenness that Bai Fan thinks; to cover up her timidity and shyness.

Then when she was tightly wrapped and pushed by a dark tunnel, no matter if she was willing or not, whether she was ready or not, she had to rush to this dangerous, treacherous place where she could die even if she wanted to. What about the curses she swore and the oaths she swore when she was allowed to endure everything she deserved before she was spared death? — but a kind of self-help agitation for incompetent people in awkward situations. In this regard, Hu Bingchen never publicly expressed his grievances, knowing that Wu Wei is a person with a deep sense of original sin, he only needs to make Wu Wei feel ashamed of dereliction of duty.For example, the nanny was never asked to arrange meals. No matter how late Wu Wei came back from Ye Lianzi's place, Hu Bingchen would sit in the living room and wait without eating or drinking.As soon as he entered the house, Wu Wei always asked guiltily, "Have you eaten yet?"

At this moment, Hu Bingchen replied flatly, "No." Don't say these two old lines, even if it is more exciting than it, as long as you say it three times, the patient audience will get bored, but these two actors never tire of it.Once a man puts his mind to it, he is more delicate than a woman, and he is also watertight. Zenyue said long ago: "I'm more wary of lean and thin little men. I always feel that they may not have much room in their hearts to accommodate others. A man should be tolerant, tolerant, and a little sloppy." This home is also not Hu Bingchen's home.

This may also be the reason why Wu Wei couldn't summon up the courage to talk to Hu Bingchen about "extraordinary". Even if they returned to their homes from their respective homes and had the time to face each other, they didn't cherish it, or carefully planned how to live this time that belonged to the two of them, but they didn't know what unexpected happened It seems that Wu Wei cannot enter the state of writing for many days, which is the only way to support his family and a safe place to escape from various crises. Since Wu Wei changed from a lover to a wife, Hu Bingchen no longer felt that talking to Wu Wei was like what he said, "When I opened my eyes, I was full of you, and I just spent more than ten hours a day doing nothing." up".They no longer put each other in the No. 1 position in Tianzi.

Although Hu Bingchen defeated Ye Lianzi "organizationally" and got Wu Wei, he did not win Wu Wei's heart from Ye Lianzi. Similarly, Hu Bingchen's old roots are still with Bai Fan, and Wu Wei has not won Hu Bingchen's heart. Compared with the early stage of marriage, Wu Wei felt that he had grown a lot, and often said to Hu Bingchen: "Don't forget, your wife studies people." Hu Bingchen asked back with a smile: "What have you researched? You cultural people know how to make things up." The smile was very firm. Wu Wei turned victory into defeat helplessly, and felt an unsustainable hatred of poor skills—not to mention that Hu Bingchen's smile was still charming, almost intoxicating. The upper lip is divided into two asymmetrical arcs from the center of the person, half of which is slightly turned up disdainfully or affectionately.When talking to a woman, if the woman happens to be full of imagination, the lips will cause the illusion of the woman. And there was an imperceptible, seductive, overwhelming shudder in his laugh. Wu Wei can understand that Bai Fan is Hu Bingchen's history, and he can understand Hu Bingchen's appetite for women who come to him all the time - just look at the glances he gets away from the women who even turn around when he goes in and out of the revolving doors of major shops and restaurants ——But he couldn't understand that Hu Bingchen, who had these two asymmetrical curves on his lips, had a lot of "sexual" interest in a woman like Du Yali.If Du Yali is much superior to herself, Wu Wei's psychology can also get some balance.Didn't Hu Bingchen say it himself?At that time Wu Wei asked him: "Since Du Yali is so capable, why didn't you assign her that position?" Hu Bingchen said: "It's not because she is too coquettish." Really? Maybe Hu Bingchen didn't know women very well, or didn't want to know.When he was dealing with women, he seldom thought that women are very easily sad animals.After marrying Wu Wei, not to mention the fact that he had two wives, he did not shy away from it, even flirting with other women in front of Wu Wei is also common.Whenever Wu Wei felt embarrassed, he would laugh and say, "What's the fuss about it? How can a man not 'eat tofu' or 'slouch'?" Tofu"? "What are the manifestations of frigidity?" Hu Bingchen asked, frowning intently.Du Yali had just participated in a seminar on sexual psychology, and the most taboo thing among Chinese people was actually brought up for public discussion. Even when the conversation went so deep, Hu Bingchen's eyebrows and the eyes under the eyebrows were impeccably stable, like a thousand-year-old pine hidden deep in an ancient temple, with heavy branches and quiet leaves. Hu Bingchen doesn't know what is frigidity, and even the performance of frigidity, and other things! Hu Bingchen kept asking questions throughout the night, but he didn't express his personal opinion once, as if he didn't know anything about these issues.Dua.Li secretly sighed, Hu Bingchen is really invulnerable, and he is really scheming. This conversation is a bit like swinging on a swing. At first, it was just swaying lightly, but then it got higher and higher. After the swing, the mind was a little wobbly. Since she can get such pleasure from it, since she doesn't care what people think of her profound knowledge in this field, since she still has something to ask for from Hu Bingchen, since she won't lose anything because of it, then why bother to expose Hu Bingchen's inexplicable and moral What about the unknown scheming?After talking a lot, my mouth was a little dry, so I stopped to drink tea. Wu Wei said, "It's cold, I'll change it to something warmer." Du Yali glanced sideways at the cup of tea in her hand and said, "It's okay, I don't care." Hearing what she said, Wu Wei didn't force himself and sat down again. On the contrary, Hu Bingchen snatched the teacup from Du Yali's hand without saying a word, and replaced her with a cup of hot tea. Du Liya twisted her neck proudly but not too annoyingly, proudly but not proudly.Wu Wei then twisted his body, as if he wasn't comfortable enough in the chair. While drinking tea, Du Yali browsed through Wu Wei's wall-covered photos, Paris, London, Geneva, New York, Rome... are simply "all over the world".Horizontal, vertical, big, small, high and low, patchwork, it can be seen that it took a lot of work: effort.I don't know if it was Wu Wei's work or Hu Bingchen's work?Anyway, it is exhibiting Wu Wei's current brilliance, as well as some kind of wealth of Hu Bingchen.Regardless of what Wu Wei has done in the past, he is worth a hundred times when he reaches this position. So Du Yali felt that there was a different kind of satisfaction in her relationship with Hu Bingchen.This is a kind of transcendence, a kind of contest, a kind of proof, a kind of victory, a kind of revenge, a kind of venting... A few days after Hu Bingchen and Wu Wei got married, he couldn't wait to bring Wu Wei to see her. Du Yali could see Hu Bingchen's intention at a glance, it was not only to show off his success, but also to make tactful compensation.After all, they say superiors and subordinates are not superiors and subordinates, and that friends are not friends, and they have always been in a bad relationship.And his success, electricity is proof of his charm.She once wanted to cross the boundary river drawn by Hu Bingchen, and taste the pleasure of having fun with this unsmiling man.But Hu Bingchen is a very good cook, he controlled the fire steadily, and let it stew in such a gentle manner. So far, at most, they have followed the scar on her stomach to the pubic bone. But Du Yali is not in a hurry, and believes that Hu Bingchen will cross the river boundary one day.Like this conversation.It's a warm-up exercise. Since their relationship will not change due to the marriage of Hu Bingchen and Wu Wei, Du Yali's heart is warmed up rarely. It is hard to say that Wu Wei, who is married to Hu Bingchen, is already winning.Wu Wei gave her the impression that she was not very smart, but more than dull.Even when Hu Bingchen took her 12 o'clock big color photo and looked left and right, far and near, and couldn't bear to let go, and exclaimed, "Which man is this, so beautiful!", Wu Wei responded. Unable to smell the smell inside, he pointed to Hu Bingchen stupidly, "Isn't this Du Yali!" Hu Bingchen said, "Really, why didn't I recognize it?" His voice was soft and warm, filled with love and smiles that teased and teased Wu Wei. Wu Wei continued to point Hu Bingchen self-consciously, "You still can't see it in such a big photo!" Hu Bingchen said: "I'm old, my eyes are not working." Then he reluctantly put the photo back in the bookcase, Wu Weixin thought it was true and patted Hu Bingchen's arm, all the tenderness was contained in this wordless pat. Wu Wei looked so young at that time, his face was covered with fine skin that could not be produced by any makeup crystal, it was not only delicate, but also had a rare and dazzling luster.But in a few years, not only did the rare luster disappear, but also added a kind of grayness, dementia, and numbness with exhausted energy and blood, while Hu Bingchen shone brightly, especially when the two of them sat side by side, the contrast was especially special. striking. A medical expert in the United States found that the appearance of a wife is closely related to the personality of the husband and his attitude towards his wife. Most of the husbands who are cheerful, talkative, and not easy to lose their temper can accommodate their wives, allowing their wives to have full personal freedom inside and outside. Most of them have smooth and tender skin, rarely suffer from acne, and often look radiant. An introverted, reticent and narrow-minded husband rarely cares about his wife's affairs and is not considerate enough. Most of them are unhappy, have rough skin and are prone to acne. Rude, bad-tempered, inconsiderate; easily jealous, scolding his wife's husband at every turn, their wives' skin is prone to chloasma, dull and dull, their hair turns white, and they age easily. This expert's research is really not aimless. Just look at Wu Wei's face after marriage, and you will know how Hu Bingchen treats her—— Misfortune or happiness is too full, wears away prematurely; be insatiable, or desire nothing; To finally possess everything, or nothing, or nothing at all; Regret has bitten the mind to pieces, or swallowed it with closed mouth after being knocked out of teeth; Crystal clear or exhausted; Giving unselfishly; or not forgetting one iota of this giving; deserve it or fall into the trap; I got my wish, ending the previous relationship or regretting the original... These lines are intertwined, overlapped, entangled, and torn on Wu Wei's small face. That face is really crowded and suffocating. I don't know if Hu Bingchen has noticed it. As chic as Du Yali is, it's not easy to be unrestrained and do whatever she wants with such a face, and her two bright and bright eyes are a little stagnant, leaving some of what she wants to say, and even if she wants to say what she wants to say, try to say it as dryly as possible : "Regarding frigidity, I have investigated some women. Generally speaking, no matter how men kiss or stroke their ears, breasts, or even their inner thighs... they cannot arouse their sexual impulses during sex." Hu Bingchen's lowered eyes were facing Du Yali's hands on his knees.He noticed that there was a provocative little dimple on every joint of those hands. Wu Wei turned her eyes away, not knowing why he was suddenly shy, looked at the two people who were talking embarrassedly, and felt that he was redundant and a little guilty, as if she was sitting here just to monitor their conversation , Instead of receiving guests, he got up and left the living room.Go to the toilet first, sit on the toilet unnecessarily, think about how long you should stay in the toilet, neither seem to neglect the guests, nor seem to leave them a blank space on purpose? As long as Wu Wei still thinks of herself as a cultured and knowledgeable woman, she likes to be a magnanimous wife, especially avoiding being like Hu Bingchen's ex-wife Bai Fan. After weighing it over and over again, I thought it was time to go back to the living room. Her legs were a little numb from sitting on the toilet for too long, she stood with her hands on the sink for a while, then washed her hands slowly, and looked in the mirror for a while after washing her hands. In the mirror, she was a little blurry, like an old photo, probably because of the dim light in the toilet, her face looked prettier than usual.But she was still fascinated by this somewhat blurred face for a while. This face reminded her of waiting in the past.Sometimes I wake up in the middle of the night to go to the bathroom, and occasionally I look in the mirror, and I see a sleepy-eyed self that is nourished by drowsiness and is somewhat charming.At that time, she always sighed in self-pity and self-pity, when will Hu Bingchen see himself like this? Hu Bingchen never saw it.When they got married, Wu Wei's cheeks could no longer find a trace of rosiness, and even her hair, which always shone like a ray of sunshine, began to turn gray.When he was about to enter the living room, Wu Wei felt that Hu Bingchen's sitting posture on the sofa was a bit strange. Although his back was trying to look normal, he was leaning upright on the sofa, but his left hand went around his legs to cover something with great effort.What was it that made him show a momentary urgency?Wu Wei looked down at his left hand, and it turned out that what he wanted to block was his right hand, which was hidden under his right leg and was shaking very small and very fast. So Du Yali, who sat behind the door, didn't know that Wu Wei had returned to the living room, knew that Wu Wei was standing behind her, and immediately stopped a series of teasing smiles and the other half of a sentence: Although there is only a cow sentence , but with that string of frivolous smiles, that's enough. Wu Wei stopped in his tracks, and instead of entering the living room, he folded himself into the bedroom. Lie on the bed, thinking about today's examination in the hospital and tomorrow's further examination. Will it grow cancer? If you really get sick, you will be in trouble.Who will take care of her, Hu Bingchen? The doctor's doubts did not prevent Hu Bingchen from being so carried away before Wu Wei ruled out cancer and needed a little encouragement, talking to Du Yali about sex and sex skills in such a detailed and in-depth manner, and blocking his right hand with his left hand. Wu Wei didn't even care about what they said - isn't this left hand trying to cover up more treacherous than what they said? Hu Bingchen walked into the bedroom at this time, and said to her: "Your phone." Seeing Wu Wei lying lazily, he asked in surprise, "Why, are you uncomfortable?" His sincere, not feigned surprise made Wu Wei even more frustrated than his feigned surprise.The call came from a publishing house, hoping to publish a new book of hers, "No, no, I have already agreed to another publishing house, so I can't change my mind midway." But the publishing house refused to give up, proposing various compromises, and the phone calls dragged on for a long time.Du Yali felt that Wu Wei's answers were pushed left and right, and her eyebrows, smiles, gestures, and even the strands of her hair all showed a high-ranking aura.Just this one phone call left her far behind, and she continued to sit here to set off Wu's high position?Isn't it too stupid?Before Wu Wei finished answering the phone, Du Yali stood up as soon as she kicked her feet, "Since you are so busy, I won't bother you." It seemed that Du Yali was a guest invited by Wu Wei, and she deliberately neglected her. Wu Wei hurriedly covered the microphone and said, "Don't go, don't go, this is the end, this is the end..." Hu Bingchen spread his arms far away, as if he wanted to stop Du Yali but it was inconvenient to make a move, so he said repeatedly: "Sit down a little longer, sit down a little longer, it's still early!" But Du Yali insisted on leaving, so Hu Bingchen had no choice but to pick up Du Yali's scarf, coat, and gloves one by one, and handed them over one by one. But Du Yali didn't look back, and went downstairs.Wu Wei immediately put down the phone and said, "Wait a minute, wait a moment, let me see you off." When Wu Wei went to get his coat, Hu Bingchen had already rushed out.She had no choice but to put down her coat to find a flashlight, and shouted to Hu Bingchen's back: "Flashlight, take the flashlight..." There are no lights in the corridor, and it is dark from top to bottom.Considering Hu Bingchen's age, a fall is a big deal, but Hu Bingchen's footsteps have gone far.Wu Wei listened carefully and found that there was no sound of heavy objects rolling down the stairs, so he gradually felt relieved. After being relieved, he couldn't just stand upright in the middle of the living room, so he went back to the bedroom to make the bed. While making the bed, he thought, Hu Bingchen used to go up and down the stairs, not to mention the night, even during the day, he would be cautious, step by step.As for his footsteps just now, not to mention vigorous and agile, there was even a determination to clearly distinguish the camp. When Wu Wei changed into his pajamas and got into bed, Hu Bingchen hadn't come back yet.Even if Du Yali was sent into the house, the distance was only 200 meters.She was very tired and sleepy, and it was not a good day in the hospital, not to mention wondering if she had cancer. The wind blew an unknown thing into a strange whistle, and made a crackling sound on the window.She became worried, Hu Bingchen ran out wearing only a sweater, no overcoat, mask and scarf, let the wind blow, no wonder he wasn't sick!Usually, he would get sick even if he covered himself, not to mention jumping into the all-pervasive wind without any precautions. We can only hope that Hu Bingchen can get away with it this time. Wu Wei looked at his watch for a while, and looked at his watch for a while, slowly and quickly waiting for eleven o'clock, twelve o'clock, one o'clock... As time passed, he gradually felt that he was so boring.It seemed that someone in the room was watching, for fear that that person would see that she was just as ordinary and narrow-minded as Bai Fan... so he tried his best to create a nonchalant mood for himself. Wu Wei tasted the taste of retribution. She did it on her own, she deserved it, and she deserved it. What right does Wu Wei have to be dissatisfied with Hu Bingchen's betrayal?Shouldn't she also have a taste of this?If she can poach someone's husband, why can't he poach her husband? Du Yali smiled greasy as soon as she went out, "Aren't you afraid that you won't be able to enter the house when you go back?" Hearing the familiar laughter, Hu Bingchen was relieved.Even he himself didn't realize why Du Yali's happiness or unhappiness was so important, so he couldn't help jokingly say, "Look, look, where did it go?" Du Yali gave him a blank look, "Didn't you call me yourself and tell me to pay attention to what I said in front of Wu Wei, so as not to cause unnecessary misunderstandings?" Hu Bingzhen had nothing to say, and they really didn't know. Du Yali knows enough is enough, unlike Wu Wei, who has to break up on everything.As soon as the subject changed, they talked about Hu Bingchen's sweater: "You look like an artist in this sweater, not like a government official." Although Hu Bingchen has been a revolutionist for thousands of years and holds an important official position, he does not want people to confuse him with those cadres of worker and peasant origin from the bottom of his heart.Besides, Du Yali wasn't exactly a compliment.From Du Yali's tone, he could hear women's appreciation of men.Although Wu Wei also appreciated him in this way, but if it can be continuously enriched like a time deposit that has already been deposited in the bank, what's wrong with the more the better? The relationship between Du Yali and men is not entirely based on utilitarianism. It is a bit like a philatelist collecting stamps, which can combine utilitarianism and aesthetics. "I'm just an ordinary worker." "I'm telling the truth. What if it's not an official job? Ordinary workers don't talk like that." Du Yali didn't make it clear that she was going home, and Hu Bingchen seemed to be very involved, and they swung along the winding alleys before they knew it, and then swung past again.Just like the relationship between Ren and Wu Wei just now, although the talk is about work, but you can feel the ambiguity from the majestic words, not much, just a little bit, like the seasoning in the meal, less If it doesn't work, it will be counterproductive if there are too many... The street lights were dim, the wind was strong, and the road surface seemed to be uneven, so their footsteps were a little crooked.So their bodies collided from time to time intentionally or unintentionally.Hu Bingchen thought, no wonder the old men changed their original intentions, and now they want to recommend Du Yali again.Even without his vote, Du Yali can be sure of winning, so he doesn't need to do anything extra.Hu Bingchen knew very well which women could eat tofu and which women couldn't.If you don't eat a woman like Du Yali, she will give it to you, making you have to eat it, not to mention that she doesn't let you eat it for nothing.Take the present as an example, isn't it just to take advantage of his remaining prestige and recommend her for that small position? It wasn't until after two o'clock that Hu Bingchen tiptoed back home.Knowing that Wu Wei would not fall asleep, he got into bed cautiously.Only being cautious is the best performance in the current situation.When he came back from a tryst with Wu Wei in the past, didn't he behave to Bai Fan like this? After Xi Xi died, he heard Wu Wei's breathing unevenly.O woman!He stretched his arms under Wu Wei's neck, and pulled her into his arms. The muscles of Wu Wei's whole body were stiff, so Hu Bingchen started to rub her shoulders, arms, and waist as usual... Women who make trouble are not scary, no matter what kind of women make trouble, as long as you rub them patiently, you can save yourself from danger.Especially for women like Wu Wei who come and go as soon as they say it, and are sensitive or neurotic. However, Wu Wei's muscles were still rigid, refusing to compromise. Hu Bingchen caressed Wu Wei while thinking: Wu Wei, Wu Wei, even though I didn't expect it, you are the woman I love the most and the deepest in my life. What else is there for you to be dissatisfied with? For the shocking marriage and love between him and Wu Wei, his revolutionary comrades judged him in the name of revolution against him who had been a revolutionary all his life, and he was thrown out of the track that had been operating on it for decades.Not to mention whether the performance mechanism of this track is good, but there is at least most of his life on it, but this part of his life can be wiped away with just a finger. Didn't Hu Bingchen put all his life's fame into it?Who can calculate the value of fame?But he still dedicated it to Wu Wei. He also thought of the days when he and Bai Fan had simple meals.Although Bai Fan also steals people, she is different from Wu Wei in the final analysis. It should be said that she is still a quiet woman - just because she is too quiet, men don't love her anymore. Back then, I thought that eating tofu with Wu Wei was like eating tofu with Du Yali. It was just a matter of talking on paper, playing on the spot, adjusting life, and finishing the talk. They went home and lived their own lives. Never wanted to throw away the chaff Wife?She never expected that a restless woman like Wu Wei would take it seriously, and she couldn't explain why she loved Wu Wei more and more, and couldn't leave Wu Wei more and more. Appealing to "Chen Shimei" forced him to have no way out, so he had to divorce. But once he and Wu Weizhen lived a life of firewood, rice, oil, salt, soy sauce, vinegar and tea, the flaws of this marriage were revealed.No matter which man, I'm afraid it will be difficult to live with a woman like Wu Wei - no matter what, you have your own opinions, not only have your own opinions, but also be stubborn; the terrible thing is that these opinions are either whim or whimsical, no matter what you do , she will think about your motives for better or worse, it depends on her mood at the time; and she is extremely trivial and sensitive, including where you take off your clothes and what you use them for. mix it up... Wu Wei was not like this before he got married, he was always like a foolish and shy little girl.Now, she looks like a spinster in menopause.Why did she become like this? They only know about hard work and love, but they don't understand that men value women's "kung fu" more, and they don't care much about whether the exchange of four or two thousand catties is equivalent.Hu Bingchen had to remind her: "Why can't you say something to me from time to time like other women. 'Wash my feet!' Or let me rub your stomach?" The charming voice made Wu Wei's mouth and eyes wide open. "Do you think it's enough for a woman to let a man fuck on the bed?" Could it be that Hu Bingchen didn't see how hard Wu Wei had put in on the bed? Didn't Hu Bingchen say that, no woman can have Wu Wei's mood? ... Are these words coming from the same mouth? "Sentiment" and "flirting", where are the two words just reversed?Definitely two very different things. Wu Wei also didn't understand, whether "sentimental" or "flirting" is the appetizer before the sex feast, and the main course is going to bed.No matter how delicate the appetizer is, if the main course is not exciting enough, it means the complete failure of the sex feast. 3 A child once asked Chekhov: What is the sea like? Chekhov said: The sea is big. At that time, Wu Wei said to himself: That child is me.I also believed in this way, all the time. Now ask yourself— What is the sea like? She lazily looked at the sea in the distance and said: The sea is on the tree. At this moment, Wu Wei's eyes turned into the sea, or the sea entered her eyes, and they showed a black color rather than azure blue. It was a windless, hot and dry afternoon with a high fever, coughing and wheezing so hard to breathe, and letting the disease eat away at me. Not to mention that there are no peaches, no watermelon, no noodles in soup, no hot tea, and no cold water... In short, it is an afternoon where you can have everything but nothing. There was only the sound of snoring coming from Hu Bingchen's wide-open mouth, and also, the athlete's foot was full of tinea pedis. Who is this man with the snoring sound from his gaping mouth and his athlete's foot?What is your name? His name is Chekhov. Why is the sea no longer what Chekhov said when she was young—the sea is big? but on a tree? Also, why is she running towards it without hesitation, even though it is only a few steps away? Instead, I sit under the shade of a certain tree thousands of trees away from it, thinking about it in the distance with eyes darker than a pair of blind eyes. She was such a jerk.Hu Bingchen couldn't help making a fuss, so he had to throw Ye Lianzi, who was seriously ill, to the nanny and accompany Hu Bingchen to this seaside resort for the summer. On this afternoon when the disease was devouring her, Wu Wei hoped for a bowl of noodle soup, but Hu Bingchen brought a steamed bun from the cafeteria, put it heavily in front of her, and said, "Please eat." Wu Wei looked at him, got up and went to the bathroom, mouth Facing the tap, drank enough. Do you know what kind of life she had? !Can this stump her? Her silence was just a very reluctant keeping of her old promise, not a sincere submission.Hu Bingchen felt Wu Wei's rebellion. Hu Bingchen can't be blamed for being cold, Wu Wei just refused a service.Originated from hibiscus lover. For many years, Hu Bingchen could not accept Fu Rong's lover, so his relationship with Fu Rong became very tense. "What is there about this person that deserves your love?!" Fu Rong said: "I love him at a young age." "What kind of 'zhi'!" Didn’t a clown in the writing team start out by criticizing Liu Zongyuan’s "On Feudalism" during the "Cultural Revolution" and was appreciated by the "Gang of Four"? He even climbed to the seat of the Fourth National People's Congress I can't see his look of being a villain! Look at his face, he looks like an actor. If the "Gang of Four" hadn't collapsed, maybe he would be another Liu xx! After defeating the "Gang of Four", everyone I have to make it clear that this profiteer turned into a proletarian revolutionary in a sudden change. People seem to have forgotten his relationship with the 'Gang of Four'. He made meritorious deeds whenever there was a disturbance, and returned to the party. How big? I haven’t gone through the divorce procedures for so many years. I put my arms around his wife and slept with my daughter with the other. My daughter will let him sleep in vain! Wu Wei, mobilize your friends in the literary world to expose this kind of person. cure him..." Wu Wei said: "That was Furong's choice, and we have no right to interfere with her choice. And doing so would expose Furong, wouldn't she become another me?" Regardless of what happened to the lover's political qualities, Wu Wei felt that his position in the Hu family was somewhat humble compared to his own.Hu Bingchen thought about it and said, "It's a question of some tricks." Until one day when Fu Rong said: "He is the chief of the bureau now." Hu Bingchen fell silent, and then paced the room full of thoughts. Soon, Fleur's lover was invited to have a meal at home, which served as the starting point of the door opening and the recognition of the relationship. At critical moments, Hu Bingchen would take the initiative to give advice, whether it involved the political climate, promotion or work problems, but only a few words were the finishing touch.The old and new "official scriptures" complement each other's strengths, wouldn't it be better to add wings to a tiger? When Wu Wei accompanied Hu Bingchen in the hospital, he also handed over the keys to Furong and her lover, providing them with an absolutely safe nest that would not be exposed and affect the lover's career.I don't know whether he forgot or avoided it on purpose, so that Wu Wei asked the nanny home to make chicken soup for Hu Bingchen in a ignorant way, and happened to meet them on the bed, causing a misunderstanding that could not be explained, and the more he explained, the worse it became.From then on, Fu Rong and Wu Wei forged a dead knot that was hopeless. Immediately ran to the hospital to find fault, but couldn't find a particularly sharp needle for a while, so he took out his wallet and said to Hu Bingchen, "There is a neighbor here who pays back your forty yuan." Hu Bingchen said, "Forget it." “那不行，我得还你，省得你老说没钱。”转过脸来，恶声恶气地问吴为，“吴为，油瓶子里怎么没油了？”父母几年厮杀，损失惨重，也该知道疲倦了，连她都疲倦了。 如果不是看到家里发生这样的不幸，白帆和杨白泉的关系又不好，他们表面镇静，内心却非常苦恼、孤独、寂寞，芙蓉早就离开这个家了。芙蓉与情人的关系，与胡秉宸、吴为所处的境地类似，当胡秉宸请芙蓉出面与白帆沟通时，她慷慨答应，并付诸行动。对他们最后达成离婚协议起了重要的作用。 所以芙蓉怎样对待吴为，都可以说是应该。 还是无官一身轻！芙蓉的情人无论如何不能与胡秉宸类比。一个“再说”，接着一个“再说”。先对芙蓉说等人了党“再说”，入党之后“再说”转正，转正之后“再说”提升副局长，提升副局长之后“再说”提升正局长，一直“再说”到芙蓉年近五十…… 但芙蓉无怨无悔。她和吴为不一样，到底出身官宦之家，懂得这些“再说”的意义，似乎还在期待一个“再说”——提升副部长。一旦与父亲结婚，吴为就变了。哪儿像没结婚之前对她那样肝脑涂地，那样忠诚，那样不敢对水？ What now?尽管极尽阿谀奉承，可是一百个勉强、一百个不是打心眼儿里出来的。以为芙蓉看不出来？ ! An ungrateful thing! 如果不是她劝说父母双方让步，父亲能轻易离婚吗？如今吴为能够拥有父亲，难道不该对她感恩戴德？ 果然也是，吴为与芙蓉的关系，现在完全变成了一个难度很大的演出。为让这个惟一的观众满意，吴为笑得比从煎更为灿烂，动作比从前更加夸张，不说不笑的时候也尽力安静、拘谨讨好，一招一式看芙蓉的眼色、脸色行事，尽量显出他们的关系和以前没有什么不同。她也不知道自己怕芙蓉的什么，然而就是怕。就算父亲常常回家，吴为有什么理由妒忌？母亲不是已经把自己的丈夫拱手相让？谁的牺牲更大？真是得寸进尺，吴为有什么道理不满意这个小妾的地位？ 既然吴为的阿谀奉承不是打心里流出来的，芙蓉又为什么领情？听听她那个保姆说的：“吴阿姨每天都留很多菜钱给我，说你回来时候多给你做些好吃的。”这不是在她面前作秀，不是虚情假意，又是什么！ 为什么偏偏她回来的时候才这样做？ 这样说来，平时不这样做？父亲的日子能好过吗？ 她那些稿费哪儿去了，用得着这样表白吗？ 保姆说，每次芙蓉一进家门就开始数落吴为的不是，连她都不回避。因为保姆本对芙蓉不满，难免挑拨之嫌，吴为听听也就罢了。 可是芙蓉并不避讳，“为什么不买地毯？” “买了，你父亲不用，在储藏室里放着呢。”吴为带着芙蓉去储藏室，看了看那块很大的地毯。 “为什么不给我爸买空调？”好像吴为把所有的钱都藏起来了。 吴为怎能对芙蓉说，自结婚后，胡秉宸从来没有拿出过一分钱。稿费标准又低，仅凭她那点稿费和工资，支撑这样生活水准的两个家，该有多么难。 以致等米下锅地预支稿费、催要稿费，成了人们的笑料或鄙夷的话题——“我就不信吴为缺这两个钱用！”胡秉宸不是小气，而是没把这个家当做家——既然不是自己的家，一分钱投入都是多余。 还常常对吴为说：“白帆一定觉得我是个厚道的人，房子她占了两年，工资我给她一半，家具财产全归她，最后又为她和杨白泉搞到房子，她会想我这个人不错。” 吴为回说：“听说空调用电量很大，电费很高。”“没有多少电费。” “你父亲身体弱，对空调也不适应。” 芙蓉这才没得好说，但不等于心里满意。 “我哥哥要来看我父亲。” “好哇，欢迎。”终于有机会补一补杨白泉“春节造访”的窟窿了。会有什么结果？不得而知，但杨白泉肯来做客，总比永不上门好。 当笑容还在吴为脸上灿烂着的时候，芙蓉说：“不过有一个条件，就是你不能在这个家里待着。” 灿烂的笑脸只好凝固起来，但还是说：“可以，只要你父亲高兴，我什么都可以为他做。不过时间是不是放在我去德国访问的时候，因为那样不会引起你父亲的怀疑。如果我在国内，又不在家里迎候你哥哥，你父亲是不是会不满？如果他知道真相，会不会对你哥哥提出的这个条件有意见？如果我不在国内，那么不在现场就是顺理咸章的事……过不了几天我就走了。” 芙蓉“你又何必自作多情”地一笑。这笑容绝对不是白帆的DNA，而是胡秉宸的。 吴为只能回到叶莲子那里哭诉委屈。叶莲子说：“这就是我当初为什么坚持不搬到一起住的原因，这样我们还能有个退路。如果我也跟你一起搬过去，他儿子来了，又提出这样的要求，我们到哪儿去呢？只能坐到公园里去。夏天还好说，冬天怎么办？只好坐在大街上喝西北风吧！” 后来吴为不知无意还是有意对胡秉宸说起这个插曲，他却“顾左右而言他”，“这个情况我不知道。” 芙蓉有天居然和吴为开诚布公地谈谈：“你一天到晚出国、应酬、写小说，还要到你妈那里去上班儿，这个家管不管了？” 有谁嫁人之后还把母亲放在与丈夫的小家之上？吴为是不是带着她妈一起嫁过来了？ 想来芙蓉从来也没设想过，无所事事的胡秉宸，整天看报、找茬儿、打发日子，为什么就不能将闲置的时间，用来照顾一下吴为？ 胡秉宸也忘了自己追求吴为时，给她写过的那个千万宠爱在二身的小曲了。禅月去国，叶莲子又上了年纪，吴为能把她丢在一边，只照顾胡秉宸不照顾她吗？ 谁让叶莲子只生了吴为一个？当时又没有“只生一个好”的政策，早知会有这个矛盾，不如再生一个。谁让叶莲子含辛茹苦把吴为拉扯大？没有叶莲子吴为不会有今天，更不会成为作家，成了作家就得写小说。而胡秉宸不正因为吴为成了作家，才一改初衷，从鄙夷、把玩，到爱上吗？ 为此吴为请过两个保姆。可是胡秉宸不干，因为那样一来，明显地又为他开销一笔，现在还可以说保姆的开销是为了叶莲子，与他无关。 也不明说不干，而是想方设法将保姆挤走。这与日后不断制造冲突，步步紧逼吴为，让她二旦无法忍受就会先张嘴提出离婚，出的是同一手牌。 保姆也不是白痴，胡秉宸不爱吃咸，她偏使劲放盐；胡秉宸不吃酱油，她偏放酱油。 胡秉宸将她撵走，她到派出所说是迷路找不到家，还反映吴为不在家的时候，胡秉宸与其他女人不正经……派出所打电话给胡秉宸，让他到派出所接回迷途的羔羊。胡秉宸大发雷霆，“叫你们所长来听电话！”所长接完电话，只好派警察将保姆送回。 一般来说，胡秉宸不喜欢让人知道“我是准”，可也不喜欢人家一点也不知道“我是谁”。好比在老宅子的时候，不愿意人叫他少爷，可也不愿意人不知道他是少爷，有时还像某部电视剧里的康熙皇帝，偶尔来一下微服私访。 有次出差，飞机故障，不得不在某地停留一夜，机场要求滞留旅客登记，上有级别一栏。胡秉宸质问工作人员：“为什么在机场过夜还填写级别？”又穿了一件千人一面的中山装，对这个问题工作人员未予理睬。恃才傲物的胡秉宸一怒之下填写了个二十八级，工作人员更不答理他了，将别的乘客做了安排，向他翻翻眼珠，拜拜了。他只好把随身携带的机密文件包塞进裤腰，将带子往脖子上一套，上街看了一场电影，下了一个小馆，然后在候机室的长椅上睡了一夜。保姆将胡秉宸整治她的事告诉了保姆学校的老校长，想来比事实夸张许多，闹得那位也是不可等闲视之的老太太，要来抽胡秉宸的耳光。……真是鸡飞狗跳！ 这哪儿还是家？简直是个被黄鼠狼偷袭的鸡窝。 说到出国，像吴为这样的俗人，怎能拒绝对方出资的免费旅行？所以对这个指责，吴为认为自己应该承担。她的缺席就不像照顾叶莲子和写作那样正当。可是，“每天到你妈那里去上班”实在难听，如果仅仅指责她也罢了，怎么能够这样说到叶莲子！只好忘恩负义了，“你并不每天和我们生活在一起，怎么知道我老是回家照顾我母亲，不照顾你父亲？”芙蓉想了想说：“我自己想出来的。”“怎么会凭空想出这些？”胡秉宸在一旁插话道：“是我告诉她的。”“如果是你，事情就更复杂了。别人这样说还情有可原，你怎么能这样不讲事实？我是不是尽最大努力照顾了你，你没看到我累成什么样子吗？”还不如那些常见的朋友，见她总是蓬头垢面的样子，很是心疼，“你的任务是做个好作家，而不是做个贤妻良母。贤妻良母有的是，很多人都能做，好作家却难找。再说你如此竭尽全力，未必能落一个好，何苦呢？” 见胡秉宸不好回答，芙蓉说：“算我造谣吧。” “你为什么要这样做呢？恐怕还是有人说了什么吧？” 胡秉宸抄起钵里的梨，一个个摔向墙角，梨汁溅了一墙一地。 他为什么不往地板上扔而是往墙角上扔？吴为的思维游离出线，思考起胡秉宸为什么把梨砸向墙角而不是砸向地板。 “芙蓉好不容易回来一趟，你就和她吵架！” 一声厉吼，把吴为拉回现场。 “这哪里是吵架！你明明知道不是这么回事又不出面澄清，我只好为自己说几句，你就闹成这个样子。你为什么恼羞成怒？难道我为自己解释几句都不行吗？” 这一夜禅月梦中还乡，姥姥在她耳旁絮絮地说着自己，也说着妈妈的一生。朦胧中，有一带翼的巨大黑影，上下盘旋在她的头顶，姥姥的话语渐渐变为含混的呓语，又像轮回不尽的诵经……禅月感到那翼的拂动，而后又慢慢覆盖在她的身上，柔软而温暖地窒息着她。她听见那翼的轻笑，便伸出右手到那两翼交叉的地方，那儿有一根极硬极硬的翎。 妈妈说过：“你的手那么小，可是真有劲儿，这叫'通关手'。” 禅月就用她的“通关手”握住那翎，猛然一拔，翎子就被拔了下来。那翼也就猛然收缩而去，不再覆盖她，也不能再用它的柔软和温暖窒息她。 禅月的呼吸畅快起来。虽然那翼还在头顶盘旋，但已越缩越小，禅月觉得那正是它该恢复的模样。 回手将翎折成几段，那翎发出了痛苦的尖叫……在这叫声里，她听到一个亿万年前的回声，穿过苍茫岁月、潮涨潮落的起伏，以及荒漠上的风、碎裂的太阳…… 她想起幼时那次生病高烧，明明觉得自己往深渊坠落，深渊下有巨大旋风吸吮着她，她的两条腿已经滑下，并在旋风中悠悠悬荡着，可她的两只手死死抠着渊上的峭壁，手指被锋利的岩石割破，痛得几乎支撑不住，身体也越来越重、越来越大，两条胳膊却越来越细、越抻越长，马上就要从中断掉，吓得她大叫“姥姥！——姥姥！——”可她最后还是爬了上来，觉得自己睡了一个长长的觉，在这一觉之后，烧退了。 小时的事不一定都记得很牢，可这来自深渊下的风、风的旋力、她不肯坠落的意志……都成为她的老本，正是从那以后，她有了特别的力量，知道自己从此以后可以做很多的事情。多少次禅月想把吴为和叶莲子接去，可吴为说：“我还有个丈夫呢。” “给他请个保姆，我出钱。”“他需要的不只是保姆。” “从他对你的态度，我看不出什么本质性的区别。你就是不为自己想，也该为姥姥想想。” 吴为默然。 当妈妈什么都说不出的时候，她头上的白发就替她说出无尽的苦楚和辛酸。在这样一个环境里，妈妈能不缩水吗？ 噢，可怜的妈，您只好受着去了。只要您这种“俯首甘为男人牛”的原则不改，您的苦役就没个完。 是啊，保姆能和胡秉宸上床吗？所以此保姆非彼保姆。 中国男人很少直视女人，大部分是斜视、瞟视、窃视，尤其对他们想人非非的女人，更不直视，怪不得中国人发明了那么多关于“看”的词汇。禅月能指望也用这种眼神看女人的胡秉宸关爱母亲吗？看看她穿的那件黑T恤、那条黑布裙，上面的每一根线条、每一条皱褶，都宣告着廉价和粗制滥造，而她那股穷酸气又特别硬，特别横冲直撞。 都是她自己把男人惯成了这个样子，瞧她为胡秉宸下过多少次地狱！ 当年杨白泉还不是看她们满门弱女子，没有撑门立户的男人，才敢平膛她们的家？妈妈早该把胡秉宸写给她的那些情书，复印一套寄给胡家，也许一封就够了。 如果胡秉宸不为她说什么，她自己就不能对芙蓉说一句：“你跟我说得着吗？” 几十年来，为什么独自承担着所有的侮辱和欺凌？为什么不能对世人说“找那个男人说三道四去”？ 妈妈以为她是谁？包打天下，无所不能的上帝？ 傻不傻！永远一个没头没脑的傻小子。 芙蓉不辞劳苦，走家串户，及时将吴为的败行劣迹通报昔日“白胡婚姻保卫团”。已然解散的“白胡婚姻保卫团”重又聚集起来。 于是这个被黄鼠狼偷袭的鸡窝，为岗位上下来的老战友，提供了发挥余热的可能。 吴为再次陷入孤军奋战的境地。在胡秉宸保卫战中，虽然也是一枚孤军奋战的过河卒子，后面毕竟还有胡秉宸的爱在支撑，现在却是背水一战，而且这些对象与佟大雷又不同。 国民党厉害不厉害？还是干不过共产党。何况还是地下党，即便吴为有十个脑袋也不行。