Chapter 40 Part III.3.1

1 Experts who study the history of World War II disagree on the time, conditions, and location of President Roosevelt's opening of the Second Front.But the United States declared war on Germany, Italy, and Japan, after all, was a key turning point in World War II. 2 Officialdom is like a battlefield. Unexpectedly, Hu Bingchen, who was sure of winning, was defeated in the career battle.Check your own strategy and tactics, don't know what's wrong, why bother to elaborate, there is an important meeting within the scope of Hu Bingchen's work this year, but Hu Bingchen was not notified to attend.

It would be more accurate to say that politics is as changeable as a man's than as a woman's.A leader who admired Hu Bingchen suddenly turned around and left, maybe he found a new love, or maybe he lost power.It's not that there is no way to solve it, even if you have the answer, you have passed the village and lost the shop. Hu Bingchen used Qin Shaoyou's sentence to Wu Wei in the cadre school back then, isn't it like a prophecy?At this time, it should be said that "Chenjiang was lucky to go around Chenshan, for whom he shed to Xiaoxiang", to show his helplessness in not wanting to leave.Although Hu Bingchen did not regard official career as a panacea like some people did, but after all, he was born in an official family and grew up in such an atmosphere. 'It's not his ingenuity, the rules of the game.

For the glory of the past, leaving is an eternal pain.Fortunately, Hu Bingchen didn't have any idle time, and he took another ride after he got off the officialdom; without the train of love, his life should be said to be abundant. If Hu Bingchen and Wu Wei hadn't been defeated in the official career battle, the relationship between Hu Bingchen and Wu Wei would never have improved to a higher level.In the end, this is the key to Hu Bingchen's complete change of Wu Wei's policy.Only then did Hu Bingchen prepare to "love" Wu Wei. Wu Wei knew exactly when he was on the road of no return, at a certain moment to the exact minute and second, but he couldn't understand Hu Bingchen's transformation until his death.

Don't forget that although Wu Wei, who was supposed to be a strong man, turned into a daughter halfway, the gene of "hero saving the beauty" has not completely disappeared. The determination to jump into the fire pit comes from Hu Bingchen's conversation—— "...the looming problem is my job, not that I want to work, the problem is that these bastard sectarians hit me so hard because I poked the hornet's nest of these sectarians, and jobs are political A sign. But I have been informed informally that my appointment may not be given. "The sound of Mingjin withdrawing troops is also repeated. Those who are over 65 years old and under 65 years old who are in poor health at the deputy ministerial level will all retire. I am over 65 years old and I am not in good health. Both conditions are enough. The future is clearly retiring, and it must be relegated to the second line.

"And my age is not suitable for re-opening a situation. There is an age line governing, can you understand me? So it is better to retire. "Think about my life, twelve years of war, ten years of turmoil, what else can I say now? "God is such a heartless thing! Fortunately, he is everywhere and everywhere, and I have you. "That's fine, I've got rid of a big burden, and I can let go of the legal process. My only concern is whether it will affect your creative life. For me, there are no worries. "Thinking of this, I want to express my gratitude to you. I am too old and have lost my job opportunity. I have no status or money. If I get divorced in the future, I will even have no place to live. And you gave up all opportunities for me... "

Wu Wei said: "I love you, not your status." Thinking of this, Hu Bingchen's official career has no hope, but he is happy.For a long time, Wu Wei felt that Hu Bingchen's back-and-forth behavior came from his longing for the world. There are only a handful of pursuits in life, and I have no choice but to be relaxed. After much deliberation, it is better to learn to be Fan Li. The best life mode for a man is to be proud of officialdom and beauties with good wine.The pride in the officialdom can also be called "the Qi family governs the country and the world", just like the middle hall in Hu Bingchen's hometown of "making contributions and building virtues".If you are frustrated in the officialdom and depressed, you have to be mellow and beautiful.

"I really want to leave these complicated relationships... Nowadays, many people's ideological realm is too humble, too realistic, too materialistic, lacking ideals, and lacking yearning for lofty realms. It is not as good as the relationship between friends when I was young. I even doubt that if How would they respond to a situation like Hawthorne’s? “The policy has already been decided, but it’s not clear how the organization will be reorganized. A ministry requires three or four deputies, but the current ministerial and bureau-level cadres combined can play more than a dozen tables of mahjong.” . "How to arrange?

"I remember you said that you asked me not to be the number one leader. You are so clever. I can completely ignore these troublesome things. Let others fight for power and profit. As long as there is you. I just want to be like Fan Li, and be with you in the rich Swimming on the Spring River...Taihu Lake is also possible, but then you will become a Xi Shi in a conventional way." Of course, I made the following confession to Wu Wei: "When I met you more than ten years ago, I only thought you were a talented girl or a college student. After a deep understanding, I really (of course gradually) realized Your insight and your extraordinary talents, and your sincerity and courage as a real serious man, and the great spiritual strength that comes from it. I have a great respect and love for you, far more than you can see."

As a result, Hu Bingchen relaxed a lot, and the number of meetings with Wu Wei increased day by day. When they were on dates, the situation of "going through the downtown area with a broken hat" was also less and less. If there were loose conditions like the end of the 20th century or the beginning of the 21st century, They have gone to bed early. As a result of the open policy, their relationship gradually became known.Propagation is like a dark river, and then it surges underground. 3 Ye Lianzi had long since discovered that Wu Wei was abnormal, so she went to the mountainous area on a whim, and then came back on a whim, saying that she was writing a novel, but she never wrote a novel.You don't need to guess to know that Wu Wei is going to jump into the trap again.A few years ago, Hu Bingchen and Bai Fan jointly wrote the letter to Wu Wei. Wu Wei could forget it, but Ye Lianzi couldn't.Now it's love letters and phone calls again, driving Wu Wei crazy, regardless of his future, his children, his family, and everything else.

Let such a man come and go as soon as he is called!Ye Lianzi felt aggrieved for Wu Wei, but also hated her for being shameless. If it was like this for another man, Ye Lianzi could understand a little bit, but for this man who had insulted her in every possible way, he put everything she had so hard to get into it.Isn't she suffering enough for men? Although Ye Lianzi was worried at first, it was inconvenient to say anything to her wayward daughter.You can't say "no" to Wu Wei, if you want to stop her, you'd better say "yes".But the honest Ye Lianzi has never had anything to do with "cool" all her life.

Bai Yang Baiquan called at the door on the first day of the Lunar New Year. She saw the seriousness of the situation and had to stop it.The person involved, Wu Wei, couldn't see how he kicked and kicked, rolled and crawled, and swiped with his hands and feet, so he came out of the shame of the past. Her struggle is too ugly, except for Ye Lianzi, who gave birth to her bloody, and gave birth to her since she was a child, this kind of struggle is unsuitable for anyone, including her lover. But Wu Wei just refused to look back.Ye Lianzi even slapped Wu Wei for this. Wu Wei not only did not understand her mother's heart, but also stared at her bitterly.That look meant that if Hu Bingchen was by her side, if Ye Lianzi was still blocking her from passing between them, she would probably bite Ye Lianzi.He can no longer escape this catastrophe by holding her in his arms like Wu Wei did when he was young.Ye Lianzi could only turn to Hu Bingchen for help. I found Hu Bingchen's number in Wu Wei's phone book, called Hu Bingchen, and begged him to let Wu Wei go, but Hu Bingchen teased him with bruises all over his body.After the phone call, the two people who had never met each other started to hate each other. Since then, Wu Wei has been at odds with the two people she loves. What's more, Wu Wei gave Hu Bingchen a small skirt from his childhood.Light green gauze with white embroidery, lace and individual patches.All the performances on the little skirt are all foreshadowing.Although Hu Bingchen said, "I don't know why, this little dress gives me a great sense of intimacy. I want to keep her by my side and accompany me forever. I want to count the small patches and lace on it. Every cute The little patches and little laces gave me endless imagination, I grew up with the owner of the little clothes, like..." Ye Lianzi felt very distressed, "Wu Wei, that is the only one we have left 'Past', does Hu Bingchen understand?!" Even in her old age, Ye Lianzi's eyes were still so "poisonous", and she had long believed that if she was a woman, she could never rely on a man like Hu Bingchen. It's a pity that neither Bai Fan nor Wu Wei, including Hu Bingchen's former women, have this understanding. Sure enough, Hu Bingchen's so sensational little skirt was thrown away long ago; after getting married, Wu Fang asked about the whereabouts of the skirt, and Hu Bingchen rolled his eyes blankly, as if he had no impression at all, and completely forgot that he had written Such a tender and "youthful" letter. It made Wu He feel bad.That is not only the "past" of Mo He's family, but also the "past" of her and Ye Lianzi, and her own "past".Since then, Wu Wei has nowhere to look for, and pays tribute to the little girl in the light green gauze dress who has never loved any man. When leaving Han Mulin, Wu Wei only took her few clothes with her when she left the house, and she didn't ask for child support when she divorced. It's conceivable how poor she is. Ye Lianzi accepted the days of suffering and happiness without complaint, and used her last retirement money to buy a double bed, a cupboard, and three stools.No more, no less, that bit of retirement salary just happened to be spent. What if there is no retirement salary like Ye Lianzi? Since retiring, Ye Lianzi has been doing a dojo on Wu Wei's "unstoppable" money, and has mastered financial power that is really difficult to control.In order to save every ounce of Wu Wei's hard work and lighten every ounce of Wu Wei's burden, the wisdom of saving food and money is brought into full play to the extreme.It was an art perfected by a poor woman with a lifetime of training. What if there is no Ye Lianzi's painstaking efforts? The house always seems to be filled with gray dust, and this dust falls on their clothes, furniture, sheets, faces, bodies...all people and things seem to be wearing a thick gray shell. So Wu Wei's greatest enjoyment at that time was taking a bath. After washing comfortably, he began to sing, with a low voice, crying like crying.Fortunately, in summer, you can boil some hot water yourself, and you can make do with washing at home.There is no sewage in the house, so I have to use a laundry tub to wash. The laundry tub is not big enough, I can't wash my thighs after washing my chest and back, and I can't wash my calves after washing my thighs... I have to do it step by step in batches and stages.The water in the basin changes from clear to cloudy, from cloudy to viscous. After taking this bath, they often don't know whether they are cleaner before taking a bath or after taking a bath. In winter, there is no heating at home, and the cast-iron stove used for heating and cooking can't burn enough hot water for bathing, so I have to go to the bathroom to wash at all costs.So going to the public bathroom to take a bath has become a big event in life. The market has begun to sell hair shampoo for 27 cents and 1 tael, but they still use the laundry soap provided by the public bathroom, which is already included in the bath fee. Ye Lianzi's washed hair clings to her scalp, her eyes are red from being stung by soapy water, and she carefully holds the water pipe under the shower head... Ren Wuwei scrubs every inch of her skin carefully.The thick gray shell accumulated on their bodies gradually became soft and sticky after being soaked in warm water, and gradually loosened from the skin. Wu Wei's palms were fast and vigorous, steady, precise, and ruthless, rubbing all over Ye Lianzi and Chanyue's bodies, in order to completely remove the dirt accumulated in the past month, and wished to rub them in the next bath. The mud that fell off was rubbed away in place this time; even the rubbing made Chanyue's capillaries bleed, and patches of blue, purple, blue and black appeared on the skin. The pain made Chanyue shrink her neck and stomp her feet, but she still stood there bravely. Chanyue knew early on that she loves money, and when she loves money, she loves her mother. So every time they take a bath, it's like taking off a piece of thick and tight clothes, and they feel like losing a few kilograms of weight. After exercising on Chanyue and Ye Lianzi, Wu Wei was exhausted when it was his turn to peel off the mud shell on his body, so every time after taking a bath, he was always in a bad mood, feeling like he was throwing money away for nothing. And the annoyance that the plan was not completed.Wu Wei wanted to modify the bathing plan many times, from once a month to once a week, even once every half a month.Ye Lianzi didn't agree, and said categorically, "No, a bath for three people is worth a catty of meat money. Every penny of our family is a carrot and a hole." After Wu Wei became a writer and earned a few manuscript fees, not to mention Ye Lianzi and Chanyue, even the neighbors thought that this poor family of three daughters had finally come to an end. Didn't they know that Wu Wei didn't use the manuscript fee to supplement their impoverished family with a lot of work to do.For many years, Ye Lianzi still had to work hard to save every penny, and she still led the three women, old and young, to live a hard life. One time during the Spring Festival, Ye Lianzi actually only bought three shrimps, "It's because your mother became a writer, and we couldn't even afford three shrimps." Ye Lianzi said.And make the best use of it. Shrimp heads and shrimp skins, including shrimp feet, were boiled into soup, and the shrimp meat was chopped into dumpling fillings. He also said to Chanyue, "It can only be chopped into dumpling fillings, otherwise the three of us will be gone in a day." As for bird's nest, abalone, I have never dared to care about things like shark fins. Zenyue didn't have the enthusiasm and simplicity of Ye Lianzi when it came to how to get the maximum benefit from the three shrimps, but she was silent in deliberation.What about Wu Wei's royalties? What about Hu Bingchen's cotton gloves with exposed palms? Wearing only a thin padded jacket, he walked the streets with Wu Wei in the howling northwest wind in winter.As he walked, the inside of the padded jacket full of holes was turned down and hung down the back of the padded jacket. The white cotton turned black and gray, each piece was hardened, and it was threaded piece by piece with white thread, which looked like a small cotton padded jacket. A child's fart or a sheep's tail.Hu Bingchen laughed too, and said complacently, "I made it up myself." "The poor peasants are nothing more than that. They should be thrown away, or sent to the class education exhibition hall." Wu Wei urged repeatedly, "Why don't you buy a new coat?" Hu Bingchen couldn't say that Bai Fan wouldn't reimburse him; he only reasoned that there was a small car for going in and out, and he didn't need a coat.Later, I finally bought a military overcoat, and I went to the hospital without wearing it much. Hu Bingchen, who was addicted to cigarettes and had severe bronchitis, could only smoke cigarettes worth 20 cents a pack, which made Wu Wei very distressed. Looking at the high-quality cigarettes that Wu Wei put in front of him, Hu Bingchen said: "My daily smoking fee is 20 cents, how can I pay for such cigarettes?" "Then put it in the office and inhale it secretly." In order to rush to the date with Wu Wei, the razor hastily cut Hu Bingchen's cheek. Shouldn't he buy a Nissan electric razor? As for Hu Bingchen suing for divorce from Bai Fan in the future, Wu Wei was even more mad, ignoring Chanyue and Ye Lianzi, and used all the manuscript fees to clear the relationship for his divorce case.The publishing house couldn't understand why Wu Wei was so poor, he paid the manuscript fee in advance as soon as the manuscript was delivered, and claimed to "pay with one hand and deliver with the other". Just like a man pampering his beloved woman, Wu Wei can't spend a lot of money for Hu Bingchen's momentary comfort or his wishes, but there are still cases where he spends all his manuscript money.What is the difference in principle between the two? Not to mention his beloved Hu Bingchen, even in his interactions with others, Wu Wei always acted like a man, taking care of the world and being obliged to do so. Although Ye Lianzi and Chanyue saw that this relationship would not end well, but because they loved Wu Wei, they had no choice but to accommodate her harsh treatment of themselves and their family, and never told Wu Wei, who is known as the pillar of the family, about their embarrassment.The old Ye Lianzi and the young Zenyue silently took care of Wu Wei's neglected family responsibilities, allowing her to be a hero outside.Fortunately, Ye Lianzi said that she was Wu Wei's mother, but even her daughter Chanyue accommodated Wu Wei—her mother. Zenyue and Ye Lianzi, who are poor and white, and in dire straits, although they don't say anything to Wu Wei, and they don't talk about it with each other, but they can't think of something in their hearts. Who can say that what they think is unreasonable? As for Chanyue, not only did she have thoughts about Wu Wei, but she also had suspicions about Hu Bingchen. Now, is Ye Lianzi still allowed to sell blood? ! Zenyue has countless reasons not to accept Hu Bingchen.Why did Hu Bingchen come now? !After Wu Weigong became famous?How do you explain it if it's not "peach picking"? Has Hu Bingchen forgotten the letter he and Bai Fan wrote together?Even if Wu Wei forgets, Chanyue cannot forget. But...Since my mother admires Hu Bingchen so much, she loves Hu Bingchen to death... Blind, as long as she thinks it's good. Don't look at my mother bouncing around, changing from one man to another, she is still a man's slave in essence.Both grandma and mother are slaves of men. Those men are exploiting their spirit, body, and emotions... Can't they see it? This is really their family's "curse", and this "curse" must be reversed here. Grandma said: "It's not easy for grandma to bring your mother up. Now grandma has no strength anymore. If there is another catastrophe, grandma may not have the strength to carry it. What will you do if your mother is left alone?" When it comes to mother's matter, grandma seems to understand very well, in fact, she herself is still obsessed with Lao Gu.They all suffer from the disease of being obsessed with men, and they have suffered endlessly for men all their lives, and they don't want to repent.Chanyue could only stroke Wu Wei's arm and say, "Mom, you are so pitiful." Wu Wei smiled wryly, "I believe in fate now. I didn't believe in it before, but now I do." After thinking for a while, he said, "People can't take all the good things in the world, can they? I have you, grandma, and work is not bad. Good luck..." She didn't mention the most secret hope in Shan's heart.In fact, Wu Wei hasn't given up yet, it's not about Hu Bingchen but about Chanyue, praying that his imperfect life may be filled in by Chanyue, not her copy but her tune change.It's not good to be a woman like this, Zenyue has seen enough. Later, she really fought a turnaround for Wu Wei and Ye Lianzi.In Wu Wei's view, Chanyue not only helped them turn around, but also made a good love and marriage for her and Ye Lianzi, giving them the love they should have but didn't have, the marriage they should have but didn't have. The man who got married got married. For Wu Wei's incompetence, Chanyue has a kind of criticism that she is not aware of, and she has a trace of contempt even when she is deeply in love. She couldn't agree with Wu Wei's indulgence, and his cowardice that he couldn't control the situation after indulgence.One can be forgiven, but how many times has Wu Wei repeated this mistake in his life?Even the first-born children will not be like this! In the end, Zenyue could only choose to stay away.Nothing else, she was too self-respecting, as if she was overcorrecting Wu Wei's self-respecting correction. 4 Bai Fan sat down solemnly in front of Hu Bingchen. He knew it was time for a showdown. "So, it's not a joke if you want to find a widow to solve the problem?" Zifan didn't want Hu Bingchen to admit it, and even hoped that he could deny it, even if it was false, as long as Hu Bingchen was willing to deny it, there was still hope.But he didn't, he just accepted it so calmly.Tolerate Wu Wei stealing someone to raise an illegitimate child, but can't tolerate himself stealing someone to raise an illegitimate child? "Wu Wei, that broken shoe?" "How can you say that about others?" "Didn't you say that to me?" The needle pierced the blood, and the original intention was not malicious and contemptuous, thinking that with this reminder, he could deny his current obsession.It just reminded Hu Bingchen of what he had done to Wu Wei in the past, and if such a thing got out, what good results could there be? " Hu Bingchen glanced at Bai Fan, she should be said to be earnest, her eyes were really full of threats. Maybe Bai Fan didn't need to play this card: "Don't forget, 'that person' can't find a reason to let you step down, and your appointment has not been done yet." Hu Bingchen's heart of betrayal is not only gone Survive and hate.His hatred is not necessarily because of Bai Fan's threat, but because Bai Fan poked his heart disease. Indeed, someone is using the opportunity of institutional reform to redistribute power, not to mention that he has stabbed the hornet's nest of those sectarians, and they beat him to death with a slight backhand.Although history will eventually move forward, he understands that, given his age and health, it is impossible to be at his peak, and he can only be a stepping stone of history.Seeing that his strength was weak and his prospects were hopeless, he had no choice but to apply for retirement. Although it hadn't been approved yet, he couldn't have too many illusions, but it was only a matter of time. "It's nothing if you don't make trouble." "Obviously you messed with the relationship between men and women, but you said I was making trouble." Hu Bingchen gave Bai Fan a carbine back, "What about you?" It's not that Hu Bingchen must favor Wu Wei, and he doesn't want to say such hurtful things. They quarreled like petty citizens. After all, they were "revolutionary old comrades" who had gone through many difficult times hand in hand, but Bai Fan insulted Wu Wei like this, which made him feel insulted.If a man changes his mind, he will be really ruthless. For Wu Wei's sake, Hu Bingchen disregarded the sympathy of decades of living together, and exposed her background! Bai Fan threw away the old revolutionary's walking stick, and rushed forward with a scream, she no longer wanted to use the old revolutionary's walking stick to support herself, she would rather be like a village woman, shouting and crying and tearing and screaming. The sharp nails scratched scars on Hu Bingchen's face and neck, and then twisted Hu Bingchen's arm, but Hu Bingchen couldn't twist it while wearing a sweater, so she bit it with her mouth.At this time, Hu Bingchen felt that Bai Fan was not old at all, her fingers, her teeth; twisting, biting, and grabbing him were as powerful as Kong Wu when she was young. Then Bai Fan pounced on the coffee table again, poured a cup of hot tea that he had just brewed, and poured it straight on his face... Everything is history repeating itself. The nanny poked her head outside the door, and Hu Bingchen immediately closed the door. "You have shame, and you are afraid that people will find out!" Bai Fan pushed the door open forcefully, "Let's find the organization today..." Seeing that the situation was not good, Hu Bingchen begged for mercy and said, "Stop making trouble... If there is nothing wrong, just count me as wrong, okay?" "Wrong? That's not okay. Who can prove whether you are true or false?" "I was wrong, I was wrong." Hu Bingchen smiled playfully, "You can punish yourself however you want." "No, I have to find an organization." Said Bai Fan and walked out. Although the official career is hopeless, the application for retirement has not yet been approved, so you can't have too many illusions, but it doesn't mean you don't have any illusions. Seeing that something was wrong, Hu Bingchen quickly knelt down and yelled "Bai Fan!——" so that Bai Fan had to turn his head back. O woman! "Don't be mad at yourself, hit me, hit me!" What kind of heroine should be a woman who can hold a man's face! If there is no deep hatred, it is really impossible to do it.Bai Fan, who was in a fit of anger, really slapped Hu Bingchen's face left and right, he slapped six times, and then gradually calmed down. "You have to make a promise to me that you will never associate with that bitch again." "I promise." Then Hu Bingchen suffered a myocardial infarction and entered the emergency room of the hospital.If Hu Bingchen hadn't been a loser, maybe he could clear up the relationship, even if his age exceeded the limit, he wouldn't be so clean and quick that he would "retire" to the six-two-five-year-old, and at the worst he could make trouble for a consultant or something.Hu Bingchen's fall not only let the opponent breathe a sigh of relief, but also let the relevant departments breathe a sigh of relief in the difficult personnel balance.The indecisive personnel arrangement seems to have become very smooth and clear. The reason is also very human - working hard will accelerate the deterioration of Hu Bingchen's condition; because he can't work, it is logical that he is listed as a non-staff.This little chess piece that is about to fall into the game in an instant is like the final sprint of a 100-meter race, "attracting countless heroes to compete". If Hu Bingchen is healthy for the sake of health, can Hu Bingchen give up? If Bai Fan could think of such a consequence, would these six slaps be enough? If the fake Hu Bingchen can still work hard in his "post" in ten years, will Hu Bingchen still hang on to Wu Wei? If Hu Bingchen hadn't been admitted to the hospital right away, even if he wanted to keep going with the "bitch" Wu Wei, he wouldn't have the "revolutionary capital", and the promise of "never associate with that bitch again" would definitely be a dead letter. There are also two versions of Hu Bingchen who almost died due to these six slaps. Come to think of it, "Now Yang Baiquan is very powerful to me. I have never seen such a powerful person, and he still wants to sever the father-son relationship with me! What is the severance? He is not my son at all", there may be two versions. Of course Wu Wei believed in the "Hu version". So much so that at that time, he made up his mind that if something happened to Hu Bingchen, he must make the persecution of him public. And with the understanding of Hu Bingchen, Wu Wei began to doubt the "Hu version." Should he also listen to the "white version"? It can be seen that Wu Wei has no position at all, like a lawyer with poor professional ethics, he aims to find loopholes in the law, and win the lawsuit to obtain the maximum dividend ratio. 5 Tong Dalei was a dark horse that suddenly appeared when Hu Bingchen was walking away from Maicheng. Without Tong Daxiao's active participation, how would the relationship between Hu Bingchen and Wu Wei develop?Very difficult to say. Tong Dalei, who wanted to go to Wu Wei's place to show his hospitality for nothing, now had a good excuse, and immediately ran to Wu Wei's place, and said in a big fuss, "Hu Bingchen can't do it!" After all, among the ministerial-level cadres, Hu Bingchen and his political views were basically the same, and the work cooperation was fairly coordinated. What's more, Tong Dalei's ability to resume work soon after the "Cultural Revolution" was related to Hu Bingchen's strong recommendation. At that time, he didn't know the relationship between Wu Wei and Hu Bingchen, and the report was fairly objective: "The doctor said that the mortality rate was 70%, and only four drops per minute could be injected into the vein, so the vein had to be cut. Vascular injection." "What are you talking about? Wu Wei, who never disdained him, suddenly became more interested. "I said Hu Bingchen is going to die soon." Up to this moment, Tong Dalei hadn't noticed the big difference in Wu Wei's expression. The cold and windy December was like a frying pan to Wu Wei. In the frying pan, her ears became hard and burnt, thin and brittle, crackling. "Which hospital does he live in?" She rushed towards Tong Dalei, grabbed his wrist, and asked sharply. "What are you doing?" Tong Dalei broke off Wu Wei's nails on his wrist, and only then did he feel that Wu Wei was unusual today. "He must need me right now." "need you?!" "Yes, he needs me, and only I can save his life." What a bolt from the blue!But he was scheming, and said: "You have to tell me what's going on, so I can tell you which hospital he lives in. The Ministry has now appointed me as the person in charge of Hu Bingchen's medical plan. Visits must be approved by me. If you didn’t make it clear and ran away rashly, I will be responsible.” Tong Dalei was just curious at this time, and he hadn't thought of the higher use value of these two situations for him or others. After Wu Wei talked incoherently and confusedly about her entanglement with Hu Bingchen, Tong Dalei still believed and didn't believe it—— I've known Hu Bingchen for decades. In order to climb up the pyramid of power, which can be called reputation, Hu Bingchen has devoted every inch of his thoughts and energy to his work. Give up, in order to be upright and impeccable.This method may be feasible for those ordinary people who have little goals and only want to be a party member or a model worker. No way. It's not that a high-level person didn't want to use Hu Bingchen to get rid of "that one", and implied that Hu Bingchen, as long as he got rid of "that one", the position would be his.But Hu Bingchen didn't do it, he would rather confront his opponent head-on than act below him, he was a bit of a chivalrous man. However, behind this set of kung fu, is there something else hidden? Tong Dalei's conclusion is that there must be something hidden, at least this way Hu Bingchen has become a typical example of adhering to principles and being upright. Hu Bingchen is so innocent?Being unmoved in the face of temptation is because you don't want to be an emperor, and you want to rely on your own strength to enter the upper echelon of power; What kind of character is the opponent? "While talking and laughing, the mast and scull were wiped out in ashes" and bit Hu Bingchen to the bone marrow. What is Wu Wei?Neither an old comrade in arms, nor the wife of an old war opponent, not even a lover, let alone a chaste woman. Even if she showed mercy to Wu Wei, she would have to give something in exchange.Wu why?There is only her flesh, but she is so precious to her pile of flesh, like a virgin, if other women can pretend to be justified, what can she pretend? With a twist of the little finger, Wu Wei could be twisted until he couldn't find it. But Tong Dalei's little finger is not easy to twist.It cannot be said that it is not easy, but that the heat has not yet arrived. Why did Hu Bingchen fall in love with Wu Wei? Tong Dalei's feelings for Wu Wei are quite complicated.At first, he didn't leave any special impression. When he saw Wu Wei at the meeting for the first time, Tong Dalei just thought, what kind of unit is this girl, so elegant and thin, and she is dedicated to recording.Later, I found out that it was a staff member of a subordinate bureau or an amateur writer, and there were many colorful rumors.Tong Dalei has never been very respectful to writers, let alone those colorful rumors. However, female writers are different from other women, and it is still very fresh to play with. As Tong Dalei's subordinate, contact opportunities are not difficult to find.Gradually, Tong Dalei changed.At first glance, Wu Wei appears to be quiet and elegant, with light ink landscapes. After a lot of contact, he knows what light ink landscapes are, and it is clearly a gloomy oil painting.He thought he had the ability to know people, but he lost this time. Wu Wei's personality is actually very strong. Although she is a woman, she looks like a man. Unfortunately, there are too few such women.Many women are terrible because they are women inside and out, and men lack the qualities that are unique to women, which is hard to say.Tong Dalei has a lot of friends, both men and women, but very few of them are compatible in thought, understanding, knowledge and style. He once had two friends, and even spent New Year's Eve with three of them.Now one is dead, and the other is still serving as a deputy minister. We still talk for a long time when we meet, but they are all limited to political alliances.In addition, no one can talk for half a day. If you talk for half an hour, you will feel annoyed.Tong Dalei is arrogant, and Hu Bingchen is also arrogant, but one is feminine and the other is domineering, each with obvious "class marks". In terms of living conditions, Tong Dalei can still live for another 20 or 30 years; in terms of mental condition, he really can't support it anymore, and many things make him feel bored.It's not that my "talent" is not met, or that the trauma of many years has not healed, but that there are many things that I can't understand, and I can't make sense of them.You can talk about it for two or three hours, but if you really want him to come up with a plan, you can't come up with it.He himself wondered how the stupidity he had participated in the revolution had disappeared without a trace! Maybe see more.A flow of one billion people, the number of sands in the Ganges River, is nothing! He came from a very humble background, and he relied on his own hard work, unlike Hu Bingchen who came from a scholarly family. He is very sensitive to "differences", so he has offended many people, some of them are too Meng Lang, but he doesn't regret it, how many more years can he live?All grievances go with him. I didn't expect to be able to talk with Wu Wei, and even if I didn't talk for a long time, I could sit for a long time. Hunger is easy to eat, thirsty is easy to drink, because there are few people who can talk about it.People who never get tired of getting along, once they meet, they will naturally forget their form.And Wu Wei's attitude is elegant, neither humble nor overbearing.Unlike some subordinates, when they met the leader, they immediately became the legendary Wu Sangui who only dared to sit on a quarter of his ass. Later, when I saw Wu Wei's writing, I actually liked it a little bit, but the lines between the lines are filled with old-fashioned feelings. Why?I think it has something to do with her colored news, and I think life is always difficult. Wu Wei said that he likes "Three Lis" and wants to write about Li Qingzhao in the future. Is he writing for himself like Guo Moruo's "Cai Wenji"? Li Qingzhao's works in his later years were more refined, but also too sad. Almost every poem embodies the feeling of worrying about his family and country, and lamenting his life experience, making it difficult to read.However, many people are puzzled by Li Shangyin's poems, thinking they are about love.Li Changji's poems use too many allusions, which are very obscure, which may be due to the background of the times.Many old Chinese poems can be chanted again and again, or read three times, if you read it several times before you understand it, it cannot be regarded as high-quality. It is suggested to Wu Wei that it is better to read Wang Anshi's "Ming Concubine Song".Different from many poems about Zhaojun, Jinggong's "Mingfei Song" can be said to be a swan song, and it also explains life thoroughly.She was neither written down to the point of despair and misery, nor was she joked about as fiercely as a female politician.Throughout the ages, no poem or essay about Wang Zhaojun has surpassed that of Wang Anshi. But Wu Wei looked disapproving, and didn't want to say too much: "There are two different kinds of life." Later, the true and the false cared about Wu Wei, but it was really not the bait. 与胡秉宸形而上的方式不同，佟大雷的手法是形而下。 有一阵子政治形势严峻，文化界又将召开一个什么会议。 文化人集会不过是群众性的会，鱼龙混杂，如若吴为说话不慎重，很可能被歪曲，传播开来对她没有好处。而文化人历来以分功者多，但能居祸者少，所谓胜则争功，败则诿祸，像她那样有“大丈夫”气概的实不多见。吴为现在不过是棵幼苗，还不是劲草，为她鼓劲的自然有，伺机拆台的也未必没有，文坛之糟古已有之，几千年都没有干净过，吴为这方面的经验恐怕不多。有关法制民主，说话千万慎重，不能只求痛快。固然说些什么，别人也不能奈何她，可要暗中说两句遵旨奉命的，恐怕就要对她另眼看待了。虽然百花齐放，总要东君做主，所以不能太天真。 有些话电话上不好说，巴巴地跑去通风报信，担心吴为可能不在家，还将要她注意的内容写在纸上，万一碰不上就将纸头留下。听说吴为生病，知道没人与她商量料理，又派部里一位女同志前去照料，希望为她做个参谋或秘书，吴为敬谢不敏，退回。在上海遇到当今一流金石家，与鲁迅同时的钱某，还托钱某为她治印一枚“奉天吴为藏书”，也被吴为退了回来。佟大雷只得砸碎了之。 即便被吴为拒之门外，也不忘为吴为考虑，如母亲或本人生病，只要一个电话，随叫随到。 总之他所有的努力以及他本人，都被吴为视为粪土。相比之下，胡秉宸对吴为吃得更透，他从未如此物质地关怀过吴为，只消写写情书，水平之高，在吴为历届追求者中无人能出其右。这就是“宋明理学”与“安史之乱”的差别。又，怎么总败在那个病秧子胡秉宸的手下？ 如果一个“地位”还不足以鉴定他和胡秉宸的上下优劣，那么女人，尤其是吴为这个女人的鉴定，就太不留情了。 严格说起来，佟大雷不把女人当回事，他介意的是吴为这个女人，或不如说是介意她那双慧眼，那双慧眼拉开的距离真叫距离。吴为是有眼无珠还是幼稚？ 几十年风里来雨里去，没有一定“本事”，胡秉宸能升到这个位置吗？能升到这个位置的男人，本质上差不了多少。 从一个至情至性的知识分子爬到这个位置，何止是过五关斩六将、修韬晦、炼金睛……最难之处怕是还要多少次背叛自己的人格。 说起来他又比胡秉宸差多少？ 世事也不能这样不公平，让胡秉宸占尽风流！ 佟大雷积极介入胡秉宸事件，可以说不完全出于嫉恨，也可以说完全出于嫉恨。 当然不是故事。 吴为此刻的神志不清，显然也不是演戏。 从吴为叙述的许多细节可以看出，那是胡秉宸的所作所为。 佟大雷一时无语，只能一支接一支点烟，却不吸，任一支支烟在指间化为一截又一截白灰。 这种事于他人、于佟大雷，都算不了什么，发生在胡秉宸身上却是八级地震。胡秉宸不是有名的清廉、一尘不染、兢兢业业、拒腐蚀永不沾吗？ 确切地说，佟大雷此时的兴奋，还仅限于一个望尘莫及、高不可攀的神化人物，突然从高不可攀的高度上坠下，并和自己站到了同一个水平线上，就像盗贼找到了同伙，佟大雷不再感到孤单。被人视为行为不良、品行不端的佟大雷找到了同类，而且是这样一个优秀的同类。胡秉宸现在变成了佟大雷十足的“理由”、十足的“借口”、十足的“依据”。最后他捻灭了手里的烟，诚恳而动情地说：“感谢你这样信任我，我非常同情你们的境遇……” 想不到佟大雷没有趁火打劫，吴为不觉一改对佟大雷的轻慢，两只泪眼信赖而又尊敬地望着他。那目光宛若一台起重机，佟大雷明显地觉得被这目光抬举得高大起来，身坯实实在在一寸寸地上升，“我一定想办法帮助你们。不过今天太晚了，他妻子儿女肯定都在病房守着，你是进不去的。” 此话合情合理。 既然佟大雷答应帮助他们，她就应该听从他的安排。可是佟大雷一走，吴为又慌乱起来。 想起胡秉宸不久前对她说过：“我有二个可以信托的朋友，万一出了什么事，你可以去找他。” “什么事？！” 胡秉宸当时已感不支，万一自己有个山高水低，事实上并没有长大成人的吴为怎么了得？白帆在这方面可以应裕自如，吴为却不行，她是一团气、一团雾，有点不食人间烟火。 “没什么。我是说万一我不在你身边，又有了什么大事需要帮助，可以去找他。” 吴为在胡秉宸给她的那些信里找到胥德章的地址，拿起就往外走，可是想到空口无凭，又转身拿了胡秉宸给她的两封信。 夜已深了，吴为在那些没有照明的楼道里摸来摸去，几次被台阶绊倒，跌跌撞撞爬上楼，终于找到那户人家。 敲了门。有很谨慎的盘问，然后被让进光线很暗的走廊，看见两张难以看清也就不容易记住的脸。可是他们没有拒绝陌生的她，足以看出他们对胡秉宸的感情。胥德章和常梅显然不知道胡秉宸的近况，可是一看胡秉宸给吴为的那两封信，就惊慌而又意味深长地互相对视了一眼。在那一眼短暂异常的交流里，神速地交换了彼此的想法以及应对这一非同寻常局面的办法——不论发生什么情况，首先护住胡秉宸。 那正是胡秉宸的笔迹，不会是假。胡秉宸的字很特别，且相当潦草，任何人也模仿不了，-只有特别熟悉的人才认得出他的字体。 所以对眼前的吴为不能有什么怀疑，他们的地址也肯定是胡秉宸给吴为的。可他们还是从吴为身上嗅到了不对劲的地方。 深夜造访，本就十分突兀，更何况还有这样的信。尽管胡秉宸对吴为说有什么急事、难事可以寻求他们的帮助，可要是换了他们，他们会等一等，想一想…… 此外她像条一刀没有刺准，庞大、受伤、在水中挣扎得翻江倒海的鱼，身旁那些船，若不小心就会被她翻进水里。必得谨慎从事。 “这件事你对别人说过吗？” “对佟大雷说过，因为是他把老胡病危的消息告诉我的。” 胥德章和常梅紧张起来，彼此又对视一下。 如果吴为仅仅对他们说及此事，他们可能会研究一下如何帮助她，可是现在躲都躲不及了。佟大雷本就无风三尺浪，更不要说有风有雨。 他们从未接触过如此不老练、不慎重的人，这种事怎么可以随便对人说！更不理解社会上竟有这种不老练、不慎重的人，和这种人共事岂不害死人？ 他们为胡秉宸忧心起来。 “你打算怎么办？”“我想请你们和白帆谈谈，老胡人已经到了这个地步，请让我去照顾他，只有我可以救他的命……” 吴为的话让他们十分惊讶。说是儿戏，可是吴为看上去也有三十多岁了，要么就是精神不正常。这种事谈谈就可以解决吗？太绽稚了。 “容我们想一想。” 吴为觉得很失望，胡秉宸的老战友似乎还没有佟大雷那样慷慨，应允她一线希望。当她离开那个昏暗的房间时，瞥见写字台上的一盆水仙，有很多即将开放的花蕊，那是计划着养的，将准时在春节盛开。 虽然看到胡秉宸亲笔写给吴为的信，胥德章和常梅还是无法相信那个严谨、严厉，从来滴水不．漏的管子怎么漏了起来。 他们并非不知道胡秉宸对女人的兴趣，可绝未想到胡秉宸竟写出这样缠绵悱恻的信。干了一辈子地下党的他们，怎能失手将如此重要的物证留在他人手中？而且写给这样一个冒失的女人。 想来胡秉宸动了真情。 此时胥德章和常梅还不知道吴为的底细，只是她的冒失让他们退避三舍。当他们得知吴为的底细后，将会更加坚决地站到白帆一边。他们马上到医脘看望胡秉宸。胡秉宸似乎在一场恶战、血战中打得很苦，什么都没剩下，只剩下两只眼睛。 看到从死亡线上挣扎回来的胡秉宸，常梅的心比白帆抽搐得还厉害，她曾为之暗藏几十年心事的男人，怎么变成了这个样子？ “我们很惦记你，可是监护期间医生不允许探望。”胥德章握着胡秉宸的手，几乎流下泪来。 从胡秉宸的孱弱可以想见，他进行过何等殊死的搏斗，孤零零的一个人，他们以及老战友们都无能为力。 胡秉宸冥思苦想地看着眼前的两个人，好像不认识，好像在找回自己的记忆，“谢谢。”他的声音很空，宛若清风穿过一具骷髅，发出呜呜的空鸣。“好了，现在好了。”胥德章说。 可是胡秉宸并未显出什么兴趣，就像他并不十分高兴自己又活了过来。难道活比死更容易？ 活是什么？就是想方设法把“里面”包装起来，又千方百计包得巧妙，巧妙到有一天想要找到它都难了。那时，胡秉宸模模糊糊觉得还有一件大事没有完成，是什么呢？对，他还没有找到自己的“里面”。 他像是处于失重状态，手脚散漫，微微蜷曲，回头望去，一生的日子全挤在一条断断续续的栈道上。栈道上是尘土、烽烟、血，数不清的非人非兽的面孔、身坯……或许相亲相爱，或许互相咬噬。 突然，呻吟、号声四起。 一缕青尘也慢慢升起，扩散，以至淹没了所有。 他看见自己，那整洁的、眼睛占去脸部二分之一的小男孩，站在芭蕉树下，芭蕉树下还站着一个美人——他一直在找却又找不到的。 是芭蕉树下的那个人吗？又是又不是。 可腕上没有灰玉手镯，也没绛红色的衣衫，而是一身绿衣。 明明是个雨天，明明偎在绛红色的衣上，温暖、柔软、陶醉。 怎么却多出一份将吴为拥在休里的爱怜？ 是吴为！憔悴、疲惫，两只手用力在空中不停地、毫无收获地抓挠着，裹挟在飞沙走石的劲风中，从他身边轰然掠过。 他听到吴为的喊叫，好像在叫他的名字。好远哪，让疾风吹得断断续续。他确信看见了吴为的嘴唇，像那个雪日一样，只是唇上有皴裂的皮。 随即明白，这是他们分道扬镐的时候。 What should I do? 焦急中向自己猛击一掌，然后直直地倒了下来。倒下后的他，面目全非，是他，又不是他。 “在里面，在里面，我在里面。”里面是哪儿？自己又是在哪儿？ 他把自己丢了，咽！他把自己丢了。 胡秉宸仰起头，呼出无奈而绝望的一声长啸，震得日月星辰纷纷坠落，迅疾地、伴有断裂的轰然巨响。没等到找到自己，胡秉宸醒来了。“想吃点儿什么吗？你知道常梅的手艺。” 胡秉宸这才明白眼前是最亲密的老战友。终于想起青年时代一起吃大锅饭的情景。那时他的胃口真好，老是饿、老是饿，老想吃、老想吃，却没有什么可吃。馋极了在街头小酒摊上，空口光喝一碗浊酒也是好的。现在有的吃了，牙口也不行了，胃口也不行了。 他们何止为革命出生人死？连他们的口腹之欲也不由分说地一起贡献给了革命。孔老夫子早对人生下了“食色性也”的定义，这么前后一看，他们何止在非常时期，连“后非常时期”也贡献给了革命。 白帆不会烧菜只会做革命同志，胡秉宸要想打牙祭，只有往胥德章家里跑，常梅能把一挂猪肠子、一条黄瓜烧得如山珍，如海味。 偶尔胡秉宸也下厨，烧个酸辣汤什么的。由于白帆不喜欢腐化生活，保姆也被领导得只能烧缺盐少油的革命饭菜，但对胡秉宸烧的酸辣汤白帆并不排斥，有时也提倡一下“文武之道，一张一弛”，吩咐道：“老胡同志，给我们搞一个酸辣汤，改善改善生活怎么样？” 看着胡秉宸在厨房里切豆腐，煮鸡汤，打鸡蛋，洗黄花木耳，白帆就放下报纸或文件，靠在沙发上，满意地点点头，“多放些花椒哟！——”是吩咐勤务员、警卫员“搞些辣椒哟”的气魄，让胡秉宸想起“后非常时期”电影上的毛泽东，那些相当人情味的细节。 那时胡秉宸的家，革命色彩浓郁，如果发生战争，随时可以建立一个野战班，一分钟内就可拉上前线。自从有了吴为，他有时会想，要是在厨房里做酸辣汤的不是他而是吴为，该多有滋味儿！吴为一定会为放多少醋或是胡椒与他争论不休，却不会为了几个菜钱像白帆那样抠保姆，把保姆抠得眼泪都流出来了……白帆领导下的日子，是不是有点像放错作料的菜？ “老胡，你住．监护室期间，有个叫吴为的女同志去找过我们……” 胡秉宸马上握住胥德章的手，像那些要死的人，抓着什么就豁出命抓着那样不遗余力。胥德章手上，感到被一副骨头夹着的疼痛，心里一惊。 胡秉宸那双眼睛，也定定地望着胥德章的嘴，“你是说——吴为？” 胥德章明白了，一切都是真的。他点点头，在胡秉宸耳旁，将那夜奇遇一一说来。 有些地方，胡秉宸还要求重复一遍。最后胡秉宸说：“我需要你们的帮助。” 胥德章说：“你放心，你放心。” 胡秉宸并不放心，也许因为太懂得他们的心，或不如说太懂得自己的心。 6 应该说佟大雷不是丧尽天良的人。 胡秉宸的地位本就岌岌可危，命又危在旦夕，医生说即便不死也是废人，恐怕只有躺在床上了此残生。 也就是说，再不能指望胡秉宸重整旗鼓、协同作战、共谋大业了，更不要说再保荐他落实到副部长那个位置上去。从此后，佟大雷将是孤军一旅。念及胡秉宸对他的种种好处以及胡秉宸的种种优点，他只能长叹一声。 出身寒微，少一点道貌、谈不上岸然的佟大雷，对形象的考虑不像胡秉宸那样“五步一回首，十步一徘徊”，必然如此这般地直截了当——用力很猛地将胡秉宸推出去，以变被动为主动；而且还得及早，若不及早，身价更是贬值。 毕竟在官场上混过多年，知道不便亲自出面，最好从白帆人手。对白帆的浑蛮，佟大雷了解的不比胡秉宸少。 那也就把吴为一起推出去了。 投鼠忌器呀。 佟大雷烦躁地拿起电话又放下。 就是和胡秉宸脱钩，也不能推得那么狠，那么残酷，那么负心负义啊！ 已是夕阳西下肘分，说什么“夕阳无限好”，还有那个“只是近黄昏”呢！ 黄昏是什么，是突然一眨眼，黑暗就来临的永寂。 想起不久前对吴为的“开导”：“所谓人性，谈了几十年。我这个经历战争、尝尽人间疾苦、看遍世上疮痍的人根本不相信。一九四三年河南大灾，水、早、黄、汤，母子父女相食……什么人性？战场上讲什么人性？你不杀他，他就杀你。一九四二年我抓到一个日伪间谍，三十多岁，烫发，大夏大学毕业生，能言善语，风韵颇佳。因为战争，没有时间和她纠缠，黄昏时分，临撤出村子前把她砍了，我看她还一步一回头呢。有什么法子，生死搏斗嘛！”果然是突然一眨眼黑暗就来临的永寂，黑暗中，一切都变得不可把握，刻不容缓地换了天地。一脸肃杀的佟大雷打开台灯，拨通了电话。 胡秉宸冷冷清清的离休，轰轰烈烈的恋爱，某种意义上却是一个停顿，意想不到的事情往往就在一个短暂的停顿中发生。已有传言，胥德章将取胡秉宸而代，没想到提名力荐的竟是胡秉宸的那个死对头。这是一步险棋，也是一步高棋。比之刚到延安的一览无余，胥德章面目全非了。不论遇到什么情况，仍然像个隐蔽极深的地下党，不惊不炸，沉稳干练，绝不留下任何蛛丝马迹。 如果让胥德章、胡秉宸回到当年，回到他们的大学时代，可能谁也认不出谁了。 想到这里，胥德章又有些感慨。 不能说胥德章无情无义，可也不能不让他想到苍天有眼。 毕竟与胡秉宸有着不相上下的革命历史，却始终没有得到一个相应的地位佐证，如今机会来了，又何必拒绝？ 即便拱手把这位置还给胡秉宸，胡秉宸也无能为力了，何况自己并没有向“那位”暗送秋波，有什么必要良心不安呢？ 以前，胥德章轻易不应佟大雷的招呼——特别这次宴请的还有“那位”客人-，即便盛情难却，也会向胡秉宸打个招呼，现在却什么都不必想了。名义是尝鲜。 “来来，尝尝鲜，老家带来的新腊肉……早就想请大家尝尝了，可是为老胡的治疗，忙得我什么都顾不上。唉，多好的同志，可惜啊，可惜厂“好同志，有原则。“那位”的白净脸上泛着潮红，有些微醺的样子，“部里这些年工作上的进展，与胡副部长的推动、领导是分不开的。”不见得诸事顺遂的人都这样慷慨。好比曾几何时，春风得意的胡秉宸就从不练这套功夫，对人难得赏个笑脸，好像全世界的人，惟他正确。 “是的，是的。”众人一面应和，一面等着下文。 轻击桌子的五个手指，各个显出深不可测的样子，“其实呢，什么意见不可以交换？不过能提出来就好，不拘形式，谈完就完。只是胡副部长心重一些，结果……革命工作嘛，什么情况遇不到？还是五湖四海嘛……”有人适时点了题：“心胸狭窄不但对革命工作不利，对身体也不利……” 一下点出，主菜不是腊肉。 “来，来，再喝，再喝。” 有人起身，把各位门前的酒杯斟满。 “来，你我也喝一杯，”说着“那位”举起酒杯，与佟大雷碰了一下，“你的工作我本来有所考虑，可是'文革'刚刚结束，百废待兴，倒是胡副部长先过问了，惭愧，惭愧……”“哪里，哪里，我们共事多年，我这个人你还不了解？对名利毫无兴趣。与老胡嘛，不过工作关系，许多观念上还有分歧。”接下去就是部里那些斗来斗去的陈年旧事，失势的胡秉宸自然成为垫底菜。胥德章原本只在一旁随声附和，热烈赔笑，他不能，也不应该像佟大雷那样过分拍卖自己，可是话说到这个地步，胥德章感到了难以承受。恢弘或委琐的界限怎能分得十分清晰？越是具备传统文化的优良品格，越是事事艰难。官场上胡秉宸可能有勇无谋，也可能因为难展身手而郁郁寡欢，但与这班人马绝对不可同日而语。 四十年前，胡秉宸为他安全转移，被特务逮捕几乎牺牲的往事，如此清晰地凸现在胥德章眼前。 But…… 毕竟胡秉宸一压多年没有发展他人党。 在革命前景并不十分看好，也没有必然成功保证的时候，“党员”两个字是高度浓缩、高度凝结的崇高誓言，除了更多的负担、更危险的工作、更无条件的服从……什么也不意味。 那时胡秉宸不发展他人党，只能说他付出的还不够，除了继续奋斗、努力争取，没有什么可说。 谁料一九四九年后，“党员”这个称号渐渐“增容”，它不仅仅是高度浓缩、高度凝结的崇高誓言，更是信任的基石，由信任而任用，由任用而地位，而待遇，而级别……实非他们当初的想像，那么人不入党、党龄长短，也就凸现出特别的意义。 这，粒不经意掉下、当时被他们忽略不计的种子，此时也就发了芽。这也不值得大惊小怪，那些冰冻了几千万年、毫无生命迹象的种子，在适当培育下都能发芽，何况这样一粒种子？ 是啊，什么都会过去，岂止是爱情！ 不是胥德章或胡秉，宸堕落，