Chapter 14 Part 1.7.2

Even though the master gave the wolfdog away, Ye Lianzi's face was still scratched by its claws, and the hem of her dark blue cotton cheongsam with thin purple strips was also torn. Ye Lianzi, who loves to cry, did not dare to shed tears in front of her master, her throat seemed to be split with fright, and she kept praising her master's dog: "It's——it's a good dog, a good dog!" When they entered the spacious living room, Ye Lianzi sat sideways on the chair, and Wu Wei leaned on Ye Lianzi's knee, she realized that something was wrong with Ye Lianzi, who was full of praise for her master's dog.The breath in her chest seemed to be stuck somewhere.Either she rushed out with great difficulty, and pressed against Wu Wei's back with a "gurgling"; His breath seemed to turn a few corners before he struggled out of the trachea that was constricted in fright.But the master didn't give Ye Lianzi a job because of the wound on her face, the torn cheongsam, or the praise of the dog.Although he has been bitten by dogs like this, Wu Wei does not remember the dogs.When she grew up, she felt even more that it wasn't the dog's fault.Isn't it just that people domesticate the independent, rebellious, and blood-eating wolves into dogs that depend on people?

Once they are domesticated, they become people's most loyal servants, or as some people say "minions".Perhaps in a practical sense, there is no essential difference between a servant and a servant, but Wu Wei would rather say that she is a servant, and she doesn't know if this is her vanity.Even a pug dog that has no fighting ability, when an uninvited guest visits or breaks in, it will know that it can't do anything, bark endlessly, and back away timidly.But when it comes to the moment of life and death, they will loyally dedicate their everything, even their lives, to their masters, which is the so-called "defend to the death".

If you lose your sight for a while and mistake the owner's friend as an intruder with bad intentions, you will be reprimanded by the owner, or even kicked, without considering their self-esteem at all, and let them be thrown away in front of others. face.But they don't hold grudges, don't care about them, or say they are shameless, and they will still do their duty next time.But dogs are not as revered as when they were wolves. And what it requires from people is nothing more than a cup of leftovers, a bone that can be stripped of its essence... Maliciousness towards dogs may have existed since ancient times. She often heard insults towards dogs in the speech of Chinese people, such as "a son of a bitch", "a bastard", "a dog biting Lu Dongbin, and does not recognize good-hearted people" , "fearful like a bereaved dog", "a dog against others", "a mad dog", "a pinch-tail dog", "a wolf-hearted dog", "a dog's day" and so on.

Is this because they have become slaves? Wu Wei has been particularly sensitive to "slave" all her life, and she refuses to be another "slave", but in fact, slavishness has penetrated into her bone marrow-there is the tragedy. Fortunately, dogs do not understand human language, if they understand human language, how sad they would be. They may think that it would be better to be a wolf that everyone fears - this is just her guess, that is, the conjecture of people who think they are nobler than dogs.Dogs are not born with such a dark psychology. Later, she even raised a dog, and since then she knew that only a dog is her most loyal friend.

When she forced a smile on her face and refused to talk about her miserable loneliness, when she turned her head, the dog was looking at her desperately, with a pool of dog tears in its wet eyes that was more cherished than human tears. -Only it can see that she is just trying to make others, and herself, believe that her life is good. She likes to walk under the dim street lights at night, like a homeless wild dog, sniffing under this tree, and sniffing at the corner of the wall, there is no need, electricity has no destination It is even more unnecessary and purposeless to walk eastward and look westward.At that time, no one could recognize her as the famous or notorious Wu Wei.

Only the dog followed her, guarding her worriedly... But what was she afraid of now?She didn't even look at the traffic lights at the intersection, and walked over in a reckless manner, wishing that a car would run over her to death. When she was in extreme difficulty and knew that in fact there was no one to help her, only it would come over, wag its tail at her, and silently watch over her and sit down.That was the last consolation that needed the least "thank you" and the least return. She is no longer brilliant, and people are gradually forgetting her—this has nothing to do with the coldness of the world, but because she no longer shines and hides in the dark, and there are so many passing things that make people dazzled, which pair of eyes will still be there Wander in the dark?And she almost ate everything... There was only one dog, who would rather keep a bowl of clean water with her than change the door.She is its home, and it is her home, right?

I believe that when she was dying, only a dog would stand by her side, stubbornly thinking or hoping that she still had hope of living.When she was reduced to ashes and no one would keep her ashes, it had no choice but to run around the world, looking for her breath that was nowhere to be found, and even spent the rest of its life. Only a dog would feel that without her he lost his home.Besides that, who else would feel that they had lost anything because she had turned to ashes? Can Hu Bingchen, whom she loved with her life, shed a tear for her? 9 Ye Lianzi could only hold back her grievances and self-blame, resenting herself for not being able to protect her child, and said to Wu Wei anxiously: "Mom, I'm sorry for you, and I'm sorry for your factory. I dare not ask Teacher Zhao, "What are you doing?" How can you beat a child like this? "She couldn't, and she didn't dare. She was originally a "black" in this school, just like those who don't have a registered permanent residence. Even the position of this "black" is in jeopardy. The name of a teacher who has gone far and wide.

Liao Ruihong helped her find this job. Principal Zhu asked her to show her graduation diploma. She never went to middle school at all, except for a diploma from Lixin Accounting School, where can she get a middle school diploma? Her teaching skills were all forced out after she retreated from Hong Kong to Liuzhou.Even her graduation certificate from Lixin Accounting School was forced out. For this, she has to thank the Hong Kong woman Asu and her husband Gu Qiushui. Liao Ruihong, who was honest and responsible, was able to say a few words for her: "After so many years of displacement, what the Chinese have lost is not only a diploma, but also gold and silver, are they still lost?"

Ye Lianzi is not stupid, and understands this sentence, but it is too difficult for her to lie and say that she graduated from middle school.Thinking that she has been unemployed for a long time, not to mention that Wu Wei cannot afford to pay her tuition fees, she will soon face begging... She had no choice but to make up her mind, throw away her shame, and said to Principal Zhu, "All my things were lost in the escape. gone." It is said that President Zhu graduated from the Department of Economics of Nanjing University, but his diploma was just bought with money. Principal Zhu understood Ye Lianzi's answer, and said, "Since we can't prove anything, and we can't deny anything, then we have to wrong you to replace that teacher's name and become a substitute teacher. The salary of a substitute teacher is not enough. Pay according to half of the regular teacher."

Ye Lianzi quickly calculated in her heart: a bag of noodles costs two yuan; a hundred eggs costs one yuan; Five bags of noodles, so there is no need to worry that their mother and son may go hungry or beg. As for the whereabouts of the other half of the salary, Principal Zhu cannot answer.As a "black man", not only Ye Lianzi could not enjoy the treatment that other teachers should have, but Wu Wei also became a "black child". , Eat salt water vegetables every day. In fact, what's so good about teachers' meals?It's just tofu or soybean sprouts.But Ye Lianzi's mother's heart began to break as soon as the tofu and soybean sprouts were served.Her stomach is not good, which may be related to the constant tears and the indigestible tofu and soybean sprouts.After the hunger in Xi'an, Wu Wei didn't think there was anything wrong with salted vegetables. At least she could have enough to eat, and she could eat as many bowls as she wanted. She was really satisfied.So during the transition period from a young girl to a young girl, Wu Wei had a big belly. Her figure has never been slim, which may be related to the messy eating at that time.That's it, Teacher Li is still finding fault with Ye Lianzi.

Yesterday she told students in a general knowledge class: "Potatoes are a plant in the nightshade family." However, Teacher Li took it as a laughing stock, and said to everyone in the teacher's office: "Listen, Teacher Ye told the students that potatoes are plants in the nightshade family, ha-ha-ha-ha-" Isn’t the potato a plant in the nightshade family but the rose family, or the daylily lily family that is said to make people forget their worries?Teacher Li laughed, Ye Lianzi became hairy, and even the very sure potato was a plant of the nightshade family became less sure.Teacher Li graduated from Xiangshan Salesian Home, and her background is also very solid. Unlike her, she has neither background nor a high school diploma. And she hasn't received the letter of appointment for the next semester; the hut, which has nothing but a pair of wooden boards on the stool, is not lively at all. And on that unique wooden board, there was another Wu Wei who was so young that he was OB silently enduring a beating, and there was another sitting beside him who could only hold Wu Wei's hand. For Ye Lianzi, who is sad and anxious, the room is so quiet that you can almost hear the sound of Ye Lianzi's heart being grabbed by helplessness and helplessness. Then someone knocked on the door.Ye Lianzi thought it was Teacher Qin, she desperately needed a word of sympathy that could not bring any benefits. but not. Teacher Qin was walking between Principal Zhu and Teacher Zhao.He said to Principal Zhu: "Who do you use? If you fire Teacher Ye, their mother and daughter will have to go to the streets to beg for food." Principal Zhu is always afraid of Teacher Qin. This may be because Mr. Qin has the qualifications of a native air force student.But before he became a full-fledged Air Force officer from the air force, he broke his leg in a basketball game and retired. However, this qualification was still highly admired in that era.In particular, Mr. Qin is upright and has great prestige among his colleagues. He said to Mr. Zhao: "Their mother and daughter are so pitiful. Although we can't help them, we can't hurt them. That child is naughty, but I can't beat her like that. She is only a few years old, and she can bear it." Beat it? If you have any questions, you can tell her mother not to beat the child like this. This society is inherently unfair. As men, we must not be accomplices in this society, right?" Borrow money from Ye Lianzi.He often borrowed money from Ye Lianzi, the poorest of the teachers, and Ye Lianzi never expected that the money Ma Wenzhong borrowed would come back one day. Just like Wu Wei’s self-confession of “making a mistake in the relationship between men and women”, especially during the “Cultural Revolution”, a revolutionary from a poor peasant background always borrowed money from Wu Wei who had no money and never paid it back. .It is really "historical experience worth noting". At the end of the day, Ye Lianzi had to spend all the money she had earned through her teeth during the semester to buy a few bottles of Butterfly Cream for the principal's wife, hoping that these bottles of Butterfly Cream would allow the principal's wife to influence the principal and give her a copy. Appointment letter for next semester.Butterfly cream is considered a domestic famous brand in cosmetics, and its status is equivalent to the current Dabao. Ye Lianzi, who was even more impoverished, could not "lend" money to Ma Wenzhong this time anyway. But she knew that this so-called janitor could never afford to offend her.Otherwise, those bottles of Butterfly Cream from her would be worth giving away for nothing. Ma Wenzhong shoulders the heavy responsibility of the principal, and goes down to the base every day to buy kitchens for students and teachers, and also serves the principal's wife by the way.The headmaster's wife's food, oil, salt, soy sauce, vinegar and tea are all spent on the food expenses of the teachers and students at the school.As for Ma Wenzhong himself, he will also get a lot of benefits from it, making the food of students and teachers even worse. She can be fired, but Ma Wenzhong cannot be fired.Ma Wenzhong is the "Second Principal". She had no choice but to pull Yu Si's endless concerns from Wu Wei's pain, digging her head to search, what else can be used to replace Ma Wenzhong's loan, and leave him satisfied. After much deliberation, only Gu Qiushui sneaked back to Hong Kong after the Pearl Harbor incident to retrieve the property lost in Hong Kong for Zou Keren, and left a coat for Mrs. Zou from Mrs. Zou's box.Although Gu Qiushui has been away from the old army for many years, it is hard to change the old habits of soldiers.Gu Qiushui thought, he can't give his life to the Zou family in vain, this coat is their due reward for him.The coat was dark blue in color, with a collar that was lightly curved like a lotus leaf, trimmed with narrow leather trims of the same color, cinched at the waist, and reaching ankle length.Although it is so old that the dark blue glows purple, it still has the charm, and it is her only warm clothing in winter. She rubbed the coat embarrassedly, as if she was the one who borrowed the money instead of Ma Wenzhong, and said in a murmur, "I'm really sorry, I can't pay for it at the moment... I really don't have anything valuable anymore, this coat is still worth it." It can be used as some money, and I will definitely give it to you when I have money in the future." When Ma Wenzhong proposed to borrow money, he still had a wicked smile on his face, but he immediately pulled it back, because he felt that this honest-looking Ye Lianzi would not give him face.But he couldn't open her suitcase to search, so he had to pull off the coat and said, "If I wasn't in a hurry to wait for the money, I wouldn't open my mouth like this. Well, I'll take the coat first. It's about the money." tell you later." This coat, like the money Ma Wenzhong "borrowed" from Ye Lianzi, has since disappeared. Here I have to say a little more about the cladnet, which is the recorder, also called the clarinet or the clarinet. The pronunciation of other woodwind instruments is completely different. It can make the overtones on the octave occur not only on the octave, but on the twelfth degree. It is the instrument with the highest performance among woodwind instruments. It doesn't get much better than this, especially when controlling crescendos or diminuendos. And the transposed clarinet in the key of B-maybe it is more in line with the auditory effect of the following text-it can play three and a half intervals from the D sound on the third line of the bass staff. Especially its bass part, the timbre is dull, distant, vast and mysterious, the middle part is beautiful and free and easy, and the treble part is sharp and wild.Therefore, among the orchestral instruments, it is the most free and rich in expression.When Ye Lianzi was drifting on the plateau like a rustling tree, and in the days of Linggu Village, Yu Yelianzi was just a wave of yellow wind after another, setting off one layer of loess to cover another layer of loess. Clarinets lingering in the bass range.Like a symphony with an unbalanced configuration, this well-behaved clarinet really narrates too much and for too long in the bass area, why can’t it struggle abruptly and heart-wrenchingly from the stagnant narration and foreshadowing of various instruments? , give them a final, soaring, soaring, lingering, and in the end instead of dissipating but solidifying in the sky, leaving only the timpani, under that space, knocking on the key point of the text for her perseverance? What can be like that unwillingness, pleading and screaming, for Ye Lianzi who can't call for help, shouting out her helplessness? ! Ma Wenzhong felt very fooled by this overcoat owned by Poor Ye Lianzi.However, Teacher Qin's strict words of righteousness were like wind to Teacher Zhao's ears, and the beating of Wu Wei was still not enough to dispel the hatred in his heart.These two little men went to Principal Zhu's place with two prongs, not even a complaint, but said a lot of "little things" about this woman.Naturally, it is a small saying that "there is a lot of gossip at the widow's door". Their petty words cannot say that things happen for no reason. After Gu Qiushui threw Ye Lianzi at Baoji "Gonghe", Mr. Lu did give Ye Lianzi, mother and daughter a bite to eat, but Ye Lianzi had to solve many trivial matters in life, such as carrying water.It seems that the women in the Northeast have not been trained in shoulder lifting, chopping firewood, and so on.Liao Ruihong, who lives in the single dormitory next door, is strong and kind. Before Wu Wei was strong enough to take on these tasks, he often helped Ye Lianzi buy food, firewood, and water. Liao Ruihong didn't know much about Ye Lianzi, only that her husband had thrown them away. The treatment of "Gonghe" is already poor, and it can be said that it is the worst treatment among all institutions in Baoji.It is difficult for him to live alone, and it is even more difficult for a woman with a child. She always looks depressed and always wears a cheongsam made of indanthrem. Although she is dressed plainly, she is dignified and dignified.Many years later, the old people of "Gonghe" may have forgotten the name Ye Lianzi, but they vaguely remember the woman in the indanthrem cheongsam and her voice and smile. Ye Lianzi participated in the "Gonghe" activity, but it seemed very reluctant.She may not go, but she may be worried that if she does not go, Mr. Lu, who gave her a bite of food, will be unhappy. Occasionally, I can see her in the reading room, flipping through books or magazines. Liao Ruihong glanced at the reading materials in her hand, but they were "Gonghe Monthly", "Gonghe Newsletter", or novels. Sometimes at parties and dances, Ye Lianzi would stand or sit beside her with her children, but she never sang or danced.Liao Ruihong was full of inexplicable sympathy for this silent woman, and there was only one street in Baoji, even if he didn't want to meet, he would often meet on the street.Once, he went to a small restaurant at a restaurant in Xichengguan. Upstairs in the small restaurant, he saw Ye Lianzi taking Wu Wei "to the restaurant".They asked for a bowl of steamed mutton, which was placed in front of Wu Wei.Wu Wei snotted from eating, and he could see that the child hadn’t eaten meat for a long time, but whenever he saw a piece of meat in the bowl, he would always yell and say, "Mom, mom, meat, meat. You eat, you eat." Ah Chang took the piece of meat and stuffed it into Ye Lianzi's mouth. While dodging, Ye Lianzi said quietly: "Be careful, don't fall on the ground...you can eat, mom is full." He stood behind them and watched for a long time, and finally couldn't help but walked over and said, "Can I sit here?" Ye Lianzi saw him now, and said with a gentle smile, "Please." She smiled, but her smile was full of rejection. Anyone who sees this refusal will also understand that this woman is at the end of her life and cannot survive. She herself may also know that everyone understands that her life is at an end, and she understands that she can't ask anyone for help, so no matter who she sees, she will first forcefully isolate a vigilance of retreating and a barrier of never asking for help. And because the mountains and rivers are exhausted, there is a shrinking feeling of shame.Because of self-esteem and self-love, this shrinking is wrapped up in untold hardships. Liao Ruihong ordered a bowl of braised pork and a plate of fried shredded pork with potherb mustard, which was a lot of money for him who was poor, so he said to Wu Wei, "Eat it." Ye Lianzi thanked: "You can use it yourself, she is full." Wu Wei argued ignorantly: "I'm not full. Can I have two, Mom?" Before Ye Lianzi could answer, Liao Ruihong said on her behalf: "Of course, mother agrees with you to eat a little more." Seeing Wu Wei's gobbling, Ye Lianzi turned her face away. Fortunately, the oil lamp is very dim. But Wu Wei still yelled: "Mom, eat it, eat it quickly, why don't you eat it? This meat is delicious—oh, it's delicious—" she said, sitting on the stool She twisted and twisted, not knowing how to express her surprise. At the beginning of his life, apart from hardships, Wu Wei had almost never experienced such extravagance: the narrow, unpainted pine stairs, the dark oil lamp hanging from a beam, the little Eight Immortals table, and the bowl of steamed mutton , and the bowl of braised pork and fried shredded pork with potherb mustard adorned with a few bright red chili shreds, especially those bright red and eye-catching chili shreds, which so clearly comforted her hungry stomach and heart.Oh—and the smell of that diner...in the very beginning of her not-so-recent life. But when she got home, she started having stomach pains and diarrhea. What's more, Liao Ruihong and them are still neighbors.The Japanese airport is not too far away in Yuncheng, and he came whenever he said it. Whenever the alarm sounded, he often accompanied them to the air-raid shelter. Then his sympathy deteriorated somewhat.If he made a shot on the basketball court and Ye Lianzi happened to be standing on the sidelines of the court, he would look proudly at Ye Lianzi. But she probably didn't pay attention to his pitching. The reason why she stood on the side of the court was because she had nowhere to go, she was in a state of confusion, and she didn't know how to get over the anxiety, so she tried to find a place where she could temporarily disperse. This Liao Ruihong, who holds a civilized stick, wears a suit, and is fully equipped with very westernized but unbelievable soil, has never been seen by Ye Lianzi.Even if he is not native, it is impossible for her to plan any future with him. But no matter how small the distance between Ye Lianzi and him is, he will always lend a helping hand when she is in trouble.Since the acquaintance of "Gonghe", it has never stopped, just like the position of this substitute teacher. How could Ye Lianzi not know what Liao Ruihong was looking forward to? Even in the most difficult days, she was reluctant to pawn Gu Qiushui's British pipe, and finally gave it to Teacher Qin instead of Liao Ruihong. She could neither repay Liao Ruihong nor accept Teacher Qin's love, otherwise she would feel sorry for both men at the same time. Besides, besides sewing for Teacher Qin, she couldn't do much more. Teacher Qin understands the difficulty, and only asks when she sees her tears: "What's wrong with you? If you think about it, all difficulties will pass. Besides, there are everyone." The "everyone" he said ",it is me". Ye Lianzi didn't answer either, but just smiled sadly with tears in her eyes. Teacher Qin thought, alas, she remembered the past again. Linggu Village was liberated on May 27, 1949. Ye Lianzi changed from a "black" to a glorious teacher of the people overnight, and she no longer wandered around the world.Principal Zhu went to nowhere, and the post of principal was filled by Mr. Qin. Whether it's Teacher Li, or any other teacher, don't dare to bully her again. Ye Lianzi's face finally had the kind of thing that can be called a smile. It was not given to her by Gu Qiushui, nor was it made by force for a meal, but it was completely her own private property. . She saw the hope of the helpless poor like her in the female army representative, and she believed that the wide gray uniform was her wings, so that every time she saw that wide gray uniform, she wanted to run over Grab it and put a patch on your face. In particular, Wu Wei suffered from rheumatic heart disease, and his condition developed rapidly. The military representative immediately contacted the hospital and admitted Wu Wei to the hospital, and his condition was quickly brought under control.Ye Lianzi didn't worry about a penny until she was cured and discharged from the hospital.She always said: "If it is not liberated, Wu Wei would have died long ago!" Ye Lianzi is grateful to the Communist Party, and educates Wu Wei with the fact that the Ye family has turned over.In the decades before her retirement, she relentlessly pursued progress, and it was her greatest honor to be a member of the Communist Party. She tried her best to run towards that goal, and she was indeed close to that goal, but she was stopped out of bounds in the final sprint, and she never knew the truth about her being sent out. On the second day after the liberation of Linggu Village, Ma Wenzhong signed up to join the Chinese People's Liberation Army. Two years later, he returned to school and gave a report entitled "Heroes Countering the Bandits in Sichuan" to all the teachers and students.At that time, Ye Lianzi hadn't left Linggu Village. Looking back on the past when Ma Wenzhong "borrowed" money, he could only feel confused. More than twenty years later, there was another political movement called the "Cultural Revolution".According to Mr. Zhao's geography report, Mr. Qin had served in the Kuomintang Air Force and planned to hijack a plane and fly to Taiwan. Mr. Qin's leg was broken by the revolutionary teenager.It is said that breaking a leg is not a big deal. Isn't Teacher Qin inexperienced in this area?When he was a Kuomintang Air Force cadet, he broke a leg on the basketball court.However, the broken leg in the revolutionary storm was not repaired in time, so the stalwart teacher Qin became a dwarf. In the later period of the "Cultural Revolution", the once deposed political forces returned to their original positions. Geography teacher Zhao turned from a revolution to a counter-revolution, his wife divorced him, and he got cancer.Although Teacher Qin dragged a broken leg that could not be repaired, and took care of Teacher Zhao, who had a vacant family relationship in front of the hospital bed, he could not save him from the pain.In the days before Mr. Zhao passed away, the wailing of excruciating pain resounded through the entire ward, and all the listeners were moved by it. 10 After the missing question incident, Wu Wei was afraid of people. Her solitary behavior began here. Even the crow, which is taboo and loathed by the villagers, makes her feel more amiable than people. At dusk in winter, she often stands in the cold wind under Danyang Temple, staring at the puddle in the distance and the increasingly hazy scenery beyond the puddle.Her thoughts flowed only as the crow's black wings flitted across the sky.A gust of cold wind forced another gust of cold wind into the throats of crows, and then flew out of their throats as a smell called "cold".It was in the throats of crows in Linggu Village on a winter evening that Wu Wei smelled the taste called "cold".In addition, she has no way to appreciate the thing called "cold". There were also a lot of crows at that time, and one after another, the crows came in a dense mass, and then passed in a dense mass, forming an array. Especially in the evening, the noise of the crows adds a bit of misery to the twilight, rather than the gloomyness that the villagers call it.