Chapter 42 January 15

There were rumors that a serious accident happened in southern Anhui.The smell that I smelled in the "city" four or five days ago is now permeating here. The people in charge of this district became more "busy": they were scattered everywhere, their ears raised, their eyes widened, their noses stretched out, like hounds.Whenever there are three or five young people talking, laughing and sniffing their tracks, they will come.I was also called to instruct a new "opportunity".Damn, that kind of detailed guessing, paranoia, is simply a pathological state of neurasthenia.

Except for the one-handed food eaters, other people are considered unreliable, so they have no self-confidence!There are only two people left to be converted into the Great Wall: the God of Wealth and Tu Bo. However, the right and wrong in people's hearts, although they can't express it in words, they are still visible; from people's faces and eyes, it can be seen that they are clear in their hearts: this is not a simple issue of military discipline,... I remembered what Shunying said to me five days ago: "The policy has already been determined." Oh——after all, Shunying and the others are middle-aged people, they are on the same line, they participate in the secret, they are the first to gain popularity, and they are close to the water.It's a pity that I was so listless that day that I didn't pay much attention to it.

The most ridiculous thing is this guy F.He also had a loyal face, and put on the tone of "advising", and spoke to me for a long time.I was really tired of hearing it, so I gave him a nod and said, "Thank you for your guidance. I am a fool, and I really don't understand the subtleties of national affairs. If you don't tell me, I seem to understand a little bit. , I am getting more and more confused. Fortunately, I am now dealing with black and white letters on white paper and working mechanically. Otherwise, I will definitely make mistakes and be punished. I am such a worthless person who does not seek to make progress; , if nothing goes wrong, you will be satisfied."

Unexpectedly, that stupid bastard F couldn't even hear this subtext, and put on a face of pity for me, and said solemnly: "However, although you are dealing with black and white on white paper, you must also deal with these major political issues. understand; for example..." I suddenly giggled and interrupted F's "speech". F glanced at me and asked hesitantly, "What's the matter?" I shook my head and didn't answer.But when I saw that he had a dry cough and was about to continue his eloquence, I quickly said: "To save you from being suspicious, I have to tell you; these two days I have had stomach problems and farts all the time, and now I feel that I have to go to the hair room. "

After I finished speaking, I giggled again. F reluctantly stood up and left... In the evening, at the appointment of N, I went to an economic dining room; it is said that this is the "proud work" of several teachers and staff, and the economy is not necessarily, but the stability is "the first".When I looked at the rather hidden seat, I smiled and said to N: "It's a good place to talk about love, but it's a pity that our couple is fake!" N also laughed, but his expression was depressed. , as if something was on my mind. As soon as the two dishes were served, I suddenly heard two rough voices coming from outside, and finally stopped at the next seat, followed by yelling in a big way;

N took a chopstick of food and forgot to put it in his mouth, his face was a little flustered. I peeked through the cracks in the bamboo wall, but I couldn't see the faces of these two clearly. But N shook his hand at me and whispered in my ear: "Don't look, I already know who it is from the accent." I nodded knowingly.I guessed that N was just afraid of causing trouble, so I buried my head in eating and didn't talk. The voice of the next seat is inversely proportional to ours.At first, it was a noisy clamor after scrambling for the first place, and it seemed that everyone only spoke their own words.Gradually the topic came together, and the central topic seemed to be a woman.One with a local accent, mocking his companion like a poker.

"Sooner or later, I can't escape my palm." Old Tomcat's voice, with a provincial accent. "I like to play around with this kind of thing slowly. I have seen a lot of women. When did I not wait for her to deliver it obediently? Just wait and see, dare you make a bet?" "Stop bragging! You, haha, you look like Tang Seng has arrived in the daughter's country! Could it be that you are the only man in her eyes? Needless to say, you still have an opponent there,—— this nine-headed bird But he is an expert in blitzkrieg, and his style is different from yours."

"I don't care if he is a nine-headed bird or a nine-tailed turtle; just wait and see, I just ask you, do you want to bet?" "Oh—damn it! Why did the food come so slowly!" There was a bang, probably from a fist hitting the table.The bamboo wall also trembled. I saw N's face was pale, his brows were deeply frowned, but his eyes were burning with anger.She stuck her chopsticks in the bowl and forgot to eat.I slowly stretched out my hand, and just as I was about to grab hers, the local accent from the next seat sounded again: "Well, well, bets are bets; but first you have to explain clearly: What are you betting on? Sooner or later you will get it, that is one sentence; sooner or later you will get it, it is just leftovers, this is another sentence. What you want to bet is Which sentence? Come on! After drinking this glass of wine, let's talk!"

"Damn it, you greedy mouth, look to provoke me to anger!" "Haha, you're angry with me here, but they're already hot over there! Don't brag anymore, Ah Q, just calm down, stay aside, and when the nine-headed bird has had enough, you can go lick the bowl! " "Damn it, you are Ah Q, the one..." Old Tomcat's voice became a little hoarse. But the other party laughed loudly and coldly: "If you don't believe it, go to the club quickly, maybe you can catch up with the licking of the bowl. However, I'm afraid the first few times, you still don't have your share!"

I felt something flashing in front of my eyes, and quickly raised my head, only to see N standing in front of me.She held my shoulders, put her face close to my ear, and said through gritted teeth, "Let's go!" At this moment, there was a bang, and even the bowls and chopsticks here jumped, and the old Tomcat yelled loudly: "This kid, this kid! What are you betting on? I'll catch her right away and show you in person. !" N shook his whole body and landed on my seat.I look ahead and look behind. "Haha, don't worry! Hey, buddy, buddy; damn it, the food is coming so slowly! Fuck it!" As if throwing some dishes, both of them yelled together.The shopkeeper's accompanying voice also appeared.

I pulled N and said, "Let's go, you are here, with your face on my shoulder." Hurrying to my apartment, N breathed a sigh of relief, as if spitting something dirty out of his mouth, and said with a "Pooh", "It's not a human, it's a beast! Worse than beasts! " "It's a pity that I didn't see their faces," I said calmly. "I'll remember it, so I can take precautions in the future. They come from the left side of the street, so I must hide my face and go to the right side of the street. They are more terrifying than mad dogs!" N remained silent, staring intently at her toes, seemingly thoughtful. "What kind of number is that guy?" I asked her in a low voice. "Uh, which one?" Still looking down at his toes, "Oh—is that the one with the provincial accent? I don't know his origin. I don't know what school he was a student in the past. But now he is very rich. Not to mention anything else, he has three scholarships alone...” "But why does he dare to be so aggressive? Could it be because the dog has too much yellow soup in its belly?" "Absolutely not, this is his style. He relies on him to be..." N paused, glanced at me, and then changed his mouth. "It's hard to describe these internal affairs. It's better that you don't know." But I've seen it all.I have been around for so many years, and I have seen G, Xiaorong, and Chen Fatty, and I guessed the general idea just by listening to the tone when I was in the restaurant. N refused to speak directly, but it was no wonder.She still doesn't understand what kind of person I am. Now I made up my mind to have a deep talk with her.I held her hand, stared at her face and said: "In terms of age, I'm also a few years older than you. You're welcome, I'll just call you sister. We hit it off right away, but, guess what? What do you do? What kind of person am I?" N smiled and said, "I know you work at the post office here, but I don't know you are..." I hurriedly said: "Don't you know what kind of person I am? Let's not talk about myself. Sister, I do understand what kind of person you are: you want to act according to other people's plans. Today is the wind, and tomorrow may be another one." When the rain has changed, you are covered with ears and eyes, and you have to listen to people who are talking quietly, people..." Before I finished speaking, N's face was already red, and she shouted angrily: "But I am still me, not yet……" She stopped suddenly again, and looked into my face in surprise. "You haven't lost your soul yet," I smiled. "There's no doubt about that. But because of this, you couldn't deal with the storm in the hotel just now." N sighed and said nothing, only staring at me tightly. "But, girl, don't be surprised, I am you. The road you are walking now, I walked three or four years ago, and I am still walking. However, if I also say 'I am still me', then I'm afraid only, sister, you who said this just now, can trust me." N still remained silent, lowered his head, but held my hand tightly. "I was a few years earlier than you, so I experienced much more pain than you. I've made myself bad, too, to be as bad as they are, to fight fire with fire! " "Hey, no wonder you are a little different from others." N said slowly, suddenly excited. "But I can't—how can I become like them? I will deal with it openly!" "However, I'm not afraid of the crazy behavior of the guy just now; what I'm most afraid of is insidiousness. And there is more than one person who changed your mind. Sister, what kind of guy is that so-called nine-headed bird?" "He's a staff member in the training department. That's what he said. The guy in the hotel just now was able to survive only by courting horses and selling friends. He also added another thing, acting as a thug." "Oh—this is not surprising," I smiled coldly, "their precious resumes are all like this. I thought it was great, but it turned out to be nothing more than that!" "But don't underestimate him!" N's tone became serious again. "He is regarded as a 'youth cadre'! Several people have suffered from him, and they have to swallow their tears——I saw it with my own eyes." At this time, drunk people were heard passing by on the street, shouting, laughing and cursing loudly.We looked at each other knowingly, feeling extremely heavy in our hearts.After a while, N murmured to himself: "Why did I end up in such a place? Is it my own fault? Maybe, who made me crazy, what book should I study, what school should I go to? The first time I used sweet words to lure me, threatened me with grimaces, and insisted that I enter this circle, why did I do it without the opportunity?..." Suddenly she jumped up, hugged me, and said angrily: "But, since my hometown After the Occupation, I have no home! Now I don’t even have a friend! I’m like a ghost, I can’t escape!” I pressed her shoulders and comforted her softly: "Not really. Now you have a friend!"