Chapter 14 The fifth part implies sin.3

On the contrary, Tian Yuan blamed himself a little, thinking that his cowardice actually deceived Yamei's feelings.Speaking of which, last night I had dinner and sent away a few neighbors who came to see Yamei, and it was already very dark.The cries of mothers calling their babies back to sleep sounded in the village street.At that time, the two of them were sitting in the new house, on a bed and a stool.Ask what should be asked, what should be said should be said, in the past, this time is also the time to go to bed.But then again, after all, they are all over half a hundred years old, and they have suffered a lot about things in bed.That so-called reason is actually a kind of suppression of emotion.Physiologically speaking, at this age, in fact, gentle love is more needed.As for Yamei's return, no matter how convenient her mother was to use the undead to come and go, and how many unspeakable things she saw in the provincial capital, they were all loopholes in life and fate.Today, she is able to return to this rural society from a thousand miles away. It cannot be said that she has an epiphany about life. For example, it can be said that in this prosperous age, she has begun to have a real love for the simplicity of the abandoned countryside and your Tianyuan. Remembrance and nostalgia.Tian Yuan knows that when she comes back to you, she has finished her due efforts.The rest, that is, your Tianyuan's affairs, as long as you make requests or hints to her, she will not refuse.However, the place where Yamei sat was also the place where Liu Cheng's women came to sit every night.He wanted to say something to her, or simply go over, turn off the lights, do whatever he wanted, at least give her some manly tenderness.However, every time he thought about it, Liu Cheng's woman stood between them.Just the night before Yamei came back, that woman came to sit by his bed in the dead of night, and said that it would take you half a year to go to Luoyang, and I really don't understand how you can endure it.He said you go, Yamei will be back tomorrow.

"Who is Yamei?" "My previous woman." "Better than me?" "At least they didn't come to me for money." The woman in Liucheng stood up from the bed and said, Mr. Zhang, you are too kind. If I want you a little money, it doesn’t mean that I have no feelings for you. At least in Zhangjiaying, in the whole Tiger Liang, you are the most educated and talented Knowledgeable, but also the most hygienic, the most considerate of women.If it's purely for money, I can go back to Liucheng and sleep with foreigners.Foreigners who come to invest there will not look straight at me when they see me.To be honest, you can treat me like a broken shoe, anyway, besides you Zhangjiaying people, go to Liucheng to see, how many women don't make money from foreigners?Not to mention Luoyang, the provincial capital and the south.In fact, don’t say that Mr. Zhang has heard about similar things, even in Liucheng, seeing a seventeen or eighteen-year-old girl from Liucheng walk into a room occupied by foreigners with a foreigner’s arm in broad daylight. Not once or twice.The country does not allow the unique business that some women in Liucheng sell, but in the eyes of foreigners, it is an indispensable item, and is highly appreciated by foreigners.In this regard, he left the rural society and lived in the city for more than a year. He is said to be used to it. He knows that some government departments and business fields have big banquets and negotiate huge deals, and they must rely on wine and them.However, it fell on his own head, but it was intolerable.He couldn't understand that the woman in Liu Cheng had also studied many courses and read many books, and she was only ten years younger than himself, but when talking about such things, it was so commonplace, there was no reason she couldn't explain.The reason is that she is from Liu Cheng.Isn't it because of Liucheng's sudden economic revitalization?Following this logic, what about the provincial capital?What about Yamei, who lives in the commercial center and has made a career, she must be like the Liucheng woman, but what her mother saw with her own eyes is still the truth.It's a pity that my mother died more than ten years ago, and I can truly believe everything I said, but I can't ask others further with the words of a dead soul.However, these things hinder the ebb and flow of his passion from time to time, making him unable to have a loving relationship with her recklessly.

"It's getting late," he said. "Go to sleep then," she stood up. "Tomorrow there will be a car in the village to go to Luoyang." "You want to hitchhike?" "It's not easy for you to come back," he said, "I have to accompany you in Zhangjiaying anyway." Yamei finally left the bed and left the room.Ordinarily, at the age of fifty, she should appear a bit indifferent to some things, but in the end, there was more than ten years of love between them, and now they are both single and in the same room.It is unreasonable to let him go crazy like a young couple who have been separated for a long time, and he will not be able to bear it.But the indifference on his face now made her extremely disappointed.She walked in the yard, looked at the water-colored moonlight above her head, and said intentionally, "If you want to leave, you can leave tomorrow. When I come back, I will not only see you, but also the children, mother-in-law, and Zhangjiayingzi. I will come again when I am free." Bai Guoshu went there, and also wanted to see the lonely soul of the fox.He was going out to see her off, but after hearing what she said, he suddenly felt that his indifference had actually crossed the limit.Standing in the melting moonlight behind her, I saw my mother standing under the window of the new house. Needless to say, my mother came back at night and had been standing outside the window.The mother's face was cold and pale, and her brows were tightly knit into a wrinkle.He was afraid that his mother would speak suddenly or walk out, which would make Yamei scream in fright.So, he took a few steps and said loudly to Yamei:

"You go first, I will find you in your room later." She asked, "What's the matter?" "I have something to say," he said. She said, "Let's talk now, it's already midnight." He said: "Midnight is midnight. If you don't drive me away, I'll stay with you." She suddenly turned her head to look at him, but saw a figure by the window sill who looked very much like her mother-in-law, staring at her expectantly.You just come, she looked at the figure of her mother-in-law, and at the same time she looked at Tian Yuan who was a little haggard standing in the moonlight, and said that I will not lock the door, and I will wait for you to come sooner or later.

105 "Why didn't you go last night?" "Suddenly felt dizzy yesterday." Tian Yuan prevaricated Yamei's question like this, but after he said it, he felt that it was inappropriate, so he added, saying that I was going, and I ran into an acquaintance on the way, and I was afraid that they would gossip, so I came back halfway.After saying this, I started to scoop up rice in the kitchen.When the lid was lifted, the physalis noodles were already sticky and thick.And this kind of local flavor in the countryside is exactly what it needs to be sticky.Smelling the sour and fragrant smell, Yamei followed into the kitchen and said some sincere compliments, and Tian Yuan could understand her undying love for Tian Yuan in her words.She said it was delicious, Tianyuan, and it would be nice to have a meal often.In fact, later on, she expected him to say that if you want to eat, you can always live in the country.However, he just smiled and said that if he wanted to eat, he would eat an extra bowl.And in his heart, he suddenly felt a bit of resentment towards his conduct and the women in Liu Cheng.If it weren't for Liu Cheng's woman, who lived with Yamei last night, what was about to happen would have a completely different fate and ending.In front of the old house, last night's moonlight was greedily taken away by a pagoda tree, casting only swaying shadows.Originally, in the dead of night, the moonlight was like water, and in Xiaoli Village on the opposite mountain ridge, several houses were dimly lit.Zhangjiaying rests in the quietness between spring and summer.The green halls of the cottages scattered everywhere have a strange smell of new houses, combined with the freshness of the current season, they form a breath that hits the heart and lungs.Walking lightly on the village street, the doors of every house are tightly bolted, and there are no lights in the windows.But in the center of the village, in her old house, Yamei also turned on a light, which was reflected on a window.While hesitating, my mother came from Yamei's bed and said, go Tianyuan, she is waiting for you.This is finally decided to go.When I saw a window of light, my heart beat rapidly with the light.A husband and wife who have been married for more than ten years, and who have been in love for more than ten years, once they break up, it will be fifteen years.Now that she is finally back, she can see how rich she is in life.When he approached the old house, he was once in a state of panic. They hadn't been together for fifteen years, and they both experienced the love of other men and women.Lying on the same bed at that time, we were all so young, our emotions were burning, and we forced each other to do ridiculous things. It was all logical and natural. Not only did we not feel ashamed, but we also felt happy and fulfilled in life, and there were many idyllic scenes. The poetic flavor of wildness.Now, fifteen years have passed, and the calendar of the century has turned a new page. Lying together again, I really don't know what it's like. Maybe both of them will feel ashamed and feel the taint of past emotions?However, since she is waiting and you come out, then simply go forward along the path of emotion, whether it is a pit or a cliff, a fire or a sea, based on the previous mutual love, it will probably not cause any tragedy .

When I got to the door, I walked under Huai Ying, and when I was about to push the door, a person came out from behind the tree. "Teacher Zhang." It turned out to be Liu Cheng's woman.She was wearing a bright red cloth shirt, which looked like a pool of dark green water in the moonlight. "Why are you here?" "I've been waiting for you. I've been waiting for you for five nights." "There's nothing between us." "No." She suddenly took out something from her pocket, sealed it in an envelope, flat and solid, like a shrunken brick.I'll give you the money, the woman in Liucheng said, so you don't have to keep saying that I slept with you for money, and that our women in Liucheng are all rags.Saying so, she really put the pile of brick-like money back into Tian Yuan's hands.Then he took half a step back, one step closer to Tian Yuan, and stared at him motionlessly through the moonlight brought by the shadow of the tree he was walking on.She said, "That's a lot of money, you count it."

He asked, "What do you want to do?" "I want to marry you," she said. When she said this, she had a moon-white thoughtful face, neither the calmness of the cool wind, nor the enthusiasm in full swing, except for her swollen chest, her words did not tremble or tremble, as if you were going to Liucheng to go to the market, She wants to walk with you all the way, which makes people doubtful. The ups and downs of her breasts seem to be moving, not to mention completely pretending, but half of the sincerity, I am afraid there will be no such thing. He said: "You are crazy! I don't have enough money and I will give it to you when I come back next year."

She said: "I'm not crazy. I don't want money, I want to marry you." He asked, "You know I'm in my fifties, and the dumb man calls me uncle." I don't care about that, she said that I waited here for five nights, and I thought that if you didn't come to this woman, it meant that you had no interest in her, but you still came tonight.You haven't forgotten her.You haven't forgotten her. When you slept with me, you kept saying that I was good and that good.You are lying to me, Mr. Zhang.I sleep with the mute, he can only do things and can't talk, only lying on the same bed with you, I can have whatever I want, what I want to hear.I want to marry you.The women in this city are more than ten years older than me.Except that her home is in the provincial capital, she is inferior to me in other places.I know that your household registration has been moved to Luoyang, and when you get married, you will also move my household registration to Luoyang. I will never find another man again, and I will be devoted to you.I promise to give you another baby.When I was in Liucheng, my family ran a hotel business.It was because of the hotel business that my former man was taken away, and I stooped to marry such a dumb person in Zhangjiaying.Let me tell you, Mr. Zhang, I can’t live the same old days in Zhangjiaying as ten or decades ago, eating, farming, sleeping; sleeping, farming, eating.Every day is these three things.No matter how much you carry vegetables, apples, and eggs, and go to the city to do a small business, you will only sell vegetables, apples, and eggs.The old village chief's family is the richest, and it doesn't just burn bricks in several kilns throughout the year.I look down on you Zhangjiaying. You build three new houses and have a few pocket money. I don’t know what to do in the future.I dumped the dumb.We are married Mr. Zhang, I dare to kneel down and promise you not to associate with other men.You take me to Luoyang.I can open a restaurant, make dumplings, sell pickles, and sell magazines and money-making mess books on a cart.The two of us fight the world by ourselves, and we can build a territory in Luoyang.I've heard that the mistress you teach in Luoyang is a widow, she's a playboy, and she doesn't look good.I am a woman and I know, she must be someone in the romantic field.I counted when you gave me money.You owed such a large sum to the village head's family, and you paid it off in one year after going to Luoyang, and then you gave me this large sum.Where did you get the money from?Salary cannot accumulate so much.Needless to say, the woman in Luoyang gave it to you.Why does she give you so much money?Isn't it because she is old and has her reputation in mind that she hired a man like you to stay at home.You took me away, Mr. Zhang, and I didn’t have any relationship with Yamei or that woman in Luoyang. No more dealings with others, you took me to Luoyang, I will live with you and do business for you with all my heart.I don't want to let you sleep with me and then sleep with another woman, I just want you and me to be good...

106 In the sunlight in the courtyard, Huang Huang is like a ball of dried red mud.It was lying still, in a deep sleep, and two sparrows landed on it, jumping around recklessly.The noon sun was really warm enough.The old man sat beside Huang Huang, basking in the sun, stroking Huang Huang's head with his thin old hands, and looking at his son and Yamei who were eating.Also in the blink of an eye, she peeked into all the secrets of her son's heart, and suddenly realized that once this family was separated, even with Yamei's full sincerity, it would not be easy to reunite.Earlier, she trusted her son too much and told him every detail of what Yamei had done in the provincial capital.However, he himself saw the turmoil between him and the woman in Liucheng in the countryside, and blindly excused and forgiven his son, keeping Yamei a secret.However, she did not expect that he still had some concerns with his master in Luoyang.The old man said to Huang Huang, go to sleep and don’t eat anything. If the cat stays, you stay here with him and Yamei. If he insists on leaving, I will take you there.

Outside the courtyard, there were shouts from the villagers. It was a woman greeting a man, saying that if you want to go to Luoyang, eat quickly, the driver will be ready soon.When Tian Yuan heard this, he shook the bowl in his hand, then raised his head and glanced out.Yamei sat on a chair, the noodles in sour sauce soaked a layer of sweat on her forehead.She looked at the bottle of vinegar and half a bowl of chili in front of her, and said Tianyuan, if you are going to die with Luoyang, you have to leave and you can leave. "Or should I stay with you for another day?" "I plan to stay and remarry with you, and you plan to return to Luoyang?" The aroma of sauced noodles was like spring.The green trees on the moon grass slope make people want to hiccup because of choking.The noodles rolled by Tianyuan himself, the golden soybeans, the white and tender peanuts, the red peppers, and the sesame oil pearls shining brightly in the sun make the daily sour rice in the bowl look colorful.While looking at her job, Yamei glanced at Tian Yuan's face.That complexion was a kind of light red dullness where the prediction was finally confirmed by a fact.It is impossible to immediately say that you stay and I will stay, and it is impossible to say that you stay and I will not stay.Yamei felt uneasy and puzzled because she pushed Tianyuan into a dilemma.The mother-in-law kept telling Yamei that you stay, so Tian Yuan also stayed.However, he wanted to stay, but he was not that determined without hesitation.The reason, only Tian Yuan knows, the mother-in-law knows, even if she knows, she won't tell you.At this time, the mother-in-law was also standing among them. Yamei turned her eyes from Wanshang and Tianyuan, looked at the old man and asked, didn't you say I stayed and he stayed too?

The mother-in-law said, "Cat, tell your ugly story." Tian Yuan didn't say a word, the rigidity on his face became more and more serious. The mother-in-law said: "Is it because the actor said a lot of good things to you, and you think you really can't live without Luoyang?" The days of Luoyang have been clearly written on Tian Yuan's face, except for Yamei who thought it was a dilemma, but the mother-in-law's undead knew it very clearly.It's not a big deal when you say it, it's nothing more than the beckoning of another life. The hostess in Luoyang is two years younger than Yamei, but she is much more capable than Yamei.Although in terms of appearance, she is not as slender as Yamei, nor is she as well-proportioned as Yamei.But in terms of temperament, they are two completely different styles.Yamei comes from a big city, and she is gifted with the ability to manage a house. This may be related to her poor family background, being the eldest, and having no mother.Therefore, in such an era when the country's economy is full of ups and downs, and generally speaking, it is booming. With her accomplishments and temperament, it is only reasonable to say that she has developed into today's female boss with strong capital.The hostess in Luoyang is a completely different type.Although she looks mediocre, she has lived in the literary and artistic circle since she was a child. During the most glorious period, she was transferred to the Provincial Song and Dance Troupe, where she sang a male and female duet with another young man for four years.Because of the tacit cooperation with each other, she abandoned her husband and son, formed a new family with a young man, and gave birth to a pair of fat boys for him.While she gave birth and took state maternity leave, her duet role was replaced by another woman.During the half-year tour, the woman not only replaced her stage role, but also replaced her life as a wife. In the end, a year later, at the cost of losing her child and husband, she took 30,000 yuan. With only one yuan of divorce money, he left the Provincial Song and Dance Troupe and returned to the largest city in western Henan. With his strengths, he rented a facade house and opened a music coffee shop.During this period, the failure in the love field was greatly compensated in the business. Starting from a coffee house, relying on my experience and lessons in love and the unique talents that women can show among men, I opened another coffee shop. Music ballroom.So far, he has finally become the chairman of the Jiudu Luoyang Healthy New Century Entertainment Association.During this period, the only unfortunate thing was that her third marriage failed again, which made her discouraged about love. She once announced at the door of her ballroom that she would never fall in love. At this time, she was lucky enough to adopt The daughter she abandoned.It turned out that the first husband was a college student majoring in engineering design. According to the daily development, he was promoted to a senior engineer. He went to the north to go to the medicinal material business, but lost a deal, and went bankrupt again, and his wife and children were separated. Finally, he simply took a bank loan and obtained a passport to go abroad through various channels, and fled to Hungary to settle down.The girl who was left behind, originally, could not escape the feeling of being dependent on others when she followed her stepmother. This time coincided with the period of vigorous youth, and she began to know people, things, and love, so she wandered freely in society, mixed among men and women, and was specially treated by the public security department. Registration book.After the hostess heard about it, she hurried over to adopt her. Mother and daughter met each other, cried bitterly, and insulted each other, and began a rich and dependent mother-daughter life.For the sake of her daughter and to repent, she hired Tian Yuan as a tutor with a high salary.With Tianyuan's hard work of offering money with sincerity, finally after a year, the sixteen-year-old prodigal girl's academic performance improved day by day, and she was transferred from an ordinary middle school to a special high-fee school.During this time, with the mentality of repaying kindness, the hostess went through all the formalities for Tian Yuan to enter the city with little effort, and promised him that if he could get her daughter to enter the university and if he wanted to settle down in Jiudu and remarry, she would take care of everything. Such as women, houses, jobs, household registration and so on. 107 Right now, those forms with the red seals of village, township, county, and three-level transfer household registration are rubbing back and forth in Tian Yuan's pocket, exuding a fire-like heat, which makes him feel uncomfortable all over.According to the date limit, if I don’t go to Luoyang for two more days to hand over these forms, it will become a few pages of waste paper, and the new life far away from the countryside discussed with the women in Liucheng will become empty words. It will make him unable to exist in rural society in the same way that Yamei cannot survive in the city. Tian Yuan was holding the physalis rice bowl, at a loss for what to do, while regretting being seduced by Liu Cheng's woman again last night, he felt ashamed and ashamed like the yellow sky and thick soil all over the mountains and plains, and buried him tightly, never to die again I can't find the slightest bit of purity in myself.He couldn't figure out that his fifty-two-year-old man was so fragile, so without the morality of decades of cultivation.In the melting white light, when Yamei left the door for him, when the Liu Cheng woman really knelt down, he was once again overwhelmed and suffocated by the overflowing love of the Liu Cheng woman.Forced by the woman in Liucheng, he had to agree to leave Zhangjiaying immediately. Liu Cheng's woman left the new house at dawn.A night of turbulent love made Tian Yuan dizzy, and her snow-white, tender and brilliant body, which only a woman in Liu Cheng had, scorched his entire body and mind like a raging fire.When she was crazy, she said that Mr. Zhang was only good to you in my life. Do you believe Mr. Zhang?He suspected that she was talking nonsense, but he said that I believed it, and now I don't doubt it at all. She said, "You took me away, Teacher Zhang." He said, "Let's go to Luoyang together." She said: "I can't stay in this mountain nest for a long time. I must go to Luoyang. Everyone here looks at me like a dog." He said. "It's like this in the countryside. You are also a villager since you were a child." It is because it is in the countryside that we have to go out.She nakedly presented all her tenderness as a woman, and handed it over to the hopeful man, saying, "We will do business in Luoyang, and within three years I will give you a baby, and let the business snowball." Roll big.She said that Luoyang, if you are someone's tutor, I'll set up a fruit stand first, or push a small cart that imitates gold and silver jewelry.When the business gets bigger, we will open a real jewelry store.My father is the most famous jewelry maker in Liucheng. At that time, we will have enough money to buy our own house. You will teach your children to read and write, and I will manage the jewelry store.She said that we don't hire other people, a jewelry store and a lot of housework, I did it all over and over again, and you read when you have free time.In the evening we are very intimate, I will do whatever you want me to do.I will serve you all my life, raise you well, and live a happy life that I can't live in a day in the country.When Liu Cheng's woman said this, they were already overwhelmed by each other's flame of love.In the darkness, they saw a bright golden color.At that time, not to mention going to the city together to seek a life completely different from the rural society, that is to say, going up the mountains and seas and into the abyss together, no one would have the slightest hesitation.Until dawn, the window was lighted with a faint light, as if the moonlight from last night was still on it, and they were still breathing. After another madness, another pledge of eternal love.When, exhausted, she had to leave, got out of bed and dressed, she said: "Mr. Zhang, I'm going home to prepare something." He stared at her body that was more and more tightly covered, as if looking at the pure brilliance of the moonlight that was increasingly covered by clouds. "Go, after lunch, go to the village to take a bus to Luoyang, and tell people that you are going back to Liucheng to visit your mother's house." "What about you?" "I can't control that much, Liu Yamei is here, and I will go to Luoyang with you." Yamei had already finished a bowl of physalis noodles, and when she returned to the kitchen to fill up the second bowl, she heard the sound of messy footsteps in the village, as well as the sound of someone yelling.The kitchen room is a small guest room on the side of the new house. Because the window is too small and its back is facing the sun, the light in the room is weak and dim. Walking in from the sunlight suddenly is like stepping into the light of dusk.In this suddenness, Yamei saw her mother-in-law sitting upright in a corner of the kitchen, with withered hair, pale face, and tears.The mother-in-law said to Yamei that Tian Yuan might not stay in Zhangjiaying, he could not get used to the life of this family camp, it was the mother-in-law who made me sorry for you, let you go up and down by train and car, and returned to Zhangjiaying after fifteen years. But he ran in vain.Yamei held the bowl in a daze in the sudden darkness, looked at her mother-in-law with half-surprise and doubt on her face, and said, I just want you to tell me the truth, tell me why Tianyuan doesn't want to remarry me, and I will I feel at ease.The mother-in-law said: "It's his fault, he has a woman from Liu Cheng." Yamei said: "No wonder he, if so, I can't stop him." The mother-in-law said, "Go back to the provincial capital." Yamei said: "The provincial capital forced me out, and I don't want to go back." The mother-in-law said: "If you want, I will take you, Tianyuan, and Huanghuang there. We are with Qiangqiang, and we are still a good and complete family." Yamei said, "Where's Tianyuan?" The mother-in-law said: "It's up to him, I have to say it." It has been a long time since her mother-in-law appeared in front of Yamei, but her face was not as clear as this time. She could even see the age spots on her mother-in-law's face clearly, just like looking up at the stars in the sky closest to the ground at night .There is also the voice of the mother-in-law, slightly hoarse, as if something is stuck in her throat, and in that sad tone, there is a dark and faint cool air, very similar to the cool whizzing blowing in a windy alley in the middle of the night The unstoppable wind.After finishing speaking, the mother-in-law left.When you leave the low and low bamboo stool that is fashionable in the northern countryside, the stool makes a few small and sharp creaking sounds, and the mother-in-law disappears, as if a figure disappears in front of you in a blink of an eye.Yamei came out from the kitchen to fill up the rice, and walked past Tianyuan, and saw that he had only eaten a third of his first bowl of noodles with sour sauce, and the remaining half of the bowl became sticky and sticky in the bowl. One ball, she said why don't you eat it?He said I don't really want to eat it.Then he said, Yamei, you want to stay, are you talking casually, or are you determined?She said: "I have said it several times, and I am determined to give up." At this moment, a man's shout sounded from the stage, those who are going to Liucheng and Luoyang, hurry up to eat, hurry up and pack your luggage - I'm leaving soon!It was the driver's urging.The driver's yelling was thick and loud, like a tree branch and bamboo pole that fell from mid-air, and the voices one by one hit Tian Yuan's face.Immediately, his face turned pale, and the bowl shook slightly in his hand.Needless to say, everything that is about to happen, which cannot be avoided, is approaching step by step with the shouts of the driver and the footsteps of the villagers. 108 The horn of the car, loud and clear, rang three times on the mountain ridge, like three lightning flashes, and the wind blew past the ground on the platform.Following the second urging of the trumpet, both Yamei and Tianyuan saw the village road leading to the mountain ridge in front of the door, and hurried past groups of Zhangjiaying people.The old man who had been the party secretary for decades carried a big bag on his back, and the dried red peppers struggled to be exposed outside the bag; In the middle of the day, he wore a faded military uniform and carried traditional Chinese medicine bought from the depths of the mountain ridge. If he sold it in Luoyang, no one knew how much he could earn.Yu Jie, Da Gang, who once fought with Tian Yuan, and men and women who bought and sold small books, all passed the door with their hands on their shoulders, talking, laughing, and cursing, as if they were in a hurry to go to the funeral. Yes, I hurried to get in the car before I finished my meal.At this time, the sunlight was also very warm. Looking from the gate to the distance, the mountains and beams were all transparent.There are a few crows flying on the mountain ridge, like a few black balls bouncing on the mountain ridge.The shadow of the courtyard wall has stretched over, crawling onto Huang Huang's belly.There was a green-bellied fly that boldly landed on Huang Huang's eyelashes and remained motionless, while Huang Huang, who was sleeping, remained indifferent as if dead.Yamei withdrew her gaze gradually from far away, and the last thing she saw was Tian Yuan's earthy face.She said what's wrong with you, are you sick Tianyuan?Tian Yuan said that I don't want to live in this family camp anymore, can I go far and fly with you? Yamei said, "Where are you going?" Tian Yuan said, "Go to the provincial capital." Yamei said that I returned to Zhangjiaying because I couldn't stay in the provincial capital. I thought there was no better place in the world than Zhangjiaying.As she said this, she took the rice bowl from her mouth.Let me tell you the truth, Tian Yuan, she said that I am tired of living in the city, I have money that you and I can't use up in the rest of our lives, you stay and we live in this family camp, live in peace and quiet, and spend the rest of our lives peacefully.She said that now I want to live the clean life of Shanhu and his wife.So far, she seems to have said all that should be said, expressing her feelings on the ground, believe it or not.It was also at this point that the footsteps at the door gradually faded, and Tian Yuan's face began to flow reddish blood.He was still holding half a bowl of rice, looking back at Yamei's face. "Did you really come back to Zhangjiaying because of me?" Yamei and Tianyuan looked at each other. "Who am I for?" Tian Yuan said: "You got married again and gave birth to a child. The child died, and I had no choice but to think of Zhangjiaying, and I thought of Tianyuan. You have been back in Zhangjiaying for five days, and I have been waiting to say these things every day. I also decided to stay and live with you, but I waited for five days and five nights, asked ten times and twenty times, but you refused to tell me the truth. If you don't tell me the truth, how can you let me and you Remarry and live?" Horns of urging horns sounded again on the mountain ridge, and footsteps of people taking a bus to Luoyang and Liucheng sounded again from the top of the tree.After Tian Yuan finished speaking, as if he had finally finished a journey, he turned around and saw that Yamei was finally left behind Li Qu by him.His face began to reverberate with the light of turning defeat into victory. The lightness after trekking out of the embarrassing situation turned white on his stretched forehead, and merged with the sunlight, dancing on the wide and shallow wrinkled forehead. Come and go.However, he originally thought that when he said this, she would be in a hurry as if she had encountered a hailstorm, would ask him for something, say something, and when she finished speaking, she looked up at her, but she had a normal expression, like something He didn't hear anything, just cast his gaze over his shoulder, as if looking at a rare scenery.Tian Yuan turned around to take a look, only to see Liu Cheng's woman standing at the gate at some point.She was wearing a set of bright red spring clothes that only city people dare to wear on her body. Standing there, she was really dazzling when she was illuminated by the sun.In the shadow of the door frame, the oily and fair complexion was slightly rosy, especially those two lips, which dared to wear heavy make-up even in Shanliang Village, were as red as the rays of the setting sun.There is also the gauze around the neck, which was originally a peach red in March, but the gauze suddenly turned dark green, so green that it seemed that the gauze was not tied around the neck, but a bay of green water hanging in the sky, as if It will melt into the sky at any time.She stood at the gate, standing up straight without being humble, holding two large maroon leather suitcases that are very popular in the provincial capital. They didn't look like they were hitchhiking, but they seemed to be starting a trip. An easy and pleasant journey of life. Yamei said, "Come and sit down, don't stand at the door." The woman in Liu Cheng said: "Don't sit down. I heard that Teacher Zhang is going to Luoyang. I'll call him. The car will leave immediately." Tian Yuan stood up in a daze. Yamei said: "You go with this woman from Liu Cheng, Tian Yuan. I see that she is a capable woman, don't let her wait hard." 109 Liu Cheng's woman was still standing at the door, red as bright as the sun that never sets.Neither Yamei nor Tianyuan finished the sour rice in the bowl.When I went to Huang Huang's side to pour rice to feed Huang Huang, I kept barking several times, but Huang Huang still didn't move, and kicked it lightly with her foot, as if kicking a piece of empty wood, startled, and touched it with my hand. Only then did I know that after being exposed to the sun for a long time, Huang Huang's body was still as cold as a piece of ice.Only then did I know that Huang Huang was really dead.End of life. As Huang Huang died without a problem, Yamei and Tian Yuan glanced at each other, in a daze of amazement, the two of them followed the old man to another realm.The new world has old faces, which makes people feel that what was abandoned in that world is picked up here, as if they were found treasures, worshiped as gods, and the rules are combining a simple and brand-new style. Life.On this day, spring is warm, with Li Bai in February and pink in March. During the two and three months of early spring, Tianyuan's family is planning to make a strong family for their son.The thing is also unimaginable, in a blink of an eye, Qiangqiang has grown tall and big, apart from being a little thin, he is also very beautiful, with thick eyebrows, big eyes, and a high nose bridge, and when Xeonqiang came to call him father and mother , neither Tianyuan nor Yamei dared to agree.However, if you do the math, it's true. It's not been fifteen years, and the child is already in his twenties, and it's time to start a family.If the parents had come over earlier to support the front of the house, maybe the grandson would be in their arms.A strong daughter-in-law, Yamei had once sought out her, and generally speaking, she was quite satisfied in all aspects, except for being a bit rustic.The marriage ceremony is completely a set of customs left by the ancestors.一早的天亮时分，男方家里去了一乘轿子，一群接客，吹着唢呐，放着鞭炮，到女方家里接人去了。至太阳高起，山坡上黄爽爽透明起来，对面山梁上隐约传来了《百鸟朝凤》那千百年来，一承不变的喜庆乐律。嘀嘀嗒嗒，阴阳有致，既清纯激越，妙音美韵，旋律动人，又委婉迤逦，曲折连绵，带着一丝凄情伤感。同是一曲民乐，原来这边那边，吹奏起来却是两种意味。随着响器班由远至近的吹奏，鞭炮声也由稀渐浓，砰砰啪啪，炸得满世界轰鸣。村里那些天元和娅梅还有些陌生的孩娃，这时候，激动得欢蹦乱跳，在门口蜂来蝶去，吵吵嚷嚷，说说闹闹，凭空多添了几分吉庆的喜悦。望着这些半大的孩子，娅梅说我一个也不认识了。天元说，你怎么就会认识，离开张家营一走就是十余年。有一个孩娃在门口放炮，炸着了手指哇哇大哭，天元便指着他说，这是三婶家孙子，那年在崖上拾柴，摔下死了，你看转眼就这么大了。二婶是娅梅极其熟悉的，她过去将那孩娃抱来，哄了再哄，又给他一把糖吃，孩娃才上了哭声。孩娃的肩上，挎了一个手缝书包，天元从中取出一本，是小学第五册语文。翻开一看，原来和那边的书本大致一样，只多了几则寓言故事。打开书本第九十一面，有则寓言叫《人的诞生》，仔细读了一遍，和那边关于人的起源说法，有天壤之别，大不一样。大意是说，人是由动物转化而来，山老虎是动物之王。所以由山虎转化为狐狸，由狐狸转化为豹子，由豹子转化为狗和猫，最终才成为其人。说转化为狐狸，是为了吸取狐狸的智慧。转化为豹子，是为了吸取豹子的勇敢。转化为狗，是为了吸取狗的忠诚。转化为猫，是为了吸取猫对真假、丑恶之辨别能力。从而，人就有了一切之美德，就最终成了人。寓言的最后，说山梁上人们最早的祖先由此而来，因此祖先就取名叫山虎。天元觉得这寓言居然同《欢乐家园》有着暗连，惊奇十分，又觉荒唐可笑，就把书本递给了娅梅。娅梅正看时，大门口突然响起了惊天动地的鞭炮、唢呐，和孩娃们叫嚷的新娘子来了的高呼。接下，从门外进来了婚礼大司仪，他左肩右携，套一个一作宽的红绸布圈儿，很像那边人世的广告小姐或什么礼宾人物。他进来不由分说，把强强拉到一边，把强强的奶奶按在院子正椅上，说这是上祖之位，把娅梅和天元按在老人面前，稍低一些的位上，说这是父母之位。然后对着满院的人唤： “新娘子马上就到，各位都按我说的准备——” 娅梅总觉得这司仪有些面熟。天元趴在她的耳朵上说。这是张家营老村长的哥，因为爱吃狗肉，几年前得了狂犬病，就到了这边。于是，娅梅想起了她在张家营时，那个开药店的医生。想起了年轻时死在白果树山监狱的狐狸，想起了十年前死去的家父，想起了几个月前一出世便死了的又一个儿子。这时候稍稍有些悲哀，也有些庆幸，没想到都还可以见到他们。回身问端坐的婆婆，说你到这边早些，见没见过狐狸？婆婆说没有见过，怕狐狸早回省会去了。说那边的人已经到了这边，各回各的老家里去，同村的还是同村，同乡的还是同乡。正这样悄声说对，大门口鞭炮轰鸣，人声鼎沸，热闹得无以形容。 原来新娘子到了。 和娅梅嫁往张家营时一样，新娘子被搀下八人抬轿，进行了一系列过门槛、跳火盆、踩红布、丢饺子、抓红枣、嘴吐枣籽，一拜天神，二拜奶奶、父母，夫妻交拜，跪入洞房等仪式，最后开始了婚宴的大吃大喝。 如此整整三天三夜热闹不息，方兴未艾，整个村庄都为又一桩婚事庆典恭贺。单各家送的礼品，如红布、衣裳、枕头、被面、单子等等，一些乡土社会礼俗上常见的东西，整整码满一个屋子。直到七天之后，这如火如茶。大轰大嗡的热闹才算减弱。该下地的下地走了，该读书的上学去了，该忙家务的在家里手脚不停。到了这时候，人们才想到因为手忙脚乱，却忘记了黄的吃喝。跪到狗窝一看，黄一到这边，腿也好了，眼也明了，窝边的槽里，有吃不完的婚宴酒菜，说起来它倒精神得不错。 随着春去秋来，荏苒的光阴，日子流水般地淌失。吃饭时候，儿媳妇将烧好的饭菜端到桌上。吃完了饭，天元和强强下田去了。儿媳收拾一应家务杂事，婆婆有一搭无一搭地做些针线。娅梅无事可做，就到山梁上随便走走，回忆一些过去的往事，去看望一些过去的旧地熟人，也帮天元和强强干些可干可不干的农活。这样到了来年之春，眼见得儿媳的肚子一日挺似一日。再到夏末时候，儿媳就生了一个又白又胖的小子。她也就终于做了奶奶、天元做了爷爷，不消说婆婆自然成了老奶。四世同堂的日子，风平浪静地朝前走去，一路上和和睦睦，沿途充满乡土社会的田园情调，使整个山梁上的村落百姓，都倍加关注，称羡不已。这叫虎子的孙儿，一日日爬在奶奶的背上长了起来。至两岁，天元开始教他认字读书，方三岁，已经熟背了那则动物之人源的寓言故事，实在是聪敏得十二分可以，满含了一家人未来的世纪之光。 110 事实上，人世间的天元还是走了，离开了张家营子，虽没同刘城的女人并肩同行，但还是随后几日走了。那一天日光姣好，村落里安安静静，满山遍野都是和暖与平淡。经营的人去了经营，下地的人踏进了田地，一世界都是乡土社会变化了的风光。立在村头，能看见男女的乡村青年手拉手地从梁上走过，偶尔也会有一个与都市人无二的亲吻。总之，张家营子里有乡土之气，有经营中数钱的唾液之气，更有粉红淡淡的女人的气息。娅梅站在数十年前台子地边的路道上，身后是当年知青屋那排瓦房的遗迹，宛如京华圆明园中的断壁一样横卧在人世天地之间。那时候天元就立在她的面前，提了他要离去的行李，说： "It surprised me that," 娅梅苦淡地一笑，说： “走吧你” 天元立着没动： “你死心住在这儿？” 娅梅说： “我回来就是为了死在这儿，这儿黄土埋人，你走了我也死在这儿。”天元立了许久，日光混浊而又黄亮，把他的脸照成苍白之色。他想着洛阳那九都古城的繁华，想着在洛阳候他的刘城的女人，也想着从都市反朴归来的娅梅曾经是过结发夫妻，至尾，他的行李软弱无力地如陨星一样坠落在了他的脚下，他便坐在那行李上永无休止似的揪了揪自己参白的头发，还是毅然地走了。一步一步，身影由近而远，犹如秋天随风飘去的一零黄叶，终于就成为一点，消没在天地之中。娅梅本欲再往前面送上一程，最少送到梁上的路道，其结果却是不由自主地朝后退了几步，瘦肩坚坚实实地倚凝在了将倒未倒的那知青屋的土墙上。其时，一个人世，都是混杂的黄色日光。 1992年7月初稿子开封 1993年7月改定于郑州