Chapter 12 The fifth part implies sin.1

88 Mother has been dead for ten years.She was moved to a new house by her son Tian Yuan, and she sat on the table all the time, watching everything that happened in this house. The hustle and bustle of personnel affairs, the urgent time, 2005 in the blink of an eye.This year, Yamei was fifty and Tianyuan was fifty-two.Country in 2005.Nothing can be compared with the last century, not to mention Shenzhen, Zhuhai, Hainan and other special economic zones that were the first to enjoy special economic policies, and Shanghai Pudong, Shandong Qingdao, Yantai, and the Heihe area in Heilongjiang, which were the first to enjoy special economic policies. How prosperous the development has been.Even the ancient city of Luoyang, which is close to the north, has risen to 20 points.In terms of comparison, among the relatively slow-developing hinterland of the Central Plains, Luoyang has already taken the lead here. A large amount of foreign capital has been introduced, and a large number of people from outside the city have been imported, causing all aspects of this city to expand rapidly.Although there is a set of strict control procedures for the population entering the city, the mother still watched her son and relied on unstoppable luck to complete all these smoothly.At the age of fifty-two, he decided to leave Zhangjiayingzi and go to that distant city.If you say you are going to make a career, it is not suitable for your age. If you say you have gone to this life, then there is no need to leave the place where you were born. Moreover, there is always a rush of blood in your heart that it is not too late to make up for it.In short, the passion in his heart prompted him to leave this rural society, not so much to fight for a new life, but rather to avoid the old one.

Mother said: "Don't leave the cat." Tian Yuan said, "I have to go." Mother said, "Yamei said she's not leaving." Tian Yuan said, "She's just talking." This blue-brick and tile-roofed house is considered to be the last one built in Zhangjiayingzi.So far, all the households in the village have lived in houses without soil.Standing on the top of the beam to see, the village is watery and green.The emerald green color in the new house, the so-called first-rich family in the early years, Nawashe said that it has a history of more than ten years, the house has become the dark blue of a pool of stagnant water, and the green of the trees in seasons, at the time of the handover of spring and summer, the color The exuberance is so exuberant that it can be explained in simple terms, the whole village is on the loess beam, and the green is a dark sky.This is not to say that the countryside is already so urban.A country can never become a city.If you look carefully, you can tell that the green is mixed with bits and pieces of khaki.This khaki color is the memory left by the last century.The light yellow ones are earth tile houses that people don't live in, and most of them are cowsheds, pigpens, or warehouses where miscellaneous farm tools are piled up.Occasionally there is a dark yellow thatched hut, which must be someone's chicken coop, or a place for dogs and sheep.This kind of thing is definitely not available in the city.When you go into a new house, the house is new and good, but the furnishings in the house are not necessarily.The tablets of the ancestors are immutable for life as adults, occupying the middle place on the table in the main hall.The sewing basket is always placed on the table intentionally or unintentionally.Portraits of old birthday stars are indispensable on the walls.The wooden bed in the inner room is either against the back wall or against the gable wall.In any case, there were two grain vats by the bed, crates were placed on top of the vats, and a table was placed beside the bed, and there was an oil lamp or wax stand on the table in case of power failure.Even Tian Yuan, who was dubbed a country writer by the tabloids and was called a country writer by the tabloids, had not shed this vulgar setting because of the relaxation of ideological policies due to the second turmoil of China’s economic boom. .Huang Huang, old and frail, with broken legs and bad eyes, was lying outside the door. He sat in the center of the room, looking at his mother's tablet on the table. Layers of shiny gold.A warm fresh air of the new house spread in all directions in the room, and the flowing sound was clearly discernible, just like a fine air current swirling in his ear sockets.The luggage for Luoyang was packed five days ago, but when it was time to leave, Yamei suddenly came.It is said that it is rare to have a little quiet in the provincial capital, so I came back specially for a walk, firstly to see Tianyuan and the villagers, to clean up the memories of the past; secondly, to avoid the chaos of the city and spend a few days of comfortable and quiet life.However, it is said so, whether it is true or not, Tian Yuan has no way of knowing.

After careful calculation, it has been fifteen years since the divorce.Fifteen years, living in a prosperous provincial capital, and living in a remote rural society, with so many years, how many changes should happen in life, I am afraid that even the things that I used to think will last forever, such as love Missing is no longer the original taste.At first, in the years after the breakup, the letters of mutual concern still passed through the long postal journey, like swan geese.Jier's letters gradually decreased, and the content and words gradually became empty and short.Later, it was finally broken, which fulfilled a poet's two short poems: Once we break up, it is far away.Where did he cut off the letter, who cut it first, and why, he can no longer recall now.He just remembered that without her letters, he was like missing an old book that had been used for many years. He was not very sad, but felt that it was a peace of mind that he could not receive letters or reply to them.Later, at noon one day, when I received a dozen newspapers delivered by the postman every half a month, I read a long newsletter titled "Real Strong Woman". After spreading the house and becoming the female boss of the famous Asia Avenue, I was even more relieved that I couldn't hear from her.Now that she has become a fledgling businessman, there is even less need for correspondence.As the saying goes: You walk on your Yangguan road, and I walk on my single-plank bridge.At that time, Teacher Zhang's appreciation of these words was really full of passion and profoundness. Unexpectedly, two months ago, she suddenly sent an express letter asking him how his life was. She wanted to come back and have a look, take a walk, rest Rest, add a handful of loess to the graves of mother and son.He wrote back and said, it's rare that you still remember Zhangjiayingzi.He also wrote some etiquette, such as welcome, but after receiving the letter, she actually came.So, he packed the luggage that he was going to leave aside, and accompanied her for five days to wander around sadly.I thought she would revisit the old place, but it would only be three days or two days, but it has been five days, and she still hasn't said when she will go back.This made Mr. Zhang very confused, and agreed with the head of the household in Luoyang that he would arrive there three days ago to teach his son and perform his duties as a tutor.So far, Yamei has shown no signs of leaving.And she knew that he had to get there on time.

Really do not know what to do. 89 "What should you do if I don't want to go back to the provincial capital?" At the beginning of the meeting, when she asked him this way, her face was flushed, like the red leaves of a persimmon tree dyed in the sunlight at the head of the village. If you look carefully, you can see a layer of sincerity.He knew it was just a whim.However, if he really stayed, then he would have known today, so why did he do it in the first place?The most popular saying is: A good horse never turns back.According to her temperament, which is soft on the outside and strong on the inside, she will definitely not be forced to go to the mountains and the countryside on the slopes of Funiu Mountain as she was more than 30 years ago.Not to mention that she was willing to give up Zhengzhou, the provincial capital, for the sake of love, as she did more than 20 years ago, and live in Zhangjiayingzi, a remote village.Speaking of which, the divorce has lasted for fifteen years, and she is willing to travel thousands of miles, traveling in trains, cars, and tractors. It is already good to come here to see you, do you have other extravagant hopes?That is, if she is really busy, and she goes to the countryside again for the sake of peace, are you willing to give up your efforts in Luoyang?The noon sun was red and bright.In the morning, I ate a bit of cannibalized food, and lay in the sun, but I haven't moved a bit yet.It is really old enough. When Tian Yuan arrived in Luoyang, he asked his neighbors to feed him. For some reason, he became seriously ill, thinking that it had finished its journey of destiny. But when Tian Yuan came back, his illness became milder again. When he saw ten Yamei, the hostess five years ago, had a tumor and was blind, but she could still shake in the yard.When Yamei stroked it, Yamei cried, and Huanghuang also shed tears.Its old and weak always give people a feeling of dying and precarity.It makes people think that the fate of a person is like that of a dog. Who can dominate his own future?If Tianyuan was still teaching in Laojunmiao Primary School, it would be the time when the hour and minute hands of the old wall clock merged into one.The sound of the iron bell when get out of class ends at twelve o'clock should echo leisurely among the fields and ravines on the mountain ridges.It's a pity that he has stopped teaching for a year and a half, or even more.Laojunmiao Primary School, and finally because of his resignation, the children had to transfer to Xiaoli Village Primary School.After all, these life changes are probably related to the house and love.With the development of society and the changes of the current situation, in the daily life of people in this mountain, there is no such thing as a so-called rapid and prosperous scene.But leave Zhangjiayingzi, go to the area along the road thirty or fifty miles away, the villages there are indeed not the same as before.

In Liujiadong, which was extremely poor back then, there used to be many residents who sold their daughters to support their families.In the 1980s, the government publicized the four Chinese characters of reform and opening-up, which are nationally decisive, so deeply in the hearts of the people, but it was quite common for people in Liujiadong to flee famine and beg for food.However, at the end of the 1980s, around 1989 or 1990, a road built from Luoyang suddenly fell from the sky.Relying on the first change of traffic caused by this road, Liujiajian began to do business, and the village name was changed from Jian to Street, and then according to the government's adjustment of the jurisdiction, Street was also changed to Town.The year before last, that is, in 2003, due to the discovery of a large molybdenum mine in this area, the further development of the Luhun Reservoir tourist area, and the readjustment of the administrative area, Liu Town was finally planned by the government as a new county.The county seat is located in Liu Town, the name of the county is Liu County, and the name of the city is Liu City.And Liu Cheng also lives up to expectations, and the rapid development is quite similar to the country's development of Shenzhen and Zhuhai Special Economic Zones.In a blink of an eye, not only high-rise buildings sprang up one after another, even three-star hotels, in response to the needs of the tourism industry, stood in the eastern suburbs of Liucheng, surrounded by mountains on three sides and facing the water on one side, last summer.It is said that all investment in this molybdenum mine will be borne by Japan, whose economy can compete with that of the United States and Western Europe.It is also said that there will be a wealthy overseas Chinese in Liucheng who will invest in a Peony Restaurant, Peony Racecourse, and Peony Casino worth 500 million US dollars.Whether there will be a peony brothel is said to be in the process of proposal, denial, denial and proposal.Of course, it is still unknown whether these rumors are true.But Liu Cheng's rise like Asia Avenue is a fact for all to see.A double-track railway stretching from Luoyang will pass through the city, and a large number of migrant workers have begun to fire guns to dig mountains and dig tunnels, but it is also an iron fact.On the contrary, decades ago, the people in Zhangjiaying bought and sold things, and the educated youths in the provincial capital who went to the countryside and went to the mountains had to travel dozens of miles to the old town for a simple dinner, but they had to be neglected and degraded.Except for people from this town and neighboring villages who went to buy some oil, salt, soy sauce and vinegar, no one went to the old town to go to the market.The same distance; who would not want to go to Liucheng in the opposite direction?In addition to going to Liucheng, there are regular diesel tractors and simple cars several times a day to pick up and drop off people on the mountain ridge.Beyond the mountain ridges, the world has turned upside down.

However, the life of the people on this tiger beam is still very good. Except that every family eventually lived in a house with new bricks and new tiles, the girls also wore skirts, and the boys also listened to popular songs. radical change.And these so-called changes are 30 to 50 years late, and they are too superficial.Speaking of houses, it is also a symbol of change. The prosperity and backwardness of the past dynasties, and the wealth and poverty of the common people are first reflected in the houses.At that time, Yamei and Tianyuan built the first tile-roofed house in Zhangjiayingzi's history with the fixed monthly salary of teaching.Looking at it now, the tile-roofed houses are not only low and rustic, rough and simple, but also somewhat unsightly.However, at that time, it won the envy of the whole village.In a radius of dozens of miles, apart from them, even the secretary of the village party branch dare not dream of living in a tile-roofed house for three or two years.After all, society is changing. When the whole village has evolved from earth tile houses to green brick houses, or some people have directly transitioned from thatched cottages to small buildings, Teacher Zhang suddenly discovered that the earth tiles The room is no longer available.

It's raining. After so many years, the new houses in the village have been erected one after another, and Mr. Zhang is not unimpressed.This is what my mother sees most innocently at the main hall table all day long.On the one hand, because of Mei's departure, he felt quite discouraged about life, unwilling to revive the momentum of life from the house, and just made do with what he could.On the other hand, for most of his career as a private teacher, although his salary has been upgraded repeatedly, he is already the highest paid among the private teachers in the county, but with this salary, he can go to Liucheng or Luoyang for a light meal. It is easier said than done to build a new house that does not fall into the country style with some savings!However, the old house has done its best and exhausted the energy of its shingles.After decades of ups and downs, even a small elm tree on the ridge of the house died of drought and survived waterlogging. It has also changed from an invisible bud to a small tree as thick as a thumb. How can it survive the years.Finally, during a continuous rain last year, a rafter broke, and the house was covered with ocean.It has come to a point where it is no longer possible not to renovate or build a new building.Renovation is meaningless, like patching a robe that was fashionable hundreds of years ago.Where does the money come from for new construction?

I had no choice but to quit my primary school teacher the year before last, and relying on the bit of reputation gained from the publication of "Happy Homeland", I went to Luoyang Healthy New Century Entertainment Company and became the tutor of the boss's family. 90 Yamei's arrival had already delayed his departure by four or five days.At the dinner table, on the road of nostalgia, she asked him from time to time: "Have you completed the formalities for entering the city?" "All right." "Decided to leave Zhangjiayingzi?" "Leave for at least a few years."

"for money?" "Not at all." "And why?" "I can't tell. Can you say it was for money when you returned to the city?" "No. But if I want to stay, will you still go?" "you will not." "How about meeting?" "If you can... Then why did you do it in the first place? So you won't." Always jingling a few words like this, when he forced her to make a decision, she kept silent, either setting her eyes on the high sky, or on the mother's tablet on the table in the house.The sun at the turn of spring and summer warms up and lulls people to sleep, shining on the body like a bright mirror.Teacher Zhang dozed off.Last night, he was disturbed by another woman's love, which made him sleepless all night. Today, when he woke up, it was almost noon.Needless to say, she also stayed up all night, otherwise she would have gotten up early to cook, like the night fifteen years ago.In the five days since she came back, she has cooked breakfast twice.But today she didn't get up.Right now, he has cooked his lunch.For lunch, as she said, it was noodles with physalis, boiled soybeans, and fried peppers.Fifteen years ago, as the daughter-in-law of Zhangjiaying, she loved to eat Physalis noodles, which were the only delicious ones in the rural environment.Fifteen years later, if he was asked to scoop up half a bucket of physalis from a tofu maker five miles away, I am afraid it was just to change the luxurious taste of the provincial capital.Physalis noodles are covered over the fire.A few days ago, she always came back for dinner at twelve o'clock on time.But today, she stayed up all night like him, so she must wake up at this time.The mother said, cat, you go and ask her to come back for dinner.He was lazily motionless in the daylight at the door, saying that she would come back later.When mother is talking about dinner, you talk about it carefully, don't argue and don't argue.He said she didn't say that she must stay and not go, and the mother said that maybe she would change, and I would call her back.Teacher Zhang finally closed his eyelids in a half-sleeping manner. In a daze, he felt a shadow swaying in front of his eyes, like the shadow of a flying bird, passing by his warm face.He thought that it was his mother who went to the three old rooms of the old house.

Yamei has been living in the old house since she came back.On the one hand, it is because they are husband and wife for half their lives. No matter what the reason is, they have not formed a new family in the end. If they both live in the new house, needless to say, they will be criticized by others; You won't let your emotions be overwhelming, and the mountains and plains will be overwhelming, but you say that there will be no uncontrollable things, but no one can predict it.After all, it was once a harmonious couple.On the other hand, the old house is the property of Yamei’s frugal living. At the beginning of the new century, although the house is quite like three thatched cottages, and there is no commemorative significance of a great man living in thatched cottages, it is still in those three cottages. Here, the best time and the most memorable days of her life are stored.When mother arrived in the room, Yamei had already woken up, looking at the noon sun through her sleepy hair, dancing around on the wicker window, her dance steps were as soft as a ribbon fluttering on the window with the wind.Her eyes were half-opened and half-closed, and she was looking at the sunshine on the provincial capital stage, when she heard her mother say Meizi, Tianyuan cooked the rice, your favorite Physalis noodles.She was startled, and when she raised her head, she saw that the room was empty, except for the nails that hung the family portrait photos and fell on the wall like ropes, the only thing left in the room was her dusty house. gray memory.She pushed aside the pillow and looked at the watch. The hour and minute hands were exactly one.Unexpectedly, it was the first time in more than ten years that I could sleep until twelve noon in this room.She brushed her hair, and resolutely sat up from the bed, her movements were fast, as if she had missed something because she got up late, as if if she slowed down a step, she would not be able to tell Tian Yuan about her decision.

She is not leaving.She decided not to go any more.At the age of fifty, she finally understood that apart from her large savings and a huge fixed income in the provincial capital, Zhangjiayingzi was the rest of what most people needed.She is going to tell Tian Yuan that I am not leaving, you can stay too, we will live together tonight.Just like the night she spent in Taizidi when she came back from the provincial capital for the New Year.In the final analysis, the world in the provincial capital is not where her emotions are placed. She thought that the fifteen years of struggle were a splendid chapter in her life, but after visiting this camp, she knew that the biggest flaw in her life was also here. In fifteen years, it was also on Asia Street in Zhengzhou.I finally understand that in such a world that is spinning endlessly like a wheel, the axis is not the person like me, but Tang Bao, the person like the leopard.However, she was always undecided whether to tell Tian Yuan about her flaws in Zhengzhou's life.Maybe, he'd feel sick.If she didn't say anything, she was afraid that one day Tian Yuan would know, and it would lead to even greater misery.However, she didn't know that Tian Yuan had seen everything she did in the provincial capital through her mother's eyes.It was the failure of her second marriage. Even when she miraculously became pregnant again in her forties and gave birth to a baby boy, her mother had seen her many times. How could she not tell her son, It's nothing more than being a son who can't believe it, what the mother said is the truth.After all, she was a person who had died for ten years, so what she said and did could not be believed by the living 100% of the time. So, if he didn't say this himself, how could he, Tianyuan, believe that you, Yamei, were determined to return to the rural society?In Zhangjiayingzi, have you spent your whole life with your dead mother, dead son, and Huang Huang?After thinking about it like this, Yamei suddenly turned and sat up, but her hands slowly moved down when she was dressing. 91 Yamei doesn't know that her mother sees everything she thinks and does.No one would know that when she remarried, the ghost of her mother-in-law flew to the provincial capital one night and found her at the Asia Restaurant on Asia Street.She was falling asleep at that time, and the man she found in Bishagang in the suburbs was lying beside her.Three days later, they will hold a luxurious wedding on Asia Avenue that will shake half of the provincial capital.It was late at night, and he said he wanted to sleep here, so she let him sleep in the restaurant.The love that came suddenly, roasted her whole body like coals, making her soft and exhausted.She didn't expect that he was so familiar with things on the bed.He is ten years younger than her. He is the chairman of the trade union of a large factory in the provincial capital. He loves painting art and has published a picture album.Of course, the publishing house published his works, and he brought a lot of advertisements to the publishing house.Those works are placed on the shelves of bookstores, and it is normal for no one to care about them.People don't need to care about these things.However, if the author gives these things to others, the other party will talk about those works with great respect and respect for the author.Mei saw him after the solar eclipse, and he was sitting at the corner of Bishagang, with an easel for sketching in front of him.After the blackness of the solar eclipse gradually receded, it was exactly twelve o'clock at noon, the sun was bright and pure, and there were bursts of shouts of joy in the city.At this time, he walked towards her.He said you are Manager Li of Asia Restaurant?She said I was Li Yamei.He said I am here waiting for you every Sunday.That's how they got to know each other.She was flattered by his infatuation for her.When he gave her his picture album, she flipped through the landscape sketches of Bishagang. Although she couldn't tell the good things, she couldn't tell the bad things either. It was just the smell of ink, which lingered in her page by page. Ups and downs ahead.She thought of "Happy Homeland", which she co-wrote with Tian Yuan, was reduced to pale ashes by a fire.By the time the second draft was almost finished, the time had passed, and an unprecedented movement to eliminate spiritual pollution was being carried out in the society. The provincial publishing house was cut down, and the publishing plan was naturally stranded.Holding the album of Chinese paintings, although she did not show any surprise at the talent of her lover, she carefully kept the album and was actually conquered by him.Once things on the bed are like fire and tea, needless to say, no one can care about the search for the source of those skills. They only hope that they are really in the desert, and the world suddenly disappears in front of them, leaving only two naked bodies, tight to each other. They are so close together that they cannot be separated.But once the storm of lust is over, the man gets a kind of satisfaction, and sleeps soundly, the woman will open her eyes, or look at the empty life, to think about those strange pleasures, what is it? One source; or, covering the warm quilt, recalling the enjoyment of the moment just passed, pulling the happy tail as much as possible, and keeping the happiness by your side for a long time.That year, Yamei was already forty-four years old, the sun and the moon, the cold and the heat, so much had passed by.Reminiscing about the wind and rain that just passed, one is that his mouth is dry because of the fire of desire he ignited; the other is that he shudders at his understanding of the matter in bed.So, she kept her eyes open all night, staring at the blue chandelier above her head.At dawn, she fell asleep, and her mother-in-law suddenly came and sat beside her.In late autumn, my mother-in-law's face was frozen purple.She said Tianyuan, okay?She said he was still teaching.She said he got married?The mother-in-law said that he would not have a family after death.At this moment, there were two lines of hot tears, falling sadly like fallen leaves in the autumn wind.The mother-in-law wiped the tears from her face, walked half a circle around the bed, and looked at the sleeping man. She said, "Is that him?" May said, "It's him." "The man had a gloomy face and something in his heart," she said. Mei said: "He is not bad, we have known each other for two years." "You have to be careful not to marry him," she said. After saying this, she set off to go home, saying that she would go back to Zhangjiaying before dawn.Mei asked her to take some money, but she said Tianyuan didn't want it, and she and her grandson Qiangqiang couldn't use the money here.She also asked about Qiangqiang's daily situation, and she said that she was fine, she went to study and read, and said that the grandma and grandson lived together there, and life went smoothly.When sending her downstairs, Yamei looked left and right, wanting her mother-in-law to take something with her, but the mother-in-law said, "Your things are all because of that man's fancy, and she won't take one no matter what."The next day, when Yamei woke up from the bed, the man had already washed up.In a suit and tie, neat and tidy, standing in front of the window, ecstatic towards Asia Street.The winter breeze swarmed in from the half-opened windows, and the Bishagang Chinese painting he carefully painted on the wall of the house was moving slightly, just like the strings of a harp trembling at the end.Seeing that she was awake, he hurriedly closed the window, came over and sat where his mother-in-law sat last night, and said, Yamei, it's not easy for you, a woman's family is so rich that she has such a family property. She said, "It's up to you after you get married." He said: "I can help you a little bit, but I want to start a Kanghua Culture Company by myself." She said: "If you want to do it, it can be done. I will give you as much money as you need." He said: "I don't want a cent of your money. I respect your character and talent, not because you are a famous and rich man on Asia Street." When he said this, he had a calm face, his expression was like a lake of clear water without wind and rain.So, she thought that her mother-in-law is a dead person after all, how could she know the heart of a living person?Since he has been able to go to Bishagang to sketch and paint every Sunday for more than ten years in such a society full of money, it is of course different from ordinary people.In today's world, the status of money is incomparably noble. No matter whether you are engaged in politics or business, it is indeed difficult to move a single step without money.Looking back on the people and things I experienced after entering the city, which one is not based on money as the only value standard?It is reasonable to think about things on the bed, how to think about them at night, once there is white light in front of the window, it will seem boring and vulgar to think about it again.Since he is not the kind of ordinary people who blindly pursue money in the way of life, what flows in his veins and temperament cannot be said to be the blood and strength of a painter, but he is also a painter who is tireless in art, life and love. people who are chasing after.In comparison, although Tang Bao's appearance cannot be compared, in fact he is thin and small, and he may even be a little ugly at a glance, but the personality displayed in society is Tang Bao riding a fast horse, chasing after him. Can't keep up. Maybe marrying him is also my destination?Who knows, whether it is true or not, I don’t know, the matter has come to this point, I am neither a young girl who has age as the capital to explore whether another person is pure, nor is she a bohemian, or free and easy woman, sitting in the bus of the times In front of or in the middle of everything, a happy life is the purpose of the world, even if you are happy once, you will feel that it is a great harvest in life.If you have passed the middle age, but you have done such a secret thing about sleeping together, then you have to get married, let alone two years of dating, and you have not even noticed that people have a preference for the money in your hands, like a cat over a mouse, How can you tell that he is the kind of person with a dark heart? 92 It wasn't until recently that Yamei finally realized that the so-called chairman of the labor union by a man had happened a long time ago.In the years of the trade union, he did not take seriously the work of the trade union.The countries and nations of that period were being overwhelmed by the desire for prosperity and development.On the other hand, state cadres with a certain cultural quality rely on their aloofness and power, and most of them have their own unpractical views on economic issues.On the one hand, when others gave him treats and gifts, he would never refuse to accept them, and he would never refuse to participate in the high-end banquets that cost 1,000 yuan per table at that time.On the other hand, cadres who don't read much, love money itself to the naked, and also have all kinds of power in their hands, have established a very popular theory with the help of some discussions about money in Western developed countries. Earn money to clear the way.Coupled with some experience and advice from Shenzhen, Zhuhai, Guangzhou and other places, they jumped into the economic sea first. Taking advantage of the country's lack of understanding of the commodity economy, they made a big fuss between the planned economy and the market economy, and finally filled their pockets. .Although there was a period of time, general sanctions were imposed on the so-called corrupt officials.However, this movement, which has been ridiculed repeatedly by Westerners, finally complied with the ancient folk proverb that the law does not blame the public, and the effect is minimal.Later, forced by the economic situation, the government not only encouraged its civil servants to go to sea to do business, but even took some measures to force them to go to the front line of the economy. It has reached the realm of Western countries in a deformed way.Others, walking in the leisurely footsteps of Chinese literati, have one set of theoretical tricks after another when it comes to money, but they are really put into practice, but they are full of bookishness, unwilling to lose the so-called face of Chinese literati, and wait until the end. Knowing the time, I don't know how many years have passed.Those illiterates who can't write letters can run Chinese book fairs in Hong Kong, Macau, Singapore, Japan, Chinatowns in the United States and other places when they start cultural businesses, while intellectuals who call themselves cultural people don't even have a calendar. Can't sell.However, although they have a history of publishing books, collections, and volumes at their own expense or at the expense of others, and for the benefit of others, they also know that those publications have no art at all. Take a look at your own vanity, and then go to deceive those businessmen who still have admiration for culture.On the other hand, relying on cultural accomplishment to direct some scams that were ubiquitous in the current situation, but you will not wake up when your head is bleeding, and you will never wake up anyway. He is a theater director. The man who remarried Yamei was exactly such a man. The unexpected thing was that Yamei accidentally became pregnant again when she was in her forties.I thought that I would not be pregnant at this age, and I took strict contraceptive measures.In the end, however, the doctor told her that her discomfort was due to her pregnancy.Shocked and delighted by the diagnosis, she returned from the hospital feeling overwhelmed for three days.I want to have a child, but I am afraid that I will be burdened by the child in the second half of my life.I don't want children, and I am afraid that in a few years, when I am old, I will retire from the turbulent business. I will be lonely and helpless, and I will have endless thoughts about the dead Qiangqiang.The man went to Wuhan to handle the business of his Kanghua Culture Company. After waiting for half a month, the man came back. In the bedroom alone, Yamei said that I was pregnant. She thought I had a stomach problem.At that time the man was washing his face, and she handed him the towel.He took the towel and froze for a while, instead of wiping his face, he let the hot water splash on his face, making noises all over the floor.He said, "Yamei, don't make such jokes." She said, "Really, the doctor said." "It's impossible, I'm careful every time," he said. She gave him the diagnosis certificate from the First People's Hospital of the city. He glanced at the diagnosis sheet, and the blankness on his face gradually turned light blue, like a sky in the dark night, both broad and deep.Hastily wiped off the hot water from her face, put the towel on the hook in the washroom, and came out to look at Yamei's half-joyed, half-confused face.He said: "What are you going to do?" "Strive for your opinion." "Take it off." It is also really necessary to fight for his opinion, whether to be a father is a kind of power of others.In the 1980s, a wind that blew from the south to the north, and from the metropolis to the medium-sized cities was: the proportion of young people who do not want to marry and the proportion of divorce have risen sharply, and families who are married and do not have children are also related to By the end of the last century, it has become a fashion not to get married and not have children, and people are in their prime, not to mention that I have reached this age that is not suitable for childbearing. Naturally, there are many benefits to not having children.However, in the one-story house she bought by herself in the back street of Asia, through the light of the window, she saw that when the man said to remove the word, his face was determined, and there was no room for negotiation.At that moment, Yamei saw the man with narrow eyes, small nose, and big mouth. The back figure was a bit chic because he was thin and neat. When the front was gentle, there was often a smile. Well-proportioned, it won't attract much favor from people, but because of that smile, it won't attract much disgust.However, when he was half-warm and angry, that smile disappeared, leaving only the ugliness of his facial features painted on his face.I don't know what he looks like when he is completely angry.During the more than ten years of living with Tian Yuan, she was used to being respected by Tian Yuan. At this time, how could she bear his resolute rejection with such a cold brow.Just as these two eyes met, she made up her mind that she must give birth to the child and truly become a mother. She said: "I have decided to give birth to this child, you can do whatever you want." Without saying a word, the man took his clothes and went out to his Kanghua Culture Company.At that time, his cultural company mainly dealt in calligraphy and paintings of celebrities and cultural relics and antiques. It was half over the counter and half closed. Yamei didn't even know the sources of some cultural relics and antiques.Although it has only been opened for less than half a year, the branch has already been established in other provinces and cities.Speaking of starting from penniless, the business has become very big, and she has established a firm foothold among her peers, so she naturally doesn't take Yamei's toughness to heart.However, when he threw his hands away, a tragedy kicked off. 93 A man would never go home until he said he would, and his attitude was more tough than Yamei had expected. This kind of demeanor was completely different from his obedient obedience before marriage.就是婚后他着手操办康华公司那一阶段，也还是对她体贴入微，早上起床，不等娅梅睡醒，洗脸水倒进了盆里，牙膏挤在牙刷的毛上。出门时，不是在她脸上亲吻一下，就是在床头留下一个纸条，写上令人肉麻的亲爱的什么什么，其亲热程度，总使娅梅感到一种做作，似乎是一种佯装，或者是从西方影视节目中学的一套而已。然而话又说回来，这样的年纪，审慎再三地组织家庭，对家庭里的一切，自然比常人敏感，生怕困了只言片语，而在夫妻之间投下阴影，也就由他亲昵罢了，看他到底能持续多久。这样一方面细心观察，一方面又自得其乐地沉溺于情爱之中，到他终于办好康华文化公司的一切经营手续以后，有天夜里，他突然在她耳边长嘘短叹，问说为了什么，他说不为什么，说不为什么有啥儿值得感叹。这样再三逼问，他才说银行不给贷款，公司无法营业。 "How much money do you need?" “反正我不用亚细亚酒楼资助。” “你这样是没有把我当成你的妻子。” “我不能让人议论我娶你是为了你的钱。” “只要我不这样以为，你怕别人干啥。” 这样说到深夜，自然少不了一场狂风暴雨的亲热。最后问他到底需要多少钱时，他说这哪能说得清楚，不说需要库存一些名贵商品，就是营业厅的柜台，现在除了一些朋友的字画，还有四分之三都还空着，要想开张，至少得把柜台摆满。于是，娅梅便说，我明天去给出纳交待一声，需要多少钱，你去她那取，再不够，让她去银行调款。这时候的亚细亚酒楼，也是家大业大，日进日出万元以上便属于生意萧条，遇到政府有大的会议在酒楼吃饭，一天营业额高达三万五万，也都显得十分平常。有了她的交待，男人去帐上取钱，自然是一路绿灯。有时候，人家压根不出面儿，只一个电话，出纳便从银行取出几万元存款现金，用皮兜装上送到康华公司里去。等终于到了公司又一个营业楼开张那天，娅梅去字号为京古斋的营业厅致喜，推开旋转彩灯的豪华门进去，顿时惊愕不已了。不说柜台里的字画、碑文帖、有关出版物及笔墨纸砚，各类齐全，就连南阳的高级玉器、洛阳的唐三彩、禹州钧瓷和景德镇的一些仿宫廷瓷器，都整整摆了两间屋子。标价最贵的一件青玉龙雕，价钱高达三万五千多元。从这个数目去看，进价少说也在一万五千元以上。当然，经商是本大利大，怕就怕小本买卖，赔不起也赚不起。无论价钱高低，是商品都有赚的可能。想不到的是，营业厅里，柜台外的地面是大理石地板，柜台内的，又铺了针织地毯，墙上贴了豪华壁纸不说，且还挂了一圈从日本进口的跳动壁灯。整个儿的气派，不要说顾客来这儿购买物品，就是随便走走，也是舒心得很。来恭贺开张的人非常之多，而又大都是本市的社会名流，省内的画家、书法家、作家、根雕家及硬笔书法协会的主席、豫剧研究所所长、文学研究所所长，还有省委宣传部主抓文化的副部长、文化厅长等等，都到厅内致贺，都在门口的签到册上用毛笔签字。说起来，到这儿的倒数娅梅最为平民百姓了。男人已经十三天没有回家，也没有给她打过一个电话。这一会他立在门口，一一接待各位来宾，不停地握手，似乎和哪一位都十分熟悉。至此，娅梅终于明白自己委实是小看了自家的丈夫。如同把微服私访的君主，错当做了普通百姓。 实际上，这时候的娅梅，再也不是初回省会卖馄饨的摊主。亚细亚大酒楼的成功，增长了许多的人生阅历。对于这样的社会名流，她实在见了太多太多。在有些场合，说出他们的名字，动地摇山也都是可能的。然到了亚细亚酒楼，他们自己为拿不起一桌饭钱时候，那种窘像，娅梅是每月都要见到。所谓的作家、艺术家，实则是个徒有虚名的称谓罢了。经理、老板、董事长，才是这个社会的主人。作家、艺术家只是一个时代的点缀。任何人都不会在商品面前为他们的出现感到惊讶。使娅梅惊讶的是，丈夫貌不惊人，居然能在一年半年之内，办成一个康华公司，而且有这么大的经营气派。她不为他有这样胆略而自豪，而在忽然之间，依着一个历经挫折的女人的本能，她感到了亚细亚酒楼的动摇。她没有从男人面前过去，她从侧门走进营业厅，在人群中夹杂着浏览一遍，站到了玉器柜台前，向营业小姐问了几样玉器装饰品的价格，又问了这大厅一共投资多少金额，聘请她们每月给多少月薪，最后问她们是否吃住都在公司。营业小姐尽自己所知，一一作了回答。最后她问，你们经理还每夜住在京古斋看门吗？ 现在回想起来，那位营业小姐的表情，半呆半愠，是一种浅白之色，很像突然有人无礼地砰砰敲门，打开一看，门前站的却是查户口的户籍警。她不说话，只是看着娅梅的一张平平静静的瘦脸，日日常常的装饰，那脸上分明写了你不该打听这些的愠怒。娅梅没有再说什么，依照经营上十分普遍的流行做法，取出五张一百元的大票，从玻璃柜台上推将过去，说我是你们经理的妻子，亚细亚酒楼的老板。听了这话，营业小姐脸上立刻白了一下，慌忙把钱收进口袋，动作之快，似乎不是为了那五百块的小费，而是怕有人看见她们这笔买卖。接下，营业小姐一手拿着一样玉器，很像在向顾客介绍商品，一面说她的经理同一位姑娘在豫苑大厦包了一个房间，十二楼，一二○四号房，电话号码是9194677。 娅梅问：“他说过他家里的事情没？” 小姐答：“谁都不知道他是结过婚的人。” 94 母亲向儿子述说这些情况，是那年冬天的一个夜晚，天气冷到不能再冷。张家营人有一半人家，水缸都冻裂开了一条大缝。天元从学校回来，没有烧饭，独自在屋里坐了一阵，便上床围了被子。油灯光昏黄一片，在屋里是泥土的颜色。他一边依着床头，脚蹬着床头的黄黄取暖，一边望着脚头墙上自己的影子。那影子浅黑淡淡，一动不动，忧伤而又僵呆，倒很像了这些年他日子的一种写照。算起来也就几年时间，儿子死了，妻子返城去了。母亲因此一病再病，最终于那年春上告离人世。好端端一个三邻五村，人人称羡的家庭，在眨眼之间，便妻离子散，飘零凋散了。剩下他与老年的黄黄，相依为命地度日度月，也是一副衰败的图景，光景的苦难艰涩，是不言而喻的事情。死的终归死了，去的终归去了，活的，终归还要在张家营活着。每逢这样寒冷的天气，他便随意给黄黄弄点吃食，自己饿着肚子，也懒得去生火烧饭，围着被子，望着影，想想流水岁月，飘零人生，也不失为是一种苦难的享受。待想到久时，母亲便会从那边回来给他一番安慰，甚或把儿子带回，让他望上一眼。那时，母亲总是说，猫儿，你再成个家吧，找个女人烧烧饭也好。娅梅她都结婚了。你不能老是想她。他用手摸着儿子的头。儿子的头发同离开这个世界时一样光滑油亮。He said: “她不会的，她和别人过不好日子。” 母亲说我眼看着她和人家举行婚礼，那仪式和张家营子压根没有一样的地方，光山珍海味的酒宴都摆了五十四桌，亚细亚的酒楼不够，又包了一家叫白云宾馆的大厅。凡参加婚礼的人，每个人送了一个红包，最不济的，里边也包着二百块钱，每个红纸包上都写着他们的名字，包一千块钱的，少说也有三个五个。有个叫唐豹的人，红包里竟有五千块钱，听说那人是星光大商场老板，曾经喜欢过娅梅，可娅梅看不上他，找了这个有文化的人，算得上一个画家兼商人。其余别的，都是亚细亚大街的老板、经理、医生、董事和政府的工商、税务、银行、卫生、公安等部门掌事的人。人家说娅梅为这场婚礼花了一大笔钱，给每个男客点烟时，都送一个火机，每个火机都是三百块钱。给每个女客递的糖里，都有一个白珠子，还有……天元便不想再听下去，从床头取出那张《真正女强人》的报纸，读上，遍半遮，用被子蒙头睡了。他睡了，母亲便坐在他的床边，唠唠叨叨，喋喋不休，千遍万遍地求他再找一个女人，不要为娅梅死心眼儿。这种劝告几乎日日都有，只要他到寂寞的时候，母亲便如期而至，来说一些娅梅新的情况，说一些他孤身一人的难处。总之，都是为了劝他结婚，直弄到满山遍野都是母亲的影子，满山遍野都是母亲的劝诫，天元也就终于打算，再组织一个新的家庭。说到底，后半世还人生漫漫，心也不能总是挂着离去的娅梅。 母亲托了村长给天元张罗媳妇。比起来，张家营人当数村长见多识广，接触人多。熟识的人中，又多是乡土社会里一些上层人物。那些一辈子在山梁上爬着种地的人，无论怎样，也进不了村长的亲戚朋友的人圈。在一次县里召开的三级干部会上，村长认识了三十里外赵梁村的副村长。副村长是全县很有名望的基层干部，丈夫死了，留下一个女儿，小天元几岁。由于她是村长，又有名望，对再婚的事自然是很为挑剔，不说再找一个如前夫那样的刘城有权有势的干部，可也不能找一个地地道道，又不会做生意赚钱的农民。这样的条件，这样的环境，在乡村是十有八九要竹篮打水。到了村长向她介绍天元的情况时，她便欣然应诺。村长回来给天元说了，天元说让我想想。 “没什么好想”，村长说，“就这样定了。” “我还没见到她的人样。” “我替你见了你还不信我村长？” “我总得摸摸她的脾气，能不能合来。” “是个女人，哪有合不来的道理。” “结婚过日子，这是大事。” “我已经答应了，见了面你也不能不同意。” "village head……" “难道我村长还做不了这个主？” 这是九十年代中期的事情，村长说一不二的态度，使你感到又亲近又无可选择。这当然不能说是包办，但是村长说定了也就只能定了。见面那天太阳很好，她扯着她四岁的女儿，在他家前后看了一遍，最后坐到屋里时候，脸上有一层红光，说我看你还是和我到赵梁教书吧，那边我家房子好，我又是副村长，说话办事都方便。她说村长有了不治之症，只要村长一死，我就当村长了。当了村长，我把赵梁小学的校长换下来，由你当校长，三朝两日，凭着我在县里的关系，给你转个正式教师不是问题。 他说：“你不想嫁到张家营来？” 她说：“张家营能让我当村长？” 他说：“难道非当村长不可？” 她说你这话成了笑话，能当村长我不当村长干啥儿。由此也就知道，尽管社会急剧变化，二十年前，南方人都把官的意思降得很低，以为钱才是时代的正宗。可在北方农村，村长这个政府最为基层的代理，却对人还有极大的引诱。不过，能当上村长，自然和经济的宽余总是有着分不开的关系。大凡说来，北方农村的村长家里，日子总比百姓家里好出许多。这一点天元也是知道。不过天元由于长期和娅梅生活形成的习惯，颇像一池有鱼有虾的清水，并不渴望那水中突然有龙腾起。或说，他怕把日子的平静清洁，搅得浑浑浊浊。副村长的女儿，说话、穿戴和所受教育，是同一般农民不同，天元见了，随即便生出一颗爱心。他摸着孩子的头说，你嫁过来，也到老君庙小学教书，我们过安安静静的日子，可以好好培养培养女儿，我不喜欢乡村干部终日风风火火，欺天霸地，像上一辈人说地主老财似的。女人冷冷地笑笑，说： “料不到，世界上真是什么人都有。你一个保姆样教学生娃儿的民办教师，竟还瞧不起我们村长。”