Chapter 7 Section 7

It happened to Song Lian again, never made Song Lian more anxious and irritable than this time.That pool of purple blood was a merciless blow to Songlian.She knew in her heart that the possibility of her pregnancy became elusive along with Chen Zuoqian's indifference and incompetence.If this becomes a fact, will she be like a leaf of duckweed drifting down in Chen's garden? Song Lian found that she was more and more easily sad, and her bitter tears often stained her clothes.Song Lian went to the toilet with tears in her eyes, trying to throw away the dirt, but when she saw a piece of soaked toilet paper floating on the toilet, she cursed, lazy bastard.Yan'er seems to never be able to use the new type of flush toilet. She always forgets to flush it after she feels comfortable.Song Lian was just about to turn on the water, when she had an idea of ​​extraordinary sensitivity and suspicion. She found a brush, wrinkled her nose tightly and picked up the wad of toilet paper. After the toilet paper was unfolded, the original shape was revealed, and there was a vague woman on it, although It was stained by water, but the woman on the papyrus could be distinguished at a glance, and it was drawn with black and red blood.Song Lian understood that the painting was her again, and Yan'er changed another way to cast a curse on her secretly.She wanted me dead, she threw me in the toilet.Song Lian picked up the straw paper trembling all over, she didn't think it was dirty at all, the blood all over her body was set on fire by Yan'er's evil deeds.She knocked open the door of the small side room with the straw paper in between, Yan'er leaned on the bed and was doing a ton, Yan'er said, Ma'am, what are you doing?Song Lian threw the toilet paper on her face, Yan'er said, what is it?When she saw it clearly, her face turned gray, and she murmured that it wasn't for me.Song Lian was so angry that she couldn't speak, her staring eyes became desperate due to anger.Yan'er huddled on the bed, not daring to look at her, and said, it wasn't you who was painting for fun.Song Lian said, who did you learn this insidious work from?You want to kill me, do you want to be my wife? Yan'er didn't dare to say anything, grabbed the straw paper and threw it out of the window.Songlian yelled sharply, don't throw it!Yan'er turned around and argued, this is dirty stuff, why keep it?Song Lian was walking around the house with her arms folded, it would be useful to keep her arms open, there are two ways to follow you.One way is clear, show this dirty thing to the master, show it to everyone, I don't want you to serve me anymore, how can you serve me?You are here to kill me.There is also a private road.Yan'er timidly said to him, why is it private?You can make me do whatever you want, just don't drive me away.Song Lian smiled and said it's simple, you can eat it.Yan'er was startled, madam, what did you say?Song Lian turned her face to look out of the window, and said word by word, eat it.Yan'er felt weak all over, so she squatted down, covered her face and began to cry; that would be better than beating me to death.Song Lian said, I don't have the energy to hit you, because hitting you dirty my hands.Don't blame me as a wolf, it's called repaying others in the same way.What the book says, can't be wrong.Yan'er just squatted in the corner and cried, Song Lian said, you are going to be clean again now, if you don't eat, get out and pack up your bed.Yan'er cried for a long time, then suddenly wiped away her tears, choked up and said, "I eat, I eat as soon as I eat."Then she grabbed the toilet paper and stuffed it into her mouth, making a heart-piercing retching sound.Song Lian looked at it coldly, but she didn't feel any pleasure. She felt chilled for some reason, and her stomach was very nauseous.Bitch.She glanced at Yan'er in disgust, and left the small side room.

Yan'er fell ill the next day, very ill. The doctor came to see him and said that Yan'er had typhoid fever.Song Lian felt a dull pain in her heart as if she had been cut by some blunt instrument.Somehow the news got out, and the servants were all talking about Song Lian letting Yan'er swallow straw paper, saying that the fourth wife couldn't see that she was more sinister than anyone else, and saying that Yan'er's life might not be saved.Chen Zuoqian asked Yan'er to be carried into the hospital.He told the housekeeper, treat her as much as possible, and I will pay all the expenses. Don't let people scold us for not caring about the life and death of the servants.When carrying Yan'er, Song Lian hid in the room. She saw Yan'er dying on the stretcher through the cracks in the curtains. Her scalp was exposed due to a lot of hair loss, and she looked very scary.She felt Yan'er's withered eyes through the curtains, piercing her heart heavily.Later Chen Zuoqian came to Songlian's room and saw Songlian standing in front of the window in a daze.Chen Zuoqian said, you are too shady, let others gossip: you have ruined the reputation of the Chen family.Song Lian said that she hurt me first, she cursed me to death every day.Chen Zuoqian was annoyed, you are the master and she is the slave, so you are as knowledgeable as her?Song Lian was at a loss for words for a while, and after a while she became powerless. He said, I didn't want to make her sick, she hurt herself, can I blame it all?Chen Zuoqian waved his hand and said impatiently, don't talk about it, none of you are easy to mess with, I feel a headache when I see you now.You guys better stop messing with me.After finishing speaking, Chen Zuoqian stepped out of the room, he heard Song Lian quietly behind him and said, God, how am I going to live this day?Zhen Zuoqian turned around and said back to her, live as you like, live as you like, just stop letting the servants eat toilet paper.An old maid named Song Ma came to serve Song Lian.According to Mama Song herself, she has been working in the Chen Mansion from the age of fifteen to now, almost half of her life. Feipu was raised by her, and the young lady who was studying in university outside was also raised by her. Song Lian Seeing her relying on the old to sell the old, and deliberately making a joke, then Master Chen is also your favorite Luo.Mama Song couldn't hear the taste in her words, so she laughed and said, that's not true, but I saw with my own eyes that he married the fourth wife. He was only nineteen years old when he married Mrs. Yuru, and he wore a big The gold piece, the eldest wife also wears one that weighs half a catty.When I married Mrs. Zhuoyun, I changed a small gold piece. When I married Mrs. Meishan, I just wore a few rings on each hand. When I married you, I didn’t see anything. This Chen family is obviously not as good as a day. God.Song Lian said, since the Chen family is getting worse day by day, why are you still here as a son?Song Ma sighed and said that she was used to serving here, but she was not used to living a leisurely life in her hometown.Song Lian covered her mouth and smiled, she said, if Mama Song was telling the truth, then there would really be servants in this world who ordered her to do so, Mama Song said, so is it false?You have to believe it if you don’t believe it. I serve you every day. Even if the sky falls one day, as long as we live, I will serve you, not you. .

Song Ma is a stupid and nagging maid.Song Lian did not hate her, but on many extremely boring nights, she sat alone under the lamp, and after a long time, she wanted to find someone to talk to.Song Lian called Song Ma into the room to talk with her. The conversation between the servant and the master was trivial and meaningless. Going to the corner, she actually didn't listen to Mama Song's words, she just felt the old maid's yellow and white lips wriggling like insect eggs. She thought it was ridiculous to pass the night like this, but she asked herself, what else could I do?Once I talked about the woman who died in the abandoned well.

Song's mother said that the last one died forty years ago, and she was the old man's concubine, and she said that she had served that concubine for half a year.Song Lian said, how did she die?Mama Song looked at her eyes mysteriously, isn't it a matter of men and women?The family ugliness must not be publicized, otherwise the master will blame him.Song Lian said, so I am an outsider?Well, stop talking and go to sleep.Song Ma looked at Song Lian's face, then smiled and said, ma'am, do you really want to hear about these dirty things?Song Lian said, I will listen to you.What's the big deal?Song Ma said in a low voice, a tofu seller!She had an affair with a tofu seller.Song Lian said lightly, how could he follow the tofu seller?Song's mother said that the man was famous for making tofu, and the cook asked him to bring the tofu, and the two bumped into each other.They are all young and vigorous, and they hook up with those who flirt.Songlian said, who will hook up with whom first?Song Ma laughed and said, that only the ghosts would know, I can't tell what happened first and last, it's all men biting women, and women biting men.Songlian asked again, how did you know they had an affair?Song Ma said, spy!Mrs. Chen raised a spy. The concubine said she had a headache and went to see a doctor. The old man wanted to call the doctor to come, but she refused.The old man became suspicious and sent spies to follow up.I also blame her for lying incompletely.When I arrived at the tofu seller's house, I didn't come out until dark.The spies didn't dare to startle them at first, but then they were so hungry that they went up and kicked the door open, saying, I'm still hungry if you're not hungry.Song Ma started giggling when she said this, Song Lian looked at Song Ma laughing up and down, she didn't laugh, she sat upright and said, disgusting.Song Lian lit a cigarette, took a few puffs, and suddenly said, so she jumped into the well after stealing a man?Song's mother had a secretive expression on her face again, she said softly, who knows?He died in the well anyway.

This gave Song Lian a nameless fear at night, she dared not turn off the light and go to sleep.After turning off the lights, the surrounding area was terribly dark. She seemed to see the abandoned well jumping from under the wisteria trellis to her window, and saw those pale hands glistening with water opening to her on the window, dripping wetly. shaking. No one knew about Songlian's fear of the legend of the abandoned well, but Yuru knew about her sleeping party with the lights on at night.Yuru said several times, do you not turn off the lights at night?No matter how thick the family background is, it will be ruined.Song Lian turned a deaf ear to this, she found that she was tired of the verbal fights between women, she didn't want to argue, she didn't want to gain the upper hand, she didn't want to show any interest in trivial matters, her thoughts were irrelevant, aimless, even she herself Can't figure it out.She thought that she had nothing to say, so she didn't say anything. Later, the Chen family found that Song Lian had become taciturn. They speculated that it was because she fell out of favor with Master Chen.

Seeing that the Chinese New Year is coming, the whole Chen family is busy "killing pigs, slaughtering cattle and carrying new year's goods. It is noisy and chaotic outside the window every day. Song Lian sits alone in the room, and suddenly remembers her birthday. There is only five days' difference between her birthday and Chen Zuoqian's. ,December 12th, her birthday has long passed, she just remembered, she couldn't help feeling sad, she paid for Song Ma to go to the street to buy some stewed vegetables, and also bought a bottle of Sichuan Shaojiu. Song Ma said, what's wrong with Madam today Song Lian said, leave me alone, I want to taste the taste of drunkenness. Then she found a small wine cup and put it on the table. She sat down and stared at the wine cup, as if she saw the little wine cup from twenty years ago. The appearance of the baby girl, being held in the arms of a strange mother. I can’t think clearly about the next twenty years, only my father’s hand soaked in blood still wants to lift up and touch her hair. Songlian closes eyes, and then her mind was blank again, the only thing she knew clearly was the concept of birthday. Birthday, she grabbed the wine glass and looked at the bottom of the glass, there was a little brown stain on the bottom of the glass, she said to herself, December 12 How could such a memorable day be forgotten? Except for herself, no one in the world knows that December 12 is Song Lian's birthday. Except for herself, no one will come to organize her birthday party.

Song's mother came back after going away for a long time, and put a large bag of stewed lungs and sausages on the table. Song Lian said, how do you buy these things, who eats the dirty ones?Song Ma looked at Song Lian strangely, and suddenly said that Yan'er died, died in the hospital.Song Lian's heart trembled immediately, she calmed herself down and asked, when did you die?Song's mother said, I don't know, I just heard that Yan'er called your name when he was dying.Song Lian's face turned pale, why are you calling my name?Did I kill her?Song's mother said, don't be angry, I told you only after hearing someone say it.Life and death are destiny, no wonder my wife.Songlian asked again, where is the corpse now?Song's mother said that she asked her family to carry it back to the countryside, and the family was crying, so pitiful.Song Lian opened the wine bottle, smelled the smell of wine, and said something lightly, there was nothing to cry about, living and suffering, and dying clean.Better dead than alive.

Song Lian was sipping soju by herself, when she vaguely heard a familiar sound of footsteps, the door curtain was lifted with a bang, and a swarthy man barged in.Song Lian turned her face and looked at him for a long time before she recognized that it was the young master Fei Pu.She hastily covered all the food and drink on the table with a tablecloth, so that Feipu could not see it, but Feipu still saw it, and he shouted, "Well, you are actually drinking."Song Lian said, why did you come back?Feipu said that if you are not dead, you will always come home.Feipu hasn't seen him for a long time, he has changed a lot, his face has turned dark, and he has grown a bit thicker, but his expression looks very tired.Song Lian noticed that there were green rounds under his eye circles and a few strands of blood on the cornea, which was exactly the same as his father Chen Zuoqian.

Why do you drink alcohol, do you use alcohol to drown your sorrows? Can wine get rid of sorrow?I am celebrating my own birthday. your birthday?How old are you? No matter how old it is, it counts as a day, would you like a drink?Wish me a happy birthday. Let me have a drink and wish you live to ninety-nine. Nonsense.I don't want to live so long, so tell your master that compliment. How long do you want to live? It depends on the situation, when you don't want to live, you don't live, it's simple. Then I'll have another drink, and I'll let you live longer, and if you're going to die, I won't be able to find someone to talk to at home.

The two of them sipped their wine slowly and talked about the tobacco deal again.Feipu laughed at himself and said, "I'm not good at doing business. Not only did I not make any money, but I also lost thousands of dollars. I had a good time playing this round."Song Lian said, your life is already happy enough, how can you be unhappy?Feipu said again, don't tell the master, otherwise he will teach others again.Song Lian said, I'm too lazy to meddle in your family's affairs, besides, he sees me now like a rag, he doesn't even look at me.How could I tell him your fault?Song Lian was no longer calm when talking after drinking, and the obvious emotional tendency in her words was aimed at Fei Pu.Of course Philips was aware of it.Many soft flowers bloomed in Feipu's heart, his face was red and hot now, he untied a small purse with dragon and phoenix patterns painted on it from the belt buckle, and handed it to Songlian.I brought this back from Yunnan, let me make it a birthday present for you, Song Lian glanced at the little purse, and said with a treacherous smile, only women give purses to their lovers, how can it be the other way around?Feeling a little embarrassed, Feipu suddenly snatched the purse from her hand and said, "If you don't want it, just return it to me. It was originally given to me by someone else."Song Lian said, ok, hypocritical, use other people's tokens to fool me, if I take it, won't my hands be dirty?Feipu hung the purse on the belt again, and said embarrassingly, he didn't plan to give it to you, and lied to you.Song Lian's face sank a bit, I was used to being lied to, everyone lied to me, you also came to lie to me.Feipu lowered his head, occasionally peeking at Songlian's expression, and fell silent.Song Lian suddenly asked again, who sent the purse, Fei Pu's knees shook up and down a few times, and he said, then don't ask.