Chapter 19 Chapter Nineteen

On the afternoon when An Xin sent her parents away, moved out of the guest house, and returned to the anti-drug brigade, she received a call from Mao Jie who didn't know where.She guessed that on the afternoon when Tie Jun came to South Germany with his children, Mao Jie must have made the phone call that the anti-narcotics brigade received looking for her. As soon as he heard the word Mao Jie, Captain Qian was stunned, thinking that he had heard wrongly, the comrade who helped her answer the phone was also stunned, and several people in the outer room also stopped talking, and squeezed into the small warehouse. Look at her at the door.

An Xin didn't speak anymore, she pushed away those people who were crowded at the door, walked to the outer room with sick legs, took the key out from her body with trembling hands, took the key out and inserted it for a long time before inserting it into the keyhole of the desk drawer Erli...the drawer was finally pulled open, but it was pulled too hard and fell to the ground with a clatter.An Xin still had a bandage on one hand, and with the other hand, she took out her own gun from the drawer that was turned over on the ground. Lao Qian quickly came out of the back room, grabbed An Xin's hand, and snatched the gun away. He frowned and asked, "What's the matter, are you here?" call taxi.

With red eyes, An Xin went forward to snatch the gun that Lao Qian took away, but couldn't snatch him.Lao Qian pushed her away heavily, and asked a little annoyed: "Who did you just mention? It was Mao Jie who called, huh?" An Xin was pushed by Lao Qian, and her body staggered and fell to one side. If the table wasn't in the way, she almost fell to the ground.Holding on to the table, she panted heavily, turned to look at the old money, gritted her teeth and said, "He asked me to meet, and he asked if I dared!" Lao Qian was about to say something when he suddenly raised his eyes, looked past An Xin, and turned to the door of the team office.An Xin also raised her head, and they all saw Captain Pan appearing there like a hill, blocking out the light in the room.

Captain Pan asked in an expressionless voice, "Do you dare?" An Xin's eyes didn't blink, she stared at the captain's face against the light without blinking.She said, "Dare!" Lao Pan remained calm, and asked again: "Where is he asking you?" An Xin said, "It's at the entrance of Ruixin Department Store." The old money came in, and I don't know whether to remind An Xin or Lao Pan, saying: "This kid failed to get started in your dormitory a few days ago, and now he wants to transfer you to Ruixin Department Store. It's a good place to shoot black guns, if you shoot, we can't even catch up with you. If you go, you will be a target for him!"

An Xin said: "If he dares to go, I will go. He has a gun and I have a gun!" Captain Qian opened his mouth and wanted to say something, but Lao Pan interrupted them: "When does he ask you to go?" An Xin said: "Now!" Captain Pan walked into the middle of the room, stopped, paused, and said, "Okay, I'll go with you!" Captain Qian stood behind Lao Pan, and asked in a daze, "Just the two of you? Who else do you need to take?" Captain Pan turned around, his answer was light but firm, without any hesitation: "Everyone!" Lao Qian seemed to comprehend it for a while before he understood, and then the anti-narcotics policemen who were still in a daze after looking around suddenly yelled: "Everyone!"

The people in the room just woke up like a dream and rushed to the door together. Zhe Pan walked to the telephone and called the head of the bureau very briefly. , Lao Qian set off in the car with someone.Cars drove out of the gate of the anti-drug brigade quickly one after another. Old Pan Gui dropped the phone, stood up, glanced at An Xin, and said calmly, "Let's go." The anti-drug brigade is not too close to Ruixin Department Store.An Xin sat in Lao Pan's car, and the car drove at a steady pace.They walked in silence all the way, passed through one street after another, and gradually approached the main entrance of Ruixin Shopping Center.Lao Pan didn't let An Xin get off the car at the main entrance, and he didn't even drive the car to the parking lot in front of the shopping mall. Instead, he parked in a nearby side street. From the corner of the street, the shopping mall gate could be seen The bustling situation before.

At this time, An Xin found that, including the road where they parked, the surroundings of Ruixin Department Store and all the nearby intersections as far as she could see, seemed to emerge from the ground, suddenly covered with policemen from the armed police. Soldier.The soldiers wore yellow and green spotted camouflage uniforms, submachine guns in their hands, and steel helmets with eyebrows pressed down. All of them had serious faces. Amid the short and quick passwords of the officers, they quickly blocked the nearby streets and alleys.An Xin also saw that the police from the anti-narcotics brigade were also scattered at the intersections. With the assistance of the armed police, they began to carefully check the passers-by, especially the young men who came from the direction of Ruixin shopping mall. They all looked carefully before letting them go.

Captain Pan was in the car, using his handheld phone to contact the leaders of several teams and ask them what they found.Many ordinary people on the street stood at a distance to watch the excitement, not knowing what happened to make them feel like an enemy.An Xin wanted to get out of the car, but Lao Pan refused.He asked: Where are you going?An Xin couldn't answer.Lao Pan said: I don’t need you, just sit in the car!Just sit down for peace of mind.She saw a group of armed police impounding a bus at a distant intersection. They probably had an argument with someone on board. They seemed to have made a move, but it subsided quickly. It was a false alarm and nothing happened. trouble.The teams reported one after another from different directions, but they did not find the target.Whether the target had slipped away, never came at all, or was hiding in a nearby house is unknown.

At this moment, a small sleeping car drove over without a sound. An Xin knew that it was the car of the leader of the bureau. Lao Pan immediately got out of the car and went over, got into the small sleeping car to ask for instructions and report, and came out in three minutes. Use the handheld phone to ask Lao Qian to notify the teams to withdraw.An Xin saw that the Armed Police Force had apparently received a similar notice, and got into trucks and jeeps one after another, walking faster than the people from the anti-narcotics brigade.The tense situation on the street lasted only half an hour, and immediately everything returned to normal as usual.

Captain Pan also got into the car and turned the steering wheel to drive the car back to the team.Same as when we came, he and An Xin didn't say anything along the way. Lao Pan didn't eat in the team at night, it is said that he was called away by the bureau.Early the next morning, he came a little late and brought a cadre from the political department of the bureau with him.This cadre was in his forties, and An Xin couldn't recognize his name because of his familiar face. Captain Pan called him Director Fang.Director Fang, and Lao Pan and Lao Qian entered the meeting room together.Five minutes later, people called An Xin over.

As soon as An Xin entered the conference room, she felt a little strange. The three leaders sat side by side on the left side of the conference table, and she sat on the right side after entering.This way of sitting feels very normal, like a degree defense meeting in a university, and the faces of the leaders are all serious, even though Director Fang smiled kindly after she entered the room , but that is also a smile with a serious theme, not easy at all. An Xin sat down opposite them, knowing in her heart that they must be looking for her to discuss something important with her.Director Fang spoke first, seeing that her left hand was still bandaged, he first asked her about her injury with concern.Of course, he also cared about her mood immediately afterward, and expressed his condolences for the unfortunate death of her lover, speaking in an orthodox and cordial manner.After a brief sympathy, the topic turned to the right track. "Today, on behalf of the leadership of the bureau, the political department of the bureau, that is, the representative organization, I'm here to talk to you. First of all, we are still satisfied with your performance in the Nande City Bureau's anti-narcotics brigade for more than a year after graduating from college. Yes. You, a young lesbian, chose to exercise in our border city, which shows that you have indeed established a lofty ideal of dedicating yourself to the public security and serving the people. After more than a year of practice, you have improved your thinking, business, will, and quality. , have improved, have improved. Today we talk to you because of this case. You have played a very important role in this case. You have made important contributions to destroying this drug trafficking stronghold and destroying this gang. Otherwise, criminals I will not retaliate against you in such a frenzied manner. Therefore, the party committee of the bureau studied it yesterday and decided to give you a personal second-class merit. The decision to record the merit, certificates, and badges will be issued immediately, and will be officially announced when it is issued. Now we congratulate you in advance, ah, congratulations!" When Director Fang mentioned credit, Lao Pan and Lao Qian also nodded, with smiles on their faces, and responded with congratulations.Director Fang continued to speak the following words, and An Xin knew without asking, that the way they looked for her today, the manner, the appearance, and the atmosphere were not just to inform and congratulate her on the good news. Sure enough, Director Fang changed the subject, and continued: "There is one more thing, we have to discuss with you today. Considering this case, there are not many clues at present. At present, we can only preliminarily determine that Mao Jie and Mao Fang brothers did it. It has the obvious nature of vendetta and revenge. Now it is estimated that they have fled from the local area and hid somewhere. You have worked on the anti-drug work for more than a year and you know it well. It is too cruel. It is now clear that the Mao Family Compound is an overseas drug trafficking An important stronghold of the organization in the country, this family and their accomplices are the backbone members of the international drug cartel, they all have hiding places and escape routes, these two guys will never let you go, sooner or later I will look for you. This kind of thing has happened in our place and other areas before. Many of our anti-narcotics police and drug criminals have a sworn feud! The bureau party committee also listened to the leaders of your anti-narcotics brigade based on this situation. Yesterday, I asked the Political Department of the Provincial Public Security Bureau for instructions. According to the results of the consultation, I decided to implement protective measures for you from today. I will be transferred from the public security organs, from the local area, and find a place farther away to replace you. A file of names and arrangements for other work, so that undue sacrifices can be avoided." An Xin was stunned, she knew that they must be looking for her for something, but she didn't expect it to be this.She had been thinking for the past two days that if Tie Jun was gone, she would definitely not be able to go back to Guangping's mother-in-law's house.Apart from Qingmian's parents, she only had the anti-drug brigade as her home.She was stunned, turned her face to look at Captain Pan and Captain Qian, Captain Pan lowered his head and smoked, Captain Qian couldn't dodge, and was caught by her gaze, so he coughed and explained: "It's not that we are afraid of them, it's not that we are afraid of them." I'm a little scared. This is a kind of love and care for our comrades who are engaged in anti-drug work. This kind of protective measure has been used on other comrades before, and it is not a precedent just set today..." Lao Qian talked for a long time, basically repeating what Director Fang had expressed just now.An Xin's eyes were wet, she faintly felt that all of this could not be changed, this was a decision, a formal organizational decision, a decision that had been consulted with her superiors, she could only obey. With tears in her eyes, she thought that she should say a few words of thanks at this time, to thank the organization for caring and protecting her, but when she opened her mouth, she somehow asked: "From now on... I will never be able to Did you do the police..." Lao Pan and Lao Qian bowed their heads in silence. Director Fang pondered for a moment, and he could only explain the truth: "Doing other jobs is also serving the people. You can also make achievements and make contributions. The only difference from doing public security is that , you will be safer. You are a college student and have knowledge. I believe you can display your intelligence and talents in any job. Unlike some comrades, you have no other experience except for a little experience in public security work. It is very difficult for these comrades to change jobs. In the past, some comrades we transferred out could not be farmers, not to mention other jobs. The jobs we arranged for them could not be continued after a few days. In the end, my own life became a problem. Your situation is completely different from those comrades." An Xin understands the big truths, and Director Fang also speaks the truth about the small truths, but what An Xin couldn't turn around for a while was not the truth, but the emotion.Her tears finally fell down, and she choked up: "I can't do anything else, I don't want to remain anonymous, I don't want to leave the police team..." Captain Pan opened his mouth at this moment, and he said, "Don't worry, the organization asked you to change your name and place after careful consideration. You are a lesbian and a college student, so your safety must be considered in the organization. You have a child. Your child has been taken by your parents for a long time. It is not good for you or the child if you are not with the child for a long time. But if you stay in the anti-drug brigade, it is impossible to take the child. Now the criminals are targeting you. There is too much pressure on the organization for your safety and the safety of your children, so taking this measure is a last resort, I hope you can understand and cooperate." An Xin didn't speak anymore, and she didn't even let her tears fall.There was silence in the room for a while, and Director Fang closed the topic in a kind tone: "How about it, you should think about it carefully, ah." An Xin didn't look up, without seeing them, her voice was still crying with grievances, she asked: "I can only cooperate, can I only obey?" No one answered her, and they were all silent. An Xin raised her head, her eyes were still red, she sniffled her nose, muttered in a nasal voice like a cold, and kept saying: "Well, I will obey the organization's decision, and the organization will let me go wherever I go." Row." They all looked at her, but no one expressed pleasure.The conversation ended just like that. It was originally a good thing for An Xin and the good intentions of the organization, but her mood and tears made the three leaders who were talking to her look heavy when they walked out of the meeting room. . Although An Xin will not be assigned any work in the team in those few days, she has never been idle. In addition to the criminal police who were in charge of investigating the murder of Tie Jun who came to her twice, the Political Department of the Municipal Bureau A section chief also approached her, mainly to talk about her next work arrangement.Through contacts with relevant parties, the political office initially asked her to go to Beiqiu City.It was a county-level city in the east of Yunnan, 600 kilometers away from Nande in the west of Yunnan, not too close to Guangping, but farther away from Qingmian.The relevant departments in the bureau helped her create a fake file and a fake ID card, and changed her name, which was rather vulgar, He Yanhong.It doesn't matter to her, anyway, her real name and real file are still in the Political Department of Nande City Bureau.She kept her ID card herself, and the political office did not say that she would take it back. The purpose of making fake files and ID cards is nothing but to help her settle in Beiqiu City and arrange a workplace.In the past few days, people from the Political Department of the Nande City Bureau have been helping her with this matter. The Beiqiu City Public Security Bureau received the notice from the Provincial Public Security Department and the District Public Security Bureau. They were very supportive of this matter and quickly confirmed the location of her household registration , and helped her find a job in a building materials company in Beiqiu City.It is said that this company is very profitable, the salary is not low, and the benefits are good. Moreover, the Public Security Bureau has an acquaintance in charge of the business, so it is still useful to say something.Of course, only one or two leaders of the Beiqiu City Bureau who are in charge of arranging this matter know the true origin of this He Yanhong. An Xin is not satisfied with this place or this job.It may be because Beiqiu and any building materials company are too unfamiliar.For her, she is nothing without the Tiejun, Nande, the police force, and the police uniform. No matter where she goes or what she does, she is a kind of homeless wanderer. So she didn't say anything. The comrades in the Political Department of the Bureau worked very hard. Sometimes they called several times a day to talk to her about the situation. She could see this, and it was not easy for them.Moreover, Lao Pan and the others also persuaded her to go first, saying that Beiqiu is a rich county, and the township enterprises are quite famous. I heard that the salary is more than what you get in the anti-drug brigade now, which is also a good deal.You have to raise children now, and you have to get married in the future. You really have to consider whether it is affordable or not when looking for a job.Think about it with peace of mind, she really has to consider how to benefit the child in what she does in the future.Speaking of getting married, it was impossible. She thought that she would never get married again in her whole life.Old Pan said: Heck, of course you think so now, but you are still young, not yet twenty-two years old, so it's hard to say what your future life will be like, what your mood will be like. In addition to arranging household registration and work, there is also the funeral of Tiejun.Two comrades from the Propaganda Department of the Guangping Municipal Party Committee who came to Nande to deal with Tie Jun's funeral also approached An Xin, asked her for her opinion on how to handle the funeral, and asked her to have a look at the drafted introduction of Tie Jun's life.She still said the same thing: how to deal with the funeral, firstly, according to the organization and arrangement, and secondly, according to Tie Jun's mother's wishes.She said that she would miss Tie Jun in her heart. As for how the unit mourns his death and what rhetoric is used to evaluate his life, please just follow the rules in the organization.An Xin thought to herself: The true excellence of Tie Jun cannot be clearly written in that piece of life.Those excellences, his charm and brilliance as a man, only she, as a wife, can feel deeply, and it may not be certain—one can say it, it is a kind of knowledge and love after living together.For a woman, the unspeakable things can often keep her alive. Tie Jun's body has been transported back to Guangping.An Xin also officially ended her career as a people's policeman and quietly went through the formalities of retirement.She handed over her police uniform, badge, and siren, as well as a weapon that had never been used in actual combat since it was issued to her; then, she received a second-class merit certificate, badge, and a bonus of 800 yuan.She even received her last month's salary in the public security organ, a special resettlement allowance of 3,000 yuan and transportation expenses from Nande to Beiqiu; Laopan Laoqian and several other leaders in the team He also invited her out for a farewell meal; her luggage had already been checked in a wooden box to Beiqiu City.If it wasn't for waiting for a call from Guangping to inform her of the date of the farewell ceremony for Tie Jun's body, she would have actually been able to buy a train ticket, bring a suitcase with her, and leave Nande to the building materials company in Beiqiu to go to She started a new life. During the last period in Nande, when An Xin calmed down, besides thinking of Tie Jun and crying quietly for a while, she began to imagine her future.The more she thought about it, the more she missed her past life.As a philosopher said: Memories are always good.Bad things are often not remembered.Therefore, she always subconsciously omits and avoids all unpleasant things in her memory, and even intentionally excludes pain and shame.For example, she didn't want to think about Tie Jun's quarrel with her and hatred for her before he died.Although she admits that she is sorry for Tie Jun, she is sorry for the love he gave her and his precious life.But now, all Zimei and compensation are meaningless, and all that is left is memories.She would rather make the memory a little simpler, even if it is not so comprehensive and real.What she recalled over and over again were only those beautiful scenes, whether it was the acquaintance and first love between her and Tie Jun in the hospital, or the newly married days when Tie Jun was with her when he came to South Germany to be a reporter, or when her child was born in Guangzhou. Ping and Tie Jun's mother live together in a three-generation family—one is vivid in front of An Xin's eyes, and she can't get rid of it.As soon as she calms down, she thinks, as soon as she calms down... the happier the past, the more tortured today is, and the more hopeless and boring she feels about the future. During the day, it was inconvenient for her to stay in the team office all the time. The office was the same as usual, with people constantly coming in and out, and everyone was busy.In theory and establishment, she is no longer a member of this unit.She stayed in the office, even if she stayed in the back room where she slept, it still felt inconvenient to be separated by a wall.She seemed at a loss when she had nothing to do, and it was uncomfortable for others to see, so she went out and went to Nanmeng Mountain for a walk by herself. After going there once, Lao Qian scolded him: I don’t know if those two lunatics from the Mao family left or not. Why did you go out alone without a gun? Who will be responsible if something goes wrong?If you want to ask, I can ask a few people to go out with you. If you are really bored, go for a walk in the countryside, but you must keep up with the two gay men.We can't explain it to the Bureau if something goes wrong before you leave! Lao Qian forbade her to go out alone, and it was impossible for her to ask the leader to send someone to accompany her when the team was so busy.Moreover, she went out just to find a place to be alone.When you are alone, remember the past when you want to recall the past, imagine the future when you want to imagine the future, cry for a while when you want to cry, and relax after crying for a while.But if the leader sent someone to accompany her, she would not be able to recall, imagine, grieve, or relax.She just doesn't go out anymore. Captain Pan personally took up a case at that time, and went to a small town called Shalun on the border a few days ago.Lao Pan's absence also deepened An Xin's loneliness and depression. She was worried that when she left Nande two days later, if old Pan didn't come back, he wouldn't even be able to say goodbye to each other.Fortunately, at noon that day, Lao Pan suddenly came back in a hurry. As soon as he came back, he went to the conference room to find An Xin for a talk.The old broadcaster conveyed the news to her: The date for the farewell ceremony for Tie Jun's remains has been set.It is scheduled to be held at nine o'clock tomorrow morning in Farewell Room No. 1 of Guangping People's Hospital. An Xin was stunned when she heard it: tomorrow morning?She asked Lao Pan suspiciously: "Captain, how do you know, haven't you been staying in Shalun Town these days?" After a pause, she said: "There will be a farewell ceremony tomorrow morning, why did they not inform me now?" ?” Lao Pan didn't show the same level of dissatisfaction as she expected, he was silent for a moment, and said: "The call was made yesterday, and the Propaganda Department of the Guangping Municipal Party Committee directly called the Political Department of our Municipal Bureau. The Director of the Political Prescription today Call me in the morning and let me talk to you. I came back specially for this matter, and I have to go back later. We have a joint operation with the Armed Police Force in Sharon Town tonight, so I must Hurry back." An Xin listened with a half understanding.From the captain's expression, she guessed that something out of the ordinary had happened.She had a sudden burst of anger out of nowhere.She felt that on the issue of what to do with Tie Jun's funeral, she had always been tolerant. In order to take care of the overall situation and take care of Tie Jun's mother's mood, she had endured it. She had never caused any trouble for the organization!But they didn't have the least respect for her, she was Tie Jun's lover after all!He is the person who has the most right to express his opinion!She couldn't help but asked Captain Pan forcefully: "They didn't notify me so late, and they didn't tell me directly, but told the bureau, what exactly are they trying to do?" Captain Pan lowered his head, thought hard about his words, then looked up at her, and after looking at her for a long time, he said, "Their opinion is that we hope we can persuade you not to attend the funeral ceremony." An Xin's face turned pale, her heart seemed to be pulled up by someone, and when it reached her throat, it stopped moving.She used all her strength, and managed to squeeze out her anger and surprise from her almost blocked throat! "what?" "Because, Tie Jun's mother proposed that she did not agree with you standing in the position of Tie Jun's family members, and she could not accept that you stood with her at the farewell ceremony. Therefore, the Propaganda Department of the Guangping Municipal Party Committee hopes that our bureau will be your Work. So Director Fang asked me to come back no matter what, and talk to you. They may think that you have always respected my words, so they want me to talk." An Xin really wanted to cry, but she didn't have any tears. She was a little pissed off, and could only murmur her resistance: "...Why did she do this? She has no right to do this..." She also realized her resistance Fragile as a few useless soliloquies in a great noise. What can Captain Pan say?This is an ordered conversation, and he can only do persuasion with peace of mind: "You also know that Tie Jun's parents are both senior cadres in Guangping, and they are very familiar with the leaders of the municipal party committee and government. Li will definitely support her. Moreover, I think it is impossible for her to raise this opinion completely unreasonably, she will definitely give some reasons, and she can't just deprive you of your rights without any reason..." "What reason does she have? She doesn't have any reason!" An Xin's attitude was almost at war with Captain Pan. Captain Pan paused for a moment, as if he wanted to avoid An Xin's agitation, and still did not show any clear support or sympathy for An Xin. He used a neutral tone and said, "She has evidence that Tie Jun has been with you. Break up, and the responsibility lies with you. She has evidence to prove that your child, Tie Jun can not be held responsible. Rest assured, this is your private matter, even if I know, I don’t want to take care of it. The ideas and practices of a generation are different. You have your own way of thinking. You have to think about whether it is right or wrong. You also have a day when you grow up and grow old. At that time, you may also change to our current views. At least you will Realizing that in our China, in the hearts of most people, your actions will not be recognized. So even if you go to the big screen to make trouble, I don’t think the higher authorities will support you, and the majority of the people may not necessarily sympathize with you. This is the reality of our society! You cannot ignore this reality!" An Xin stood up, opened the door with red eyes, and wanted to go out.Captain Pan called out, "Anxin, where are you going?" An Xin stopped, and sobbed: "I want to go to Guangping, I want to go to Tie Jun's mother, I will admit my mistake in person. I knelt down and begged her to let me give Tie Jun a gift, can't I? I love Tie Jun!" Captain Pan came over, pulled her away from the door, and closed the door.He looked at An Xin who finally cried aloud, and was silent for a while, letting her cry.These days, An Xin always feels that her tears have been cried dry, and she will not cry anymore, but she still can't control it when something happens.Captain Pan stood behind her, heaved a long sigh, and said in a friendly and confidant tone, "If you really love Tie Jun, then let him go quietly. He definitely doesn't want to see you with him Mother fights, you are all his relatives. You just have to love him and remember him in your heart. If the opinions he gave you before he left were really misunderstandings or anger, then he will understand everything when he gets to the underworld. I can understand it. If there is such a thing as the immortality of the soul, Tie Jun's soul will definitely ascend to the sky. Ascended to the sky, the things in the world can be seen clearly." An Xin stopped her tears, she had heard every word, every word of Lao Pan. Those words were full of emotion and very real.Let her really believe in the existence of the soul at this moment.She thought, if it is inevitable for people to be confused and ignorant in this world, then the soul after death must be transparent and condescending.Condescending, as Captain Pan said, everything in the world, including the human heart, should be visible. Lao Pan didn't have time to eat at noon, so he drove back to the border town in a hurry.From his few words it was reassuring to know that there was going to be a fight near that town tonight.As soon as she took off her police uniform, she felt that she was clearly separated from this exciting life psychologically, and she unconsciously had the mood of a bystander.She watched Lao Pan's car pull the old cow's angry roar and increase the gas pedal, and left the yard of the anti-drug brigade. Standing in the corridor in front of the meeting room, she suddenly realized that she was a college student who just arrived here today. I am still unfamiliar with everything here.Everything she has experienced in the past year, every intricate case, every life-and-death action seems to have never been experienced before, and the life here seems to have never happened to her. Lao Pan's car drove away, and there was no one in the yard.An Xin retreated to the team office, probably everyone had gone to eat, and the office was also empty.She went inside and took out the box she wanted to take from under her bed.When it was opened, it was already packed with things she wanted to take away.She packed some odds and ends that were scattered outside and were still in use for the past two days into boxes, then walked outside, lay down on the table to the anti-narcotics brigade, the group where she had planned to fight for the rest of her life, and wrote down her last Message. Captain Pan and Captain Qian: I'm leaving.I went to Beiqiu City today to join that new job.Here I bid farewell to you, to the anti-drug brigade, and to everyone who has been with me day and night. I am an ignorant child who was taken in by you.You taught me how to work and how to live. I have been living well under your protection.I like you, I like Narcotics, I like Nande, I used to want to make this my forever home.I didn't expect that I would leave here so early and leave you to live alone.I am used to being taken care of like a little sister when I am with you. I really don't know how many difficulties I will encounter when I am alone outside. As she wrote this, she wanted to cry, but held back.The tip of the pen was trembling, and it was difficult to finish the last sentence neatly: I will miss you, because you are all heroes in my heart! I wish you all the best! An Xin finished writing, and her heart suddenly became empty.She wanted to write a few more specific words of blessing and words of care, but after thinking about it for a long time, she decided not to write.She knows that no matter what she writes, she will be full of meaning. She walked out of the office with the suitcase, and out of the yard of the anti-drug brigade through the back door.The noon sun was scorching hot, but there was still no one in the yard, and no one saw her.She stopped a rental motorcycle truck on the side street outside the back door. People and boxes went up, and the motorcycle truck started to move with a bang bang bang bang.She looked at the back door that she used to go in and out of in the morning and evening, gradually getting farther and smaller in her field of vision, the car turned a corner, and she couldn't see anything, so she turned her head. Just like that, she left quietly. The car pulled her to Nande Railway Station. From the display screen in the ticket office, it can be seen that there are many short-term trains in the province, and tickets can be bought at any time.She handed in the money at the ticket window, and the conductor asked lazily: "Which train do you want, and where are you going?" She replied without hesitation: "It takes three or six times, go to Guangping!"