Chapter 5 chapter Five

We stayed up all night that night, the tea in the cups had already cooled down, but the light in the small living room was still warm.We were all sitting on the carpet, leaning against the sofa, we could almost hear each other's heartbeat from the distance, but An Xin's voice seemed very, very ethereal and distant. Maybe I didn't really fall in love with An Xin, maybe I already loved her too deeply, when she told about another man she fell in love with, I was not disappointed or disgusted, I calmly accepted and looked at this in my heart strange man. His name is Zhang Tiejun, and he is older than me. He was already twenty-seven when he fell in love with An Xin two and a half years ago.He graduated from the famous Yunnan University, where he majored in journalism. After graduation, he was assigned to the Propaganda Department of the Municipal Party Committee in Guangping City, Yunnan Province, and worked as an officer in the News Department.His hometown is in Guangping.His father is the principal of Guangping Teachers College, and his mother is the secretary-general of the Women's Federation of Guangping City.Although the Women's Federation is a social organization in nature, it should be regarded as an official organization in China, and the secretary-general of the Women's Federation can be regarded as a political figure of moderate size.The Guangping Teachers College where his father worked was co-organized by the province and Guangping. It is one of the only three colleges and universities recognized by the state in Guangping.Therefore, it can be said that the Zhang family in Guangping can be regarded as a prominent family.

Zhang Tiejun himself is not an ordinary person.He is very familiar with people from radio, television, and newspapers.These days, news units can also be classified as "organs of power". They have "supervisory power" and "discourse power", and can carry out news interventions against certain units and individuals anytime, anywhere.The News Office of the Propaganda Department of the Municipal Party Committee is in charge of them, so can they have no power?In Guangping, Zhang Tiejun can do everything easily. Such a young man with a background, power, education...According to An Xin, he is also capable, fell in love with An Xin, a girl from Qingmian, a remote mountainous area.

An Xin participated in the Taekwondo team of the sports school in Baoshan District when she was in middle school. She once represented Baoshan in the provincial Taekwondo Championships and won a gold medal in the Poomsae Competition for the district.And because of this specialty, she went to college a year early, and after she passed the national unified college entrance examination when she was seventeen, she was accepted by the Physical Education Department of Guangping Teachers College first.She met Zhang Tiejun because Tiejun's father was seriously ill and was hospitalized. It was Anxin's last winter vacation in Guangyuan Teachers College. The student union in the school organized shifts to accompany the students who did not leave school. She met the principal's head before the hospital bed. son.Among all the students who accompanied her, what satisfied Tie Jun's mother the most was her peace of mind.I absolutely believe in this point, An Xin is indeed a girl who is very good at serving others.Perhaps Tie Jun's mother fell in love with this diligent, simple and beautiful girl at first sight. After Tie Jun's father was critically ill, she asked the student union to arrange a safe and regular escort.For twenty days, An Xin lived and ate in the hospital, and together with Tie Jun's mother and son, paid the old principal's death.Just after the funeral, happy events followed, Tie Jun and An Xin formally confirmed their relationship.Tie Jun was originally interested in An Xin, but he still entrusted his mother's big matchmaker, and the mother officially came forward to match.Although the school expressly stipulates that students are not allowed to fall in love, only the succeeding school leaders are all old subordinates of Tie Jun's father, and they are very supportive of this golden relationship in private.Just flashed a bunch of stupid boys who are lovesick for An Xin like I am now.No one expected that the most outstanding girl in the whole school would become famous so soon, and she was also a master that no one could afford to mess with.

What does this Zhang Tiejun look like?is he prettyThis is one of my biggest concerns.This is of course out of a very normal psychology.Because everyone can't control their low-level childishness at a certain moment, for example, they like to make various comparisons with their rivals, and they like to use their own strengths to attack the weaknesses of the victim and take pleasure in it.Fortunately, An Xin was very frank, and she spoke bluntly about Zhang Tiejun: "He is not beautiful, just an ordinary person." Although she said so, I still wanted to know more details: "When I asked how tall and broad he was, I deliberately looked around and looked around. She looked casual, as if she was asking casually out of nowhere, and she smiled with peace of mind." She's half a head shorter than you," she said, "and she's quite fat. "

Well, I feel a little better in my heart, and I summed up Zhang Tiejun as a short and fat man in my imagination.Later, I saw his photo at An Xin's place. It was a photo with An Xin.I don’t know if the photographer took too good a picture of him. It’s much better than my malicious imagination. He looks very decent, with the expression and temperament of a national cadre, coupled with an outdated suit, the overall feeling is relatively honest. But An Xin is too young to be with him, in my opinion they are not a good match at all. I asked An Xin: Do you really love him?This is the question I most hope she will tell the truth and fear her telling the truth the most.An Xin has not given a positive answer to this question for a long time.From a secular point of view, a family like Zhang Tiejun's is an ideal destination for a girl like An Xin who came from a remote mountainous area.In real life, it is enough to enter the mainstream society in a big city in one step.As for love, love can be cultivated slowly.That kind of love at first sight is short-lived, and short-lived things are inevitably nothingness, and it doesn't matter if you don't pursue it.

This night was very important to me, not only because An Xin told me about her love with others with extraordinary trust, but also, it was this night of heart-to-heart conversation that transformed my crush on this girl from Fantasy pushed into reality.The memory of sitting next to An Xin is very warm, and I can still vividly remember many details.When the sky was about to brighten and there was a thin layer of misty morning light on the window, I kissed An Xin lightly.I kissed her hand and she didn't flinch or respond. I asked: Do you really love him? She was silent. After this sleepless night, the relationship between me and An Xin seems to have some subtle turning point.Talking to each other about their past can quickly make each other feel connected.

I resumed my hiatus accounting classes for the peace of mind of driving back and forth each day. There is more and more talk between us, and the topics are more and more endless.I also told her about my endless romances since I was in middle school. Most of the girls who have been with me have long been blurred in my memory, but I always portray them as traditional or trendy peerless beauties. There is a rhyme of poor flowers closing the moon.The only thing I didn't mention was Zhong Ning, I haven't made up my mind to tell the whole story about my relationship with Zhong Ning. We talked more about that Zhang Tiejun.Of course I wanted to know more about who he was—was he talented?Are you in a good temper?Are you loyal to women?In my words: spend or not?And his mother, the principal who is also a leading cadre, is she an amiable and easy-going elder?

An Xin doesn't hide her evaluation of Tie Jun: he is capable, and he is highly regarded in the work unit; he is also quite popular in society; he is very honest and introverted, and he doesn't show his emotions.An Xin thinks that men should be like this, men should be mature and hidden.In her description, this Zhang Tiejun seems to be full of advantages and masculine strength.Does he have any shortcomings?I found that it was his flaws that really interested me. "Shortcomings, there are. If you don't have any shortcomings, you're still a human being." An Xin said, "He's a little narrow-minded. He's narrow-minded and not very generous. Of course, there are some things that I did wrong, so I can't blame him."

I asked: "Are you so intolerant of a man's narrow mind?" She replied: "Not necessarily, it depends on what is going on." I asked, "What is the thing you can't tolerate the most?" She thought for a while, and replied, "Lying, the thing I can't tolerate the most is men lying." I didn't ask any more questions, my face was already a little hot, and I even suspected that An Xin had already fully understood the relationship between me and Zhong Ning. I talked about it from left to right: "When he comes to Beijing, you let me meet him."

An Xin asked, "Who?" I said, "Your Zhang Tiejun. Has he come to Beijing to see you? Does he know how difficult it is for you in Beijing?" An Xin looked away from my face, was silent for a while, and said: "We separated, he doesn't want me anymore." I was taken aback, a little surprised: "Really, you don't want him, right?" An Xin shook her head, suddenly there were some sparkling tears in her eyes, and the topic stopped here."I don't want to talk about that, let's talk about something else," she said. Her expression made me understand everything, and I immediately guessed that the reason why she came to Beijing alone was because she had just experienced a failed relationship.

From then on, I no longer take the initiative to talk about anything about Zhang Tiejun.Everyone has their own scars, not to mention An Xin looks like such a weak girl.If you love this girl, you should protect every inch of her body, including those scars that are still bleeding or have healed. But the next day, An Xin seemed to have healed the scar and forgot the pain. She still chatted with me about Tie Jun, and talked about her various life styles and some interesting things when she was with Tie Jun in detail.In front of me, she doesn't even hide her nostalgia for Tie Jun, it can be seen from her words and eyebrows.She said Tie Jun has always been good to her.When she was in school, she would go to Tie Jun's house for dinner every weekend and Zhoukou. Tie Jun's mother also liked her very much, treating her like a daughter.After she graduated, in order to keep her in Guangping, Tie Jun's mother ran around and entrusted many relationships.Although An Xin failed to stay in Guangping as she wished, Tie Jun, mother and son did try their best.Maybe they didn't get the idea, maybe it's different if Tie Jun's father is in power or not, human feelings are cold and warm, and the world is cold and cold, this society is extremely realistic.An Xin was then assigned to the border city of Nande, where no one wanted to go. She was assigned to a middle school in South Germany as a physical education teacher. This happened in 1998. In that year, the Education Commission issued a notice requiring localities to ensure that the graduates assigned to the old, young, frontier and poor areas arrived on time, and those who refused to obey the assignment would be severely dealt with, even canceling their academic qualifications.In this general situation, although Tie Jun's mother and son continued to make various efforts to clear up, An Xin still had to pack his bags and report to the start-up middle school in South Germany. When I was a student at the University of Mining and Technology in Beijing, I knew there was a place called Nande.This place is familiar to many people not only in Yunnan and its surrounding provinces, but also in the north.Nande doesn't have any special products or special places of interest. She is famous—to the locals, it makes them blush—because of a plant, and that plant is the famous poppy.South Germany itself does not produce poppies, but she is the closest Chinese city to the Golden Triangle, the largest poppy-producing area in the world.The city is surrounded on three sides by the ever-green Nanxian Mountain. A clear and shallow Nanxian River flows silently through the edge of the city, and then crosses the Nanmeng Valley to find its source in the direction of the Nujiang River.This city surrounded by mountains and rivers has the same natural beauty as poppies, but there are well-known crimes hidden under the beautiful appearance.South Germany, with such an unavoidable geographical location, bears the brunt of becoming a well-known stronghold for drug trade and transshipment. I once asked An Xin with a smile: Did you take two sips before you got close to the water?An Xin also laughed, but she didn't let me laugh after she finished laughing: Don't laugh, even the students in our school have a lot of them, I won't lie to you! I thought, An Xin is really unlucky enough, how could she end up in such an unlucky place. Nande is more than 400 kilometers away from Guangping.Tie Jun travels between the two places by train every month to meet An Xin.Occasionally, An Xin can ask for leave and go back to Guangping. Of course, sometimes she has to go back to Qingmian to see her parents.An Xin's director of the teaching and research section, and also An Xin's immediate boss, surnamed Pan, is an old physical education teacher who is nearly half a century old and takes good care of her.Although there were fewer physical education teachers and more classes, An Xin was granted leave and returned to Guangping three times and Qingmian once in the first half year of her work in Nande. In my opinion, the relationship between An Xin and Tie Jun, because they are separated by two places and need to go back and forth on the railway, actually seems touching and touching.The accumulation of emotions is always inseparable from waiting and caring, as well as parting and reunion.This experience of theirs is doubly tempting and I want to know what is the reason that led to their final departure.Is it because of discord, lack of speculation, or the unbearable long-term separation between the two places?Or a "third party" appeared in a dramatic way, triggering an emotional crisis? The topic of "third party" is something I have always avoided.Although the relationship between me and Zhong Ning is not considered a life-long agreement, but for Zhong Ning, is my relationship with An Xin considered a third party's intervention?Judging from my appearance alone, maybe these two women thought I was a very pure boy, and they probably couldn't imagine that there was another woman by my side. The deeper the relationship with An Xin, the harder it is to hide the secret. At least the coaches and students of the Taekwondo Hall have seen some clues.There is also that Uncle Zhang who guards the door at night, he usually has some gossip, and it is very unfortunate that the first time An Xin and I had that kind of relationship, I was bumped into by this old guy. That day I sent An Xin back to the sports school after class, and it wasn't too late, so I went to her hut to sit and chat.Her room was a temporary brick building, so small that it could only accommodate a narrow bed, so we took off our shoes and got on the bed, leaning against the wall and chatting.Our topic is no longer a review of the past, but a prospect for the future.That night we all enthusiastically asked each other what they most desire in the future.Let me talk about me first, I said that Xian is most eager to get a person I love.An Xin said that I am the opposite of you, I most desire to get someone who loves me.We announced our desires to each other, and then we all fell silent.At this time, I hugged An Xin.I hugged her tightly, I whispered in her ear, I said I am the one who loves you.An Xin shed tears.This is the first time An Xin let me hug her like this.She hugged me too.She was sobbing in my arms, I don't know how deeply painful trauma she has suffered before, but her tears are still very emotional. That night we finally melted into one, a longing that I had been wanting for so long, a long-awaited hunger that drove me wilder than ever.My strength and panting were probably like a young animal fighting for the first time, I really wanted to crush the weak body in my arms.An Xin's performance is very restrained, almost too passive, and there seems to be no obvious climax.This made my first sex with her a bit unsatisfactory, and I still felt unsatisfied when it was over.I always like the strong reaction of the other party when doing this kind of thing. Only when both parties devote themselves wholeheartedly and produce that kind of harmonious resonance effect can I get the greatest satisfaction. Maybe, it was the long-stored passion that made my orgasm come too fast, and before An Xin could fully enter the rhythm, I let it out.But fortunately we ended quickly, and when I was still breathing, someone knocked on the door.The sound of knocking on the door was loud, bang bang bang like a bandit robbing a house. I was startled, and An Xin's face turned ashen. I could feel her heart beating violently when she was under me.She shook her voice and asked, "Who?" Outside the door was Uncle Zhang's hoarse voice: "Don't worry, call!" An Xin pushed me away, sat up in a panic, turned her back to me and quickly put on her clothes.This ending made me dull, and I quietly put on my clothes.An Xin ran out to answer the phone.I slowly put on my shoes, grabbed my backpack, and closed the door for her.Passing by the taekwondo hall with dark lights and no one there, and walking to the reception room at the gate of the sports school, I saw An Xin was still on the phone inside.Uncle Zhang stood behind her, through the window, stretched his neck, and looked at me scrutinizingly, even with some disgust, his eyes meant what are you doing here so late!I didn't look at him, and said to An Xin: "An Xin, I'm leaving." An Xin only paid attention to calling her, and only responded hastily with an expression.I walked out of the gate of Jingshi Sports School.I heard the sound of Uncle Zhang locking the door heavily behind me. The next day I went to the Taekwondo gym for training as usual, but I didn't see An Xin. At the end of the training, the coach suddenly came to me and said: Yang Rui, please stay here.My face turned red all of a sudden, my heart was extremely guilty, a layer of sweat immediately appeared on my head, my throat was tight, but fortunately I remained calm.I pretended to ask casually: Is there something wrong, coach?The coach couldn't see the slightest cloud or rain on his face, and said, "I have something to do. Manager Ma of the club wants to talk to you." I probably knew it in my heart, and at the same time, I hated that Uncle Zhang who was on the night shift to the root of my teeth. I didn't need to guess to know that his old stinking mouth must be spreading rumors again.But when I walked into the club office, I was a little surprised. The always serious Manager Ma not only stood up to greet me immediately, but also smiled: "Come on, come on! You are Yang Rui, please sit down, please sit down." .You just graduated from college, right?" I sat down on the crooked broken sofa. Monk Zhang Er couldn't figure it out. I asked, "Manager Ma, what can I do for you?" Manager Ma answered irrelevant questions: "I heard that you practiced very well in your class. You have a figure with long hands and legs, which is really good material for Taekwondo. You didn't participate in the last competition, right? It's a pity. If you participate, you will definitely win the ranking." , Your coaches have told me." I said, "Last time, my feet were broken. Manager Ma, do you have anything to do with me?" Manager Ma then returned to the subject: "Ah, there is such a thing, I heard from our people here that you have a girlfriend who is..." I quickly picked up the conversation: "Manager Ma, who said I have a girlfriend, are you listening to nonsense from your people..." Manager Ma narrowed his eyes: "Hey, don't you have a girlfriend? They say your girlfriend is..." I interrupted him again with a firm attitude: "No, they must be spreading rumors. I found that some people in our sports school are fine and just stay there and love to spread rumors!" Manager Ma blinked and frowned: "Yo. I've heard from more than one person that your girlfriend is from a group... Oh, yes, it's from the Guoning Group!" I froze for a moment, and then blurted out: "Oh, you mean the one from Guoning Group..." "That's right, that's right," Manager Ma smiled apologetically, "This is from the Guoning Group. I know that the Guoning Group is very powerful. Hey, please help me find out if their group is interested in doing some cooperation with our club What. Now sports is also a new industry. In China, the sports industry has not been fully developed, so the market prospect is still great. An entrepreneur with vision, I believe he will set his sights on sports! Sports If you do well, you can still make a lot of money, like the Chicago Bulls in the NBA, like the Red Devils Manchester United in football..." Sniff, it turned out to be for this.I breathed a sigh of relief.In secret joy, he immediately expressed that he could help convey their intentions, and it would not be a problem to invite the brothers and sisters of the Zhong family to meet.Manager Ma saw me clapping my chest in such a big way, he came up excitedly and shook my hand, and said a lot of things like developing sports, improving people's physique, greatness and nobility, and making money.He sent me out of the office very politely, and sent me to the gate of the sports school, which made many coaches and classmates who left late stared at me for a while. I quickly arranged a meeting between Zhong Ning and her brother Zhong Guoqing and Manager Ma. During the meeting, Manager Ma brought in the director and deputy director of the sports committee in the district and other government officials.The atmosphere and results of the meeting were even better than I imagined. The more they talked, the more passionate they became, and the more they talked, the more speculative they got. The meeting this time was at the table of Shunfeng Restaurant, and I also participated in this dinner as the introducer of both parties.Afterwards they talked a few more times, and I stopped participating.But I know that the agreement was reached very soon, Jingshi Sports School invested with land, Guoning Group took cash as a shareholder, and the two parties established a new Guoning Road Boxing Club Co., Ltd.The new company will invest 9 million yuan to build a large-scale Guoning Taekwondo Gymnasium, which is said to be the most middle-class Taekwondo Gymnasium in Beijing, China, and even Asia. This incident had a great impact on me. After all, it was the first major event I participated in in my life. It felt very extraordinary, and my professionalism was induced and encouraged by it. I felt as boring as I used to be. The life of chasing girls, playing computer games and playing bowling is really a waste of youth and boring. Next, after several nights of sleepless thinking, one morning, when I opened the window and saw the rising sun, I suddenly felt a reborn feeling in my heart.That morning I found Zhong Ning and asked her to do something.Zhong Ning is very happy with this change in me. She has always hoped that I can be a man with a successful career. This may be the common expectation of women for men.Now that I finally have a career, of course she fully supports me, and her brother strongly recommends me, and soon makes me the deputy commander-in-chief of the Guoning Road boxing gymnasium project, assisting the project commander to learn to do some projects Infrastructure business.Zhong Ning was also afraid that I would think this job was too hard and tiring, so he showed me great righteousness again and again, telling me that all those who achieve great things in the industry start from the actual process of a specific project. In fact, I am very satisfied with this errand and this position. I am no longer the arrogant and lazy guy I used to be.Discovering a new self and reflecting on the past kept me emotionally high as I plunged into my new work, while unknowingly alienating my peace of mind.Perhaps this is also a common problem of men - they will get bored after getting a woman's body.In terms of sex, my interest in An Xin also dropped sharply with the disappearance of my curiosity, and I no longer had that kind of unbearable expectation and anxiety without seeing An Xin. I once again interrupted my studies in the accounting class, citing that I was too busy with work, no longer pick up and drop off Anxin, and even stopped going to the Taekwondo gym for training.Our engineering headquarters has set up two offices in the Guoning company building, and I am very busy in them every day.The experience of the new official took office three fires, and the experience of Hubainuo, the deputy commander, put my nerves in a state of excitement. Zhong Ning. It should be Liu Minghao who feels the most joy and encouragement for me to change my ways.As soon as I took office, Liu Mingfa clung to me with every kind of enthusiasm, wanted to treat me to dinner, and wanted to take a job with me.I ate the rice, but Liu Minghao's rice was free, but there was no work.I said to Liu Minghao: "It's the air conditioner again, isn't it? The Guoning Mineral Water Factory doesn't use your air conditioner, so you smashed it in your hands, right?" Liu Minghao said anxiously, "My air conditioner is really good. ..." I interrupted him: "The air conditioner belongs to the equipment, and the equipment is still purchased by the group's supply department through unified bidding. I am no longer in the supply department. Now I am here as the engineering command department. I only care about civil engineering. Why didn't you think of opening it a long time ago?" A construction company." Before I took back my teasing smile, Liu Minghao climbed up along my cup: "Construction company? Yes! Longhua Architectural Decoration Engineering Company, have you heard of it? Why haven't you heard of it? It has a national second-level qualification. That's mine." "Your?" I didn't believe it at all. "I've known you since I was in middle school. How come I've never heard of where you put bricks and mortar on the socialist building." Liu Minghao said with a smile: "This is a buddy's company of mine. I recently invested in 10% of the shares. There is really nothing to do now, and I will lose money in everything I do. People let me invest because of my relationship in various aspects. Too much. You have to help your elder brother this time anyway." I blinked my eyes and was stunned for a long time before I said, "Why are you so pervasive!" Indeed, Liu Minghao is my eldest brother, and he has helped me and our family a lot in the past. Now is my chance to help him.So I became an introducer again and asked Liu Minghao to treat guests. I invited my immediate superior, Bian Xiaojun, the commander-in-chief of our engineering headquarters, to the Jinjiang mansion on the third floor of the Asia Hotel, and listened to Liu Minghao's speech during the meal. My buddy, the boss of Longhua Building Decoration Engineering Company introduced the situation and promoted himself.It was nothing at first, they said, we listened, and occasionally asked some questions, all in a serious manner.Bian Xiaojun left before finishing eating because there was still another dinner party.The few of us continued to eat until the restaurant was full of wine. After paying the bill and before getting up, the boss of Longhua Construction Company suddenly took out a bulging envelope, pushed it against the table in front of me, and said: "Thank you." It's gone!" I have never experienced such a scene before, and I was a little at a loss. I turned to look at Liu Minghao and said, "What is this? No need, Liu Minghao and we are old friends. Besides, I don't know if this matter will work." The old boss said: "If the business is not good, let's just make friends." Liu Minghao chimed in: "Take it, take it, it's nothing polite, it's the rule of this business." My face turned red. This was the first time in my twenty-two years of life that this had happened to me.Although this kind of thing has long been used to it and becomes natural, it is still a bit unnatural when encountering it for the first time, and it seems uncomfortable to hold it or not.I didn't know what to say for a while, so I said, "I'm young, so it's not good, forget it..." Liu Minghao said: "In the construction industry, this money is included in the expenditure items. Anyway, this money has already been allocated in the company's accounts. If you don't want it, we can spend it ourselves." Liu Minghao picked up the envelope while talking, and stuffed it directly into my backpack.I didn't refuse any more, just said: "Okay then, I'll take it to our side." The boss of Longhua said: "This is yours, we have another one from Mr. Bian." Even so, I put the kickback of up to 20,000 yuan on the desk of my boss Bian Xiaojun early the next morning, which was regarded as a handover.Bian Xiaojun has been engaged in infrastructure construction for many years, and he is not surprised by such things.And in his eyes, I am a kid with a background, so he has always been polite to me, so he said flatly without even opening the envelope: "Isn't it just a kickback, you take it." That night Zhong Ning went to Nanjing to attend the wedding of one of her sisters. I went to the airport to see her off and talked to her about the money on the way.Zhong Ning said calmly: "Ah, I already know about this, if I ask you to hold it, you can take it." I said: "I took kickbacks so blatantly as soon as I came up, let the people below know and they won't mess around." Zhong Ning smiled, kissed me, and said: "I'm not mistaken, I like men with backbone. You can take this money. Rebates, as long as they are approved by the company, you can get them." After seeing off Zhong Ning, I returned home from the airport.It was still early, and with nothing to do, I turned on the light, turned on the TV, and slowly undressed, watching TV while I undressed.A domestically produced police drama is playing on TV. I don't know the title, and I don't know much about the plot from half of it.Domestic films are now making good people bad and bad people not bad. I watched it naked for a long time without distinguishing right from wrong, and finally I couldn’t bear the cold. bath.After taking a shower, I dried my body and read the evening paper with a half damp bath towel on. Halfway through reading it, I remembered to turn on the voice message recording on the phone and listen to it.An Xin's voice was in the recording again, she has called several times in the past few days, and I have been home too late every day so I haven't called back.If I want to call back, I have to go through that Uncle Zhang who is on the night shift. I don't want that Uncle Zhang to knock on An Xin's door again like an open flame. An Xin's voice in the recording was obviously complaining: "Yang Rui, are you not here again? Haven't you been home for the past few days, can you give me a call back?" I chewed on her tone, as if she I was suspecting that I was actually at home and didn’t answer the phone on purpose. How could I say: "Are you not there again? Of course I am not!" I hesitated for a while, and dialed the Jingshi Sports School, but it turned out that it was Uncle Zhang who couldn’t escape. When I picked it up, I probably heard that it was me. As soon as I opened my mouth, I got angry and said: "An Xin went out, I'm not here!" He also deliberately asked me: "Who are you?" I said: "I'm sorry, I will call again Go." He hung up the phone. I remembered that An Xin was teaching at the Cultural Palace of Dongcheng District at this time. I walked out of the house, drove the car, and drove towards the Cultural Palace in Dongcheng District, feeling a little hesitant.When I think about it, I actually like An Xin until now, but I gradually began to realize that it was just a teenage passion.This passion may be nothing more than lust in its essence.Theoretically speaking, the pleasure of this kind of attraction between the sexes is impossible for a long time.Maybe it's the turbulent work experience these days that gave me this awakening - for my career and future, it is obvious that Zhong Ning is more suitable for me than An Xin.At the beginning of a relationship between a man and a woman, sexual attraction is often the most important and overwhelming, but later, sex often becomes the least important.An Xin's continuous calls to find me also gave me a faint worry. I think she won't get involved with me in the future, and I won't be able to get rid of her even if I want to. When the car arrived at the Cultural Palace, it was not time for get out of class to end.I didn't go in, just sat in the car and waited.When it was time for get out of class to end, people began to come out one after another, but until they were all gone, An Xin was nowhere to be seen.I locked the car door and went up to find her.When I went upstairs, I found that the lights in the classroom were already dark, and there was no one in the corridor.I thought about it and decided to drive to Jingshi Sports School to have a look. There are few cars at night, and it takes only two cigarettes to go from Dongcheng District Cultural Palace to Jingshi Sports School. The intersection of the sports school was mostly blocked due to road construction, and the car couldn't get in. I had to park the car on the side of the road, then got out of the car and walked inside.The big iron gate of the sports school has been closed, I hesitated, and knocked on the door, and it was still the Uncle Zhang who opened the door, and before I could speak, he said harshly: "I haven't come back!" I asked: "Do you know her?" Where did you go?" Uncle Zhang said with a straight face: "I don't know. What do you want to do with her?" I thought to myself, can you control what I have to do, so I pressed the fire and asked: "She has been here for the past few days. What time do you usually come back?" Uncle Zhang replied fiercely: "What do you want to do with her? Let's talk about it tomorrow. A while ago, she often didn't come back at night." I know that what he said a while ago was the time when An Xin took care of me at my house.I didn't ask any more questions, thanked him out of politeness, and walked back.As soon as I walked out of the rough intersection, and before I got to my car, I looked up and saw An Xin unintentionally. An Xin stood on the opposite side of the road, with her back to an unmanned traffic post, and she was whispering to a man in the shadow of that post.No, exactly, she was crying to this man! ——Although there is a road across, but with the reflection of the street lights on the ground, I can still see her movement of wiping tears with the back of her hand without any difficulty.I can also easily see the not-so-young face of the man opposite her, and see the dull and helpless expression on that face.