Chapter 6 Chapter Six

On this day, they were on Yuelu Mountain. It was a Sunday in September, and the trees were lush.He took his daughter to visit the mountains, and she drove them here in a car.They climbed the mountain together and picked the rugged mountain path to climb together. They all wanted to feel their own strength while climbing, which would generate happiness.They went up the mountain and climbed to the top of the mountain. They were all a little angry. They sat in the tea room of Yunlu Palace and tasted Junshan Maojian while watching the surrounding scenery.Aren't those green leaves just the flowers of love?Dali's daughter was running and playing in front of them, looking here and there. For her, the world was very fresh, interesting and vivid.Deng Ying also felt the beauty, but what she felt was the beauty of love.She feels that she has love. Once a woman falls in love with a man, she will give it wholeheartedly.She didn't feel this way before. When she was in love with her husband, she was in the position of a female goat. At that time, Tian Sheng was a big bad wolf that seemed docile and hid its wolf qualities deeply.She is set in the position of being loved, so she cannot experience the magic of love.Now, she realizes that love is so strong, so vivid, and so timeless.She loves this man, she tastes love, she has never loved, and now she loves.In her eyes, the mountains and forests are beautiful, and the wild heights are full of poetry and fiery red in the sun.The sky is poetry, the trees are poetry, even the swaying dry grass is poetry.She looked at Dali. He was wearing a dark gray suit, a pair of white Nike sneakers on his feet, and a very blue floral tie. There were some tiny beads of sweat on his long face, which was the result of climbing a mountain.The south wind blew slowly, messing up his hair.

"My husband disagrees," she replied after observing him for a few seconds, "and I'm divorcing him too. I hate him for taking everything from me. Before I knew you, I was numb , now I want to regain my lost youth." "No one has lost anything," he said flatly, "it's just that you want more, so you feel lost. In fact, nothing is lost." She felt that his reaction was not positive enough.She glanced at his daughter, who was playing on the floor, and cast her eyes on his long face, "How did you get divorced?" "It's not me who wants a divorce," he recalled, glancing at his daughter, "it's her mother who wants to divorce me." He paused, "I had no money then, and I don't have any money now...I can tell you, how many Years ago, I even had to count when buying side dishes, because when you go to the store to buy something, it doesn’t matter if you pay less.” He paused again when he said this, and glanced at his daughter, who turned her head to look at him Both laugh. "Her mother likes to dance. During the dance, she met a man eleven years older than her. That man has a dead wife and is rich... Now he is my daughter's stepfather, and he treats my daughter well."

"You have lived alone for two or three years, do you feel lonely?" "Everybody feels lonely, I'm not alone," he replied, "I'm used to it." She looked at Dali, and there was a stern expression on his face, which was washed out by pain, as if the sun had bleached the green peppers.She wanted to know what he was thinking at this moment, "What are you thinking?" "I think when I was on the battlefield in Vietnam, I saw a rotting corpse. I walked up and saw it was a woman's corpse. A group of blowflies flew up from the corpse's face." There was a kind of melancholy on his face, "The woman's body was only seventeen or eighteen years old, so I feel that being alive is actually a kind of waiting, waiting for death."

These words are definitely not to her liking now, she hoped that he would say that he was very happy with her, but what he said was far from what she thought. "Your mind is more decadent than mine," she reproached him. "It's not good." "Those who have experienced the battlefield are decadent in their thinking." He said in a calm manner. They started down the mountain and chose a road paved with asphalt to go down the mountain.The trees beside the mountain road are vibrant and charming in the sun.The mountain breeze gently brushed their faces, and the mountain breeze contained the fresh fragrance of the trees, which smelled very good.When they got down to the middle of the mountain, they suddenly heard a deep and deep voice chanting something, looking up, there was a vermilion lacquer wall in front of them, and the thick and thick voice came out from the vermilion lacquer wall, vibrating in the mountain forest and soaring up.

"Dad, what's that sound?" the girl stopped and asked. "This is a monk chanting." Dali said. The girl asked: "Father, why does the monk chant scriptures?" "This is a monk's business. Dad doesn't know." Dali said, "My father is not a monk." The three of them walked to the front of the temple. There were two very old trees in front of the temple, one was a camphor tree and the other was a maple tree. These trees had a history of thousands of years.The trunk is so thick that it cannot be hugged by three or four people holding hands.Turning around in the sky above the temple is the sound of chanting scriptures.They walked in, and there were several trees in the temple that were as thick as the outside of the temple. The courtyard was empty, and they saw two speakers standing in front of the temple gate. The sound of chanting was diffused from the speakers to the surroundings. A young man A Taoist priest came out from a door. He was dressed in black cloth and had black hair.Monks have to be shaved, this is Taoist priests, because Taoist priests do not need to shave their heads.

Deng Ying obtained this kind of knowledge from her brother's article. Monks pay attention to practice, and Taoists are in a state of "inaction" and do nothing.Tao, created by Laozi and Zhuangzi, is a native product of China.The Buddha came from India, and Bodhidharma brought it to China via Tibet during the reign of Emperor Wu of Liang in the Southern Dynasties. It has been two thousand years ago.Deng Ying told Dali what she knew, and Deng Ying said: "This is a Taoist temple, not a Buddhist temple. My grandma was a Buddhist when she was alive." "I don't know anything about Buddhism and Taoism." Dali said, "I don't have time to understand these things."

They walked out of the temple and continued down the mountain, "Actually, whether Buddha is good at Taoism or Taoism, they are all thoughts of escaping from the world." She thought for a while and said, "Sometimes I also want to escape reality and hide in the mountains, but Not having the courage to throw everything away." He gave her a look of disbelief, "I don't believe in these things," he said, "I'm mortal." They went down the mountain and walked out of this fresh-air nature reserve... On the day of the library inspection, she got up a bit late, so she was eager to rush to H Business School, and her Audi collided with a Xiangyun bus Collide.Her car collided with an oncoming Dongfeng passenger car. Fortunately, the car was braked at the moment of the collision, otherwise the car that greeted her must have been crashed and killed.Fortunately, it was only the front of the car that was damaged, the entire glass was shattered, her hand holding the steering wheel was injured, and a bump the size of a steamed bun hit her head.Loving someone has a price, she thought in the hospital, and that might be her price.She knew very well that at that moment, an illusion appeared in her mind: she was a beautiful sika deer, and he was another beautiful sika deer, they were covered with cornflowers, foxtails, dandelions, baby's breath, The meadows of sunflowers and white orchids are jubilant, chasing after each other.It was this beautiful hallucination that caused the car accident. When she woke up from the hallucination, she realized that her car was about to collide with the bus, so she stepped on the brake, but she heard a bang, as if her head exploded The same, as if the vase was broken, she was already lying on the hospital bed when she woke up, aching all over.She asked a nurse, "Where am I, doctor?"

"The Second Affiliated Hospital." The nurse said. She immediately recalled the car accident caused by hallucinations, and she thought that if she concentrated on driving at that moment, the car accident could have been avoided.From the car accident, she remembered the library inspection today, and she said to the nurse: "Doctor, what time is it?" A young man in a traffic police uniform walked in. He was the traffic policeman who dealt with the accident.He had a square face with dark eyebrows and a large mouth.He said, "Are you awake? Did you know your car collided with a bus?"

The traffic policeman was about to investigate. She looked at the young traffic policeman and said, "My head is buzzing, I can't remember." The traffic police said: "Then you have a good rest, I will ask you again in the afternoon." Deng Ying glanced at this kind-faced traffic policeman, closed her eyes and rested, recalling the whole process of the moment when the car accident happened.She recalled, at that moment her heart split, not in the car, but in a hallucination of flowers blooming, she became a sika deer, and he also became a sika deer... This illusion has been haunting her, Why?Until a few days later, when Dali came to see her in the hospital, she was still daydreaming on the hospital bed.What is reverie?Reverie is a distant and beautiful imagination on a certain point, and the mind is relaxed to the realm of hallucinations.Dali came to see her with a large bouquet of flowers, which were bright red roses grown in the greenhouse and tied in cellophane.She felt that she was not moved by his coming, she knew he was coming, and she was already mentally prepared for him to come, but she didn't know that he would bring a lot of flowers to see her, she was moved by the flowers.In her nearly forty years of life, no one has ever sent her flowers. At the age when she needed flowers to accompany her, people in that era did not have the awareness of sending flowers. They even thought that sending a bouquet of flowers is better than sending you a pen. valuable.It was an era when everything was measured by value and the concept of value had been reduced to zero.What are flowers?Flowers symbolize youth and love.

She held flowers and said, "Very happy, thank you." "I think women are happiest when they see flowers," he said. "You are very good at guessing women's psychology." She looked at him fondly after she hadn't seen him for a few days. They talked, laughed, and looked very relaxed.During the meal, he asked for a noodle, and she ate a pre-ordered meal.He ate the noodles very loudly, taking bites with each bite, making a squeaky sound.She couldn't help watching him eat, she wondered why his appetite was so good?How can a person eat so deliciously?It's just an ordinary bowl of noodles.She said, "It's fun to watch you eat. I don't have an appetite and now I have an appetite."

He squinted at her and said, "That's good." After eating, they talked.He smoked Marlboros and the smell was strong.She felt the smell of the smoke was choking, she cared about his body and said, "Why did you start smoking this kind of cigarette?" "This smoke is strong," he said. They talked about life from smoking and what life is.He said that life is blind, and that the human brain is volatile, thinking this way in the morning and thinking that way at night, filled with all kinds of desires, and desires are constantly changing, so life is blind.He said: "People are busy, they don't know what they want to do, and they often don't do what they think about in the morning. This is a human being, and they are a chaotic group. Therefore, people are blind." She looked at him, she had started the topic, she started it with her grandma. She said that she dreamed of her grandma last night. She dreamed that when she passed by a temple, she saw an old nun sweeping the floor at the door, wearing a cassock and a nun hat, cleaning the fallen leaves in front of the temple.The nun raised her face, and she recognized her grandma.She was very surprised in the dream, she said: "Grandma, are you still alive?" Grandma said "Amitabha" and bowed her head to chant sutras, her face was very serious.She had such a dream.She said: "My grandma believes in Buddhism. She was a devout Buddhist during her lifetime." "So you dreamed that your grandma was a nun?" He looked at him. "It's unimaginable for a woman to enter the Buddhist monastery." "My grandma said that the world is the world, and one cannot deal with all kinds of endless desires produced by the assembly line of the world." She played Shen Shen with him, so he said the above words.He also said: "A person always makes demands on himself, and disappointment comes from the demands. I never make demands on myself." After they talked about these words, Dali's BP machine rang, a client wanted to find him, and he left. Half an hour after he left vigorously, Deng Ying's husband came, and a friend of his came with him.It wasn't cold enough to wear a fur coat, but he was, and the fat fox fur collar made his face darker and thinner.He looked at the large bouquet of flowers on the bedside table, and glanced at her, "Someone still sends you flowers? Not bad." He asked her in a mocking tone, staring at her with dark eyes, like a wolf. "Who will send you flowers?" It was only a matter of time before she wanted to break up, she said, "Dali." "You mean the little bastard who does life insurance?" he asked contemptuously. She stopped answering him, and turned her face out of the window, that is to say, cast her eyes out of the window.On the treetop outside the window, there was a person perched on the treetop and screaming.The husband said in a vicious tone: "You are forty years old, and there are men who send you flowers, which proves that you are still attractive. Are you flirting in front of him?" She gave him a sideways glance. He smiled, "I will look for him, he has seduced my wife." When Deng Ying was discharged from the hospital, she felt that she had gained weight in the hospital these days, her legs felt a little thicker, and there was an extra layer of fat on her abdomen.She called Fang Wei and invited her to go to the Sports Commission for exercise. Fang Wei said that she was on the way to the Sports Commission, and then she hit the BP machine vigorously.Her car hadn't been repaired yet, so she got into a taxi, and the taxi drove her to the Sports Commission. She hasn't seen Dali for two days, he called her last night just to say hello.She asked him what was the matter, he said nothing, she told him she was out of the hospital, she wanted to say "why haven't you called me these two days", but she didn't.She felt that she was too out of control in front of him, really a cheerful kid, too impatient.The car drove up to the gate of the Sports Commission, she got out of the car, the phone rang, and Dali replied, he asked her: "Do you have any instructions?" "Me and Fang Wei are both at the Sports Commission, are you coming?"