Chapter 55 Section 55

One day when he passed Gulou at dusk, he got out of the car and was about to enter a snack shop when someone called his name.When he turned his head, a woman stopped, looked at him and wanted to smile but didn't, and bit her lip. "Xiao Xiao?" He was a little uncertain. Xiao Xiao smiled, unnaturally. "I'm really sorry," he didn't know what to say for a while, "I didn't expect..." "Can't you recognize them?" "It's grown stronger..." What he remembered was the girl's slender body and a pair of small tits. "Become a country girl." The woman's words were stinging.

"No, it's much stronger!" He hurried to make amends. "It's not just a commune member, it's not a sunflower, thank you!" Xiao Xiao became very sharp, alluding to an ode to the party, comparing the members of the commune to sunflowers turning toward the sun.He changed the subject: "Going back to the city?" "I'm running out of household registration. I borrowed my mother's illness and needed to take care of her back! I'm the only daughter in my family, and I'm here to go through the formalities of returning to the city. I haven't been able to get the household registration yet."

"Is your home still in the old place?" "The house can still be demolished? My father passed away, and my mother came back from the cadre school." He didn't know anything about the situation of Xiao Xiao's house, so he could only say: "I've been to your alley, and I've been looking for you... This was also said ten years ago. "Why don't you come to my house and have a sit?" "Okay." He agreed casually, but he didn't mean it.Back then, he had cycled through that alley many times, hoping to run into it again, but he didn't say anything!He only said vaguely, "I don't know your house number...:."

"I didn't tell you either." Xiao Xiao actually remembered it very clearly, so she didn't forget that winter night, she left before dawn. "I don't live in the original house for a long time, and I have been to the countryside for nearly six years. Now I live in the collective dormitory of the agency." This was just an explanation, and Xiao Xiao didn't say whether he had also looked for him.He pushed the cart and walked silently with Xiao Xiao.Entering an alley, he cycled through this alley many times, from one end to the other, turned into a different alley, circled around, and then turned back from the other end of the alley. He paid attention to the gates on both sides of the alley. !He thought he might meet her, but he didn't even know Xiao Xiao's surname, and he couldn't find out, it must be her nickname, her classmates or family members called it by that.This alley is quite long.

Xiao Xiao went up to a courtyard gate, a large courtyard, a small door on the left of the gate was hung with a lock, and a coal stove was placed beside the door.She took the key and opened the door. Except for "a large bed with folded quilts, the room was in disarray. Xiao Xiao hurriedly picked up the clothes on the armchair and threw them on the bed. "Where's your mother?" He sat down on the armchair, and the spring of the seat cushion rang. "He's in the hospital." "What disease?" "Breast cancer has already metastasized to the bone. I hope it will last for a year or so until I register my account."

This made it difficult for him to ask any more questions. "Would you like tea?" "No, thank you." He had to find something to say, "How about it? Tell me about you, your own business—" "What are you talking about? What's there to talk about?" Xiao Xiao stood in front of him and asked. "Rural areas, these years?" "Didn't you also stay in the countryside, don't you know?" He kind of regretted coming with her.The mess in this congested room also spoiled the impression of the girl he pitied in his heart.Xiao Xiao sat down on the edge of the bed, with a knot between her brows, and looked at him.He didn't know what else to say to her.

"You are my first man." have to.He thought of her left breast, no, that on his left hand was the tender red scar on her right breast. "But you are stupid." This stings, and I immediately want to ask about the scar so I can fight back, but I ask "Why?" "You didn't want it..." Xiao Xiao said calmly, lowering her head. "But you were still a middle school student!" he argued. "You've been a girl from the countryside for a long time. You haven't been here for long, and you're less than a year old. Two... the people in the village don't care about these things!"

"You can sue—" "Who should I sue?" "You are a fool!" "I thought……" "What do you think?" "I thought, at that time I thought you were a virgin..." He recalled that time, so he didn't dare to hurt her. "What are you afraid of? I'm afraid of you... You're a tyrant! I know that coming from a family like mine won't end well. I sent it to my door at night, but you dare not take it!" "Afraid of carrying burdens." You have to admit. "I didn't tell you about my parents." "But I can guess. It's too late now, how can I say..." he said, "I'm married!"

"Of course it's too late, I can also tell you that I'm just a broken shoe, two miscarriages, two bastards I don't want—." "You use contraception!" He also had to stab the ground with words. "Hmph," she sneered! "Rural people don't have any tricks. Who told me that my fate is bad, I don't have a good mother, I don't have a backer, I can't live like this in the village for the rest of my life. " "You're still young, don't give up on yourself like this..." "Of course I still have to live, I don't need you to educate me, I've had enough education!" She smiled, really smiled, her hands supported the edge of the bed, her shoulders trembled.

He laughed with her, his eyes moist.But Xiao Xiao stopped, he suddenly seemed to see the girl's weakness from earlier on her face, but it passed away in a flash. "You don't want to eat something? Only dried noodles, didn't you also make dried noodles for me?" "You did it," he reminded her. Xiao Xiao went under the medium stove outside the door, and closed the door behind him.He looked at the messy room and the clothes thrown on the bed, and also changed the dirty underwear that was waiting to be washed.He needed to destroy the impression that he pitied like a dream, he needed to indulge, he needed to treat this woman as a picked slut, a whore that everyone in the country made.

Xiao Xiao brought the finished noodles to the table, and quickly opened the food keys and some small odds and ends on the table. He hugged her from behind and pressed his hand on her chest. . "Sit down and eat!" Xiao Xiao wasn't angry or emotional, her relationship with men was probably like this, she was used to it.While eating noodles, Xiao Xiao bowed his head and didn't speak, he thought she understood what he was thinking the most, so there was no need to say anything, there was no obstacle. Xiao Xiao quickly finished eating, pushed the bowl and chopsticks, raised his head so Kaikai looked at him. - Should I go? ' he asked, again his hypocrisy. "You can figure it out." Xiao Xiao said very flatly, but still did not change his posture. He then got up and went to her side, held her head, and wanted to kiss her, but Xiao Xiao turned her head away and lowered her head so that he wouldn't let him kiss her.He reached in through the collar and pinched the woman's enlarged tits. "Go to bed," Xiao Xiao said with a sigh. He sat on the edge of the bed and watched the woman lock the door. The electric light hanging under the gray-yellow ceiling made of old newspapers was still on, and the switch was right next to the door.Xiao Xiao ignored him and took off his clothes.He was surprised for a moment, but he didn't see the scar in the lamp shadow under her breast.When he was untying his shoelaces, Xiao Xiao went to bed, pulled off the quilt, lay down on his back and covered him. "Haven't you all been married—" the woman said blankly. He didn't say anything, he felt insulted and needed revenge, but he didn't know what the revenge was. He jerked off the quilt and threw himself on the woman, thinking of another girl's body in the warehouse of the production team by the roadside, smoldering All the violence poured out of her body... Xiao Xiao still closed her eyes and said, "Don't worry, even if you have it, you don't need to shave it. I have a habitual miscarriage." He inspected the whole body of this strange woman, the red nipples and the nipples in the dark brown areola were swollen and swollen, and the breasts were still white and soft, only then did he realize that there was a "strip inch long light brown" The scar. He didn't touch it, and still didn't ask why. Xiao Xiao said that she is not afraid of anything now, and the neighbors can say whatever they want.But he said he was married, and if the residents' committee found out and reported it to his unit, his divorce matter would be blown.When he put on his underwear, Xiao Xiao was still lying on the bed, seeming to be smiling, but the corners of his mouth were drooping. "Are you still here?" Xiao Xiao asked, and then said, "I don't see any of my former classmates, so I'm very lonely." But he never went to Xiao Xiao's house again, and he avoided going through the Drum Tower, for fear of bumping into her again, he didn't know what to say.