Chapter 54 Section 54

You no longer live in other people's shadows, and you don't use other people's shadows as imaginary enemies. Just step out of the shadows, stop creating delusions and illusions, and come to this world naked and without any worries in the midst of emptiness and tranquility. You don't need to take anything with you, and you can't take it with you, you only fear the unknown death. You remember that you have been afraid of death since you were a child. At that time, you were afraid of death far more than you are today. If you have a small illness, you are afraid that it will be incurable. It is pure luck to be alive in this world. Life is a miracle, which cannot be said. Living is the manifestation of this miracle. Isn’t it enough for a sentient body to feel the pain and joy of life?What else are you looking for?

Your fear of death is when your heart is weak, you have a feeling of being out of breath, you are worried that you will not be able to support yourself, it is like falling into an abyss, this feeling of falling often appears in childhood dreams , It made you wake up in a night sweat. In fact, there was nothing wrong with it at that time. Your mother took you to the hospital for examination many times, but now you are too lazy to do a physical examination, even if the doctor ordered you to delay it again and again. You know no better than that life has its own end, and when it ends, fear disappears at the same time. This fear is precisely the embodiment of life. When consciousness and consciousness are lost, it ends in an instant, and no further thinking is allowed!There will be no meaning. The pursuit of meaning used to be your ailment. You discussed the ultimate meaning of life with your friends when you were young. At that time, you hardly lived much. Now it seems that you have tasted all the ups and downs of life. It is useless to pursue it and it is only ridiculous. It is better to feel this existence and take care of this existence.

You seem to see him in a emptiness, the faint light does not know where it comes from, and it does not stand on any definite ground, but it is like a tree stump, but there is no projection, and the horizon between the sky and the earth has disappeared. Or like a bird in the snow, looking left and right, sometimes staring seems to be in meditation, but the meditation is not clear, it is just a gesture, a somewhat beautiful gesture, existence is a gesture, as comfortable as possible, open arms , Bend your knees and turn around, looking back at his consciousness, or that gesture is his consciousness, it is you in consciousness, from which you get a vague cheer.

There are no tragedies, comedies or farces. They are all aesthetics of life, which vary from person to time and place, and the same is true of lyricism. Sentiment and ridiculousness can also be interchanged between emotions at this time and at that time. No more mocking!Self-deprecating or self-cleaning seems to be enough, just quietly continue the gesture of life, trying to appreciate the mystery of this moment, because the mountain pass is there, and when I look at myself alone, I don’t care about how it looks in the eyes of others. You don’t know what else you can do, and what else you can do. You don’t need to be deliberate. Going to eat and drink, of course, there will still be opinions and opinions, and even anger. Before reaching the age where anger has no energy, of course there will be righteous indignation, but not so much passion, but the emotions and desires are still there, so let it go , but there is no remorse anymore, also because remorse is futile and does not hurt oneself.

You only value life, and you still have a little unfinished love for life, leaving a little interest for yourself, waiting to be discovered and surprised, and only life is worth sighing, isn't it?