Chapter 6 atomic bomb scientist

In 1868, a 37-year-old male was the director of a laboratory of a nuclear test in a certain province of Q The young Bolsheviks--I have handed over my whole life to the Northwest--We made the first atomic bomb with our loyalty and single hands--The disaster of the "Cultural Revolution" was more violent than the atomic bomb--The misfortune caused by the theft of the workbook --Escorted to a ravine by a coal train --Still wanting to do something despite the pain I have a request, please don't take my experience as a strange story.I don't want to satisfy people's curiosity with the ups and downs, misfortunes and pains I have suffered.I am eager for people to understand what is going on in the hearts of Chinese intellectuals.Because, my growth and trauma not only belong to me, but roughly represent the journey of our generation of Chinese intellectuals.

The creation of the atomic bomb is not as mysterious as some people imagine.It wasn't something a few cutting-edge scientists figured out in a room.Of course, scientists must put forward theoretical basis and design schemes, but to actually manufacture it from scratch requires the dedication and hard work of many people, hard work, and repeated experiments to finally realize it.It was created by thousands of intellectuals, skilled workers, soldiers, and organizers with their brains, wisdom, hands, sweat, and lives.I am just one of them, and I am engaged in research, scientific research and experimental work on the front line of the base.The base is located in the northwest, and when one thinks of the endless prairie of Jinyintan, it was indescribably desolate and difficult at that time!

I was born in a scholarly family, participated in the student movement and the underground party in middle school, and went to university after liberation.After graduating from university, I was sent to the Soviet Union for further study--I don't talk about technical things, it's too complicated, and it's hard for you to write clearly. Let's just talk about fate--At the beginning of the 1960s, the organization told me that there was an extremely important The national defense scientific research mission sends you.This is to engage in the atomic bomb.Originally, we hoped that the Soviet Union would provide this technology. In 1959, Sino-Soviet relations cracked, and the Soviet Union unilaterally withdrew the agreement. There was no hope, so we decided to do it ourselves.It's not easy to do it yourself, starting from scratch, and it's such a sophisticated thing.The task was assigned to the Second Ministry of Machinery, which was later called the Ministry of Nuclear Industry.This task was absolutely confidential at the time, and the internal code name was 596.It refers to the date in June 1959 when the Soviet Union unilaterally withdrew the agreement and refused to provide technical information.Using this day as the task code is to encourage everyone to fight for their breath, not to rely on anyone, if others can create it, we must create it ourselves.At first, there were only a few researchers like me who were less than 30 years old, and they were all strictly selected, politically and professionally reliable.This is the absolute trust in the organization. Of course, I also have a sense of honor, and the sense of honor has turned into a kind of passion, which fills my young chest with heat.

Stepping on the Jinyin Beach, you can see desolation everywhere.This was originally a place where the old Tibetan people consumed cattle.The grass is plentiful, and there are wild flowers and delicious mushrooms on the grassland, but there is nothing except these.There are no roads, no houses, no trees, just the sun, the moon, the wind, the frost and the cold.By the way, there are wolves.Like opening up wasteland, people lived in tents at first, listening to the wind howling and wolves howling every night.At an altitude of 3,000 meters, lack of oxygen, I can't breathe when I walk quickly, and my chest feels like it is filled with sand; I get tired easily from work, and my throat feels like a plug.The air pressure is so low that the steamed buns are not even cooked.Every piece of iron, every piece of wood, every piece of brick, every piece of tile, and everything for daily use, including a box of matches, had to be transported from far away, and it was just in time for the "Three Difficult Period".There is absolutely no specialization in life, materials and instruments are lacking in this and that.How difficult!But we stand on this 3,000-meter plateau, full of pride, and determined to raise the mushroom cloud that shows the Chinese people's aspirations right here.At that time, we loved to say a word called "aerodynamics".This is a term in physics, and it is borrowed to mean that "qi" is used as "power".We hold a breath in our stomachs, which is motivation.A strong country is our goal in life.Although I was in the vast Gold and Silver Beach, my hands were empty, not even a single atomic bomb part.Anyway, as soon as you come here, you will give it to it for the rest of your life.It was as simple as that!Today's young people may ridicule us as "Yu Cheng's generation" and "the tame generation", but we lived so fulfillingly back then!

When we came to the grassland, we immediately put into intense work.First, do a detonation test of reduced size, using simulated materials, substitutes, not real materials, to see how its principle is, if it does not conform to the indicator, and the other action processes are exactly the same, it depends on whether it meets the requirements. Design requirements.I lead a group, all of whom are experimental researchers.Every experiment costs a huge amount of money, and the experiment is useless if the measurement data is not available. Therefore, the work has great responsibilities and high value, and carelessness is not acceptable; you must concentrate and concentrate.I often tell everyone that the cables used in experiments are our lifelines, and I really regard Yuan Yutan as more important than my own life.The basic work is solid, and every detail is meticulous. This is one of the important reasons why China's atomic bomb test was successful so quickly.

The scaled down model test was successful in 1963.The success was repeated in 1964. In that year, a full-scale detonation test was carried out, which means that the size is the same as that of the official original bomb l:l. Except that the charge is not an active material, other materials and structures of atomic bombs are used.This test is of great importance, if it is not successful, there is no talk of the nuclear test below, its success or failure firmly grasps the hearts of everyone on the entire base!We were even more nervous. We lived in the job number of the base branch factory to prepare. I was in charge of the experimental measurement. I repeatedly checked every instrument, every joint, and every cable for several days and nights. We also had to do simulation operations. "Rehearsal", for fear of making mistakes during the official "opening performance".If there is a slight mistake, it will all be scrapped!During those days, I could hear my heart beating all the time.

The trial worked out very well.As soon as the experiment was over, I hurriedly sent the recorded photo negatives back to the factory headquarters by car, developed them immediately, and then held the negatives and wished I could step into the headquarters.The leaders are all there waiting.There is the commander-in-chief and the person in charge who came from Beijing.When I hurried into the room, all the leaders in the room were silent, all eyes were fixed on me, it was extremely quiet.I also seemed to hear their heartbeats, I held up the negatives for everyone to see, and said: "The experiment was successful!" Everyone immediately cheered, applauded, hugged, and then drank and congratulated each other.This is a scene I will never forget!The commander-in-chief told me to go to bed quickly.He knew that since we came to the grassland, we rarely had a good night's sleep.Unexpectedly, I couldn't close the upper limit when I lay down. I was so excited, but unknowingly fell asleep a sleep that I will never forget in my life.I have always had dreams when I sleep, but this sleep has no dreams, a "vacuum" sleep, as if I have slept for a whole century.How many days and nights of hard work accumulated, one success will be wiped out.

In this way, we began to engage in formal nuclear testing.In the hottest weather in July and August of 1964, we arrived in the Gobi Desert with a full set of testing equipment.On the boundless Gobi Desert, the sun is too hot to see a drop of water, and the birds are too hot to fly, circling faintly against the ground.But a tall iron tower has been built there, and this is the first nuclear test tower.We installed the instruments on the iron tower, and installed the instruments in the test office not far from the iron tower, and connected them with cables.Once the nuclear explosion occurs, the cable will be broken, and all the instruments on the tower will be blown up. All the most valuable data will be kept in the instrument of the tester. If the instrument fails, all the important data of the nuclear explosion will be lost. , that would be an extremely heavy loss.A great responsibility rests on our shoulders.Most of the test workers are underground, protected by solid concrete walls, so they won't be blown up.But it was extremely hot during the day and freezing cold at night.sleep?We just punched our wrists in a makeshift tent and got on with it.In those days, we really forgot "who we are".You are the instrument, you are the atomic bomb!

The commander-in-chief of our base also came to the nuclear test site.The commander-in-chief was originally a general with a burly figure. He didn't understand atomic technology at first, but he led well and had the demeanor of a general.He participated in the liberation of Tibet and is a very nice person.He is very considerate to everyone. When he first arrived at Jinyintan, he lived with us in a tent on the grassland. Later, he built a house but it was not enough, so he asked us to move in first, and he still lived in a tent.He said you people should live in a good place.It is really different from many leaders now.On October 15, everything was installed and the evacuation began.We retreated to a place tens of kilometers away from radiation, and our general was the last to evacuate.Because a special person has to climb to the tower to insert the detonator.The detonator has been checked repeatedly. If it is missed, it will be a catastrophe. After it is inserted, it must be checked carefully.At that time, electricity was no longer available, and the electric antimony stopped, so we had to climb up.The commander-in-chief and several other leaders have been watching these final procedures from below the tower.I called the commander-in-chief dozens of kilometers away that night, and he was still answering my call under the tower.At that time, the whole team had this quality from top to bottom.

We are waiting for the order from the central government.The test participants gathered in a safe area and looked towards the iron tower.There is no shadow of the tower, only the open land and the infinite blue sky, and all our hopes are placed in this extremely peaceful space. Beijing's order comes down, light the fire! 10, 9, 8, 7, 6, 5, 4, 3, 2, l, until 0.Why didn't you move? For a moment, my heart jumped up nervously, and it got stuck in my throat: Failed?If you fail, you may have to start from scratch.Just as he was thinking, an incomparably huge, flower-like mushroom cloud rose into the sky in an instant.It turned out that we were too far away to notice the "zero hour" flash, but we finally saw this long-awaited mushroom cloud billowing into the blue sky.We yelled, yelled, jumped, and yelled until our voices became hoarse.Some people get carried away and jump so hard that they fall to the ground, get up and jump again.I laughed until I cried, and wiped away my tears.Tears were sweet at that time... You must have seen this scene in movies or photos.The first atomic bomb succeeded!Made it for us with our own hands!Then there was a big celebration, and Beijing made an exception.If you are at the scene and participate in this work, you will also appreciate its hard-won, and appreciate our strong sense of pride in being Chinese at that time.Pride is not a bluff, pride is self-made.This mushroom cloud rising in the Great Northwest is the result of thousands of people who have worked hard and loyally for many years.Everyone thinks about the prosperity of the country, and no one thinks of getting rich because of money, or breaking their heads for promotion, job titles, and housing.I am a personal participant, and I have come into contact with countless unsung heroes, whether high-tech workers, scientific researchers, organizers, or those engaged in prospecting, mining, concentration, refining, processing, and manufacturing, all contribute their youth to this business.There are also chemical defense soldiers, who must rush into the scene after the explosion to retrieve samples for us to study the effect of the explosion.How many catties of sweat are contained in their protective clothing.In this way, before the "Cultural Revolution", our base was already like a small town.Department stores, movie theaters, hospitals, schools, nurseries, banks, etc. have everything, and the career is really promising.Each of us feels that there are still many big things to do.I got married before this nuclear test, and my lover also came to the base. It seems that I put everything, my whole life, here without any choice.

When the "Cultural Revolution" suddenly came in 1966, it was like an accidental, man-made, political atomic bomb was dropped on our base, and everything was in chaos.Although I was still conducting the principle test of the hydrogen bomb at the nuclear test site in November of this year, and it was successful, and the hydrogen bomb was produced by us in the next year, but the basic work of the hydrogen bomb was done before the "Cultural Revolution". When I was working on the hydrogen bomb, I was the director of a laboratory with nearly 100 people. After the hydrogen bomb came out, I was shocked.Someone asked me that the place where the atomic bomb test was carried out was kept absolutely secret, and did the "Cultural Revolution" also take place? Why not?Wasn't it said at the time that "where there are two people, there are two factions, so fight"? The fight was equally fierce.There are also two factions in our base. The original leaders stood aside, and the newcomers supported one faction and attacked the other, and the fighting became more fierce.In 1968, when the team was cleared, there were things like "things happen for a reason", "a place where intellectuals are piled up", "the continuation of the struggle between the Communist Party and the Kuomintang", "cleaning up the ranks of the class, first we must pay close attention to it", there is a family history problem People who have suffered, and those who have no problems like me have to find ways to make problems.Someone forcefully summed up the "four firsts" for me, saying that my "four firsts" were in opposition to Lin Biao's "four firsts".Which No. 1 is against which No. 1 can't remember now.It seems to say that I use "business first" against Lin Biao's "highlighting politics first", and my strict grasp of test quality is to use "quality first" against Lin Biao's "political and ideological work first"... I have never remembered these talk.First, I was asked to bow my head to accept criticism from the assembly, and then ransacked my home, rummaged through boxes and cabinets, and suffered all kinds of insults and reprimands.I think the shock will pass for a while.My family history is clear, I joined the underground party when I was a teenager, and they said that I was "in power" at most as the person in charge of a technical research department.But stand aside for a while, talk less or don't talk at all, and it will pass.I work so hard, what can I do? Unexpectedly, something unexpected happened.In 1969, it was a chaotic place. Most of the people had nothing to do, writing big-character posters and engaging in sports.The commander-in-chief and the others were all picked out and often fought.The experimental work was lost, and I seemed to be in a daze waiting for the exercise to come to an end so that I could continue working, but the more I waited, the more endless it became.Suddenly, the higher-ups said that the target of the base was too big, it was not safe, and all things had to be boxed for relocation.At that time, the factory was very chaotic, and many people did not go to work. Probably some workers heard that they were going to relocate, and wanted to take the opportunity to get some small things, so they pried a desk in the research room of the branch factory. There was a useless book inside. Completed workbooks were stolen.All of a sudden, misfortune fell from the sky, and the depositor reported to Beijing that the base had lost top-secret materials.The higher-ups immediately sent two big men, one was the deputy minister of the Ministry of Public Security at the time, and the other was the "chief" of the navy, and brought a group of people with them.This posture is really extraordinary.They wanted to make a big case, calling this place a "little Taiwan", so as to shake the whole country, stir up big waves, deny everything in the past, and promote the "Cultural Revolution" movement across the country.These two people are called the "heads of the central government", holding Shang Fang's sword, saying that the work manual was stolen by secret agents, stealing the confidential information of our country's nuclear test, arresting people everywhere, shooting people casually, and making a scene of horror, really scary! Extorting confessions I believe that someone committed suicide, but these two "central leaders" described the suicide as homicide, saying that the murderer must be a spy, and then arrest the murderer, and then arrest the spy behind the spy, and arrest many innocent people.All the scientific researchers gathered together to expose each other, creating a mess.At this time, the train could not come in, and the prairie seemed to return to the ancient era of barbaric fighting. One person was caught in our laboratory.Said that he had been to Hong Kong when he was a child and had a relative in Hong Kong.Why did he return to China from Hong Kong? Well, here we are, the spy sent from Hong Kong to steal information!The two "heads of the central government" brought a large group of people to make up a set of secret agent contact methods and codes for him to force him to confess, and even separated his couple to force him to bite.Unable to bear it, he bit indiscriminately, and bit many people, including me.Well, I am the backstage of the spy. The "head of the central government" personally called me a "big shark" at the meeting of ten thousand people, and he must find out the big shark!In this way, I was locked up, exactly in the laboratory in the past, and I myself became an experimental product!The People's Liberation Army guarded the door and dug a small hole in the door to monitor me.Hey, I'm like an atomic bomb, top secret, closely guarded.At first I thought, I participated in the revolution since I was a child, and I was considered a "revolutionary".But the "Cultural Revolution" means that everything in the past is not counted, and now you are what you are.Many founding fathers have become prisoners, what is a stinky intellectual? Later, the spies caught more and more people, and the laboratory was full of people.During the day, each person was given a very low bench, and they sat on it to read quotations, and they were not allowed to move.Then I thought about my own "problems", confessed, interrogated, and were not allowed to talk to each other. They were not allowed to sleep for a while until two o'clock at night, but they were not allowed to turn off the lights, for fear of suicide.But I don't know how to make up nonsense, let alone bite others, and I can't explain anything after interrogation.I don't know who the "secret agent" is.They called me stubborn, and there was only "a dead end" waiting for me.The biggest stimulus to me was the meeting of ten thousand people who shot people not long ago. On this day, the "head of the central government" held a meeting of ten thousand people and said that a group of people would be shot.I remember one of them was a doctor, a surgeon at the base. He broke his arm while performing an operation on a PLA. Usually it was considered a medical accident at most, but it was a serious event at that time.He was born in the bourgeoisie, and the PLA is the pillar of the dictatorship of the proletariat. This is called class revenge!If there is a blood debt, he must be shot.There is also a college student with a low salary. This person has poor ideological quality. He complains and says strange things, saying: "If you don't raise my salary, I will blow up the detonator." .Although it was just a strange remark behind the back, it was impossible to do it, but it was very difficult to force such a strange remark at the time, and it immediately became the most serious crime of the current counter-revolutionary, shoot! On this day, machine guns were set up around the meeting place, and the terror was extremely high. The crowd was very nervous, because it was said that there were still many secret agents hidden in the crowd, and there were many special suspects. Who knew who would be pulled out and shot.I think I'm really "dead end" today.I still dare not think about the feeling at that time, and it is difficult to describe the feeling clearly. Probably because of facing death, my brain is in chaos.I only heard the crimes announced one by one at the meeting and the executions were carried out. I seemed to be waiting for them to call my name.The surgeon and the college student who spoke strange words were shot by Ella on the spot not far from the meeting of thousands of people.The gunshots were clearly heard, and it was not my turn... After the gunshots, they surrounded me and said, "Did you hear the gunshots?" I said, "Yes." It will be you the next day!" Afterwards, a big and violent criticism was launched against me. Although they didn't shoot me, this incident deeply hurt me.I am alive, but many things in my heart have been shattered.The bullet brushed by the side of my fate, and it was impossible for me not to think about things I had never thought deeply about before. After that, for a long period of time, this place was still in great terror, and spies were still being arrested, and "May 16" was also arrested.Some people fled and thought of going to Beijing to sue, but the surrounding grasslands were boundless, so where did they go? They drove around and hunted them down, and when they were caught, they would beat them to death.A demobilized soldier was beaten so badly that he picked up a shovel and fought, of course, only himself was killed.As more and more spies are caught, I am not so focused.What is new is always the momentary focus, and it is always more interesting.When I have nothing to do, I just use my brain to think about technical issues. At this time, my career is already in vain, but whenever I have time, I like to turn my mind around the technology that I am interested in. This may be a habit of intellectuals, a kind of Inertia, maybe subconsciously I haven't completely given up on my career.Besides, all I think about is my lover, where she is, what she is doing, and I don't know anything about her.I thought that she was worried about me, and that was very sad.Later, when the base moved, they were put on a coal truck and transported to the ravine together with other "secret agents".In that isolated place, I continued to live for a period of rest. It wasn't until the Lin Biao incident came out that it was okay to be confused.When I returned to Beijing, my family was surprised, why did I come back like this? Looking at each other, it seemed like a lifetime away.After being surprised and at a loss, he naturally had endless things to say.Later, a scientific research department in Beijing transferred me, and I agreed.From then on, I bid farewell to the distant base, those ups and downs of life, those days of glory and pain.Don't think I left there because I was too sad and disappointed.What was given to me there was not too little but too much.How much I want to go back to the years when I made great achievements for the country.But now everything about those years has passed, and it only remains in my memory.I cherish and regret it.I can only say - if there is anything more powerful than Yuan Yu Tan in the world, it is the "Cultural Revolution"! Wanting to do something for the country is probably the wish of every Chinese intellectual, but suffering because of doing something is the misfortune that all Chinese intellectuals feel.However, carrying this pain and still wanting to do things, is it our strength? Now some people say that this is our most precious part, while others say it is our most tragic part.Which statement is truer? I leave that question to you, who, as a writer, can probably come up with the correct answer. Thinking back to those scientific researchers in our base, each of them has gone through different hardships.Of course, there are a very small number of people who specialize in punishing people during the movement, and who chanted the loudest slogans. They were Mao Zedong Thought pacesetters, and they flourished for a while, but their fate may not be good later.Many people suffered worse than me, and some were driven to death or crazy.There was a scientist who was surrounded by "Zuo Zuo" people in the yard all day long, forcing him to run like an animal, shouting while running, "be lenient when you are frank, be strict when you resist, if you resist to the end, you will die."As for me, I survived this great storm with a clear conscience.I didn't hurt anyone, peace of mind.I have done some good deeds in the past, and I am worthy of the motherland and the people. Now I still hold on to my purpose, behave with integrity, and do things in a down-to-earth manner.Although the pain from the "Cultural Revolution" is still there, I can properly bury it in my heart.No matter what the country entrusts me to do, I still have to work hard to do it well.As long as the country says hello. **The sorrow of the yellow land--while it is being trampled, it still dedicates its fruits sincerely.