Chapter 29 Chapter 28 The Light of Ideal

1 Similar to what happened to Jiao Kun when he sneaked across the border, another educated youth friend of mine, Zeng Yan, was also imprisoned in another Lashio Detention Center in the same year and endured half a year of inhuman torture.She naively went to visit relatives in the Golden Triangle with another female educated youth, but was arrested by the Burmese police and changed her fate ever since.Her fiancé Yang Lin heard that his fiancée was missing, so he resolutely went deep into the Golden Triangle to search, during which life and death happened several times, and countless twists and turns happened.Lovers get married. This pair of wandering young people finally completed the long love marathon. Three years later, they arrived at the same destination. In a mountainous school called Maesle, they became Chinese teachers for Chinese children.

Zeng Yan said: She and her husband Yang Lin taught at Xinghua School in Maesle for seven years. She taught Chinese and Yang Lin taught mathematics and physics.At that time, almost all the teachers in Xinghua School were educated youths from mainland China, and they spent a youthful and memorable time in their lives here. In 1980, Yang Lin decided to leave his wife and family and go to Manxingdie Datong School dozens of kilometers away to teach alone. I asked Zeng Yan: Why did Yang Lin go to Manxingdie to teach?Doesn't he know that the situation there is more complicated and dangerous? Zeng Yan was silent for a while, and I could see that her expression was a little heavy.She said: At that time, there were many rumors about me in Mesle. People were afraid of being famous and pigs were afraid of being strong. Once you became famous, the rumors followed you like a shadow.The Chinese are the same everywhere. They are good at spreading rumors and spreading rumors.Yang Lin decided to go to Manxingdie because of the rumors.In a sense, Yang Lin was also killed by rumors.

I admit that when I was interviewed at Maesle, I did hear some remarks that were detrimental to Zeng Yan's reputation.Many people still repeat the gossip and gossip to me with relish, and describe those specious and romantic stories, as if those things happened only yesterday.I questioned them suspiciously, is it just these memories that Zeng Yan left for Maesle?They answered me confidently: Zeng Yan is famous because of our Messler, how can she enjoy the blessings in Taiwan? Jiao Kun explained: Like all Chinatowns in the world, Messler is characterized by fighting inside. If everyone is mediocre, they will live in peace. If anyone is different, they will be attacked and criticized. .

I have never seen Yang Lin, an educated youth from Kunming. Of course, it does not mean that I have not seen photos of Yang Lin. When I knew Yang Lin, he had already become a photo.Before Yang Lin went to the countryside, he was a child of a family member of Yunnan University, and his parents both taught in a certain department of Yunnan University. It happened that I had studied and taught in Yunnan University for more than ten years. Therefore, when I went to interview at my alma mater, there were many people who knew and were familiar with Yang Lin. Tell the story.In my impression, Yang Lin is a smart, cheerful, enthusiastic and stubborn male educated youth who loves his wife and family deeply, has a sense of responsibility for students, and belongs to the kind of gentleman who is loved by students.The premise of being loved by students is that you must love students more.Yang Lin has a lame leg, which was caused by polio when he was a child. At that time, according to the educated youth policy, he could take care of staying in the city, but he still went to the countryside without hesitation.Zeng Yan recalled fondly that Yang Lin went to the countryside for their love.A few months later, he crossed the border with a lame leg in search of his missing fiancée, and experienced wandering hardships in the golden triangle years that followed.I am moved by their experience.I privately think of them as a pair of lovebirds who live or die for love.

The problem is that his wife Zeng Yan has become famous. Zeng Yan said that she began to write quietly in the early 1970s. In 1976, she published her first novel "Colorful Jade" in Taiwan's United Daily News. Since then, there have been novels such as "Wind and Dust", which are based on the wandering life of educated youths. come out.Her works are visually unique, basically based on the theme of the Golden Triangle and educated youth in mainland China, and have had a wide impact on the Chinese society in Taiwan and Southeast Asia. I asked her: At that time, you were still a homeless educated youth with no fixed residence and no good cultural education.How did you think of writing a novel when you were so young?What is the motivation, want to be a writer, want to be famous?

She replied: Maybe this is fate.The more wandering, the more lonely, the more homesick, the more I have an urge to tell.For example, when I write a letter, I never finish it. When I chat with people, the more things are triggered in my heart, the more I want to write.Gradually, this impulse and desire took root in my heart, like a stick in my throat, and I couldn't spit it out.At that time we had just settled down and lived in a simple thatched hut with no furniture, only a bed and a bamboo dining table.Yang Lin was correcting students' homework at the dinner table, and I was lying on the edge of the bed to write novels.If we talk about motivation, I am afraid it is the impulse and desire to express. If I want to be famous, I want to be a writer, and I want to gain both fame and fortune. At that time, it was simply a fantasy in a place like the Golden Triangle.

I said: How many years did you write your first novel? Zeng Yan: It took about five years to write and revise.I sent it to Taiwan's United Daily News, and it was published unexpectedly. To be precise, it was serialized, and it immediately aroused great repercussions among Chinese in Southeast Asia.I never thought that a writer would be born like this, a writer who writes in a grass shed. I said: How much royalties did you get? Zeng Yan tilted his head and calculated, and replied that it was about 60,000 baht (currency) after deducting taxes, which was a huge sum of money at the time.The monthly salary of our teachers is only 400 baht, so it caused a sensation in the local area, which aroused the envy of some people later. I am afraid that economic income is an important reason.

I said: How do you use this money? Zeng Yan is very sad about the past.She shook her head and said: You know, although Yang Lin has a disabled leg, he is an extremely vigorous and adventurous person. We used the money to buy an off-road jeep, which is an authentic American product. It was difficult, but Yang Lin still drove the car back and forth, having a lot of fun.Later, he crashed someone else's new car, so he sold his car to compensate others.I suddenly understood why Zeng Yan became the target of public criticism.Women, writers, huge money, cars, all these dazzling fame and wealth are unforgivable in a poor and desolate mountainous area, in a patriarchal society centered on soldiers, and Han refugee tribes who have no culture but no lack of desire. Or the unpardonable sin.In other words, if a woman becomes famous, she will definitely become a target of gossip and gossip, which is why tragedies of Ruan Lingyu and others have emerged endlessly in China in this century.

My evaluation of Zeng Yan is intelligent, quiet, persistent and savvy.She writes on her "bed" in such a difficult and primitive place, fighting alone with a small oil lamp, who cares about her hard work?Who has seen the painstaking efforts she puts into writing day and night, year after year?Who would have thought that she would still be a teacher and a mother when she was not writing?If she doesn't succeed, I think people will forgive her and praise her, they will say, look how pitiful she is, she has put in so much effort, but she still has a broken head and blood!So she is a good woman.Tolerance and sympathy for the weak are our common virtues, part of our best national character.The problem is that Zeng Yan unfortunately succeeded, became famous outside, had a huge sum of money and a car, so it was inevitable, or necessary, for her to be hurt by all kinds of anger, otherwise how would you make others psychologically balanced?Other people's psychological imbalance is caused by you, so of course it is your fault.At this time, whether there is a romantic scandal or an affair between men and women becomes unimportant. The important thing is that people will never forgive her, just like we do not forgive rebellion and family scum. Who told Zeng Yan not to enjoy mediocrity like everyone else?

2 Zeng Yan returned to Haihai and lived in another Golden Triangle town for half a year. She lived and wrote here alone, because many Chinese newspapers had already asked her to write articles.More than 20 years later, in 1998, I stayed in Huihai for a few hours and took some pictures of the scenery. Huihai is located in the valley of the Palong Mountains.I was told by a friend that in the past, this was Kunsha's sphere of influence, and Zhang's army had fought against the Thai military and police here. Zeng Yan completed the autobiographical novel "Wind and Dust" in Huihai, and then came to Manxingdie to meet her husband Yang Lin.I think Zeng Yan is a typical oriental woman, gentle and considerate, and loves her husband and children. She divides her limited life into two parts, one for her husband and family, and the other for literature.Such women, even if we don't use the word "perfect", we should at least call them "excellent".If the husband and child are the habitat of Zeng Yan's soul, the sheltered home that gives her the warmth of family affection, then writing or literature is the sun in her life, bringing her homeless and helpless lonely life illuminate.For a person, especially a female educated youth with a romantic spirit burning in her heart, this kind of illumination makes her full of true feelings, sincere hope and love for the future life even in the thorny road.

Manxingdie Datong Middle School is a Chinese school. At that time, there were dozens of Han teachers, most of whom were educated youths from mainland China.Educated youths in the Golden Triangle are not called "educated youths", but "decentralized students" or "little Han people". They are different from the remnants of the Kuomintang army. Although they live in foreign countries, some drug dealers, some sink, and some follow the crowd, they are, after all, cultured cities. Young people, who have received modern education, are the fire seeds of a civilized society, so once they are scattered in barren lands and come to ignorant and barbaric lands, most of them naturally shoulder the responsibility of sowing civilization and educating the country.Maybe this is a law, an inevitability of life, there is no choice, but not having a choice is itself a choice.I learned from interviews that there are hundreds of Chinese schools in the Golden Triangle area, without exception, there are educated youths from mainland China to teach, and some schools still have educated youths as the main teachers. For example, in the Mantang Village Primary School, three of the five gentlemen are from mainland China. I know one of them, an old educated youth surnamed Zhang, who is fifty-one years old and looks old with gray hair.According to conversations, he has been teaching in various parts of the Golden Triangle for nearly thirty years.There is only one class per year, with 20 students in each class, and he has taught at least 600 students.I looked at his gray hair on the temples, and my heart was full of infinite respect.I think, from the perspective of cultural inheritance, should he also be regarded as a Prometheus who spread the fire? Since the remnants of the Kuomintang invaded the Golden Triangle in 1950, a large number of Chinese refugees have flooded into the Golden Triangle due to political turmoil and various social reasons.This large Han tribe has become an important social force influencing the history of the Golden Triangle.It is said that speaking Chinese and learning Chinese became a fashion for a while, just like Chinese people learning foreign languages ​​after the reform and opening up.Various Chinese schools came into being. These Chinese schools are not only open to Chinese students, but also to all local children. Through interviews with many people, I know that Manxingdie Chinese School is very formal, and it is not inferior to schools in Chiang Rai and Chiang Mai outside the mountains. Because of the good school conditions and high remuneration, many educated youths from the Golden Triangle are attracted to teach here. Jiao Kun, Yang Fei, Yang Lin, Zeng Yan and the educated youth surnamed Zhang were all teachers of this school.It is said that Kun Sha often came to the school for inspections, but of course it was not a formal inspection, just walking around and talking to whomever he saw.He likes to visit and chat with educated youths from mainland China, and sometimes has dinner at school or other people's homes, and eats with teachers and students regardless of the details.Kunsha is tall and strong, especially with a big head. This peculiar appearance makes the local mountain people with thin body awe, and they respectfully call him "Zhao Kunsha".As mentioned earlier, "Zhao" means god or emperor.Kun Sha completely kept the habit of the Han people, wearing a shirt and long trousers, and he liked to carry a rattan cane in his hand.This world-famous drug lord is not only interested in drug trafficking. It is said that he has a wide range of knowledge. He often likes to discuss Chinese history, philosophy and political issues with educated youths. I got red in the face. Zhang Suquan will always maintain the dull nature of a professional soldier.He is serious by nature and serious in his work. It is said that no one has ever seen him wearing anything other than military uniform. You can imagine what a rigid and mechanical soldier he is!But others told me at the same time that Zhang Suquan is not just a martial artist. He likes reading, music, and drama. He has an old-fashioned needle record player at home, which is regarded as a treasure, and he collects wood-grain records everywhere. Sometimes people hear that this Henan-born president The chief of staff was humming. It turned out that he liked to hum the Henan opera bangzi from his hometown, and came to a section from time to time.In addition to studying military affairs, he often came to discuss various theoretical and social issues with educated youth.Zeng Yan said that Zhang Suquan liked to visit the school more than Kun Sha. Sometimes he came to the school alone, without guards, and went into the educated youth's dormitory to chat, which lasted most of the night. When he first arrived in Manxingdie, Zeng Yan felt that everything was very fresh, because it was the headquarters of Kunsha, where drug taking, opium cultivation, and drug trafficking and production were not allowed, just like a clean world.I asked Zeng Yan a question that I have asked many people: since they are drug cartels, they should use all means to pursue high profits, so do they live in extravagance, extravagance, corruption, and extravagance? Zeng Yan confirmed: That is a kind of subjective speculation by outsiders.Kunsha and Zhang Suquan did not build any palaces and mansions, nor did they have three wives and four concubines as servants. They all lived in the same iron shack as everyone else.I think what Zeng Yan said is true, because when I was interviewing at Manxingdian, those old sites had been destroyed by war, but many local people took the trouble to describe to me the almost frugal living habits of the big drug lords they saw. I discussed this issue with Jiao Kun, another Golden Triangle poet.I said that if drug traffickers are not looking for money or enjoyment, then why are they? Jiao Kun replied cautiously: Maybe according to what they said, he was fighting for political ideals.Their political ideal is to establish an independent Shan State republic. I said, but in their view, this idealism may be supreme, but at the expense of the long-term and fundamental interests of the majority of people, including the world and the people of Shan State.Isn't it a strange thing that lofty ideals spread the wings of demons? Jiao Kun thought for a while and said: As far as I know, the western developed countries that invest the most in anti-drug control and spend the most in the world today are not the countries with the largest drug dealers and drug lords that started their business a hundred years ago?Can it be said that demons grow angel wings?I was clumsy in speech, and then I admired it, thinking that it is so classic that it can be called a wise saying. 3 In 1980, a small event worth mentioning happened in the Stars Stack. Out of respect for intellectuals, Kun Sha announced to build a house for Yang Lin, Zeng Yan and his wife by the Manxingdie Pond.Of course, it is not a small western-style villa, but an ordinary one-story house with a tin roof and a bamboo fence. There are only two main rooms, and there is nothing extravagant or special about it.It's just that the construction announced by Kunsha belongs to the public expense, which is quite special, which is equivalent to an extraordinary courtesy.Respecting talents and knowledge has become a consensus in today's world. The Golden Triangle has never produced writers, especially female writers. Therefore, from our current point of view, Kun Sha's extraordinary treatment is a manifestation of following the trend and having a strategic vision. The problem lies in the fact that Zeng Yan is a woman, and a female educated youth (not a soldier).The house building incident caused an uproar, and Kun Sha's decision immediately aroused dissatisfaction among many people. Those military officers who made great military exploits on the battlefield questioned: Zeng Yan is just a student sent down, or a woman, and has no credit at all. Why should I build her a house? It can be considered that there would be no Man Xing Die without officers, and Man Xing Die would still exist without Zeng Yan. Therefore, Kun Sha's decision to build a house for Zeng Yan and his wife is unreasonable and untenable.People wondered: Zeng Yan is a young woman, does Kun Sha have any special intentions in doing this? Of course, the house was not completed in the end.Mrs. Kunsha bravely came forward to object. Mrs. Kunsha is a Wa woman who is not used to reasoning. She only cares about Kunsha's two affairs in her life, giving birth to him and not allowing him to find another woman.In this sense, Kun Sha, the big drug lord, also has a glorious tradition of men fearing internal affairs.It is said that Mrs. Kunsha had a big fight with Kunsha and scratched her husband's face on the spot. Kunsha had no choice but to withdraw his decision and never mention the matter of house repairs. When I first heard about it, I was beyond incredible.I think Kun Sha is a well-known drug lord in the world. Isn't it a trivial matter for whom he decides to build an ordinary house?But I quickly understood a truth, that is, what Kunsha is, he is created by the environment. If Kunsha left the social environment that made him Kunsha, would he still become a famous Kunsha? This is equivalent to that people cannot leave the earth by pulling out their hair. Some of the students in Datong Middle School are the children of Manxingdi Han people, and most of them are the children of Kunsha's "Yan Yun Troop".The rock transport unit is what Yang Fei called the boy scouts or the juvenile reserve unit.It is said that Kun Sha was completely inspired by the Chinese Red Guard Movement, and then ordered to recruit boys of all ethnic groups (not limited to Han) in the Golden Triangle, let them receive military training from an early age, live an organized collective life, and at the same time learn cultural knowledge, learn Chinese, and learn from them Instill loyalty to the Shan Republic.He often said that a cultured army can win battles.The children of the Yanyun Army formally join the Kunsha Army when they are sixteen years old and become a real soldier or officer.According to foreign sources, the rock transport troops numbered tens of thousands at most. Zeng Yan, Jiao Kun and Yang Fei have all been the gentlemen of these boy scouts.I asked Yang Fei: Are their parents really willing to send their children to serve as soldiers? Yang Fei replied: Yes, because in the Golden Triangle, serving as a soldier is basically the only way out for the poor, so families with many children are eager to send their children to the army.In this way, in addition to reducing the number of mouths to eat, you can also get a military salary subsidy. Zeng Yan said that the curriculum of Datong School is similar to that in China. Every day, morning reading and evening self-study, there is no shortage of style, music, art, labor and moral education.But there is a little difference, the teaching materials used here are all from Taiwan.For example, the Chinese enlightenment class is the "Three Character Classic": "At the beginning of human beings, nature is good, nature is similar, learning is far away..." Traditional Chinese characters are used instead of the first lessons that mainland students are accustomed to, "Long live Chairman Mao" and "Long live the Communist Party". I asked Zeng Yan: You grew up singing "The East Is Red". Did you adapt to Taiwanese textbooks? Zeng Yan thought about it: There is not much obstacle.They are all Chinese. The "Three Character Classic" has a long history and can be found in ancient culture, so I feel very calm. Textbooks in Taiwan are transported across thousands of mountains and rivers, airlifted, mailed, and then transported into the mountains by caravans. Therefore, textbooks are public property. When students finish a course, the books are left for the next class of students.Yang Lin is a good man. He is rewarded by the school every year. Although he has bad legs, he still likes to play basketball and games with the students, take them to the mountains on weekends for camping, and explain popular science about animals and plants.His colleague Yang Fei, an educated youth in Kunming, recalled that Yang Lin was full of vigor and gave lively lectures, and was deeply loved and respected by the teachers and students of the school. At this time, Zeng Yan was teaching and began to prepare her third nostalgic novel "In That Place where the Raging Waters Surge".The surface of Manxingdui is very calm, with picturesque scenery and the fragrance of birds and flowers. Although the international environment is unpredictable and the Golden Triangle is full of wars, the center of the typhoon is always calm and safe.In fact, this is a kind of false image. In life, there are often many false images that blind our eyes and brains. When we see the false images punctured, cruel disasters have come to our heads like meteorites. At the end of 1981, a fierce battle broke out in Dagudi, more than a hundred miles away, and soon news came that a US colonel from the international anti-drug organization was killed.The Golden Triangle is at war every day, and this is a world of war, so this news did not affect Man Xingdie's normal life.The sun still rises, farmers still work at sunrise and rest at sunset, students still carry their schoolbags to class, the school books are loud, and gentlemen and gentlemen still enter the classroom to give lectures, like gardeners carefully nurturing seedlings.The days are like running water, so calm that there is no sign of a vortex. I think if it wasn't for a terrible morning when black clouds suddenly covered the sky and the war came suddenly, for the female teacher Zeng Yan, her life might have been different. .Destiny is often changed by disasters, whether it leads to heaven or hell. In an instant, her happy family was shattered. 4 Zeng Yan said that she had a dream the day before. First the living room of her house collapsed, and then a plane fell from the sky with black smoke.She couldn't figure out why the living room suddenly collapsed, and why the plane didn't fly well in the sky and insisted on falling to the ground?But before she could figure it out, she saw her husband Yang Lin rushing down the hillside in a carriage. Yang Lin loved sports, but he never saw him drive a carriage?Just as she was surprised, the carriage rushed past her, and she yelled at Yang Lin, wait for me, but when her husband turned around, he turned out to be a terrifying skeleton... With a loud cry, she woke up in a start, her heart pounding, and she broke out in a cold sweat. A female teacher from Kunming, surnamed Zheng, also felt ominous. She was washing clothes by the Manxingdie River. She saw the gloomy wind in the valley in the evening, and a black mist billowed in. She was so frightened that she quickly hid in the house.Later she thought it was a celestial phenomenon, a harbinger of a bloody disaster. The key point was that no one understood the mysteries of heaven and earth at that time.Mr. Zheng is now retired, and spends his twilight years in Mae Sai (also known as Ye Shi), a small town in the Golden Triangle. On January 21, 1982, the sun just came out of the east mountain vigorously. It was an early morning with moist vegetation and fragrant birds and flowers in the Golden Triangle Mountains.As usual, the students gathered on the playground for collective instruction, and then went to the classroom one by one for class. Zeng Yan sat at the door of her house and corrected her homework. She saw her five-year-old daughter, Qiqi, playing on the grass. On this day, there is an important event in Manxingdie, which is not important to ordinary people, and that is the birthday of Zhang Suquan, chief of the general staff of the Shan State United Revolutionary Army.Zhang Suquan was born in 1927, at the age of fifty-five years old, known as "little sixty-year-old" among the people.However, Zhang Suquan is not ostentatious, and he does not make any big arrangements. He just follows the Chinese custom. Relatives, friends and old subordinates and old comrades-in-arms gather together, set up a few tables of wine and food, have a lot of fun, and gain popularity. It is said that Kun Sha will personally congratulate the chief of staff. life. Everything is the same as usual, the air is fresh, the mountains are verdant, the sun is hot and dazzling, and it seems that there are still three days before the Chinese New Year, the Year of the Dog, and the dry season plant poppy in the Golden Triangle has entered the flowering season, and it is less than half a month before the harvest of opium.There were crowds of people coming and going in the stars, a group of soldiers at the school gate came back from an exercise, and the sound of the breakfast horn sounded in the barracks.At this time, her husband, Yang Lin, came out of the house in a hurry, and while starting the motorcycle, he told his wife that he was going to Chiang Rai Mansion at the foot of the mountain to pick up his eldest daughter, Ah Xin, who was studying at a Christian school.Zeng Yan looked down at his watch, it was seven fifty-five, five minutes to eight, and later this moment was engraved in Zeng Yan's brain like a brand for life.Yang Lin has inconvenient legs, but he is a first-class driver. This beloved Japanese motorcycle has almost become his third leg. He always drives to the school or the street a few hundred meters away.His wife, Zeng Yan, raised her face and watched her husband on the motorcycle get further and further away, and soon turned into a small black spot, disappearing into a cloud of light gray mist on the hillside. Zeng Yan never expected that this would be the last goodbye between her and her husband. Destiny is a devil, Zeng Yan said. The husband stepped on the motorcycle and waved his hands to her, telling her to take care of his little daughter Qiqi. This familiar face, expression and gestures are like a magnified photo, permanently fixed on his wife in memory. At 7:55 a.m. on January 21, 1982, her husband Yang Lin just left without realizing his fate. About half an hour later, that is, around 8:30, Zeng Yan looked at his watch again. The student training had ended and classes had begun in the classroom, while her husband Yang Lin was riding a motorcycle on the rugged mountain road to Chiang Rai.Of course she didn't know and couldn't know, in fact, Yang Lin had already discovered the abnormal situation outside the mountain at this time, and was rushing to the school from outside. Zeng Yan said that he learned afterwards that Yang Lin could have gone straight down the mountain, regardless of school affairs, or hid in a safe place, then he would not be in any danger. Like all survivors, he is still healthy. And live happily, live a happy life.But he didn't choose to hide to protect himself, but immediately turned around and rushed back to school. The constant rhythm of the school is class. The stars in the deep mountains are like all remote mountain villages in the world. They are poor and busy. The villagers start their monotonous life again and again. Zeng Yan corrects homework at the door of his house. Qiqi was catching a small blue grasshopper, while the male educated youth named Yang Lin was driving a motorcycle crazily and galloping a few miles away.This is a panoramic picture left to us by history.We see that occupying the central position of the picture, that is, the eastern sky where the sun rises, a group of armed helicopters rumbles out. 5 This is a terrible moment. Thunder sounded in the quiet air, or rather like a string of muffled thunder rolling in the clear sky, the continuous and huge roar stunned the residents of Manxingdie.They looked up to the sky, and saw that the sky was as clear as water without a trace of cloud, and the blue sky was as soft and deep as the ocean. A group of frightened birds jumped up from the woods and hid in the depths of the blue sky in panic.A round of sun had just risen from the top of the mountain. Under the huge background of the red sun shining and thousands of golden lights, a group of giant black birds that were said to be able to carry mountains lined up in neat formation, and appeared murderously above the star stack. The entire Starstack was shocked by this unprecedented spectacle. Many people had never seen an armed helicopter, and everyone's experience combined had never seen so many helicopters.The teachers and students of the school ran out of the classroom one after another, staring blankly at the air, just like we watch pilots show in peacetime.Of course, the helicopters are definitely not here to perform peace performances, nor are they here to observe the National Day ceremony or to open the eyes of the residents of Manxingdie. They are here to fight wars and fight to the death.All kinds of rockets, bombs and machine guns on the plane have already aimed at the drug kingdom, and the pilots have been ordered to resolutely eliminate this cancer that endangers the national interests and the safety of human beings in the world.Soldiers fight for justice and for the elimination of drugs. This is a holy war. Who doesn't support the removal of drugs, the heinous devil, from our blue planet? Almost at the same moment, the ground trembled like an earthquake, and dozens of rolling armored vehicles and tanks, as well as a large number of black soldiers wearing steel helmets appeared on the hills surrounded by stars.It was only later that people learned that this was a decisive encirclement and suppression of the largest drug trafficking group in the Golden Triangle jointly initiated by the international community and the government.The battle was carefully arranged on the occasion of Zhang Suquan's birthday, in order to wipe out all the big drug lords. Suddenly, the sound of guns and guns rang out, and the transparent air immediately shattered like glass, and crowds of people running for their lives in panic like ants were everywhere.The helicopter fired first, firing rockets at the star stacks. The school playground was a prominent target, so those exposed teachers became targets.The heat wave from the bomb explosion was suffocating, gunpowder was everywhere, the machine guns rattled, and the dense bullets were like countless poisonous bees. They frantically chased the panicked fleeing crowd, beat them to pieces and threw them mercilessly into the death vortex. Soon there was the palpitating sound of steel crushing from tanks and armored vehicles in the village, and the sound of various explosions and shooting was deafening.Zeng Yan hugged her youngest daughter Qiqi tightly, like an old hen protecting her chicks, with her head on the ground, her body trembling like fallen leaves in a storm.At least a few days later, she found out that at this critical moment, when shells and bombs were raining down, her dearest husband, Yang Lin, an educated youth from Kunming who was slightly lame and somewhat inconvenient, made an earth-shattering expression. Saying goodbye to her and her child in a heroic way. Of course, Zhang Suquan's birthday banquet was not successful, Kun Sha and his team quickly gave up on Star Stacks, got into the ravine and retreated.The large-scale suppression by government forces lasted for three days, and except for those who fled into the mountains, it basically turned Manxingdie into a no-man's land.Zeng Yan and a group of refugees took the opportunity to hide on the mountain, and then walked to the Kawa village outside the mountain to seek refuge.Although she has always worried about her husband's safety, she knows that Yang Lin will go down the mountain to pick up her eldest daughter, so she thinks that Yang Lin is safe, and her eldest daughter is also safe. Happy reunion of people.War is like a typhoon at sea, and personal boats are left to fate.Those three days seemed to last three long years. The female educated youth Zeng Yan suffered in the hopeless darkness, like a boat drifting in a vast storm.Zeng Yan said that she was not very pessimistic at the time, believing that the war would soon pass and the family would be reunited. The storm finally subsided.The army declared the war over, and civilians were allowed to return to Starstack.At this time, Zeng Yan was walking on the road in a state of anxiety. She asked Yang Lin everywhere, and believed that her husband and eldest daughter were also looking for them all over the world.In a cottage called Huipeng a few miles away from Manxingdie, she finally heard the exact news about her husband. It was a sad news. Someone told her that Yang Lin was dead, and was killed in a school bomb. . A thunderbolt from the blue sky!Zeng Yan passed out immediately, and her world was shattered. It took a long time before she finished listening to this heroic story intermittently.Not long after the war started, Yang Lin rushed back to the school on his motorcycle. At that time, the campus was in a mess and the helicopter was firing. Motorcycle, physical strength, familiar terrain, quick mind, but he did not choose to escape.He turned around and rushed up to the smoky school building, pulled down a fluttering blue school flag and waved it vigorously towards the helicopter.The school flag was flying, the wind blew his thick black hair flying, and the bullets whizzed past his ears, but he was not afraid at all.Later, when I interviewed in the Golden Triangle, many living people confirmed to me that they witnessed this thrilling and heroic scene. On the morning of January 21, 1982, Yang Lin, a thin Kunming male educated youth, stood high on the roof of Manxingdie School. He bravely waved the school flag and shouted something hoarsely.These sentences composed of Kunming dialect form a fragile barrier, like a weak human body, they are quickly shattered by bullets and fall to the dust on the ground.It is said that the main slogan of Yang Lin's demonstration against the plane was as follows: "Go away! ... This is a school! ... No shooting! ... Bastard!" and so on. A rocket exploded on the roof of the building, and the human body was thrown high into the air, just like the popular bungee jumping nowadays. People are pulled high by an invisible spring rope, and then they open their arms and gracefully throw themselves into the sky full of people. In the air of war.However, Yang Lin didn't fly up, he fell heavily on the ground like a shot bird, or like a broken brick, blood splashed, and a sunflower bloomed on the ground.Someone heard a heavy sigh from the male educated youth's chest, as if regretting something, but also seemed very satisfied, then he tilted his head, buried his face deeply in the ground, and kissed the land of the Golden Triangle that suffered so much misfortune and suffering... 6 Zeng Yan told me in 1999 that she wanted to sue the United Nations and seek compensation from the United Nations.I thought I had heard wrongly. Suing the United Nations and suing the United Nations are two completely different things.Zeng Yan said with certainty that he was suing the United Nations!Because the United Nations anti-drug organization killed Yang Lin by mistake, and Yang Lin was just an innocent civilian, an unarmed peace teacher!He was unarmed, had nothing to do with drugs, and was killed by the army to protect the school. I express my support for Zeng Yan's just demands, but my attitude is only out of moral support and emotional inclination for my friend.I personally think that Zeng Yan's accusation will not succeed, even if she is a strong and resilient woman, there is no reason for miracles. Because from the perspective of the United Nations, they will find a bigger and more sufficient reason.They will say that there is nothing wrong with dispatching the army to fight drugs. Isn't Manxingdie the headquarters of the Golden Triangle drug lord Kunsha?Isn't it our responsibility and obligation to crack down on drug lords and fight against drugs?And those government soldiers and US military officers and soldiers have no responsibility, because they were ordered to fight against the world's largest drug kingdom. This is a just war, a holy war, to eradicate drugs and protect thousands of human families from drugs. A life-and-death contest between justice and evil due to violations.They fired guns and rockets at Starstacks, which is not wrong, because this is war, and you can't ask soldiers to distinguish between good guys and bad guys, drug dealers or civilians on the battlefield before firing.战争就是你死我活，是残酷而且不讲道理的事业，战场上只有胜负而没有对错之分。要奋斗就会有牺牲，许多军人也就是人民的优秀儿女都在禁毒扫毒战争中献出自己的宝贵生命，包括那个在大谷地阵亡的美军上校，他们难道有什么错吗？他们不是最可爱的人吗？ 至于那些误伤平民，哪一场战争受害最烈的不是平民百姓呢？第一次世界大战，第二次世界大战，抗日战争，韩战越战，军队伤亡几百万，老百姓的伤亡损失却是这个数字的几十倍几百倍之巨！谁对他们进行赔偿呢？他们不是都默默承受战争的灾难后果吗？即使是侵略者战败国日本，至今也拒不接受我们的战争赔款要求，他们难道不该赔款吗？谁来主持这个正义呢？所以我估计联合国官员会这样回答曾焰，你去控告大毒枭坤沙并向坤沙索赔吧，因为他是罪魁祸首，没有他就没有满星叠扫毒之战，也就没有平民教师杨林之死，所以一切根源皆出于毒枭之罪。 但是这本书即将完稿之时，曾焰又来信说，她想通了，已经放弃这个想法，因为这是不实际的，是自己一时激愤。我充分理解我的朋友曾焰，并为她服从理智而不仅仅是情感感到高兴。 战争之后五个月，也就是公元1982年6月，曾焰获准前往台湾大学读书并在当地定居。当她和孩子第一次走出生活了十二年的金三角，走出这片似乎没有尽头的崇山峻岭并走进象征现代文明的飞机场时，她有一种结束漂泊和回家的熟悉感觉。当飞机腾空而起，她注视着机翼下面蜿蜒起伏的山脉和郁郁葱葱的森林，她想最后再看一眼美斯乐和满星叠，看看那座已经长出青草长眠着亲爱丈夫杨林的坟墓，但是她什么也没有看见。金灿灿的太阳从地平线上升起来，仿佛播下万道火种，一刹那所有明晃晃的山脉和丛林仿佛都在燃烧，金三角像火炬般灼疼她的眼睛和灵魂。她突然感到一种根被拔起的撕裂的疼痛，这时她明白自己不仅在那片人迹罕至的土地上留下难以忘怀的青春岁月，同样也留下生命的根。 储蓄一生的眼泪闸门打开来，她几乎把飞机淹没在泪水里，幸亏机上空姐见惯眼泪和生离死别，才没有手忙脚乱地影响正常航班。