Chapter 28 Chapter 27 Educated Youth Huo Merge

1 Gao Liansheng, a male educated youth, is a person who thinks of himself as aloof and is not easy to get along with others.He was born in a middle school teacher's family in Beijing. It is said that his father was an intellectual with great ambition but frustrated. Therefore, Gao Liansheng inherited all his father's shortcomings from birth.He loves fantasy, is obsessed with books and idealism, is cynical, and looks down on the majority of his classmates who have the habits of ordinary citizens, and most of these classmates are the children of the five red workers and peasants.As a result of his assiduous study of Marxism-Leninism, he was even more ignorant of China's national conditions and even more divorced from the masses. It was this kind of self-admiration that prompted him to yearn for and devote himself to the revolutionary torrent outside the country.

The moon in foreign countries is not rounder than in China, especially the moon in the Golden Triangle.Not only did he fail to find the ideal revolutionary team, but he became a shameful smuggler and was imprisoned in a Burmese prison.Later, the development of things continued to go to the opposite of his wishes, and he had to degenerate to the point where he joined the remnant army of the Kuomintang and the smuggling caravan.The point is that in this smoky Golden Triangle, he is as insignificant as a mouse and can't help himself. Once he leaves this Chinese-speaking army, he will be arrested by someone who doesn't know, and put in prison or on the spot. Being beaten to death is worse than the fate of pigs and dogs, so he gave up the latter in the dilemma of saving his life and saving his soul.

Gao Liansheng is like a person suspended in mid-air. He became a member of the KMT's merchant protection team out of necessity, because he had nowhere to go and had to succumb to the arrangement of fate.But he is unwilling to degenerate willingly, so his spirit often rises up to rebel against everything in front of him, which makes his personality split and act abnormally.In the eyes of outsiders, his behavior is often weird and incomprehensible: he is proud but depressed; Unhappy fate. On a business trip, he saw with his own eyes Liu Heizi and Yu Xiaobing hiding a heavy package under the pack, and he reported it to Captain Huang.But Captain Huang didn't seem to believe it, and he didn't take the initiative to capture the stolen goods. After a few days, he lingered to identify the stolen goods. Heavy machine gun tripod.

The officer's slap did not wake Gao Liansheng soberly. The educated youth in Beijing is a person who insists on the truth. He will never give up easily, not to mention he thinks that he has done nothing wrong.In order to defend his innocence, he monitored Liu Heizi more seriously, determined to seize their criminal evidence.At this time, Liu Heizi had already recruited all the educated youths in the team to be his accomplices. When Gao Liansheng was beaten, they all gloated, and no one stood up to intercede for him.In other words, Gao Liansheng has been isolated by his educated youth comrades and peers, and has become everyone's enemy.On the way back, a bullet misfired at night. Someone accidentally pulled the breech and fired a string of bullets in the tent where Gao Liansheng was sleeping. A bloody corpse.

After the fire incident, Gao Liansheng was distraught, knowing that he had nowhere to go, so he tried to transfer away from the caravan.It happened that the school came to select students from among the educated youths. Gao Liansheng could write quite well in calligraphy and was no stranger to traditional Chinese characters (Golden Triangle uses traditional Chinese characters), so he was selected to teach at Xinghua School in Maesle, where the headquarters is located. At this time, he met Jiang Xiaoling, a female educated youth from Kunming. They had suffered together in the Lashio Detention Center and met each other, but Jiang Xiaoling left the country because of a mistake.She had a bad relationship with a female educated youth who jumped in line, and everyone accused her of stealing five catties of food stamps. For the damn five catties of food stamps, she left the country in a fit of anger to prove her innocence.Looking at it now, how naive and ridiculous this wrong idea is. The problem is that Jiang Xiaoling, a female educated youth at that time, was only 16 years old. According to our constitution today, she is a minor and does not have the ability to be independent. It is naive and easy. The wrong age, so it turned out later that she had to pay a heavy price for her youth and naivety.

In the Golden Triangle, Han women are a rarity, and Han girls from China are even rarer, and female students who have studied and educated are the most precious treasures, so Jiang Xiaoling was assigned to be a nurse in the military medical office. People framed and tortured her for a few catties of poor food stamps.In the Lashio Detention Center, Jiang Xiaoling was dark and thin, with a flat chest, like an underdeveloped junior high school student. Gao Liansheng didn't pay attention to this yellow-haired girl at all, so when he saw the nurse Jiang Xiaoling in Maesle, I didn't recognize it for a while.

In the Golden Triangle, a society full of men in military uniforms, the nurse lady is all in white, like an angel in white clothes that is not stained by the mud, appearing gracefully in front of you, attracting many envious and curious eyes.The nurse was wearing a mask, she looked noble and mysterious, she only showed a pair of big black eyes to make you think wildly, so when the nurse timidly called Gao Liansheng, not only did he not respond, but also opened his mouth wide, that This look is really surprised and silly. Jiang Xiaoling had to take off her mask to reveal Lushan's true face hidden behind the mask. She was already mentally prepared. If Gao Liansheng treated her coldly, she would not talk to him. Anyway, there are many men here who want to court her.The problem is that this time Gao Liansheng is not only not as lofty and arrogant as before, but also makes a nearly suffocating "oh, oh..." sound from his throat. almost.

"Don't you remember me?" Jiang Xiaoling said, "In Lashio, we were locked in a prison." "Yes, we were locked together." The educated youth in Beijing said, "At that time... we knew each other." "Are you okay now?" the nurse looked down at her toes and said. "It's okay, okay." The educated youth in Beijing also lowered his head, looked at his toes and said, "I'm now a teacher, and I'm in the school opposite the hospital." The female educated youth raised her eyes to look at him, and said, "It's great to be Mr., congratulations."

The male educated youth also took a look at her, and quickly said: "Where is it, you are still good, saving lives and healing the wounded, just like Dr. Bethune." From then on, the two sympathetic people came together. 2 The Golden Triangle is big and small, and anything about the educated youth will spread no matter how far away it is. It didn't take long for this matter to reach Liu Heizi's ears. He called the brothers from the Qinglong Gang to discuss it, and said, "I heard that guy has an affair with female educated youths in the hospital. We can't let them get better."

Qin Dali asked puzzledly: "They are good, what do we care about?" Liu Heizi glanced at him and said, "I just don't allow them to be nice, and I don't want them to be happy. What if Gao Liansheng exposes our affairs?" Yu Xinhua said: "My wife used to be locked up with that woman named Jiang Xiaoling. She has a weird temper and doesn't care much about others." Jiao Kun originally wanted to teach, but he didn't want his position to be taken away by Gao Liansheng, so he felt very upset.He said angrily: "Go and disturb them, tell them to get better."

Liu Heizi glanced at him, and said to him, "I'll send you there, how about it?" Jiao Kun is relatively cowardly, and is often useless at critical moments. He belongs to the kind of white-faced scholar who talks but doesn't do anything, so he keeps his mouth shut and doesn't speak.Qin Dali volunteered and said, "I'll beat him up to make him understand." Unexpectedly, Gao Liansheng would not buy the account of the "Qinglong Gang" at all, and with his girlfriend, his courage doubled, and he fought with Qin Dali on the spot, knocking out the opponent's two front teeth, and his own eyes were swollen, with dark circles like giant panda.Qin Dali came back and recounted what had happened, especially when he said, "He said he would sue you all to a military court and shoot you." Out murderous. Yu Xiaobing looked at everyone and said: "Since this is the case, there is no way to keep him. I just don't do it, and I don't stop. If there is him, I will not have him, and if I have him, I will not have him!" Qin Dali said: "Kill that girl together to save her from talking too much." Many years later, Jiao Kun, the person involved, recalled that this almost crazy and brutal murder was hardly premeditated, as simple as killing a chicken or a dog, and the matter was decided.To be precise, the fate of two educated youths of the same age, who are "the same degenerate people in the world", is decided by another group of educated youths.They found an old excuse that couldn't be an excuse at all, "catch rape", so this group of former old Red Guards, led by gang leader Liu Heizi, stormed into Gao Liansheng's residence aggressively.Gao Liansheng is a young man with a chivalrous demeanor. When he saw that the other party was not kind, he quickly used his body to protect his girlfriend.There was a calm and happy smile on Liu Heizi's young face. He unhurriedly raised the muzzle of the gun to have a look, and gently blew away the invisible dust on the barrel, and then slowly pointed at the gun that was bigger than himself. The educated youth in Beijing who was a few years older moved his fingers and fired several times.Jiao Kun saw a strange expression of astonishment and pain on Gao Liansheng's face, and his body curled up like a shrimp. Instead of struggling, he sighed softly from his throat, and then fell heavily under the table.Liu Heizi's smoking gun had already been raised, but when he saw the plump body of the female educated youth, he changed his mind temporarily. "...I want to play with you, bitch!" He lifted up the clothes of the stunned female educated youth with the barrel of his gun, and said maliciously, "Is it comfortable for you to sleep with him? I let you have a good time today !" He swung his arm, slapped the female educated youth severely, slapped her in the face, and then wanted to rape her.Yu Xiaobing stopped him and said, "No, brother! You can either kill her or marry her!" Liu Heizi was very disappointed and went out cursing.Yu Xiaobing winked at Qin Dali, who shot the female educated youth lying on the ground. 3 The educated youth fire incident has not been seriously pursued, or basically no one has pursued it.In the Golden Triangle, the folk customs are wild and violent, and incidents of fighting with weapons happen from time to time. In the eyes of outsiders, this is a sexual incident of jealousy and jealousy, which belongs to the civil strife among educated youths.It is said that someone reported this to the Supreme Commander Duan Xiwen. General Duan was smoking opium at the time, and he said lightly: "Tell them, don't mess around!" The bodies of Gao Liansheng and Jiang Xiaoling were hastily buried.They are all withdrawn people with few friends, and their relatives are far away in the mainland. No one even knows their blood and tears and grievances, so this lonely man and widow have no choice but to sink into the ground and depend on each other.Later, I asked to take a photo of their graves, but Jiao Kun led me around the mountain for a long time, but I couldn't find where they belonged. After all, the paper could not contain the fire, and rumors of the smuggling of the educated youth gradually spread, so it was reported that the headquarters would send people to investigate soon.This news is very important, because secretly carrying opium and stealing guns are capital crimes, Liu Heizi was so determined that he did not do anything, and dragged a dozen people with guns and quietly went to Chiang Mai overnight.Taking away the human gun is the most serious crime, which is tantamount to "rebellion". The incident was immediately reported to the headquarters. It is said that Duan Xiwen lost his temper, slapped the table and cursed, saying that these little bastards are wolf cubs who can't support their families!Qian Yunzhou ordered the spy brigade to send people to chase after them. After all, these educated youths were not from the mountains. They actually lost their way at night and were caught up by the pursuers, so a fight broke out.Yu Xinhua was beaten to death on the spot, Liu Heizi was captured with a wounded leg, and the rest escaped the pursuers and disappeared. I asked Jiao Kun: Why didn't you follow them down the mountain? Jiao Kun said, it was also predestined.At that time, I had already taken Gao Liansheng's place as a teacher at the school. You saw that I was a scholar, with a thin body, not suitable for marching and fighting. Afraid of being implicated, let's go with them, who knows what fate will be in the future?After thinking about it, I felt that escaping is not a disaster, but a disaster that cannot be avoided, so I found an excuse to shirk them. I asked them what was their fate afterwards?I know the old paragraph, he is an editor in Chiang Mai, and who else is there? Jiao Kun shook his head straight, his face was uglier than crying.He said: Liu Heizi was dragged back by the horse and locked in a hole in the earth. I went to see him quietly.Knowing that he was going to die, he cheered up and comforted me, saying, don't worry, one person does things and one person is responsible, and I, Liu Heizi, will not confess to anyone.I heard later that he was caught covering the escape of others. I asked suspiciously: "Where did you say it was locked... in the earth cave?"Is it a dungeon? Jiao Kun said sadly: You don't know that the earth cave is the cruelest punishment in the Golden Triangle, and the death row inmates who committed serious crimes are all locked in it.Earth caves can be divided into dry caves and snake and scorpion caves. Dry caves slowly torture people to death, while snake and scorpion caves only take an hour or two to turn a living person into a pile of bones. I was very interested, and hurriedly asked: What kind of earth cave, is it still there now, can you show me? No matter what he said, Jiao Kun reluctantly agreed. Regarding the whereabouts of several other people, I briefly add the following: After Yu Xinhua's death, his wife Zhou Zhaodi was taken over by a local remnant army detachment leader, and later left his hometown without knowing whereabouts.Yu Xiaobing and Qin Dali broke into the underworld in Chiang Mai, and once became the overlord of one side, still known as the "Qinglong Gang".But the good times didn't last long. A few years later, the Qinglong Gang was defeated in a black-on-black fire, and Yu Xiaobing was killed. It is said that he was burned to death by a flamethrower.Qin Dali escaped from the underworld by chance, and has been living a fugitive life incognito for more than ten years. I stared at Jiao Kun and said: You must know the whereabouts of Qin Dali, right?I want to meet him. Jiao Kun looked at the ground and said slowly, I don't have an address!We have long lost touch. I'll expose his lie right away.I said: No!You are good friends, both educated youths in Kunming, and friends in need.Please, let me meet him!I promise not to let his secret out. He twisted his neck back and forth hesitantly, and finally nodded. 4 I believe that if it wasn't for Jiao Kun's timely rescue, I might have gone crazy out of despair.This was one of the scariest dirt cave experiences I've ever had. The so-called soil caves, I imagine, are nothing more than cellars or dry wells in northern China. I have visited the dungeons of the Bai Mansion in Zhazidong, Chongqing, the water prison of Liu Wencai, the concentration camp of Japanese devils, and the secret prisons of slave owners before the peaceful liberation of Tibet, etc. .I even lingered in the Fortress Prison in Singapore where the Japanese devils held British and American prisoners of war and the concentration camps in Poland where the German fascists were. I believe that if a person becomes a prisoner, it means that his fate is that of a poor animal, such as a mouse or a chicken. Pigs and dogs are about the same. On a shallow hillside, there are several iron houses built. The houses are low and dilapidated, and there is nothing unusual from the outside.Jiao Kun walked in front, he gently opened the door, and the bamboo fence fell down with a clatter, and a choking cloud of dust and dust rose from the ground.I saw that the house was empty and there was nothing there except a large stone slab on the ground.Just as he was about to ask Jiao Kun, he bent down and lifted the stone slab in the center of the room with difficulty, then pointed to the bottom and said to me: This is the earth cave! I looked up and couldn't help but gasp.I don't know how deep or how big the hole is. Anyway, it's so dark that you can't see anything, like the legendary bottomless pit.Darkness tends to evoke horror associations.I said: Is there a...poisonous snake down there?I heard my voice tremble a little bit. Jiao Kun replied: This is a dry hole.The snake cave is next door. My legs began to tremble, which is a physical manifestation of guilty conscience and timidity.I consider myself an emotional person, but by no means a brave person, because I might back off now.I forced myself to calm down and said: How deep is the hole...?Is there any water in it?While preparing a thick rope for me to go down, Jiao Kun said: This is on the south slope, there will be no water.It's hard to say how deep the hole is, but I'm afraid it's ten or twenty meters, which isn't too deep. My head "buzzed", what a fuck!It's equivalent to a seven-story building and it's not too deep, so go down and try it!After thinking about it, I obviously had to do this myself, but I forced others to help, so what's the matter with Jiao Kun?So I had no choice but to bite the bullet and go down the hole. Jiao Kun tied a thick rope around my waist and pushed me down the cave wall little by little.Because I need to fully experience the feeling of death row prisoners. I heard that those death row prisoners were naked and locked in the cave alone, so I was also naked, without lighting tools such as torches and matches.It was getting dark, and the little light at the entrance of the cave was hanging above my head, getting farther and farther away from me, and soon became a paper-cut moon pasted on the window.My feet finally thumped, and when it was over, Jiao Kun pulled up the rope according to the prior agreement, and then covered the stone slab at the entrance of the cave.The moon disappeared, and all sound, light, and living things left me. I was left alone in the depths of a seven-story building in the center of the earth, in a dry well, no, to be precise, in a real tomb. The darkness was like a tide, and there was a dead silence all around.I think the deepest seabed in the world is just like this. When a person puts his hands in front of his eyes but can't see anything, and his eyes have lost their function, he will feel frightened.Man is an animal that needs light, and darkness makes people think of death. I fumbled around with my hands.I estimate that this earth hole is about four or five square meters in size. From time to time, I step on some bumpy things under my feet, but I dare not touch them with my hands. I guess they are dead bones.The thought made my scalp tingle and my extremities cold, and I bit my lip to keep myself from screaming.I tried my best to imagine myself as a death row prisoner back then. If a dying person, a person who knew he would end well, would he be afraid of these dead bones?I tried to convince myself not to imagine those disgusting skeletons, but to concentrate my energy, adjust my breathing, and sit down without distractions, just like doing qigong meditation. In this way, I gradually sank into the state and became a real death row prisoner.I saw Liu Heizi, who was also imprisoned in this earthen cave, raised his head towards me, and I saw that he had a mustache all over his face, like Song Jiang imprisoned in a death row. I sat next to that dying old educated youth peer. 5 I asked Liu Heizi: Why did you kill someone?Isn't this what you deserve? He replied yes, I killed no less than a dozen people in Chongqing Wudou. At that time, I was not yet sixteen years old, and I was still a middle school student.All my life I've been taught the only way to be successful is to ... shoot people. I said do you regret it?If you had the chance to repent? He shook his head and said, no, I don't repent, if I don't kill people, won't others kill me too?If everyone didn't have a gun, I wouldn't have a chance to kill someone.I believe I did nothing wrong, I just did what I should have done at the time. I angrily retorted that you beat people to death in Chongqing, and then slipped further and further along the wrong road, illegally crossing the border, smuggling drugs, shooting educated youths, etc. Is this what a new Chinese youth should do? I could clearly see him laughing, but there was no sound, so the sight horrified me.He said, what are you in a hurry for?If there hadn’t been for the Cultural Revolution and the Chongqing Fighting, I wouldn’t have killed people in the fight, I wouldn’t have crossed the border illegally, I wouldn’t have smuggled drugs, and of course I wouldn’t have killed those two educated youths.There is always a causal relationship between the occurrence and development of things. You can't engage in one-sidedness and metaphysics. I was surprised to find that he was very debating, like a philosopher.I said you have no responsibility? He said that of course I was responsible. I shouldn’t have protected my brothers with loyalty when I went down the mountain, but they should have taken the initiative to protect me.I am the eldest brother and the leader of the gang, but when it comes to critical moments, they all become very selfish and afraid of death.But I have nothing to complain about. My early girlfriend, Yang Hongyan, was pushed to the ground by those Burmese soldiers. I knew it would be a tragic end to wait for her, but wasn’t I also afraid of death?Didn't he dare not move, and only cared about his own life? I thought he should shed a tear, but he didn't.I said, don't you sum up some lessons? He said viciously, "If people do not do it for themselves, heaven and earth will destroy it!"... ... I was taken aback. Of course, this was by no means a supernatural miracle that I actually encountered, a conversation with dead souls, but a spiritual exploration with historical objects as a kind of experience.How the old educated youth Liu Heizi, who was imprisoned in the earthen cave, thought and fantasized, whether he regretted it, or realized his enlightenment, is unknown. That happened more than twenty years ago, and it is very far from the train of our times today. Far away, just like our ancestors have become the dust of history.However, once I sank (to be precise, was hung by a thick rope) into this dark earth cave, time and space were reversed, and I believed that the writer Deng Xian who lived under the sun and was about to enter the 21st century disappeared, and many The death row prisoner Liu Heizi was resurrected in the darkness of the cave. The earth is silent, everything is silent.In this timeless space, like a lost child, I was completely lost.There was no time (I didn't wear a watch), no sound, no light, just the cold and damp rotten smell of the earth surrounding me.The darkness squeezes my brain like a heavy stone, I hear my heart beating violently, blood flowing loudly in my blood vessels, I hear my joints and bones rattling dullly due to rust, my eyes and ears are full of pain due to the oppression of silence Hallucinations, at this point I think I'm screwed.My opinion is that if you are on death row, if you are going to live, then being alive is your only obstacle! Originally, I made an appointment with Jiao Kun. He left me after he put me down in the earth cave, and picked me up after 24 hours, that is, one day and one night. I needed to fully experience the feeling of death.But then I suddenly regretted it.I think, if that person named Jiao Kun has evil intentions, he just needs to forget that there is a living person under the earth hole, so I have to rot quickly and be evaporated by the air and darkness. This earth hole is My grave, my eternal home.Since then, there will never be a mainland writer named Deng Xian in the world, and this mystery will never be solved. I was so sad that I burst into tears, sobbing softly, as if this disaster had become real.I found that people are really fragile things, and sometimes they destroy themselves without the need for others to harm them.For example, if you think you have cancer, you scare yourself to death, but in fact, you may not have any cancer at all.In order to persevere, I kept asking myself: How long can you persist?Ten days, fifteen days?Still a week?I think I can last at least a week or more, and I drink my own urine to survive, so this answer gives me a little more confidence. Suddenly, I heard something strange, really, because of the dead silence, my hearing became very sensitive.My nerves suddenly tense.The voice became louder and rustling, and it was slowly swimming somewhere above my head, like a mouse, and like... a snake! sky!I was out of my wits, and my hairs stood up one by one. I'm like a blind man, I can't see anything, which means I have no power to resist.What should I do if the poisonous snakes and scorpions in the earth cave next door smell the smell and crawl over?In case of a long period of time, there are some cracks and gaps in these earth holes, and I will have no choice but to die without a place to bury me!I regret it too much, I am so stupid, in order to achieve 100% true experience of life, I refused to carry flashlights and self-defense weapons, which means that I am now on my own, without any defense capabilities, like a mollusk waiting to be caught! I finally screamed out in fright, not roaring, but screaming, screaming, howling before dying.To my surprise, in the silent depths of the earth, the sound rolling out of my throat was so loud, it was like a train whistle, and it almost deafened my ears.I thought, maybe it will scare those horrible things away, anyway, the roar is also a weapon.But I thought about it again, if the sound waves collapsed the soil hole, wouldn't I be buried alive?Isn't that tantamount to suicide?Seven floors underground, who can save me?Even if I were to be dug out with great pains in the future, I would still be a corpse, and I could only hold a memorial service. Thinking about it this way, I immediately frightened my voice back.I secretly prayed in my heart: God, Jiao Kun, come and save me!The cave must not collapse, and the snake must not come, I will endure it a little bit, anyway, we must hold on! Strange to say, the noise really disappeared. I don't know if I was frightened by the roar.I thought maybe it was an earthworm, and the earthworm was digging the soil, not a snake or a scorpion at all.Thinking about it this way, at least I feel that my nerves are not so tense.I found that people still need to numb themselves. People who are too sensitive often end badly. For example, in a plane crash, you have a heart attack first, but the plane makes an emergency landing, and they don’t die together with you.I have already figured out a countermeasure. If there is another sound, I will still roar twice, pretending to be very fierce. The animal kingdom is the law of the jungle.But don't knock the hole down... I don't know how long it has passed, and I don't know whether I am awake or asleep. In short, in the dark, people can't tell the difference between reality and illusion, thought and reality.A thin ray of light came in from overhead, and the hole opened up little by little, and then the bright round moon rose high and appeared in my sky.I pinched my thigh, felt a little numbness, a little pain, and slapped myself again, a burning pain spread from my cheek, only then did I believe that I was awake, and all of this was real.In other words, I was saved!I suddenly felt that what is best in the world is to have light, to have the sun, to live and breathe, to have someone to talk to you, to live among human beings like you, and not to live among earthworms and death... My tears flowed down all at once, and I wailed loudly, as if I survived a catastrophe and survived the catastrophe... Crawling out of the ground, I was paralyzed for at least half an hour before I regained my strength.I found myself becoming demented, confused, and paranoid about time and whereabouts.Jiao Kun said to me with a tense face: What a day and a night!Let me tell you, it's only been six hours, I'm afraid you won't be able to take it... Back then, Liu Heizi was so wild, he committed suicide on the third day, biting off the artery in his wrist! 6 After various twists and turns, I finally met Qin Dali who had lived in seclusion for many years in a small border town in the Golden Triangle. The bamboo door creaked, and a man looked out with his head looking a little allergic.When he let me into the room, he still looked back anxiously for a while, then carefully closed the door, turned around, and then stood in front of me this former Kunming old educated youth named Qin Dali. According to my first impression, there are many uneven gray hairs growing on his head, as if a lot of unclean paper cigarette ashes have fallen, which is a signpost left by time for a generation.Of course, he has every reason to be younger, such as dyeing his hair or something. I know his actual age should not exceed fifty, but he looks more like a run-down peddler.The bamboo house he called his home was quite simple, with an iron roof and bamboo walls cracked everywhere. It was obvious at a glance that he belonged to the category of poverty.Because the house was built by the river, it was the rainy season when the water swelled, and I heard the river rushing behind the house.Mrs. Qin is from Thailand, and according to the local custom, she greets guests with palms together, and after making a pot of tea, she never shows up again. I couldn't wait to ask him: "Have you been living here since you escaped from the hunt in Chiang Mai?" He said flatly: "It's just hiding everywhere." I said, "It is rumored that you escaped with black money from the Qinglong gang. Is there such a thing?" He smiled wryly and said, "Do you think I look like a money launderer?" I agree with his statement.I said, "What do you think about the Qinglong Gang now?" He replied: "Unity is strength. Who do educated youth rely on if they don't rely on themselves?" I said, "So you think choosing violence is a necessity?" He replied, "It doesn't matter." I said, "Now there are 300 million drug addicts in the world, and there are more and more drug victims in China. It doesn't matter if you are involved in drug trafficking or the underworld? Do you regret it?" Qin Dali did not answer.I saw him leaning down, carefully picking out a large puff from the cigarette box, stuffing it on the end of a rough Burmese cigar, and then smoking it intently, and the room was soon filled with the unique flavor of opium. Sweet smoke.His facial expression became very satisfied and relaxed. It was not until he finished smoking the cigar that the former Kunming educated youth looked at the crack on the wall and replied: "Actually, I realized later that it doesn't matter whether a person has knowledge or not. Save souls." I said, "Then Zeng Yan, she became the first and only writer in the Golden Triangle, what do you think?" He closed his eyes and did not answer.I said again: "There is also Jiao Kun. He writes poems, teaches, and earns his own living. It shows that knowledge is still useful, right?" He opened his eyes, and that strange expression startled me.He simply smiled grimly and said, "Do you think Jiao Kun is an angel? Wrong, we are all going to hell, we are all the same. Let me tell you, Liu Heizi pulled the team down the mountain. In order to draw a clear line and protect himself, he betrayed the educated youth." , informed the headquarters...he killed those educated youths." I was stunned and stunned!Jiao Kun, is this the timid, upright and kind-hearted old educated youth Jiao Kun I know?Why did he betray the educated youth?Before Liu Heizi died, he went to visit and comfort him!But on second thought, what if he didn't do this?Maybe he won't live until now, and he has been thrown down the earth hole long ago. Isn't this also a kind of survival competition?I changed the subject to a lighter one and said, "It's been 30 years since you came out, Kunming has changed a lot, and the World Expo will be held next year, do you want to go back and have a look?" Qin Dali shook his head.I asked him, "You have no relatives?" He didn't speak, his expression was indifferent.I followed his gaze and saw an old yellowed family photo hanging in the bedroom. It was a photo of two Chinese boys wearing Red Guard armbands with their parents.Qin Dali smiled hurriedly and said: "Thirty years, no news, I don't know if he is still there? I think he is gone." I said: "At least my brother is still alive, I can try to find him and deliver the message for you." He categorically declined my kindness, and firmly spit out a negative word: "No!" Of course, I cannot force others to accept my opinion, even if it is well-intentioned.Later, I said goodbye and went out. The friend who contacted me told me that Qin Dali is still a refugee without nationality. He is neither a Chinese citizen (a formal nationality certificate is required), nor a Thai Burmese, so he can only be regarded as a Golden Triangle. People, living in the blank area between the borders, and are always frightened by the Chiang Mai gang fire more than 20 years ago. I suddenly felt very sad, like losing something important.Perhaps these old educated youths who sneak across the border are destined to wander forever, never to return, their fate is like a meteor in the sky.The Chinese often say: there are green hills everywhere in life.But where are the green mountains of Qin Dali and Jiao Kun?