Chapter 27 Chapter 27 Thousands of Rivers and Mountains

Suman's "Memory" seems to be very suitable for Sanmao at this time.A woman who lost her beloved and returned with scars and dust all over her body.Those who have changed their hearts once, and those who have agreed to stay together for the rest of their lives, are just passing by.We have tasted ups and downs together, and we have endured ups and downs, honors and disgraces, but we didn’t say how much we cherish, and just left life like that, leaving a place of sadness for the living. How come, come to today's situation.Is it a coincidence or a fabrication that a story like a drama happens repeatedly to one person?It is precisely because of these stories of parting and reunion, these erratic fates, that Sanmao has become a legendary figure.In fact, she is just a lonely woman who depends on each other. One day, she fell in love with wandering, and since then she made the fake come true.Originally, there were people who could accompany them, but in the end, they all fled to the end of the world.

Many years later, a rumor related to Jose was circulating in Taiwan's cultural circles.Some people said that Jose did not die, but divorced because of a quarrel with Sanmao; some even said that there was no such person as Jose in this world.Sanmao has never had such a foreign husband, everything is her fiction. Rumors are like the wind, and the wind passes without a trace.But Sanmao was very troubled by this matter and was in a trance.I never thought that this man who had known her for thirteen years and slept with her for seven years, this man who had walked with her through the Sahara Desert and shared joys and sorrows with him, this man who had loved her so deeply for her life and could not rest in peace until his death, was inexplicably said to be Instead of imaginary characters, it becomes a woven plot.

I naturally believe that an unadorned and natural woman like Sanmao doesn't bother to arrange stories for herself.She is a legend in her own right, so there is no need to make up legends.Until that day, she chose to be with us and be silent forever after going through all kinds of tribulations. Sanmao, who returned to Taiwan with her parents, is still immersed in the haze of Jose's death.When she couldn't hold on anymore, she thought of death.Despite the tearful persuasion of her parents, the idea of ​​suicide has been lingering in her mind.Qiong Yao, a well-known female writer in Taiwan, regarded Sanmao as a good friend. In order to persuade her to give up the idea of ​​committing suicide, she had a long talk with her for seven hours.You must hear her affirmative promise before you give up.

After many people's painstaking persuasion, Sanmao finally agreed temporarily.But during that time, Sanmao was addicted to the superstition of psychics.Together with Wenyou, she once invited Die Xian to come, and communicated with the dead Jose in front of everyone, which was very comforting.After that, he used the pen fairy to contact Hexi in the dark world by writing automatically with paper and pen.Jose's dead soul even asked them to call Sanmao and tell her not to be sad when playing Dixian through unfamiliar Taiwanese. Regardless of whether there are gods and ghosts in this world, as long as it can bring some comfort to the living, it doesn't matter whether it is true or false.If dead people really have souls, then Jose must be able to see everything in the world clearly.And he also hopes that his beloved wife can live bravely, fulfill his unfulfilled long-cherished wish, and end the unfinished mortal relationship.

A few months later, Sanmao traveled thousands of miles and returned to La Palma Island.Although this is an island where the witch wind is flourishing, she must come back. She promised Jose that she would come back to accompany him.She cannot stay alone in Taiwan to enjoy flowers and applause after her husband's death.She knew that if she didn't come, he wouldn't be able to sleep peacefully. After getting off the plane, Sanmao went to the town to buy flowers and went straight to the cemetery.This is a reunion after a farewell. Sanmao looks at Hexi's tomb with the pain of thousands of arrows piercing his heart.Under the loess, her dearest and dearest person is buried, but he will never be able to hold her hand again, and he will never be able to wipe the tears from the corners of her eyes.

"Come on, let me hug you again. Even if you are dead, you are still the loved one in the dream of spring girl! This time is only ours, and no one can be by your side. Jose, don't worry, today, Tomorrow, the day after tomorrow, I will sit by your side until it is dark, and I will sleep with you." Yes, in order to be with her dead husband and to keep José's soul from being lonely, Sanmao chose to live in seclusion on the Canary Island and spent a year quietly.Although Sanmao has long been used to being alone, how can her life as a widow compare to the ease and ease of being single in the past.At that time, she was wandering alone, and Tianya was her home.I am used to looking at the vast scenery, and I have penetrated everything in the world, but I can't escape the love.

In the Canary Islands, there is a house facing the sea with flowers blooming in spring.On this island, they left too many beautiful and sad pasts.She used to look forward to staying on this island with Jose, guarding this romantic house, for the rest of her life.But now Sanmao can only rely on those erratic memories to live, and she fantasizes that she communicates with Jose's soul. How many times, I woke up laughing from my dream, and fell asleep crying in reality.Sometimes she even felt that she was dead, lying in the cold soil with He Xi, never to be separated again.But Jose wasn't sleeping beside her, she clearly couldn't hold his hand, couldn't hear his whisper.

Every time she stood on the beautiful Canary Beach and looked at the La Palma Island on the other side, Sanmao felt so painful that she couldn't breathe.On that island, there was his long-sleeping husband, sleeping peacefully in his tomb.She had to wait for him with such a distance, such a gesture, neither far nor near.To be a grave keeper, when the paint on the cross dries, she will repaint it again and again. "Jose Marian Gro. Rest in peace. Your wife remembers you." Just like that, stroke after stroke.She was just doing what a wife should do, which is to take care of her dead husband.Then, take out the harmonica and gently blow a favorite song "Sweet Family".

Her heart was still filled with ice and snow, but she hoped that this kind of cuddling could erase a little bit of sadness, just a little bit.Sanmao always felt that Jose's soul was no longer under the loess, and his soul was always with her. "Joseph, let me lean by your side. No more tears, no more crying, I just want to lean on you, just like the past years and months." "Are we together with Hexi forever or separated forever? I am still confused, or I burst into tears when I ask. I am the first one who has not figured out the truth and falsehood of these two words, and messed with others again." Say what?"

Sanmao, who lived in seclusion for a year, seemed to have an epiphany at a certain moment.She felt that as long as two people have the same heart, they can stay together even if they are separated forever.A year ago, she came to Canary Island, determined to die here, to be with Jose forever, and never return to the world of mortals.A year later, Sanmao ended her widowhood, and she wanted to pack up and go back to Taiwan with Jose's soul. After fourteen years of wandering, she was really tired.In 1981, at the age of 38, San Mao returned to Taiwan to settle down.Losing Jose, her heart felt ashamed.But the care and love of her parents made her never dare to let her down again.If she owed the desert to the desert in her previous life, she has already paid it off in this life.If it is said that she owes He Xi a relationship, then after marrying him, she has also spent seven years together as a fairy couple.And the kindness of her parents is the debt of love that she can never repay in her whole life.

The bustling city and the secluded island are two completely different worlds.Sanmao, who returned to Taiwan, was too busy to have extra time to grieve.As a best-selling author in Taiwan, she is enthusiastically pursued by many boys and girls every day.After many years of ordinary life, now suddenly standing under the radiance, Sanmao feels that the fame is tiring. The only place where you can hide quietly is at home.After wandering for so many years, there is only a home that will take her in forever.Her parents are her eternal nostalgia.At home, she can close herself and write quietly.After all, she did not get out of the shadow of Jose's death, but her works sank into her inner world more and more.Time has given her a deep wound, and also given her too many stories of cold and warm. In November 1981, Sanmao traveled to Central and South America for half a year under the sponsorship of "United Daily News".She traveled to more than ten countries including Mexico, Honduras, Costa Rica, Panama, Colombia, Ecuador, Peru, Bolivia, Chile, Argentina, Uruguay, and Brazil.Along the way, Sanmao used her pen to record the customs and places of interest in various countries.These texts were later included in collections. Sanmao is indeed an admirable woman and an admirable writer.After enduring life and death, Sanmao, with his frail body and deep emotional wounds, was able to travel far away to various countries without fear of hardship.Using what she has seen and heard, using her feelings and words, she will describe to us the magical encounter beyond thousands of rivers and mountains. After reading Sanmao's travel notes, let us believe that scenery can also heal wounds.With a broad vision and profound experience, San Mao, who was riddled with holes, gradually returned to his original appearance.The name Sanmao has spread throughout the Chinese-speaking world, as if everyone is talking about her story, looking forward to a glimpse of this legendary writer. It's just that this lonely woman who once insisted on staying away from the crowd and being different from the world is really willing to get involved in the world of mortals?Sanmao, who loves the vastness deeply, and has traveled through thousands of mountains and rivers, can she show her simplicity, freedom and ease in the crowded crowd, and be tolerated and cherished by all beings? Life is a hasty passerby, leaving before everything is tasted.On the journey from spring to autumn, how, how can I still meet the you from yesterday.