Chapter 30 Difficult Enlightenment - Self-Entertainment

Under the high pressure of the Fa, when the overall situation is set and the future is clear, what else can people do?The barrister, the businessman Bullock, and the mysterious prison priest who appeared at the end, they are all doing the same thing - a self-entertaining game.This kind of play is their way of spiritual survival.In order to play without worries, the businessman Bullock abandoned his property and status, and became a poor vassal of the law; the barrister went all out to take over K's case in spite of his advanced age and serious heart disease; , how he relished that analysis in the dark.All three of them have a strong interest in what they do and say. The analysis of inner confusion, the effort to stand still, and the alternation of hope and disappointment are exactly what their spiritual life needs. .

The barrister's long-winded advice to K may seem like rhetoric on the surface, but in fact what he said was all the truth, based on his many years of professional experience.His words are contradictory, and the results of his inferences cancel each other out; he is not so much exhorting as he is talking for his own sake, and the impetus for talking is his fascination with the process itself, or his need to borrow K's case Come and do some psychotherapy for yourself.He was old, and the burden in his heart made him spend most of his time lying in bed thinking. K's case made him find a spiritual outlet again, and made his talent and reasoning ability be brought into play once again.All he can do in his life is these reasonings.The momentary gratification of the reasoning was followed by a darker, nihilistic oppression that drove him back to bed to rest his feeble heart.It would be unfair to say that he took over K's case solely for himself, but he also did it for K. His and K's interests are the same, and the difficulties they face are also the same, so they need to work together.In this respect K really didn't understand him at all, and he couldn't understand what he said; K was not very interested in spiritual things, only interested in the illusory interests in the world.Relatively speaking, the lawyer almost bears the entire burden of the case, and K cannot feel the real situation due to ignorance.

Merchant Bullock is mainly a self-entertaining game with action.Not only did he often stay at the barrister's home waiting for his interview, but he also hired five amateur lawyers at his own expense to run among these people to meet his needs.It can be said that he lives for his own case, is always looking for news about the progress of the case, and is eager to discuss and analyze with others in order to take the next step. Of course, the so-called next step is nothing more than further inquiry and discussion.Like K, he never thought of getting out of his own lawsuit. On the contrary, he was obsessed with it, entangled in it all the time, frightened but also very happy.When K asked him what was the use of having five lawyers, he replied that it would be of his own use.By usefulness he meant that the lawyer would give him hope of winning the case.But he is not in a hurry to win the lawsuit, it seems that he doesn't care much about the short-term effect, he cares about other things.So it can only be seen as his special interest and need that he hired so many lawyers.He needs to have a relationship with the law all the time, and he needs to discuss his case with people who have a relationship with the law.His deformed way of life has become his lifelong pursuit.

The prison priest who appeared at the end seemed to be the one who gave K the answer. The strange thing is that the answer he said was not an answer at all, but a negation of any definite answer.He held K's hand in the dark, led him to the peak of contradictions, and taught K by precepts and deeds, allowing him to experience the foundation of this world with him.Facing K, the old philosopher was very excited, and his thinking was as active as warm water. K was infected and understood everything, but he couldn't be detached like the priest, just because the two had different standpoints.The priest's interest lies in revealing the root of the world, and K's anxiety is worldly anxiety.Under the candlelight in the dark, in the solemn and terrifying atmosphere of the church, the human spirit stretched out its tentacles, and the two poles finally connected.