Chapter 22 Difficult Enlightenment - Limitations of Mind

Driven by curiosity, K followed the footman to visit the court office.In the dark and simple upstairs, all traces of life disappeared, everything K saw depressed him, disgusted him to death, and finally he had a dizzy physical reaction, almost fainted, weak I can no longer take care of myself.The biggest characteristic of the interior of the office is that there is no fresh air to breathe (the first element for sustaining life). This is a truly closed place. Inside this simulated legal institution, there is no place for any faint hope. The defendants were all paralyzed, desperate, and he sat around waiting for a chance to appeal, or just to get a little information. What the officials said was like a siren, and he couldn't understand a word.And K, "it was like being in a ship tossed by the waves, the rolling waves crashed against the walls on both sides, there seemed to be a sound of roaring sea water in the depths of the passage, and the passage itself seemed to turn over..." He was dazed and dying .It wasn't until someone helped him to the gate and the fresh wind outside rushed towards him that he regained his paralyzed body.

K's experience this time was an attempt to enter the Fa.Although this office is located in the human world, although the law itself is still unclear (the law only exists vaguely in people's minds), we can still understand a lot from the model of the place where the law was produced. K got the kind of experience he had never had before in this institution-he experienced the limitation of human thinking, and the pain of suffocation that accompanied this limitation.Here is a place where all language is reduced to shrill noise, and the outlines of all defendants are dissolved into pools of mud, and only the ghostly, haughty figure of the lawman scurries down the corridor.A living person is absolutely unable to stay in such a place for a long time.The Inquisition Officer was like Hades in a fashionable underworld, and people dressed him up and chipped in to buy fashionable clothes and outfits for him to wear, so that the defendants would have a good impression of him when they first entered the court office. A good impression, but his creepy laugh gave it away.To us, his malicious laugh is the equivalent of Hades (or God's) humor.When he laughed, K became an inanimate object at their mercy; or rather, his laughter made K's existence impossible.Although K seemed to be in a dream and couldn't understand everything around him, the feeling was so clear.He saw the official and the girl supporting him calm in the waves, with keen eyes, felt their even steps, and heard their incomprehensible discussions about himself.Thoughts have stopped, the body can't move, only the feeling is still working.This is the law.The Dhamma befalls him at this moment, but he suffers because he cannot think, cannot understand.It turns out that Dharma is where the end of thinking is—the thing that dominates him forever, which is inaccessible, inescapable, and incomprehensible, silent and invisible, but omnipresent.

This experience brewed a drastic change in K's body, and all the old supports became suspicious.He is still thinking, but the thinking is hitting the wall of the law more and more feebly, and his path gradually converges into a narrow straight line. I don't know if he still remembers what the servant told him in the court office when he was dying. As the saying goes, "There is only one way here." Everything that has been experienced within the organization has been verified later.