Chapter 8 Chapter 7 Yiqiu

Her father gave birth to her in a "zoo".Her amazing adaptability makes her physically developed in the "cage", experiencing the pleasure of hunting and being captured.She was at the railing, propping her hip with one hand and covering her mouth with the other.She drowned her voice in her own body. She has no past. When I was fourteen, I finally found a partner among my classmates who was willing to talk to me.We got to know each other because of the vacation study group assigned by Mr. T. My only team member, Yi Qiu, suffered from polio when she was a child. One leg was long and plump, while the other leg was as thin as a broom handle and was a little short. He was limping, flapping loudly, his fat buttocks twisting and turning, moving like a gorilla with nimble legs and flexible feet.Her figure was extraordinarily tall and strong, and every time she appeared, the rumbling and dancing movements always flashed in the corridor in front of the door before her body, announcing her arrival.

Yi Qiu was three years older than me. When she was seven years old, she did not go to elementary school like most school-age children. Instead, she was taken by her uncle to a small town in the north to have her legs healed.It is said that there is a folk doctor there, who continuously embeds a solid drug into the patient's stump, and the drug will spread in the patient's withered and atrophied muscles, stimulating all the dead nerves to come back to life.Then the residual glue can restore the vitality of ordinary people.However, Yi Qiu had been treated for two years, and his lame leg showed no sign of revival. Finally, his uncle could no longer afford the medical expenses for continued treatment, so he resigned and went home.

Although Yi Qiu is only three years older than me, she is already a mature girl in the "sexual development stage". Her breasts are thick and open, and her two breasts are heavy. She trembles when she walks. Yes, the bulging breasts stood under the thin Dacron sweater, desperately supporting it, making people around them very worried that the jacket would be torn by her laughing or breathing hard at any time.In short, she couldn't cover up that part of her even if she wanted to. But it just so happened that Yi Qiu didn't want to cover up her thick breasts, which I could tell from her posture, she was very proud of her sensuality.I can even catch some indescribable feeling that she is actually planning to use the sexual aura emanating from her body to lure someone into some secret and vague deeds.Her hips were stretched wide, and her hips were thrust up exaggeratedly.

Although Yi Qiu's speech is a bit clumsy and her figure is bloated and clumsy, she has a handsome face, a pair of the most docile big antelope eyes, and thick and long black eyebrows.A faint blush leaked from the milky white skin, and the big greedy mouth was inlaid on the oval-shaped beautiful cheeks, as if it could swallow all the clean or dirty things in the world, all the pain and ugliness.Her strong teeth can crush the sweetest songs, and can chew the cruelest tragedies. In short.I think.All Yi Qiu's intelligence is concentrated on her face, which is filled with a kind of stupid excitement and an awkward spirituality contradictoryly.And all of Yi Qiu's intelligence is expressed in her stupidity.

I rode a bicycle like driving a big bird, alternately walking on the path between the trees and the bare promenade with gray walls.I don't worry about my driving too fast at all, because I know that I am driving in a dream, not on the real morning road.The beech trees on the boulevard kept me cool and comfortable, and I found that the road looked familiar to me, the road was long and thin, and all sloped to the right.For a moment, I couldn't figure out where the familiar feeling came from. So, I continued to walk forward and entered the bare corridor. The walls on both sides rose from the ground, and the momentum was steep. There was no one in the long and narrow corridor, but there were many dark red eyes shooting from the gaps in the walls, as if It was the countless vigilant eyes embedded in the wall that terrified me.I vaguely feel that this corridor is also very familiar, a bit like the long and narrow corridor that must be passed from Mr. T's office to the school gate in my school, but it is not.I was in a daze, and also couldn't figure out where the familiarity here came from.

I tried my best to think about what was going on, and finally remembered that I had been riding a bicycle in my dream all along.I think, when I reach the next intersection, enter the next tree-lined path and the next bare promenade, I will really walk on the real road, so that in only seventeen minutes, I will be able to reach Yiqiu’s Home, let's start our study group homework... Just then, the alarm clock rang. I opened my eyes and woke up.Get up quickly, pack up, and eat some breakfast in a hurry.He ran to Yiqiu's house. I don't really know how to ride a bike, I've always had a lack of balance with modern, mechanical things.

When I walked into Yi Qiu's courtyard, I was a little surprised.Because this yard is very different from my yard. There is only one old house in the open yard. The wooden doors and window edges of the old house are all damaged. The wall was corroded by rain, mildew and damp, and a layer of rust green was floating on it.This place really doesn't look like an inhabited yard, it's more like an abandoned warehouse and open space that no one cares about. From the clothesline, I saw a familiar faded pink dress. It was Yi Qiu's clothes, and it was shaking listlessly in the shade.From this I judged that this was her home without a doubt.

I walked along the dark gray stone bricks in the yard, brushed sideways a few sunflowers that had been withered by the scorching sun, and approached the old house. I stood outside and shouted: "Yi Qiu! Yi Qiu!" There was a crack in the old house, and Yi Qiu poked his head out of a wooden door that didn't look like a door.She happily agreed and beckoned me into the house. Yi Qiu is combing his hair in front of the mirror.When I entered the room, I saw her standing upright with her bare feet on the pitted concrete floor, her body turned upwards, wearing a very tacky short skirt with lace on the hem, and the neckline of her jacket was very low. .She was braiding her long hair into a thick braid and coiling it behind her head.Her sensual arms were raised high in front of the mirror, shaking constantly, so that I couldn't see her face clearly in the mirror.I saw from behind that such an ancient hairstyle in the past years was rebuilt by her with a refreshing charm after being twisted and twisted, which is very strange.

I looked around this empty old house, and noticed that there was a suite inside. The door of the house was ajar. From the crack of the door, I could see that it was dark inside, as if there were no windows, but I could vaguely see the inside Some white bedding or clothes were piled up on a camp bed. The furnishings in the outhouse are very dilapidated. There are two identical old-fashioned large cabinets that are almost as high as the ceiling. Cats or puppies, the marks of biting and scratching by them when they grind their teeth and practice claws.The brass rings on the handles of the wooden cabinets were rusty and mottled.

On the plastered floor, which was cleaned fairly cleanly, wooden chairs, rice buckets, flower stands, and a few pieces of dirty clothes were placed in a messy pile on the left and right.The walls are bare, without any decorations, and a few damp mildew spots bloom on the yellowed walls like green flowers. In the corner behind me, I was amazed to see half a wall of damaged books. The corner was covered with dust, and the dust covered them tightly like a blanket.It can be seen from this that the old owner of this house was once a person who liked books.However, I already knew that Yi Qiu grew up with her uncle, and she has long since lost her parents.

She is the only one in Yi Qiu's family. For a moment I didn't know where to sit, so I went to look at Yi Qiu combing his hair in front of the mirror.I looked obliquely over her right shoulder, and I could see Yi Qiu reflected in the mirror from the side. Her figure was like a piece of milky white light, and her two arms seemed to be running.Although I couldn't see her big eyes that could shoot out flames, I could feel that the image in the mirror was in full bloom. Then, I pulled the only wooden chair with peeling paint but it was extraordinarily strong to the table, sat down, spread out my homework book, and began to write carelessly.After a while, Yi Qiu finished tidying up, and staggered over, limping over, exuding a mint-cool prickly heat powder smell.She sat on the bed opposite me, sat across the table from me, and spread her homework on the table. usually.In the class, Yi Qiu and I hardly spoke.Because she is two years older than the classmates in the class and is crippled, everyone always laughs at her, and even imitates her strange way of limping when walking.However, she was never angry. When others made fun of her, she was not only not angry, but also acted happier than others, laughing endlessly. At this time, Yi Qiu opened the homework book, but she didn't do her homework, but stared at me. After watching for a while, she said, "Ni Aoao, why do you always keep quiet?" I looked up and smiled shyly. I said, I can't say well. Yi Qiu said, "If one leg is broken, you are a cripple, but if both legs are broken, you become a fairy and can fly." I couldn't quite understand what she was going to say, so I didn't make a sound. "There is a kind of hunger like time, long, it helps to think." She said. I continued to say nothing, and she continued to talk to herself, "For cows, we can't speak the language of dogs." When I was in the class, I knew that Yi Qiu would often laugh inappropriately, even though there was nothing worth laughing about.Moreover, he often said some inexplicable weird words. Everyone paid little attention to her because she was lame and because she was older than everyone, and no one took her weird words seriously.And I seem to be outside the group all the time, so naturally I don't know what she is talking about. At this moment, I heard Yi Qiu continue talking to himself: "One bird is music, ten birds are noise." She talked for a long time in person.If I didn't get my response, I felt bored, so I stopped and started her homework. There was a moment of silence in the room, only the slight sound of the pen hissing and scratching on the paper. After a while, Yi Qiu still couldn't bear the loneliness, so he said again, "Ni Aoao, in fact, you are quite good like this. Talking is a messy leaf, but not talking is a solid tree. There are too many leaves. , is not conducive to the growth of trees." I think what Yi Qiu said is really interesting.She was so eager to talk, why didn't I know that before? I looked up from my homework, smiled at her, and said, "I love hearing you talk." Yi Qiu laughed happily, her breasts trembled with her breath. Then, she lowered her voice and whispered, "Hey, do you know why Teacher T put the two of us in the same study group?" I thought about it and said, "I don't know." Yi Qiu said, "Because we both have something in common." I was surprised, "We? What have we in common?'' I couldn't think of anything Yi Qiu and I could have in common, and said, "The only difference between us is age, I am one year younger than them, You are two years older than them. " She sighed. "Neither of us was accepted by everyone. We were not among them at all. We stood outside them like two strangers, unnoticed." This time, I objected, "That's different," I said. "My situation is that I don't like them." The implication is that it's not that people don't like me. My self-esteem writhed. Yi Qiu said, "If you don't like someone, it means they don't like you. It's the same." "I don't think so." Although I said so on my lips, my heart was already shaken. I ran her words back and forth several times in my head. In the end, I felt that what she said was indeed reasonable, so I stopped talking. At this time, I suddenly felt that Yi Qiu looked sensual and heartless on the outside, but in fact she was smarter than me. Many years later, when I recalled a certain common situation that Yi Qiu and I faced at that time, I was able to realize that we are still fundamentally different in essence. Out of survival instinct, Yi Qiu understands that no matter what reason a person cuts off the relationship with outside groups, he is hurting himself and will be in danger of isolating himself in terms of survival.If the individual is completely cut off from the outside world, then the individual's existence will be in crisis, and it will wither and wither.She knows that she must strive to establish some kind of interdependence with the collective, so that her own existence can depend on a large and healthy order.She really worked hard for it.However, due to her personal physical disability, she was ostracized by this overly normal and healthy collective.Therefore, Yi Qiu's isolation from the collective is a passive and negative isolation. And my isolation from everyone is an active and active isolation.Out of fear of the outside world, or in other words, a kind of psychological disability, I have always refused to take the risk of making an exploratory gesture to the outside world, so that I have the opportunity to have real contact with the partners in this group.This fear is still present today.I am obstinately unwilling to admit the fact that if you restrain or give up your personalization and completely open the door to the generalization of your life to the outside world, this is tantamount to opening the door of convenience for your own existence; His own death opened the door. During this day's study, we didn't do homework together. Yi Qiu showed me the photos of her parents. Those black and white old-fashioned photos had lost corners and turned yellow.Yi Qiu told me a lot about her life experience.Of course, Yi Qiu heard about these life experiences from her uncle. Yi Qiu's father used to be the principal of a primary school. He was a tall, well-mannered and nice man.Usually, he appears cautious, cowardly, thoughtful and humble in dealing with others in school, but in fact he is easily disturbed by the outside world, depressed and nervous, and as timid as a mouse.Her mother used to be an actress in a repertory troupe. She is pungent, cheerful, charming and sexy. Although she has not read many books and lacks good education, she always reveals a superficial and bold enthusiasm and desire for men. Full of fantasy and impulsiveness, she used to be a "star" with a high "ratings" in the eyes of male citizens in the region, and was vying for it among men.After eight years of courtship, Yi Qiu's father finally won her mother's favor with knowledge and responsibility.They were married in early 1964.The next year, she gave birth to little Yiqiu who inherited her mother's beauty and father's obedience. But the times are bad, and the good times don't last long. In 1968, when little Yiqiu was three years old, her anxious father could no longer bear the fighting and fighting of the political movement that was happening in China at that time.One night, he was ordered to sleep with two dead people, one was a female teacher who had just been beaten to death by the Red Guards, and the other was the academic director who "jumped herself out of guilt".He was asked to lie between the two corpses and keep touching them so that he could "clear his mind" to explain the problem the next day.After a whole night of torture, his cowardly nerves finally broke down.At dawn the next day, while the guard was drowsy and asleep, he escaped from the cowshed.back home.Just before the sun came up on this cold January morning.His depressed and cowardly nature suddenly got out of control and broke out into mania, causing the tragedy of the whole family to die together. When little Yiqiu was fished out of the river by passers-by, he was already dying, with several wounds stabbed by scissors on his body.It can be imagined that her father first came to the river with little Yiqiu in his arms, carrying scissors with him.When little Yiqiu saw his father's fierce face, he couldn't stop begging, "Dad, I'm obedient. Dad, I won't make trouble." After he gave his little daughter a few knives, he still heard her begging weakly. He said, "Dad, I'm obedient." He couldn't do anything anymore and threw her into the river. The bodies of Yi Qiu's parents were found together in a sloping bare forest in the outskirts, and they were hung on two adjacent trees. One summer a few years ago, Yi Qiu's father and his colleagues in the unit came here for summer vacation. At that time, the front and back of this forest.The peach grove is full of large and large pink flowers, it is really a paradise, a place full of romantic atmosphere like props and scenes in a gray city.In the middle of the peach forest surrounded by this piece is a small white birch forest that is completely inclined at a 45-degree angle.It can be imagined that this slanting birch forest left a deep impression on Yi Qiu's father. The woman who found the scene was a woman who got up early in the morning to exercise. According to her, she was doing waist twisting exercises in another nearby forest. The terrain on that side was higher than the sloping forest on Yi Qiu's parents' side. .First, she vaguely saw a man standing in front of a bare tree, his hat was pulled down so low that it almost covered his entire face.She thought it was strange, what was she doing standing there by herself in such a cold day?Then she saw another tree next to it.There was also a woman who looked like a woman, with her hair hanging down. She thought, this must be a pair of men and women who are secretly in love and cannot openly talk about their relationship.She tossed her waist.While absent-mindedly glanced at the man and woman in the distance.initial.She saw them motionless, just a little strange, but after this frozen posture lasted for about twenty minutes, she suddenly felt that something was wrong, lovers would not talk like this when they were together.So, she stopped.Looking towards them, she saw that the feet of these two people were not standing on the ground, but suspended in the air more than a foot above the ground.She let out a scream in shock... When I heard Yi Qiu tell about her life experience, I tried my best to suppress my fear and sadness.We made an appointment to see you the next day. Before leaving, Yi Qiu lay on my ear and told me quietly that she had a "boyfriend" now, and asked me not to tell others.From her expression, I can vaguely imagine the mystery in it. For Yi Qiu who has extraordinary experience, I am full of a little girl's envy for a big girl.